Dear Zachary will stay with me the rest of my life probably. There’s a scene during one of the parents interviews where the dad just goes off and it shook me to my core. The anguish and anger that rolls off of him was so palpable. I remember having to pause it and decide if I had it in me to continue watching.
the point of the documentary is that these are animals, not humans, and they’re not your friends and don’t belong to anyone. they’re ferocious beasts who should be left alone for not only our best interest but also the bears
You NEED to watch The Look of Silence. It's the sequel to The Act of Killing. A family member of a victim interviews the killers and lets them speak in joy, and then at the end of each one who confronts them and tells them who he is. You see the fear in the killers faces.
As someone with PTSD, I really can't process why people put themselves through that (making the documentary). I guess if it helps them get closure good on them, but it really sounds like self-harm to me. Absolutely insane.
I don’t buy the remorse from these guys. They asked for the doc to be done in a variety of styles, like a Hollywood musical or gangster film-they were playing it up.
As a former evangelical child, "for the flesh" is indeed a euphemism for "don't be a slut". For Dear Zachary, I went out and bought the book that David Babgy wrote ("Dance With the Devil: A Memoir of Murder and Loss") and it is even more heartbreaking to read this father talk about the painful things that happened.
"the flesh" is a reference to works of humanity outside of the spirit, there is nothing sexual in nature about the euphemism unless whoever taught you was themselves uneducated. see Galatians 3.
@@raythepizza “the flesh” is clearly most commonly used by evangelicals and the likes of them as an euphemism for sexual desires. Specially in the context the original commenter was talking about. You’re being intellectually dishonest.
I just learned at a very young age, 4, that people don't know what they are talking about 75% of the time so don't just believe gullible people unless you want your head filled with mistruths. So, I don't believe in the whole Bible thing despite going to Bible school starting at 4, I gotta say I really doged a bullet on that one because what I recently discovered about the origins of how these different versions of Bible's were crafted shows just how fake they are known to be. And during their creation of these Bible's based off of scriptures that were written around 2000 years before they made these Bible's custom to their separate beliefs because they removed, edited words written in the original scriptures in which there were as many as 80 to 100 which contradicted eachother, written over 1000 years, they destroyed all of the original scriptures to hide their evidence of fakery. It's only because of people finding out what they were doing that some of the original separate scriptures were saved by hiding them in places, like for example the dead see scrolls found. But most of the original scriptures have been completely destroyed though because some original scriptures were hidden they still exist today and in large completely contradict any of the modern Bible's for each main religion in which no Bible was crafted without editing the original words because of things they didn't approve of that it said, no Bible's included all of the scriptures that were found and mosty destroyed, infact the Christian religion used the least amount of original scriptures as any other version, only using 56 scriptures out of 80 to 100. We don't even know how many existed because of their fine and intentional deception. We don't even know what the original words were because they destroyed the evidence. Thus, you are most certainly not following the words of God with any Bible even if the original scriptures were actually inspired by God which itself isn't likely, the likely answer is they were using hallucinogens that they learned about from tribes who claimed they allowed you to communicate with the 'spirits'.
@@arthurgabriel7715 i am not defending evangelicals, im defending the bible. if evangelicals misinterpret scripture then they're wrong. but scripture is what i am talking about.
@@dinobravo1998 its not disturbing or heartbreaking. Its cringe how hard the director is trying to be disturbing. If that movie shakes you up that much might wanna avoid watching litterally anything "disturbing"
@@Connorly800 u should use that at work when u get stressed out lol (working retail sucks, but the big fast food are waaaay worse.) I wouldn't mind working at one run by morons like Burger King or Rally's/Checkers lol (not knocking Checkers, I love me some Checkers, but they hire the least intelligent, laziest people I've ever seen....BK is same nowadays)
Act of killing is like going to a society where the Nazi's won and then interviewing SS soldiers who have been celebrated as hero's for 50 years. It really hammers home the history is written by the winners point.
Uh, no. It's in different context. Not every massacre need to be equivalent of Nazi purge of Jews. That should not be done since it's oversimplifying and may produce misconception of history. Please understand that. What Anwar Congo and his colleagues did is still terrible, that should not be denied.
I'm so sorry but the first thing I thought of was Wolfenstein, as some of the later Wolfenstein games do take place in a world where the axis powers won ww2.
I saw a post on FB about it & just knew it was a doc for a son about his dead father & that it turned into something else. Boy, did it fuck me up afterward.
People forget that Timothy wasn’t alone when he died. His poor girlfriend Amy was also killed and actually stuck around to try to save him. Damn that’s depressing.
The Trials of Gabriel Fernandez is easily the most upsetting documentary I've ever seen. I still have not finished it despite knowing most facts about the case.
Everybody’s talking about Dear Zachary, which is definitely a heartbreaking watch, but man, I watched The Act of Killing (and it’s companion The Look of Silence) back in 2015 and those have kinda lived in the back of my mind ever since, as far as ‘disturbing’ goes. It’s just so wild to me how the human mind can rationalize heinous acts and paint over them to the point they believe they were righteous ones. I mean, there’s an argument to be made that that happens pretty much all the time during war, but to see it so blatantly on screen was something else. The most disturbing documentary (or docuseries) I’ve seen is The Trials of Gabriel Fernandez. I knew the story beforehand because I watch too much true crime content, but even then, I had to take a lot of breaks just to get through it.
