Ngl, I have a vulnerability hangover from posting this video, but I hope that sharing my current struggles and learning lessons will help those of you who are also going through a pivot. Remember: Success is not linear. Let's all embrace being a student of life. We got this and I believe in us!!! 💪
I needed to hear this! I have been feeling this same fear, beliefs and resistance I have to just fully get back out there. Girl I needed you to share this story. More than you can freaking know! I have so much to offer but I am getting hard on myself because I have not been on social media for a while and this is the fuel I needed to give me the confidence to get out there and make things happen!! Because of your video I am going to go back out there to do my feminine empowerment work!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
Good morning, Vanessa. Be free to be human. Not every decision we make, is going to be our best decision. Keep in mind, unless it is a detrimental nightmare, they are, stepping stones. Sometimes you may not see the step, but you have to take that leap of faith. When you don't trust in yourself, trust in a higher power. Btw, you may feel like you've had some failures and set backs, consider this, you are light years ahead of 99.999% of us. Do not gauge your success from a few posts, it's ok to be normal sometimes. Take off the Wonder Woman outfit, and just put on a safe pair of jeans and a tee shirt, and juat be the Real Vanessa. Don't try to be all things to all people. May God bless you on your journey through this crazy thing called life.
you know what Vanessa... I feel you.. thank you. I've been struggling with this kind of "feeling" and thinking already for years already... I've been suppressing this because I want to show the ideal model of who I should be to motivate others... it's always about others... I'm afraid to show what's real... i'm afraid of something. While you are sharing, I saw my self jotting down my own... and I realized, i think it's time that I share mine that i've been suppressing for many years... thank you and yes I believe in us.
Social media is changing. People are craving authenticity, relatability, and genuine connection. It's clear you're already embracing that and pivoting, so there's no doubt in my mind you'll do just fine. You provide value by simply showing up, so do whatever you want and your audience will either love it or hate it, and the ones will hate it will be weeded out and the ones who love it grow and stand right beside you. Those are the people you want to surround yourself with anyway. Life is short, do the things you want to do and don't worry about anything else.
Agree. And she is just growing up in the most public way ever. Clever. Timing is just right. So sick of the whole hyper YT phase. Now we are back to real.
Vanessa, your vulnerability is your biggest asset by far. Making videos like this show people NOT just the glamorous side of entrepreneurship but the personal growth and struggles we all go through. Thanks for being such a genuine breath of fresh air.
Thank you so much. This was terrifying to post but comments like these have been the best validation that being true to myself is always going to be the best decision. Appreciate you!
" I don't have anything to teach" is SO untrue! The only person holding you back is YOU! ALL your videos ever since you have come back have been BOMB value, actually better, more precise, more honest and more OPEN! We're always learning, and we're always learning again. Those who have stopped learning are the ones who have died inside and out!
Thank you for these encouraging words. I absolutely know that it's ME that's blocking my progress because I've put such high expectations on MYSELF. This is the first step of many. Thank you!
Girl all this. I’ve been 100% going through this as well. Decided to shut down my “How To Business” and talk about books because that’s what I freaking love. No pressure, just fun and I feel like I can finally breathe again. Whew. Celebrating both of us babes!!!! 🖤🖤🖤🖤
I love your insights here. And more importantly, the fact that you are so raw and vulnerable without all the crazy editing to keep people engaged. This rawnewss kept me engaged 10X more than the edits.
Thank you so much! I always wonder how "edited" a video should be and debated the "enoughness" of this video. Really appreciate this feedback and validation!
I second this. I think the editing does keep me focused more, but I feel like I'm pinging trying to keep up, but this style makes me feel relaxed, warm, and fuzzy. Vanessa, fr, allow yourself to just experiment for a while. Find what FEELS the best for you, and perhaps how you'd like others to feel from your content. It'll take a while to unpick your programming and figure this out, and your true supporters are here for you regardless.
This is life’s paradigm shift and I know it’s real. I lost my business of 20yrs in the pandemic . Business hurt comes with it, all businesses can fail and it’s ok and you’re ok, I luv your real true self. You got this. So let’s start over again together comfortably. What’s our 1st step in starting over??? Just jump in scared!
I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your business and at the same time, can't help but congratulate you for how far you've come since then. It's a new chapter for the both of us it seems! Thank you for sharing your story.
