I had a tender conscience before. Then I started to live carelessly - living for what I liked before - videogames, (i was a gamer before gaining a conscience. After I gained a conscience, I stopped gaming). All of a sudden I want back to Jesus. But there's a problem, my conscience is no longer intact, at least most of it is gone. I don't feel much anymore. But at least, I made the decision to seek the Lord everyday, despite my seared conscience, hoping that my conscience be restored. It has been less than a week that I repented. I will continue to place my faith on Jesus. I have been so very careless, so foolish. I've traded a precious precious conscience for garbage of this world, just because others my age in church plays game and live recklessly too
I feel this so much from the struggles of sexual sins, like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel to overcome them but I have to remind myself of Christ’s forgiveness and His Gospel every moment that I can.
"For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast." Ephesians 2:8-9 "for, 'Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.'" Romans 10:13
Yes the same for me sister. A constant struggle with sexual temptation and sin. I will do better for a while, then fall again. Keeping our eyes on Jesus, praying and worshiping is the way. In fact, when we pray, it is almost impossible to be also sinning. I will pray for you and please do for me. Jim
I'm hoping that a year ago that things have changed, and that you known have a testimony to those who are in the same situation, as for me I took away the things that surrounding me that lead up to the sexual sin, first people or specific person, what I was watching (movies with strong sexual content,porn, or places where I was going to cause the temptation, last but least strong drink which doesn't help situation at all, this was all done by the grace of God. I'll leave you with this precept.Matthew 5:29
The majority of this episode was spot on and SO VERY ENCOURAGING, but ironically and sadly, Piper's warning almost undoes the hope that he labored to give. Biblically, there is a HUGE problem with Piper's interpretation of Hebrews 12:16-17, that Esau had gotten to a point where he couldn't repent (as if he could've before), even though he sought repentance with bitter tears. Firstly, what Esau was weeping about was not repentance. He didn't even say that he had done wrong by despising the birthright and its blessings and responsibilities in preference to what he was offered by Jacob, but rather when he realized that Jacob had deceived Isaac he blamed Jacob for "stealing" the blessing when really he had sold it earlier and then tried to come to Isaac later and steal what he had already sold to Jacob because Isaac didn't know about this. Esau DID NOT take responsibility for his actions nor did he say that he was sorry for his sin and plead for forgiveness because he didn't see any wrong that he had done. What Esau was weeping in bitter tears for was not repentance but that Isaac would bless him anyway after he had forfeited what was never to be his to begin with to Jacob. Secondly, the idea that one could possibly seek repentance with bitter tears but not attain it directly contradicts the fact that God will not reject a broken spirit and contrite heart, which you would have to have if truly seeking repentance because the realization and brokenness for sin that results in a turn from it is not a free-will choice but the result of the Holy Spirit's work in someone to lead them to Christ, which biblically CANNOT fail because only the elect and those who Christ purchased can receive new birth and those drawn to Jesus were always his and will not be turned away. Repentance is a complex, miraculous work of God that is impossible without him, and when it has been initiated it will not end in doom as it did with Esau who by the way was hated and rejected before he was born as are all who are reprobate. There is no 'half-way repentance,' or wanting repentance but not receiving it because all of repentance is a gift of God. Finally, what would be one's sure way of knowing whether they are the redeemable shipwrecked faith person or the unpardonable shipwrecked faith person if both could seek repentance and one be accepted but not another? Paul explains in 2 Corinthians the difference between worldly sorrow and godly sorrow which can be indicated by certain heart attitudes and fruit, but I'm not sure of anywhere in the Bible where it is indicated that there are two kinds of people who want to repent and who have almost the same reactions to their sin and seek God but God chooses one person's attempt at repentance rather than another's, (and remember repentance is more than being sorry for your sin and wanting to be rescued from its consequences as was the case many times in the Old Testament with the Israelites.) The encouragement then should not be watch out lest you sin to the point of no return even if you desire repentance, which biblically CANNOT happen. The encouragement should be to examine yourself to see if you truly understand the vileness of your sin and are longing for God to deliver you from it and then trusting in and desiring Jesus, even while in sin, enough to plead sincerely and make efforts to come back to God. If you can do this, which Esau, King Saul, and Judas did not do, then it indicates that your shipwreck of faith is not final but is meant by God to refine you and further sanctify you.
