KAT CHATS | My Fears & Anxiety 

Reading through these comments is opening my eyes so much! I honestly thought I was alone. People never understood me when I spoke about FEAR and how it controls me. Thank you so much for your kind words. You are all amazing. AND YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I'm here with you through this

I was honestly nervous to watch this video because I was scared that listening to you talk about anxiety would give me anxiety. But it honestly did the opposite. I cried with you Kat! I cant even tell you how much I relate to this video. I was nodding my head in tears the whole time. I know we've talked about it before but watching this just made me LOVEEEE you even more! Because I see so much strength in you girl. You're amazing and you're definitely not alone!! And the fact that you were able to make this video shows so much bravery & strength!

Kathleen, you are a beautiful soul. I'm a 59 year old woman that isn't really into makeup but, late 1 night I happened to come across your channel and clicked on. Not only do you make me laugh, have taught me quite a lot about makeup, but have warmed my heart numerous times. I just watched this video about your anxiety and although I don't suffer from it, just listening to you ( which was very brave in itself) talk about it with the thought you might be able to help someone that does, touched my heart immensely. Prayers for you sweet girl that you DO grab onto everyday, moment, even second in your life ahead and get all the happiness, excitement, new experiences and love you are so deserving of.

Here's a quote that I love and try to live by. "Fear does not stop death, it stops life."

This video isn't about me being afraid of planes... That's a little dramatic. I know... I used my fear of flying as an example but it's so much deeper than that. Maybe you guys won't understand since haven't really met that many people who feel the same way I do. Afraid of every little thing & letting it get in the way of their life. This video is for you --- if you have ANY fear you've been trying to overcome... Fear of flying. Fear of commitment. Fear of failure. Fear of the dark. Fear of ANYTHING. You're not alone. I let it get in the way too... But we can't. We must fight through and be positive. We can do this. Screw panic attacks. Screw fear. Screw anxiety. We can overcome anything we set our minds to.

100% yes! Nobody in my life understands the struggles I deal with daily. My parents, friends, fiance, etc. They tell me I'm being dramatic. "Just get over it, I don't understand why you worry so much. How can you be afraid of that? You think too much." They just don't get it and I can't explain it. And it tears me apart. I can't explain it, so I just don't talk about it...it just builds and builds and builds until I'm having a breakdown and piss off the people I love and then apologizing and begging for forgiveness and wondering why they continue to put up with my bullshit. It's refreshing to know that I'm not alone (despite feeling that way more times than not). I am so thankful for you, Kathleen. You're such an awesome person ❤

That moment when someone speaks what your soul feels. Not alone. ❤️

Every time I'm really anxious or depressed i go back and watch this video because it makes me feel not alone and sheds some light on the situation, thank you so much Kathleen!

I hate when people tell me to stop overthinking because telling a person with anxiety to stop overthinking is like telling a person with broken legs to just walk

I struggled with fears to and I found This verse, "I sought the Lord and he delivered me from all my fears"There were times at night when I didn't go to sleep because my mind wouldn't let me after several months of this I told myself that I couldn't live like this anymore. I'm a Christian so I grabbed my Bible and started looking up verses about fear and how to help me with it and I saw that verse I remember praying an saying Lord you said if I seek you will deliver me from all my fears. I remember the peace that filled me and I slept better than I had in months. I put my trust in God and gave him all my fears and doubts and just knowing whatever happens Gods in control gave me so much peace. Sometimes the fears and doubts try to overwhelm me.But then I remember Gods in control.Y'all might call me stupid but I hope maybe this might help someone.

I don't have anxiety but my sister does and I love when videos like this help me understand her better. You are so likable and genuine! Thank you times a million.

Girl you have got me so choked up and tears pouring down my face because I am just like you. I am living in fear of everything, and it is so damn hard to not be understood. It's so damn hard to have all these thoughts running in my head that I can't stop. And I'm living every day as if my worst nightmare is here. It's draining.

I've struggled with anxiety for the past three years and it's not a common thing for people to talk about, let alone understand:/ so to say it's been hard, is a understatement. I am so appreciative for you and Jaclyn Hill and all those who have platforms and choose to be vulnerable and real when you could choose to portray a perfect life. This just makes me love you more. This video and the steps you're taking to better yourself so not only encouraging, it's inspiring! Blessings and peace to you- to us all💖🌷💖

This was so, so powerful my friend. Proud of you is an understatement.

I really really appreciate this video, I feel like no one really understands my fears and how badly they hold me back from day to day activities. Why I'm afraid to get a job or go to college or even get my drivers license. I had the opportunity to go to Mexico this summer and I refused to get on the plane. It's feels so great knowing that someone understands and feels similarly. This video wasn't all over the place, it made complete sense to me and was so so helpful.

That moment when I cried throughout the entire video 💔 I get anxiety over nothing now a days its just sooo bad that it's stopped me from finishing school and getting a job. I can't even hear someone scream anymore. I get extremely nauseous and shaky and my heart starts pounding. Some days it's worse than others and I just don't know what to do anymore. I want to finish school and get a job and be a good mom to my 2 loving little toddlers but its like idk how or where to start. I look at them and cry almost every night cuz I feel like a bad mom for letting my anxiety control me the way it does. I'm getting anxious and sweaty just writing this 😢 I just don't know what to do anymore.....

you don't sound "dumb" or "ridiculous" or "stupid". you're in real psychological pain and you're so brave for trying to become your fears Kathleen. please never stop making videos🙏🏻❤️❤️

Aye, Kathleen, I don't care if you colabed with Benefit to sell caca on a stick. I'm buying it to support your huge step in making a better you and your milestone achievement in this daily struggle of yours. Truly a brace thing to do to open up and become so vulnerable. So proud of you. xoxo😙

