My struggle with alcohol and freedom after Watchtower!

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This is just a quick glimpse into a longer upcoming video I intend to put out in February. It's about why I was not making videos for the last year and my struggle with alcoholism, self worth and the pressure of having new found freedom from Watchtower and not knowing how to handle it after 45 years in the high control religion. I hope you stay tuned for the longer, more in depth video coming soon and subsequent videos thereafter. And remember, Be yourself and Be well! ☺️💗

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25 июл 2024

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@universeworld1782 6 месяцев назад

I started my journey in 2005 as a servant in the Congregation I was giving 2 public talks a month, some in Mexico as I was on the border I had meeting parts I had the school put on my shoulders, and I had no education HS drop out in my Softmore year. I did a free HS "GED" Degree through a Community College in the community and decided to go to College in 2005. Of course that brought major persecution from indoctrinated Elders on top of me, even charging me with Apostasy which failed when the whole Elder arrangement was caught in a lie in the judicial committee charging me as an apostate. But then as they all agreed it was just a misunderstanding. I was accepted into Texas A&M University with a 3.8 GPA 😮and I took it stepped down as a servant and of course slander became the weapon now from those same liar Elders who are all passed in death now. Was it easy, no not easy as I had a very sick wife with an enlarged heart passed in 2012. A daughter of 10 years and an adopted daughter of around 20 but disabled. All the slander was just that caused by Elder's who were nothing but fakes. I am not sorry I made those choices, they had to be made if I did not want the same fate as those slanderous Elders who are dead now. 😮 yet it still took me year's to understand who I am. And it was just in 2022 that I began to really figure it out sadly. I completely understand what you are saying. We are survivors of a high control CULT, my journey with this CULT began in 1970. I'm 69 now. Thanks for being you! 🫂 Hugs

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Wow! What an amazing example of perseverance you are! I am so proud of you for standing your ground and doing the things you saw fit to do for yourself and your family despite the pressure from Watchtower! You're so very right, it takes a lot of courage to stand up to a high control group like them and be yourself! I'm finally there and happy and free! I'm so sorry for the headache you have had to go through! I can't imagine what that must have been like! I truly appreciate you reaching out and commenting, it means so much to me! Thank you and have a wonderful day and please keep watching more upcoming videos! ☺️💖✨

@survivingparadisepodcast 6 месяцев назад

Incredible story!!! So many incredible people!

@llen609 6 месяцев назад

I am in the same place as you! At 68 I am seeing the hypocrisy and the control that the nine guys in New York have. I enjoy watching you because you are real. I can easily drink too much. And I can very easily eat too much. Watching your journey, will definitely help me with mine. Thank you . Don’t weaken think of all the people you are helping on top of this guy who enjoys you very much.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you very much and hold strong my friend! Better days are ahead for all of us! I do always try to be open and honest! That's the only way to help myself and others! I hope you have a wonderful day!!! ☺️💙💜

@yolandadobson6146 6 месяцев назад

I'm so glad to hear you're doing better! I've missed you. Recovery is a roller coaster! Some days my sanity is hanging on by thread. By grace and determination, I'm 11 years sober. Hang in there. Holler if you're struggling ❤❤

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Awe, thank you so much and congratulations on 11years! That takes fierce determination! That's about the same amount of sobriety my sponsor has! I appreciate you Yolanda! 🤗💖✨

@patpryor 6 месяцев назад

It is good to see you posting again, I believe your concern and sensitivity to the issues of life are a help to others. Be well.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you Pat! I always appreciate your kindness and support!!! You have become a true friend and person I appreciate greatly!!! ☺️💗🩷

@wk2761 6 месяцев назад

Great to see you June! We have missed you! Leaving WT is no joke. I left when I was 47 and yes, it's huge. It takes incredible strength to do this and you have a lot of strength. One day at a time! We are here for you! WT wants to judge but we left the judging behind, when we left. It's a whole new world, once you leave! A world that we all figure out in our own way. We are all different. Sending hugs your way!

