@@hisfavworstnightmare Simply put it, it's worth it to feel happy, even if it's for 1 second at the very last second of your life, it's worth all the pain in the world, if you really want to feel instant happiness, go give food to homeless people, check up on people, literally being nice makes you feel better, it's a bit selfish but it works, it really works.
Made this playlist 10 months ago, and honestly, I'm proud of y'all for staying with me till this day. I was so desperate at that time, like i can't sleep or eat properly. I cried for days thinking that maybe i should've just end it all because of how worthless i am. But now I'm here, changed, no sh, no negative thoughts, no suddenly crying out of the blue, just plain living my good ol life. Not everyone has a good start tbh, but that doesn't mean its gonna be bad all the way, you just gotta get through it slowly. I know not many people gonna care about this, well it's ok, you don't have to anyway, but if you want to give it a try , good job. Again, I'm really proud of y'all.
I’m happy for u. this rlly is how it is, I went to not even being able to get up from my bed to being the first to get up and get ready. I still have a hard time on some days, but it’s all getting better for me. no matter how depressed you are, don’t give up yet
Aubrey being the picture in the middle is the most perfect thing I could ask for in a vent playlist. I kin her so much to the point that I realize the things I do is related to her. Her anger.. her past.. her reasons.. her view of the world.. it's all so relatable. I, myself, have also lost a loved one. I really do miss them. But my friends and family go on in life as if they've never passed away, worse enough, never existed in their life. It really does hurt seeing people saying they understand how I feel even if they've never even seen what happened in my life for them to say so. All my life I've blamed myself for being so antisocial and so easy to anger. But it wasn't long before I finally accepted it. My life fell apart at an early age, 7. My family and my friends also started treating me different since then. I lost almost 3 special people in my life due to chronic sickness, and lost 1 due to suicide. I never saw the world the same again, my dream of having a happy future, it's all gone, crushed and severed by not only my family, but myself.
im so sorry all that happened to you, but I’m also very excited that somebody recognized Aubrey :D!! omori is one of my very big hyperfixations right now and one of my favs
Im truly sorry to hear that, it must have been unimaginable and harsh, especially for an already fragile mind at that age... its a scary fact, how easily people can "Break". Disease and mental disorders are such a hard thing to go through, and I'm not sure people recognize it like they should...
Omfg I could talk about omori for hours its not even a joke like omg i love snuy with all my heart and i love how everything is tied together and i love everything about the game i am going to break if i cant eat more omori content
I don’t want to seem strange, but I have absolutely the same story, only fewer people died from chronic diseases, but there are more suicides, although I think this comment is unnecessary in this case
your family members moved on from something sad putting it behind them to not feel such pain like you. You should move on too look at the brighter things in life
"Its crazy how we cry all night long silently in our rooms but the next day we act like nothing happend " "Anger is strange, i want too punch somone but at the same time i just want a hug" "I wont eat until you do"
Whoever that has played Omori with even the slightest of relatability to its story or characters has their heart marked for the rest of their lives, as if it was a tattoo that stays forever either in a good or bad way.
My dad committed suicide when I was 13, I am 23 now and the only thing I can tell you is that there is a solution even if it seems impossible. You are loved and you will be. If you feel sick in the environment you’re living in right now, move. You can not heal in the place that made you sick. Even if it’s a small change, please try. Take a new course, change your coffee habit, look for another school, try to reset but please, keep trying. Everything will be fine in the end and if it’s not going fine, then it’s not the end yet. Keep going 🤍
sometimes i feel like no one appreciates me and when i tell people that they just say that they have no idea what to say. i feel so lost, i feel like i have done so much, i have sacrificed so much for people. but it will never be enough. i will never be enough.
when you start getting older you realize that nobody owes you anything, no one is gonna feel sorry for you, everyone is battling their own battles. start doing things for YOU, treat yourself and practice self care! ❤
The exact same thing happens to me. Except my ex cheated on me with my bestfriend and they'd just kiss right in front of me and all I could do at the time was smile and say congrats.
I feel the same way i try so hard and yet others treat Me very badly this is only one of the reasons I don't talk about my feelings anymore sometimes I don't talk at all now I'm begging To wonder if I have depression...
I understand completely. I’ve lost hope in everything, but I choose to continue staying here for people around me. And because I am just wishing something good will happen to me. I just want to feel something. You got this love. I wish you all the best in the near future. I love you
@@didxmk We will never know for sure what is for us in the future, but I know that good things are coming for you. Even if you don't think so, I know for sure. We just can't give up. I truly do know you will have a better future. Stay positive. Love you
Goodbye. I'm going to permanently sign off of RU-vid now. I have nothing to live forward to anymore. I'll miss my kids. I wish I treated y'all better and I want you to know that you two were my pride and joy and I wouldn't trade y'all for anything! And Tia if you'd ever find this. I'm so sorry. I'll see you again soon my love. Please just wait for me. If anyone sees this. Please hug your loved ones and don't let them go. I'm proud that I lived this long...just wished I enjoyed it. I love you.
Don't end it. Suicide is one of the most selfish things that a person can do, believe it or not. Yeah it might seem like a good idea for you to not experience life anymore but now everyone in your life is going to suffer mourning you. My childhood best friend couldn't take life anymore and left without no goodbyes. I cried till this day thinking how could he do this, how could he leave me? Was it my fault that he didn't want to live? The sad part is I'll never know and the thought of it makes me tear up. What I'm trying to prove is don't go. Do not leave your family, your kids, your friends, etc. Don't make them suffer their whole life without you in it.
hii naya, wanna talk ab it? you have lotsss of things to live for, your kids love you and don’t wanna live in a world without you, nobody wants to live in a world without you naya ❤ i know you probably heard “it’ll get better” and maybe you lost hope in that saying, but lemme just say that you have a whole life ahead of you with good things that are bound to happen, stay for your kids nayaaa 😕 and stay for yourself and your future ! you are so loved i promiseeeee
@@tay-lq6db aww :( I'm sorry for your childhood best friend... But, even if suicide sounds selfish (i swear i'm not encouraging people), it really depends on why they want to die- sometimes, it is for selfless reasons, but that doesn't mean it is okay. (just saying it isn't selfish, that is all TwT;)
hey...just came across this. i hope you know that things can be rough, and yeah. life does have its downward parts, but that doesnt mean give up! it just makes you stronger, and helps you know whats wrong and right. you got this naya! even if i dont know you, i know you got this :) stay strong, i hope youre ok and safe atm
Damn, this made me sob. Please, if you're still here, PLEASE, PLEASE don't do it. Life sucks sometimes but you can't give up. You're hurting your kids so badly, and everyone around you. People love you. If you're still here and see this, respond. We're here for you.