I'm only 13 and every time I get off the school bus and start walking to my locker I just feel like running away and crying and I don't know why. Everytime i get home and look at my homework and I distract myself on purpose just so i can avoid it longer, and whenever the teacher picks on me and everyone looks at me especially my friends i feel like im going die and i dont know why. I dont know why this video even help me but it did thank you

Nearly two years later, I still come to watch this whenever my anxiety and depression gets really bad. This was a truly revolutionary video in my life. Thank you

Kathleen, watching this made me cry. I can relate so much to everything you said. I have suffered from anxiety and depression since I was 12 years old. After my dad dying in 2014, struggling with self harm since 2012, moving across the country in 2011, and everything inbetween, YOU have helped me. Videos like these, aswell as your beauty videos, have helped. Your spirit is so carefree and beautiful. You are beautiful and you are amazing and inspiring. You have changed my life and because of your advice and videos, I am better. I love you morw than you will ever realize, Kathleen!!!

Kathleen, I can't thank you enough for pos night this video. You don't know how much I needed this; it brought me to tears. You are so brave and strong. I hope you can recognize that. I also struggle with severe anxiety and I know that it takes a very brave and strong person to live with and face that kind of fear day in and day out. The fact that you are fighting this and actively working towards having a more positive outlook is such an inspiration. Getting on that plane to San Francisco was such an accomplishment. I'm so proud of you, and I hope you are proud of yourself, too. I know it is not easy. This video has truly helped to renew my perspective on life. Your videos are actually one of the main things that help with my anxiety. When I feel overwhelmed with fears, your makeup tutorials are the first thing I turn to. You bring a little bit of light into my life every single day, and I am so grateful I discovered your channel. Thank you thank you thank you

I'm literally crying through the whole video. nobody in my family understands my fear of almost everything. "just stop being afraid." "you're being so dumb right now" "why are you so sad over nothing" "nobody else gets upset over such dumb things" nobody gets it and i feel really alone most of the time. but i could find myself in every word you said and i just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. thank you for not making me feel alone and like i am the only person in this world having these problems. sometimes its just good to know that there is someone out there who gets you. Thank you, Kathleen.

Does anyone else get lightheaded/dizzy everyday with anxiety???

I have been addicted to beauty and lifestyle RU-vid channels for about 6 months now and I have never commented on a video. Your video has moved me to tears, like full on sobbing. I am very lucky in that I do not suffer from anxiety or fear in the way you do but your honesty and your wanting to help others is inspiring. I am guilty of wishing days and weeks away rather than enjoying every minute and living life to the fullest. You are right, we get one chance at this so make it a good one! Thank you for being brave and sharing this and I really hope you are able to complete your bucket list and enjoy every minute. Keep smiling, lots of love xxx

I normally don't leave comments on your videos because I know you get an over abundance of feedback but let me tell you how scared I was to even watch this video because my anxiety is very similar to yours. I even get scared to watch videos about anxiety because it gives me anxiety...but not this one. You hit every nail on the head for me and it made me feel a lot better about my anxiety because I have an intense fear of flying as well along with some public transportation (I'm from New York City so it's pretty much obligated) especially the NYC subway. I thought I was ridiculous for feeling this way but I'm so glad you brought this to light and I don't feel like the only one. I'm getting ready for work right now and for the first Time I will not sit on the subway with "what ifs" on my mind. Thank you for such a personal and helpful video and I will be saving this video for Everytime I feel anxious. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

"If this video reaches and touches one person, I've done my job." Kathleen, you have done your job just now. These tears flowing from my eyes are happy, scared, excited, terrified, confused, wonderful tears. I'm with you too. Thank you for being with me. Let's do this thing.

Hey Kat! Idk what religion you are or whatever, but If you don't mind I would like to share these verses with you: 1 Peter 5:6 "cast all your anxiety unto Him because He cares for you." And Matthew 6:34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." I actually have had the same problem all my life and it wasn't until I found who Jesus was and recognized his love when my fears and anxiety went away. Memorizing this verse was so crucial and helpful bc I would say it out loud or under my breath every day and watch God work taking up all the terrible things going for me in my life onto him. Remember things will turn out just fine in the end, and Jesus loves you. Ily.

I understand completely! When I get anxiety it's like my body shuts down and my heart beats so quickly that it feels like it's going to pop out of my body. Then I begin to feel that I can't even breath. Thinking about anxiety gives me anxiety! Thank you for being amazing!! I love you! Keep thinking positive thought and you will begin to feel free from anxiety! ❤️

Can't even put into words how much I can relate. Right when you said "people who look like they live perfect lives may be struggling in their head mentally." I've been struggling a lot lately, these past couple weeks, anxiety has taken me over. It sucks but this video definitely gave me some inspiration to fight through it. Thank you x

"Who knows how I'll feel in 3 weeks, but until I get there, I'm not going to worry about it" - REALLY STUCK WITH ME. I cried throughout the entire video, and you're not alone either. You are such an inspiration to me, I know you probably hear it all the time but I truly believe every word you say. Thank you so, so much. 💜

This video helps me everyday

Out of all the videos you have made and all of them that I have watched.. Which is a lot, this is by far my favorite and most meaningful video.. I feel like I live my entire life with "what if?".. It isn't fun, it isn't living, and this touched me in so many ways, you always think- well I do, that there is no way anyone is as crazy as I am with the amount of fear that I have.. Nobody else is scared of driving, scared of going to places they've never been before.. Even if it's just a store or a drive I have never made it will eat up my mind before I do it, and most times I change my mind and don't go anywhere. It isn't life. And I couldn't agree more with your new way of thinking, honestly I've been trying to do the same. If something was going to happen to me it's going to happen, it's already set up and I cannot change it, but I can try to make myself better.. Thank you for making this video and talking to us about something so difficult, you are not alone my friend.. lervee you! 💃🏻

