kudasaibeats - dream of her 

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"you never really understand the true worth of a moment until it passes away" that's really all that life is, a collection of memories never coming back

Everything will be fine

Sometimes music without words is the best music to describe what you feel

I don’t feel happy anymore. But I don’t really feel sad either. I feel kinda... empty? I don’t have motivation to do things I like anymore I have a weird feeling like somethings missing or wrong, but it’s kinda permanent. I don’t really feel anything else. I just wanna lay in bed all day. I don’t wanna see anybody I just wanna listen to music and be left alone. But then again, I want someone to talk to.

Has anyone ever made an amazing sandwich, then feel sad because you know you’d probably never be able to make the sandwich that perfect ever again.

This chill song: *Exists* The comment section: I the great poet shall write one for thee

I hope her legs are okay Because she wont stop running through my mind

“When I looked at her I saw the world and when she looked at me she saw just another guy”

Me looking at my messages on my console "Yo bro ima go to bed see you Tommorow" *last online 6 years ago* Tear rolls down cheek

We all deep down want a girl to call ours. We all wish that one person would finally acknowledge us and take our hands. To sit and watch the sun set on a cool summer day on the grass. We want that special someone to sit with us and embrace the time, the ever-flowing time. We want those people to become a part of our life. We want those people to be there for us when we feel sad, or frustrated. We want them to hold our hand and reassure us that we are okay. We want to grow old with them and spend as much time as possible. When you and that special someone fight and have a “falling out”, we will always come back to them, and they will always come back to us. We want to embrace them and love them. We want to give them our time, our ever-flowing yet limited time. But more than anything, we want them.....to be real...

“Same time same place tomorrow ?” “Same time same place “ - the last words I said to my childhood friend on our last day playing outside together.. we didn’t even know it

Put the phone down. She's not gonna answer. Go to sleep and be stronger tomorrow.

did you ever have a beautiful dream then just woke up, feeling sad cause it just a dream? edit: woo i was so drunk writing this comment never thought it ended up having this many like lol

About 2 months ago a friend of mine took his life. Ever since then every few days it hits me that he isnt there anymore. I have a few close friends and he was one of them. I called him some time before that and we made plans for what we would do after the pandemic. He seemed like he always did. Happy? I never thought. It never occured to me that he could be suffering and I dont know. When i heard the news i felt guilt. Many told me it wasn't my fault, how could it be? But i considered him a very good friend and i thought i was the same to him. We tried alcohol together, we planned on smoking weed on 2020 new years but i ended up too drunk and passed out and he smoked two joints on his own. I regret not staying awake that night. I regret not knowing how he was. I feel like i let him down. I looked up to him but failed to see how he felt. RIP brother. You will be missed.

My parents, tell me to go to school so I do. My teachers, tell me to try so I do. I tell myself not to cry. I dry my eye, then lie. “Oh, I’m fine.” I tell myself to forget my past. To take care of myself last. New school, guess that’s cool. Everyday doing my best to rest. It feels as if, every day I'm waiting for the bell, to bring us more hell. Maybe, just maybe, I’m not the reason I sigh and look up into the sky, and wonder why? Why try?

It's so lonely to be so far away from everything, but it's a view full of so much beauty that no one else will ever know

Does she care she lied to me? Did she think that we could be? Every night I dream of her... But does she ever dream of me?

Teacher: How many people want to be a depressed poet when they grow up? This comment section: *yes*

"Go to sleep bro, she's probably not thinking about you,"

This song is like my daughter. Golden curls, blue sparkly eyes, that one dimple she has when she smiles. My essence, my soul, my life.

[i talked to my crush about my feelings today, i told her how ive been in love with her for quite a long time. She rejected me, and told me she liked someone else. That i can understand, but she is really all I've wanted, and it just gets in the feels. I guess I'll be back whenever i find love at last. 20/02/20] 07/01/22: Yesterday was a good day. I have been talking to this girl since october, and we really get along. Slowly, I felt like we both were catching feelings for each other, and yesterday I decided to make the move. I asked her to be my girlfriend, and she said yes! I'm beyond happy right now, and the only thing I can say is thank you all for your kind words, they really did mean a lot to me! Im eager to see what's in the future for us.