I don't want to die, but i feel there's nothing for me to live for. I live with ghosts and i am one myself I don't want to go on : i just keep making everything worse
They didn't notice you were crying They did notice you were sad They didn’t notice you were tired They didn’t notice you were alone They didn’t notice how attentive you were They didn’t notice how sweet you actually are They didn’t notice how you try to make others smile They did notice you failing grades They did notice your unattractive They did notice the mean side of you They did notice all your mistakes They did notice all your flaws They did notice that you weren’t good enough for them. But you stayed strong You kept going on You never gave up on hope You never let then take you down And you know they weren't good enough for you And that’s what make you stronger (credits to original writer)
Don’t be on the internet too much as it can give you easy rushes of dopamine which can make other things seem boring and useless , not to say that’s gonna solve all your problems but just something to think about if you wanna take a break. Lots of love from the uk ❤❤❤❤❤
When I was 15, some months before mom died, that was my first time considering ending it all, but it was only thoughts, no action in real life. I'm about to be 26 yrs old, a lot of things, happy and sad ones, happened during all this time, but I feel this "feeling" is still hiding in the shadows, and it comes to say hi sometimes. I know there are a few people who love me, some people will miss me for some time maybe, but that feeling of "it would be nice to disappear without leaving a trace of my memory and person in others' minds" never left, haha. I guess I will always live considering I'm a burden for every person in this world, but I also want to see what kind of experiences await for me in the future. I wish the best for everyone who got into this playlist, whatever your motive is, I hope life gets brighter for whoever needs it, you deserve it.
i hate myself. and thats okay, i can accept the fact i hate myself. i know deep down, the little girl i used to be still loves me. no matter what. but, currently, it's a different story. i'm so sick of this life. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it, i hate it, i hate it. i'm constantly ignored, called annoying, body shamed, and made fun of. what did i do wrong? i just wanted friends. i just wanted a friend. i don't know what i did wrong. please, i'm sorry.
@@NeotronHorxen hi! i dont know you, but i forgot about this comment. sadly, im practically the same, but your comment made me a little happier. to know that a stranger cares, is all i needed. thank you for asking and blah blah blah, sorry for the paragraph. but, seriously, thanks.
Everytime I get some sense of “peace”, I remember who I am and everything falls apart. I’ve hated myself all of my 18 years of life, I’ve done very thing to get rid of the feeling but somehow it always comes back. I’ve build this wall around me so that people don’t acknowledge my existence but it’s futile, I will be stuck in this body forever. I tried to “love myself” but i always end up in the same place where I started. I am so tired of it all, I’m so tired of trying, I’m overall tired of life.
I know how you feel, from my 15 years of life, I never could love myself once. People tell me that I am perfect but they just don't understand the real me. I am a whole failure, a burdon. These thoughts keep coming back everytime I rest or just stay without doing something but, I am just too tired to do anything. I fall asleep in class, in the bus and tramway but I don't feel like I do. I'm just tired all day and night. I wanna end my nightmare once and for all. I tried, and failed at that too. I don't know you, but I love you so much. Thank you for your comment and I hope you life will get better ❤️
Anyone who really knows themselves will find things they hate about themselves. Everyone has a shadow. The question is are you going to let that shadow stop you from striving towards the light? I believe God has put a small piece of his divine fire into each person. A small beautiful spark each person has to offer to the world. It may feel hopeless and you may feel worthless but that isn't true. You've got more value than you could ever know. You are created with love in God's image, take pride in that! Imperfect and broken as you are you can't let those demons stop you from pushing forward!
Yes I feel you and I see you my friend. It's just a matter of time till we all break again and sadly some of us won't repair themselves again... To be left, broken. But I remember all these people who put faith in me once and I keep on going. Remember these fragments of nice things. Love you all
@@adrianm7203 god does not exist and if there is a god at all then he hates us and he is an obstacle, if god is real then he is the enemy and we should overcome the bullshit he does to us
~To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus. ~To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. ~To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. ~To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! -Not mine, but pass it around
The second song sounds so nice... It's like there are pretty, thin blue curtains waving in the wind above my bed as I lie there, unafraid to fall asleep. There's a nice sky above me, with the kind of sunshine I used to know when I was little. It just sounds so blue and good to me, and I love it. Thank you. :D
People often tell me that the joy of life lies in experiences. But I really can't find anything that makes me feel happy, i dont even know what am i living for, all i know is just tiredness and bored.
Did you have any passions as a kid? Anything that made you excited when you were young? It might be worth revisiting those things and thinking how you might take them into adulthood. For example if you liked Lego as a kid, then maybe get into Robotics or 3D Modeling. If you liked playing outside then pick up a sport or start jogging. Only you can find you.
Some of my friends think im always happy and anytime the say you dont get it or you aren't depressed something like that, I do know what they feel. Sometimes they think I have no idea what depression really feels like or emptiness but i do lol. I bet some people are the people who act happy but actually suffering know what im talking about.
