Obsessive Compulsive Disorder & Me 

The feeling of being "uneven", sums it up very well.

Oh my gosh, I wondered if other people struggled with the feeling of “unbalance” and their compulsions strived to “fix” it. I would always mentally measure the things I touched, walked on, said, how I BREATHED. If I didn’t balance my inhales with my exhales it was uncomfortable to speak or pay attention to anything else. And I imagined certain objects (or floor tiles, for instance) had different “energy” and I would have to spend equal amount of time on the different colours, or else MY energy would be uneven and then I felt terrible...like I would make mistakes or be responsible for hurting someone. I also realized that I used jewellery as stims, but I thought it was bad, and became embarrassed. But THEN I would pull out my hair or chew my lips or grind my teeth. I started wearing accessories again recently and it’s been a good channel for general anxiety.

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Your beanie and T-shirt matching perfectly makes me very happy.

Omg, Aaron! I have never connected more with someone's feelings on their OCD...I don't have a diagnosis, but I have felt all of these things since I was a small child...Even down to the praying before bed so my family wouldn't die while I slept. I bite my nails (or pick at my cuticles) in order to calm myself. And the feeling inside that something is just..."off" or "wrong" if something isn't done right, or for a long enough time...I seriously thought I was the only one who felt that. Thank you for making this video, and putting these things into words. It really helped me feel less alone ✌💜👍

Ahh I just started watching your videos and I relate so much! I do the same thing with my dog--kiss him on the head 5 times. I also knock on wood constantly. When I'm in a new place, I automatically scope out where all the wood is in the room just in case I need it. I did a lot of the same things you did as a child too, but I wasn't diagnosed. My family just thought I was a bit odd. Finally, in my late twenties (I'm 31 now), I was diagnosed with autism, OCD, and social phobia. It feels a lot better to know I'm not the only one in the world who does these things!

holy shit yes I had prayer rituals like I knew I wasn't religious but if I didn't pray over my food I was convinced that it would be contaminated and I would die of some gnarly disease. I have to tap out this little rhythm and I'm like "okay, NOW no one will jump out of the woods and snatch me" I also have tourettes so I have verbal/motor tics, and the line between ocd and TS is actually nonexistent. I even have a similar tic where I hum in like a scale? don't know tbh but it's super cool you can relate, great vid!!

YAY for the thing about not scaring people without their consent!!! I have a really bad startle reflex as part of my disability and in general I hate being startled. So thank you very much!

I have specific OCD diagnoses (trich, derm) but it's so hard to explain to people why travelling is hard for me, because if I cant do my morning ritual/s or stick fairly close to my routine it messes me up and can ruin my days but its irrational 🙃🙃🙃

My parents: clean your room My OCD ass growing up: spends 2 hours meticulously cleaning one or two set squares (usually the same ones) or alphabetizing my bookshelf or sorting things or color coding my shirt drawer, leaving the rest of my room untouched My room now: an unapproachable mess

Oh. My. AARON! Thank you. You just verbilized so much that I've not been able to and made me realise reasons for some things I think/do! ❤️

feeling uneven is such a prefect way of describing it. I also adopted knocking on wood as a coping mechanism from my mom who does it to "unjynx" somthing she's said. For me it started out that way but now it's also sort of a way of clearing out intrusive thoughts, sort of like they get knocked out of my head. But if i wasn't around wood i would get really anxious like of course it's gonna happen now because i didn't knock on wood. But then i saw a friend knock on glass instead of wood and i asked them about it and they said "knock on glass, save your ass" is what they were always taught so now I can either knock on wood or glass, which helps a lot because i get a lot of intrusive thoughts while driving. Also I'm glad you put into words the difference between being organised and being particular because they're very different for me also. I've always been very particular but completly unorganized

I am only a few minutes into the video and I can already tell this will be one of those videos I watch over and over again. I love seeing representation out there for this sort of thing and you are doing, in my opinion, a wonderful job.

I’ve never related to someone so much! I realized that I have intrusive thoughts since I was a child and I feel so much better knowing that someone else feels this way! Thank you for sharing your experience!

