I Will Die One Day 

The dog’s name is Sonny.

If Riza has 2.35k fans, then I'm one of them. If Riza has one fan, then I'm THAT ONE. If Riza has no fans, that means I'm dead.

Maybe im speaking from my autistic hiperfixation side, but in regular intervals of time, whenever I change fandoms or real life stuff too; something, an event, an occurrence, a place, it becomes kind of a pinpoint in the universe in me (whatever this means, my word-choice here is to evoke a feeling... Or maybe not.) Your chair video became one of those pinpoints

oo a fellow cs student, the fact that you managed to study CS, japanese and manage a youtube channel all at once is genuinely impressive

I don"t know why this got recommande to me, but i'm happy to see you're still with us, thank you for your story, i'm proud of you and happy birthday

Even though my english is not that good to understand all of that or Comfort you but i hope you will get though of it. Almost everyone and even myself have that time atlest once in their life. Sometime i feel like i will die and i am gonna die. I feel emty. The world is still colorful, i still hear the sound of everything but i just don't feel alive. And then when i was about to kms, i found something to attach to. That time i was clinging to hnk to feel alive. I just told myself "When this manga end, my life will end" so i wait until that end. Then hnk end but in the same time, i found something i could call the purpose of my life. Not everyone in our generation could get though that time so i am happy that i did it. I can decide your life but i did really hope you can find your way. Your future is in you and your life too. May the good thing come to you

Hey, I relate to a lot. I was born autistic, and was raised by an abusive mother that probably gave me PTSD and depression. I always felt broken, isolated, so far from everything and everyone else. I also always felt death close at hand, despite being overall healthy. The fear of never managing to ever be fulfilled, of not having enough time. I am now healing, if slowly, and seeing you do the same and overcome your trauma and insecurities fills me with hope. I truly wish you find all the happiness you deserve and comfort in the fact of being worth no less than anyone else. If anything, your honesty and intelligence and gentleness elevate you above many mean-spirited, judgemental people that made you suffer.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I hope you have a good day today, and your dog is super cute :).

You're video's, your opinions and your views have given me so much joy, sadness, and fullfimment. I felt so alive watching your Houseki no Kuni videos. Thank you ❤

The beginning made me cry inside im a very emotional person. Other than that happy birthday you are an amazing person we love you and we are here for you

The life wisdom I have come to accept recently is that no one is born broken, no one is born defective, no one is born inherently wrongly or even evil (except that one guy. We all know what you did). If you feel unloved though, you are probably just in the wrong place or time, and this is an experience that affects nearly everyone alive. My advice: travel more. That is the most likely way to find one's place in the world before it shrinks away too much.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Hearing you be so hopeful is very encouraging.

Congratulations on your success. We all will die one day, nothing should last forever, but right now we're still here, so let's enjoy every little bit of it until it ends. I really like the way you speak, no constant screaming or over enthusiasm for views and attention. You speaks like a genuine person sharing something you want to share and I'm all for it. Looking forward for your content, so don't get cancelled pls. And a late happy birthday i guess.

Happy Birthday! I wish you and Sonny well!

Happy birthday, do content that you like I'll definitely be supporting!!

You have the most incredible story and you’ve touched so many lives already (mine included)! I love your courage to speak about both the challenges you’ve been through and the things you love!

I might be a bit late but. As someone with a similar but not exact family situation, I feel this many have died in my family and my thoughts about myself. But I salute you for doing your best even now.

We're the same age!! Im so happy you are alive!! happy (late) birthday :3 ur story resonates with me and made me feel not alone. Thank you for still being here and sharing your story. I enjoy your houseki videos a lot \⁠(⁠ϋ⁠)⁠/⁠♩

If you like deep series, I highly recommend Sonny Boy. It’s my favorite anime of all time. It took two watches to get it, but I love it so much. I’m on my third watch through now.

Hello Riza, I wish you a happy birthday and hope you have a great day. Its hard to muster words, but know you're awesome. Have a hug from beyond time and space.

Happy late birthday❤️ I would love to see whatever you make videos on next, wether it’s hnk or something else, and I hope you continue to live on and lead a happy life.

This is such a beautiful video, thank you for sharing this to the world and telling your story :D

I just wanted to say that this brightened my day, so thanks! Also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Hope you're doing better now and find joy in the future

Happy birthdayyy! The title caught me wayyy off guard but still though happy Birthdaayyyy

Thank you for sharing your story. Hearing what you've gone through and your perspective on that suffering is leading me to think about my battles differently. You are an incredibly strong person, it takes strength and maturity to trust in God that way. I hope to become strong like you. All the best, glad you're still with us, and Happy Birthday

Happy birthday :)

Happy birthday 🎂 I hope you will have a wonderful day 💛

happy bday ritz ;D have a great bday

Happy birthday from France I Hope you have a great day.

Good luck

Happy Birthday!

Happy birthday riza! ❤

Happy Birthday!!!

VERY VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Cruel as it sounds, I believe you beyond your current awareness chose your life. To learn that you are inherently worthy, that you are loved and that you are love, that you deserve happiness no matter your condition. Your dedication is astonishing, the continuous train of thought that permeates your videos is a reflection of your personality, the meaning within and extent to which you find yourself in Houseki, expanding your understanding of yourself, others and the world. Pain is the ultimate expression of love, you are your experience, there is nothing to judge, you are you and that is absolute, the future is open. Your dedication inspires, the depths to which you engage, how much detail you draw out. We are born in various life conditions to experience and appreciate the contrast. Our suffering is our own, your journey is uniquely yours, you only suffer because you love so much. Our stay on Earth is relatively short. Death is not the end, it is the integration of all you learned and experienced here, a reflection of every lesson, every insight, every experience, every moment. How you transform suffering, how you learn to love yourself. The world reflects you and you transform your environment from the inside out. Each individual leaves behind legacy for others to flourish upon. There is much to experience in this life, the world is vast, our experience limited but that gives it all the more meaning. Draw out as much as you can in the mean time. Nothing is ever wasted. Whether you find that one person, you've already become a beacon of light. Loving what you do will bring you close to those who appreciate you for being uniquely yourself. Nothing is lost, what you let go merges back into the infinite field of possibilities from which it came. You keep the memory, you keep that love, you will find it again, no one truly dies, death is merely a change of form, you will find in many forms that which you feel you have lost again. Yet to grow is to change and you always change, your environment changes, but you remain, your body changes, but you're still you, your thoughts and identity change, but you know yourself to be you nonetheless. You are a beautiful person. Your videos are an expression of you as you are an expression of the infinite materializing as a person. God guides you as you create your experience, you explore the world within yourself through the canvas of your life, bringing around those who resonate with your experience. Just like Houseki no Kuni explores suffering, meaning and love. I appreciate you immensely. Learn to love the person you are, you are more than you give yourself credit for.

Become fire punch for me

and then you can get up again c: