Sara Kays - Smaller Than This (Official Lyric Video) 

Getting angry at yourself after every meal, no matter how healthy, is tiring.

"I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch. " I can't stop crying

The fact that "at least I'll be skinny" is something that motivates me more than anything in life is sad

"I'm chasing a body I know that Ill never outrun." I'm not crying. You're crying.

"I'm scared that I'm never gonna like, who I am and I wish I knew why" I felt that way too well

you know it's getting bad again when you start listening to this again

“I just can’t stop pulling at my skin” hit a little too close to home

Imagine a collaboration of her and alec benjamin, their voices would sound so good together!

Me: “This makes me want to come out of the ED closet.” Also me: “You’re not sick enough for people to believe you.”

No song has ever hit quite as deeply. I hate myself so much constantly I’m a cycle of eating less and then bingeing at night. I needed to know someone else felt the same no one else gets it’s a constant battle. But I will beat this I will get better food will not be my enemy calories won’t matter so much we’ve got this the fight isn’t over.

The songs you make about these issues: depression, anorexia... I know there are other songs that talk about them but none of them hit as deeply as yours. They romatize it but you tell it as it is. All the ugly worst parts in yoir beautiful music. Every single lyric captures my attention and heart as it mirrors my own experiences and thoughts. Thank you for letting your listeners know that theyre not alone and that their trauma is not just to be a song on the radio. It is to reflect your heart and theirs. Thank you, Sara.

Just a question. Do you ever wish that people just cared and were concerned about you, but when they do you get really defensive and tell them that you are fine and that they should mind their own business. Or us it just me?

i still remember my seventh grade self staring at the toilet bowl, sticking two fingers down my throat, and wanting to get it all out so bad. i remember drinking cold water in the morning because someone told me it helps me lose weight. i remember pinching my thighs wishing i was smaller. im currently entering 10th grade and am doing so much better now. i've thankfully gotten out of that cycle, but it still hurts how i could relate to this song anyway. stay strong y'all

My childhood is ruined because the world made me feel like I had to “look a certain way” and now, that’s all I worry about. :/ I’m young, and ruined

In my mental state right now I shouldn’t be listening to this song

you know ur relapsing when u start listening to songs like this 😔

"i'm scared that i'm never going to like how i look and i wish i knew why" *moods.*

always remember a poet about eating disorder, 'when you were thin to begin with, you go to hospital. But when you were not thin to begin with, you are a success story'

The people who disliked this are the people who tells us to get over it

scrolling through the comments is making me more sad than the song itself. i just wanna hug all y’all rn.

Young lady, I am 42 years old and your music resonates with me. Thank you for putting into words and music something I could not articulate for myself. It does not get any easier with age but we persevere and try every day to love ourselves in spite of our flaws.

how much I relate to this is just....just WOW

This actually made me cry. Your music is the best. I’m so glad on of your tik toks popped up a few months ago. You are very comforting, and really crazy good at writing music!

"I'll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start" I can't

This song really made me realize I’m not alone in this. I don’t want to tell my friends about my ed because I don’t wanna be seen as attention seeking. I don’t want my family to know because I don’t want them to worry. I really want this to stop, I hate myself.

this is one of the most relatable songs i’ve ever heard. my friends.. they’re literally perfect. they’re so skinny and i wish i could look like them. i’m the biggest one in my group. they always talk abt how fat they are after they eat a meal, but they don’t realize that it makes me feel bad abt myself bc i’m huge. they know they’re not fat too. i cry myself to sleep every night, just wishing i could have a better body. i hate myself and i’ve drifted in and out of eating disorder habits. i truly do wish i was smaller than this

“I’m chasing a body I know that I’ll never outrun” God. That hit.

that web diagram hits different

when people think of sad or depressing songs, it's always about heartbreak or struggles with friends or family, but basically about people. when a song comes along about where you think something is wrong with you, regardless of what anyone says, it's about depression. this song is the first of it's kind that i have heard that talks about body image or eating disorders and it is beautiful in the most relatable way possible because deep down, everyone has felt this