Ah... A quality comment section, sure missed these. Cheers to whoever reads this

Its 2:38 am. Music playing, rain dropping outside my window. Heart in pieces over the one that got away. I miss you. I wonder... do you ever think of me? Oh well, it doesnt even matter.

Sometimes I apologize to my younger self for letting her down... I would've never imagined i would be here listening to this kind of music and praying for all of us here... I think we all feel way too much and that hurts. Sometimes I feel like I haven't even gone through real shit and that most of my problems are inside my mind. I really really hope when I look back at this comment years later I'll be proud of myself and for all of us for coming so far and being what we were meant to be and doing the things we've dreamed of doing... guys if you come back years later please do tell me how you've grown... I would love to know :)

ain't SAD aint HAPPY am just feeling EMPTY

This is the happiest moment of my life. Right now as I write these words. I’v never felt more content or more optimistic about the future. I don’t regret the past, I don’t fear the future, and I feel just so full of joy at my life, the world, and whatever happens in it. Thanks for the song. I cried. The music is so beautiful, and the nighttime ride on that train- where the lights pass by- is simply beautiful. The darkness, the melancholy, the strange sense of content ness even though life isn’t perfect, and oh my heavens the music: slow, dreary but not depressing, upbeat but not exciting, and just downright wonderful. Again, thank you.

This song makes me miss someone who I still haven't met... Edit: Lol I can't believe I wrote this, how cringy. Damn the likes tho :0 !!! Anyways fam, I soon realised I never will because the embodiment of such made-up conceptualisation is just a futile ideal so it's stupid (and really egoistical) to expect someone to be as you wish them to be. You will just get endlessly disappointed because others won't fit the unrealistic image you have shaped in your head. Yet, you will keep blaming others for it when in fact you're the only person at fault. Just avoid putting expectations on people and accept them for who they are, you'll live way happier.

I've probably listened to this song back to back at least 4 times just reading comments, and it's nice to know im not alone. No wonder this type of music is so popular, it's so relatable and yet mysterious at the same time. The listener can relate, but there admire also foreign elements.

Am I the only one not depressed, and just enjoy this music

I dont know you and you dont know me. But dear stranger, I love you.

Me: scrolling down into the comments Everybody:"there are no mistakes" -master oogway

I'm always dreaming of her. Always, every time.

I dreamed of her again. Over and over again. I know her but she barely knew me. I wish I could go to her and say "Hi", "My name is...". But I can't because Im fighting my inner demons that time. I want to go to her when I finally fixed myself. I finally fixed myself. But she has a boyfriend now and until now even though Im not really thinking of her anymore... I still Dreaming of her. The Girl I haven't met.

“Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift... that's why its called the present” ― Master Oogway

Do you ever feel like abandoning hope is the only way to feel comfortable with your life...? Sad, yet, in some cases ... *it's true.*

amazing how someone you don't even know can feel the same thing as you do, I love you all and I hope you all find love and a reason to live.

put your phone down king, she’s sleeping and is thinking about another guy. Pick yourself up and keep your head up, I’m sorry but it’s just reality.

