Thank you for taking the time to listen to my story. Ultimately, what got me through this was a beautiful combination of spending time with God, family, friends, medication, therapy, exercise, finding my triggers and really digging deep and figuring myself out and taking time for me. I recommend all of this. No it’s not easy but keep pushing through. One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through and it will be someone else’s survival guide.
Thank YOU! For sharing your testimony, I am so grateful for this. The words you speak I could have easily said myself and I have. But God is our ultimate healer , he doesn’t lead us to the water to drown us , he leads us so we can come back stronger and even in my struggles (and I still struggle) I am grateful. Hugs to you sweet girl! Thank you so much ♥️
Thank you for sharing your story. I am very glad to know you are doing better and to see you smiling! It can be exhausting fighting this good and most important fight (IMO) for your mental wellness. I suffered multiple concussions, and have never been myself since. I am still in recovery from the physical injuries to my brain, and as a medical student I've had to spend more and more time away on this journey of continued healing. It is devastating to suffer neurological (and that includes psychological) consequences from any injury - physical, biochemical, infectious, etc. I was curious after pt. 1 if you ever did learn if you had covid or not- because I know it changed my brother's behavior for months when he was infected working as a resident in the ED in 2020. Although I was fully vaccinated, I got covid in January and it altered my behavior for a bit, as well. Maybe it's the scientist in me that wants to know the cause and because I know that the neurological effects of covid are severely understated. But I hesitate even in writing this, because I know the effects are what need the most attention and healing. And perhaps the first-gen, minority woman in me is subconsciously like, we must have a reason to breakdown, right? This doesn't "just happen" [especially not to us?!?!!] It's not the most important to know how it happens right now, but even more so how to come up. Thank you so much for sharing this testimony, especially when you said this can happen "to anyone at any time." I am here for letting it all break down so that you can build back up stronger. And we are. Keeping your family in my prayers, and please pray for me and mine, as well. I know you are not a medical information channel, but I would also love to know what herbs and supplements are helpful for added support. [disclaimers and all that]
Hi Claud. I, for the first time experienced anxiety 2 weeks ago. I had about 5 episodes within 3 days. I literally felt like I was going to die. It was through God, my husband and later confirmed by a dr that it was anxiety. I have not started medication. I am open to it. However, since I know what happen and learned what triggered it, I have been able to manage it. I believe that this was a lesson for me. A lesson to lean on God and to deepen my relationship with him and along with that I have learned that people with mental issues need us! They cannot fight alone. The enemy attacks our minds. Not because we are weak, but because the minds controls everything. The mind is powerful. I grew up as a pentecostal pk and now a P's wife, I know this is a battle is spiritual war. We must fight and we must fight together. As I am on my journey, I thank you for sharing. Your MIL gave sound wisdom here. I hope to see more of her in the future. Much love!
Thank you for sharing, I went through that since December 2020 and yes the same things except por medication was my breakthrough. It is like you describe feeling yourself again. I asked God why why but then He was my refugee in those moments and still is, and God took care of everything, I am the provider of my family and seen God take care of my job, my business was impressive. Believe God and remember to reach out, to your family, friends, church and very important Doctors.
Yes!!! We all need prayer worrier’s just like you beautiful mother in law!! Praise GOD for her!! All the GLORY TO OUR LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST!! With him WE ALL will not fail!! GOD BLESS US ALL!! ❤️🙏🏻
Powerful testimony. Even with an INCREDIBLE support system, supportive husband and family, access to knowledge, therapy, and medication, Claudette's struggle with depression still seemed so difficult. Can we all take a moment to acknowledge the struggle of those whose outer AND inner worlds are falling apart but don't have the luxury to mend them and lack support or family to help them. Praying for them.
Gerd's mother is ANNOINTED. The divinity that reigns in her is purely divine. Claudia your village is beautiful and you are so blessed. I am sure admitting your judgment on mental illness also aided in your healing. Thank you for your transparency. ❤❤❤❤🧘🏾♀️🧘🏾♀️🧘🏾♀️🧘🏾♀️
I vividly remember watching and loving Adrienne's "Day in the Life" video during quarantine with your whole family. I remember watching it and thinking "Wow! They're so lucky to have each other." While I still believe that, I never would've guessed that you were dealing with such deep depression and anxiety. Thank you for sharing your story. It's helping me to know I'm not alone in my own journey. It's also showing me that you never know what challenges people are walking through. Thankful for your bravery and your channel. Thank you, Claude & co.