This kind of vulnerability is why I started following you in the first place. Thank you for being so transparent and sharing your journey. I’m actually going through a similar feeling in my business and it’s refreshing seeing people who are so successful have the same mindset blocks. Please keep sharing your journey, I definitely appreciate the entire journey, not just the highlights, to learn from. Thank you for being transparent and honest. 🖤
Thank you for your comment. It means a lot. Rooting for you too! This journey has it's ups and downs, and that's life! Let's both enjoy the ride and the be aware enough to capture the beautiful lessons along the way :)
BABE!!! This video!! Oh my goodness, so proud of you for sharing this. The leadership required here is fucking massive. And the story medicine is going to help so many people watching this video. QUEEN!
Thank you Amanda!!! I could not have posted this video without your encouragement, questions, and support in helping me feel courageous again. Your work has helped so many people, including me!!!
My FIL gave me a quote many many years ago, and it wasn't until I started trying my hand at RU-vid that I understood what it meant. The quote was "you teach what you need to learn". You don't have to be an expert. Teach about what you're learning. And I think you're doing that in this video, and I personally am still getting game from this. Even if it's what not to do or what to do instead or whatever. Thanks for being vulnerable and showing up as not the expert. Even the minimal video edits!
This is healing because it frees ME from feeling like I need to show up in life the way everyone else expects me to, instead of how I actually WANT to show up. Therefore, I've pivoted on my channel at least 3 times. Not anymore. Not today. ✊
I love this version of you and your content! The last few videos were so over edited, it didn't feel like I was watching a real person. These talks about your experience ARE teaching something. Throw out the formula and just talk to us. You have so much valuable knowledge to share by just being you. The real you is wonderful!!
Vanessa i feel like im growing with you because i started watching last year and i grew my instagram a lot (thanks btw), now i've stopped posting because im more tapped into my spiritual needs and emotions. Metrics mean nothing if you're not fufilled. Now I'm commenting because I think a lot of us are feeling the same, people are waking up and trying to take their masks off. Awakening. I'm also here in my journal finding out what I have to offer and not go for the $$$ all the time while fulfilling my emotional needs and purpose. Btw the way your couch looks in the video looks like you have angel wings. I literally am journaling right now and I feel like this video is giving me so much insight about myself. You got this too Venesa, I received your energy and sending you love!
I never write comments, but im really feeling compelled as I can really relate. I know woo woo, but I think your having a spiritual ego death - and I feel the minute you let go of the old Vanessa, you will have an ahh ha moment. When you are in alignment with your purpose, it clicks, and maybe the past was just an experience to know what works, but just a different topic that’s more aligned. Honestly, I never watched for your CTA’s, I watched because you explained it simply, easy to implement and because you are relatable. There is value in that, just being you. When you hear the inner critic, tell yourself you are loved, protected, and what’s the worst that can happen? Everything happens for you, not to you! Maybe try shadow work, to see what is causing the root trauma -and release it. I can totally relate after I lost my business years ago, it's hard to pick yourself back up! Just this video will help people, by being vulnerable and telling your truth, and being you! YOU GOT THIS!
This is validating. I really am experiencing an ego death for sure. I love this reminder of knowing I am protected and nothing terribly bad is going to happen. I do have support behind the scenes and am doing that shadow work. Thank you so much for sharing your experience and perspective, it has even more weight knowing you lost your business back then. It truly shows your wisdom on this topic. THANK YOU MICHAEL!
Oh my god, Vanessa, I love love LOVE this content format - I feel like I’m listening to a voice note from one of my friends right now, but one who understands business/marketing/entrepreneurship. Welcome back!
I think you’re absolutely amazing Vanessa and I love all your videos, but I thought this one was so amazing in my mind just because I feel like I got the wrong version of you and it’s not that I don’t feel that way and your other videos but I feel like I got the side of you that’s authentically you! I relate to this and so many different ways from having taken time off social media and pivoting my own content where I just don’t even know who I am and I don’t know how to find my myself while also putting out content that people want because they’re not exactly the same person. Any regard I could go on but I really appreciate your vulnerability and hope to keep seeing more of it! You’ve encouraged me to start trying to show up as MYSELF ❤
Thank you so much for writing this. That means a lot. We definitely put our masks on and have a performative side to us when filming videos. It's actually quite difficult to NOT do that. I think it stems from feeling secure in what you're creating, not attaching yourself to the result as much (easier said than done!), and creating content for yourself vs. others. At least that's what I'm currently finding that's helping me feel more relaxed when filming. Congrats on your pivot and wishing you best of luck with it!!!
