Being falsely accused of being drunk REALLY pisses me off. I totally get the thinking, *"Well I wasn't but I guess I will now since that's what you think of me".* Really hard not to give in to that feeling.
Hey. Totally understand. Try to remember, as hard as it is, that sometimes people are going to use that excuse. June 21 I'll have 19 years and some people still use that as an excuse to ignore their own problems. NEVER, EVER LOOSE YOUR GRATITUDE! NEVER ALLOW ANYONE TO TAKE AWAY YOUR JOY OR.SELF RESPECT. GOD BLESS🙏😸❤
Although you and LD have very different styles, you both have a level of sincerity that just comes across. I can tell it’s not just about you, but you both genuinely want to help anyone who is struggling. (Also, I will be checking out the other channels you shouted out.)
:) this is an awesome comment grace. I really do care. This disease, these struggles we go through. We need others to help, to lift us up. To show people you aren’t alone. Much love, thanks for always being in the comments. My friend grace! 🙏🏻✌🏻
A lot of my fear about drinking again is because I imagine drinking like I used to (2 days benders) with my new sober body that hasn't had a drink for a year and 7 months...I have no doubt when I'm hungover it'll be the worst hangover I've ever had, plus the worst DT's I've ever had. I've convinced myself that I'll have a stroke or at least a seizure. When I was hungover from drinking 20+ years I used to have crushing anxiety...could you imagine having that anxiety after a year and 7 months sober? I'd have a psychological breakdown, I'd be paranoid I was going to have a heart attack. And the shame of having relapsed? My gosh, not even worth thinking about. Still very strong in my sobriety and I love your videos.
Wow thanks for the generous comments Slayer, and thanks to your followers too who came over to my channel to say hello. You've built a really good community in your comments. That point you made in the second half of this video, about how people suspecting you of drinking can make you want to drink, that's so real. Haven't heard anyone call that out before but that's a BIG trigger for me.
Absolutely brother, your videos are awesome. You come off as a genuinely cool dude. Also 100% man, it’s a giant trigger for me, also you and many others. It hurts to be accused when you’re trying to do the right thing. Much love bat country, keep doing your thing man. 🙏🏻
What up bat country I'm going to take slay's word for it I'm going to hop over and check you out bro One of my favorite songs is bat country by avenged sevenfold wonderful song I'm sure you've got a lot of great stuff homie I'm going to go over there and subscribe to you brother stay strong keep your boots tight Don't look back
Almost 4 months sober now, your videos definitely help. I have had some thoughts of relapsing, but I didn't do it. I would go all out too and buy a bottle. It's how I've always drank. I'm a binge drinker for sure. Hope everyone else watching is doing well.
That is a fuc^*}~ accomplishment brother. 4 months, we are in the same boat. Keep going strong, you are worth it. You always show love in the comments. You’re a good person my friend. Keep going strong!!!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373 oopse, it's actually 3 months. It's like you said though, it doesn't really matter, it's not a competition. Every sober day is a victory.
It’s gonna get easier day after day and I’m only two months ahead of you! I promise. Oh! Speaking of the shout outs from the beginning of the video, my videos don’t have anything to do with alcohol but they might be enjoyable to you guys. They might. Surprise the shit out of you too.
5 days sober today Slayer. Past the withdrawals. It is one day at a time now. Your videos are a big big help too many people including me . Never stop being you :)
This is fkin epic!!!! This is why I do this RU-vid stuff. To see comments like these. Luke, my brother you’ve got this!!! DONT FALL BACK TO THE POISON! 🙏🏻
Thankyou slayer and no way in hell I'm going back to the position, I just keep reminding myself how horrific and scary those withdrawals were , and kindling is a real thing it's terrifying as you probably know. It get worse every time , and your abloutley correct it is just poison al khull body eating spirits. Thanks again Slayer
@@LukePowell-hy2wvHey Luke proud of you for making the decision to put the poison down and not look back. It's not easy as we all know, the temptation seems to always be there no matter what but it is so important to just stay in the present stay in today yesterday is gone tomorrow is unborn so today is the day to seize and conquer my friend You can do it stay strong stay focused You got this homie!
Hi Slayer! It’s so good to see you today! I used to work nights ( I’m a Nurse). I’m so happy and proud for your sobriety ❤💚 You are a sweet soul. Ty for sharing your journey and helping others in the same Boat 😊🤘🏻 take care God Bless 🎉
I’d suggest anyone who struggles with mental health issues like ocd, intrusive negative thoughts, impulse control, insecurities, Personality disorders like BPD please tred lightly. AA for me was more hurtful than helpful. Careful who you trust. Also don’t look to anyone as knowing it all. B kind to you You’ll find your way
Hey Slayer, you’re such a kind soul, thank you for the shout out. You’re totally right , I could see myself hanging out with you. It’s so strange how we can connect without knowing each other IRL. I appreciate you uploading this video and seeing you just share your perspective. It’s authentic and raw. I completely get it, work and life gets busy. You do you, we’ll be here. Even a post just hearing you’re good is appreciated 😃. One of the things that really stands out that you said is how counting days of sobriety is tough and it’s such a struggle. Like I’m again on day 7, my journey didn’t start off with quitting altogether but I have been asking myself the tough questions. It’s only going to get worse. Well today I’m sober, I hope it gets easier…one day at a time. If it just weren’t the first thing that pops into my head ugh. Anyways hope you got some rest and you had a great day. See ya ✌️.