You said this perfectly! I felt the same way! I loved seeing them in quarantine and never would’ve guessed that she went through this. Whether it was during or before that time. I’m so glad she’s/you’re doing better now Claude!🖤
Thank you ♥️ I feel so blessed to have my family… I never take them for granted. And yes that was that time my husband made the decision to head across the country to bring me to Cali. It was a really difficult time and no you are not alone ♥️♥️♥️
THIS IS SO NEEDED...Especially in People of Color communities (I grew up in a Caribbean household as well). We are taught to pray it away and often shamed if you don't rely on God to fix it. I am so glad Mama Felician broke down the marriage of Faith AND Science! POWERFUL...Thank you guys for this!
“Too much of anything is good for nothing.” When I tell you that I felt the wisdom that what coming out of Mama Felician. I was touched. I felt all of it. There is nothing better than speaking and listening to strong women like Mama Nilda and Mama Felician. I so appreciate being able to listen to all of you through these 2 vlogs. Thank you for blessing us.
Claude, you have such a beautiful village. I thank God for you being so open to share these stories and experiences with us. As a 21-year old, these videos give me such hope for what my future can look like. Even though things won't always be easy, when you have people who love you the way we see in these videos, anything seems possible. Thank you.
We also have to give ourselves grace. Unconsciously we all remember how we were tormented and rested on like toys by medicine. Those memories Md terrors are in our muscle memory.
Oh Claude,you have no idea how much watching this has helped me ,to know someone else out there properly verbalize the things i was feeling and going through last year for an entire year. I was so anxious and depressed, I felt so alone even though I had my fiancé there with me .I couldn’t get out of bed on most days and if i did it was only go to the couch and sleep there,I couldn’t get out of my head. I tired so many things that didn’t work but i was too scared to actually seek medical help because I am Jamaican and we don’t talk about these things,we pray or ignore it because we don’t want to be seen as crazy, i wanted to try medication but all i kept hearing in my head is that everyone is gonna look at me and know that im taking meds for my mental health so i never did . Im not entirely sure when i got my breakthrough but I did and i feel alive. I still struggle sometimes but I’m working hard to not fall back in that dark place. Thank you for sharing this. You have an amazing support system 💜
I totally understand the cultural aspect of it… I grew up thinking the same way. Ohhh but what a holy relief those meds gave me. I am so happy to hear that you are in a better place. Thank you Lord ♥️♥️♥️
I only wish that mama Felician and Claude would talk more about mental illness. It’s just one of those topics that is rarely discussed in depth.🙏🏼This woman has so much valuable wisdom❤
Gerd’s mum couldn’t have said it better - the same way you finger, arm stomach can hurt is the same way your brain can. Suddenly I feel so ahhh words can’t describe. Blessings to you all!
This brought tears to my eyes because I literally go through the same thing with taking my meds for my depression and anxiety. 🥺 I battle myself. I really learned a lot from your Mother in law's perspective and I will keep that in mind. You're lucky to have such loving supportive family there. I wish I had that. 😭 I just started therapy again yesterday, so I'll be taking one day at a time and hope to get relief someday.
I’m so sorry you go through this… I remember my therapist saying to me “would you withhold medication from you child?” And I thought no i’d never do that… so why do it to myself. I always tell myself “Claude, Be kind to yourself” those meds helped me out so much and gave my body a chance to heal itself. That and therapy (a lot of therapy) changed my life. I started to “stack my good days…” a concept my sister in law and her son taught me to do during my healing process. Sending you the biggest hug. Praying for you.
I just wanted to say I love Claude & Co.!❤️ You are so amazing Claudette! Are you planning on coming back to RU-vid for more videos? I hope so🙏🏼 You’re so genuine, real, & raw. You have helped me & im sure you’ve helped tons of others through this platform as well. God bless you & your family🙏🏼🙌🏼
Thank you Claudette for choosing to share your experience and journey with us. It is greatly appreciated. And having a prayer warrior as a mother-in-law is definitely a blessing. The fact that she was there to talk to you by phone even if it was in the middle of the night shows her heart.❤
Wowww♥️ Can we pleaseeee get an episode of mama Felician giving us tips on daily vitamins that are good for the mind, body and soul? Also I would love to hear more of this woman and how she became so wise.