Right? What the hell is it with Dear Zachary? I get the gut-wrenching sadness of it, but FUCK The Act Of Killing destroyed me. Like, you feel hollow knowing how easily those could be your countrymen, how easily all that pain and torture can be covered up. Living in a country where the leader has close ties with the military dictators of '64, the documentary leaves me feeling hopeless and afraid.
I would argue the vast majority of people see themselves as their own story’s hero. Not many people think they are truly the “bad guy”. I think anti-hero media are fairly good at showing that the road to evil is paved in good intentions, whether those intentions are truly “good”. A famous one is Breaking Bad, Walter starts his illegal life to help pay for his treatment and wants to take care of his family in case he passes. It’s good intentions, but because of the road he travels down, it ends with doing some heinous shit. Just interesting to think about.
I still can’t bring myself to watch the story of Angel baby Gabriel Fernandez. Learning about his suffering and his fate in the papers was enough to make me pissed off, sick to my core and sad for the loved ones he left behind.
I watched Dear Zachary by accident when it was on Netflix and got hooked because I wanted to know what happened to Andrew’s killer but DID NOT expect the plot twist. I couldn’t stop sobbing for the family.
@@nadiabenjaminpua4616 I cried basically the whole way thru that documentary. Everytime I thought I was able to suck it up and put up a strong front, something absolutely gut wrenching would be told/shown and I would break down again.
The scene in grizzly man where the director listens to the tape, takes off the head phones and just says, don't listen to that. Idk it always gave me chills
There are fake videos on RU-vid saying it's the audio. I only found out after I listened that it was fake. I was still traumatised. You can read a transcript of the tape online. But the tape is destroyed I think.
ya werner herzog listened to it, then said dont listen to this. just destroy it. and he is probably just trying to save people the pain. powerful moment.
From the minute I finished the movie I always wondered what the tapes sound like. You're right about having the fake ones online. I watched am interview with Wverner and he said it was destroyed. It must have been super grizzly (ba-doom-tisss). The transcripts are correct though. I probably would have destroyed it too given that you could here the old bear literally eating them alive and he even screamed it was happening. Sheesh..😳
*SPOILER ALERT* "Dear Zachary" devastates every audiences of all ages. I looked through the comments of the documentary and some of them were from Gen Zs. Since Zachary was born in 2002, they wanted to know what happened to him. They wanted to check out his social media, see what he was up to, until they watched the ending. They were heartbroken. Reading their comments, it almost sounded like they mourned for their potential best friend. As for me, I rarely cry watching documentaries, but oh...oh God, his poor grandparents 😢💔
EXACTLY. I was born in the same exact year as Zachary, and I just couldn't wait to finish watching the documentary so that I could look up how Zachary's life is, with all the loving people surrounding him, and how he reacted to watching Kurt's tribute to his father. Then the bomb hit, and along with it disbelief, anger, hate, sadness and, finally, hope.
I was born around the same time he was and I was looking forward to knowing how he is now after finishing the documentary and it all just ended in heartbreaking sobbing....
That's very similar to how I feel about Connor Peterson, the unborn son of Laci Peterson. Laci lived in my hometown, and I presume she would've raised Connor there. If he had been born alive, he would've been just a little older than me, and with our moms both being teachers, I'm sure we would've been at least friendly. With situations like Zachary's, Connor's, and so many others, I think it's impossible for those of us in the same age range to not think about what could have (and SHOULD HAVE) been.
@@emilyau8023 I was prepared to call GG a bitch because I just watched it and Ummmmmmmmm....... I’m bawling my eyes out. I would hate to ruin it for you and I’m glad GG didn’t spoil it but I’m broken!!!! That was one of the saddest documentaries I’ve seen.
I've always been particularly entertained at the panic around Harry Potter, when HP is THE most secular, non-supernatural magic I've ever read. Hogwarts is not a mystical, religious place. It's not like their powers come from any occult forces or practices. It's basically just a normal boarding school where levitation happens.
1.) I have an aunt who was so religious, when she saw her nephew reading HP in a hospital she freaked out so hard. Started screaming about blasphemy and said he was handing his soul to the devil. 2.) When the HP movies came to my small town, the nuns literally protested it and the town obliged and didn't show it. I never understood wtf they thought it was.
@@twilightparanormalresearch186 how do christians not realize there is magic in the bible? "In the beginning there was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God." It is literally a giant spellbook with hidden meanings to protect it.
I've always been grateful that my parents, while religious, never stopped me from seeing normal fun things. they protected me as a child from things they see as inappropriate, and now that I'm an adult I can watch anything. but they never stopped me from watching stuff that was secular because that was stupid. I live in this world. can't be blind. and it's not teaching me to be evil or sin. I had to make those choices myself and just be a good person. So happy too because I got to see some great stuff as a kid that influenced me. also helps with my sense of humour now too
I just finished watching Dear Zachary, and then watched the update from the filmmaker here on RU-vid. As a stepmom who has had to calm her stepkids down, take them in because their mom “went crazy” and cried when they chose to go back, I can say this is our ultimate fear. And listening to the killer deliberately try to gaslight them with memories of their dead son as well as trying to bait them about Zachary hit a nerve. Some women should not be moms.