Congrats and that first thought won’t be there forever promise. After idk decades in I had my first using dream in I’d say 15yrs. I was more dumbfounded than fearful. Just me popping Vicodin again. Maybe try waking up and stepping on the opposite side of the bed. Try doing things backwards. It makes your brain slow down. Eat with non dominant hand? U got this & if ya need us we’re here always
Hey Mic!! I just have to apologize bc I think I misremembered some info in the last comment I sent you. I had said that you hadn't come from a place of alcohol addiction, and idk if I was wrong with that comment. Bc there was one time where you asked me about how long I'd had my sobriety, and I thought you had said that you didn't suffer from aud, but were just looking to cut down. I bring this to up bc I hope I didn't offend you in assuming that you weren't struggling with addiction. I just relayed in a comment to Slayer that I think that if someone threw the bunch of us into a room together we'd never shut up. I def see you guys as friends and would never want to minimize anything you're going through! Hope you're having a great day! And 6 days is bada$$ haha
@@amandaflaherty7528good morning friend, your memory serves you well 😊 I remember reading one of your post and wondered if you were early in your sobriety to find you had several years under year belt. Again Congratulations, it’s a huge accomplishment. This has been a year of reflection for me as I didn’t think I had an issue. Well it all started with dry Jan I did that back in 2023 too no biggie. Well I couldn’t stop thinking about drinking poison again so few days into feb there I was drinking fast and to excess. March same thing, here comes April…more drinking. Why can’t I stop finding reasons to drink? You’re right on, for me this started with let’s cut down, I need to press reset. So do I suffer with AUD? I now believe that I do because I check many of the boxes. Do I believe I’ll have enough self-control to be able to drink again, probably but I want to make a conscious effort to feel safe again. Maybe it never happens for me and I’ll have to give it up. Which I’m ok with the health issues alone is reason enough to never touch it again. You and many others have helped me peel back the onion to see that our journeys may look different but the struggle is the same. Thank you friend for being so open and allowing me to do the same. Happy to hear your siblings are in town and you have some time off. Have a great Friday and enjoy it to the fullest. 💜 💜
@@Kristen10-22Hey Kristen I appreciate your comments always. Im going to try to do things differently…that makes a lot of sense. I hope you have a great day.
Absolutely Kristen, it can hurt the people that are new to sobriety, it makes me sad thinking about that. I know it messed me up as well. 100% we are all in our heads as addicts. Much love Kristen take care! 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373 ditto ♥️ Yeah being 3 wayed way back when with 2 “sponsors” felt like a trip back to school. All over “Benadryl” to help me sleep. Damn that addict in me. Lol
KRISTEN!! I am so sorry that happened!! I am seeing red right now, what a horrific thing to have stuck in your memory. I'm sending you enormous hugs, friend. I'm glad you're in a space where you can vent these things. I hope you have a great day!
Yo my homie Thank you so much for the shout out always sharing your videos with the right people and I know that no matter what you put out it's very honest and very raw and that's what gravitated me to your channel but first popped up along my stream it was a God send You are a God send My friend to so many people I love seeing your numbers going up the people in the comments are going up and you are building something brick by brick and it's amazing to see I'm so proud of you. The thing that I really like about this video was when you were mentioning about counting your days That is one thing that I stayed away from after some failures as I would write down a day and then I would fail so on and so forth and I just stopped because it just makes you conscious of that and my alcoholic brain messes with me and the more I'm conscious of it the more I think about it and the less I think about it the stronger I am. To each their own whatever works for you do it but this is what works for me I've tried it the other way but I just can't do it no more feel me homie? So I'm just living one day at a time making my kids interest my interests and living for my family. So happy you decided to upload this video every time you say something it carries weight Even if you think you're rambling on or getting off base you're still on point man Don't ever quit Just keep going Love you slay! Oh btw If you want to do and sit down or whatever I'll do it even though I really don't want to lol because of the fear of public speaking but I believe most people have that unlike you you have a gift to just sit there and talk and spill your guts and be 100% comfortable with it man I admire that so much You're really really good dude and also Good job cleaning up the language man You're doing a great job You've repented of that and you even bleed yourself out that's so funny because when you get caught up into talking about something and you get passionate about it it just comes out and it's so funny how you just edited that out anyway I'll stop rambling now enjoy your day in Colorado It's a little cold here in Wisconsin but it's getting warmer lol Love you brother❤❤
I’m so sorry brother I’m just now seeing this, my RU-vid comments have been so fked up, this is just a beautiful comment my friend. No words, you lift me up more than my real life friends….. god bless you luke, I really hope you’re doing well out there my friend.