It’s nostalgic. Looking back to these old memories, remembering what was, what will be, and what won’t. How do you cope with someone you had major feelings for hates you, and thinks you’re the one person they never want to see? How do you cope when that one person, who hates your guts and wants nothing to do with you, is one of your only memories of happiness? A couple years ago, there was this girl. We knew of each other, but didn’t know each other. We were both invited to the same Halloween party. That whole night we danced and sang together while walking through neighborhoods. Once we left I went straight to bed. When I had awoken, I noticed she had texted me while I was asleep. It was a text saying she had a lot of fun and that she regrets not getting a bit closet with me. After that, everyday at school we would talk and look at each other with that stare you give your bowl of spaghetti as you sit and watch it heat up in the microwave. Her birthday cake around and I decided to get her a big gift. She’s madly in love with pandas, so I decided to get her a $60 giant stuff panda. At school I came early so that it would be a complete surprise. How I fit it in my locker without tearing or anyone else seeing it, I’m still not sure. At the end of the day I told her to stay at her locker and wait for me. When I walked up she was facing the opposite way. By then there was a whole crowd gathering behind me, waiting for her to notice and see her cute reaction. When she finally turned around, she let out a big laugh and gave me the biggest hug I’ve ever received and ever will receive. We kept on being very happy seeing each other and being with each other for another month. At the start of December however, she decided we’d be better off as friends. I told her I understood, but inside I was completely torn. Although we hadn’t known each other for very long, I felt like we were an elderly couple that got married together at age 20, and that we’ve been together for over 40 years. I was heartbroken. That night I had the dream. It was beautiful. There’s no other way to put it other than that it was the most beautiful and detailed dream I’ve ever had, and I remember it perfectly. In the dream, we were that elderly couple. I dreamt about everything I was feeling. It ranged from us crying together, to us splashing around in a pool full of jellyfish. It’s so odd yet for some reason, I felt at peace. After that we didn’t talk a lot for a good whisks until the next school year. That year, we again went to the same Halloween party, but this time is was odd. We still sang and danced and walked together, but this time her best friend would come in to make things awkward. She grew to hate me over that school year. I didn’t really mind as long as i could still her cute face, but it kind of hurt to watch her slowly hate to even look at mine. She moved across the country that summer. The only thing I wish that could really have been different, is for her to not hate me the way she does. Since her move, she hasn’t seen me change. Even her best friend sees that I’m different. I just wish she didn’t move with the thought of me as that kid that loves her while she hates me. It’s kind of odd how I still have all of these sort of Dreams Of Her Remember me for the me you knew Terra, not the me you were told about by others who never took the time like you did to find out about the other layers. - Antonio Hernandez III

Sometimes the person you would take a bullet for is holding the gun.

When i want some motivation i go to lofi comment sections they’re never toxic :)

this girl i work with yesterday told me i sound sad and jokingly i replied "im always sad." she laughed at the joke but i know deep down i really meant it

I dream of her Does she ever think of me? Does she care she broke my heart? There’s so many things I want her to know, but I don’t want to tell her

reading all these comments made me realized that I can't even remember how it feels like to be in love. I'm starting to forget what love felt like. Damn...

this probably hits different when you're in love I want to feel that again just one more time

You hear "kudasai" you know it will be good

Kudasai makes such relaxing music, another great one

"If Love is just a word, why does it hurt so much when you realize it isn't there?.." - Gaara from Naruto

The vice principal at my school used to give out his phone number so students could talk to him if they ever needed someone to talk to. One day while he was mowing his lawn, a student tried calling him, but never got an answer since he was still mowing. The student tried calling five more times, but still to no answer. That student took his own life later that day. He says he still regrets mowing that day. I can't imagine the pain he goes through and I hope no one else would have to feel the way he does.

ATTENTION. LOOKING AT THE COMMENTS CAN MAKE YOU CRY

To those who read my story before I deleted it: thank you for letting me share my dream, I wish for the best to all of you To those who weren't able to read my story: whatever it is, just don't give up, keep trying to reach your dreams Sincerely, Some random guy on the internet

Why is everyone suddenly a poet? Lmao

I think it’s quite crazy, when you give people everything they physically need than their mental health spirals downward, and when you take it all away they finally learn to appreciate their life, I just can’t seem to get there, even when mine is taken away, I can’t seem to escape past traumas, I can’t seem to find that lifestyle that keeps me happy in both ways, but maybe one day

makes me reminisce over a life i didn't have..