“Dear Zachary” fucked me up so hard. I was so shaken up by it that I just sat in dead silence for about an hour or so after I watched it before I just started sobbing.
@@heather_doestruecrime so its about a man named zachery who was supposedly killed by his then girlfriend, and its then found that the girlfriend was pregnant afterwards. The documentary is made by like a close friend. I watched it years ago, but anything else would spoilers so i'll stop there.
It's not on Netflix (in the US), but Three Identical Strangers is an interesting and I'd say heart wrenching documentary On Netflix, Dirty John is a dramatization of a real life incident that was a originally told via podcast and it was genuinely terrifying
I went in completely blind to Three Identical Strangers and it’s the first documentary I recommended to people now! It’s hard because you really should go into it blind but it’s just unbelievable
The Act of Killing has imo the best ending of any film and portrays a raw and visceral depiction of remorse so powerful that it is even understood by those who don't feel it themselves.
Dear Zachary is one of the only documentaries that had me crying 95% of the time. That story breaks my heart and a bit of my soul died the day I saw it.
Agreed. I have ptsd from religious abuses complicated by the indoctrination - I was a 'sinner' for simply 'existing', & 'tempting' others to abuse me... XOXO ❤💔
@@horizonblack TY :) & Yeah - This is the only time I wish there were a mini-hell tbh. Just like 100 years of torture would be awesome. But I fail to see evidence for anything magical so I expect there's nothing. XO love & peace to you & yours, sweet cyber friendly stranger ❤
@@him1517 For American RW evangelicals anyhow. I used to be faithful & never saw any of that in church. I even got sent to Jesus camp by my very religious aunt & it was just a normal camp but we had to say grace. This being so common says a lot about how crazy people have become. XO be safe
“Tomorrow I’m Dead” by Bun Yom is an incredible story on the killing fields from the perspective of someone who was working them. He later escaped and became one of the most feared freedom fighters in Cambodia. The way he writes was amazing because of all the stuff he went through, yet he forgives them all and lived life happily. Worth a read if you’re interested
The Khmer Rouge perpetrated some of the most viscerally disturbing crimes in modern history and its often forgotten here in the west despite Pol Pot being public enemy number one long ago. A friend of my family went on a christian mission to cambodia and heard from locals how the legacy of the massacres and dictatorship still linger over the nation
@@nathanielleack4842 Its not known in the west for a specific reason though, after the vietnam war, the us wanted revenge, and the US, China, Thatcher and the Thai monarchy all provided aid to pol pot to use against the Vietnamese (backed by the Soviets) because they wanted to prevent a united indo-china Soviet to the point that they advoacted for the Khmer Rouge to keep the UN seat for Cambodia years after, as opposed to the new government aligned with Vietnam it doesn't make anyone look very good (except Vietnam) so the west would rather forget about it, same with indonesia
@@nathanielleack4842 oh trust me man as an american i know how you feel, I know how you feel its a sad reality that most people are kept in the dark about.
@@nathanielleack4842 As a westerner I have only heard of Pol Pot from the Dead Kennedy's song and even then I had no idea who the hell he was until recently, and based on Chris S's comment it doesn't surprise me the US actually helped Pol Pot fuck up his own people This combined with the background in The Act of Killing really says to me that the US LOVES to pretend they aren't one of the most spiteful and warmongering countries on the planet This place fucking sucks
The jesus camp doc really hits me because…how do you do that to children? I went to a greek orthodox camp for a number of years and it was some of the best times of my life - it made me actually enjoy religion more because the religious aspects were boiled down to two masses a day and a short prayer over lunch and a few “free talks” with the priests during the stay - other than that we just enjoyed ourselves, had a fun time, it was just run of the mill middle school and high school fun with some religious experiences sprinkled throughout
Some churches and denominations just end up being lead by absolute nutjobs who are either fanatically insane or completely manipulative abusers. I'm glad I grew up with my local church that basically had none of the absurd fearmongering of normal things like Harry Potter or Pokemon and it saddens me to see how bad people had it in the comment section.
Christian Orthodox institutions are not as corrupted as other denominations are. That's why I like them, they are more traditional and tolerant without feeling like a cult.
I feel the same with Catholic high school retreats. We had so much fun playing volleyball, singing folk songs, playing cards and board games, and being goofy. The priests and group leaders were both our supervisors and friends. We had praise and worship was my favorite part because we became vulnerable in front of God. These retreats grew my faith. I developed a relationship with God by the help of others. That’s why we need religion. It wasn’t just about rules. It’s about a relationship. Once you get a relationship, the rules make sense. I still struggle with some Catholic teachings. Everyone has a problem with some of the rules. It’s normal. I’m also disgusted with the bad priests. I was so fortunate to have priest friends. The diocese in my area has 2+ young priests coming in per year. That’s saying something! These Evangelicals make us Catholics and Orthodox look so bad.
