I don’t know what is worse, being abandoned or being forced to stay under the control of abusive parents for 18 years. My father has abused me all my life and I’m desperately counting the days until I’m 18 so I can get away from this.
I was never abused but I sort of wish I was. I hate that they show how much they hate me then for a short time I think they care again but then they show how much more they hate me. I know it sucks but I hate my emotional pain and would much rather physical because then at least I would know for shore they don't care.
Payton P i’m counting them with you, i wish you the best it fucking breaks my heart reading this comment. we all can get through this. keep safe, god bless you.
I love my parents. I just hate how every time they touch me I have a panic attack. I hate how they cuss at me and verbally abuse me. I hate that I've been beat physically ever since I was 4. I hate how they always blame me for everything. I hate how my ego and confidence are non-existent. I hate how the one person I should trust, I can't. I hate how they've made me think about suicide. But over all of that, I hate how I can still love them.
I relate to all you said..I hate how they treat me like a slave and all they think about it money and is willing to give me up like marry me off to a rich guy I don’t love and way older then me but I refuse and they favor my brother more due to him agree and being their puppet..I refuse and I hate how pathetic I can be thinking they care for me when they don’t..I don’t have a home or anywhere because you can’t call that home 😔
I have a question as well... what did I ever do to be treated like your slave why did you bring me here if you were gonna not give a shit about me and use me as your slave to get you money just like my brother...why did you do this to us for money?...
I’m *so* happy for my parents, and the fact the fucking _stars aligned_ for them to have found each other so young. Sure, they were kids, and I wasn’t intentional, but accident doesn’t mean unloved. They’ve done the best they could for me, and I love them more than anything. They’ve given me a better life than they ever had, and I’ll be forever grateful.
When the day the kids grow up and want kids, the fear to become their parents is one of them Finding love is scary for "you will meet someone like your mother/father" I dont want to become them... I dont want to ruin a life so hard they wanna die. Some people shouldn't have kids
@@deanngrace854 yeah. At least for the people that don’t watch the show. They’re maybe ten years older than her? Or close to that. Makes sense to us but for those that don’t watch the show, it must be confusing.
Accepting the fact someone took away your most precious years is a hard thing, but the truth is that is the only way to ever overcome the past. We all have to stop feeding that self pity deep down and carry on with our lives, before its too late.
Klaus's backstory was the saddest of all. He was severely abused at a young age by someone he viewed as his father and the man despised him. He always wanted to know why mikael hated him even before they found out klaus wasn't his. When he finally ask him, mikael could only say he didn't know why he hated him, he just always did. To push the knife in deeper, he desperately loves his eldest daughter Freya who he hardly even knows while klaus was raised by him. This was entirely heartwrenching.
My father mentally abused me all my life. When I was 10 my mother was brave enough to leave him and I had a chance to go with her, but I was too scared to leave my father alone, even though he treated me like shit. I'm 16 now and it's still like that. I can't live like this anymore and it breaks me, but I can't leave him. why is that?
hey, so I guess it's because you genuinely love your father, no matter he does to you, it's like he's the ONLY father you have and maybe that's why you still care about him so much, even though it hurts so much, but you're just scared to leave him like that and I relate to it so much, have a pleasant day :)
I had a mental breakdown but then this video started to play and my face froze into a mask. I dont feel anything while watching this. I'm 17 at the moment and living together with my mom because she pay my school. But she is so abusive and take control of my entire life. I can't tell her anything about my personal life because she would blame me for being me and everytime I try to be a bit more like I am in nature around her she tells me to stop acting so dumb. So I put on my mask. Because if i rase my voice against her, she take my phone away or stop paying for my school. I'm depressed but I can't tell her because she will be mad at me for being not normal. I'm 17 and allowed to stay out with friends until 9 pm. But i have to text her every hour while my brother, he's 15, is out all night and she doesn't even care what he's doing while I literally have to make a presentation of everyone who is with me at the evening. I try my best at school and I'm one of the best, but it's still not enough. When I get a bad Mark she take my phone away and force me to lern the entire day. I'm so sick and tired, actually I just and only want to die so I don't have to stick around with her any longer.
C- kay Loase I don’t know you but I understand your suffering. I’m actually in a similar situation. I felt the heart in me shatter when my mom said to me that I wasn’t allowed to feel pain because others have it worse. That was years ago and I can still hear it crack. Even then I obeyed my mom’s every word and thought I deserved hearing that because I thought I was being selfish. Then I met my best friend in high school that made my life a little more bearable. I’m still struggling with depression and I still need to finish high school but I at least know that I have one person I can trust. I hope you find that one person you can trust enough to take off your mask.
Thank you all for this support and I would love to give you a little update...but my situation didn't changed. So, I keep waiting till I graduate from School and move out.