Don't normally comment but I watch you videos. Remember FEAR is false evidence appearing real. You are a strong woman and see every day as a journey to get better. Love you

Kathleenlights I just found your channel about a week ago and have watched so many of your videos already! You're such a beautiful person inside and out. And this video has encouraged me the last part about trying to become a better you every day and about not letting fear stop you really speaks to me. I feel like the past few years I have been just existing and not really living and a lot of that is because of fears and scared of changed and scared to put myself out there. You talked about one of your fears is flying and how that has kept you from such great experiences and one of my greatest fears is driving I completely freeze just getting in the car and i feel so stupid because it keeps me from just being able to do something so simple as drive myself to work everyday or take myself where ever it is that I need or what to go without having to depend on someone else. I come up with all these what if's and scenarios in my mind that don't help me at all.

Good for you Kathleen for talking about your anxiety issues. You're helping so many people by talking about it. I work in mental health and have anxiety myself, so I know how hard it is. Avoidance and what ifs/negative thoughts are the fuel for anxiety, so facing the things that scare you (slowly but surely) and working on your thoughts is the only way to get better. I think it's absolutely great that you went on the plane!! I hope you keep it up. No one's perfect and set backs happen, but try to keep going. I was the maid of honor at one my best friend's wedding this past weekend. I had to give a speech and it was all I could think about for 2 weeks (I'll mess it up, no one will laugh at my jokes and I'll look like an idiot, etc). When the time came I literally wanted to run out the door and not come back. But I stayed, tolerated the feelings, reassured myself and did it. It actually went quite well! (though I know that even if I bombed, life would go on and I would survive). I was so happy I was able to do it for my friend. And I was so proud of myself. The pride and relief you feel when you face something is amazing. And it helps to remember your successes when then next scary thing comes :). Keep doing what you're doing, you're a great person.

I never thought it would be possible to love Kathleen anymore than I already did but I love you so much for making videos like this and sharing your experiences with us. I go through very similar things every day of my life and I understand what you mean when you say you fear everything, I'm totally with you on that one to the point where I almost fear to leave my house because I feel like people are watching me and have eyes on me and it gives me such bad anxiety. I was crying along with you on this and it was so touching to see how these things affect you in a similar way to me because that way I feel like I can relate to you on a more personal level even though we will never know each other in that way. I would love it if you could make more of these videos and I am so proud of you for being able to overcome your fears and do things you've always wanted to do. You deserve everything good that comes your way and all the opportunities you receive, I am so proud. Keep doing what you're doing xo

I don't comment much on videos, but I want to applaud you for making this video. Even though I don't know you personally, I feel proud for you, that you were able to hope on that plane again. Thank you for making this video and being so real with your subscribers. Thank you, Kathleen, you're differently an inspiration. 💘

THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH. I've read articles and listened to so many videos about anxiety and never feel like the stories resonate with me. Hearing your story makes me feel 10000x better - while I wish neither of us had to live with anxiety - it makes me feel like I'm not alone. I went on an amazing trip to the Cayman Islands with fun, sweet friends and as soon as I got there, I went in my room and cried - for three nights, no specific reason, but just because it was new and I missed my two doggies (I have a chihuahua and a Yorkie as well!) and home SO SO much. Going to work makes me scared, going out with friends makes me scared - and I know it's dumb and for no real reason. I deny experiences daily, however small, because I know that being home, in my comfort zone, is the easiest place for me (although nowhere is "easy"). It gets worse because missing out makes me feel continually more worried and scared that friends and experiences are passing me by, and only increases my anxiety. Moreso, I live in downtown SF - an amazing place - and watch from my apartment up above as I allow life to pass me by down on the street below. You are cute and fun and have these issues, and I can feel a little better knowing that we all aren't "hermits". I'm young and pretty normal (I think), and I feel like I'm hiding this disease because I doubt that people around me have any idea. Cuddling with my babies at home is the only place that feels safe. You are so inspiring and I hope that I can make steps - little by little, and keep in mind that you did it and maybe, just maybe, I can too. THANK YOU FOR BEING BRAVE.

So I stumbled across your youtube channel about a month ago because I was thinking about buying colourpop products for the first time, and I was immediately drawn to your personality! I can just tell that you are a wonderful, sincere person. I've been watching your videos daily before going to sleep ever since and just today saw that you had "Kat Chat" videos. I have to tell you I watched your first anxiety video and now this one and I cried through this entire video! You are so inspiring and wonderful. I actually paused the video to go add a bucket list journal to my Amazon cart. I have major social anxiety and fears of people judging me and I always feel completely ridiculous and irrational when I'm having those negative thoughts, so hearing your story and how you deal with it is so helpful. I've saved this video and plan to watch it whenever I'm getting in what I call "the dangerous thought zone". Thank you Kathleen for all you do!

My wife sent me the link to this video... I cried while (and after) watching it... (not ashamed, real men do cry lo) She has struggled with the same thing you have for a while now, and I'm guilty of telling her "babe, It's all in your mind", and you are right... It goes a lot deeper than that. I am glad she has seen this, and thank you for being so inspiring. Your followers are blessed. I'm my wife's biggest fan, I love her more than anything, and it hurts to see her struggle like this... I'm proud of every little step she takes (even if it is a 2min drive to the store) because it might seem insignificant to many, but for her is a huge event just to place herself in the front seat and close that door... I cannot thank you enough for sharing your story. I'm deeply touched, and babe... if you read this, I'm sorry because I know I could be more supportive... I might not say it enough, but YOU ARE MY BIGGEST HERO!!!! I love you. To you Kathleen... Than you! And God bless you!