I also went to a Greek Orthodox camp! I even went on to be a counselor for a number of years before life got in the way. That camp brought me closer to God than my actual church did, weirdly enough
How to die in Oregon fucked me up too… my dad died of brain cancer when I was a baby, and my grandma died of pancreatic cancer a few years ago, I was with her at her bedside when she passed. She suffered in pain for far too long. I have an extremely painful life-altering chronic illness and I am so grateful in Canada we have a death with dignity law. I was so happy for the people in the doc to be able to have that choice available for them!
Watching Dear Zachary made me feel a sort of hopelessness I’d never experienced before. The sense of dread the documentary left me with was a sensation I could never even put into words. An absolute tragedy to say the least.
@@nilek198 There's nothing scary about it. It's really best if you go into it unspoiled, but the basic concept is that it's a doc about a tragedy that affected this family, and how they dealt with the aftermath. I just finished watching it and was quite the experience
@@nilek198 for sure this’ll be kinda brief because I’m not that great at explanations, sorry. But basically Zachary is the name of the child that the film creator wanted to dedicate the film to, because his father Andrew was shot and killed by an ex-girlfriend of his when Zachary was still a baby. So the film was basically created as a way for Zachary as he grew older to kind of know his father and who he was, and hear the testimonials from those who loved his father. Even though Andrew passed, his spirit remained very prevalent through his son Zachary, and although a tragedy that they lost Andrew, they still had sweet Zachary to remember him by. Long story short, in the midst of an intense custody battle between the ex and Andrew’s parents, the ex became bitter and ended up taking the life of the child as well as her own.
I ended up following your advice regarding Dear Zachary and it was just so intense. I cried so many times during that documentary, and the "twist"? It literally made me cry angry tears, I don't think I have ever had that happen before. I was so mad and upset. This is such a powerful documentary and I genuinely appreciate following your advice.
I love Dear Zachary and The Act of Killing, so glad you watched them! (Potential Dear Zachary spoilers) What makes Dear Zachary so disturbing is honestly just how intimate it is, not only was the creator deeply connected to the story, the viewer really gets to meet the cast and the narrator, making everything 100x worse, I have seen it over 5 times now, about once a year I watch it, and I can't help but get choked up when you can hear his voice break. It truly helps to remind me just how important people can be to each other.
It’s so crazy seeing people talk about Jesus camp. My whole life was like that until I was 17. I forgot honestly how bad it looks now that I’m “on the other side”
I'm guessing this was how your family was like. How did you manage to escape their grasp and mindset? And how did you cut them off? I'm in no similar situation but I kind of have a hatred and fear for people like these
@@NeverExistedShadow13 it took something bad happening to me done by people at the church for my family to see that the place we went to was insane. My fam is low key still into it, but not to my face. I have a rough relationship with my family because of it, cuz they’re always hoping I’ll at least go to church somewhere else, but I’m far from a “kid on fire” anymore lol.
@@NeverExistedShadow13 they usually target single moms or people in dire financial straits, and drag them into the church. But you’re not allowed to leave, read books about other religions, and you HAD to participate. Pentecostal churches are super scary, especially as a kid.
I grew up the same. I went to "church camp" for years. I knew it was brain washing at the time I just didn't have words for it. I remember one week devoted to the dangers of rock and roll. Basically anything that wasn't church or Jesus related was sin.
I watched Dear Zachary about ten years ago with my best friend and her boyfriend at the time. We had all gone to school together and my bff’s boyfriend was a very strong, burly, quiet “manly man” kind of guy. We all SOBBED during this doc. Like shaking breath, ugly noises crying. It’s a deeply upsetting story
There is a companion piece to The Act of Killing called "The Look of Silence" which follows a man whose brother was a victim of the 1965-66 Indonesia massacre. So if you do another 4 disturbing documentaries, maybe this could be on your radar?
I broke my feet today because I kicked my computer because someone commented that my videos are bad! I hate unjustified criticism. Please wish me a speedy recovery, dear dre
The Act of Killing makes me think about Hannah Arendt’s idea about “The Banality of Evil”. Evil deeds are not done by evil people. They’re performed by normal people who just refuse to engage with these actions that they do. They just refuse to think about it. And these people are normal people who live lives similar to ours, they have families, go to the mall and try out ellipticals. They just perform these evil deeds and then continue to live their lives.
Yep, you can actually even see the difference with some specific characters in The Act of Killing and The Look of Silence. Most of the killers are pretty much just normal dudes who either don't think about what they've done or find ways to rationalize everything, however there are two or three men in the movies that are just built different and are much closer to what we may call 'evil' (while they probably still must have reasons which made them be that way, evil past the point of no return), and not because of exactly what they've done, but how the view what they've done, or how far they go, to the point of insanity, to rationalize their actions (specifically talking about the "blood guy" in the sequel)
Well they might think of themselves as normal people and try to rationalize their heinous acts but no matter what they think of it, that action itself (murder) is what makes a normal person an evil one. Trying to rationalize evil is a something evil people do.
I remember my dad didn’t want to buy us Harry Potter, not because of the whole wizard thing, but because he thought a story about a hairy guy who’s into pottery would be stupid. Ah shit I just remembered that when we first watched the movie and Hagrid kicked down the door my dad whispered to me “is that the hairy guy?”
