0:00 Shadow - Wild Nothing 5:08 A dream of You - Far Caspian 9:54 Space Song - Beach House 15:45 It's Late - A Beacon School 21:53 Dreamgaze - CASTLEBEAT 24:57 Finding My Way Home - Far Caspian 29:51 Taxi's Here - Tame Impala
cat on my lap, thoughts running fast argument to argument, perfect backround music to have an existential crisis about. yup this is all so poetical, all I need is a drink~
I know I'm only 14, but I am a literal doomer. Not the kind of doomer of how society is or how the world is, I'm a doomer because I'm lonely, have no friends, no social life, just socially anxious and depressed. Every day is the same and I use fake smiles. Not to mention I hate myself and that I just don't care anymore. What's funny is that, when I was younger, I never thought I let myself go.
I found this playlist one day before my girlfriend broke up with me, I find it funny and sad at the same time, its been a whole month since thing and she hasn't texted me in 9 days saying she wouldn't "abandon" me and that we would still be "friends" Also said that it was the wrong time for her as well to be in a relationship but I saw her on Tinder the other day. It sucks that I still want to be with her so much but it seems like she has forgotten about me already and has moved on.
Update : 23 days since shes last texted me but still follows me on all my social media (even one of my emo accounts) which is one of the biggest mixed signals to me but Im doing better so far lost 20 pounds since then. cause I started working out again and watching what I've been eating.
Update: she finally responded back to me after 75 days I’m probably gonna text back later today, my feelings are conflicted but At least I didn’t let myself go after the breakup, at the breakup I was 230 pounds but now I’m down to 190 pounds and I feel much better, I’m prepared for whatever happens I hope.
Update: shes with another man and it was my fault for the break up and I understand why, the first love is the hardest to lose but It is best for me to learn from this then to be angry
heeyy, came back here after a year, this video is kinda special now, its where I've met "doomer music" as a genre. I made a Spotify playlist with only Shadow & A dream of You , and now it counts 43 songs and still growing with every song being carefully selected and I listened to every song over 100 times. its such a random thing, but thank you @MusicalCopium, you introduced me to quite the journey
I don't remember the last time my brain was silent. It feels like it was never silent and all I wish for is to feel that calm relaxing silence in my head for at least 5 mins.
listening to this while walking to another day at school that feels the exact same every day, and the sky is full of grey clouds. What does the future hold for me, I wonder, as I did years ago. Now look at me....
Dam the same thing ever day sorta of felt the same I guess this my final 5 months before i finish off school and head to my own path a path of loneliness I guess
I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to be better because, being a doomer, I destroy myself in a second. If I want to live and do something else, you know you have to change your mind and check your behavior.
@@jesuschrist711 Yet it is but a fleeting memory, so nostalgic, and endearing yet so painful; It's like a fever dream that you know is real. You remember it so clearly, yet it hurts to think back on. You feel safe in that moment, but when you return to the present day, it hurts, because you realize those days are gone, and only hollowness is the only future you can see.
I’m chasing things that won’t fill the void of happiness I’m missing. But it seems as all powerful men have them. And I guess deep down I never wanted money or fame just respect. Wish somebody would of gave the younger me the hug I really deserved. Still haven’t got it. And I don’t want a hug for doing something for somebody - why can’t I have one just for being me 😢 sorry if I messed up but I’m trying but I know it’s not hard enough but even trying is hard, okay?