I’m only half way through the video but had to stop and write this because you just said, “I feel I always have to teach something in order for my content to be worth posting or sharing,” and then you talked about it needing concrete actions for us to take. And I just want to say, no you don’t and no, it doesn’t. These videos, and you’ve done a few of these over the years, are incredibly valuable and insightful just as they are. Very few business owners that are at the success level you are at, shares THIS openly and unfiltered about what it really takes and what it’s really like. But you do. And you always have. Thank you for everything you do. 💕
Totally understand what you're going through. I found your content at a low point in my life in 2020. If you ever want to talk please reach out. You got this.
Thank you. Yes, I thought I wouldn't "need" coaching coming back. Ooof, coaching and even just talking to other founders can be so gamechanging to seeing a different perspective.
Thank you for sharing this Vanessa, I really resonate with this. Being a fitness coach means that I want to be teaching my craft and when content doesn’t do well it just makes me feel like I am not good enough or getting imposter syndrome. This has helped me more than you ever know
Vanessa if there's one thing I want you to always remember, it's this: no matter the path you choose to take and no matter what happens there are a lot of us wishing you well, always rooting for you and will be your forever fan. I've been a subscriber since 2020 and I'll remain here till you decide to leave. Thank you for always sharing this raw vulnerable content, it's helping people feel encourage to keep pushing forward. Sending you lots of love ❤️❤️❤️
This means so much to me. Thank you so much for your continuous support. 4 years of rooting me on is no joke. I appreciate you sticking around through the different seasons I've gone through. Sending YOU lots of love as well!
The timing of this video is perfect because im currently realizing that I need to create content for me as well. You should turn this into a podcast because i watched this with ear buds on while washing dishes. It was such a blessing to watch this ❤❤❤
@24:20 … The way you view Leila Hormozi is the same way I view you. I literally started this channel because of your content, posted and made the videos private because of imposter syndrome, but thanks to you being this open, I feel encouraged to resume making and posting videos however cringe they may seem, for MYSELF! - Funny, it's called YOU-Tube, not US-Tube, or WE-Tube. The behind the scenes, so raw. I used to beat myself up, but from watching your videos, seeing your journey, your authenticity, vulnerability makes you human and relatable. It's ok to be a student again. Thank you.
I wish I could give you a hug. I can hear heart. This difficult time is what will help you learn to trust yourself. As we age, we go through these valleys to grow us. I think the student mindset is a great place to be. You’ll figure it out. Just treat yourself like you would your best friend. Give yourself room to grow and forgive yourself for mistakes you think you made.
Thank you so much. Yes, the moment I learned I'm simply just a student again and it's okay to share my lessons as a student... everything shifted for me. Pressure lifted from my shoulders.
This video summed up everything I've been feeling but couldn't quite articulate. Recently I stopped doing anything with my fashion retail brand and even the mention of designing/sewing anything to sell causes a physical response where I can feel my body rejecting the idea. 10+ years of grinding and pushing and DIY-ing everything thinking I would have this amazing story of how I built a huge brand from the ground up only to realize that I have absolutely no desire for it... whatsoever. Since I made the big pause I've been working on websites and digital marketing for other small brands as a way to get by. Monetizing these other skills have been more fulfilling but I found myself wanting to follow the established formulas for success in that domain. But I'm realizing I don't like a lot of the things recommended. Figuring it out but I'm so happy that you're openly sharing your own journey
7:33 WORD FOR WORD EVERYTHING I've been feeling this past year!! I also add pressure to myself that as a psychologist I SHOULD know how to deal with the mental and emotional barriers I'm facing. Your video is now encouraging me to do a video, I hope you won't mind me referencing you. Thank you for sharing so vulnerably your experience. It helps me know I'm not alone.
Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable but girl, the universe is speaking through you to me. You have just articulated all the things I've been feeling but didn't know where there. After having a successful business, I shut it down 2 years ago due to burnout as well. I'm now retraining and undertaking study in a brand new industry and I've just realised I'm still attached to my old identity and scared to show up as a result! So I absolutely relate to EVERYTHING you've just shared! We see you, appreciate you. I believe the only right way, is to be yourself and be true to yourself, whatever that looks like ❤
Thank you and congratulations for choosing your peace over everything else. That’s a powerful thing to do. Starting over can feel so overwhelming and what I’ve learned from even posting this video is that the little steps matter most. We got this!! Baby steps will lead to giant transformation before we both know it!