@@HearGodsWord I own it, and it's great! With it I got 'When I Don't Desire God,' and it is also a really good read. It's a bit of a downer that apparently according to the message of 'When I I Don't Desire God,' Christians must put in a lot more work than is typical if they want to experience the joy of God's manifest presence because unlike with other things, happiness when it comes to God must be fought for. Nonetheless, I'm confident that it's worthwhile. If only Piper would've thought to write about some times where he experienced God's presence, what he was doing up till the time, and what it's like till the best of his description. Several preachers talk about being in God's presence but they don't mention their personal experiences that much nor give a sort of prescription for having those kinds of experiences. Other than that, both books are masterpieces which I'd reccomend.
Thank you for this. I have struggled very often with Hebrews 12:17, Hebrews 10:26, and Hebrews 6:4-6. But I have to remember verses like John 6:37, Matthew 11:28, and Many others. I do not understand why these verses are in Hebrews and I do not understand their meaning, but I Have to have faith that Christ will not cast anyone out that comes to him. And he will not break the bruised reed or quench the smoking flax. Thank you for this incredible encouragement.
@@micahcrider2108 I have heard that the congregation addressed in Hebrews were suffering persecution for insisting that Jesus was the Messiah and that faith in him rather than fulfillment of the Mosaic law was the way of salvation, so they began to question whether it was worth it to continue to trust in Christ alone rather than returning to the corruption of Judaism in their society to preserve their lives. Consequently, the writer of Hebrews made it a big deal to make sure that the members considering apostasy understood that Jesus is the fulfillment of the Mosaic law and his priesthood and sacrifice alone brings us salvation not the levitical priesthood and animal sacrifices. If they turned away from Christ having received the knowledge of the truth of the Gospel it would prove that their repentance and faith was not genuine and all that they had suffered and experienced would be for nought. The purpose then of those warnings and many others elsewhere is not to fear losing a salvation that you have received but making sure you truly understand the depth and helplessness of your sin and the holiness and sufficiency of Christ to save you because trusting in anything else is prideful rejection of Christ which is inexcusable after all that he has done to prove that he truly is Lord and Savior. Rightly interpreted, such warnings are always relevant and helpful because suffering is inevitable and how one endures suffering indicates whether or not they truly trust Jesus and value him above everything on earth including their natural life which is not worth trying to preserve since whether by persecution or some other way we are all going to die and eternity with Jesus is not worthy to be compared to our present pleasures or our sufferings, none of which are meaningless and all of which we will be beyond recompensated for. Hopefully that is helpful to you, and may God continue bless you abundantly and satisfy you with his love! 🙂
"For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast." Ephesians 2:8-9 "for, 'Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.'" Romans 10:13
I fell back into so many old sins for years after repenting and believed I could never go back to God😔 I still feel guilt over it and fear that I may have fallen away or gone to far and become to hard and am now beyond saving. The fear is so real. Please pray for me whoever sees this I will continue to seek God and hold onto Christs words and promises. Thank you JP for this video and everyone involved.
I have committed a horrible sin, I can't stop I feel crushed and empty I feel as though I have sinned so much that I have sinned away my salvation and am now like Esau
"For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast." Ephesians 2:8-9 "for, 'Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.'" Romans 10:13
Why is it that when I think of the gospel I immediately believe it Dosent apply to me. an I feel no love in terms of feelings towards the lord. I try to obey I know I want to but something in me is constantly fighting against myself. I can’t stand it. I always feel like I don’t know If I’m saved becasue I concentrate on how I act an what I do but I know it’s about Christ
Thank you Pastor John, after listening I sat down and read Romans and did some studying, it really lifted my spirit. His mercy endures forever, God bless you.
"For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast." Ephesians 2:8-9 "for, 'Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.'" Romans 10:13
Joel chapter2 12 Yet even now, declares the LORD Return to Me with all your heart And with fasting, weeping and mourning; 13 And rend your heart and not your garment. Now return to the LORD your God, For He is gracious and compassionate, Slow to anger, abounding in lovingkindness And relent of evil. John 3:16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life 37 All that the Father gives Me will Come to Me, and the one who comes to me I will certainly not cast out. 38 For I have come down from heaven, not to do my will, but the will of Him who sent Me 39This is the will of My Father who sent Me, that of all the He has given Me I lose nothing, but raise it up on the last day. 40For this is the will of My father, that everyone behold the Son and believes in Him will have eternal life, and I myself will raise him up on the last day.
