As someone who literally used to throw up from the pain of my cramps every single month I can tell you that the pain is freaking real, and if you ever see anyone, specially a woman being in pain to the extent they think they will pass out or throw up NEVER DISCOUNT THEIR PAIN, you deserve to be cared for in those situations, the fact that women have been suffering through all of this quietly doesn't mean it isn't happening.
I've lost three babies...a ruptured ectopic pregnancy which almost took my life, a 1st trimester miscarriage and a stillborn son. My husband passed away suddenly and only peace I have found is I hope he is raising our 3 lost babies while I raise our 5 living children.
I’m only two minutes in, but wanted to go ahead and add my comment: I lost a child to miscarriage in 1989 when I was 16 weeks pregnant and I am so thankful things have changed for women and we can now discuss this openly. It was one of the worst emotional and physical) pains I’ve ever experienced. Back then I was told, “It wasn’t a real baby”, “you can always have more”, “you really shouldn’t be talking about stuff like this when you leave” (these were the things I was told by the doctor/nurses while I was in pre-op, recovery, and post-op, then by female family and friends). Every feeling I was experiencing was invalidated by everyone. I hope you are doing okay and I pray for you, your hubs, and your future family (and your Angel in Heaven). P. S. I went on to carry two beautiful girls who are now 30 and 25. So to any other woman who has lost a pregnancy/child i wish I could take the emotional pain away and I wish I could be there to support each of you who have had to go through this. Many prayers and hugs and don’t forget it also affects your SO, too, because men were always cut out of this and their feelings were never acknowledged back then. Sad for everyone involved.
Let me start off by saying..my condolences for your loss, India. My experience is similar to yours. I had an ectopic pregnancy in 2017 that too ruptured. I also found out I was pregnant with my first child in the emergency room from the unbearable pain. My right fallopian tube was also removed. It was an extremely traumatic experience and I fell into deep depression. I never thought I would ever be a mother. I was in such a dark place afterwards. All I did was cry for months on end it seemed. But fast forward to today, I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy 9 months ago; my rainbow child. My heart aches for you India. I know exactly what you are going through. I pray you and Daniel find strength and healing. Don’t ever forget that miracles can happen. You and your body are not lacking in the ability to conceive a child. Please don’t ever think that. You are strong, healthy, and most importantly a survivor. Don’t ever lose faith and give up on trying to conceive again, as scary as it may seem. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I wish you nothing but love and light. From one mommy to another 💕🙏
Your video was recommended to me and I just want to day I'm so sorry for your loss. Back in May, I went to my anatomy ultrasound (at 21 weeks pregnant) and was told that I had gone into preterm labor (with no symptoms) and that I would most likely deliver within the few days. Unfortunately, that night my water broke and they had to induce knowing that my son wouldn't survive because he was just too small. I delivered a perfect "sleeping" baby boy that we named Casey. We will miss him forever. His name means "brave", so I pass along some of his strength and courage to you and your partner to get through this.
You are not alone. I also was apart of the 1% that had an ectopic pregnancy almost 2 years ago now. God willing you and I and all the other women that desire to have a baby will be able to experience the joy of having your own child. Sending my love and prayers to you and your husband. ❤
I had tears when you said that you didn’t think you’d be believed for the amount of pain that you were in 😢 that is so relatable. I laughed (very hard) when you gained an emotional support animal half way through the video (I love your dogs!!!!) I ended the video crying with you. You’ve been one of my online bffs for awhile (hello, surprise, I love you😂) I’m so proud of you for sharing this journey. What a rollercoaster and so so scary. Your vulnerability is beautiful but I’m still so sorry that you have to endure this. ❤
I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I lost 3 pregnancies and had 2 healthy children. But the losses hurt no matter how or why it happens. My heart goes out to you and I started crying with you. I am so glad Daniel took you to the ER and didn't delay. Love, hugs and prayers to you both.
I'm so sorry, India! I had an ectopic pregnancy last year that ruptured. It was such a traumatic experience and so much confusion between all the medical professionals. Although I've not been lucky enough to conceive again since my surgery in December of last year I am still hopeful. I pray for you and Daniel over your loss. God is good and we will see our babies again.