For me, black cats are just comforting, lovable creatures who don’t bring any bad luck, if anything they have been good luck :)

So articulate. So relatable. I accidentally ripped the head off a squishy this week because a co-worker would NOT shut up about a scary movie. I can't have that stuff in my brain!!

Thank you for the bit about not scaring people without consent, that someone was thinking about that made me so happy.

I'm disorganised, and have hand-washing OCD. Also, thank you for mentioning chain mail letters. I hoped you would talk about OCD. 💜

This video sums up a lot of things really well, and I appreciate you sharing your personal experiences. I was diagnosed when I was 12, but then when we tried to find therapy I was refused because I "didn't hear voices". Sometimes even professionals don't get it. It hasn't been until recently, finding others who share similar experiences, that I've felt truly seen and understood. Thank you for sharing

I have Tourette's Syndrome and that goes hand in hand with OCD unfortunately. So I have tics and then compulsions such as touching certain parts of the walls, counting words on my fingers to get to 10, and many more that are too long to explain. my tics and compulsions just sort of all combine together and make it a crap ton more difficult to get through. and the fact that people stare as I tic and just make me more uncomfortable LMAO

Wow this is really interesting and I am glad I learned more about this topic!!! It's so important to understand other people and be careful to see and respect their needs !! Thanks Aaron, have great day 🌸

Thank you so much for talking about OCD, it such a relief to hear about other people experiencing it.

this was such a good video. could you please make one about healthy coping mechanisms? i feel like ive heard you mention it before but my memory is failing me

I had flashbacks to my childhood intrusive thoughts when you were explaining your childhood. Always about the house being on fire when we went out. I still get them as an adult but WAAYY less frequently now. Thanks for explaining that and raising proper awareness of what real OCD is. I think when people make fun of it by saying silly stuff about pencils being aligned or whatever it must have started as a joke that then got so widespread that people started to believe that's what OCD is.

bless u aaron, so nice to hear about

i noticed the red marks on your arms, aaron, and i noticed you running your hands over those areas. do you also deal with dermatillomania as a symptom of your ocd? i get stuck, sometimes for several hours at a time, picking at my skin (especially on my arms) even though i hate doing it. definitely not fun. but i found out it has a name, and i also noticed a person sitting next to me in a panel at a con once who had the same marks as me, and it still feels awful, but it's such a great relief to know that there are other people dealing with this because i used to think i was like...the one crazy person out here picking at my skin for no reason

I just about cried. YES!! The whole 'feeling' uneven thing for me feels like different weights. Like if its not even, the one I did something with, ie tapping my foot, feels heavier. Even if I'm not consciously paying attention, I FEEL the un-evenness. If I don't 'fix' it (ie perform compulsion) I notice it all the time. Because it's heavier?? it's so confusing but I'm so glad you mentioned it. I've never heard anyone else experience it, and my therapist didn't even get it.

I really like your videos, Aaron! They're just so sweet and informative :)

Hey Aaron!!! Another great video my friend!!! I think I have a slight case of OCD, but I’ve never been diagnosed. I have to straighten things and check locked doors multiple times. I love you my friend!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Thank you so much for making this video!! As someone with OCD, it’s really great to hear about other people’s experience with the disorder (especially if they’re one of my favorite youtubers/people). So, again, thank you and I hope you’re doing well! 💙

Thank you so much for this video!

I’m so excited for this Okay now that I’ve actually starting watching, I’ve related so hard to you for so long and this video is just the icing on the cake. The prayers, eating disorder, disorganization, so many things I experience as well - you just explain things so well! I’m so glad you make videos and share your experiences ❤️

My body actually tingles when my OCD is triggered or when something makes me uncomfortable. For example, when I get intrusive thoughts my head starts tingling in one spot as if the thought is a physical thing, and i have to firmly rub it to make it stop. PS thank you for mentioning that not everyone is okay with being scared!

jfjdjsjsh the part about having to do things until it feels even is like my whole life like why do i have to put on my left shoe first why does it feel uneven if i don’t lmao who knoWs

I probably don’t have OCD but things that are “incorrect” or not properly aligned I need to fix it or I get extremely irritable, which is the same thing that happens when my misophonia’s triggered.

