My Take on Spirituality 11 Years After My First Psychosis 

I love your use of this analogy and the way your articulated your comment. Thank you! 🙏

Yeah I've seen a lot of it. It can be helpful for some, but very destructive for other. Happy to offer what has helped me along my journey. Thank you for sharing 🙂

What exactly do you mean?

They should have laws to find these types and fish them out permanently👏🙏

Thank you 🙏

Glad it was helpful for you 🙂

How are you know?

Same . Or this is purgatory in the after life …

I’ve been here

I’m reading your message now. So you’re clearly not dead, and solipsism is pointless. ❤

Thanks again for sharing! Glad you enjoyed the video 🙂 Hope all is well with you!

Thank you 🙂 There are a lot of practices that can be used to help ground. A lot of them involve focusing on something that can be observed like the breathe, the body, objects in the room, the feeling of the connection to the floor. The goal of these practices are to become aware of the space around us as well as the climate inside of ourselves, there is no need to change anything observing and accepting what currently happening in the moment. You can also just focus on accepting where you are in the moment and taking some time to just enjoy the moment, notice what is around you and feel gratitude. I don't necessarily have a consistent meditation practice, but I do check in with myself from time to time and have phases where I do meditate more. My flow is pretty fluid. For me there is no separation between spiritual and non-spiritual. We are always a part of and interacting with the universe whether we are meditating, working, or doing anything. Meditation has made me realize that the thoughts and emotions I have do not define me and when I do identify with them I feel much smaller. The learning I am doing now is about not taking my thoughts and emotions personally, but just observing them as they come and go. Before I would stay stuck in the mind and trying to control it, now I don't do that as much 🙂 I hope that answers your questions.

Absolutely! Thanks! I have been matter of fact 😋 I have a personal trainer been lifting 2-4 times a week 🤠 Hope you are doing well!?

@@justbeinghayden9451 keep at it brother

Hey! Thanks for reaching out and for sharing your story. I can understand wanting to go back to cannabis after recovery but it is something I would strongly discourage. I did that and ended up having a second psychosis. Anyone who has had psychosis should probably stay away from psychedelics and cannabis, the risk is not worth it. If cannabis is really something you feel you can't let go of you could ask your doctor is high CBD hemp is something you could use. Always ask your doctor first because CBD does interact with a lot of medications. I use it from time to time when I am stressed and I used it when I had urges to use cannabis and it has not created and psychosis for me. Again talk to your doctor, but it may be a safer alternative for you. Wish you the best! If you want to have a more in depth conversation feel free to reach out to me on Instagram or my email, which are both in the video description. Hope that is helpful!

Drop the smoking weed or it will come back again.

I have found that low THC high CBD hemp flower has helped with those urges without causing symptoms of psychosis like THC does. Maybe you could talk to your doctor to see if that might be something you could try instead. CBD does interact with some medications so make sure to check with the doctor first!

@@justbeinghayden9451 I'd rather just quit entirely...but that's actually a good idea. I might just start buying those instead. I'm addicted. Sigh.

@@christophergrennan4485 I understand wanting to quit, but since you have an addiction it might be helpful to replace it with something that has a less likely chance of inducing psychosis, until you are able to completely quit. Also I would still recommend talking with a doctor about it since I'm not qualified to give you recommendations and I dont want you to take something that could have a negative impact on your health. I only offer it as a possibility because it was helpful for me. I hope you don't have to experience psychosis again and that you are able to reach your goals of quitting. Wishing you the best!

@@justbeinghayden9451 likewise! Never again in psychosis. Keep healthy!

@@christophergrennan4485 If you want good cbd flower I would consult the r/hempflower subreddit on Reddit, do not get it from smoke shops. On there they have a list of good vendors plus reviews from other people. Just wanted to make sure you get good quality stuff from good vendors.

Would love a video on this

Great question, I will do some more research and see what I can find about it.

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I do still take some medication. I have slowly tapered down, I am currently on .25mg of risperidone. As I have mentioned in other videos, medication is a tool and the dose and use will vary from person to person. The relationship with the medication should be dynamic depending on where the individual is in their recovery and if symptoms are present or not. Always communicate with doctors about changing doses and about side effects of the medications.

Has that helped you?

The difference between psychosis and someone who has an "enlightened state" is that someone in psychosis is stuck in an ungrounded state, whereas someone who is in a more enlightened state is able to connect with deeper and/or altered states, while still being grounded and able to negotiate with this reality in a healthy and controlled way. Someone who is more enlightened is usually not looking to achieve altered states or glamorizing one aspect of life or another, but rather focusing on acceptance of all things as they are.

@@justbeinghayden9451 You’re talking about radical acceptance, right? I experienced psychosis and ended up in a group home. Not where I want to be exactly, but here I am. I just want to feel contentment…be okay with my present situation. It’s hard. I spoke to a Buddhist priest yesterday about it. I’m feeling pretty empty right now. It’s hard. Suffering is hard.

Yeah I guess it would be radical acceptance to a degree. Sounds like you have been through a lot. I can imagine why you would feel that way, when we loose everything there is no doubt pain and suffering there. Learning to accept the situations we are in is a challenging process. I don't know if I have anything that will help you per say as I don't really know what is right for you or the intricacies of your situation. I will say that sometimes focusing on finding the ways we are capable of changing can be helpful, that being said it can be particularly challenging in difficult situations. I wish you strength and courage on your journey and that you find someone worth fighting for! Often the simplest things in life have been the most powerful shifters in my life, maybe that can be helpful for you in some way.

@@justbeinghayden9451 🙏 Thank you.

The psychotic drowns in the same waters in which the mystic swims with delight

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Thanks for your response. I can understand why my saying that I wished I had gotten help in high school would be viewed as shame or regret. There is a part of me that wishes I had received help at that time but I don't feel ashamed that I didn't. I know that at the time I was not ready to ask for help or receive help. I use that experience mostly as a reminder to myself that sometimes I don't ask for help when I could have. My sharing of that part of my story was to remind others that it is okay to ask for help, that I too was at one time not open to help, and that I was able to be helped and work towards my mental health with outside assistance. My focus was mainly to create a connection for others and to express learning from past experiences. Viewing it in this way is helpful to the present reality and helps us make wiser choices moving forward.

Regrets are helpful if you find the lesson from the experience

@@layotheleprechaun Couldn't agree more 👍

Thank you for your question. I don't know what the chances are statistically speaking, but it honestly depends on what caused the psychosis to begin with and what happens after psychosis as far as recovery, self care, and genetics. But yes it is possible to only have one psychosis. I do want to clarify that I wasn't in psychosis for 7 years, the actual psychosis only lasted about 2 weeks with intense symptoms and then about 2 months residual symptoms. The rest of the time was recovery from the psychosis. The second psychosis the timeline was not quite as long for recovery. Hope that is helpful for you!

@@justbeinghayden9451 It is helpful. Thank you very much!

Thanks for the question. For me it doesn't matter what someone calls it. I look at if the person is able to function and able to grasp consensus reality. If someone is not able to do that then the focus is going to be grounding. If someone is not having trouble with functioning and operating in consensus reality then intervention might not be required. So whether it's called psychosis or Kundalini awakening doesn't really make a difference to me it's more about where the person is at in there journey and what step they need to take next to find a state of relatively equilibrium for that individual at any given moment. Let me know if that makes sense and/or answers your question.

Both are different aspects , in one one is touch with consensus reality , though I liked u used consensus before reality , Grounding and equilibrium are both necessary though .it is important to be in touch with the self .