Y’a i get you I’m o e of these people I have friends who find things hard a du try to help but I just want to tell them about me ans so they just have no idea and sometimes last yea4 I made jokes about ‘good bye world ‘and everyone laughed but I wasn’t joking but I’m better now but hate holding it in and smiling
I'm coping through everything with humor and sometimes when I can't find a joke and get ignored I feel like I'm just not worthy my own family barely gives me love that I've become a people pleaser
You are most definitely worthy. Worthy of everything on this freaking planet. You don’t realize how much you matter to me and people in our hearts. I’m so proud of you for staying for this long, you deserve the whole world. I love you from the bottom of my heart, you deserve a wonderful happy life. Please take care love
Everyone's potentially important in their own unique way. You create yourself, your role and your importance in life and society, but it requires hard work, persistence and dedication. Don't give up, life always has better things for you that you can't imagine now, speaking from my experience. Try to learn and apply how to be physically and mentally healthy, be happy and enjoy life. Just don't be afraid, find the courage and just do it, live! Lysm
Also don't be afraid to seek help and ask a healthcare professional for it or at least talk to friends, loved ones or even to just stranger people that are willing to give you a listening ear about your problems and woe.
There's nothing wrong with your eyes. There's nothing wrong with your nose There's nothing wrong with your height There's nothing wrong with your skin There's nothing wrong with your mouth There's nothing wrong with your hair There's nothing wrong with your face There's nothing wrong with your body There's nothing wrong with your hands There's nothing wrong with your fingers There's nothing wrong with your teeth There's nothing wrong with YOU you are perfect. I am so proud of you:) You made it to this far. You are amazing:) Don't give up. NEVER GIVE UP you're pretty You're precious Don't need to be insecure abt your face. You are so beautiful
My constant mood swings and mental health make me fail almost everything. Sometimes it's the only thing I can think of, and it seems the only solution.
Hey that's not your fault. You have to play the hand you've been dealt. You can't just quit the game because you don't like the cards. I'm willing to bet that there's still a lot you have to offer the world despite your struggles. I believe in a God who loves every person he's ever created, and that includes you even with your challenges. No one is here by accident and you have something beautiful to offer the world even though you can't see it yet.
Nobody is perfect , we all sometimes feel like we are failing life but I think the most important thing is to try to start again, maybe you should take this time to find a hobby or something you like ( I myself use art ) just to really try to perfect, join clubs to try meet new people. Buy something for yourself maybe to feel nice and practice self-care , telling yourself you love yourself regardless of you flaws because we all have them. And maybe take a step back from your parents exactions or your boyfriends and try to focus on trying to live up to your own whatever they might be. Also being on the internet a lot can give you a sense of loneliness and it can give you quick rushes of dopamine which can make normal life numbing and sad so take a retreat from that too. Lots of love from the uk ❤❤❤
a message to everyone reading these comments: i've been seeing a lot of depressed suicidal comments and i want to tell all of you that you're wonderful. you just have to focus on what you've done good! if nobody notices, have yourself notice. you've got something to live for, we all do. it gets better, it really does! i've felt depressed too. you just have to be patient and the storm will pass. it might not be much coming from a stranger on the internet, but i care. live, please! 😄
There is nothing good about me I was never kind or smart or pretty I was just dumb, rude, ugly The only thing good about me is that I’m bad at everything so it makes others feel better
Why does it always feel like everything is wrong with me? I'm not a perfectionist, but I feel like of I fail at something, I fail a part of my life. And with school, my brain thinks that if i get an F, its over. No recovery. Game over. As someone with ADHD and depression, this is super difficult to even come up with an idea on what to do.
Ah same Conditions man Adhd and somewhat depressed. Grades do not define you has an A+ student it's the friends you make that will care for you. You can recover you can retry when its "game over". Don't make school enslave your potential God has a plan for u. you just don't know how he do it. God bless ya
Little vent Sometime I wish I don’t wake up, I can’t take the pain any longer if we are honest I felt so safe with this boy man I tried everything I gave him my love, my heart but still he feels nothing for me, I wish I could disappear one day, I wish everyone hates me so I can leave, I wish he wouldn’t care about me so I can hurt myself
Hey, sorry for a long text. I just wanted to let you know that I know how that feels, it must've been hurtful, but it's just the way life is. Sometimes we don't get what we want no matter how hard we try, I'm in a similar situation too, certain things don't depend on our efforts, life's just not fair... But we can still achieve and enjoy a lot. Just think about the fact that you're not just some human on Earth who happened to be heartbroken but the whole Universe itself. We are made of the Universe and the Universe is made of us. Also there are many kind, caring and fun people you can share your life and joy with, and a lot of things to do, make and experience, even „little” things like going into nature, listening to music, reading, doing your hobbies, the taste of your favorite foods and drinks, playing with animals, hanging out with amazing people and lots of other stuff. So please, don't end it. I'll repeat that you're not just that particular organism but the whole existence itself, because what else could you be? Try to be physically and mentally healthy, don't be afraid to ask for help from healthcare professionals. Enjoy life, don't take it for granted, be grateful, life always has better things for you that you just can't imagine now. I love you and care about you so much, and many others do
I failed as a girlfriend I failed as a daughter I failed as a friend I failed as a best friend I failed as a classmate I failed my family I failed all . Hey! Thanks for all the comments, I am very grateful for everything. Thanks for all the support, actually, now , after 5 months that I commented this, I'm feeling a lot better. It was a phase of my life that I almost commit suic9d3. Thank you for everything. I hope you all the best.