Watching your videos is semi-traumatic because it reminds me of a nightmare I had last week that I can't stop thinking about no matter how hard I try and long story short, I commented on a youtube videos about how it helped me and later that night it was in the back of my mind and in my nightmare, the youtuber live streamed them killing themselves and then I woke up and I went back to sleep and it happened all over again. But Imma still watch your videos so I could possibly get over the traumatic nightmare.

Luv u Aaron ur such and inspiration ❤️

Hi Aaron. Thanks for this video. I just want to say first that I love your editing Style. Well as for me I had very very similar OCD as you. When I was a child I had all kinds of rituals as I got older I felt if I didn't do something a certain amount of times something bad would happen and I gave into these compulsions and tried to make new ones that were less stressful for me. I would be remiss if I did not get on the comments and say there is a way out of the whole thing the whole syndrome. I went to a program called recovery International Inc. I cannot say enough for this program. it gives you the techniques and the insight and the ability to get free of the OCD. Let's say you need to step on a crack and then you need to step on it four more times or this horrible feeling will come inside of you that you need and must step on it for more times.if you can learn to Bare the discomfort of only stepping on it once and letting that tension that you feel be there you're on your way to Freedom. OCD is an anxiety disorder and it's very hard for people that have it to sit with the feeling that something horrible will happen if they don't do something or if they don't move something Etc. I just want to say you can go on the internet look up recovery International or recovery Incorporated and it will show you the four-step method to overcoming and getting free from all kinds of mental disorders. It feels so good to not have to move something and then say Oh I need to move it back and turn it just 45° or I won't be able to Bare what I'm feeling. I don't even think that way at all anymore. And as far as intrusive thoughts are concerned yes I hear you that they just come but even my intrusive thoughts were part of the OCD cycle and they have gone away as well. I went for 8 years I went twice a week. there are meetings all over the world that teach you how to do it and it is really something I cannot recommend more highly. Thanks again for the video I hope somebody gets something out of this comment and can get free if they have OCD. Bye

Has anyone ever heard of compulsions without the intrusive thoughts? It used to be way worse but I still get little compulsions and I've never heard anyone talk about that happening _without_ the fear of bad things happening.

This has nothing to do with OCD, and I'm not even really sure how to word this, but...it's always refreshing to hear about people just talking to God like God is a regular person. Maybe it's the performative aspect of public prayer I was exposed to in the Baptist church I used to go to. It's just nice.

Great video!

Loved the video, btw!

OTHER PEOPLE EXPERIENCE THE UNEVEN FEELING???? OH MY GOD

A video on healthy alternatives to the compulsions, also maybe unhealthy stimming would be great! I know so many people whose compulsions or stims are harmful to them and they have trouble finding replacement activities

I have almost all the same mental illnesses as you (the ones you’ve mentioned anyways) and every time I watch these I’m always nodding or loudly going YES

Excellent video!

hey. i'm very happy that i've found you. thanks!!

I had similar intrusive thoughts which were caused by looking at the window in my living room when I was three or four. Whenever I looked at the window I would see my dad crashing through in the car?? So I would avoid the room, never look at the window and constantly close the curtains if I had to be in there. There were others but this is the one I just can't forget.

My OCD manifested itself sooo similarly to yours as a child and now. Lexapro has helped curb my symptoms a lot.

Ive definitely had intrusive thoughts that have disrupted my life. There was a particular period when I was a kid that I was horrifically afraid of death and my main compulsion to do with that was a very particular way of brushing my teeth to avoid rotten teeth killing me. Or not brushing them at all to avoid the stress but staying awake at night thinking about how I was gonna die because I hadn’t brushed my teeth for days. And all sorts of other similar behaviour. I also have day to day intrusive thoughts that aren’t weird at all but do cause me to want to shout (in order to shut them down before they spiral - they never do any more) which I have spent a lot of time training myself against. It used to be numbers and then swear words but I felt judged so it became the first thing that came into my head which eventually just became crazy sounding violent stuff which isn’t helpful. Usually I can just about stop myself with a bit of grimacing or discretely hitting myself in public tho. But tbh I don’t think I have OCD. It seems that I displayed a lot of signs when I was young and went through many periods of obsessions and compulsions that brought a level of extreme anxiety that I shouldn’t have been feeling at that age. Now I can be sorta obsessive about ideas but just in a thinking a lot way rather than a believing in my impending doom sorta way. So I wonder how I managed to grow out of such behaviours and not end up with OCD? The shouting thing seems to be sth I developed in my worst bouts of this in childhood that can totally shut down intrusive thoughts in a second. Maybe that’s why? Surely it’s not that easy. I suppose I was just odd as a child but never OCD.