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you! I've missed all of you too!!! And you are so right! WT is such a judgemental piece of 😳! Oh, did I say that!?! 😆 I'm in such a better place now and I can't wait to share it with all of you! Have a wonderful day! 🤗💗

@littleredgirl9749 6 месяцев назад

I started fading a few years ago after 25 years in the Borg. But since I was baptized at 32 years old, I had some idea of what the real world was like so I think those adjustments were easier for me. But I'm struggling with many of the things that you are dealing with, so I'm looking forward to your next video.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Yes, the JW organization makes life harder to navigate. It puts false ideas stuck in our heads and they are hard to let go of! I hope to help others with what has helped me and some of my friends! 🤗💜

@survivingparadisepodcast 6 месяцев назад

Big ((HUGS)) to you June! You look great! The way you explained your journey is so familiar to MANY of us.... the rollercoaster of emotions, pain, joy....but the most profound thing you shared was that many of us walk away and realize 'we don't even know who we are!'..... what do we like? what do we hate? ....PROFOUND my friend. So good to see you.... keep going!!! I started figuring out who I was and what I wanted a good 10 years after leaving..... it's a journey, but you're not alone!!

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you so much! It has been a true struggle, but I'm finally figuring it out and finding real happiness! I love your podcast btw! I still tune in regularly! Hugs backatcha! 🤗🩷

@Livelifewell777 6 месяцев назад

Thank you for being so honest. I was just going through my subscriptions on RU-vid just a few days ago and you had not posted for awhile. I was sending positive thoughts that everything was going good for you. It is so hard leaving. I too work up at 45, I am now 60. You would think in those 15 years I would have it all figured out. Not the case at all. At first I didn't want to leave God, I tried so hard to still believe. Read the Bible 7 times, New world translation, NIV, living Bible, etc. Went to a women's Bible study group that was open to everyone. In fact we were not allowed to say what religion we were with. It was just a safe place to study the Bible. Went to a church for awhile. I still just couldn't do it. It was still judgmental. Also all the years as a JW and after I never have felt God cares about me. As a JW, elders wife for 22 years, pioneer. Even being at Bethel for 2 and a half years. Nothing No matter how hard I tried to convince myself God was there for me I never felt it. I get the drinking too. Through I was not add an alcoholic level, once I realized that we had at least 3 pedophiles in the hall and as an elders wife I was told I had to take them in service, in my car and to strangers door's by the then CO. I lost i. I never did it. I never took them in service. That was my huge wake up call. But it spiraled me into a massive depression. At the meetings towards the end all I could think about was going home and having a glass of wine, that lead to 2 then. 3. I then understood why many of my fellow elders wife's drank. Anyway this is long enough. Thank you for being so brave and thank you for being you.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you so much for reaching out and commenting! You have no idea how much we have in common!!! I took no longer believe in God. After studying the Bible many times and pouring my heart and mind into it, I couldn't get past the judgement and misogyny and cruelty of many verses. My father in law was a convicted pedophile. He is fortunately dead now. I am a CSA survivor myself from ages 5-7 yrs old. So you can only imagine the trauma that I felt when I was told by the elders to embrace him and welcome him home when he came home from prison and was reinstated. And I had small children! It was so difficult for my husband and I! Trust me, that's just the tip of the iceberg! I completely understand grappling with leaving and figuring out where you fit in this world, but I'm finally getting comfortable in my life and I hope to offer some help to others! Thank you again for reaching out and I hope you continue to tune in as I make future videos, now that I'm in a healthier place! Have a wonderful day!!! ☺️💜🩷

@Livelifewell777 6 месяцев назад

@@JustDeannaJune You are so welcome and you are so right about us being so similar. I too do house cleaning and I have worked my way up to having some higher end jobs also. I love the people I work for now but being raised as a JW affected me even in my business. I kept jobs that treated me horribly because of guilt, that little voice in my head that I had to do what I was told to even if it harmed me, mentally, even physically. I have been robbed at gunpoint in field service, had guns drawn on me, been bit by dogs 7 times. Assigned to work in territories that were extremely dangerous. If I dared to voice that I didn't feel safe I was slammed down and made to feel like garbage. I carried that over to every aspect of my life, including my job's. When we first came back from Bethel I worked as a bank teller and my second back was very dysfunctional and abusive yet I stayed. Now at the age of 60 I have finally realized that I didn't know how to take care of my mental health. I was never allowed to. I had to go out in service no matter how tired I was, before the pandemic no matter how sick I was. I went out in service super sick because I needed to get my time in. It was all so crazy. I was working 35 hours a week and trying to get my time in for service. My husband was always gone being an elder. It was all so crazy. I realized that if I hadn't stopped going I was going to use alcohol to numb my pain. One glass of wine stopped working then 2 glasses stopped working I could at times go through a whole bottle just to stop feeling the hurt. Looking back it was all just so crazy. I don't know how I wound up here, how I can be 60. I was just this teenager it seems just a few years back trying to please everyone. Giving Jehovah my youth so that when I was old I would look back on my life with joy. I look back on my life feeling sick I wasted my life doing what everyone told me I need to do, I must do, but none of it was what I wanted to do. I don't even know what I would have truly wanted to do because it was never allowed for me to think about myself. It's just all so very crazy.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