it's weird to think that somewhere on the other side of my screen, somebody, who has their own fears, doubts, passions, and dreams, is reading this comment. Hello human. 15 November, 2021 - why the fuck is my comment on top lmao what 29 December, 2021 - what the actual fuck 18 May, 2022 - i have come here again, most of you can imagine why. Im okay dw

Inuyasha nostalgia..this gif is from the ending theme My Will isn't it? Man those adult swim midnights. I feel so old

I’m under a spell again fellas, hopefully this one doesn’t break me in half like the last, and even if she does, I’ll be stronger for it :) stay up kings

I'll be back once i find the girl I've been dreaming of. 23/8/2019

Me: having a good day *Listens* Me to depression: *ah shit here we go again*

it is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply

Greatest thing about the Internet is realising there are thousands of other people who feel as hopeless as you. Hope we all make it lads.

It was a summer camp back in 2016. It was during winter school holidays. And it was only a camp for teenagers 13-17 yrs old. The camp took in 200 kids, including me and 5 of my siblings. It was the second time I went. It was where I fell for this guy. To this day, he still remains as the one guy I secretly lowkey have a crush on and love with all my heart. At camp - we didnt talk. We never knew each other. Never did we greet each other once in person. He walked around, and so did I. But whenever I saw him around the camp grounds, I would just stare at him the way anyone would stare at someone they literally just admired. I liked his hairstyle, his style of clothing, his smile, his personality. From a distance, I could hear him and the boys just laughing. He was different and unique in his own way. That's when I had crush on him. Camp lasted a week. So nothing happened. Until I got home, and I somehow found his facebook. I immediately sent him a friend request (which he thankfully accepted.) On the same day, he had changed his profile picture to a photo I watched him take at camp. It was him in a colourful shirt and it was a really nice photo. So I commented "you've got a nice style of clothing." And that's when he direct messaged me. 2 months and 3 days ---- not a day missed. We talked. We talked day and night. We exchanged snapchat accounts and just talked in between fb and sc. He was one of those guys who would be hard to find in this world. He made you feel like a whole new person. You would stare at your phone and smile everytime you got a message or a notification from him. Then when he's asleep, you would re-read the conversations you both had and just laugh. He was goofy, he was kind, he was the kind of guy all girls would love to have. We spoke like friends. Talked about goofy as stuff. Memories we had of our own. Things we liked, things we didnt like. Our future careers, family goals, and just future goals for that matter. Then he called me names like "babe" or "babygirl" or "my girl". At first, I was like "ummmmmm bro" but he kept saying it and it was my fault for thinking that it was gonna lead to something. He literally had my heart. He was a soccer player. He was a good brother and a good son. One night, he shared with me something so personal that only his best friend knew about. But he shared that same personal thing with me and I felt honoured. Then one day, I had a dream about him. The dream was about him playing indoor soccer. Then somehow he injured his right ankle. It was REALLY REALLY random. But on the same day, after I woke up, I did a few things then I remembered the dream. That dream was so vivid - I can still remember it to this day. But I remembered the dream and so I just randomly asked my guy and was like "hey, I know this is gonna sound stupid but I just wanted to ask....did you injure your ankle today?"........BRO! He replied "yeah, I injured my right ankle playing indoor soccer." I literally dropped my phone when I saw that reply. Then I asked him, "Did you wear a dark-colored shirt?" And he said, ".....yeah. A navy blue shirt." I died at that moment. Like having that dream and then realizing that it actually happened to him had me shook. So from day 1 to day 64........we talked. Until one day, the messages stopped. It was silent. And it become those one-worded responses. I realized that it was the end of the road for me to talk to him. He's the reason why I feel insecure to send any guy a message. I learnt everything from him. And it literally took me a whole year to recover and move on with life. He literally soaked my thoughts everyday and the pain I felt in my heart is so indescribable that no words can express. He was my first one-sided love and I still wish him birthday wishes. Daniel, I hope you find the right girl who will love you, your brother, and mother. Thank you for showing me how it feels to be loved. I hope life treats you good and blessings go your way. Sending you love from afar.