Very good video! 💚💜 I just read a book which had a girl with OCD in it who played a very big role. It was really good but very depressing. It was told from the perspective of the sister, they were both kids so it wasn't described as OCD which made it actually very realistic. They also had a ritual of saying good night in a specific order before bed. She was always trying to hide all the rituals from her family members. She had anorexia too. This is only mentioned once and there's none of the stereotypical calorie counting. A lot of the things you say reminded me of it. It's called 'the melting' by Lize Spit if anyone's interested. I didn't think it was translated into English but apparently it is now, it was a very big hit in Belgium.

I haven't been diagnosed, but I do things like organize my bookshelf alphabetically like a compulsion, like I have to do it. At times things give me anxiety when they aren't 'perfect' in my eyes. I have to eat breakfast at a certain time.

The feeling of being unbalanced is definitely something I resonated with. When I sniffle, I have to do it a certain number of times, or when I click my tongue, it has to be a certain number of times. It makes me feel so self conscious if its in public, I hate drawing attention to myself lmao

Thanks for making this video!! The way you and some other people describe ocd makes me think I legit might have it. I eat Ben & jerrys (specific, I know) in a VERY particular way/pattern and if I do it differently I can sometimes almost twitch with that "wrong" feeling. In my past apartment I checked the lock a particular way every night (twist twice then try the handle twice, then pull the door "shut" extra hard, then twist lock twice more, very important NOT to finish with trying the handle because then the door is "open" (in my mind)). I can only very rarely kiss my partner on the forehead because I've gotten it into my head that if I do that I'll think about him dying, and then I risk my thoughts manifesting that into reality because I'm so conscious of thinking it (logic is gone and reported missing here). Fairly often I need to erase the last letter/s I've typed out and type them again until it feels "right". I sometimes have to kiss my pets again and again until it feels "right". Sometimes I just have to touch something like idk, a spoon or phone in a certain way or I'll feel all tense and off. Idk, I think I just have a very mild and managable OCD type thing. It's just interesting to see how much I recognize some of my experiences in what others say about theirs.

I have Ocd, and i have a ritual similar to your bedtime one, with my mom, at the conclusion of a conversation or something I have to say "I love you momma" then she has to say "Love ya Tegan" in the right pitch of tone and speed and stuff and if she doesnt, we have to start over, if she talks or moves or makes a sound in the middle we have to start over and if we dont I will start having a meltdown and having bad tics, I also have to close the door when I leave at a 5's multiple on the clock, so I can only leave the rom and close the door at 11:00 or 10:25 or times like that, and I have to have my mom walking behind me at certain sides of my body or else it makes my body feel weird and I literally with start crying and think that wherever Im going something bad will happen until she walks on the right side of my body. My ocd really prevents me from doing lots of things and I hate it. I always thought it was my Tourrets Syndrome with rituals like those (because I didn't know much about my ocd) but recently I figured out it was my ocd, I have other things like i have to click at the top or bottom of my computer screen while closing my eyes and if i don't do it in the right position or right time it gives me such weird feeling and I have to continue doing it until it feels right. It's hard for me to differentiate my Tourrets from my Ocd because I haven't been very informed about my Ocd because my doctor just told me I had ocd and told my mom everything and my mom is always more concerned about my Tourrets and always merges my Tourrets and Anxiety and Ocd together and always just assumes all of my anxiety and ocd symptoms are my Tourrets and it bothers me, i am going to show my mom his video and she might understand more so thank you Aaron, I always love your videos, and they are very informative

I've been diagnosed with OCD tendencies and my god, there are days where it's worse than the others. I've always hated odd numbers (I'm the middle child of 3). My current "tick" is always reorganizing the chairs around two of the tables at school (I sit at one table and friends will grab chairs from the other table to sit since there's usually 4 at each table but when they leave for their classes, they never put them back at the other table)

My only ocd thing that’s similar to ocpd is how I organize my pencils. But it’s definitely ocd because I just need to organize them if they are different colors. And it’s ocd because I just obsess over it until I finally do it.