I've never had a great childhood and didn't realize that I thought it was normal everyone went through it but when I knew that it wasn't I hated my life cause it got worst my dad drinks and it got worst few weeks ago. I heard about toxic parents and searched it up and what I realized It couldn't get any worse, I'm being controlled they want me to live THEIR FUCKING DREAMS! I can't do this or that I feel like I'm in a cage. I knew that once I have a kid is be the parent I wish I had I'd be the mother who doesn't let her kids feel fear talking about anything. I hate my dad but I still love him even though I don't want to. The only thought I always question but have no answer for is "am I born to be controlled?" It feels so Normal to get hurt, normal to yell at my face, Normal to go thru my things, to read my dairy 💔 they ruined my childhood but I'll not let them ruin my teenage years fuck them they gave me life yet feel like they own it fuck right, I know because I'd do it if I was a parent that my kids would be happier my parents wanted to give me a better life than them but they didn't but I know now what to do. I feel sorry for everyone 💔 Edit: I'm crying every night cause that the only time it's better my notes have literally been there for me way more than my parents, but I'm doing kind of good Edit2: never mind I'm heartbroken
And here I am,alone in the night,begging for my parents attention and for my privacy,now my dad is an alcoholic,what can I say, thanks god for this life X_X
I feel like it’s even worse when they abuse you but make it like it’s your fault and try to make it seem like you should be grateful for every thing they do like normal things they should and when I get upset and have a break down making it seem as if I’m over reacting when really what they do is abuse it’s not like physical or anything but it’s emotional abuse and I feel like what some people don’t get about emotional abuse is that IMO it hurts just as much as physical maybe even a bit more but y ah I feel y’all ive thought about ending my life a lot but I just can’t and have no one to talk to.
Hey you’ll be able to grow up and move out one day. In the meantime try your best to surround yourself with people - friends, extended family, etc - that you feel good around. You deserve to be loved.
Mu dad doesn’t want me I haven’t seen him since I was 3 i’m nearly 13 and I guess if he doesn’t want me than nobody does I have no real friends and I don’t understand why i’m so sad over nothing! I am getting upset over nothing and in the end I can’t feel anything anymore.
My story is just the same as yours . He lefted my when i was young he never loved me . I thought that i wont find love or real friends .i become emotionless, heartless... But now i learned how to love myself i realised that am enough on my own . I learnt how to love myself first. otherwise no one is going to love you if you dont love yourself first . Look your life doesnt have to be this way . You can change , you have to start feeling again before you die from the inside . You still young and i belive that you'll work through it
Ohh sweetheart it’s not nothing. You’re not sad over nothing your emotions are valid I promise. Your dad was a selfish, irresponsible idiot for leaving you. You’re a human being, and you’re someone trying your best to live a good life. Of course people want you and you’ll meet a lit of people who love and want you in your life I promise. Have you talked to your friends about how you feel?
Dean didn’t deserve what happened to him…He had to be a father and a mother to protect his little brother…Whenever John was around he was verbally and mentally abused…Mary was never fricking there…So yeah, it’s understandable why he hates her
you know you're broken when you watch this and still can fake a smile while watching I mean damn bro my dad might have just broken me to a level that I would have to fake this smile till I die so sounds fun :)
I always do my chores but my parents lie and say I didn't they say that I am worthless and need to pull my own wa=eight. I do. I get my siblings ready for school most mornings and now I see it doesn't matter so I fight back but they say that it's just teenage fucking hormones. They always find some reason to blame me.
It doesn't matter. Nothing matters. They tell me to speak up, to talk back, to say something, anything, to be apart of the conversation. I try. I try so damn hard. But no one cares, either my interests aren't good, I'm stupid, or I don't TRY. I try so fucking hard. But it doesn't get easier, I choke on the words and they lose their meaning, and I don't think their good enough, I'm ugly and I know it, no need to fucking lie, I get it, I need confidence. I need confidence. But I've had confidence, and I wasn't allowed to have confidence back then, because confidence meant I spoke up, that I fought back, or demanded things that I wanted, that I could ask people about their favorite movies without feeling like some idiot who didn't get the status quo, or that they acted me or found me annoying. Confidence meant I didn't keep my mouth shut when you streamed your head off about my grades. Confidence meant voicing my my fear of your ex-boyfriends, about how scary they were to a five year old who just wanted dto draw, and they took every opportunity to belittle and hate me. Confidence meant that I could speak up to Step-Mother, that I was special too, that I wasn't a mistake. Confidence means a lot of things to me. But you wanted me to shut-up and behave. You've spent seventeen years telling me to keep quiet, or my punishment will be worse, that next time you won't be nice, or maybe you'll let your boyfriend decide my punishment. I'm scared, I'm scared, and I will to cry, or give up, or something. I want to make a decision without feeling horrible. I want... I want to feel brave, that pity isn't what drives people to befriend me. I want to have hope that I'll have an actual life one day, instead of routine. I want to live, and feel, and speak. I want... I'm scared, and nothing makes sense. I just... Please. I want to have confidence. I want a lot of things, friends, a good relationship with my siblings and step-siblings, a life. A published book, a comic book, things that I actually like, and are still relativant to my tastes instead of a Pokèmon plushy I said was cute, vaguely... I want a lot of things, so many things. But I can't. I can't. I can't. And it doesn't matter, because I don't try. I never try. It's a waste now. I don't try. I want to feel like everything doesn't hurt when I speak up. I... My words don't mean anything. But just once I want them to matter. This is stupid. Ignore it please, this is... Just venting.
