" There is no "quit" button in your life. " " You might not feel loved but you are very loved. " " People can be jerks. Show them you are stronger. " " People who make fun of you are jealous of you and how you look and how smart and beautiful you are. " " Be careful. You can kill someone with your words. " " When you cry every tear makes you stronger. " " You can't ever say you want to kill your self. You feel like it but when you are dead you will be sorry. " " Everyone is special and different. If you want to be like someone else. Remember that you are you and you are special. " " Remember when you were having fun.. You can still do that. " " You can feel sad. But there is a choice. Want to be happy or sad? " " Remember when you are your at your hardest times. We are all here for you. " " Remember crying at 3am? How about.. Close your eyes and sleep. " " You are special. Some people are jerks! You can't realize that you are stronger then them. " " Why listen to sad music when you can listen to happy music? " " You can handle the changes. I see you and you are strong and beautiful. " " Help your self and get your self a treat. You deserve it! " " You feel like you have no friends. But really you have everyone there for you. Even your bullys. " " Have fun in life instead of being on your phone and computer.. " " Go outside for a minute and breathe.. In and out 5 seconds. "
A lot of people say growing up is hard and you shouldn't want to. When I was a kid, I had horrible parents. Growing up and getting a job was the best decision I ever made.
When I was younger I wanted to turn 18 so I can do a lot of stuff. Now look at me the time flew so fast and I’m 18 i feel depressed, over the years my depression got worse it Kinda took over me. It’s eating me if that makes sense my sh dosent stop it’s like a addiction I can’t quit. I feel numb, helpless, no one can hear my screams
I'm probably not alive anymore the moment ur reading this, these are just my last vents to feel better about myself. Knowing i changed many people's lives, knowing i influenced people, knowing i made mistakes, knowing I TRIED makes my feel a little bit happier., with those two things you can change a lot of things and people. Sadly, i lack the traits to partake in society and i dont think i can go further in life. It pains me knowing i'm leaving so soon, but what's there to it if i don't have anything that cheers me up. My reason to go is: I'm too weak, every little comment that someone makes about me cuts so deep. And whenever i ask for help its either the typical ''It's fine'' or the ones that just go ''same, haha''. I'm starting to go insane. Don't even get me started on the whole education system. All i do is just sit in my bed and dream of being a kid again. i hate the way i look, the way i smile, the way my face looks, my body shape, my personality, my anger issues, the way i talk. There's no reason for me to keep going, sobbing like a failure every night, it'll be better for me to just take my own life, with no regrets whatsoever. I don't think anything can change my mind to not commit, the only individuals i will be missing are my cat and dog, they were always there for me, on the days that i cried, on the days that i smiled and laughed, i love them very much. The way they get along, the way they wait by the door when i come back from school. Now i'm going to cherish the last moments of my life after typing all of this out. Goodbye everybody.