Ive been dealing with ocd most of my life and ive been hiding it very well but now im comfy talking about it to my mom and she says “when did this start?”

... I have the same compulsions since childhood and thought everyone did that too (cuz most of my friends have similar compulsions too)

With my asd diagnoses they kept saying ocd like traits because with my asd comes obsessive thoughts but no Compulsive behavior.

Oh...I don't have OCD but I relate to A LOT of that. Especially the "compulsions" like rituals and verbal ones. I had the exact same verbal one with high and low pitch noises as a kid!! Like exact same thing. I also had an eye blinking thing, something with moving my eyebrows, and also it's a very hard one to explain but I was moving inside my ears? if that makes sense? As of rituals I had a hugeee problem with lights in like middle school. I had urges to stare at light for a hurtful amount of time, and when I would switch lights on and off I had to switch a certain number of times with each and, and then with both hands at the same time, which made me look hella weird for people around. Same with my bedroom door, had to close it, reopen so I can close it with my other hand, and that over and over until I feel like I'm done and can either close it for good with both hands or try to use my elbow or smthg so it doesnt reactivate the compulsion of re-closing it with the other hand...this kind of stuff. Now I only have these kind of things when I'm stressed, no longer all the time. For two months now as a result of a stressful situation that happened but is now over, I started the eye blinking thing again, and have a new one that is banging my head very hard for no reason and sometimes i can't stop it. People i described it to in more details even say it looks like Tourette, like really even people from an outside perspective can't tell me it's a normal thing to do that can happen...Idk how to stop this and I'm ANNOYED ye if people have tips to stop these things btw..........help..........I've tried calming games and apps, breathing, focusing on something else, having something to spin and play with, but all that doesn't stop it completely and these things i do without wanting to are exhausting. Btw i guess i'm just typing that cause i finally don't feel alone and hope for someone to have a miracle solution lol

THIS IS SO SHOVKINGLY CLOSE TO MY WXPERIENCE WITH OCD WTF WOW

There’s a very good song about ocd, it’s called ocdance and it’s by Rachel Bloom the creator of crazy ex-girlfriend which is a show that is very good at depicting mental illness. In case anybody wanted to know Edit: here’s the link ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-Ug19JBIIycs.html

Ihave obsessive compulsive personality disorder and while there are some overlaps in the reasoning and feelings that create the obsessions and compulsions it is indeed a very different experience, but just so you know it's not about being organized either, it's definitely about wanting organization, and order, and for there to be rules that are followed, i don't know if it's a good way to express it but in m opinion when people adress things as ''oh i'm so ocd i need to have my desk a certain way'' is that once they have it that way, they're fine, the train of thought is over, while with actual obsession it's a problem solved for now but an obstacle that will most definitely come again, there's little rest between the ''phew, i dodged this one'' and the ''oh no, catastrohpic line of thought incoming, what completely inconvenient and stressful adventure awaits me before i can finally think of literally anything else''. I wish calming down an obsessive mind was as simple as i'll just put this here in the spot i like best... like... no... choice and agency feel if not removed at least subordinated to something greater, and that makes things not just iffy or uncomfortable but sometimes downright terrifying, and i think that's an important difference.

I personally have to do things in groups of 4 specifically, and if I don’t I literally cannot do The Thing or Finish Tasks

I have to kiss my dog a certain amount of times in order to feel right. I also have to chew and swallow a certain number of times. I also can't color outside the lines on a picture or I have to rip up the paper. These are just some of the ways my OCD interfers with my life.