Nobody is perfect , we all sometimes feel like we are failing life but I think the most important thing is to try to start again, maybe you should take this time to find a hobby or something you like ( I myself use art ) just to really try to perfect, join clubs to try meet new people. Buy something for yourself maybe to feel nice and practice self-care , telling yourself you love yourself regardless of you flaws because we all have them. And maybe take a step back from your parents exactions or your boyfriends and try to focus on trying to live up to your own whatever they might be. Also being on the internet a lot can give you a sense of loneliness and it can give you quick rushes of dopamine which can make normal life numbing and sad so take a retreat from that too. Lots of love from the uk ❤❤❤
we all failed something in life its just how we learn that maybe moving on is the best option but dont be so hard on urself life is life you only live once make the most of it and to everyone who has someone who has died in their life remember that if they were still here they wouldnt want to be sad all the time seeing you smile is all they need
_"One always finds one’s burden again. But Sisyphus teaches the higher fidelity that negates the gods and raises rocks. He too concludes that all is well. This universe henceforth without a master seems to him neither sterile nor futile. Each atom of that stone, each mineral flake of that night filled mountain, in itself forms a world. _*_The struggle itself toward the heights is enough to fill a man’s heart. One must imagine Sisyphus happy._*_ "_ -Albert Camus, The myth of Sisyphus
To anyone who’s here and feels lost, or helpless, or broken, please don’t hurt yourself :(( I know everyone around you sounds like a broken record when they say it, but you’ve lived for so long. You’ve fought so hard. Please, don’t give up all that effort for nothing. You’re still here! You are incredibly strong, and anyone can gain the courage to move forward. I know that if you need it, you will find the courage to find help, assistance, hope. I love you kind stranger 🧡
If you're feeling lost, helpless or broken you're not strong, you're extremely pathetic and weak, you shouldn't need courage or motivation be resilient, there's no struggle in life
I feel numb all the time and the the other day my mom took her frustration out on me before I left for school and I don’t know how much I have to hide all my pain and hurt anymore I’m tired of faking a smile and being “happy”I just wanna cry but I can’t
I feel you 100%.... parents always puts lots of pressure on us that they don't know how much we have to deal with constantly. I wish I could give you the biggest hug. If you ever need someone to ever talk to, I'm here :)
I hope you feel better just keep going till your out of school and try to find exiting things to do, school can really trap you in a loop of sadness and repetion just remember you have your future to fight for. I love you ❤❤❤
while listening to this playlist, i remembered something ... yesterday I wrote in a role-playing game about problems with my mother and was waiting for support. at the same time, another member had a nosebleed. and the one who supported the other participant and said "her problems are more important than yours." I just laid there and sobbed into my pillow. again my problems were devalued(ps there may be errors because I used a translator)
I've spent a lot of time alone and isolated in my life and I'm only 20 years old... I thought things would change when I grew up, but the loneliness still hasn't faded. I can't count how many letters I wrote back in highschool, but they never would've made up for me ending it... it doesn't get easier, but you learn to soldier on.
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
Since this is and actual sad playlist,and nobody knows who i am here,this is a good place to vent then I was abußed when i was a child,i experienced all types of abu$e already,physically mentally and sexually,being a child was not in my parents intention,lets say i was already forced to grow up,the only thing im disappointed about is when i was a child I thought all this is normal,all this was just some years and it will end,I remember telling myself its just some hours and it will end,it never ended,when i became 7 i got my very first friend, her name was angel,she was the most beautiful thing that ever happened in my life,looking at her alone was a relaxing thing to do every morning,when I don’t wanna go to school I remember her,i say i will go for angel,i always had good grades just so she will say Im proud of you Mayar!..this word was not only a good thing to hear after an exam,it was a whole dream , years after she started getting disgusted of me ,she hated me and she bullied me , i never told the principal or the teachers because i knew they will yell at her and she cries easily , i was afraid i will be a reason for her sadness , few years later i was diagnosed with mental illness , depression and social anxiety , i was a failure for my parents , when i was diagnosed my mom started crying and my father was comforting her , like she was the one who was diagnosed not me , i became at 6th grade and it was the most beautiful year i ever had , i am here now 13 years old , gotta be disappointed because alot of teenagers are probably living the same life as me , my name is mayar btw
I'm sorry that you lost your angel. Keep standing tall. You are made in God's image, a child of God love by Him. You may have been abandoned by your angel but you have not been abandoned by God. It's a long road ahead of you and it's not going to be easy, but do your best to keep walking forward no matter what. I'll be praying for you my friend.
I can relate to Aubrey a lot. Because i feel the same after my Dad passed away. Everyone now in my Family just sees me as a Outcast. There's also a Theory that Aubrey's parents had Aubrey on Accident. Its actually Plausible because Her parents house doesnt even have a Normal room for her. She has to sleep in the Attic. Talk about Child abuse.....