My mother is awful with names and faces. She doesn’t know Daniel Radcliff’s name, but my dad loves the Harry Potter movies. Any time my mom sees a nondescript white guy with brown hair (bonus points if he’s wearing glasses) on TV or billboards, she’ll ask if that’s “Henry Potter.” Not to mention the fact that my dad has a Gandalf tattoo because he loves LoTR. He’s had that tattoo since before the films came out. And like a year ago my mom pointed at it and said “That’s the Bumble-man guy, right? From your Henry Potter movies?” And wouldn’t back down when my dad said no, that his tattoo isn’t, in fact, dumbledoor.
In Jesus camp there’s a kid wearing a shirt that says “Jesus” in the Reese cup font. I found the shirt online and bought it. I then had to stop wearing it because I was stopped every time I wore it by Christians thanking me for spreading the word and blessing me. Too weird for me.
Same I bought this semi-Rasta tank from Spencer’s back in the day that had the big Jesus T pose statue from Rio blocking a soccer goal that said “JESUS SAVES”. Had to retire it after getting bible verses slung at me like I should know what they mean.
Dear Zachary is one of the most heart wrenching documentaries I’ve ever seen. The crazy thing is that I found it out of nowhere on RU-vid at like 1 AM and thought I’d only watch a little bit of it but ended up pulling an all-nighter and just crying my eyes out
@@manwhosayshi1910 Basically it's about a guy named Andrew Bagby who was murdered by his ex-girlfriend, Shirley Turner. It starts off as a bunch of interviews from Andrew's friends and family about who he was and what effect he had on them. Then it goes off the rails when they find out Shirley was pregnant with Andrews child. She gives birth and names the baby Zachary, and Bagby's parents are awarded custody, since Turner is being charged for murder. Then the movie turns into a sort of message for Zachary to tell him about his father. Spoilers. And then Shirley, with the help of a judge, is released on bail and sues for joint custody of Zachary. On one of the days she has him, she jumped into the ocean with him in a murder-suicide.
I just watched Dear Zachary on your recommendation. I couldn’t sleep and was watching your video, so I figured I’d turn it on. I wept. I truly laid in bed and cried for 20 minutes. The care and love that was put into that documentary shined through in every scene. I was enraged, then disappointed, then enraged again. I gave my 10 month old an extra tight hug as she slept next to me after it finished. There are very few pieces of media that hit quite like Dear Zachary.
I’ve watched far too many of these. “The Act of Killing” particularly spooked me. The men in that video were pure evil. Like, legit “Going to Hell and not giving a shit” evil. On the other side of that coin was “Jesus Camp”. I’ve seen some fucked up shit in my day, but those two docs freaked me the fuck out. **shivers**
The scary thing about religion is that if the child indoctrination by religion goes far enough, the children from Jesus Camp could easily grow up into being the people interviewed in The Act of Killing. The kids would be so damaged that they could kill in 'Jesus Name' and believe that they did nothing wrong and are gonna still go to heaven.
@@seanrosenau2088 You’re not wrong. Many people use the so-called “Word of God” to subjugate others to begin with, then they take more and more agency until it ultimately ends in slaughter.
I've seen Jesus Camp when I was younger, but hearing about it again now along with The Act of Killing, I could feel my blood boil knowing these kinds of people get away with what they do.
@@seanrosenau2088 um. That’s very very very rare, and would only happen in fringe extremist groups. Yes it has/can happen, but most “Jesus camps” treat the children very well and don’t teach them that they can kill in God’s name. No one that believes that would be allowed a position of leadership in any modern church. I could see it happening with the more culty groups though.
Dear Zachary is such a heartbreaking story. It’s one of those situations that reminds you how unfair and cruel life can be for no reason. All anyone in that story gained was endless grief.
Honestly The Act of Killing was one of, if not my most, favorite documentaries I've ever watched. The frankness of their retelling of their acts, Anwars guilt hitting him mid shoot. Im not gonna lie, I smiled when he started dry heaving on the roof, I felt no sympathy for any of the individuals in that movie. A moment in history devoured by The Heart of Darkness
He wasn't lying about Dear Zachary jeeezz. I watched it right after this video and was like "I don't think it'll be that bad, I can handle it".....I cried a whole waterfall of tears. If you feel like you need a cry and have a little anger toward an evil person you can go watch this film. But man, that was intense
I just finished watching it and I was wailing so hard. I went in blind, so it tooks some time before I understood that _that_ had actually happened. It broke my heart. I feel so bad for everyone who were affected by all this.
I saw this documentary years ago and I’m so glad that Mista GG brought it back to my memory, even though I cried the entire time I watched it. Still, sometimes you see a doc that’s so moving that you’re thankful for it, even though it’s so unbelievably sad.
My coworkers watched it one by one till they convinced me to watch it. They wouldn't tell me anything, so I also watched it coming in blind. I screamed at THAT part. I was so pissed, I was crying angry tears. Came in the next day like "WTF?!" They were like "RIGHT?!"
The Act of Killing had me mesmerized from start to finish. I'll never forget it cause I've never seen anything like it. Real evil, real guilt, real denial. It was insane.