I sort of do those rituals but they're not really every day, I don't have OCD but I do experience some of the things you do. Such as having to list every single threat when I pray or when I'm playing with a certain thing I have to repeat a certain action over and over and if I mess up I feel really upset until I start to do it again, or like when I click a pen I have to do it a certain amount of times or I become upset. When I say upset I mean by it feels like someone took my core and tilted it, physically I'm fine but mentally I just start to freak out. I don't think I have OCD though because they aren't daily rituals it's only when I use certain things. Does anyone feel this way?

Holy crap yes! The uneven thing is so freakin true! My gym has multi colored floor but on the sides of the main entrance hall there’s long blue strips with only small patches of white so I walk on those to make sure my feet are even, except the only problem is that there’s dividing white which means I have to make sure my feet each hit the middle blue the same amount of times. And if someone’s got a table or something set up on the blue? I guess I die.🤷🏽‍♂️ It feels like the colors are different weights or something and they get stuck to my feet and my feet will almost physically feel off. But honestly, I’d love to show all your videos to my mom because she understands nothing and I’m really bad at explaining how I feel things like this so this is a great video to show her! (Especially since you don’t mention you’re trans, she kinda sucks in that department so if she doesn’t know she’d have more respect for you unfortunately.) And lastly, my black cat is the cutest of them all, that’s my superstition. I know you didn’t want to hear them, but it had to be said!😄

Hi Aaron. First of all, thank you for making this video - very well explained. The real reason I'm writing this is because I have struggled with OCD for a certain period of my life (at least 5-6 years) and I have managed to overcome it. I did it myself, without doctors and any help (I'm quite proud of that, I'm not going to lie). I still have a bit of it, mostly things that irritate me but that are NOT rituals and that are possible to overcome. Nothing as severe as it was before! So, I'd like to help you (and anyone else reading this) to "cure" OCD. What really matters is your attitude - whether or not you are ready for this step. Please, comment below if you are interested. (P.S. I won't reply right away, cause we all have lives to live lol) P.P.S. The reason why I'm not explaining everything here right away is 1) too long 2) an actual conversation/dialogue is encouraged .

I think if you squint at my anxiety it looks a tiny bit like OCD sometimes, and I really get the feeling of being "uneven." I didnt realize it until you described it, though.

the knocking on wood thing ahhhh for me it HAS to be wood and it's so inconvenient

i dont have ocd, but i have similar symptoms/feelings bc of autism, and i soo get the feeling uneven thing. it was wayy worse as a kid, but i sometimes have to touch things the same amount of times on each hand or else i feel uneven. or i have this weird habit of humming or whistling drew lynch's outro song for some reason, and i HAVE to finish it. if someone makes me stop, ill leave the room and hum it quietly so they cant hear lmao

i feel a lot of these things, the intrusive thoughts threatening, the physical feeling and discomfort when i don't do a certain thing a certain number of times. i really struggled with this especially as a child, i was never diagnosed but OCD runs in my family. my sister and dad both have it, i was never tested though. but my compulsion would make me hurt myself like bite my arm, and if i didn't then my body would hurt. nobody was allowed to touch one limb unless they touched the other the same amount. my family and friends did that on purpose to get a reaction out of me and it was so stressful. someone would touch my arm with something cold, like a beer can (usually my dad) and then run off before i could get my other arm and i would scream. it resulted in me just scratching at my arm painfully to even out the feeling. none of my food could touch, certain material made me have meltdowns (which i'm guessing is part of my ADHD) when i wore pants, one leg would feel tighter than the other and i would throw a "temper tantrum" i just relate so hard dude... i ALSO had to say "goodnight i love you sweet dreams" to my mom and she had to say it back or else my body would feel weird and i would have trouble sleeping. i have vocal and physical ticks to this day still and the whole evenly-limb-touching thing happens. i don't want to seem like i'm self-diagnosing though!!! i'm not even allowed to get diagnosed atm cause i still live at home and my mom won't let me. thank you for this video aaron!