I wept for you're beautiful revelation..I personally don't understand or know how u feel but I can empathize with true emotional distress. So happy you've seen the 'LIGHTS' 💕

I lived a fearful life for most of my life. I found that humour was my escape. I'm now turning 60 and you are the first person who I think has understood, lived, given great advice. Thank you for sharing your struggle. I pray you find strength to live the life you deserve💕💕💕

Thank you so much for sharing your story with all of us. You are such a wonderful and strong woman. It takes so much for someone to talk about there struggles. Seeing how your able to cope with everything you’ve gone threw and still manage to stay strong and focus on getting your mental health back to where it needs to be is amazing! I want to personally thank you from the bottom of my heart for posting these videos. Your helping so many people around the world and that includes me who are struggling with anxiety. So thank you for this ❤️

I understand what you mean. Being nervous and anxious makes me talk all over the place sometimes as well. My anxiety first started in high school. I would get *VERY* nervous in class. I *ALWAYS* had to sit in my special seat or would fear a panic attack. Have hated large crowds and spaces of people for years. And at one point, could not even eat in front of others, especially in loud & crowded restaurants. It *HAS* gotten better over the years- but it takes time. And it does come back every now and again, I try to focus on my breathing and/or friends and family around me, if the anxiety starts up again somewhere public, and it eventually subsides. Hang in there, *YOU ARE NOT ALONE!* HUGS! Xx

This hit me really hard, literally crying. I've suffered depression and eating disorders most of my life, the past few years I've developed anxiety and panic attacks and recently been diagnosed with ADHD and I've been really paralyzed by them all emotionally and mentally. you hit home on so many things I struggle with everyday and it's really helpful to be reminded that I'm not alone with it cos I tend to keep it all to myself as I don't share much with others as I feel like they don't understand. So thank you, I can safely say you have helped at least one person and given them a good kick up the arse. xx

You are the very first RU-vidr that I started to follow and because of you, makeup has become my passion. I am aware of that this video was made a year ago, and I have watched every makeuptutorial, every haul and every Katchats since I started watching you. I am so thankful for you putting yourself out there with your anxiety because I have felt so alone with my anxiety and panic attacks until now. I have avoided the Katchats about anxiety because I just want it to go away. But I came across both of the Katchats you’ve made today about anxiety and I relate so much. I have had panic attacks as long as I remember, even in kindergarten. I have had depressions, and been diagnozed with exhaution aswell as anxiety, and I have felt so so alone. No one in my environment understood/understand me because they haven’t been through what I have been through. Today is the very first day that I didn’t feel alone in this. The very first day that I realized my feeling, my head and my diagnoses is more common than I have ever thought. I am not the kind of person that usually comments on videos, but I just wanted you to know that you made me realise that I’m not alone in this. I want you to know that I am so thankful for discovering you, because without you I wouldn’t be loving makeup as much as I do today. And without you, I would still feel so alone. So thank you for being such an inspiration and so open about your anxiety.

Kathleen, thank you for being so honest and real and raw. I've had an anxiety disorder since I was in high school and I can relate to your emotions and fears so well. Hearing you talk so realistically about anxiety and the problems of "what ifs" really touched me and reminded me of why I get up every day and struggle through the day and fight my fears every single day. Thank you so much Kat. It means so much to me. You have such a beautiful heart and I hope you're still on your road to success!!! ❤❤❤

I love how open you are in this video. Hope your fears and anxiety goes away! Love ya!!

this was the most touching, most mindful talk i've ever heard. it exactly what i needed today. i left work today because i couldn't be there anymore....i've been bullied and beat down for the last 2 years and today i had enough and i couldn't see the light anymore. thank you for reminding me that i'm not alone, that just because i'm sad or scared doesn't mean that i'm not strong. thank you, kathleen. you DID do your job, you DID touch someone.

I just found this video even though I've been a subscriber for a couple of years. I needed it really badly... Anxiety has started to pop up in my life, and I don't even know why. I don't know what triggered it or why it decided to show up but it keeps growing and growing and I find myself avoiding fun plans with friends or denying job opportunities because of it. It makes me CRAZY because not only do other people not understand me, but I don't understand myself. I needed to hear these encouraging and relatable words from someone like you whom I look up to. Thank you for shining your light, Kathleen

Kathleen, this video is so beautiful! I'm literally crying right now because I used to be afraid to take risks too. After a life-changing event a few years ago, this is how I live my life now and seeing you post this is so inspirational. I know so many people related to this. So much love

You have the most unbelievably supportive and humble viewers. Not a single comment left is negative. I feel like that is a wonderful reflection of you and your personality. Thank you for being so sweet and so genuine. I'm sorry you're dealing with your anxiety so badly right now, I'm the exact same way especially with transportation fears. I'm 20 years old and I've been so terrified to learn how to drive that I've just put it off for as long as I possibly could. It's also turned me into such a hermit, so little things like leaving the house scare me so much. I work full time right down the road from my house and then I come home and sleep on my couch all day and all night. I do the same exact thing every single day and night, and it's just recently started to truly get to me.. I take anxiety medication already, and it keeps my thoughts at bay, but my actions-- or lack there of-- are awful! I hope I can overcome this, I'm praying for you to whatever God will receive it 💞

Kathleen, as someone who has suffered from anxiety and panic attacks, I want to say that you might not think you're being helpful without providing a solution, but actually you are being immensely helpful by just talking about it. I find that one of the hardest things about anxiety is the isolation that comes with it, and that isolation comes from not being understood. Just listening to you and knowing that you know how it feels... IS SO HELPFUL. So, thank you for that. xo

crying while watching this because i’ve never been able to hear anyone explain my anxieties and my fears into words and to hear you talk about yours brought mine to reality and helped me tremendously. I thank you so much, I will continue to watch this video whenever i’m having terrible anxiety to remind myself the things you said. You’re amazing 💕

