It is definitely very sad going back through all these videos of yours, seeing you get better, but now knowing you aren't here anymore. That this time you didn't make it. I really wish you watched all these back and remembered that you could of made it through again. This community still loves you and misses you ❤
it makes me cry seeing this, i'm so happy for you marie and i can't and won't ever be able to express how much you've helped me and how proud i am that you've got to where you are currently.
Stay strong love! I know it's hard, keep pushing for one more day. And then another. And then another until you don't have to constantly be fighting! If no one's told you today, I love you
This makes me so happy... A year after my suicide attempt I learnt I was pregnant with my little girl .... I'm so many amazing things have happened since then I'm so thankful I am still here... It's still hard but looking at my daughter just warms my heart and fills me with happiness... Real happiness ❤️ Mariee I'm so proud of you I watched you while I was in hospital in 2016 and have grown strong as you have, you are soooo strong. To everyone struggling...Life gets sooo much better I know it doesn't feel like it ...but it will ❤️
My friends want to go out tonight and they asked me to come with them. I am so scared .. this will be my first time since my breakdown and everytime I try to do something "fun" I just cry. I miss my old me. Depression changed me I guess .. But maybe someday I will be happy Edit: I had a great time! But after midnight it was a little bit too much for me and I got anxiety and derealisation so I went home. But I am proud of myself (: Edit: trying to study .. tomorrow is the most important exam .. and I just could not study the last days. I could not even get out of bed. I don't know why.. The last weeks before were okay. I even met my friends. And hung out with my family. Why does the depression come back now?! I feel so hopeless. And ashamed for sharing this on the internet. I should feel proud and positive about everything I already accomplished. But I don't. This Video made feel okay. I will try and make the best out of it. If I fail. I will try again. Why is depression so hard to Deal with?
beautiful beautiful marie this video is absolutely incredible so far. I can’t express how happy I am that u are here today, cause to be honest, I don’t think I would be here if u and your videos weren’t here. thank u so much for helping not only me, but so many people immensely through hard times and recovery. I love u, and am so grateful 🖤
I’m crying 😭 cause I’m so proud of you and always will be. You’ve come so far and your such an inspiration. You’ve kept me going and helped me so much in recovery and I’m ever so grateful for that ❤️ I love you endlessly 😍 thank you for everything!!! Xx This is such an inspirational video, thank you so much Marie😊 will always support you through everything x
After fighting my demons for over 16 years now, I am not sure it really gets better. Tried those things and life keeps kicking me in the butt. If I'd let go of the toxic people, I would be completely alone. I think not everyone was meant to be here and I am one of them. (and it's not like anybody is reading this anyway)
marie. what can i say? this is the most inspirational thing ive ever listened to. the intro is so heartfelt! a year ago i was sectioned & in hospital for 6 very long months, i felt so defeated by mental illness. since then ive been fighting as hard as i possibly can. ive faced the toughest of times, yet im still here. things for me arent amazing right now, but thats okay. im still alive. youve shown me hope, youve shown me strength. i dont know where id be without you. your the kindest & most caring person ive ever had the pleasure of knowing. thank you marie, thank you, thank you, THANK YOU! sitc 2020 aka the day i get to say this in person💕🥺
I showed my dad this video and he started to cry because of how close this hit home, thank you for being such an amazing inspiration!!!! You’re so amazing xxxxx
I’m crying. It’s about a month now since I last took an overdose. I never know whether to label it as a suicide attempt or not - my intentions at the time weren’t even clear to me, I just needed to do something, anything, to change what I was feeling. I didn’t care what the consequences of that would be. Things are still tricky to be honest. I tend to over complicate life at the moment which makes everything feel more overwhelming than it really is, and coping with all my emotions is hard. But watching this, I really really hope that this time next year things will be better. There’s always another chance, nothing is ever completely hopeless, no matter how much you’ve missed out on and how deep you feel you’ve dug your hole. I think I want to get out of this, but I need to somehow find the strength to start climbing and to let others help me as I go. That’s on me.