Seriously, this is now my favorite video on RU-vid. I’ve never heard any other creator get this raw and deep, and it really resonated with me. I found so much value in this video, and I think it could be argued that it’s just as valuable if not more than your other “teaching” content. This one teaches us to forgive ourselves and that it’s ok to explore and be human. If we’re not being human, then at the end of the day, what really is the point? Even if you don’t end your videos with a lesson of some sort, the right people will find you because you being human is inspiring enough. ❤
Vanessa, I’ve never related to a person or a video more. Like EVERYTHING you said…same! Lolol I’m also in the process of discovering how to break out of my “formula”. Educational content feels safe but it 100% feels like it’s what’s holding me back. I’m literally reading The Creative Act and highlight THE SAME thing you pointed out. You’re doing amazing! We’re here for the ride, no matter what you create🥰 I hear you. I see you. I feel you. You’re not alone. If you EVER want to get a zoom coffee or hangout/talk to someone who gets it, would be happy to hang out🫶🏼
Aww yes! Let’s! I actually had a lil zoom date with Katie Steckly a couple weeks ago and we talked about how cool it would be if we all met :) DM me and let’s make it happen!!
This video really speaks to me about how I am feeling about our business, the content we make, being a forever student (which we call a New Leaf), documenting how it is going, not always being the expert/hero, feeling scared, not knowing how to change... it's like you been inside my head as we are going forward with a relaunch. (My husband and I stepped away from RU-vid over 4 years ago to rebuild our membership business while still keeping it going and are struggling getting finished and coming back into the fold with our new membership site.) Even the Rick Rubin book quotes. (Which I have been going through almost every week on my LIVE FB Broadcasts since the beginning of the year.) Honestly it's like you've been watching my content and listening to my husband and I's conversations in my studio, that you're in the car with us on the way to visit our children, and there in my head while I sit on the deck and I talk to myself. It's kind of spooky actually. Like Rick talks about in the book... Being Aware, Tuning into what resonates and truly connecting to it. Thank you for sharing your journey.
Thank you! His book is so underrated. More people need their hands on it. Completely unlocked a whole new version of me that feels excited to create and express again. Wishing you and your husband all the best on your journey of rebuilding your membership site. You got this too.
It is so crazy how I seem to go through a lot of the same things around the same time as you lol I took a year off of everything as well. My businesses don't make as much as yours did obviously but I truly understand and still admire you! I am having a hard time getting back into the swing of things and creating content, especially RU-vid. In the past, I was like you, a f-ing badass! Like I did the same thing you did, look back at past content on IG and YT and I was on the up and up! I was getting the exact sponsors, speaking engagements, IG engagement and sales that I had been dreaming and I let depression and overwhelm make me crash down! I have been watching you since you first went viral so YEARS and YEARS! Don't give up, do whatever you need to to heal mentally and something that I continue to tell myself: BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELF! I am going to take my own advice lol Love you!
Watching this video makes it so easy to see that “success” is a mirage. I used to think that owning a house would give me financial security, but now I own 5 and worry more than ever. It’s a constant battle!
Yes it’s an illusion. We all have to unlearn societies lessons and come back to self to rediscover the truth!! I closed my business down a month ago and I’m the most happiest I’ve ever been in 3 years. I’m at home baking and being present with my family and that brings me so much joy. I’ve realised I don’t need a lot of money. I just need enough because joy is revolution needed in order to dismantle the current system. And joy is free.
I have to say, this really feel like you are authentic... tbh i was not much of fan for your previous types of content, coz it was strategic and not humanistic.. (being strategic would have also helped lot of people), and this type of authentic videos are what people are craving for right now. I feel like you are in the right direction. Also there is a spark in you, don't lose that vanessa!
All versions of us on our journeys integrate. You don’t need to totally abandon your past identity unless you want to, Vanessa. You can integrate her (and her style) into the current version of you if you choose. You can film whatever you want, however you want, and be whoever you want. The right people will find you and the wrong people will fall away. It’s also okay to be the old you some days and this you today and a different you other days. Sometimes it can help to shift looking at change and growth like a thing of beauty instead of being negative doscomfort.
YES! Totally agree with this. I realize the truer I can be to myself in the moment, is the only way I can attract a true community of people who like me for me, not who I'm pretending to be. Thank you for sharing your meaningful comment.
i have to say thank you for this video. I'm a content Creator full time for the past 2 years and i literally had the exact same breakdown last week. and i feel crazy and people arround me made me feel crazy as well, but this make me feel understood SOO MUCH IN SO MANY WAYS . it just confirmed that as a creator and someone who's always online its ok and not crazy to feel like this I have to say feeling gulty of taking a break, i burn out 2 years ago and pivot my career and still can't get that energy i had before my burn out back and its ok! the speed is not important, it's the journey! and sometimes i have to remind myself that as well.