I find myself checking your channel every few weeks to see if you filmed something new and then I just rewatch a video while I’m here 😊The channel you and your family have created is so, so special. May God continue to bless ya’ll ❤️
LOOK AT GOD!!!! 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽I knew it! On part 1 I said that part 2 was going to be more than just being informative about mental health, but also be a testimony. I promise you, I cry every episode. Ms. Felician is definitely anointed. I can feel it when she speaks. Her voice is like a hug. Her presence is poised and peaceful. I’m sure she has many testimonies about how God showed up in her life, which is why she has grown and matured so much in the spirit. May this family continue to be blessed and protected in the mighty name of Jesus! 🙏🏽 To God be the Glory!
I went through a dark time almost the whole 2021 alone... I wish I had the support system you have, how blessed you are. Only God brought me out. So happy for your relief and healing, keep pushing. Love from NY 🖤
This has really hit me so hard. I've been struggling so hard. I've been in so much pain. I look in the mirror and can't find myself. I'm praying so hard for myself and others that might be also struggling.
Claude you have no idea how much you helped me. I lost 😞 my mom in December I got to 108 pounds I wouldn't eat. I was drowning myself and Thank God I have cousins and siblings that didn't let me fall. If u were hoping you at least help 1 person. I raise my hand. Thank you mama Felicia -this was life changing. 🙌
I’m at the airport with tears in my eyes. Thank you for sharing your story. Now, understanding your story makes me happier knowing you got your dream home later that year. I don’t know you personally - but I’m so happy for you and proud of your strength ❤️
Claude this a ministry, you guys do such a wonderful job portraying the realness of all these issues. I hope you know God is doing something through you. I know that pain. It happened most acutely during grad school for me. It is real and debilitating, some times are worse than others even a decade later. I myself I have decided to stop taking medication because I have been breastfeeding for the past 6 years. This past year has been very hard, and this has been a reminder to me, that it is not okay, to feel this way for so long. But after awhile it becomes you, in a sense. When you mention Jet in the last video, I broke down because, my Kaiyah, whose now six, constantly tries to help be mommy’s helper, explaining to her that some our hearts get owwies sometimes and we have to see a therapist has been heartbreaking, even though her dad is one. I feel terrible about it. And I will say when you are on the edge, it matters not how much information you have, (we run a mental health practice and create resources for depression), but the experience is overwhelming and without support, it feels impossible. Your family is a blessing. The support you have in them is truly amazing. It truly does take a village of understanding and support and you have showcased this brilliantly. For those who are without it, it is reminder to find a tribe, places where you feel support, and to keep trying. Don’t give up, the world needs you. Thank you for this, please keep up this amazing work.
Mama Felician said no one knows it but he who feels it. That part! She was able to guide Claude out of the depression. Thank God Claude had the support she needed.
Honestly this makes me cry so bad but also so happy that you have such an amazing support system and knowing you weren’t physically alone during this traumatic experience
I was taking antidepressants and didn’t want too then I felt better and then with my dr wanted to stop so I did and went back to how I was and realized that I am someone who needs this to keep me good to be better for me in the long run and to me I rather take the meds than to ever go back to how I felt….
Love this and your pure heart, Claud. I have also struggled with depression and anxiety and had to take medication for it. As a Christian, I understand the stigma surrounding that. But God uses things of this world just as powerfully as he uses things of the Spirit to heal and to set us free. Praise God for what He has brought you through!! “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives” Genesis 50:20
WOW! thank you so much. I too felt this way a couple of times during the pandemic as a mother of 3 (6yr,3yr,6mo.) at the time. But I thank god it was literally days (short lived) My husband was working 14 hour days out of the home and I had my kindergartener/1st grader suffering thru homeschooling while tending to our toddler and newborn. These 2 videos will save lives! I wish Gerd's mom could share more of her wisdom and spiritual knowledge.