"I don't care if she's not mine anymore. Some nights, I still dream of her..."

It's 1 AM, I'm alone on my pc, listening to this, smokin a joint...Feeling lonely and empty....

I just had the most beautiful dream ever last night..the pandemic ended,then I met this imaginary girl..she's so sweet we met ,we talked ,we love each other..she cured my depression it was feels like the most beautiful moment in my life..like a heaven..until I woke up and got dissapointed with the reality..with pandemic still going on.. everything still closed..I'm still lonely and depressed..I suddenly feel suicidal that morning .but that dream gave me hope..I wish tomorrow will be much better.

imagine a year of building up and getting with the girl of your dreams just for it all to end so suddenly. none of it being your fault so you just have to sit there and watch your life fall apart. it all started at the end of october last year. it was the first time i told her i had feelings for her. to my luck, this cute girl in my class said she felt the same. we wanted to go out with each other but we decided to get to know each other better. skip forward to february, we’ve been talking more and getting closer and we decide to go on our first date. but, so many things made this go wrong. it started off as a double date (with my best friend and his new girlfriend who just started going out) but we ended up having others tag along. she also saw an ex of hers which brought up bad memories of past relationships. these all made the whole day awkward which would result in a late night text from her saying we weren’t going to work out. she felt like things were forced and awkward like things weren’t natural. i was torn by this. crying every night that week. we stopped talking from then on. it hurt having to let go of someone as beautiful as her. however, there was a glimmer of hope. she said that i still might have a chance if we’re in the same position in a year or two. fast forward to around the middle of the year, i message her out of the blue to find out that she had just broken up with her ex. we started talking more from then on. one night she starts flirting with me which makes me wonder if i still had feelings for her. the only thing holding me back from admitting that i did is when i heard she didn’t want anything serious but rather just flings or dating. after a while talking we reach the night i told her i like her. my class had an astrology night at school. i spent most of the night talking to her which everyone else took as us flirting with each other. we go home messaging each other and just before she goes to sleep i tell her i have feelings for her. she replies saying that i was the guy she was telling me about. the one she thought she had feelings for but didn’t want to say anything. we began talking more and more online, daily even, getting closer. one day she decides that she does have feelings for me. she always has, it just use to not be enough for her to say. after months of getting closer, i ask her out but she declines saying she would but it’s still too soon after her ex and she’s not ready for a relationship etc. it hurt but i didn’t mind waiting for her until she was ready. i looked at it as a step forward of getting with my dream girl if she did want to be my girlfriend. last month she decided to ask me out. she was so excited, and telling all her friends. so nervous that she had to ask me out online (which is not like her at all). i was the happiest kid in the world. after a year of trying i finally get with her. a week later we had our first date. it was the best time of my life. we went out to town to this festival, ate sushi, had ice cream by the waterfront, it was almost perfect. especially since i was with this perfect girl. she was the first girl i ever went out with. i was too nervous that i didn’t kiss her on that day which is something i regret so much to this day. i always think back on what i could’ve done then to make things better. not to change the outcome of what happened, but things that i missed out on that i never will have the opportunity to do now. the night of our second first date i get a message from her saying she’d rather not be official or anything and just stick to dating. other people just thought of it as being boyfriend and girlfriend but without labels, but i knew this would just go downhill. the following week on thursday she sends me a message. my heart broke as i tried to read it. she said that it was either something or nothing that we had and she chose nothing. she loved being single. she didn’t feel the same about me. i was upset and angry. she kept leading me on and then stopping things which tore me to pieces. a year of building up with the girl of my dreams and now i have to let it all go. i was in love with her and it pained me to think of letting go of all the memories we made together. i stopped talking to her as i knew nothing i said would’ve changed her mind and that if i just ignored her i would move on faster. it’s been two weeks since then. my mind still hasn’t changed. she feels like a stranger yet i still want her. every night i still dream of her. every night i go to sleep on the verge of crying, wanting to die. i keep getting hurt and it’s nothing i’ve done. i just have to sit and watch everything in my life go to shit. it wasn’t just this relationship but a ton of other things going wrong. to the girl that this is all about. i still love you. it hurts that i never got to show or even tell you that i love you but i do. i know you probably think this is too far for just a crush but how are you just a crush to me when you’ve been on my mind every single day? you were the first thing i thought of when i woke up and the last thing before i fell asleep. i even dreamt of you so many nights. how are you just a crush to me when i saw my future with you? i know you want to be single but just know that because i have to move on doesn’t mean i‘lol stop my feelings for you. i’ll just suppress them until the time is right when i’ll open up to you again. i’m not expert in relationships because i’ve never properly had one, but it’s common sense to know that when you love someone you never stop loving them. you can just hide those feelings away and push them to the side but they will still be there. because those memories of them will always keep them in your heart. memories that are impossible to let go. i have to let go of you to become healthier but that won’t happen. i will just work on pushing these feelings away so that they don’t drown my mind like they used to. until the day comes when i open up to you again, i wish you all the best. - anon