I think I have a lil breakdown here and there always when I'm about to have my period. Sometimes it's not just the cycle of life... but the cycle of being a woman LOL. So many rollercoasters and feeling all the feels. Totally feel you on how speed is not important. Sometimes we feel rushed constantly because of how fast paced social media can be. Appreciate you and rooting for you on this journey.
I just wanted to tell you that I watched your most recent videos. Listening to you share your experience helps me immensely in my own current life situation. I couldn't find information about how I felt and I only encountered content that pushed me to move forward without worrying about my mental health. You are doing something incredible!!!
This video was incredibly valuable to me. I also took a year off from my business and am in the “come back” phase. I don’t feel like I have anyone in my life who relates and there’s so much wrapped up in it. You helped give language to the things I am feeling - the lack of self trust, the uncertainty, the paralysis, the pressure, the imposter syndrome. I actually just discovered your channel - videos about the inner world of entrepreneurship are few and far between. I appreciate you sharing so authentically. 🧡
I do a lot of looking back and envying my old self too. I think there are mental and emotional injuries that do weaken us, and we think it’s so silly to let stuff like that slow us down but it’s not silly, and it deserves its space because it’s not going away until we give it the space it needs and attention it needs to be processed and healed, even when it seems so unfair to give our precious time to undoing damage.
I really appreciate this comment. Sometimes it can feel silly to worry about these things but I love how you’ve given the perspective that those things deserve space because it allows us to move forward. Beautiful.
THIS. This is what will take you to the next level. You ARE the bombest person, just because you're you. Not because you teach, not because you know things, not because of any one thing other than you're you. Thank you for showing us who you are and what you're going through in a real, raw way. Wear the pjs. Have your hair messy. If that's what YOU want to do, do it. Who gives af how others perceive it. You've already done so much of the "lets teach" that we're here with you, we hear you. Upload a blank video, upload a "here's what I like" video, do some testing, we'll still be here with you because you've already given. You're allowed to just be. Even if you didn't give, you're still allowed to be and do as you want. We're like your friends, as if we're having coffee with you and we're listening to the tea lol And yeah, it's hard, take the time and space you need, and we're still gonna be here when you get back (:
I think we love your authenticity more than what you teach~ I watched through the whole 30 min videos! Love you Vanessa!!~ You don't need to pretend to be a "Hero", just be you!
I just had a breakdown this weekend - hearing yours in the beginning of the video was comforting since you are someone I have looked up to before even starting my business. It's proof that we all have these moments and it's actually a strong sign of growth. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing that
Thank you for being brave enough to post this. I'm just getting started on my journey, but I feel many of the same fears that you have. You're not alone.
Subscribed girl! This is where i am & its been so exhausting at times. Your vulnerability definitely is helpful, healthy & needed. Thank you so much , you're amazing.
I relate to your story and feelings so much. I built an online business years ago and took time off to have more children and now I’m coming back years later with intense feelings about myself and just so many crazy feelings. You’re amazing Vanessa! I’m so glad I found you!
Your honesty and realness is what people need to hear - as someone who has run my own business for 14 years...the up and downs are real, the learning can be raw, choosing self-responsbililty is huge and so beautifully game-changing, it's an intense personal growth journey often for sure. (I'm almost 50 and am still learning so much and f-ing things up - still happens sometimes). The joy though of creating from my heart and running my own businesses for so long is pretty kick-ass. Way to go you!! Businesses will have 1000 + "chances" to begin again - this is how it works and it's freakin' beautiful. We learn to trust ourselves as we move forward - "mistakes" or not... :)
Girl I love you. I basically had the same experience (on a much smaller scale) and I took a year off to heal & pivot. 2024 I’m back, and everything you said in this video is BANG ON how I feel. You’re inspiring me to be vulnerable, authentic online (especially as a health & fitness coach who’s not looking her best) and follow my intuition more. Business is hard, and being completely logical & analytical without leaning into your emotions, your gut feelings and psyche is actually UNNATURAL, especially as a woman. We have superpowers that can actually help us conduct business better! The statement “your business is a reflection of yourself” holds so so true, so the more you lean into yourself & personal development without rushing the journey, the better off your business will be in the long run. Because it is authentic. It has longevity. You’ll never fail at being yourself, and running an aligned business. So your future success is far more likely when acting & living in alignment with your new, unexplored self. What worked before won’t work now. What you’re doing currently is going to serve your future self, as hard as it feels in the moment. Something I tell myself often…I’m literally creating a brand new path, and my default settings (my past successes & processes) are no longer serving me. Keep sharing this. The world of business & entrepreneurship is getting overwhelming & stale…everyone’s trying to be Hormozi and we can see right through it. We need to bring back the human heartbeat in a robotic, greedy industry. And you’re doing something no one else is right now…being REAL about business. Bless you girl ❤
Vanessa. Love this video! Love your authenticity. You are a trailblazer! You are on the right path, keep going. What you are feeling is not a conflict of direction, it is a conflict of clarity. There is an inner wisdom you feel within you that knows the "old business" was not "it". Trust that! The problem is all your "references" for success are based on that old business. Your journey forward is to build new "references" for your new business. These look like small experiences (or wins) that convince your nervous system your new vision is supported and will be successful. A part of you CANNOT do this (that is the self-doubting part), but another part of you CAN (that is the part that had the courage to go on this journey). Trust that part of you that is courageous notice when she shows up! Keep going Vanessa. Don't let social media numbers or money be your primary references for success (those were the metrics for the old business). Your new references are stories of changed lives (to include your own). Whoa! This so much more meaningful! The previous business was a stepping stone to this new vision (thank it for how it served you) but its job is done. Keep moving forward.