Thank you JESUS and GOD FOR ALL MY BLESSINGS NOW N FOREVER and Thank you Universe Too and all the beautiful Angels surrounding Me and in HEAVEN 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏💗💖❤️💓♥️I'm not giving up on my Faith or GOD 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Im trying my best. But it seems my best isn't enough. It's terrible but I try to stay on the path of god because to me its "The right thing to do" but my heart has been in the world for so long i can bearly find that joy and happiness in the lord like i used to. It feels like im fighting against a fate god knows is doomed. Should i just face the facts? Stop with the "One day. If I do everything perfectly he'll throw me a bone". Was i just...not one of the chosen few?
My heart is broken. Iv become bitter, resentful filled with rage hate, and anger. I can not stop sinning and hurting myself spiritually. I feel like I'm predestined and born doomed.
I don't know you personally, but what helped me years ago was my change of approach to reading the scriptures. I noticed the way the writers spoke regarding Christ--that we can trust Christ, that when we stand before the Father he will deem us righteous on account of Christ. Our desire to live and walk in God's ways is an indication of his Holy Spirit still being with us, and also one that God has not quit, neither abandoned us. Turn to the Lord with all the heart break, bitterness, resentfulness, rage, hate, anger, etc., IN FAITH towards God banking your life on Christ, turning against those sins with all your might, and you will find Him a perfect Savior. The turn to Christ, trusting him, is at least evidence to you that you are truly trusting him; again, check out the way the writers write regarding us who trust in Christ. You are not done for.
This may not be what you need to hear. But it was something I once needed to hear. I will preface it by sharing with you an inner reasoning in my heart: I used to sometimes feel as you do now, and at the time, I felt that my incapacity to cease sinning was beyond my control, like the waves of negative emotions which would wash over me. I was still learning how to "control my spirit", and quickly learned that what control I thought I had was an illusion. I knew that "only those who believe can obey"; what did this say about me? I began to question why God would ordain this state of affairs, and wondering if i was doomed. Oh subtle pride... how unrecognized pride claims the right of the weak and cloaks itself in the veils of self pity! Despite all my insistance to the contrary, I still felt as if I was a suffering hero, though I knew and was confronted constantly with my sinful inadequacy. I began to feel that God had perhaps rejected me, and that decision (and my fruitless struggle) would be one predestined from eternity. The first part of the answer came from an idea I first thought was silly: "if I knew I was damned, would I change anything, or would I still try to please God and do whatever I could to 'do that which I ought to have done' from the start?"Suprisingly, I found the answer was "no". If I were to be damned, it would not make His way less right, and it would not remove my obligation to Him. I would keep trying. (It would be some time before I understood this affection for Him was only possible because of His saving influence). To actually stop trying to reach Him would be defeat, and that was the temptation in abusing the doctrine to shift the blame for my failure on God. I also heard from John Piper "The righteous will die with a desperate prayer for righteousness on their lips", as he was expositing "Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness." The fact of my misery was proof of my hunger, despite my emotional distance and coldness. After learning that "only those who believe can obey", God confronted me with the other half of the saing in the words of a martyr: "Only those obey can believe." I was making God out to be responsible for my sins. I had subtle, secret pride, fueling my rebellion - last redoubts of subtle, stubborn pride that thought entirely too often of my own state. However I began to see, thanks to God, that I needed to simply put into practice simple, straightforward obedience - whether I felt certain of my salvation or my doom. Of intense practical help was training myself to thank God for whatever lot He saw fit to give me when i was tempted to blame and question Him, replacing anxiety with thankfulness - and just as effective effective was to find some, small, practical helpfulness I could do for someone else, especially if there was something secret that only God would know. Finally, I had begun to recognize the costly grace, a grace for which a man will trade all he has - the grace which is the gift of God, which comes to a man after he has exhausted himself in his own striving efforts - and found himself wanting. Brotherly Confession also helped me find reptenace and see my problem clearly. This is where grace truly becomes grace, and not a moral justification or self-imparted absolution. Real, costly grace comes to a man as the sum of his works and life, and it is this grace that you must trust in to cover you - after you have done all to resist, and find yourself beaten. Obedience is the first step - if not perfect obedience, than practical obedience, focusing on what can be done. Take the first step each day, and don't ignore His voice. You will sin every day, and each day you will prove yourself a great and terrible sinner. Even so, the way of the cross requires that we confess and forsake our sin before Him daily to obtain this costly grace, going back constantly to the Gospel, ever deeper. It is not the healthy who need the physician, but the sick. To follow Jesus, your heart must be broken along with your pride, but don't despair - the great carpenter has plans to rebuild what He breaks. I commend to you "The Cost of Discipleship", by Deitrich Bonhoeffer. It's available on audible as an audiobook, which I greatly enjoy. Much love. Press on
I feel the same way you do to some degree. I find myself more angry and bitter, especially after the death of my mom. I'm very angry at God! It's like he's ruining my life. I'm not the same person anymore. Everyday I think about ending it all. Seem like a much better deal than continuing to press on, when I know all I have to look forward to is pain & heartache.