Hi India. Thank you for talking about this. I had a missed miscarriage at 11 weeks, found out a week and a half ago. A week ago I had surgery to remove her (we found out she was a little girl). My heart has been broken since. We had seen her heartbeat at 10 weeks. I hope we heal from this, and I hope our little babies are happy and peaceful at rest ❤️🩹
India, I had a miscarriage in July and I think about our baby every day. It is so painful that it feels like no one talks about miscarriage. Thank you SO much for sharing your story and spreading awareness of pregnancy loss, and I am so, so, so sorry this happened to you. Praying for you and Daniel, I’m so grateful you have each other. 💛
I'm childfree and voluntarily had my tubes removed a year ago. I still struggle with pain and hormonal issues. I'm so sorry you have to go through this unplanned while also experiencing a loss. I was crying watching this video. Praying for a healthy pregnancy to come🌈
I'm really sorry for what you went through. The part when you said you basically gaslighted yourself just broke my heart, women shouldn't have to anticipate invalidation :( I send all of my love to you, because I can only imagine how hurt you feel in every way. Thank you for sharing your experience and your pain with all of us.
The same EXACT thing happened to me! The ONLY difference in our stories is that they were able to put my tube back together. I still have both. It was the worst pain I have ever felt in my life! I also found out I was pregnant in the ER right before surgery. I am so sorry you had to go through this awful experience. Hugs! ❤
5:33 paused here to say firstly- I am so sorry for your loss and that you are going through this. I also wanted to give kudos to your husband for encouraging you to go to the ER. As women, we are all too often told to wait it out, or just deal with it. Having a partner show that support is so great. Sending so much love and good energy ❤
I’m so so sorry for you and Daniel’s loss, and so incredible honored and grateful that you choose to share such a personal and painful story with us. Love you and please know you have lots of people praying for you both❤
I am so sorry for your loss and the experience you went through! Someone close to me went through the same exact experience. She went on to have 2 healthy pregnancies. I am telling you this so you will feel lifted up. You are right, this isn't the end of your story. God is in control, and you will be blessed. Hang in there! 💛
Hey girl! Sending prayers to you! I had EXACTLY the same experience in 2019. I was out with friends and suddenly felt exactly how you described in your video, I told my friends that I needed to go to the ER because I thought my IUD moved. When I got there I passed out and woke up in a room full with doctors saying that I need a surgery and we don’t have any time to lose because I already lost more than 2 liters of blood. I was freaking out because I was completely alone. I didn’t know where my friends were or my phone to call my boyfriend at that time or my parents. The doctors said that I had an ectopic pregnancy and my fallopian tube and that it had already „exploded“. I went into surgery and they removed my right fallopian tube too. Recovery was hard especially the emotional part. I just couldn’t understand what happened. And at that time I did not have a supportive boyfriend. He said that for him I wasn’t pregnant and it was all just in my head and that we did not lose anything. Anyway I’ll pray for your peace, a good recovery and that god blesses you with a beautiful baby one day. Now I have a supportive husband and a beautiful baby girl who just turned 4 months yesterday! ❤️
Oh India. I’m so sorry for you and Daniel’s loss. All I can say is that you and your family will always be in my prayers. And yes, even in tragedy, the Lord is in control and he’ll help heal you though this difficult time. I also admire your courage to speak about this with your audience, cause I know this will give comfort to someone. And perhaps you will get some words of wisdom from ones who have been through this to help you too. ❤️🙏🏼✝️
I cried right with you through this, India. I had a miscarriage with a dramatic pain level as well at a time I had only found out to my surprise I was pregnant 2 days before so I know what you mean when you talk about pain you pass out from. I felt for you every moment you had to talk about this because a year or so later I still tear up thinking of what I went through. You were so brave and I pray for healing for you and Daniel and that all of us women who have had these stories to tell and battle scars on our hearts and bodies go on to have healthy happy pregnancy stories in the future.
I just had a miscarriage at 12 weeks about two weeks ago. Mine was not ectopic but this video honestly helped me so much to not feel alone. I appreciate you sharing this💕💕
My heart breaks for you, sweet lady. 😪💔 You and your husband are in my prayers. 🙏 Know this… you WILL see and know your precious child in heaven! You may even have a sense now whether your baby is a boy or a girl. He or she has a name. Grieve your child (by name if you’d like) and honor his or her life any way you’re comfortable. My prayers are with you, and I’m crying with you in your loss. 🥺 Much love. 💟
You are so resilient. You are pushing through with grace, faith, and love. To think of all who experience such loss at this time speaks to your character more than can be expressed. Grateful to God you survived, and so sorry you went through this horrific, traumatic experience where survival was so threatened. My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
I’ve been following you for a few years now and I often wondered if you would post a TTC journey. I’m so very sorry to hear it start off this way; but I am so grateful for your courage to share. I was grateful for stories like this when I went through my losses. Feeling alone magnifies the pain somehow. You are helping others by sharing. I’m so sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I had a miscarriage on October 1 - we went through it together and didn't even know it. This was my second miscarriage, my first one was 10 years ago. It is so sad losing the hopes and dreams we have for our future. Please just know that it is ok to feel however you are feeling on any given day. It's ok to grieve. God will always carry you through, even on days that feel impossible ❤
Oh my goodness 😢 India, my heart breaks for u 😢 as someone who has been where u are, it is unbelievably devastating ❤ I am so very sorry for your loss 😢
I’m so sorry for the loss of your baby, India! You’re so brave to talk about your loss honestly to your fans. I continue to be impressed with you on all levels and wish you great luck in the future! ❤
India I am so sorry for your loss and for everything you have gone through. I am praying for your healing, and for the Lord to keep you and Daniel in His perfect peace during this time.