Me: this music is so calm Me after 1 hour of listening: *"These voices in my head told me I'm better off ｄｅａｄ"*

I dream of her. We've never met. I see her in my mind's sunset. In the dark, I awake with my memory drained. I felt her skin and saw her face. She called to me, and I answered back. But what she said, my mind does lack. I touched her skin, I saw her face. But when I look, an empty slate. Each night I remember; Each morning I forget the girl I saw in my mind's sunset.

“girl u realize that hes really just being friends with you for fun? like he probably doesnt give a fuck abt what happens to you bc it really doesnt affect him” is the type of advice i get from my friend

its okay to not be okay. :)

Plz put this on Spotify 🙏🏾 Update: It actually is on Spotify! Just search up KudasaiBeats and go into the “White noise” album.

this is what dreams are made of 💕

I saw a video once that said “If you spend your time chasing butterflies, they’ll fly away. But If you spend your time making a beautiful garden, the butterflies will come.”

Kudasai lowkey keeping the Nujabes vibe alive and well.. Blessin it

Today i dream about a girl i was really attached too. but i dont know who she was. We went to a lot of travels and she was super clingy my heart feels warm everytime she hugs me but after i wake up everything went blank i couldn't remember her face her voice or anything.. I just know I've dream of something or someone amazing but that dream has passed right now. This is my dream today " The Girl I Haven't Met " 12:30 AM Wed, 3 Jun ~JheinShine

I be dreaming of her everyday Only to wake up knowing she's in the arms of another.

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"no bro don't worry I'll be on Minecraft tommorow" Last seen: Fortnite: Battle Royale

every decision you've made in life has led you to read this comment

feel like i wanna meet all the people in the comment section, so nostalgic and distant feeling

It’s kinda hard to flip the page when you know there’s not another chapter 😔. I see all these positive comments but we all know there’s a chance of depression being normal. We all know that there is no different chapter in our life. We all know the monster under our bed is inside us. So we cry. We cry the pain away. And we rethink our life. And think to when we where kids. Not a care in the world. But now we cry. But there’s always a chance the crying can stop. The crying and pain can go away. Maybe life will change. However we can’t all escape the tears. Have a good night/ day

When you dream of your crush and have a great day with her , then wake up to realize it was just a dream.

I dream of her, I dream of me. Were worlds away, I wish I could just play back the memories of what was and that's all that ever had to be, yet I wake up day after day wondering if I ever will let myself free. I want to see these dreams become reality but I can't even see your face, say your name. I will always take this blame, if only it didn't need to stay the same. One more death, another life. The same breath, one more night. I reside the only place you're alive. What is this, if not a memory, a dream?