Regarding the number of days in recovery. Absolutely, in the early days its better to just concentrate on recovery. I only mention mine to give people hope. Having said that, between 1986 and 1996 I was in and out of rehabs. It wasn't until.2095 I finally made the decision. So, my recovery certainly wasn't and.easy. if I gabs made anyone feel.uncomfortable it was unintentional. God Bless😸🙏❤
Hey brother, that is absolutely amazing. Please don’t take what I said wrong. The fact that you have long time sobriety is a GIANT WIN. It’s so hard. You being a bit older you have that wisdom brother, share your story. Give people that hope. Much love man, take care Richard ! 🙏🏻
Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out!!!❤ Slayer, please keep me in your prayers. I’m really going through an extremely difficult time right now. Lots of Love and Respect Always! ~Cindy
Hi again, I’m so sorry you’re going through a difficult time. Life throws us curb balls. Give yourself grace my friend. You’ll get through this. Stay strong. Whatever you need I’m here.
Be praying for you sorry to hear about the trials your going through, proud of you for reaching out its never easy on your own we got your back you can do this God bless you and you have much brighter days ahead of you! ❤️
@@lukebrown7340 so true Luke, this road is full of bumps and curves but the sun ☀️ is just waiting over the horizon just need to get though the darkness. Hope you’re having a nice weekend.
@@Micru866 It really is! Thank you so much for reaching out to me. I will get through this. I’m just not sure how yet. I’m having very serious problems with going through a divorce right now. It means a lot for you to reach out.♥️
i have to say your command of the english language is very good. no alcohol dementia for you. so keep growing within and keep our journey safe as you are so needed in this world
Hey brother, that is awesome of you to say. Let me speak to you for a moment. I’m extremely sorry that she went and drank brother, I really am. I know that feeling, don’t give up on her but remember when you need to distance for your own sake. It breaks my heart ever hearing when someone has gone back to the bottle. Keep me updated brother please. God bless 🙏🏻
@@Slayer-7373 thankyou i will continue to update you because you have humanity and this is your calling and you need the stories to have good content. it’s heartbreaking but i will not abandon her even though it’s hard
@@andreflavell3453 much love brother, I know what you’re going through. Don’t give up on her. You’ve got this man, take one thing at a time. I’m so sorry man I really am. I know how hard this is. Pray for her brother, pray for her. Take care man. 🙏🏻
Slayer! What's up! I really dig the style bro! For real! I like how you are just flowing brother. It's like I was just chilling out with you. I would do some more of these bro. Thanks for the shout out brother! I was waiting on my video to upload and saw you just posted, so I had to check it out. I didn't think about the sobriety day thing. I've been talking about it lately in my videos and I didn't even think that I might be making some people feel uncomfortable. Thanks for bringing that up! You are definitely right. Anyway.... thanks for the video bro! I really enjoyed it! God bless😊😊😊
Beautiful comment my friend. Thanks so much LD. I would not have my RU-vid if not for you. Keep killing it brother, much love and don’t ever hold back from hitting me up if you ever need anything or someone to talk to. ✌🏻🙏🏻god bless.
Got one month clean from ❄️. Slipped for a couple weeks , now I'm just about two weeks clean. Community is what makes me want to keep fighting. Ive accepted that I will fall when I isolate. You can stay in touch with friends and family but Without anyone truly there it makes it easier to slip into a bad place . Your videos have been there for me the last few months so thanks. It's been a 7 year long battle hopefully I win and get my life back
You are on point with your comment it truly makes it easier with a community of like minded people that are focused on the same goal not only for themselves but really care about walking along side the ones that are struggling. Doing it by yourself is like being in a boxing ring fighting a one on one match with a ten foot giant you might get your swings in but if you don't have anybody in your corner it seems like we always get TKO'D. Keep fighting the good fight You can do this my friend!
Hey slayer brother! Thank you for another excellent video. I am 100% in agreement with you on counting days etc. I have nothing against it whatsoever- but I don’t hold it as a commodity. I keep it in the background because if I think everyday about not drinking it will not be productive. Would def like to chat live and or interview. Lots to share behind my struggles esp my family and upbringing. As they say “everyone has a story”. But anyway, thanks again for your supportive content. Bravo again.
Hey brother! Thanks for this comment man. I will write your name down man, let’s make this interview happen. I’ve seen you for a while in the comments always showing love. Do you have an instagram or anything brother that we could message on?