Claude. Am crying like a baby on my lunch break. I thank God for this channel, that He allowed for it to exist and for you and your family to find it necessary to share all this for us to know that we are not alone. And I pray for myself that, I too someday will have an incredible village that teaches and supports me through it all and vice versa. Thank you. Salute to Gerd.
Omg Claude… I just love your mother in law. She is amazing…..inside & out. What wisdom this woman has. Thank you for sharing this. This gave a very different & needed insight. Thank you four your transparency.
Yes, our Savior is always faithful!!! I have personally seen how prayer has pulled a cousin, sibling, friend, and acquaintance from death. Prayer releases a cleansing of our surroundings from sin, pressing the enemy out of our environments so we can take continual breaths of spiritual life. We may not realize, that we need more than physical air,food, exercise, and companionship to survive . We all at times will need to push firmly against darkness through the power of Christ. Morning & evening worship, sleep, and spa/water relaxation therapy is our path of healing. Speak loudly the affirmation of God and blessing in your home. This will aide in the healing process Thank you for a wonderful family video!
This touched me so much. As a single mom I suffer from this with an autistic son and it’s very hard and can be very lonely. I always find time to pray and God listens but this really hit home and made me cry as if you were the only one to understand what I was going through.
Claud, Thank you again. You’re a natural beautiful human that is definitely walking in your purpose. Each episode has helped me, either with new information or just picking up my spirits when my week has been rough. When I watch your videos, and you end them with a quick note. I just believe there’s a book waiting to be written inside of you. Praying for a friend like yourself into my life. I feel like everyone needs a Claud.. I hope that doesn’t sound weird.
🥹♥️ are you kidding me? You just blessed me. Thank you for these encouraging words. You have no idea how much that means to me. 🥲♥️🙏🏼 sending you so much love.
So happy this has a part 2! Your vulnerability and transparency is beautiful! I am happy you have the village you have. So many gems in your story and interaction with Mama Felician. Her reaching out, connection to religion, and the solution oriented conversation. Beautiful!
This was amazing for the longest time I kept checking if you uploaded again after this and you never did. I absolutely loved this and was absolutely devastated when you stopped uploading? I have never commented on a public platform or social media platform. I genuinely want to know how are you and why did you never complete this amazing series. It was raw, emotional, honest, and so many of us go through stuff like this and I just want to know what happened? How come you stopped uploading. I hope you and your beautiful family are doing great! May you always stay blessed and protected by God.
Just watched this video for the second time. Then afterwards I made an appointment for my daughter to see the doctor on Monday! Request for medication for depression 🙏thanks again for sharing this video.
I wish I had a Mama Felician and Mama Nilda. Preach Mama Felician!!! Claude is so blessed to have these two strong, wise women in her life. So glad she recovered!
Ahhh yes! Once again you are changing the culture with crushing the stigma of mental health and seeking help. I soooo understand your journey and applaud you for sharing your story. It's powerful and shines the light needed! I took goto therapy and have dealt w my own depression and anxiety....I am better today but it is real. Thank you!
Thank you GOD.. Thank you Claude and your whole family!! I to deal with anxiety and by the grace of GOD I woke up today able to watch this video after coming home from my 3rd therapy appointment..I can see the light and the end of the tunnel I know I have a ways to go but GOD sat with me in the trenches with all my tears and he is raising me up BETTER THAN BEFORE!! Thank you for sharing your videos and beautiful family with US!! GOD BLESS US ALL Amen & Amen ❤️🙏🏻 All the glory to our lord and savior Jesus Christ!!
Please share more and the healing that happened in California. My brother is currently going through deep depression for several years and this really helpled.
I love Mama Felician, she is anointed for sure. God is using her and I’m here for it. I have watched this video so many times, I get something different from her each time. I wish I could call her for prayer. Gerd is such a supportive husband, he is an example for sure. Nilda and Papa, you can tell would do anything to make it right. Such a beautiful and wholesome family. This whole family is DOPE! I love you all! 💕💕💕
Having a support system and using the resources we have us key. Everyone is different and what works for one may but be for the other. Keeping going Claud!!!! You have a good support system.
Good job Claude this is part of your continued healing and progress YOU GOT THIS.... Just imagine no one knew,what a success Claude ,God bless and continue to help all who suffers and all who helps with mental illness
There is no greater love than that of a rallying family.... Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil ~ for thou art with me!