i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. (not mine but pass it around, everyone deserves
I love you too❤ tysm, I really needed that. I felt always like hurting myself. But when you said that, you gave me some less self hatred and a bit more self love. Thank you❤
I want to vent so...HERE WE GO! I failed my talent exam on the 18th of january 2023. It's mainly because they looked at my grades and boy...my grades are horrible. So. god.damn.horrible. There's a good reason though. It's just the fact that I've been dealing with so much and it started to affect me badly in 5th grade. It took me 4 years to actually start to care about myself a bit, know a bit about how things should be or shouldn't be. I don't like saying that I'm traumatized because it feels like I'm not, but I probably am. Hell, I saw my father leave, I saw arguements between my family that were horrible. I was present near them, I got bullied to the point where I truly just believed that I'm not good at anything, that all I'm good at is just English, and that's it. I've chased my skill for so damn long, just to realize it's always been there, it was drawing and such. But I chased after it so so so much, just to find something to be good at, to appreciate, to love, to be PROUD OF. Just for my brother to tell me that I can't draw. It still hits me so fucking hard, and the fact that I failed that talent exam worsens it. It took me so long to actually get back and LOVE my art in some way just because I keep thinking im not good enough. I don't draw enough, I'm not good at art, I suck. I hate my mindset for that. Then there's ofc my mother, a single mother who raised 6 children. She's tired, she doesn't want to raise me anymore, she's too tired to. She wished that she actually aborted me. She talks like im not there to others. Hell, whenever I wanted to talk, she'd just start talking herself and never let me talk to anyone. No matter how much I wanted to talk to my only sibling that I cared for because she was actually there for me. It got all ruined the moment we stopped talking to eachother that much. I miss her, but she betrayed me. She told me to tell her when I can't take it anymore, to ask her for help only for her to tell me that I have to deal with it. That fucking hurt. It still does, and I became allergic to that sentence. "You're just gonna have to deal with it for those two years." I. hate. it. I hate it so much. I don't want to hear it, I feel betrayed. SO DAMN BETRAYED BY EVERYONE. It hurts. All of it hurts and I hate it all. I hate that I became the way I am, I still sometimes SH even when I said I wouldn't, I promised it. I still do anyway. I'm sorry for that, Fish, I'm really sorry. I do have friends, two actually. I consider them as my best friends, they know everything. I appreciate them. But honestly, even when someone says that 'things will get better', it always gets worse too. I don't even want to live anymore. I'm just waiting for my final straw and just end it all. I don't want to be here anymore, but I have pets. I have 7 pets and I don't want to leave them alone, but then again I feel worse for even bringing them into this place. I just want to die, that's all. I don't even think I can be saved anymore, I don't think anyone can help me anymore. I really just want to die, be gone. I should have been 16 years ago and even a year ago. I fucking planned it and didn't even go through with it.. I just want to die now. I hate that I endlessly look for anything that could potentionally just kill me, but looking up things like that just makes me feel numb. I mean, hell, seeing only "you can die" of something just makes me laugh and say "oh nice!" I hate that. I don't want to feel that way at all. I don't feel deserving of anything, hell I don't even feel deserving of the fact that I vent. I hate venting. Another thing is that I might or might not be ill now, which I dislike the idea of. By that, I might or might not have diabetes. It would make sense, since my mom has it and great grandma did aswell. And heck, mom got it from stress, like excessive stress, after something happened. It wouldn't be suprising if what caused mine was when she slapped me in school. Oh, did I forget? Mom works in my school. She slapped me and belittled me infront of two teachers and so many kids...I feel bad for them. The teachers did nothing and ignored it entirely. It was all just because of me not having a costume. (that i forgot) I hate that I now only have two family members. The others went over to my grandpa's side and one cut contact entirely. Mom hates grandpa because he abused her, she's just going through an entire generational trauma and never learned from it. I don't know who to blame for my feelings anymore. I need therapy, I need help, I desperately want help but at the same time I feel like I don't deserve it. That I'm just making up things even though they're probably real? I don't know anymore. I lost contact with reality awhile ago. I sometimes hear things that didn't happen and that scares me. I want to be okay. Please..I really just want to be okay. But I won't be okay. It's not possible and I hate that. I hate it so much..I just want to die, to rest, to rest eternally. That's all I want now. But I won't get that. I'm a coward to even take my own life.
@@payrizz That is true, yes. But that 'help' will never truly help me. I feel like I don't deserve it at all. - It just makes me feel guilty whenever I get a small glimpse of help
For those who want to end it pls read this Those who love you wouldn't just miss you they'll cry and cry even put them in a state you were in. They love you i love you, no matter how hard life is you could see the brightest side of life the next day, you never know and yet it is true you might see the darkest too try not to think about that do what makes you happy because you'll never know what life truly has in store for you it could be as pretty and handsome as you are you many not be perfect but nobody is, so please don't end it all because that's is never the good thing to do even if you think it is, it's not -From one suicidal kid to another
Its been a while since i felt happy i feel in complete lost i just feel numb and tired all the time. I keep telling myself it would all get better. But, i dont know.. Everytime i consider the idea of death i feel relieved as if all of this could just stop. But when i realise i am still here i just go back to feeling nothing. I hope it gets better. It should get better. Thats what i have ro fight for rn, even if that idea seem so far fetched.. Stay strong :)
Im so tired its not even a joke anymore when everyday you feel like your being forced to live. i already had a bad day today and my father got angry at me for some reason. he was extremely harsh and kept calling me “dumb child” multiple times. Dad whatever mistakes i did to you im so sorry please forgive me but at the same time please realize what you’re saying to your own daughter it hurts so much
It's okay everything is okay. Your dad will realize that he's not between a good father to you and your bond will get better I promise just be patient mkay? Love u sweetheart.
Where did it all go wrong? Childhood? But how was it my fault. Not knowing how to live in a house full of flames, My wrist could tell them stories. Scars won't fade, So does the past. It was never my fault, I realise Was it all I deserved? Yes, I understand Letting go of people, Who didn't hurt me As I slowly close my eyes. It's all over.
man i love this sm, i almost always listen to this and when i read the comments i see a lot of people saying comforting things that just overall make me feel better then how i was before. i wish everyone a hb if its today and go get some water.
When you are suffering and feeling down everyone tells you to get a therapist or to start the healing process. But no one talks about how much the process hurts. No one tells you that while trying to pick yourself back up again and love yourself again that your going to fail about a hundred more times over and over again. Getting better hurts and takes time. It's like opening a wound even more too peer inside to see what's wrong then slowly and painfully stitching it back up with a needle and thread. To anyone reading this, I promise the hurt will one day stop but it's going to take a lot of work to get there but it will be so worth it. You will climb, succeed and flourish like never before. Don't let the needle and thread scare you. Sure it's painful to look back on and to experience but you won't regret it. Don't let yourself or anyone get in the way of you. You are a rare chance of happening. Did you know that you being here should be impossible but with all the odds against you are here. So let yourself live and experience the life you deserve. If not for you then little you, carry little you around the world and all its wonders too see how beautiful life can be from a certain angle. You are an experience, you are beauty in a life form, you are a phenomenon that only happens once within the concept of time. Heal, take your time and don't let anything stop you.