DON'T. GIVE. UP. DON'T. GIVE. UP. DON'T. GIVE. UP. Keep praying. Keep asking for forgiveness. Show God you want to be His humble servant. Do your best. Get away from distractions. Eternity is too long of a time to just give up. What keeps me motivated is the parable of the prodigal son. Don't give up.
Stay well away from anger and hate, those are of the devil and he loves nothing better than to fan those flames. Keep your eyes on Jesus at all times do not let him depart from your gaze. He rescued me, knocked on my soul at 3.20 am. Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me. Revelation 3.20. I took that 2nd chance.
I’m struggling in my faith on a daily basis. I often wonder is God really hearing my prayers to him. I feel like God has just abandoned me, leaving me to deal with many hardships in life that are about to take me out. How can I make God my main focus when the realities of life are keeping me weighed down?
God does not abandon his people. Let me tell you I have been where you are (in terms of feeling abandoned) for the longest time. It was a horrible experience but there's still hope, he said 'I will never leave you nor forsake you'. Now I pray that your road is not as long as mine, because it took a very long time for me. For me, the way out has been in: * Getting prayer from my pastor * Examining myself and my actions leading up to the detachment * Repentance for resentment and bitterness (and anything else you need to repent from) * Seeking God with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength despite the emotional disconnect * Finally surrender to God and allow Him to have his way regardless of whether you get the outcome you desire or not I hope this helps you, remember in James it says 'draw near to God and he will draw near to you'. If you are still seeking God, you have not fallen too far yet, but use this moment to do everything you can to seek Him and find Him, remember that in Christ we have a great high priest who is interceding on our behalf, run to Him, and keep on running until you find Him. In regards to your struggles that are weighing you down, remember that Jesus said 'seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be added to you' he knows your needs and he is God who provides. Also Jesus said 'come to me you who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest...'
Morning Friend , I know this feeling as do many others. There are some biblical truths you need to keep in mind and let settle in your heart. This means learning, believing and trusting in Gods promises. The first is the most important, “Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.”” Deuteronomy 31:6 ESV So what you are experiencing isn’t God abandoning you, that would make him a liar, something God can not do. We know that the spirit of God does not push us or take us over in order to accomplish things instead like the moon pulls on the ocean, the spirit tugs at us, you are being drawn to the Lord, not left. Get in scripture, read Psalm 32, its one of my favorites. Just for some added comfort, listen to Peter, you aren’t alone in this. “Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world.” 1 Peter 5:8-9 ESV Bless you, the narrow path is rocky, hilly and hard to walk. Stay the course
With respect, I will give a tough comment to chew on: Practical obedience. Stop struggling with doubts and difficulties and get on with the job; we who enjoy moral difficulties and doubts often enjoy them at the expense of practical obedience. Yet we have a job to do: to follow Him and put other people's needs before our own in practical, unfeigned humility. It is good that you know you are a sinner; you won't get into the notion that you are scoring credit with God. Remember that the sensible and wise slave is the one who says " I am an unworthy slave, I am only doing that which I ought to have done." If obedience is hard, it is helpful to remember that only those who believe can obey. If believing is hard, you must remember that only those who obey can believe. It doesn't have to be perfectionism, just practical. People will cross your path with needs, petitions, and pains - these are the things and the people God has put before you in your day to day, and finding ways to be practically helpful to them, give, or to truly lend a truly attentive ear will help both of you. It is the medicine for your soul prescribed by the great physician. Finally, when these times disturb you, start thanking God for your troubles: that your soul is disturbed, the trial and tribulation, and ask that your soul will come to rely on Him more fully as a result. Resist sin, and find ways to obey wherever you can, and make use of the precious, short time; the evil days are swiftly passing away. Do what you can. One last thing: work is prayer. Make your work a living prayer to God. Be blessed. Much love Press on
If you love God you will make changes in your life. Changes of the heart, changes of your lifestyle. God is everywhere. He hears your prayers but He also sees how you choose to use your time. Sacrifices must be made. Fellowship with other Christians and talk to them about how you feel. It really does help to know there are others that go through the same things we go through. You're not alone.