Claude, you have me crying again! Your testimony is incredibly powerful. The example of your support system during this time in your life is a template God is showing me and others. Thank you so much for your transparency. You didn’t have to share this, but you did! And for that… you will continue to be blessed for helping God’s people. May got continue to bless your amazing spirit. 🙏🏽
We have been discussing your video as part of our reading club. We are looking forward to Part III with Mama Felician and others who have support you. We really appreciate your heartfelt video with all its scope, depth, and dimensions. Thank you for sharing and your willingness too move into the deep water of life. We love you all and many many blessings.
This is such an important conversation. Thank you for your raw honesty and your vulnerability. Those of us with family members who suffer from mental illness often feel hopeless. I practice saying goodbye to my cousin because I know I can’t save him. I try to steel myself for the worst while praying and hoping for the best. Your village has given me a different kind of hope- one where I can actively envelope my cousin in love. I will share this with my family. Thank you.
Wow … thank you for sharing this. I can’t imagine how hard that is… to watch and feel helpless. Praying and yes there is hope ♥️🙏🏼 sending so much love to you and your family.
Hey Claudette and Gerd, Mama Nilda, and Papa Joe and Gerd's mom. I enjoyed watching today's part 2 video, it was so beautiful seeing everyone happy and together 🥰🥰 Sending love ❤️❤️ and can't wait for next week Wednesday's episode 😊😊
I have had to stop multiple times during this video and last weeks, to dry my tears and blow my nose. Hearing you speak about the exact thing I have felt one too many times, broke me. Also seeing the amazing support from all of your family was so beautiful. Thank you so much for being so open.
Love those last words you shared by Sara Barelleis Thank you for sharing your journey Claudette. Whenever, if ever, you decide to come back, we’re here with open arms and hearts and ears. ❤
Claude thank you so much for sharing your journey!I've been struggling with social anxiety,ocd,and depression for years.I'm 32 now,an I've tried so much to heal.The pandemic played a massive part in these worsening.I've been struggling with feelings of hopelessness.I keep pushing though.Thank you for creating a safe space to share.Any prayers from anyone would be greatly appreciated!
I’m not even halfway and I can feel the impact of this testimony. Both families are so amazing & the fact that both moms believe in the power of praying such a blessing. God bless you all and I’m so glad that your better Claude & can share this testimony with us.
I felt so strongly about not going on medication as well and it took four years for me to finally try it. And it was just like you said- you start feeling like yourself again. I felt like I was waking up from a nightmare and could laugh effortlessly again when I hadn't even realized I was forcing it. I read Sara's post as well and decided to post my story. I ended up chatting with a few of my friends and it encouraged them to start their own journeys to better their mental health. Thank you so much for sharing this. Depression is so horrible when you feel like you're going through it alone.
You have no idea how much Gerd’s mom’s advice helped me. I’ve been brought up in a culture where medication for mental health is not even looked down upon it is hated. This talk just met my spiritual, emotional and logical self (if that even makes sense). It truly gives hope and a road map
Words fail to express the gratitude we all feel for you sharing this. Thank you. I wish it could’ve been a live chat where we could ask questions but I understand how difficult it is to even share this. Thank you. I would love to hear more on the experience of those who were loving you & supporting you through this difficult time.
Wow!! That passage from Sara Bareilles was incredibly powerful and freeing for every single one of us who have found ourselves at the end of the road; a bottom of a dark hole; alone even though we may have been surrounded by people. It gave utterance to the many who have suffered alone or should I say without understanding in a room full of people. Thank you for your vulnerability and thank you for sharing the power of family; the power of love and the power of Almighty God!!