The entire documentary had me balling my eyes out but the end really did it for me. It gave me a little bit of hope that there can still be love after such a tragedy, which just made me cry even more. Kurt and Andrew’s parents truly deserve all the love in the world.
The Trials of Gabriel Fernandez was one of the most gut wrenching stories I’ve seen unfold, I may not be that well rounded in disturbing film or documentaries but as a seasoned true crime watcher. It’s one of the only stories that make me feel sick
The Act of Killing is probably my favorite documentary to date. Watching the main guy’s progression and the weight of his actions hit him in those final moments was crazy.
Wasn't the bear that Mauled Timothy actually not one of the local ones at all? For some reason I remember hearing it was a vagrant bear, like sort of a "criminal bear" almost, encroaching on the territory and such.
It was a bear that hadn't managed to gain enough fat to hibernate so it was desperately trying to find food to survive the winter hibernation, so it was very dangerous and Timothy knew that bears out this late in the season were very dangerous yet he did everything that he knew you are 100% not supposed to do near any bear in this desperate state, he hid his tent in bushes, he stayed after the 'safer' season time was over and he encouraged the bear to go near him and his girlfriend! He knew enough about bears to u derstand that even 1 of these things was life threatening yet he did it all, he purposely put his and his girlfriends lives at risk and they both paid the ultimate price, even the bear was killed after the attack and the bear probably attacked them out of starvation and desperation as it wasn't fat enough to survive the winter so would of died anyway, to the bear they were both nothing more than food and I think it took a couple of days before the bear even attacked as it probably didn't know that it could eat them, Timothy had plenty of time to leave but didn't, why he did that only he knows, he knew he was risking his and his girlfriend and still did everything he did so maybe he had a death wish or a mental delusion that he was immune to bear attacks, we'll never know
Anyone interested in Timothy Treadwell should read the article 'Night of the Grizzly - A True Story Of Love And Death In The Wilderness'. The bear that killed them was one the pilot who usually picked Timothy up recognized, a bear with an ear tag aka bear #141, a bear Timothy named Ollie. Timothy knew this bear, and it had been in the area for a long time.
Yeah, it was actually revealed that the bear that killed both him and his girl was actually just some random ass bear who was wandering around, and didn’t have any sort of experience with Treadwell. He happened to run into them, and seeing as how it was nearing Hibernation time, we know the rest. It wasn’t really him getting what was comin to him, but rather, him and his girl being at the wrong place at the wrong time
Okay. DEAR ZACHARY, is without a doubt, one of the best tributes to life and storytelling I have ever seen. I watched it over ten years ago for the first time, and have seen it many times since. Tragic story, very well told.
I’ll never forget my experience in a Christian preschool, my grandma gave me a Harry Potter toy of him riding a broomstick and I took it into class for show and tell only to be verbally attacked and yelled at by psycho older Christian women *cough* *cough* my teachers…. Pretty much from that point on I’ve abandoned all belief systems
I went to a Christian school growninh up and brought my pokemon cards one morning back in 4th grade. The teacher took them and tore them all up. It's not like I had them out in the middle of class either, it was during lunch. It's insane how religion will demonize certain things :/
not such a visceral cause but pretty much the reason I also abandoned all belief systems. In my country, we have a class on Catholic studies and... The hate and vitriol those people possessed to everyone that was different. The victim complex. The lack of any concrete reasoning. It all made me so... Not even angry, just feeling so negative all the damn time I walked into that class. I got to know two things in those times; 1. God doesn't exist because if he did, he wouldn't let those people speak anything like that in his name. 2. And even if he does, I don't want to have anything to do with him.
@@panonymousbloom5405 its not god thats the issue, its the people who do things in his name incorrectly. Its quite disrespectful. Like for me, i believe in a cosmic flow of things and i believe in a higher power or a god. But what i disagree with a lot of the times are religions that try to be the “center” when there are hundreds of thousands of religions that claim the same thing. Then you have the people who do unholy or devious things that literally contradict their laws and beliefs. Religion: I stay away from Holy, Peaceful higher powers: I trust in
Dude... I just finished watching Dear Zachary. Severely underestimated your claim of weeping and found myself in the same exact situation. I'm really glad you encouraged us to go watch it.
Already from the thumbnail, I see Dear Zachary which is heartbreaking. The book is just as heart-breaking. I am a HUGE documentary fan, especially true crime. Grizzly Man was interesting, but I agree it was a long one.
I don’t think Dear Zachary is just sad and disturbing. It also gives me faith in humanity and illustrates the indomitable human spirit. In that documentary you see one person who is sick and evil but also two people and who exude extreme kindness and love in the face of unimaginable tragedy. This is film took a blow torch to my cold heart and forced me to re-examine my cynicism. Whenever I feel like I’m at the end of my rope, I watch the last few minutes of that documentary.
So glad to see someone else say that. Yes, it was heart-breaking, but I was also overwhelmed with how much love all those surviving family members and friends have for each other.
hi, Indonesian here, thank you for taking the time to watch act of killing, it's one the profound history of indonesia but no one is talking about it. it was a witch hunt back in the day, my dad was one of the many witness of this period, he was still a kid at that time. he used to see floating bodies in the same river once or twice, it was said an accident.