This video helped me so much Kathleen. I look up to you sooooo much. Your way of talking, your sense of humour, your creativity and your looks... I could go on and on and on. I just look up to you so damn much. And hearing someone that I look up to so much talk about the very same issues that I have and that makes me feel so worthless really brought me up. Not that I am glad that you are experiencing this swamp that anxiety is, but you openly speaking about those things makes me realize that I can be damn awesome too even though I have my anxiety that makes me hate to leave my home. I hope that came accross right. My point is, you are amazing and one of the people I look up to the most, and you openly talking about your anxiety makes me feel less failed and gives me hope for the future.

I don't know if you are a spiritual person, but It's the key to ending your fear. I used to be afraid of heights, bridges, freeways, and tons of things. I grew up in Ohio, so what did I do.... moved to Florida!!! What is in Florida, tons of very high, long, bridges!!!!! God said "I have not given you the spirit of fear, but one of love, peace, and joy"!!! So I did it afraid and prayed!!! It didn't just go away, I prayed for God to get me through it. At some point I realized I was enjoying myself UNAFRAID!!! Definitely didn't happen overnight and it wasn't easy, but me and God did it together!!! Now I live on top of a mountain, literally the top!!! Satan works through our minds, that's why when you think positive thoughts you were able to fly. God gave us free will, so we have a choice to live the life God has chosen for us or allow satan to paralyze us with all the negative things like fear, doubt, insecurity. I pray everyday for God to bind satan and all evil spirits from my mind. Read Psalms 91 everyday, and when you need a bit of help. I hope and pray for you to be rid of fear. Please try it, what do you have to loose?? After all, God made you and He loves you! Fear is not how He wants us to live, we miss out on so much of the good in life. It's not any better sitting at home making yourself feel aweful for giving into fear. Much love, Sherry

I was like you for years. All my family travels all the time all around the world my grandmother as a history teacher saw the whole world and she took all my cousins to travel. And I was just scared, not just because I hate public transportation but because I'm SO freaking scared of heights I can't even begin to describe it. Then, one day when I was 17 and my grandma told me I had to AT LEAST travel with her once (she was already pretty old) and she booked a cruise for the whole family, myself included (without my permission). It was the best thing she ever did I was so scared but that trip totally changed my life I saw so many beautiful countries and a plus was that I wasn't flying (even though the idea of a cruise scared the crap out of me). Next thing you know I'm travelling every two or three months when I get the chance to and at the moment it is one of the best things in my life, it just gives me SO much joy. Every time I go somewhere I feel richer, wiser and happier and even though I still almost shit myself when I'm up there (on the plane) I keep thinking about all the places I have seen and everything else I have to see and how short life is. I can die on a plane but I can also die in my house with an earthquake...

I've had anxiety my whole life, but the past three years, especially the past three months, it has been controlling my life. Panic attacks would cause me to stay in bed for days at a time, and then being scared of panic attacks made me have more panic attacks. I finally got control of it through therapy and medication and the amazing support I get from my family. But one of the things that has helped me through it the most is your positivity. You always seem to be in a good mood and I aspire to be like that. I cannot tell you how many times just watching one of your videos makes me feel better. This sounds so dumb, but for those 15 minutes you're putting on makeup, something as simple as that, everything kinda disappears. Thank you so much for everything you do. You are an inspiration to me and I'm sure many others. I wish I had a platform to help people and inspire people like you do. Thank you so much for everything and being amazing and so genuinely you.

I love that ur brave enough to speak on this because a lot of ppl go through this and those who don't really can't fathom how agonizing it is. I remember at a very young age being afraid all of the time and having so much depression and anxiety and was too young to understand it. My parents didn't know what was wrong with me because I was in elementary school and they took me to therapy and it was the hardest thing to do but as I got older I learned how to block it out. I wish that I could give u an answer on how I did it but to be honest one day I just wasn't as scared and wasn't so worried or sad anymore. Still to this day I worry about everything but not the way I did back then. Just know that it does get better and u can get through it and you'll be stronger for it! Keep doing what ur doing and keep having faith

I have never sobbed so hard from a RU-vid video until now! Your video has helped me in so many ways for so many different parts of my life. I live in a place where anxiety isn't understood or really even believed to be a 'thing'. So to hear someone else say these things, that I feel are incredibly difficult things for me to admit and say out loud, just made me feel like everything really is going to be okay. That I will be okay at my new job. That I will be okay driving two hours away to see my family and friends. That I will be okay to do anything in my life! Thank you, Kathleen. Your advice was perfect for me. I'm going to paint a huge ass painting with your quote "what if this goes right" and hang it on my wall because that moment in your video was so empowering for me. I've always felt trapped in my own head with my stupid "what if" thoughts, but *wipes tears and sniffles* I'm on my way to a place without fear also, so I'll meet you there Kathleen! 💜

Kathleen- I just wanted to tell you that you have changed my life. I have severe anxiety about EVERYTHING! Once I started to watch your makeup tutorials, my confidence began to increase. I've started to push myself outside of my comfort zone. I even went to a freaken Pure Romance party... That's how much I've pushed myself. You are not alone! I push and push and push myself to do new things each week. My goal is to do a new (even if it's small) thing each week. I write it down once I have accomplished something and reward myself. You are so amazing and just know that your message is getting out there! I truly mean it when I say that you have changed my life. Everyone around me sees it and I always tell them it's because of you and your videos!