This was absolutely beautiful to listen too. I too have struggled with depression. To someone who has never experienced it, it is almost unexplainable. I cried and cried everyday for a LONG time. I felt hopeless, unworthy, the hardest part was watching my husband try to love me and I couldn't let him in. He didn't know what to do. Thank God he delivered me! It wasn't a clear deliverance but through much prayer and pleading with God and verballizing how I was feeling to my husband and family I slowly pulled my way out. Thank God! I remember telling my husband that I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I had everything going for me but depression still hit. So thankful for your testimony and so happy that your here with us ❤❤❤
Ohhhhhh wow!!! I am absolutely addicted.....do we really have to wait another week for another episode. Claude I am so proud of you for sharing your amazing story. You have an amazing support team. Your husband reminds of mine, so supportive of us and will do whatever it takes for their wives.....nothing like a good island man...my hubby is Jamaican. Gerd's mom.....OMG!!!! I was listening to her like I was at women's club and she was in charge.....I kept saying PREACH MOM!!! My first time hearing speak and her wisdom, knowledge, delivery, spirit, personality, confidence are all amazing.....she could have spoken for hours and I would still be listening....please have her back on this topic again...I WANT AND NEED MORE!!!! We as women do need to open up and share our stories, so many of us are going through the same thing we need each others love and support. I just wish I could HUG you all right now. I wish you all would for a women's club on RU-vid that we can all form an amazing sisterhood and lift each other up and love on each other without judgment. Love you all. THANK YOU ‼️
Thank you for sharing your story. I just started medication for anxiety. Your story has helped me. I’m not the only one going through this change. God bless your family!
Thank you for sharing. As a mother, L&D nurse, Christian, and a woman who has experienced both incapacitating depression and anxiety- I thank you and your family for refuting the stigma of mental health.
Such an amazing awesome testimony Claude!!! To GOD be the glory!! 🙏🏼🙌🏼 you needed to have a breakdown to have a breakthrough. Psalm 23 comes to mind when hearing your story because of that dark valley you walked through. We need more videos like this & to touch on more subjects. Your family support system is awesome!!!! I would like to see your mother in law giving more advice.
So Powerful!!!! I cried so much throughout both part 1 & 2. I remember the confusion and loneliness that came with depression. Not realizing what it was but knowing something wasn't right. Knowing I didn't want to feel that way but not knowing how to fix it. The isolation I felt by not wanting to burden anyone with my sadness. Loved ones looking for answers from me as a means to help me, but I had none to give because I didn't know why I felt the way that I felt. It wasn't until I removed myself from things that aided in my depression, began to focus on me and my happiness, that a road to recovery began. The support that God sends you once you cry out to God,❤❤❤ is invaluable and so vital. Also, the decision we make to want to get better and take baby steps toward that is so brave and necessary. So glad Claude was able to heal and come back to self. God bless!❤
I experienced the same thing during the pandemic. It was so hard to even understand what was happening in my mind, let alone reaching out to my community/ inner circle. I was so scared to tell them for the fear they would think something was wrong with me, or worse, I was being "dramatic" and needed to get over it. If it wasn't for therapy, rest, exercise, and my support team (headed by my husband who was with me every step of the way), it was a long process to healing but I made it. Thanks for sharing your story. ❤️
I’m so happy that you’ve shared your experience. Like it was stated, this has been something that was taught to be kept a secret and this is the utmost truth. I thank God that it is no longer that way and that we’re all treating mental health issues as serious as we would to any other issue. I myself have been that dark place more than once so I definitely know how it feels to wear that shoe. Thank the Lord above that you’re out of that place and remember it’s gonna be ok❤️
This has been a reminder of how very much I miss my mother. She left 2 years ago. As I watch I’m so happy Claudette had such great support. I am terrified to face anything difficult without my mom. Watching this warms my heart. 🤎🤎
We like Mama Felician and her spiritual walk. She excellently explains that "we are the human race, but Warriors" with many human experiences and life's lessons. We love her and would love to learn more about her journey, her strength, and her life lessons. I trust that you are well or on the road to true wellness. You served in the role of a Nurse (a human angel), being a nurse today is very difficult, particularly when you deeply love the human race. Human angel honestly understand that the human race is in deep trouble because they refuse to read the writing on the wall. We are all fighting for mental wellness, wisdom, and unconditional love. My prayers and love go with you, Mama Filician, and your family,
I'm currently experiencing postpartum psychosis and depression. It feels like a deep, dark tunnel. I look forward to being lifted out of this. Thank you @Claude for sharing your story. It is encouraging.
Claudette you are truly so strong and bold to share your story. You inspired me to open up about mental health for my own personal growth. Recently I too had reached my breaking point, from dealing with personal issues in reguarding my husband n I. My husband has been truly great being my biggest support. Actually with watching Gerd is how my husband is too!