Back from Dear, Zachary. While it didn’t break me, it was very heartbreaking. Without saying anything, watch it. It hurts. It does. But it needs to be watched. It’s beautifully made. Heartbreakingly beautiful.
I watched Dear Zachary because of how you described it and I ended up pausing multiple times just to cry and did cried so much that I was literally dehydrated and had a massive headache, and then was straight up not okay for three days. The doc isn't that disturbing but it still manages to leave a massive effect that just stays with you.
Jesus camp was atleast in my opinion very underwhelming so I'm definitely 100% curious to see what you've thought about it. Edit: also true story my aunt was friends with one the extras in the documentary and after it came out they never spoke to each other ever again.
I watched this when it first came out. It opened my eyes to what my mother had to go through, growing up in the bible belt. THAT was what made it disturbing for me.
On a whim I am literally pausing this video to go watch that 'Dear Zachary' movie, you sold me. Be back with an edit. Edit: I do not hesitate when I say.... that was an amazing film and an on a whim action that I highly recommend everyone else take. That movie was alot and made me cry but damn am I glad to say it was worth it.
Just watched it too because of this video... Such a roller coaster... I felt so many emotions watching this film. When the twist hit it literally triggered my flight or fight response because I was wearing earphones. After that I was so mad and so disturbed about what was unravelling. I felt so bad for the victims and their families. This documentary left me in tears but it was so beautifully made and you can feel the love and dedication from the creators. It was heartwrenching yet so heartwarming with the way it was concluded..
I've never seen Jesus Camp but I've actively avoided it after growing up in a homeschooling evangelical cult myself... I know its going to trigger me too brutally. Dear Zachary makes me cry when I think about it to this very day.
Jesus Camp! JESUS CAMP. That docu has been a meme among my family members before memes were even a thing. We were raised religious but were never hardcore like that. Jesus Camp introduced religious extremism to me as a kid...”IF HARRY POTTER WERE ALIVE TODAY, HE WOULD BE PUT TO DEATH!” Same goes for Grizzly Man to a lesser extent. We had a neighbour (loved animals, HATED people and tried to steal our dog) on our road we compared him to.
I’m not a hardcore Christian either but Jesus camp is just disturbing and if anything that camp is the true evil they proclaim their trying to protect the kids from.
“Why did you kill me” is pretty good but kind of unsatisfying in it’s presentation by the end imo. “The trials of Gabriel Fernandez” is also pretty brutal
I just watched "The Act of Killing" and the ending of that documentary truly rattled me. To see Anwar back at the place from the beginning where he danced so joyfully, gagging at the memories of what he's done... it will certainly stick with me for a long time.
I literally got goosebumps again reading this comment because like…you just can’t imagine that it really happened. I was like “there’s no fucking way” After all that love and fighting from his family and it *still* happened
I watched the documentary years ago, and I STILL can remember the exact feeling that punched through my body at that point in the doc. I don't think I've ever felt anything like it before or since.
I watched Dear Zachary with a roommate on a completely random chance, it showed up in the queue we had on and by the end we both just sat in stunned silence. It’s not disturbing in a traditional sense, but it’s an emotionally taxing story that will both destroy and restore your faith in humanity. Its old, from 2008 and it definitely shows its age, but I highly recommend it.
I just finished watching it and I feel so numb after it. I haven't sobbed like that in a while. Watched it after watching this video... what you said, 1000% accurate.
@@lekinova glad I read the comments before I watched the vid. I love gg but imma skip this one. Not interested in triggering another depressive episode when I finally feel a lil happy.
@@ggundercover3681 I’m only okay watching it because I’m on medication and at a really good point mental health wise right now - DONT watch it if you at all feel like you’re not ready because it…hurts
This movie was crazy sad and I feel so bad when I realize that the place where the mom drowned her kid was right next to where I live which is in Newfoundland and labrador
I watch Dear Zachary at least twice a year, it is the perfect example of a “scrapbook documentary” that works, I love it because you will laugh at the funny memories his friends and family share and then you are on the floor crying your eyes out, I love it so much
Right when you got to Dear Zachary, I immediately paused and watched the documentary, and... god that was a lot. Documentaries like this one (and all of the films you talked about in this video) are like the biggest slap in the face of how heavy reality is
What is the premise of this film? Nobody ever goes into detail, I need like a short synopsis. Certain things I watch effect me enough that my life would be in danger if it's sad enough. I don't want to go into it blind, or possibly at all ever.
@@seanrosenau2088 Spoilers Ahead: A man named Andrew Bagby is killed by his girlfriend, Shirley Turner, who then flees to Newfoundland while pregnant with his son Zachary, leaving his family to mourn. Andrews parents, David and Kathleen, move to Newfoundland in order to pursue justice in the interest of their grandson. Long story very much short, Turner is let out on bail as a result of a gross oversight in the Canadian legal system. Not long after, she kills herself along with one-year-old Zachary.
I watched dear Zachary because of your suggestion and I was so so sad for that poor family. They were so loved and I have never cried this hard at anything before. It was so horrible. I really appreciate you bringing awareness to me about their story and also retroactively keeping their memories alive. Rip.