@@Slayer-7373 hey brother! Actually I no longer have any social media like FB or IG etc. But if you have telegram or signal let me know your contact and I’ll hit you up
hi there my friend. she drank last night till she passed out . i was talking to her on the phone. i didn’t judge as she will do this to herself. relapsed after 5 to 6 weeks. rehab was only 3 weeks of a 9 week course . i am concerned she will drink again as she loses her mind. I sailed to another country for self preservation. I can only support her from a distance. you are our rock my friend. we are so loved by us all .
@@Slayer-7373 she drinking again tonight bro . this is 2 nights now .. i worry she will start drinking mid morning again . if this continues she will lose her mind as signs are showing. when she gets drunk she has fits i her hands . of course i’m not in the same country. but talk on the phone till she passes out . she will die if this continues i’m sure . she had everything prior to heavy drinking. not sure what i can do ? i don’t have the resources to take care of her and i feel guilty for this .
Definitely a vid to re watch a few times. Thanks man, also tomorrow will be one week sober and I am NOT buying any alcohol tomorrow, already got a plan on what I'm doing tomorrow and this weekend by the hour and I'm sticking to it to get out of this cycle! You inspired me man!
WHaaaaaat?!!!! That is absolutely fcking incredible. Don’t let a soul on this earth take that week away from you. This is an awesome comment, these comments inspire me brother. One day at a time my friend! 🙏🏻
Good stuff. I am glad you have those four months. I appreciate the shoutout. Thanks, brother. I watch LD's channel a lot. It's funny you mention Sacred Serpent. One of the first videos I ever watched on alcohol withdrawal was Sacred Serpent walking around a mausoleum talking about delerium tremens and rewatched it last night. Sorry to edit this again, but coincidentally, Bat Country was my 200th sub. Heh.
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks man. I am up for a collaboration. I don't give a damn who knows I am an alcoholic. The shades do give a little bit of anonymity, but I ain't shy.
Another great channel for Alcohol recovery is Kyle Sullivan. This guy was a disastrous alcoholic and it's amazing how he turned his life around and evolved into body building and art. One of the best evolutions I've seen in character
Proud of you for getting your thoughts together and making the decision to start working towards getting healthy! I think it's very important to stay in the now stay in today Don't worry about the past tomorrow is unborn You can do this I pray for you and your journey Welcome to the channel! 💯
@@Slayer-7373 Not too good it feels impossible to stop drinking, I can only go 2 days before feeling like life is pointless & I can't handle it but I'm always depressed because of drinking.
@@juliangoodman33 hey brother I’m sorry you’re going through this I know how hard it is I really do but you gotta give it more than 2 days. It might take a month before you start feeling normal again but trust me you do start to feel normal again. I’d suggest going to a detox or a hospital if you go through bad withdrawals and maybe get into a program or start up AA. Something inside of you wants to quit because you wouldn’t even be commenting this if you didn’t. I believe in you brother, keep strong!! 🙏🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks for taking the time to reply man. I guess I'll try again then lol and I'll take your advice on the programs or whatever if I really can't do it. I'll be sure to watch your videos as I go. Thanks man, Legend.
Hey Slayer!! Just got here!! My sibling came home for the weekend, and I'm on spring break (work in a preschool), so I've been hanging out with the fam. So I'm late to everything! Have to go on LD's channel, too, but I saw your video was up and needed to give it a look!! I appreciate you so much for thinking about us! I agree, we are cut from the same cloth! I think we'd all never be able to shut up if we were thrown in a room together haha also, I appreciate this video so much. I love what you said, that you'd never be able to achieve 20 years sobriety without 2 days sobriety. What a fantastic way of looking at things! It's also true that we need to always be vigilant. We'll always have to be vigilant when it comes to our health. But I think I scared myself so much when I came out of it that that feels like a good trade off. I hope that you and everyone in this awesome community has a great day!! ❤🙏😁
Amanda!!!! I love seeing your comments, they always bring a smile to my face. We do care so much, this disease can be extremely lonely. We need to help our fellow brothers and sisters. Much love Amanda, have a fantastic day!!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
@Slayer-7373 I couldn't agree more, Slayer!! And the feeling is mutual. I really appreciate everything you share with all of us. It's inspiring to see the level of care and love you share with anyone who needs it. This world in general can be such a lonely place, but add in addiction, and it can feel so much more lonely. It really makes my day to share my time with all of you, and I look forward to continuing this journey together! 😁
You did well up loading this video ! You look good even if its 3 am and I am happy to see you smile and laugh. Thanks again for your good vibrations on this sobriety track 🙏🏻 !!
Hey man, just dropping a comment, as usual great video, I'm still struggling in my sobriety journey, apologies sometimes i write comments when wasted and cant remeber, I'm not an agressive drunk but my grammer and spelling goes to shit