TOTALLY! I really need to purge my algo and find some new inspiration that's more aligned with the path I'm currently on. I really love the "alter ego" theme where there's one side of me that has self doubt, and another version of me that wants to be my best self. Really appreciate your support on finding meaning in all of this.
Hey Vanessa! Just wanted to applaud you for being so vulnerable, authentic and honest in this day and age where people encourage authenticity but shoot people down when they dare to be. Just wanted to let you know that you have a bunch of people behind you who support and love you for who you are! We're here for your vibe!✨
You are doing exactly what works. This is the beginning of what you are suppose to do and this journey of self-discovery being shared will help and teach more people you have ever had. HERO… Wouldn’t everyone want to be one to somebody? From one student to another, I am thankful for this real ass video! One Love!
I really appreciate how honest and vulnerable you are with your audience. I watch your videos for the “human” aspect of business. That’s what I take away from these. You’re brave and awesome ❤
Thank you for sharing the real and raw you! There are so many youtubers that make it look effortless or easy, but that's 1000% not the reality. It's hard, it puts a TON of pressure on your self-confidence, and it's oh so vulnerable. I'm soso grateful for videos like these! Sending you love xoxox
Girl I just know one thing and that is I am gonna come back to this video over and over again because to remind myself that I need to make clear so many things. I just joined your channel recently and I already gained so much out of it specially this one I think is gonna help me. I am at the beginning of the way that you already have gone through it and honestly I don't know how it feels but I want to see more from you caise you helped me a lot😊😊
I met you a few weeks ago and I'm simply loving everything you produce, especially your new era. You show truth, you show depth, things that are lacking in social media today. Congratulations on your courage and your journey. I experienced burnout at the same time as you, so I know how difficult it is. Beautiful things are coming! Kisses from Brazil :)
Vanessa thank you for this! I am in the exact same boat as you, reading the same book too and found myself nodding in agreement with so many things you've so beautifully expressed. How refreshing to know I'm not alone in this season of life, trying to find my way, pivoting, learning and growing. I never comment on videos normally but it's the vulnerability and authenticity that I love. Create for you and the rest will follow❤
I have felt like this for a long time. What helped me is the word journey, I thought I had to have it defined but what I was seeking was to be on a journey forever. Keeping community as a focus but to look back at what I love. Doing those things is harder but we're getting there. So much care and love sent to you for being the most generous human by sharing this. I hope you can find courage to go and do the things you really really love
I don’t know you before you posted your ‘explanation’ video. And I love the content you created before you had a sabbatical, it’s very helpful for what I needed today. But I also love the vulnerability of who you are right now. I went through with that and still am going through with it - losing my identity running a business, not knowing who I am, trying to follow what others have done (scaling up) then finding out that it’s not for me at all - as a person. I can relate to all levels. So please, keep doing things for you. Because there are people who can relate, and if they don’t, would still enjoy listening from a complex human being - which is what we all are. Please remember humans are complex, we can have different and polarizing values, feelings, decisions. Everyone is like that, even if they don’t know it. So whoever said that ‘this is not the real you’ is someone who doesn’t understand that yet. RU-vidrs are humans, and they are complex and unique just like everyone else. You can be who TF you want to be, Vanessa. ❤
It takes so much strength to be so vulnerable when you constantly fear the opinion of others, including how people would judge you on social media. Not gonna lie, I'm going through some very similar challanges in my personal life. You opening up is probably the most courageous decision you've taken. It's soothed my pain a lot. I'm sure it's helped many like me. Thank you for being honest about your crisis. It's not easy, for anyone. But I appreciate your boldness about opening up. ❤ Love your content. Whether you do teach, or you don't. Your authenticity is magnetic.