*Caelum meows in the background* My Xena Meows in response.. Me: I don't think he can hear you my luv. 😂

I have a question for anyone that knows about OCD or has it. So I do this and I’ve questioned if I’ve had minor OCD but idk so tell me what you think. Every time before I do anything like eat, sleep, leave the house, start doing an activity, I have to go to the bathroom. Like, r i g h t before whatever it is and if it isn’t right before, I have to go again until it’s right before. If I don’t, I’m very uncomfortable and anxious. So does anyone know what this is Bc it affects me really bad and I would really appreciate anyone’s input :(( thanks!

my ocd causes me to have to rewrite my notes for school.. it makes my brain think i'll fail which idk.. but like i have to rewrite them at least twice. and everytime i make a mistake in my book i have to redo it and i have to write in pen, not pencil, because again, my brain thinks i'll fail

I was wondering if there was anything a friend of someone with OCD were to do if they were having these ticks? For instance, if I were to meet you and you became anxious and started tapping your knuckles because you needed to, what should I do in that situation? Do I just let you have your tick and continue on with normal conversation? Should I remove myself from the conversation? I'm sorry if this is a weird question.

Oh my god I haven't gotten a chain email in YEARS

Please could someone link his sensory wrap (mentioned in another video) because I can’t find any

3:06 u r CUTE. great vid sprout x

a couple of years ago, I had extremely intrusive thoughts about things like my family dying or me killing them or someone coming into my house and murdering my family and I. those thoughts made me a very anxious person, especially out in public because I thought people could hear what I was thinking?? I don’t know, but I was a very anxious kid. While I still am, I’m not as anxious because I started doing compulsive things that would somewhat ease my thoughts and mind, sometime around 6 months ago. I have a bad obsession with germs and contamination so I wash my hands many times every day, and at 2-4 times each time I do wash them. there are several other compulsions that I have, but that’s just one of them. I’m conflicted, though. Most people that have OCD do compulsions instinctually. I just started to do them way after my disturbing, unwanted thoughts started. I don’t understand, is that me having OCD or just extremely germaphobic?

I have had OCD, for long time I was about like 5 or 6 when the doctor told me I had it

I have ASD, I did the obsessive praying too. I repeated everything like, 3 times, cause I thought God would not hear me otherwise. And my familly would die. I'm kinda afraid of like, religion now, cause it caused me so much stress.

HI HELLO, HI......... YYEEEEESSSSSSS

I have a question, is "compulsion" like an OCD exclusive term? I'm trying to figure out how to explain my hair pulling and skin picking to other people. I don't think of it as a stim because I don't want to do it and it doesn't make me feel better, it just kinda happens whenever I get anxious and then it makes me feel worse because I don't want to be doing it... I know the technical term is like body focused repetitive behaviors, but no one knows what that means. I feel like compulsion is a good descriptor for it, but it's not accompanied by intrusive thoughts and I don't have OCD, so idk...

Honestly, I feel like I may have OCD... I don't know how to go about... confirming it? I have ASD though, so I don't know if what I perceive as OCD traits are just OCD triats within my ASD diagnosis

oh my god i think i have ocd. i have so many similar symptoms and way i deal with things is so similar ahh Aaron thank you but also what do i do

My boyfriend can only kiss me in numbers which are multiples of four 😂 And as children we both couldn't step on cracks between tiles or shadows on the floor for years. But all the other things don't apply so we're probably just weird :D

When does "normal" become OCD? As in, if I break a ritual, it deeply annoys me, and I feel weird- but not insomnia.....so, do just intrusive thoughts and weird feelings count? I have stuff with the rituals, and I have a thing with numbers, and not shaking the feeling......I wasn't expecting to relate to this, and I can't tell if it counts debilitating....I think I'm very slightly OCD.

I knock my knuckles to cope aswell

You and I have a lot of the same problems

Hm... I really related to many of these things...

I have OCPD and it’s so much different than ocd

I don't think Sam in atypical has OCD, his OCD traits are also autistic traits. In autistics OCD is virtually indistinguishable from autism unless the OCD is very severe.

Okay but what's the difference between kidnapping and abduction?

Whoop whoop~ OCD trans boyyy here that people thought had turrets lmao my life man

Supposedly you can't wash on new years day because you are washing good luck away

*I could throw my friend off this cliff*

I just got the likes to be 666, I feel something bad is going to happen