I know I’m a little late on watching this.... I have never had major anxiety up until 2 or 3 weeks ago. Minor things made me anxious... like nursing school... moving out.. my job.. but I started having severe anxiety. I’d lie in bed and shake because I was so nervous/anxious/worried about NOTHING. This seriously helped me so much. I don’t know why... but I needed this.

This video touched me SO much, I can't even put into words. I have struggled with horrible anxiety for years now, and I have always felt so alone, I have never met anyone else who has anxiety like I do, and I've never been able to explain my anxiety and fears to anyone, and them actually understand. My anxiety had gotten a little better for awhile. but the past year and a half it went back to the way it was, only worse this time, but its funny I stumbled across this video now, because I have started here recently where I am trying like crazy not to let it hold me back anymore. I'll be 26 in October, and it just hit me a few weeks ago, like I have let this keep me from being where I want to be in my life and it has kept me from accomplishing everything I have ever wanted to do with my life. This video has inspired me and helped encourage me even more, and I thank you for that. You are a beautiful person Kathleen, and I will pray for you as you conquer your own journey with anxiety. 😚😚😚❤❤❤

I cannot explain how happy I am I found your RU-vid channel over a year ago. Just like you are here for us, we are here for you. We love you so much Kathleen 💜

Hey Kathleen, I watch and love all of your videos but rarely comment. I just had to let you that you are NOT alone in this! Two years ago was the lowest point of my life, my anxiety reached a level that was beyond unbearable. It was all day, every day. It got worse and better dozens of times a day. I began to be TERRIFIED (and I mean that with every bit of emphasis I can muster) of seemingly innocuous things like showering, being left in the house alone, etc. One of the lowest points of my life was sobbing and begging my sister not to go to work on day because I couldn't bear being left alone. She called and canceled and right then I knew I had to get help. I had known for years but put it off because I always 'managed' it but it was just at a level that was quite literally going to make me insane if it didn't stop. I made an emergency doctors appointment and began medication, which was really hard to go through adjusting to that. By the way, I am in no way telling anyone to go on medication for anxiety, it is a very personal thing and everyone has to make their own decisions about how they help themselves, whether that be with natural remedies, prescription drugs, therapy, group counseling, life coaching, acupuncture, massage, exercise, the list is nearly endless. This is just what was right for me. It has been two years now and I can't believe how different my life is. I feel like a new person and my family has said they feel like they got me back after I wasn't myself for so long, hidden under all that terror and panic of everything. Instead of being scared to leave the house, I go to work six days a week and just got my license (never thought I could handle driving but I can!) I go to parties with family and friends when I always would stay home, I go out and meet new people instead of avoiding everyone. Sorry for rambling, but my point is - please know that it will get better. I have been in such a low place, with such horrific panic and anxiety that I thought I was losing my mind. It felt like my life was over at 21. I can't believe how distant that all seems now and I am grateful every day that I am doing well. Please don't give up, you WILL find something that helps YOU personally, and whatever it is will change your life for the better. Not all at once, not instantly - it will be hard but it will happen. Please keep your head up and hang in there. Love you Kathleen

so proud of u, I struggle with similar sorta stuff, except not travelling but going out, meeting people,talking, socializing and things like that. this video helped so much and I'm glad you made this. We need to not let our fears control us but fill our minds with positivity. ily xx

Thank you again Kathleen, I have also had anxiety most of my life (I'm 68!) so I understand. I often feel like it's never going to get better, but somehow it does, one way or another. It's so good that you talk about this. I'm sure you're helping people. I just love your videos and think you're great!😍

I just cried when you cried 😫 amazing touching video !

Girl, I have struggled for years with panic, anxiety, depression, you name it. You are so right. We actually met at the Gen Beauty cocktail party, and even though I could tell something was wrong, you still took the time to take a photo with me and hug me. You might not have known it at the time but it meant SO much because I have severe separation anxiety too from my pug Zoie, who is actually my service dog. I had to leave her at home to attend Gen Beauty. I have tremendous respect for you for putting this video out there, to help people like me. I live about an hour from San Fran and now that I heard this story expect a care package from me.💜 Love you girl, thank you for all you do. xoxo

YOU SHOULD GET YOUR DOG REGISTERED AS A SERVICE ANIMAL FOR ANXIETY. THEY WILL ALLOW HIM INSIDE THE PLANE, ON YOUR LAP!!!!!!!! I HAVE ONE EYE AND I HAVE SEIZURES AND AM CURRENTLY LOOKING INTO GETTING A SERVICE ANIMAL. EVEN THOUGH YOUR DOGS AREN'T SERVICE ANIMALS NOW, DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN'T REGISTER THEM AS SUCH. YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO TO A COMPANY AND BE LIKE "I NEED A SPECIFIC DOG THAT'S LABELED AS A SERVICE DOG". NO. YOU CAN REGISTER YOUR OWN PET. YOU CREATE 90% OF YOUR ANXIETY IN YOUR HEAD. YOU ARE CONVINCING YOURSELF OF SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T EXIST AND HEY, I GET IT. I WAS LIKE BIG INTO SANTA AND MY MOM BROKE MY HEART WHEN SHE SAID HE WASN'T REAL...... XOXOXOXO

You are so real and genuine, it's very refreshing to watch your videos. I have anxiety as well, and I find myself conquering the fears I have in the same way. I am constantly reminding myself that if it's gonna happen, it's gonna happen whether you worry about it or not, and being anxious about it won't change anything. Thank you for your honesty in your video! Xoxo

This video really hit home to me because I deal with panic disorder and anxiety attacks and I started to cry when you did because I've missed out on so many things already. Some people may think they are small things but I missed out on walking across the stage to get my high school diploma because I was too afraid. I missed half of my high school career because of my anxiety, I had to homeschool myself through the internet. Kathleen this video really does mean a lot to me. You did your job and you reached out and touched one person. I hope for the best for you and I hope you continue to grow and face your fears and see all of the beautiful places that I personally will never get to see because my anxiety is so bad I will never get on a plane...Love you girl, Stay Strong

I'm just going to leave this here... ❤️

Kathleen, if it hasn't already been abundantly clear. you absolutely made a difference with this video! I have struggled with anxiety since I was in a car accident in high school. I have come a very long way, but I have never completely been out of the dark. This video is the most inspirational thing that I have seen in a long time. Of course most of us do not know you personally, but at times I feel like I do! Thank you for being so genuine; you are truly a beautiful soul. Keep on keepin' on!