First of all I’m so sorry for your loss. Having a childbirth experience that was life threatening and the most excruciating pain in my life, I completely understand the feeling and worry of healthcare workers gaslighting you when it comes to pain level. Having a partner who can support, laugh and cry with you makes all the difference in these situations. You know you have a long road of healing both physically and emotionally, so make sure you give yourself some grace and the time you need. ❤
I am very, very sorry for your loss. Unless someone has suffered this loss, they do not understand the pain. I am so glad you had a strong support system through it all, I did not. I will send prayers your way.
I’ve been holding in my tears all day, today marks 9 years since I lost my first child, I’m glad I watched this because it reminded me of her, I have 3 children now that god has blessed me with but I always wonder what she would of been like. Sometimes I feel like I’m not allowed to be sad I lost her because I have 3 children now. I’m so sorry for your loss and experience India. But your right your story is not over, God will bless you with children when it’s time. God bless you and your husband. Thanks for sharing your story, Sendingyou a virtual hug.
I cried for you India as I heard your story and how horrific it was for you to go through all of that. As a nurse myself I was happy to hear the nurses were kind and gentle and good to you. Yes, you are so blessed having your wonderful husband and partner Daniel. So brave of you to share your story. Looking forward to your next story because it sounds like things were getting better for you.
India, wow, I’m so sorry you and Daniel went through such a distressing and traumatic experience. Please look after yourself and take all the time you need to physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually recover. Truly sorry for your loss xx
As an ectopic survivor I feel your pain. It is horrendous and dangerous situation. I was on the pill and was that 1% that could experience and ectopic from using contraception. It was a twin ectopic and burst my left tube. It was the worst experience ever. I knew as soon as I saw the twin sacs beating on the ultrasound what was happening. Terrible experience aside I did go on to have 2 beautiful boys (3 miscarriages total) so they are both rainbow babies. So, just because you have 1 tube does not mean you cannot get pregnant. Sending you healing thoughts and hugs. ❤
I know that anything I say will not make the pain better, but I’m so sorry sweet friend. Thank you for being open and sharing about this topic. I am an ER nurse and I have had patients with ectopic pregnancy and the amount of pain they are in is incredibly sad. I am so sorry that you had to go through this. I will continue to pray for your recovery!
It feels weird to give you a thumbs up in this situation. I wish an option was a great big virtual hug or something like that. I’m so very sorry for your loss. You’re brave, you’re courageous and you’re blessed. Sending prayers and hugs and love your way, India and Daniel.
My heart goes out to you and Daniel. I also had an ectopic pregnancy and also a miscarriage. I also have two happy, healthy boys who were born in between them. You will get through this, it just takes time. The Lord will never give you more than you can handle. God is good, all the time. Love you, India! ❤️
the more i watch, the more i cry 💔 this is so heartbreaking and i’m so sorry you’re going through all of this. but i am SO glad you’re physically okay ❤️
I'm so sorry for you and your husband, India - it's a traumatic and heartbreaking experience, and there's no timeline to the grief that comes after. Thank you so much for sharing your experience and seeing those who know that immense grief
The exact same thing happened to me. Found out my I was pregnant for the first time in my life in an emergency room screaming in agony with my tube ruptured. It took months and months to help me heal the PTSD. I’m so sorry you went through this! You will be okay I promise ❤ I went on to have a healthy pregnancy with only 1 tube and have a beautiful 4 year old daughter
It was brave to put your story out there. I'm sure it'll resonate with a lot of women. I too experienced horrible cramps, extremely heavy bleeding and moodiness to the extreme during my periods. I used to throw up, get nausea or feel light-headed. I gas-lit myself and said it was just genetically painful periods. After suffering for years I went to an OB-GYN. She did an ultrasound and guess what? I have adenomyosis, fibroids, multiple cysts and severe hormonal imbalances. We should not dismiss our own pain. Im on the pill now and so much better health wise.