"I'm scared I'm never gonna like how I look and I wish I knew why" why did this line hit me so hard? 💔

I remember this girl from my highschool, we were in the same department and she was BEAUTIFUL. Like the kind of girl you cry over how pretty they are. And she was always wearing jackets over her uniform because she felt insecure, I always wanted to tell her how pretty she was but wasn't outgoing enough to actually do it. She was really pretty, she had thick wavy hair, her smile was very beautiful, she was adorable and perfect all over, also she was very smart and good in conversation with a side of sweetness and a great personality. Damn it hurt to see her covering her uniform, I wish I had told her how pretty she is, everyone deserves to be told how pretty they are. I hope she can someday see herself the way everyone saw her, and I hope everyone else can too

Literally 5 min ago went I wish she would release the whole song.... not saying I’m psychic buttttttt

“i feel like a failure if i don’t skip breakfast and lunch” hits to hard

I’m watching this w tears running down my face because these lyrics match exactly how I feel and I was just having these thoughts as I came across this song and it fits how I feel so accurately :’(

I cried when i heard this on tiktok, cause i hate my body and i can relate so much on this song :< Edit: Im starting to change my lifestyle, i jog and control my food, my goal is to loose 15 pounds and i hope i can reach it. For everyone who's been feeling the same it's not too late to change you can do this, believe in yourself it will take time but you'll get there, we will get through this. Thank you everyone stay safe and stay healthy!!!

I am now 5 months in anorexia recovery... I remember listening to this song and it used to trigger me. Now I cry because I do not wish to go back to that life. I am still far from fully recovered, and I know I will never recover before I solve my core problem.. But using this song as inspiration to recover is a huge step. It will be okay. Recovery is indeed hell, but it actiually does get better. I promise.

I’ve never related to something more in my life, like I literally wake up at “5 :30 to run and feel like a failure if I don’t skip breakfast and lunch”.

Parents will never understand how we feel, because according to them "it is silly"

This song no joke, made me cry. I have anorexia nervosa and it is taking over my life completely, I have weekly doctor appointments and eating is so hard for me. I still haven’t stopped throwing up and skipping meals. I used to only eat 1/4 of a cup of yogurt per day, and eventually had to go to the hospital for losing 20kg in the spam of 3 months. I had a tube feeding and supervised meals. Then I relapsed and lost 8kg again. This song is so relatable in so many levels. It’s honestly the first time I’ve cried to a song.

“I just can’t quit pulling at my skin” stands out to me for some reason. It makes me feel like on one level there’s a person with an eating disorder looking in the mirror pulling at their “fat” because they don’t see themselves the way everyone else does. And on another level to me it means not literally pulling their skin, but emotionally pulling themselves apart because they feel like they’re not good enough. This particular part of the song stood out to me but now watching the rest of it I can think of something for each line. For example, “I’m chasing a body I’ll never outrun” to me means two things as well, the first being that people with eating disorders are overworking themselves but still think if they get a little fitter or a little stronger they can do it. The other thing it means to me is that they’re looking at the people in magazines, on TV, etc, and thinking “oh, if I get a bit more work in and eat a little less I can be like that!” And eventually end up being skinner/fitter than the specific person but not see it. In their eyes they’re still too fat or not buff enough. Hope you enjoyed my little imagination bubble, that’s what I think those lines are trying to say. If you’re struggling make sure to talk to someone you trust and be safe ♥️

I came from tik tok: this is now my new favourite song, ive never felt less alone in a time where I feel loneliest and all I can say is thank you🥺😭

For everyone struggling like me, just stay strong y'all 🥺🙏🏻 praying for all of us to feel better.

"And i feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch" That hurts....because that's me....