Everything is fine. You see, you are not a burden nor someone to apologize to. You’re not being a nuisance. You are your own person, worth more than every treasure in the world. Your existence is a gift. And never forget the fact that I am always here. I am always here to listen, and to protect you. So please, my dear friend, tell me, what worries you? What has been bothering you? Is there anything I can do to help?
I’m sad but it’s not because of school. My mom is the reason I feel every time I try to talk to her she never will understand and instead just get mad at me when I told her about how my therapist says I’m depressed she just said “why you have loving parents and this is how you feel?” “There are kids that would kill to have your life”
Hello I watched loads of videos about depression and how others think depression feels like. She doesn't understand what it is... for now. I would need you to ask your therapist to talk to your mother and explain to her what depression exactly is. It is NOT your fault. Depression is noone's fault. I love you. Take care and please ask your therapist to talk to your mother. Take care
I lost my foster mother when I was 12, I lost my biological mother when I turned 17 and never grew up with my dad, my nan has been the only person willing to put a hand up and offer to take me in. Life’s been rough, I’ve been sleeping and smoking cones just to pass the time, I feel like I don’t have anything to motivate me to do anything, my social anxiety has peaked since I’ve turned 18. I used to have friends everywhere and now none are anywhere to be seen. Whenever I start crying I think of how lucky I am to be feeling what I’m feeling, I get shivers every time I think of them. What’s sad to me is when I first got the call about my biological mum passing, I felt a huge wave a relief, it’s sad because I thought my sister had just passed but I was wrong, it was my mum. I’ve been feeling guilty about how I felt when I first received the news but I know she’d understand. Stay strong everyone, just remember how lucky you are to be able to feel everything around you, we are so lucky to be living on this rock we call home, there’s so much to learn about what it truly means to be alive and I hope we all stick together and experience it! Love you all from the bottom of my heart, stay strong everyone 🙌🏽💜🥹 Sorry if there’s any grammar mistakes, I’m pretty banged up on pills
I'm glad you've managed to find a way to be thankful and see the good parts of life. Life isn't easy but it's far from hopeless. Just focus on working to make each day a little better the last and you'll be okay.
I am so sorry to hear that... suicide is the worst crime man, you need to be so damn selfish to commit suicide. I think true power and true happiness only arrives when you are capable of standing upto your own life, however sad you feel. I know it's easier said than done.... but "each drop creates an ocean." Whoever is having suicidal thoughts... please... just hold on, even for a day, just hold on.... there's so, so much more for you. You're worth it, this internet stranger loves you if nobody else does. I love all of you.
@@aviratsingh4291Please dont say suicide is selfish Some people are just too tired and dont find any interest in living anymore. And honestly in a world like this, i'd understand.
@@M1ssL0uve77xD It is selfish in my view. It can just be associated with empathy easily. You need to think about nothing other than your own mindset and life to commit suicide, it may seem rude or insensitive but, think about others too, people who genuinely cared and people who genuinely loved you. They'll forever live with the guilt of not being able to save you.
Tbh whenever I see one of these all of the vents are just.. so heartbreaking. I end up feeling bad for feeling similar to how they feel, as if I should be happy abt my life. A lot of ppl probably feel this way, but I dk
i want to be happy. i tried my hardest to care for them. even if they were just my friend i care. i like them. and my friends said they liked me at some point. then why would they just stop talking to me? everytime i try and talk to them they say something rude. i cry thinking about it. i want them to care for me like i do for them. they don’t know how much i care. they are oblivious about how i feel inside when they say those rude things to me. they seem to be happier with everyone else. we used to be together all the time. but suddenly they stopped hanging out with me. they don’t care about our relationship anymore. we used to be so close. i was almost going to tell them my feelings. but then they stop hanging out with me and are rude. i just want them back. they are killing me inside. they don’t even know that either. i want them back and i want to be with them. but i cannot have anything i please. i hope this will get out of my head. i’m crying right now thinking about it. i want to be happy with them. but they are never with me. i just don’t get how they can forget everything we were. i want the old them back and i want to be the one for them. but right now i’m just going to trust in whatever god puts in my hands. he gives me stuff for a reason. i just hope this reason doesn’t make me someone i don’t want to be. i want to be happy. so from now forward i’m going to do anything i can to make myself happy and make myself forget everything we ever had.
If you are currently feeling depressed and considering ending it, don’t. There’s someone there for you, even if you don’t realize it. Even if there isn’t, you will soon find someone that will be there for you. I believe in you, I believe you can overcome your negative thoughts and just know, someone loves you. And if you think no one does, I’m here. I love you no matter what.
I came here to enjoy melancholic music, but I never thought that I'd see so many people expressing how they feel, almost all wants to give up, and to those who who are struggling, we're here for you. It's hard, I know, I'm struggling myself too, relapsing, depressed, and so many more, but I don't want to give up, and you shouldn't too. It's hard, it really is, but we can get up. I'm not much of a talker, but when it comes to situations like this, I can't just sit or stand by, I have a voice and you have one as well. Please, never give up. I'm here with you, and almost everyone here is with you. We have different stories, different lives, but know that you're not alone, even though I'm a stranger, my heart goes out to those who are suffering, and if you're already trying to change for the better, I'm proud of you, we're. Grasp on to that blinking, flickering, ever fleeting light, make it grow and spread it amongst those who have lost it. Be the light, be the hope, be the torch that you've wanted someone to be.