Kiddo, I am amazed at the videos you made on anxiety. I am twice your age, I rarely wear makeup because I am terrible at applying it, and I assumed we have very little in common but I watch you because I really enjoy your channel for your reviews and your personality. However, after watching your very personal videos on anxiety, I have never felt so understood by someone's explanation of anxiety. I have had that "war in my head" for decades for a variety of reasons. I want to THANK YOU so much for not only putting anxiety into beautifully articulate words but for putting it out there publicly for all of us to benefit. It is incredibly brave of you to allow yourself to be that publicly vulnerable. I promise you, I am "the one person" that you helped in an amazing way. Honestly, you have probably helped thousands of people by talking to us. Thank you ❤️

This is the best video you have ever made kathleen I seriously love you so much and everyone of us is with you and I am so proud of you thank you so much for making me feel so happy and like there is hope

I CAN REALTE TO THIS SO MUCH. i have a fear of embarrassment. sounds very strange, but i will NEVER try anything new because i might fail and embarrass myself. im terrified of everyday events, and its tearing me apart. i wish i could go to school dances, or even wear dresses to school! but its just too hard :((

I cannot begin to tell you how much this video helped me. I am currently going through a very rough time with my anxiety and it makes me feel so much better knowing that I'm not the only one who experiences it and someone else can identify with what I'm feeling. You are so right, if something is going to happen. It will happen no matter how afraid we are. Thank you for bearing your soul to a ton of strangers and telling us how you cope. I hope things get better for you. All the love!

I watch your videos all the time but just came across this one. I too have anxiety and everyone around me tells me I shouldn't worry and stress so much (they mean well) but they don't understand it's just not that simple. So seeing that you also struggle with this made me realize I'm not alone! I just flew for the first time as an adult a couple weeks ago, and it was my first step in overcoming my fears. Even though it was a struggle, I got to visit a beautiful place and I'm proud that I did it. Thank you for this video, it was so genuine and helpful and I wish you the best. ❤️

i think I'm going to watch this video everyday for the next 5 years

Kathleen... you're such a strong person for posting this. about 6 months ago, I was hit by a car... I woke up in the hospital with 6 broken bones, a worried family, and not being able to move... I'd never really had much anxiety before this but let me tell you girl, I was anxious every second of the 2 months I spent in the hospital... I couldn't believe what had happened to me. I kept asking myself, what did I do to deserve this? I didn't want to live anymore. I missed a semester of my senior year of high school. I was often left alone in the hospital because my parents had to work. the nights I spent alone were filled with anxiety, tears, fear, and your videos... you are so goofy and it's honestly so funny to me... it didn't take away all of my anxiety and fear, but it definitely helped... about 5 months later, I am walking, back to work and school, and accepted into my dream college! I really hope you see this so you know how much of an impact you have on people

You truly are such a wonderful person, Kathleen. Thank you for being so compassionate, caring, open, and real with us. I wish you all the best and that you have many wonderful experiences that help you break free from your anxiety.

You are not crazy, I go through the same exact things as you. I never thought that somebody else goes through the same thing as I do. It is difficult when you can't even talk to family or friends about it because they think it's so dumb. I also try on a daily basis of changing my thoughts. It is good to know that I can relate to you, and you did help. I think with just knowing that there is somebody else out there going through the same, and being able to give your perspective makes a difference. Thanks for sharing your story, and I absolutely love your videos!

Kat I want to let you know how much these videos mean to me. I have suffered from anxiety my whole life and just recently things have started to get worse. I watched your previous video about your anxiety and loved it & I love how you give advice and sayings and it just shows that no ones life is perfect. It shows me that you can get through this, that you have to take your days 15 minutes at a time. I sincerely love and appreciate your videos. If I feel myself becoming anxious I will come and rewatch your videos because your personality and humor just make me feel better. Thank you❤️ stay strong. Que sera,sera

I was totally crying with you, girl. Because I UNDERSTAND COMPLETELY. I had so much dreams in the past and didn't make a single one come true. Now I just gave up and let my fear stomp me in the ground. I can't even express how much I love this video. You are the best!!!

