Been an drug addict since I was 15 and the feeling of doing that last bit of whatever drug or alcohol you're on has gotta be one of the most empty feelings there is. I've been clean for periods of time and then I fall right back into it as easy as falling into bed when you're tired. For anyone reading this that hasn't travelled down this path,take the high road my friend because there is nothing down this low road besides emptiness,heartache and suffering.
It makes for good stories but seriously nothing glamorous or fun about H or Coke addiction. Im guessing from experience that for every 2 old guys who can sit around talking there's a half dozen who didnt survive.
@@RyanNJ I (think) the only way to get fent into ur coke is if ur dealer or dealers dealer is wacking up coke and heroin on the same scale or table and they scrape that shit into ur bag. It doesn't make sense to me to put fentanyl in ur coke...
For real it's like that ive been clean 3 yrs now but I rem having the same rig for a week and just messing up my arms with that old rig and before someone who hasnt lived it says why didnt you buy a new one only addicts will no what I'm talking about
Sober 3/12/19 from smack, coke, benzos and everything else under the sun, died twice from overdose started at 13 stopped at 20, only shot a few times..once Mister Needle and Miss Spoon get into the equation it's a whole nother level of dark..most people never come back from it sadly
Joey Diaz is the only person that can put me to sleep the minute I hear his voice. It soothes me. This is in no way bad. He’s the soundtrack to many a comfortable nights.
To anyone who finds this and it’s struggling with addiction, you can do it! Everyone has the potential to get off of any drug, what makes it so hard (if your like me) is believing you won’t be able to or thinking how dull and boring sobriety is, however life will more than likely always be shit.. but guaranteed to be worse if you don’t focus on doing what’s right for you and becoming clean. YOU GOT THIS CHAMP
Got 7 years sober from the H and many other drugs boys! Got 3 beautiful daughters from the woman I used with (now engaged) and I got off food stamps and got a pretty good job in power plants and oil refineries. Even tapering from xans was hard as hell but so worth it. My brain chemistry is so flipped now even all these years later I still don’t think I’ll ever feel “normal” again. I am learning to cope with that. Drugs took my Grandma (passed away while reading the Bible from accidental prescription O.D) I went to tell her bye for school and seen her foaming and purple. Fucked me up. I was shooting dope since 9th grade and had hep C by 17. Luckily Thank God my body fought it off,I’m 26 now. Shit just feels like one big blurry chapter that was never supposed to happen. But here we are. I can’t deny it. It’s who I was. Not who I am.. It don’t help being bipolar and depression ridden so bad some days I wouldn’t get out of bed to shower for weeks and was lucky to eat a pizza lunchable from speedway any given day. I’m doing better then I ever have. Thank God for microdosing ✌🏼🍄❤️
I used to do roller coaster all the time. I always mixed 2 oxy 80s with a 0.2 of coke. Never felt any come downs on coke. Bin clean a year now and fuck everydays a struggle man.
2:10 Eventually, any addiction turns to using just to avoid getting sick. Dude gets high for a split second when he started because he felt freedom for hours each time he used. That's EVERY addiction. Caffeine will eventually be about using to feel "awake" (not lethargic af). It's sad when it turns to simply avoiding withdrawl.
Cryptom it is a physical dependan e. Also this guys comment about "addiction" is one of the dumbest statements I've heard in a while. Do your homework before making a public comment for millions to read.
why don't you build something or make or fix something with your time. I'm an addict and i literally have to stay busy until i am so tired that i need sleep then get up eat take care of myself then stay busy again. when you dont feel the urge to use is too strong, then take a day break or so and you WILL appreciate that time you give to yourself so much more.
*props to you guys for sharing so much gritty, personal aspects of your lives; if you help just one person none of it will have been in vain* the chasing freedom thing blew my mind too!