Thank you for this❤ from the age of 17 to 20 i became more and more depressed... then started to feel better for a few months followed by the biggest fall ive had to were i am now at 25. Im scared right now and its like im viewing my life from above and not through my eyes xxx i also have ocd and anxiety to deal with... im scared to feel better
I just found you like 5 minutes ago and I saw this video and I related so I clicked on it and I just wanted to say that I hope u r better and u stay better I’m kinda better but still working on things I also tryed to kill myslef a couple of years ago when I was 9 now I’m in middle school and it’s been hard but to all the people out their keep going strong and I’m here to talk
You show me that things get better even if you have hit rock bottom! You know how to support every individual without even noticing. You have showed that no matter how horrible you think you are your amazing and all you can do it! No matter how tough things are we can get through it❤️❤️ MARIE YOUR AMAZING
you are so inspiring. i totally agreed with everything you spoke about. It is true that self awareness is the msot difficult part. It's so easy to stay down because of how hard it is to get back up. But like you said, we have to be the heroes of our own lives. I have been struggling a lot recently and really needed this eye opening video. thank you
Geez, where's the tissues! Beautiful! I cried because I'm so happy for you and because my 16 yr old son is going through a lot right now. He has OCD intrusive thoughts & the mental torment is immense. I watched this and hoped so hard for the day that he will be free to live without mental anguish. He feels so alone, I do my best but I'm also drained. Xx
I only watched the little montage part so far and I had to pause because I'm crying too much to watch the rest of it yet Marie. I'm so proud of you. Im so unbelievably proud of you and happy for your recovery so far. Watching this made me just an absolute wreck because we got a whole year more with you than you planned and omfg I'm so fucking happy you're still with us and I'm so happy I'm still with us so I can witness it. I fucking love you. You've genuinely encouraged me so much to get better and I'm forever grateful for your existence💕💕💕💕 Keep thriving you absolute sunshine
so brave of you to post this, your life is so important💔couldn’t imagine the world without you, so so glad that you survived❤️gives me hope, that maybe one day i can beat this illness:(
"if you are looking for a sign... this is your sign that signs are bullshit" - Marie 2020. HAHAH you are a crack up 💕 couldn't agree more about what you've said here. I got out of hospital after an attempt in December - where I was for 3 months. however, I already feel like a changed person and I am sick of being stuck in the same cycle. I now know that I wasn't doing enough to try to change my situation - i was too used to being in the same cycles. I am now going back to hospital next week for my first ever VOLUNTARY admission to start TMS which is the next best option for me since medications haven't been the most helpful. this is a big step for me 💜 so proud of you Marie- you have grown so much
There’s something deeply painful and haunting about suicide attempt ‘anniversaries’. They make my heart so sad and cause a pit in the stomach. Thank you for your bravery and sharing your story Marie, you’re one of the few genuine people on social media that really do it for others and I thank you for that. It makes me feel less alone.
One year ago I too was in a bad place and have been following your journey the whole time, you sharing your experience is so important to the world the positivity you give is incredible. It’s funny how at the time you said you didn’t know the reason you are here you were doing something so important by sharing your story and being so vulnerable in the bid to help others
It took the quote as its a sign that we're going forward when we feel the change. That every time we feel the pain/hurt/anxiety it means that we're going forward. I really liked that. I love how one quote can mean so many different things.
This is so heartfelt and brings up emotions from my own experiences and yet inspiring. You made it and you're continuing to help so many people through your journey. This is so great, You got this girl.
Your wisdom is so grounding. I think your reason for still being here is sharing that wisdom and changing other’s lives- which you are doing with every video. Thank you for sharing this part of you.
So beyond proud of you and how brave you are! You continue to inspire me everyday and I can only wish to develop your strength and courage. I love you Marie🥺💗
thank you!💗 this is just what i needed at the moment.. i’ve been in a mental hospital for over 7 months and i’ve been feeling stuck mentally and physically. and the feeling of emptiness is over powering my life. you have helped me so much! and i and my doctor recognize that i try to shut down emotions and run away from them by doing so much stuff and then it lead to kind of a burn out even trough i was 15... so i’m going to do my best to keep moving on with life and i hope i can make it!
It was a year on the 21st for me....its been hard and since that attempt I've just felt worse and worse everyday and I always feel like I'm not good enough but I'm trying my best and getting help soon and I'm really trying and hopefully I will be better that I am soon 🙂xx
20:12 Wow.... you put what I'm feeling into eloquent words!!!!😭 I've been isolating myself and saying "no" to everyone.... I've been hiding behind the false pretenses of "Self Care" and "needing my space", but the truth is.... the world seems scary and dark.