@@jrodjr1295 I do fellowship with other Christians as much as I can with my church group, but when I’m by myself during the weekend, it hits like a ton of bricks
You can’t make such a bad ship wreck of your faith that you loose your salvation. It sounded a bit like that’s what Piper was trying to say at one point. Rather it proves what you never had when you fall away finally.
Of course you can. How can you fall away from something you haven't had? You can at any point and moment loose your salvation if you choose to leave God.
@@Cratr684 If someone is on a trail going up a mountain, and the goal is to get to the top, where others have reached (for the example, let's say salvation by faith in Christ), and along the way he falls off the trail, tumbling down the mountain, he literally fell away from something he did not have. the Bible is very clear: "They went out from us, but they were not really of us; for if they were of us, they would have remained with us; but they went out, so that it would be manifested that they all are not of us."
No better manner to describe this other than AMAZING GRACE. Daily, we fall. Daily, we ask for His forgiveness. And daily, He forgives in Christ. Father, thank You for the grace You have given us in Your Son. May Your Holy Spirit remind us to never squander the love You freely give everyday. To Your Holy Name be all the glory.
"For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast." Ephesians 2:8-9 "for, 'Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.'" Romans 10:13
Hello brother or sister. I truly may have committed the unpardonable sin. I am drowning in unbelief. Nothing seems to be real anymore. I pray dearly that my faith is taken out of its shipwreck if this is just a shipwreck. If anyone knows or wants to reach out who has been through this experience please let me know.
Find promises in the scriptures and pray to God. I’ve made the mistake of talking to others too much about my struggles instead of God. These are passages that I’ve found in the scriptures to be helpful to me. Emphasis on the last one. “All that the Father gives Me will come to Me, and the one who comes to Me I will never cast out.” John 6:37 Ezekiel 33: 10-19 Isaiah 56 Micah 7 2 Chronicles 30 Isaiah 12 Isiah 19:16-25 - Egypt becomes His people Isaiah 63-64 Ezekiel 16 Ezekiel 18 Psalm 121 Hosea 14 Joel 2:12 1 John 1:9 John 6:37 These passages are all about Gods mercy and forgiveness. Spend time turning to Him. Jesus alone is who can give you peace and promises to never turn away the one who comes to Him.
I struggled with this fear for nearly 7 years. I have known the daily pain, the anguish. It felt like the Lord didn't want me even though I loved Him out of the bottom of my heart. Here is a heartfelt response from which I hope God will use to save you a lifetime of pain. You couldn't possibly have committed the unpardonable sin and still have a heart so tender towards Jesus. Such a person would have a hard heart towards God. I heard this exhortation early when the trouble began to brew in my heart but didn't take it seriously. Your love for Jesus is proof of the work of the Holy Spirit in you. You couldn't possibly love Him if you committed unpardonable sin. Besides, if you are born again you have a promise from Jesus the He will never leave you nor forsake you!! I held on to this promise like a lifeline. Having come out of this fear, Jesus is more precious to me, perhaps more than could have been if I never went through that horrible time. If you have trusted in Jesus Christ as your Lord and savior who takes your sins away, then trust Him to keep you saved forever. Yes, you are weary, you are weak, but know that this for certain - Jesus made a promise to us, and He will make it good. Like the Bible asks - Hath He said and will not do? I ask - Is Jesus a bad shepherd who is unable to keep His sheep that He should lose one? No, No, No - He is Not. Jesus will keep you as He promised. Satan is using fear to control you. Also be careful, satan can twist God's word to seem against you. I speak from experience. Lastly, please know this - that all we have as Christians is the promises of God. When we believe Him, that is called faith in Him. Make deliberate effort to choose what God has said - whether it is tough or not. I know the heartache and difficulty to do this. If you must, grit your teeth and say to yourself - "God has made a promise to me and will keep it." And remember, God loves you, please don't forget this. GOD DOES LOVE YOU!! Take this from someone who has gone through this exact pain between 2013 and 2019. God is able to bring you out of the pain. Don't despair. Wait on the Lord. He will renew you. He is most tender towards the weak and weary. Talk to Him about it. He always listens. His timing is different from what we hope but He will surely rescue you from that pit. He is the present help in time of trouble. As the song goes, Don't give up on your faith - it's almost morning. Remember, God loves you - That is very important to always know. He Does Love You!!!!
Within the first minute they expressed a misunderstanding of why many people leave. I left because I want to do what is right and I became convinced that the church was not doing the right thing. It has nothing to do with a desire to do sin. It has to do with a desire not to sin.