I loved this so much Vanessa, thank you for showing up and being you. Side note: the hoodie created the best cozy vibes and as a fellow creator/ cozy girl I loved it lol. Sending you love today queen. I’ll be here for the next one no matter what. ❤
Omg... You are very talented Vanessa.. You know the message that I am holding on now is.... ❤Remember, where you have fallen, go back to your first Love ❤ We are always here for you...
Vanessa, I could watch this style of your video for hours. You teaching us how to make content is cool. But you opening up about your honest struggles with business and entrepeurnrship is WAYYYY more inspiring and, ironically, educational. I learn way more from these videos than your 'How to X' videos.
You always have something to teach! Sharing your life experiences teaches every single person watching about perspective and different ways of thinking about things! It sounds like you're feeling the urge to grow spiritually and discover more about yourself, but parts of you is scared of the unknown! Trusting yourself will come with time ❤
9:19 oh my gosh, that is exactly my problem too. This whole video is exactly what i needed to hear right now. Thank you so much for showing so much courage with your vulnerability. I know being vulnerable feels like a weakness, but honestly it makes me see you as an even more invincible rockstar than i first saw you as. Thank you again for posting this. ❤
So much of what you are saying IS resonating, including doing so much effortlessly as a business owner. It now seems forced or I forget what I did and how I did it ( I blamed age and my ADHD LOL). Maybe we were on auto pilot and just allowed our natural abilities to take over and now we are overthink it. I at least know that I'M overthinking it. I was ready to take some time off from RU-vid and my work, but while listening along with your other viewers, I reminded myself that my past was a rehearsal for my future. I am going to work on things I liked in the past and then "pivot" sometimes backwards and sometimes forward, like a dance, and get to where I want to go. I will just have to let people know I might step on some toes since will be a bit awkward at first. PS: You have inspired me today and thank you for sharing. I will most likely be sharing your word pivot as it pertains to getting back on track and sharing with my followers vs using just the word manifesting.
Girl i feel the same way! Thank you for sharing that. It was a great video. Starting my RU-vid channel has brought out every insecurity that I have and I have had to find ways to manage my feelings. I have perfectionist tenancies that hold me back and I also struggle with trusting myself and it's really frustrating because I feel like I have a lot to offer and these are all set backs for me. Loving your new content! Keep up the great work.
Vanessa-I don't think I've ever left a comment on youtube before, but I was getting ready for bed and felt like I should come back and say: I came across your channel earlier today for the first time, watching your video on how to sell an online product. You talked about moving through perfectionism to get the product up and how preparing a full online course sometimes takes months and months. I remember feeling reassured after hearing those things, that I'm not alone in the perfectionist's process and it is actually reasonable to expect a project to take more than not instant to come to fruition. I watched your video about being in your 20s-again felt I could empathize with so much of that being 26 now and in the process of relaunching my photography business I put on hold for a little over a year now. Out of nowhere, I started to cry when you talked about the beauty of being lost and even now just feel like, "man, I needed someone to say that was okay" because I feel my perspective and values shifting from all the content I currently have and I want to create work I'm proud of-it's just very difficult to break that habit of creation, like you mentioned, and what people have come to know and expect from you. It's almost ironic, reaching a level of consistency-beautiful for production sake, but soul crushing when it's no longer aligned. All this to say, I hear you girl-and you heard me somehow. Thank you for sharing your journey. I'm here for it 🤍
I feel you so much from this video. I'm glad you shared, I understand the struggle of being authentic but afraid of not doing enough at the right time. Please keep doing you. BTW there are so much value from this video! Please don't think that it's not providing anything for us. That is beyond truth!!❤❤❤
You make me feel not alone. I love this honest content of yours now. I heard all that happened in your why you quit video. I was wondering what happened to you and I'm glad to hear you took a sabbatical 😃 I'm glad you're prioritizing your wellness. I love your documenting rn!
It's interesting how the algorithm brought me to your channel today for the first time because I'm someone who probably wouldn't have watched any of your "old" content simply because I'm not interested in business tips and strategy stuff... but your new stuff like this combined with your background resonates a lot. I'm going through a big career change myself and it's this kind of transparency around the realities of pivoting or just LIFE in general that helps me feel like things are going to be okay, despite all the self-doubt and looking backward at the six-figure software job I left behind. Thank you for your vulnerability and authenticity :) I'm sure this has been said before but I would totally listen to you talk on a podcast about random life things or experiences. Just an idea.
thank you for posting this. its helped me feel way less discouraged about where i'm at and i think your intuition is spot on with the new direction youre going.