I’m at the part where the nurse is trying to convey to the doctor and I’m bawling. This brings back so many emotions and memories of my 3 miscarriages. Thank you for sharing India. 🙏
I am so sorry for your loss. It's such a painful experience to have. I have been struggling with infertility for 1 year and 7 months now and had two miscarriages in the last 7 months. Though not the same experience as yours, you are not alone in this pain.
Oh India- I am so so sorry to hear this life update. I can’t imagine how traumatic it must have been to not understand what was going on while being in all that pain, and then to have to sign all those medical documents not knowing what the outcome of the surgery was going to be. My heart goes out to you and Daniel as you mourn this loss - I hope you both have the support that you need at this time to help you process this experience. Praying for you right now for the peace that passes all understanding and a real sense of God being close to you and with you in the midst of your mourning.
Thank you for sharing your story. This sounds so painful and difficult. It makes me sad that women feel like our pain won’t be believed. I’m glad your husband did a great job advocating for you. ❤
Thank you. I just had a miscarriage and it is unbelievably difficult on every level. You sharing helps me know I’m not alone. I’m praying for you and your family.
This is my story almost exactly. I almost didn't make it and lost 2L of blood. Surgery was a middle of the night emergency and I needed a blood transfusion. My husband also is responsible for saving my life. I went on acouple years later to have a perfectly healthy pregnancy. I'm so sorry you went through this. It is a living nightmare. Make sure to get help processing it all because it's a lot ❤
Hihi omg just came across this video and every single thing, even finding out you’re pregnant because of the pain from a ruptured ectopic pregnancy, is exactly how I went through it in April this year. I get how hard it is and I’m so sorry, I really wish you all the best in life. We got this ✨💕
I'm sorry for your loss! I wish no one ever has/had to feel that loss but many have and sadly many don't talk about it. Please take care of yourself physically and mentally! Much love
I have to say I’ve come to this platform throughout my miscarriage process to feel not alone, and never have I ever been touched and felt so understood by video like I was by yours. I had a miscarriage at 17 weeks about five months ago. One day we went to the doctor and the baby had a healthy heartbeat, and quite literally the same night I was in the ER because we had lost him and the pain is like nothing else in this world. My condolences go out to you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for your bravery. I am so very sorry for your loss India ♥️ My husband and I just found out that we are now pregnant with a rainbow baby. I’m sending lots of prayers to you and your family.
My mother has lost 7 babies and watching her suffer for years, it definitely gave me an understanding and compassion for other mothers and fathers who lose a pregnancy, your baby matters, what you suffered and are suffering matters. So much love and healing prayers heading your way.
I've been thinking of you ever since you posted about this after it happened. Praying hope and comfort over your journey of grief and healing from this loss. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, we cannot understand the "why" behind these things but I know He will restore you. 🖤
I’m so very sorry for this horrible experience, and the physical and emotional pain that you’ve endured. You are so strong for sharing your experience and encouraging women to listen to their bodies and not gaslight their pain. I’m so very sorry for your loss. I hope you can find healing and peace as you enter the next chapter of your story.
Oh my gosh, India I am truly so sorry. I am so sorry for this horrible, painful experience you and Daniel went through and the loss and grief you are experiencing. I am so glad that you guys know the Lord and are able to lean on Him through this. I am so proud of you for choosing to trust Him, His plan, and His perfect timing. That is so hard. I was recently reminded that when we choose to praise and worship God in the midst of our pain, in the midst of our trial, even when it is hard, that is one of the most precious gifts we can give Him. It is a gift we can not give Him in Heaven, and it breaks the enemy's power of intimidation over us. Worship is one of the 5 spiritual weapons the devil has NO defense against, which you are choosing to do. Another is the power of your spoken testimony, which you so bravely shared in this video and many others. I hope this can be an encouragement to you and Daniele. SO proud of you, love you, praying for you! God bless you.
Oh sweetheart, I am so so sorry. I have had 1 pregnancy go to term and give me a wonderful daughter but many miscarriages, some known some suspected but all heart breaking. There was nothing they could ever find or pinpoint. But I do have my amazing daughter who grew up and gave me 3 grandchildren. Take care of yourself and be extra gentle with yourself. You have all our love and support.