for those having a heard time i know life really really sucks but trust me you hurting your self does more damage to those who care you may think no one cares but trust me someone does i do i care about you you dont deserve to have such a hard life i understand your under alot of pressure but dont let that break you your not alone everyone is struggling dont hurt yourself what ever your going through dont let it beat you down use it to help others that have been or are going through it help them help yourself trust me someone truly does care about you life can be very hard but still ending it is not worth it it only hurts those around you i have suffered losing someone because they could not take it anymore it only hurts those who care its never worth doing if you need someone to talk to i am here for you please take care of your self im proud you have dealt with all this and still are the amazing person you are
Hey ya'll, normally I dont like to rant on the internet but it seems like this is a place to do it so please bare with me... I've always been a caring soul, and I dont like to toot my own horn, and its nice to help people that feel sad, depressed or even just tired. I'm glad I'm like this, but it feels like there's a cost to such empathy, especially to a quiet soul like myself. I've never really had any true friends, and if I do have "friends" their more or less just acquaintances, and trust me I try my hardest to be kind and company for anyone in need, but feeling like a person that people discard the moment there feeling better isnt a good feeling. As an introvert I was ready to break out of my shell pre-covid, and then everything happened, I've developed an....almost fear of isolation, never have wanted true bffs or even a gf/partner more than I do now. These past 3-4 years have been the hardest I've ever had in my life, and I've tried to work on myself and even tried to develop new hobbies, but it all feels empty....deafeningly quiet, no matter what I do, it just all feels off. I've been a part of a couple of discord servers, real life "friend" groups, and even tried to start those groups on my own, none of them work out in the end, the chat stop chilling with each other, I get ghosted, etc. I've recently gotten to a point where it just all feels gray, I've been trying so hard to fight those feelings, and I just dont know haha...its just hard... Sorry for this long rant, but I just want to say, for those of ya'll who feel the way I do, or just are struggling in general, your not alone, and I genuinely hope you get through whatever your going through, and your not alone, truck on ya'll. Edit: P.S, sry if this is all unorganized I just talked what was on my mind.
My friend, the only friend one needs in life is hatsune miku. Trust me, once you have consented hatsune miku into your life all will be perfect. Hatsune miku is my number one waifu and there's enough of her to go around, my friend. Get a body pillow, some figurines, and maybe some physical copies of my queen bee's songs. hatsune miku is the first sound of the future, YOUR future, my friend. hatsune miku has the fattest gyatt in the world, which is why her flagship song is World is Mine. Trust me, hatsune miku is always the answer, no matter the situation. Conform to mikuism.
“Come to me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will rest.” - Jesus Matthew 11:28 Jesus loves you very much. I am healed because of him. And he wants to heal you too. just come to him He is the reason I am alive today.
I know y'all are tired of something in life rn, and that's alright. Everyone gets to the point where they're just feeling tired/down or even nothing so.. Here's a reminder that I'm proud that you're still going strong and pushing through whatever you're going through!!! You're slaying rlly hard everyday girl/dude ngl ✨✨ And I think you dropped this queen/king 👑 I hope you get through this soon and stay strong!!! If you guys find this, spread the word! Everyone needs to see this as well and can at least know that someone is proud of them :) -Cy
I was a great artist when I was little, making my friends and family drawings and I loved getting praised. " aw your drawings so good!" "Ur really smart sweetie". I loved hearing all that and that's why I kept trying but as I kept growing, people just started saying "oh that's nice" or "your making the grades your supposed to make" instead. I still draw wonderfully but I rarely share it anymore unless I know definitely it's eye-catching. No more praise for the "naturally good " artist Ig. My grades aren't any better either.. I want to feel that praise again just for trying my hardest :(
I'm proud of you for trying your hardest! 💖 And some life experience from someone who's been around a bit: Being naturally good at something is nice, but over the long run it's ALWAYS been the people who committed themselves to trying their hardest that ended up being the ones who eventually built a life they loved.
I feel like the only people I trusted stopped caring, I don't want to continue living in a life where people stop caring about me when I mess up one thing
before I had nothing and I felt like it couldn't get worse then I found her and she was the only one that actually cared the only one who actually liked me so I had everything as long as I had her by my side guess what I ruined it again I don't deserve a spot in this planet I lost everything all over again and I'm not gonna keep going the only reason I'm still here is because maybe she'll come back but if she doesn't I'm not staying I'm done with everything else she is everything I want and I don't care anymore I didn't care about anything until I meet her and I just care about her now that I lost her I'm tired I'm done with this I just want her to come back.
I feel ya man I'm in the same place. Torn an waiting on her or jus lettin it go. No matter how much I want her to be, she doesn't belong to me anymore. She belongs to the world.
Fair enough. I also told myself I'll wait another 2 years to see if it gets better but I don't even know if I can handle another 2 years. Good luck, brother.