This is exactly the content I was looking for and couldn't find. So, just a few weeks ago I created my own channel to share my highs and lows, the real-real of entrepreneurship. But now, I have you! Love, love love this type of content.
I love how authentic you are in this video. I am loving your new content. You are finally being true to yourself and you are evolving. This is such a breath of fresh air. We need more content creators who are authentic and true to themselves. Many of us can relate to you as a human being. It’s ok if you don’t always have a tutorial or a lesson to teach. Just talking about life and struggles and challenges is something we can all appreciate and relate to. This is your new playground! Have fun and do what makes you happy.
Can I tell you that the comment was on point- I like this Vanessa, the real one. I love the swearing, the casual video, the sweatshirt, all of it. Keep doing this. Also, this video spoke to me because my channel is going through a bad time right now and I can’t get back into the groove. I’m trying to redo all the “hits”, all the videos that worked, repeating the formula. It’s making me not want to do anything at all because it’s hurting myself creatively. Plus, the old formula isn’t working anymore. I think I need to step back and just be me again. Like this.
You are giving me life I’m so glad your back. I’m in this exact place I needed this so much! Thank you! Please do whatever you want, you make a video about your toes guess who’s watching!!! Thank you!!!!!
This new season of your life is going to be fuel to help a whole other kind of student, someone like me going into BGA loving that your system was so doable and easy, but i had the mental baggage of fears and they werent able to be addressed i feel. I think the old version of Vanessa with the bright bold courage and determination and no fear of failure is just making way for Vanessa 2.0 with a lot more understanding for students that are trying to figure things out and still struggling. Who knows what will come out of this, be patient with yourself and continue to share these honest “ugly” “imperfect” side of yourself and im confident that something beautiful is waiting just around the bend. Rooting for you!
I have to come back and say that the timing of this video is scarily timely!! Literally, yesterday afternoon I went on a walk looking for content to listen to but almost threw my phone because constantly hearing people tell me how “to do” something is EXHAUSTING! I literally said to myself yesterday that I’m tired of ppl telling how to do something and I need to hear content allowing space for me to just be!! Then this video came… I thank God for this the timing and I thank you for sharing. I all of a sudden got a burst of energy to get back to creating content again around this very same thing
I feel this so much. I also avoid watching those type of videos nowadays, which made me think about my own content. If I don’t like watching this shit, then why am I creating it? Whew. Looks like we both are looking for a new type of inspiration as we navigate showing up as our authentic selves.
Thank you so much for sharing this. I really resonate with " the past identity" part and just feeling so paralyzed because i dont wanna make the same mistakes on my new creative journey. I just wanna say i appreciate your vulnerability SO much and love your content no matter what era you are in! xo
Yes sometimes we’re so afraid to fail that we end up failing ourselves anyways because we don’t make progress towards what we want. I hope this comment section gives you strength and shows you to not be afraid to have a bad idea, to post bad work, to share a rough draft, or an unfinished story. There’s still value in it, and even if you don’t get external validation, you would still be one step closer to what’s meant for you. ❤️
As a high school classroom teacher who took a year off to heal from the trauma and exploitation, everything you’re saying and feeling so so transferable to my experience (vulnerability hangover included lol). Literally substitute “entrepreneur” for “teacher.” YOU ARE NOT ALONE. 💜💜💜💜 thank you for bravely sharing your truth. It helps me process my own. Your vulnerability is your superpower.
Thank you so much. I am sending love your way so you process your transition as well! Thank you for sharing a part of your story here with us and I hope you are in a much more peaceful state!
Oh my goodness. Everything you’re saying and have been through is mirroring me and my business (but I’m on a tiny scale compared to yours). My business has become bigger than I ever imagined and it’s a dream I would have loved 10 years ago. But now it’s a weight around my neck and I can’t get off. I’ve been ill all this year and finally realised I’m burnt out so have decided to quit. I have a new business plan and in transition between the two but I’m in freeze /fawn mode now instead of fight /flight. I want to create content but I feel so stuck and procrastinate. I want to release all my past traumas and like you have gone through a huge shift and now putting so much into my self care and trying to heal from not feeling worthy and people please all the time. I want to heal so I can start my new business but I’m just stuck! Following with great interest. ❤ Edited to say, I’m signed up to do a course next month to heal the nervous system, past traumas and prepare you for the spotlight again!