@@Livelifewell777 wow, do we have a lot in common, I was held at gunpoint in service as well at 17yrs old! My mom was a bank teller all my life and I took terrible cleaning jobs for years out of desperation, before landing the very good paying job I'm in now. If you ever want to chat more in private, don't hesitate to contact me through my email: justjune1973@gmail.com I'd love to get to talk more! ☺️💗

@lh1673 6 месяцев назад

@@Livelifewell777Wow thank you for sharing your experience. Being long time jw, elder’s wife, pioneer, and even been in Bethel seems to sound so good to be connected with God but the reality you have shared truly hit me. It was only the videos that was shown by org made us think jw like what you were, are the happiest person but actually different!

@ladyceehiddenstruggles 6 месяцев назад

It's wonderful to see you back online and sharing your journey with us. Your honesty and openness about your struggles with alcoholism, self-worth, and the challenges of leaving a high-control religion after 45 years are truly commendable. Your message of "Be yourself and Be well" is a powerful reminder of the importance of self-acceptance and self-care. Your authenticity and willingness to share your story make a significant impact on the exjw community, and I'm sure it will continue to do so. Thank you for your courage and for being a source of strength for many. Looking forward to your upcoming content! 🥰

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Awe, thank you Lady Cee! You have always been such an inspiration to me! You're such a strong woman and a wonderful friend and I appreciate all your wonderful words of encouragement!!! You're such a beautiful example of women empowering women in the ExJW community!!! Much love to you and JT both as you heal from your accident! I'll keep in touch! ☺️😉🩷

@simplifiedlife8607 6 месяцев назад

Very refreshing honesty. Humans like to put up a happy facade and present a rosy picture to the world. This video will be of help to many people who are struggling to adjust to life without WT.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

I'm appreciative of you saying that! I try to be honest and straight forward, it's the best way! I hope to help others if at all possible! ☺️💗❤️‍🩹

@1KayJo 6 месяцев назад

Good day, Just June. I'm so sorry for your struggles. Take one set at a time you'll get there. No rush.. through it all, you look gorgeous 😊 I did miss your videos, and have a great ! journey 👍🏾

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Awe, thank you! I truly appreciate you saying that! That's exactly what I'm trying to do, take it one day and one step at a time! You have a wonderful day!!! ☺️💖✨

@Corinnaslife29 6 месяцев назад

I agree. I feel trapped when I was going to the meetings and I was do it for my mom to make her happy. And they were trying to hurry up my Bible study and get baptize and marry a bother I didn’t like that why . And other stuff that I didn’t make the truth my own. Me and my mom stopped going. But my mom still wants to go back but I don’t want to go back ❤

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

All I can say is I'm so sorry you had to go through all that! And my heartfelt suggestion is... Don't make decisions, no matter how well intentioned, to please others. You will live an unsatisfied life! You need to figure out what YOU NEED, and do that! Making others happy, including your mom, will only keep you trapped in a life that's not your own. But that's a decision YOU have to make for yourself. I wish you all the very best in life and hope you have a wonderful weekend! Hang in there!!! ☺️💖✨

@Corinnaslife29 6 месяцев назад

@@JustDeannaJune thanks

@MrTraveller1 6 месяцев назад

Great video. That wasn't Just June that was Wonderful June. Looking forward to your next one, Many thanks.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

☺️ my whole name is Deanna June actually. When I first started I was afraid to use my first name, so Just June was born. I hope you enjoy the journey! 😉🩷

@thehannahregina 6 месяцев назад

Last week I searched to see if you had a new video and somehow missed it because I hadn’t seen you in a long while….now here you are looking amazing. Take care of yourself, it’s not an easy path. I had the same thoughts, who am I after 45years of being born in. Love from Canada