My heart absolutely breaks for you. Pregnancy loss is so devastating and I’m so sorry for your extremely traumatic and heartbreaking loss. I’ve been there and you are not alone and no one can understand your pain like other mommas who have experienced loss. Praying for you and sending all the love 💕
My heart goes out to you. I had an ectopic pregnancy 30 years ago. I know the kind of pain you're talking about. God has a plan for you and Daniel. This will be part of your testimony our stories always help someone going through the same. ❤🙏
I'm very sorry for your and Daniel's loss. Losing a baby is a harsh part of pregnancy and nothing can prepare you for how it hits you. We lost a baby back in 2015 at 10 weeks. Unfortunately it's little heart did not form properly and so they passed away. I already had 2 kids and was told to be happy and grateful. I was but still mourned for the baby I lost. A year later we had our rainbow baby that came to complete our family. I hope you are blessed with a rainbow baby as well.
i’m so sorry you had to experience such a traumatic & confusing loss. I am praying for healing for you & your husband during this time. & Lord willing, a healthy pregnancy in the future when you both feel ready ♥️
This is why we don't ask women when they plan to have children, it is none of our business and can cause pain. You will be a mother again India, your womb will be blessed and you will have a beautiful and healthy hazle eyed baby ❤ I hope your recovery has been smooth and that the lord will remove any fear or doubt about pregnancy ❤ sending you love from this internet stranger ❤
Thank you India for sharing your story. I will not share the beginning of my story (as its a sad one) but will share the happy ending. I have three handsome adopted sons who are now healthy respectful adults. I thank God every day for trusting me with these three precious lives. They truly are a gift from God. We each have our journey and I pray yours will be just as fulfilling as mine was.
Thank you for your video and your validation. Ive been in that ER room, being told I was pregnant while on a morphine drip too. But I was alone, my boyfriend, now husband, was at work. I miscarried. And have had two pet her losses since then. Each one was before I ever took a positive pregnancy test. I don’t always feel like I’m allowed to grieve, since I’d lost it before I ever even heard a heartbeat. But thank again for validating my emotions. My most recent miscarriage was just as you experienced yours. Stay strong, it will get easier. One day at a time!
My heart truly breaks for you. I had both an ectopic and a miscarriage within a few months last year. So I totally understand the pain and emotions you are dealing with. Sending lots of love and blessings your way. We'll get our chance one day even if it's not until heaven side. 💕
I am so sorry for what you've been through. I wish I could hug you. I just survived a ruptured ectopic pregnancy 2 weeks ago. Us survivors and moms of angels have to support each other
@@emilykennedy4304 sorry for your loss. 💕 Hope you're taking all the time you need for yourself to heal both emotionally and physically. Also, my name is Emily too ☺️
Oh bless your heart! I’m so sorry that happened to you😢. I’ve had 2 miscarriages in between 3 healthy pregnancy’s and just last week I became a grandmother. ❤ Starting a family is not for the faint hearted but I can see how strong and brave you are ❤ and with such a wonderful supportive husband I know your story will have a happy ending.
I am so sorry you went through this awful pain India and for your loss. And so grateful you have such a loving, attentive husband who brought you straight to hospital.Big hug from Dublin, Ireland.
God bless you both. It's very courageous of you to share the intimate details of your life. Your experience will surely be a help to someone who might be dealing with her loss alone... I'm praying for your healing & God's blessings in your life!
I'm so sorry you've had to go through this horror... You're strong for making this video, thank you, so people can know that women should and can be heard - glad you have an amazing husband who supported you in all of this. Our world is still learning how to take care of women! It's tough to be a part of that learning process. Don't know if this thought can help, I've read somewhere that some people believe that if a pregnancy ends before its due date, it's because the little soul changed its mind and decided it wasn't the right time for them. ❤️ This is not the end of your story, as you said before 💪 We support you!!!
I am so sorry for your loss… I feel relieved that you survived this and that you’re okay and healthy. Like you said, this is not the end of your story! ❤ You were brave through all of this experience and I salute you.
My heart breaks for you. Praying for your healing both mentally and physically. I have no doubts God will bring you through this and will bless you for all trials you have endured. I’m so glad you’re still here with us 💕
as someone who is going to go through the infertility journey soon I send all my love. That is the worst imaginable kind of loss and I send you all the love
I am so so sorry for your loss! I lost my baby three years ago and I know how much you must be hurting. My heart goes out to you and your husband. Sending so much love your way! 🧡