I failed at life, so I guess i'm a failure as a human being. But don't take it the wrong way, I am not depressed (I think) nor I think of ending it, I am only stating a simple fact. I make mistake, I piss ppl off, I do stupid thing, I am not perfect, never have been and never will be. My problem is that I am a very slow learner. Despite having experienced a lot of things ppl my age didn't, I still go and do the same mistakes again. However what I experienced are not my own, I consume the lives of strangers trough books, so I didn't necessarily found any meaning into "living my own life" especially when I had problems that I will not talk about here. Problems that should have taugh me a lot. And I tought like a lot of you, I tought that I wanted a girlfriend, that I wanted love, sex , like if a girlfriend would have made all my problems to simply disappear. I was naive to think that a relationship with a girl completely out of my league and 3 years older wasn't toxic, I will ignore the details but I suffered as much as I enjoyed myself. Now I remember a conversation I had with her. I was discussing several points in my life where I had been "broken" - where effectively I had crashed psychologically and spiritually. I told her that if it happened again I might simply choose not to "come back." She nodded, opined that she recognized the risk and told me a bunch of comforting things. Quite ironic if I could say. But both of us were wrong. It was not a risk. It is a requirement. I "broke down" before because I was struggling so hard to control things. I was insecure, and felt that if I did not control I would be wiped out. Hell, even when people said positive things my mind would go "that's only because they really don't know me, and when they do they will be angry at how I deceived them." I realized that if I kept my heart and soul clenched like a fist I could neither give nor receive love. It was only by being open that I could connect. I told myself to try to stay open, which meant vulnerable to being broke again and realized that we are the one causing the loneliness and depression that we so often experience. Me and only me is the source of all my problems. I am a failed human being. I am not perfect. And that is the beginning of me becoming more of a human being, by knowing the rot of my problems and why I failed, by undestanding that I failed because I tried to be a being above human a being that is perfect. We often get told that we should love our neighbor as we love ourselves. The questions is due, do we truly love ourselves? Love forgives. Recently someone who is dear to me exploded at me totally inappropriately, I immediately accepted the apology that was offered but he kept returning to how inappropriate and wrong the explosion had been, as if he could not be self-forgiving. I sympathize, because this mindset is similar to the one I had, the one that would say that if only the other person really knew me they would not think so positively of me. It was why it has been difficult for me to accept praise of any kind, even when it was well-justified. I am a failure as a human being because I am human. Here's the thing. That's okay. I may be the one most responsible for my loneliness, my sense of hurt, when I experience depression. I am still trying to become a better human and I will probably fail at some attempts. Which is also okay. In my long way to become a better human I may from time to time make a false step, turn the wrong way, but that won't matter because I am a human being, because I am not perfect and because my life's journey is not yet complete. (I am not a native English, I am curently studying it so if you see any mistake notice me pls)
I’m so sorry all of you are going through this. No one should ever have to be put through all this. I’m so sorry, I wish I could give everyone a big massive hug. And if any of you are reading this, just know I love you so so much and your very important to a lot of people and you are so precious. I love you so so much, even though I may not know who any of you are, I bet you all are amazing people. I wish you all the best and I hope things will get better for you all. I love you. 💗
My girl just dumped me, I knew she lost feelings for me almost five months back but I kept trying to lie to myself and hold on, she was so sweet and she was so sweet about it but that just made it hurt worse because it reminds me of what a sweet person I’m losing, I can’t listen it half my fav love songs anymore without thinking of them 🥲
@@Louise3901 ppl always say i’m ok and i’m gonna make it and everything will be ok on the internet but i need someone irl to cry with and cuddle up with and talk about life with but i have absolutely nobody going through this with me
@@crystalcastles4life Is it your fault? You deserve to know that you're good enough just the way you are, so people can think and say what they want, but you know the truth and that is that everyone is different, but no one is perfect. You have what it takes and you wouldn't be here today if it wasn't true. Stay strong and I know you'll find someone sooner or later! 😊❤️
I wa as adding some touches on to my letter for my family and then the girl behind me looked at my phone and said the title out loud. Every one looked at my and my teacher was going to take my phone away and I dropped it and started laughing acting like nothing happened. Well if no one sees me tomorrow there is a reason. Dont give up ever like I am going to do soon. ❤
It sucks doesn't it, you expect it every day and when it comes we all act surprised, the hurt you feel, it's there, but why is it there? Is it something you did? Is it something someone else said? Does it really matter though? No, it doesn't, if you stay the cruel course that is life you'll find happiness, even if it's in little bites across your life, that time is worth it, every second you spend groveling is worth it, it's worth even just one second of happiness, one second of joy, give it out to people too, as soon as you feel it, you've got it, stoke the flame with love and hospitality.
Find a community, it's important to have people you can turn to for support. You could always try going to a few of your local churches, even if you aren't religious I've found the church community to be very accepting and supportive.
The feeling of being alone is strange, isn't it? like "if something happens to me literally nobody will care" i feel that too maybe it's normal, but it's complicated to seek help and always hear the same text copied from google, I still don't understand the void in my chest
*Vent* TW Not too long ago maybe 6-7 months ago, I don't really remember, I tried to end the suffering in a harmless way. I took 20 ibuprofen pills hoping to end it on overdose it didn't work out I woke up the next morning feeling normal nothing happened, I never really was Christian maybe when I was younger but I felt something that morning, like relief the relief I wanted to feel, like weight was lifted far off my shoulders, I went throughout my middle school year normally and now I'm about to start my freshman year with my girlfriend. For everyone else having thoughts like I did I promise It will get better but you have to put a effort to make it better, this might sound rough for people out there but instead of crying do something take a walk, ride your bike, just get some air and when you feel ready to go out try going to the gym make change for yourself
I saw that you replied and I was thinking that if you want to begin, it should be tomorrow night bc tonight I am very tired, but when I'm free tomorrow, I'll respond. Stay safe, it will be ok.
Listening to this at 1.30am and overthinking hits different. Makes me feel lonely without me even being lonely. I know I have great friends, but the lack of someone to truly love other than your family is sad. I know I can't seem to get what I want because of who I am I guess? Either way, I'm now having a miniature existential crisis knowing I will die alone. I wish you all a happy life and a quiet, painless and sufferless passing once the time comes. Note: I'm overthinking that's all. Nothing more, no need to worry about me, worry about yourself :)
My friends just don't understand that I have feelings too. I may not show them as much, but they are there. I'm not some kind of robot that you can take shit to. I know they usually mean well, but some things can hurt.
playlists like these with captions like those only contribute to the mental state of people who listen to them. IT DOES NOT HELP THEM, this is not a vent, it is a self reflection. A delusional self reflection at that. Music is so much more than just setting and atmosphere through emotion. It is energy, it is the power of sound. Dive more into it. Dissect the lyrics, find meaning in the words you oh so believe are a reflection of your situation just because they sound like it. Give them another meaning. find symbolysm. A metaphor. A rhetoric. Don´t take the artform for granted. Use it for your own purpose. Find a better use for them. Snap out of it.
I'm sorry your youth has been so painful :( Life can be randomly cruel and it shouldn't have to be. Know though, that when you're young you have little power to shape your living situation. You're at the whim of the universe and the adults in your life; so your happiness is mostly left to chance. But as you get older, you gain power and so can build the life you want, and be the version of yourself you want to be. I'm sorry this time of your life has been so hard. But I assure you, it does get better.