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you so much! I just put the video up yesterday! I'm finally really taking care of myself for the first time ever in my life. And it FEELS amazing!!! I think we all go through some sense of loss and self reflection after leaving and it's harder for some than others. Be well my Canadian friend!!! 🇨🇦 ❤️

@Joeandfran 6 месяцев назад

Just listened to your video. We appreciate your honesty and struggles coming out of the WT. Your Bravery is what accomplishes things that our fears prevent.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you Fran! You have a beautiful way with words! You are quite a poet! Talk to you soon! 🩷

@lisettebordeleau3765 6 месяцев назад

Nice to see you're back! You look fantastic. I'm glad that you took some time for you. Take care. Hugs from Canada!

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you Lisette! It's good to be back! And I'm glad I got the time I needed too! 😉💗 Hope you have a wonderful weekend!!! 🩷💖✨

@prenticedarlington2720 6 месяцев назад

It's a rare person who's life turns out the way they really wanted it to be. Things get in the way, life throws things at you, along with having to deal with one's own personal issues. You happen to have had the Watchtower in your life, which was a big deal and had unique implications. Try not to look back and dwell on what you could have been. Start from where you are now. All you can really do is just muddle through the best you can, like the rest of us. No one has the answers and we're not here long enough to find out. We're all just passing through, hopefully making the place, knowledge and tools better for the next lot. Take care.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

I agree! That's what my next longer video is going to be about. Looking for the positive in life and not dwelling on the things that frustrated you! Thank you for the words of encouragement! ☺️💗

@Lolo-qw9vy 6 месяцев назад

Hi June, You're looking Great! I'm sorry about what you went through. You deserve so much better. I left back just after 1975 where they said that year was the end of 6,000 years and Armageddon was around the corner. I don't know what happened after that to make the JW'S stay because I faded away. I was fortunate to have my immediate family there for me because they were never in the JW'S. You are so Kind and Loving, Keep Up The Good Work that you do! Blessings and Love sent Your Way to You and Your Family. ❤

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

So happy you escaped and had your family by your side!!! That's amazing! And thank you for the compliments and words of encouragement, they mean so very much to me!!! You have no idea! I hope you have a wonderful evening!!! ✨🌙💙

@bzred 6 месяцев назад

Look forward to your video, what you described resonates. Thank you

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

☺️🩷💙

@user-og1yq7rw9f 6 месяцев назад

thanks for the video. i'm glad that you seem to be doing well. i know it was difficult for my exwife. from what i've seen in the exjw community, one of the hardest things to drop seems to be the heavy attitude towards anyone not in complete compliance to the watchtower. i wish you the best for your journey.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you so very much! It's a tough battle leaving the organization, but I'm finally feeling free and happy to have gotten here! Content, confident and healthy! Best wishes to you and your family!!! 😉✨💖

@TamaraGKing 6 месяцев назад

You look really healthy! I'm so glad to see you are back, but take it all at your own pace! You are amazing, and so inspiring! Never lose hope Hun, take it a day at a time xx❤❤❤

@JustDeannaJune 5 месяцев назад

Thank you! 💗

@sarahyoung6799 6 месяцев назад

Your voice is so calming. Love your videos!

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Awe, thank you, I appreciate that! Glad you enjoy them! 😉💖✨

@heidijay5902 6 месяцев назад

Just found your channel, there’s amazing comfort in hearing stories from other exJW’s. I’m in the unfortunate position of still living with JW family, it’s stifling & suffocating (we’re in the middle of a housing crisis, so it’s either live with them or on the street ATM). In the meantime I’m having so much fun figuring out who I truly am (I pretty much know), but I’ll never truly be free until I live away from my JW family. I’m still picking up the pieces & trying to network enough to make non-JW friends, it’s not easy to make friends as an adult, but I’m sure in time I’ll find the right people.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Hello! I'm so happy you are finding some comfort in others! It's not easy AT ALL dealing with pretending!!! I've been there! Stifling is the perfect word! My pretending was for different reasons than yours but nonetheless I felt the need to pretend to 'believe' longer than I actually did, that the JWs had the "Truth" 🙄 I hope you can find some sollis in the many ExJW RU-vid channels out there, including this one! I hope to get another video up this weekend! Keep working on getting to know yourself, it will evolve over time... Especially the further away from the organization that you get, at least that's what I have found! I hope you have a wonderful day! 🩷🤗💗

@K-Fred 6 месяцев назад

Great for taking care of yourself. You still have many fans!!!