This hits different when you lose someone who you love so much. Rest easy grandma , I hope you enjoy you're new life in heaven with out us 😭💔

I can't really complain about my life. I'm not being bullied, I don't have abusive parents, I'm doing pretty good in school, I have hobbies, maybe I don't have true friends but that doesn't really bother me. So why do I feel so empty? Like I am wasting my best years on nothing.

I love how everyone is sharing their old memories or stories or dreams or thoughts ,like YES I've got my tissues ready let's readdff

If only I had the courage sooner.

I cry when I listen to this. That’s a good thing... Right? Right?.....

I had a dream of this one girl. We've been friends for a while, part of the same friend group. I don't know really what I feel for her but she appeared in my dream suddenly last night. We were on some sort of trip and just, hung around each other. I don't remember anything momentous, just moments of us chilling in the lobby of a hotel, the outside of a park. Just together. A friend would pop in from time to time, but it was really just me and her. I woke up, feeling the most refreshed I ever had and the happiest I'd been for a long time. I don't know what to think anymore.

If everyone just told their secret loves they love them, we'd solve this comment section.

Kudasai, Jinsang and Saib are truly legends

Feeling lost Feeling broken Abandoned Left behind By someone I didn t know

I dream of her occasionally always dreaming of how we’ll meet each other again. It’s been almost 4 years since I lost contact with her. At the time I felt hopeless, she never gave a number, she didn’t have social media, and I didn’t know what school she moved to. But I moved on. I started to like other girls and eventually I forgot about her. I didn’t think it mattered if we met again since I was interested in girls I went to school with. And then... I got transferred to homeschool. This was before the whole pandemic btw. And I felt like I was deprived of not being loved, but loving someone. I started to think of all the girls I liked, and regret not confessing to a single one of them. But there was one girl who stood out among the ones I liked. It was this girl whom I had known since Kindergarten. I don’t know why, but I kept thinking back to how close were. I realized that I was who I was because of her and my other best friend at the time. I remembered all the times we would hang out, talk, and draw. I remembered how I used to draw things for her. I wouldn’t have gotten into art in the first place if it weren’t for her. I would’ve been another athlete, not that it was a bad thing. I miss that. I remember dreaming of the day I could meet her again. It was at some sort of event and my previous best friends were there too. I don’t really remember what I said, but those dreams always ended before I could confess. They felt so real I thought they were real. And I wish they were. Sadly, I might never see her again. But hopefully, I’ll find another.

I'm about to graduate high school. I unfortunately live in a shitty country and will have to stay here because of economic reasons. Meanwhile all of my friends will go to different parts of the world. They are all I have, they are very few but so special, and I'm gonna have to stay here while they are there making their own lives, and me with the fear that I'll never see them again, and when I do, it won't be the same. So many things I didn't do, never confessed to my crush, never told by bully what he deserved, etc. I'm making a big step towards my future, an unknown one, where everything could happen. It's bittersweet... I'm excited to start from zero in this new world, but afraid about what could go wrong and about what I'll loose upon graduation. I just hope that my friends won't forget me and that sooner or later I'll move out and start a new life

Lofi video: *exists* The comments: depressions and poetry

I think the lofi community is one of the best on RU-vid. We kinda just chill. There's not much drama, just sharing stories and helping each other out :)

I met this girl online, we have very similar interests until I fell in love and luckily she feels the same way as me. Her messages really makes me happy despite that I've been struggling a lot, until one day she's losing interest to me, she couldn't tell me why but it seems like I was too late to understand her feelings. I kept dreaming about me and her talking online about random stuff, it makes me really happy but now, it's too painful to dream about it. Now she's trying to stay away from me, I wish she could've give me one chance to change her mind, but I have no choice but to move on, no matter how hard it is.

the quote is so real for me i can't stop thinking of her, i know she wants to move on and date people but she can't seem to replace me like i can't replace her and yet i am sitting here thinking of her

This song makes me realize that i always feel empty Thanks? I guess

When life pressured you beyond the limit, you just need to hear this kind of music.