Okay, I just finished watching Dear Zachary, and holy shit I'm still bawling my eyes out. I'm so fucking glad they passed Zachary's Bill so no child has to endure this ever again. Fuck dude, that was just... heartbreaking.
Fun fact I just learned: all warlocks are wizards but not all wizards are warlocks, a warlock is a wizard of great achievements or a really strong one. So harry was a wizard at the beginning and a warlock by the end of the series! The more you know!
Nah, the difference is that wizards use intelligence and warlocks use charisma. Wizards study books and warlocks have a patron god that grants them powers. This joke was brought to you by D&D, please play responsibly.
If we go by very old definitions, "warlock" used to mean a man who had broken his oath in old English, which came to mean a man who who denounced good and chose allegiance with evil powers.
I went to watch "Dear Zachary" during the segment mid-video, going in completely blind, and it destroyed me. There is so little malice and so much hope during the whole documentary that it shatters you. I somehow happy cried and got goosebumps out of pure visceral rage within 40 minutes.
Usually when u recommend some of these disturbing films i never actually check em out cuz i have no interest in watching them myself... But somehow u convinced me to check out dear zachary smh. The amount of tears that i shed watching this must be unhealty... The amount of overwhelming emotion.. All the rage and sadness this story made me experience was truly heart wrenching... I can't even imagine what this must have been like for Kate and Andrew, they must've been some incredibly strong people. My heart is with all of them. This story has genuinely left me devasted and speechless. RIP to Andrew and little Zachary😔♥ To think i'm only a couple months older than little zach...
Two I would recommend that are actually on RU-vid are “There’s something wrong with Aunt Diane” and “Just Melvin, just Evil”. Both can be considered rough watches for different reasons.
I just watched Wrinkles the Clown. Not as disturbing as these but a little unsettling. Like I lived in Florida when it was happening but somehow didn’t know about it..
The Act Of Killing always fascinates me. Something about it is so grounding. It makes you think of your own mortality and morality as you hear these men speak on their crimes.
Have u seen the documentary "tell me who I am" I went into it kinda blind so as someone who likes messed up stories and documentaries I definitely got what I wanted. It's about brothers but one lost his memory in a motorcycle accident. The other brother told him what he forgot. His childhood. Except it wasn't the truth. (it's on Netflix) Theres another good one I think is on Hulu about three long lost brothers, triplets. Who were all separated at birth. They find each other and it's this insane incredible reunion, until they start figuring out why they were separated. This one is amazing personally had me in disbelief. (Documentary is called three identical strangers)
My high school film as literature teacher told me and my classmates about Dear Zachary. He was the most emotionless human I had ever met but when he started talking about the film, he was visibly getting upset. I decided to watch it afterwards. I was not ready for the overwhelming onslaught of depression.
Harry Potter is indeed a wizard. A warlock would have gotten their power from a pact with another entity. Wizards develop their magical abilities through study.
The Jesus Camp one scares me because I grew up with a lot of similar issues. I'm still Christian but I heavily avoid going to church because it's way too much and this mentality and behavior is dangerous. It really is.
@Odd Eyes94 Hello kindred spirit. Because I grew up hearing similar crap mentioned in Jesus Camp too. And sadly because my research and personal practice of our shared religion, I see what's shown in Jesus Camp and many other fanatical groups as more of psychological manipulation than a genuine pursuit of salvation and fellowship with God.
@@DemonicRemption thank you, this is something i struggle to explain to my parent. it's not that i lost faith in God, i lost faith in a corrupt and psychologically/emotionally damaging MLM claiming to represent God
The night terrors start when you realize each of those adults was once a child, and they never stood a chance. They didn't make any choice to lie to children or be hateful. This is how they were raised. They are simply reflections of their environments.
This made me pause and then watch Dear Zachary finally. Its one of the best documentaries Ive ever seen. I was on the verge of tears and the ending is just...well its bittersweet you can say. If you havent seen it go see it, you wont regret it.
I'm Christian, but when people like that lady be going dogma on some kids and twisting things to her view instead of just spreading good love of God. It makes me real angry !
Because you're most likely not Evangelical though I could be wrong. I was raise Christian, Catholic the main difference I notice between how I was raised and how Evangelicals are raised it that my beliefs are private and I practice in my church or with my Family, where as they're beliefs are Public and practice every where and always and if someone doesn't agree that person must be saved.
So happy to see dear Zachary being talked about, honestly one of my favorite docs. Another interesting one is 'There's Something Wrong with Aunt Diane, the last 10 minutes are what really make it memorable,
Dear Zachary is so powerful the goddamn trailer alone brought people to tears. It's such an amazing documentary with a heartbreaking story that everyone should watch at least once.
I had the opportunity to watch Dear Zachary when it was released and I am so glad that more people are watching it and paying attention. I will never forget my first time seeing it. The part where the grandfather begins to rage is so painful. I remember feeling nauseous at multiple points bc of just how much grief I felt for all of these people. Such a tragedy
I also recommended "The Imposter" I won't ruin it but it's very twisted in a lot of ways... Also, "How to die in Oregon" is a good one, it's about assisted suicide in Oregon. "The Keepers" was extremely boring. There was another about Jonestown I think it's called "Paradise Lost: Jonestown"