Despite the fact that I've seen this clip and the actual episode more than once I was right there with him reliving some good and bad memories with every word he said. Good to remember the desperation but there were always years early on that it felt great....drugs work . Until they don't. Love you all
"and you just know he's home." Savage.. thats drugs for you.. "that's the only place you'll find freedom" "that's what we're hunting" this dude gave some of the realest and truest but most fucked up drug testimony I've ever heard
I did half a g of Afghan smack every day from 20 to 26 after eating DHC and morphine from the age of 14. My brain is fucked now, never mind my body and near losing a leg, was shooting gear into my IV antibiotics for 2 months in hospital. Crack n Heroin speedballs for my breakfast with coffee and a cig. 6 weeks clean😎
The split second of relief from shooting speed feels like having an "ON" switch flipped in your brain. The IV meth rush is extremely intense, a wave of heat running down your limbs as your thinking becomes fuzzy from the euphoria and energy instantly coming on fully, and so intensely that you are unable to form a thought for a few seconds.
I promise it does on some level I don't think about it anymore.. it's about making and being at peace with yourself and loving you for you. And I was on heroin, coke, benzos, and everything else in existence from 12-20. I've died twice actually. I would snort fentanyl laced smack knowingly. Pick up a constructive hobby or meditation. Read various religious doctrine and study it (didn't say become a priest or bible thumper) but there's lessons in every religion to back catalogue in your mind, you can help ppl with their own problem and it grounds you spiritually man, also AA or NA (no NA where I'm at)
@@allenmcdonald1878 yeah i like the way you look at it,and i think the same way everyone takes religious books too literally i look at them as manuals for life there is some real useful shit in them if you know how to look at it
I don't even know how or why this came across my feed, it's 6yrs old but I use to be a junkie, and after seeing a girl try to shoot up in her neck, it was the grossest saddest thing I've ever seen, I took a long look around and went to rehab. Been clean for 7years.
Joey, you my man knows exactly what ur talking about when it comes to doing coke lol u described it perfectly lol I just did a fat ass rail that time, only once ina while though. Moderation is the key eh b’y! Lol cheers from 🇨🇦
I was 20 and I was strung out on glass thought I go to the probation office and just get another court date ..lol oh I saw the judge alright ..after about 37 days in jail lol
When folks ask what shooting coke is like I refer to the descriptions of the Heroin for sale in Pulp Fiction. There is one Eric Stoltz calls *MADMAN* and THAT is exactly exactly what shooting *Cocaine* is like: MADDENING. I used to think I was the only one who got insanely nauseous and puked after doing GREAT coke. That’s how I gauge the good stuff, too!
hatednyc Puking from shooting can happen with garbage coke you just need to use more. I always found puking from shooting to be awful. It always caused me to loose my ringer right away,
"im gonna have the tv on with the volume turned way down" LMAO straight up and somehow the stuff still makes you stimulated enough where you can pick up every little last word on the tv while youre doing something else. Stimulants are insane man.
Listening to these OGs talk makes me feel better about drinking on weekends on doing a couple lines a month....jesus how are they alive!? I know it's not healthy what I'm doing but if I did what they did I would die .
I've known people shoot up in their neck though, not because their veins had collapsed, but because they somehow believed it was a 'better hit'. Total nonsense, but a Junkie buys into every myth which supports the notion that they're doing the best thing in the world ever.....
Diego Camacho I've been an addict for 28 years, but yeah your right. The worse thing is that counsellors are rarely ex addicts, but folk with sociology degrees. I don't mind that, until they start telling you what they consider 'facts'. And it's just nonsense. One of the worst is "The physical effects of withdrawal improve after about three days" which is like saying 'It's about a hundred miles from London to N.Y.'
I’m kinda glad I’ve experienced so many drugs, I’m at the point where I have a middle man for some really good blow but I only fw it maybe twice a month. I wait on him to hit me up and if I got the money I’m gonna do some coke look out my window and have the tv down way low.
i went from snort smoke n then shooting. mainly meth. and I've slammed in my neck. and sometimes i used to poke the hell out myself. so pissed and if finally got happy as hell
My buddies used to take little bumps and milk a twenty all night, I would spill a twenty and snort that shit all at once and be like I wanna MORE I WANT MORE I WANT IMORE....that's why I don't use anymore, I can't do just a little bit here and there...it was binge city everyday.
It REALLY DOES. ITS MAKEING ME QUIT NOW. U RIGHT. THANNKS GUYS REALLYYYY. LOVE U GUYS U HELPING ME SEE MY FAMILY EVEN THO THEY LIVE IN MY HOUSE 💀 I JUST BEEN COKE BLIND FOR YEARS