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you! I sincerely appreciate that!!! 😉💗

@captainsunshine918 6 месяцев назад

I used to admire people who could leave decades of organized religion behind and quickly find their "real self" and live life happily ever after. I'm starting to think that's an illusion, and that at least some of them have just traded one identity for another. I think, realistically, however long you were steeped in the religion, it can take just as long to fully undo the damage. And finding your true self? That might be something that happens further down the road. Some of us will spend the rest of our lives un-learning, and find that finding who we really are is a process, not an event. And it can be a much slower process than we want. But however slow it is... it's still better than just swapping one identity for another! It's good to see you, June! Keep the faith! (In YOU!)

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

I get where you are both coming from, in regards to how long it can take to figure out who you truly are. I think that's a lifetime journey even if you weren't in a high control group religion. Being a JW definitely complicated it, but I personally feel like I'm figuring out who I WANT to be and I'm working towards that now. I'll always be a work in progress, but as a JW I was a mindless, stagnant droid, doing things I didn't want to and living a life I didn't choose. Now, I may get frustrated at times, or not be sure of something, but I can work on it in MY OWN WAY and feel free to be who I decide to be. I hope you both have a wonderful day!!! Thank you for commenting! ☺️💙

@tammyg8031 6 месяцев назад

❤ You look absolutely gorgeous!!! Great to see you again. Looking forward to seeing you again.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Awe, thank you so very much! That means so much to me! I feel really good! I hope to get my next video out in a reasonable amount of time! 😉☺️🩷

@1991LMR 5 месяцев назад

I feel the same way ❤ Thinking of you. Thank you for this video

@JustDeannaJune 5 месяцев назад

🩷💗💖✨

@Theoverthinker81 6 месяцев назад

Life's a journey with ups and downs. Some people (like me) suffered with self-worth/security/image etc without religion. The solution is discipline and action, and things can change dramatically within a year.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

I agree completely! Keep working your program, I'm working on mine! Thank you for the words of encouragement!!! ☺️🩵💙

@grammargoddessNYC 4 месяца назад

Sending you hugs. Wishing you all the best! 🤗💪🏾

@JustDeannaJune 4 месяца назад

So good to hear from you! Hope you are doing well too! Lots of love sent your way! 🩷

@jenniferm6141 5 месяцев назад

Great to have you back !💕

@JustDeannaJune 5 месяцев назад

Thank you! ☺️

@a-hagirl9351 6 месяцев назад

So happy you're back! I missed you!🎉😊❤ You look fabulous btw!🎉

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you! Glad to be back! And thank you so very much! I feel fabulous! 🥰

@Boeman683 6 месяцев назад

Praying that God and Jesus keeping you on the right path. God bless you and your family.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you! 🩷

@cindyjohnson7883 6 месяцев назад

You look marvelous! So good to see you!😊

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you! Happy to be back! ☺️💖

@cindyjohnson7883 6 месяцев назад

@@JustDeannaJune you are welcome, Fellow Traveler 🌟☯️

@lalo2641 6 месяцев назад

Thank you

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

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@Mahletgrim 6 месяцев назад

Welcome back sis you look so beautiful ❤

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Awe, shucks, you're making me blush! 🥰

@jokich6379 6 месяцев назад

Thanks for sharing. Beautiful for sharing!! Know you were not intending to out videos. All the more reason to appreciate this video. Some can put out videos every day, others once a week. Some once a month. Whatever you can do- your voice is valuable. Know I face issues with making decisions- even food. Rule of thumb for guidance is if it is healthy and affordable. I feel fear and shut down. Plus I clean, low income, and there seems no path out of either. Continue on your journey.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Yes, life as a JW all these years has been a struggle, we lived on food stamps and low income for a long time as well. We have been married for 31 years now and I am so thankful to have my family and I look for the positive now and not dwell on the frustration any longer! I'm finding happiness and content and confidence for the first time in over 50 years on this earth. Thank you for your support and encouragement!!! You are truly a loving person and I appreciate you!!! ☺️🩵🩷🤍