This is EXACTLY how I've felt for the past 12 years. And, honestly, this video helped a lot and it made me cry and it was very inspiring so THANK YOU. I've grown up with anxiety and fears about things as simple as driving and flying and socializing and relationships and much more. I've been putting off going to college for the past 4 years since i graduated because I'm continually talking down on myself and having fears of failing and being a disappointment to my friends and family. This video truly inspired me to move forward with a positive attitude and live my life. I love you and your videos. Bless your heart.

this video was exactly what I needed to hear today. My anxiety and fears hold me back from so much in my life too. I caught myself saying yes yes yes to everything you were saying. But that moment you had in San Francisco really made me realize that I can't be scared anymore either. Because I'm holding myself back from so many opportunities and things I can have right in front of me. Everything is in my own control I need to rise above these fears and anxieties or atleast do my best. Thank you Kathleen for this you probably will never read this but this has inspired me more than you even know and is time to work on me❤️

Thank you so much for this. I've struggled with anxiety my entire life, to the point where it makes me physically ill from being under so much stress. It's hard, especially feeling like you're alone, so every video like this helps. You don't need to be "helpful" with these sorts of videos, it's helpful enough just knowing someone you admire (like you!) also struggles with stuff like this. I love all your videos, you are such a lovely person. Keep doing what you do. ❤️

I've been watching RU-vid videos for years and years and yours is the first to ever make me cry. You hit me right in my soft spot, what you're talking about just hits home to me. I really hope people can watch this and not shake it off like anxiety isn't a big thing bc IT IS. I've been suffering from it for about 2 years now and we have our good and our bad. I just hope people understand, not even the whole concept of anxiety, maybe even just a jist of it that people who have it really suffer. Thank you for hitting home for me, seriously you took all the words out of my mouth. You're such an inspiration. Thank you thank you thank you ❤️❤️

Hi Kat. I’ve been a fan of you for years now and I’m going back to this video today because I felt like I really needed to. I’m dealing with the same issues but on my own terms, and I’m working it all out and I just want you to know that you are so incredible. I’m so grateful for you and all the videos you post because you’re the one person I look forward to the most to watch in the morning or before I sleep. You’ve helped me so much, thank you for being who you are. I’m sending so much love and positivity your way. Thank you.

I love you & this!! You were very brave to share your story. I suffer from social anxiety & it's very hard to deal with & not everyone understands it. It's so easy for them to say don't be shy or just talk & have fun. I try my best to not be that way & I try to have fun, but in the back of my mind it scares the crap out of me to be out talking w/people & I don't know why, I never use to be this way but it's really gotten worse the past couple of months. Watching this really inspires me to over come my fear... I want to be the fun, outgoing person that everyone wants to be around. I will do my best to break out of my shell & be that fun outgoing person, it won't happen over night but I'll get there 😊😊 love you Kathleen! You are truly an inspiration

I get scared a lot of times too. But it's because sometimes I forget that God is always there to protect me. Kathleen, God loves you. And there's no way He's ever going to hurt you. Just release and surrender all your fears and worried to Him. Let Him worry about you so all you can think about is how blessed and loved you are. God loves us. Hugs! You made me cry girl.

I needed this. I have been avoiding watching this video of yours since you posted it because I knew it'd make me cry. However I woke up this morning and a little voice in my head kept saying go watch her video go watch her video. It's 2:17pm right now and I've been fighting coming to this video since this morning. I've been fighting my fears for so long and it's really detrimental to my life. I'm in college right now about to graduate in a month and I've never been so scared in my life. I'm afraid of applying for jobs, afraid of moving, basically everything. This video really made me realize that I'm not alone and I'm missing out on great opportunities because of my fear. I've been offered so many great positions and I've turned them all down out of fear. I have to stop being so fearful, thank you Kathleen. I know now what I must do. 😙

this has been one of the most helpful anxiety videos i've seen so far. you have explained my anxiety problem so much more clearer than i would ever be able to. nobody understands how hard it is for me be dealing with this monster in my head everyday. i try to put on a brave face but, a lot of the time its so hard to do it when the monster in your head is eating you up. my uncle is having a graduation for the army in a month and its in washington state. i live in california and i know the distance isn't even much but, the thought of being on a plane scares the living hell out of me. everyone is pressuring me to go and to just get over my fear but it isn't easy. everytime i try to tell them how i feel, the dismiss me and just say to not think about it. they don't fully understand what it is like to be dealing with anxiety. they just think its overthinking but, it obviously way more than that. if anyone read through all of that, can you give me any sort of advice? i really honestly do want to see my uncle graduate from the army, its a huge accomplishment. thank you kat, love you forever and always

OMG! I relate so much! Anxiety is so freaking hard it keeps me from going out with friends, or being at my job and school... I just stay in my apartment with my dogs. I love having positive quotes and try my best to conquer my fears. You are amazing and inspire me to be better and that I can be better because you did it! Thank You! 😊🙌🏽

I cried through this, it was like you were talking about my life. I turn down so much because I am scared. I've not been able to work, go out with friends etc for 4 years and I'm trying my best to get better. This video is inspirational and I'm glad you are brave enough to tell your story xxx

I'm so fucking incredibly proud of you Kathleen. I don't usually swear but my God, I am so proud of you for opening up like this and posting it online for everyone to see. This video will have helped soooo many people!! I don't suffer from anxiety and you've even inspired me to take more chances in life. The trips you turned down are in the past, they're done and you can't change history so dont even worry about them anymore. Just focus on all the incredible things that are waiting to happen in the future!! You really are a special person Kathleen, you extrude nothing but positvity and hope and I hope you realise how huge of an effect this has on all 1989139 subscribers you have, myself included. (OMF THATS SO CLOSE TO 2 MILLI AHHH) I love you so so much Kathleen!!!x

Kathleen, you are such a role model in everyday possible. You have got to be the kindest soul and have such a heart of gold. I have been struggling with anxiety for 6 years now and I'm actually on medication for it that I have to take daily and I feel like it absolutely does nothing at times and I really want to get off of it so that I can deal with my anxiety without depending on something and watching this video has really made me think and has helped me. Your amazing and I love you so much!!! You are so awesome, and even if you feel as if your anxiety is getting the best of you, always remember that you are strong and that the panic/anxiety attack will go away and that it's just a temporary attack...we are strong with or without anxiety!!! Never forget that love!! 😘❤😭

i honestly hate seeing people cry. i just wanted to cry with you and hug you so tight. i love you, kathleen. you're such a brave person. you've touched so many hearts. we love you