When i first became anorexic, my daily calorie intake was 1000 but then i kept lowering it to 750, to 500 to 250 to 100 and then eventuaply to nothing at all. I would like freeze water into popsicles and eat that and was like, im full. So like when you said youve reached your goal but still feel like you look the same, it made me think of why eating disorders aren't simply "diets". They are an unhealthy, never-ending cycle of "It's not enough". But itll never be enough

Her lyrics are always very very deep, that hits different

Me: *hears this song on TikTok and decided to check it out* Also me: repeat repeat repeat

Came all the way from TikTok just to cry my eyes out listen to this on repeat

I’ve been trying to find a perfect song to describe how I feel everyday, and I finally found it. Thank you

I was going through ED alone, I didn't tell anyone, nobody. I was starving myself for days, then binge and it comes and goes in waves. I felt so much guilty anytime I ate something, even if it was an apple or anything. I had a thinspo insta account, I wanted those bodies that I couldn't reach. I was on a Pro Ana Discord too. I lost about ten pounds. And then, I stopped because I am kinda bipolar, I was on that period were I was high. And I met my boyfriend, and then I started to be depressed again. I was back in the Pro Ana Discord server, but now, my bf told me that he would broke up if I don't leave the server and delete my thinspo accounts. I did. He helped me to accept my body. But now, I gained more than 10 pounds I really want to cry and be part of Pro Ana again.

I have depression, anxiety, and a eating disorder and I lie to my family saying I'm fine but when I'm by myself I just cry

"I know that its not true but I feel like I'm the only one who´s chasing a body I know I'll never outrun" this hits HARD

My friend has an ED and they sent me this to explain how they felt. Y'all got me teary-eyed. I know that eating disorders are hell to go theough, and I am so fucking sorry for anyone that suffers from them.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

This is so weird... I'm currently fighting an eating disorder and this was just in my recommended. It hit hard. Beautiful voice by the way, you earned a subscriber ♡

Sometimes I'm happy that I find something relatable but also worried at the same time, that so many people go through this... Please challenge yourselves with the food that brings you anxiety, i know it's hard but you can do this, you are enough and recovery is possible! Sending all the love that your hearts can handle

This song hits me in the guts because of how relatable it is. And it hurts that when people say “omg you’re so skinny, you look dead”, you are motivated to continue. Eating disorders are so easy to start, but extremely difficult to end 😞

lyrics: i wake up early sometimes at 5:30 to run my mom got too worried i had to tell her it was fun i feel like a failure if i don’t skip breakfast and lunch i’m chasing a body i know that i’ll never outrun cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this and i just can’t quit pulling at my skin oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like how i look and i wish i knew why cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this i’ll set a goal for myself and i’ll try to work hard i’ll reach it but swear i look just like i did from the start i know that it’s not true but i feel like i’m the only one who’s chasing a body i know that i’ll never outrun cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this and i just can’t quit pulling at my skin oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like how i look and i wish i knew why cause i’ll always wish i was smaller than this (vocals n stuff) i’ll always wish i was smaller than this and i just can’t quit pulling at my skin oh, i’m scared that i’m never gonna like how i look and i wish i knew why that i’ll always wish i was smaller than this

I think the hardest part is being able to describe how you feel to someone. I get embarrassed and feel ashamed when I open up to people about how I used to restrict and my overall relationship with food. Seeing a counselor made a huge difference though.

Whenever I hear my mom or any adult woman say something negative about their appearance. No matter how small it is. About their weight their wrinkles anything. I have to choke back sobbing bc I’m so scared of never feeling about myself. The idea of never being okay with myself is terrifying.

i’m struggling rn with an eating disorder but this song made me feel like i’m not alone 🧡

I've never suffered from anorexia but this song still resonates with me. I'm over weight and hate my body. I have a horrible relationship with food and at times I wish more than anything that I didn't need to eat. I hate feeling like a failure every day and wishing I could escape my body.

The people who dislike this are the people who say "just eat

If anyone reading this struggles with body image, know that YOU ARE ENOUGH, you are beautiful and deserve to eat and feed your body nutrients it needs to live. The more love you give to yourself, the more love you can give to everybody else. Happiness and self love is the most important thing before anything else, you’re amazing, keep eating and fighting. It’s worth it!!!