@jokich6379 6 месяцев назад

@@JustDeannaJune hang in there

@barrymorrison8013 6 месяцев назад

Bravo on getting this far!! Bravo for surviving the JW Org!! I guess the best I can offer is, One day at a time kiddo and make decisions which are best for YOU!!!! No explanations needed for anyone. None. Best of luck, you can do this, in fact you already are. Be well and stay safe.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you my friend! I appreciate your kindness and support!!! We all need that, don't we! I'm certainly learning to take it one day at a time and life is so much brighter because of it! Have a wonderful day! 😉🩷💗

@ckelly5141 6 месяцев назад

Love your hair June.👍

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Awe, thank you so much! I'll be sure to tell my hairdresser! She's a close friend!!! 💇🩷

@ckelly5141 6 месяцев назад

@@JustDeannaJune Boy....that’s great....and convenient too!

@lynneross6411 5 месяцев назад

If it .easy anything ...u look great!

@user-by1dc5jf1q 6 месяцев назад

You look radiant!

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Awe, thank you so much! 🩷

@cleareyesandopenmind9054 6 месяцев назад

Please take care of yourself. That is the most important thing.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you! I'm doing much better with that now! Taking some time off was exactly what I needed! 😉💙✨🌙 Have a good evening!

@lh1673 6 месяцев назад

I thank was freed from falsehood but I think so too we never can be free from reality. But I tell to myself, even being in religion or believing gods and this world just goes on the way it is, just accept the reality and live for today hopefully every day will be better.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you! Every day has gotten better! I enjoy freedom now, I'm no longer afraid of it. I realized that the JW organization made me afraid of the world and living in it. And yes, it has scary parts in it, and if you only dwell on those things, that's all you'll ever see! I chose to see the whole picture, which has a much bigger, broader and more beautiful scope than watchtower ever wanted any of us to have the ability to recognize! I hope you have a wonderful evening! 😉✨🌙💙

@lh1673 6 месяцев назад

Thanks too and yes let’s stay strong.

@Djbetterjusthavingfun 6 месяцев назад

I have struggled with alcohol since my divorce. I was married for 25 years.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

I'm so sorry to hear that! I've been married for 31 years in March. So I know what it's like to be in a long term relationship. But I can only imagine how I would feel if it came to an end. You must be a very strong person to be dealing with that! My thoughts are with you! ❤️‍🩹 I have struggled with alcohol for the last 12 years. At my worst I was drinking a 1/2 gallon of vodka a day and actually functioning, believe it or not. Please don't lose hope in gaining the strength to find happiness again and the ability to put the bottle down. I've been through rehab twice. The first time was because my family forced me to go, and this second time was because I knew it was a life saving situation and it was my own decision. I sincerely hope you can give some consideration to looking into some sort of recovery opportunities! A rehab facility, AA (in person or on line), Smart Recovery is also online, there are a lot of different online meeting options now for support, if you are a little nervous about walking into an in person meeting at first, give an online meeting a try. You don't have to have your face on screen or participate, you can just listen. Getting help may seem overwhelming and like you are admitting something bigger than you are ready to, but... All you are actually doing is admitting you need help with your current circumstances! I know it took a lot of strength for me to get help, I hope you can find that strength as well! You are worth it!!! Sending all the LOVE your way!!! 💗🩷💖✨

@bornaries7213 6 месяцев назад

You look great despite where you have been! You look like you have lost weight since your last video. It's unfortunate that we all have suffered while being a jw. I'm so glad I'M past all of the initial trauma of being a jw.

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Awe, thank you so much! Yes, I've lost about 50 lbs since then. I'm living a much healthier and happier life now! I agree with you, being a JW puts on unnecessary pressure that makes us suffer trauma that we should have never had to deal with! Thank you for commenting and watching!!! ☺️🤗🩷

@simona_ab 6 месяцев назад

I used to know a woman that used to came drank at the kh, and she was an elderette. She used to say she was taking some alcohol based medicine and people belived it, or at least faked it. When I spoke to an elder friend, the only one who is still my friend, he told me "as long as she doesn't give scandal and stain gehova's name, it's not an issue". I was baffled. Poor woman needed help, not being judged! There are more people with alcohol/prescribed drugs issues than you belive in jw, in any cult for that matter. 😢💔