The thing about radiators and drains is such an insightful thing, but it's so difficult to apply to my life when certain people in my life that drain me are part of my family. And I don't have anyone else left. Anyway, I'm so incredibly proud of you for this milestone. I hope you'll continue to be the hero of your story because through your battles you help many of us to learn how to fight ours. I hope you know we are all always here. I love your honesty, courage and strength and the fact that you are getting back up on your feet time and time again. I loved the intro and would love to see more of those! It was really nice to see little snippets of your moments of joy with the people you love, and the balance of the moments you captured during your lowest times. Thank you for staying with us in this year, I'm so glad you are still here and have grown to become the person you are now. You deserve all the love in the comments and you deserve to know that the person you were a year ago was someone who truly needed help, and she needed to live on to see the person she is today and how she fights every day and is learning to find comfort in the little joys in her life. Love ya Marie! x
You are such an inspiration. You are so strong and you've made to where you are right now in life because of that. You are amazing and I love you so much. Thank you xxx
Marie, I am so proud of you. You explain exactly what people need to do in order to gain control of their lives. You have explained how difficult this is but proved it can be done. A lot of the work has to come from within and once one realises that, it is then that the healing process starts. Lets take control of our lives and beat mental illness. xx
i am so proud of you !!!!!!!!!!!!! just one remarque please know i am not by any means criticizing u. u are beautiful. and amazing just one thing a victim is not a negative thing to be you know. i send you love and i hope i did not hurt you. i am so sorry if i did.
ive been following your channel for a while now...it upset me so much when that video of you in the hospital came out, I was scared that maybe things were getting too bad for you again. seeing you now, and your last videos you've said that you feel so good, and it makes me so happy. I found you're channel when I was at a very low point and wanted to see others journeys, seeing that you were such an inspiring person, I decided to stick around, and im so glad I did. Marie all 50.3k of us love you and I hope that these good times keep on coming and that the road to recovery is nearing its final destinations!!! ❤︎
The thing for me is, and I completely agree with all the points in this video - no bad is meant by this, people expect me to recover overnight. Literally after 6 suicide attempts they expect me to be okay after a break from school or something. And it doesn’t work like that and what pisses me off is that no one seems to get that. I’m trying so hard to recover and after all the shit that’s happened I want to get better, but no one is actually here to help me do that. And I know that I can’t do it alone...
Your videos have helped me so so so so much the last couple of years and last year when I found out you were in hospital I knew what you’d done and I was so scared for you I’m so glad you’re still here I still struggle every day but knowing there are others out there struggling too and rising above makes it less painful thank you for being you and sharing this life with us all you’re special
Marie, I’m so beyond fricken proud of you!!!!! You’ve helped me and so many others. Mental health can be a BITCH. Just keep fighting and doing what you’re doing. Love you babe and I am so proud of you! 💜💜💜
love your videos but this one was super rough to hear as u r thin, beautiful, have friends and family, a relationship and it just makes it harder for ppl who have nothing...but still u r such a fighter it makes me want to continue recovering x
so, so happy for u. thank u so much for sharing ur story with us. currently feeling stagnant in my recovery personally so this was very inspiring to see !!! so much love x x x
Wow! This is one of your best videos for sure. I'm just so happy you're better than ever and still among us. You are such a bright soul, thx for everything xx
Keep pushing, love 💕 Thank you for shedding some light on the shitty reality of mental illness. It’s people like you who are helping eliminate the stigma & make those who are suffering feel like they have purpose 💕 Thank you a million times ♥️💗♥️💗
I cried so much watching this you have come a long way from last year and you have so much more of your journey to go. Your amazing and a big inspiration to me and many others xxx
Dear Marie, u Inspire me with each new video, I'm 17 and videos like this help to realise I have a future. 14,15,16 i thought I didnt have a life ahead of me and videos like this inspire me and it proves that even if I have or had a standstill in my life there is more waiting for me I just have to keep going. Thankyou so much for this video. U are one of my role models💛💛 I am going to save my own day!! X
Amazing, just amazing. It’s a eye opener for each and every one, you have grown so so so much, been to the lowest of the most lowest bottoms and now working your way up and out in the big world, so far that amazing progress? Give yourself a big hug and keep working the way up, BUT let yourself have those days when everything is hard and your sad, it’s human to be that way. I’m a happy happy girl and feel so proud of you and you should be proud of yourself as well ❤️❤️
This hits me so deeply. I hope to one day make a video like this to show how far I have come. This is so beautiful!!! I’m crying because I was placed inpatient 3 times thinking I wasn’t going to make it. I still feel dark at times but you make me realize there is so much out there to live for! I’m so greatful you’re alive still here You’re needed always. You make me want to go try this year. Thankyou I’m so happy for you! You deserve all the happiness and a life worth livin!
This was such a beautiful video. You’re an amazing person Marie and don’t you ever forget that. You’ve helped me more then I could ever put to words so thankyou❤️