Pray for me. I feel im being oppressed or possessed. As a Christian I went into occult I tod God to leave me alone. I since I have repented. But I'm being attacked. Afraid I lost my salvation
Dear Pastor John, is it right that so many Christians have turned to persecution of transgender people rather than approaching any misunderstandings or misgivings from a place of love and compassion? Is it right that the Church has started to, by this and so many other issues, resemble the Pharisees of Jesus's day?
Not all people agree that Esau sought repentance with tears but that he sought the blessing with tears. The grammar seems to indicate he sought repentance with tears but the argument against it is how does one seek repentance with tears and not find it. It’s confusing and I wish pastors would come to an agreement for the betterment of the sheep
I have committed the sin of fornication (knowningly) I guess I allowed the guy I did it with to convince me it wasn't too bad, but long story short a child came out of this and I guess this became a slap in the face, it's as if I realised that God is not joking about sin & it's consequences. It's not that I ever doubted that it was true but before committing this sin I had been struggling internally with the assurance of my salvation and with this lie (probably the enemy planted it in my mind) that people don't really suffer when they sin and I guess that's what led to me making light of sexual sin. I really regret it in part because of the consequences that came but mostly because I believed a lie, in fact I doubted God's word and therefore I have dishonored God, it's like I took Him for a fool but I ended up being the fool. I do realise what I did is wrong, especially to mislead someone else to join me in this sin and I'm willing to turn away from it. The thing is I can't even go back to my church because I feel so ashamed, I doubt that God will forgive me and as to the child I really am not ready to be a mother. I know I acted foolishly but I just wanted to know if this is the end for me? I really am disappointed in myself as well
I think Rashi should be renamed "rush shit" or diarrhea cause every time he rushes to disprove His own Messiah in His own Tanakh, he makes "rush shit" or diarrhea of the whole Tanakh, disregarding/opposing/ manipulating/ editing/ taking out if context the sacred scriptures inspired by God Himself. In doing so, "rush shit" also had to go against his predecessors the other rabbis who disagree with his diarrhea. People ignorant enough to accept "rush shit" end up like Calvin who admitted he is too ignorant to understand revelation. Hence, calvinism is spiritual diarrhea. One example of rush shit diarrhea is saying everything in genesis 3 is natural when natural snake doesn't make speeches, however Tanakh specifically in genesis 3 stated snake is an orator. Example of rabbis diarrhea is saying snake and satan had sex with eve, making eve pregnant with Cain, in contrast with Tanakh stating specifically both Cain and Abel were result of Adam knowing his wife Eve. Moral of the story, to relieve oneself of diarrhea, leave rush shit and rabbinic interpretation of the Tanakh in the toilet where it belongs.
Don't you dare give up - I wrestled with this literally these last 3 days after discovering these verses existed. It was a horrible dread that weighed on my heart, and I was unable to sleep. I was legitimately trembling. BUT... just today, the LORD touched my heart, and I wept in sorrow and joy like that of a mad man. It was truly remarkable. The fear is gone now, and the fire is back. Please do not give up, and wrestle with it as Jacob and the Angel.
Chris, brother, let me assure you, God is greater than your sin. Jesus didn't come down to Earth and suffer and die for us because sin was some slight, insignificant thing that could be swept under the rug, he did it because sin was a very serious matter. Jesus loves you and longs for you to come back to him and repent. In John 6:44, Jesus himself establishes a principal that it is God himself that draws us: "No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws them." AND in 6:37, just a few passages earlier, he tells us that he will NEVER drive those who come to him away, he will NEVER reject us. God is drawing you to him and he wouldn't do that unless there was an opportunity for restoration. Remember, he's a God of love and mercy! He's more concerned with reconciliation, not condemnation! Remember the prodigal son. Remember the countless times God himself told the people of Israel to turn from their backsliding and repent and he would gladly accept them. Don't put yourself beyond Jesus's work on the cross and his saving grace. If you humble yourself before the Lord, acknowledge your sin, and repent and turn away from it, he WILL forgive you. I can assure you of that. Praying for you.
You might have… But I will tell you, I was absolutely sure I was there, and He ended up still showing steadfast love. You might be in a pattern of disobedience, and His rod of torturous discipline will not be removed until you change your ways. Or you might be lost. Or you might be damned. I don’t know you. Reply back with some info on your situation if you’re able.
Friend. God's grace is much much greater than your sin. Run to Him. Give up in His arms and He will renew and restore you. I will keep you in my prayers.