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

I couldn't agree more! I used to bring a flask to the kingdom hall and drink in the bathroom myself at my worst point. I'm sure some people realized, but much like your friend, it was ignored and no one helped me. That's why I want to make my next video a longer one, discussing what I all have done in a positive way that helped me get my life pulled together and could possibly help others out there. Thank you for commenting and I hope you have a wonderful day! ☺️🩷

@hattie-thebatty-2486 6 месяцев назад

@@JustDeannaJune I am not a JW but I do understand Alcohol & how fear caused me to become Alcoholic. I didn't stop drinking till I was 42 after years of unhappiness. Thank you for talking about this and your courage. Be kind to yourself because you deserve it. PS With AA's help I am 15yrs sober this month

@Lolo-qw9vy 6 месяцев назад

Hi June, You're looking Great. I'm so sorry that you had to deal with all of this. You're such a nice person and you deserve the best being you. I had a hard time after leaving thinking that Armageddon was around the corner as they encouraged us to believe like 1975. I shortly faded after that so I don't know what they came up with to make people stay . I was fortunate compared to you because I didn't have any family members in the JW'S back then. I think I have a cousin that joined but not sure if he's still in. June, Keep up the Good Work and Blessings and Love sent your Way and Family. ❤

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

@@Lolo-qw9vy awe, thank you so very much! I really appreciate your support and kindness! You're a lovely person and it means a lot to me to have encouraging words from people like you! 😉💖✨

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

@@hattie-thebatty-2486 congratulations 🎉👏 I am so very proud of you! Battling any addiction is such a rough road to travel! But recovery is so very worth it!!! I appreciate your support and encouragement!!! It's always helpful to know other alcoholics and addicts have your back! And I hope to support others to the best of my ability as well! 12th step work going on, ya know... 😉💖✨

@matthewwhittington-jk9ep 6 месяцев назад

Did your male friends drink too ?

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

I went to a congregation when I was an active JW that was nicknamed the 'party-hall' on the DL... Almost 1/2 the hall, especially the men, drank toooo much.

@catmeow333 6 месяцев назад

You look gorgeous! There are many paths to recovery just as there are many paths to addiction. Are you getting help from a professional in the field of substance recovery? (eyeroll permitted) I found help through an infusion, no it’s not weakness or substituting one drug for another. There are times I’ve set myself up for failure through the so called ‘tuff love’ approach. When administered by a skilled practitioner, ketamine infusions (not pills or injections) offer dramatic relief. The urge to use is avoided by having a very steady, very low dose in your system. Just a thought, 🤞🏼

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you for the suggestion, I'll have to check into it. And I completely agree with you that there are many paths to recovery and everyone needs to find what fits for them. So far I do AA meetings (which I appreciate, but are a little too 'God' based for me) I found some great AA Agnostica online meetings and I love those. Also I go to about 4 yoga classes a week and that's a huge part of my recovery and spiritual well-being! That's why I always say... Be yourself and be well! 😉💖✨

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Oh, and thank you so much for the compliment! ☺️☺️☺️🩷

@amybell5832 6 месяцев назад

Sent you an email

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Thank you! I'll check them this evening! 😉

@Deploracle 6 месяцев назад

It's difficult to stop alcohol until you have developed a genuine hatred of it. Find a good reason to hate it, and stick to it.

@FidgetyGuy 6 месяцев назад

Christianity is the ONLY religion that can transform a person from morally-depraved to decent and maybe even good. Paul said: 'Or do you not know that wrongdoers will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who have sex with men, nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor slanderers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. (1 Corinthians 6:9-10) Jesus said: 'But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars-they will be consigned to the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death.' (Revelation 21:8) Why does a Jehovah's Witness NOT know that drugs (pharmakeia) and alcohol are forbidden?

@JustDeannaJune 6 месяцев назад

Isn't that the beauty of this universe... if you want to believe all the things you posted, that's absolutely your choice. Everything I said was MY experience and as I said at the end, Be yourself and Be well. So continue on your path and I'll continue on mine, but I'm not looking for a debate on Christianity. Have a wonderful day! ☺️

@FidgetyGuy 6 месяцев назад

@@JustDeannaJune Okay. So, you're not a Christian and you have no desire to be a good person. That's why the Creator God gave us Free Will. To separate the wheat from the weeds.