You are amazing. You are beautiful. Anyone who has treated you badly does not deserve you. You can be better than them. You will be. You are an incredible human. There are people out there who will change your life. There are people out there you have yet to meet, people you have yet to love. Who are waiting to love you. You mean something. The probability of you being born is one in 400 trillion. There is only one of you, and YOU 👏 ARE 👏ENOUGH👏 You are worth everything. You deserve every good thing that comes into your life. I hope that things get better for you ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
so my step dad tried to kill my whole family once, he got drugged and it scared the fuck out of me and now i jump at everything and it was two months ago, they let him back because it wasn’t “his fault” and everyone’s trying to make it up to me but i can’t stop having flash backs to when i thought everything and everyone was over
Why do I feel like it's my fault that my dad left me here to take all the hate his family has for him and why does it feel like I did something so wrong............................ Can I just ask why?
I love kids so much I want a kid of my own but I m too scared to even get married or have children. I don't want them to suffer what happened to me. I can't keep my anger in check, I m depressed, I have anxiety because of my family and I know I won't be getting better. I don't want to ruin someone else's life because if what happened to me. 💔
Same, I want to be an amazing mother like mine, but I'm worried I'll do something to mess it up, yell at them, or become one of the parents like in these videos. I don't want to bring a human into this world until I'm sure I can give them an amazing life and bring them up to be a good person, but oh god the fear of turning into one of these parents is so bad.
Over and over im just think when well i Turn 18 but i just cry and cry but i know i wont be 18 tomorrow and people say will your so ungreatfull you have Parents that love but you don't know that they kick me out of the house because they cant be grown adults and for once take care of my siblings they get mad at me because i cant do there responsibilities .im a teenager im only 13 all this pressure and they think im a disappointment i try my best.
My family isn’t the richest I’m a middle child I live with my dad because something between my mom and him happened and I haven’t seen my mom since I was 4 I’m 13 now I miss her my dad hates her I feel like my dad doesn’t care about me he once said he’d rather die than take care of me and my sisters he has really bad anger issues so I don’t get along with anyone on my family I usually get in arguments everyday with my dad not one day passes without an argument I’m getting so sick of it I can’t talk to him about my problems because he’ll say I’m a baby and I should be crying unless someone died I hate being a burden on my friends and Im running out of people to talk to I don’t know how much I can handle anymore I’m scared I still care about my dad and I’m afraid since he has anger issues he’s gonna get hurt or something I don’t know what to do
Even when he and his anger issues are hurting you, you still worry about him, and it says too much about you. You are really strong and you will find a way to deal with it a exit way be strong you has already been really strong you can do it
First of all I want to tell you how much I regret your situation and that I really hope that your heart will be filled with love and happiness in the very near future, if your father is the way you say then he is not a father is just a Cursed old man who only takes care of you for his sad and very pathetic life, and your mother is a coward who does not deserve love for abandoning you and your siblings in the hands of a man who does not have the talent or courage to live. I really want you to know that you don't have to follow the same path that they, you and your siblings can become amazing human beings in the future if they turn to social services on time and let them help you, what your father does to you is completely unacceptable and improper, get help early; talk to social services or if not in the future you will become equal to him and you will harm so many or even more people than he did. I wish strenght and a very happy life with people who will truly care for you and will teach what love truly is about and it isn't about.👍😉
My mom blames me for her debt because I was in a few hospitals for self harm and other things and I hate her for that but I love her because she's my mom but I plan to cut ties with my family when I reach 18.☆♡
I wanna share my story and ik youtube is a kinda bad way, my dad was an alcoholic, a big one, my mom, she didnt care about me and my sister, we were alone for almost all of the time, because of that me and my sister were raped by the same person, we were sexually assaulted at age 5 and the rape didnt start til we got old, whats sucks was, my parents knew all the time and they forced us to stay quiet, both the rapist and our own parents, me and my sister been suicidal for a very long time now, i am now 16, i still have suicidal thoughts, but not as much, i will graduate highschool and i will start a new life
That’s absolutely terrible what happened to you guys you deserve so much better. You’re right, soon you’ll graduate and be able to start a new life. Stick by your sister. Probably get therapy if you can, it can really help. Good luck.
Parents are not perfect people do drugs and suffering depression and if they had kids they would get anger towards them or ignore them if they got right in front of them if they make any mistakes they would hit there children because of their mistakes
The very people who are supposed to love you more then life itself and put you first. Honestly, some people just aren’t meant to be parents. I wanna give those people a black eye in the shape of a boot print. How can they not see what a gift a child is?