How have I only just found this song, been on repeat for days. Hit the nail on the head with this! Anorexia, body dysmorphia is truly soul destroying.

“I’ll set a goal for myself and try to work hard ,I’ll reach it but swear I looked the same at the start “... wow how much I relate .

When you feel this way but you never actually had the control to lose weight so you just sit there thinking how ugly you look

My friends caught on that i was skipping breakfast and lunch so now I have to eat around them or they won't be too happy and I always feel disgusting after eating . I also cut wich no-one knows about because I just wanted to feel something. So this song relates to me so much

"I feel like a failure if I don't skip breakfast and lunch, i'm chasing a body i know that i'll never outrun.." ..I've never been able to relate to a song before...thank you..

Oversized hoodies, skipping meals, perfect unrealistic body image, over exercising, don’t harm your body nor your mental state!! You are prefect the way you are!! Please please please never change yourself to be someone you arent, what good will it do you and the people around you? Stay safe everyone ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Everyone is saying they are crying because of this , am I the only one that canr cry ?

as someone with anorexia... this hits different like wayyy different

I'm bawling so hard. It's been a year now. A full year of bullimia nervosa. I've never heard anything more true than every line in this song. I lost 40 lbs and still felt as big as ever. It hurts so much. I cant stop this.

I started skipping lunch everyday and was so proud of myself and I used to write it on my diary. Then I just realized that I was wasting my time cuz no matter I did I would hate the way I look. And now that I think about I think it’s crazy cuz today I’m probably the most confident person ever. We’re beautiful. U only see what u don’t like in ur body cuz u pay to much attention to it. Ppl that love u literally don’t see any imperfections in u . That’s why u should love ur self cuz if u do u won’t see anything wrong. I love u so love ur self 💕

You are such a beautiful person and have such a beautiful soul. This is my upmost favorite song in the world. Thank you for pouring your soul into this work of art. It means more than to me right now than you know💕

This song genuinely made me feel heard and understood. Even though everyone tells me that I'm so skinny, I just never believe them. Even at the doctor when they say that I'm a fine weight, but I'm a little over perfect, I feel like a failure. This song and these comments really make me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you Sara. We love you.

Last November, during a really rough patch emotionally, physically, financially - I had to go to the doctors for an asthma plan. This wasn't my regular GP as he was away that day. Instead of simply printing the plan that was already on file - he decided he needed to 'weigh me' and 'check me out' because I was out of breath from walking up the street - as an asthmatic in heeled 'flats', and as someone who was already having a panic attack cause I hadn't left the house in 5 weeks. Without knowing me, without knowing that I had been a G cup since I was 15, and that I was "blessed" with thick thighs, weighed me, measured me and told me I was clinically obese. I weigh around 85 kilos at 5'5. Sure, I could stand to lose possibly 5 kilos - but he wants me at 68kgs... Which isn't going to happen unless I have a boob reduction. It is all in my boobs - but since then, I skip meals, I criticise myself in everything I wear and I just hate myself. I'm proud of myself for the weight I'm loosing - and to make it worse, I get well meaning comments from friends and coworkers telling me how "great" I look which makes me feel worse - especially when they ask what I do and I be honest and say "I stopped eating breakfast" and they say "oh - keep it up!". People have told my mum to stop worrying about my eating because I "look really good now!" What, I didn't before? I mean - I know I'm ugly (truth), but this is not helping my confidence at all hearing how "great" of a job I'm doing for starving myself.

For anyone struggling with an ed (as someone who was severely anorexic for years and has since recovered) it helped me when I was recovering to only do things that I KNEW where good for my mental health. So instead of running excessive amounts to lose weight, I ran when I was feeling stressed or anxious and stopped when I was tired. I trained myself to recognize how skipping meals and being constantly hungry was making my anxiety and general self-image infinitely worse and that eating regularly (even though it was a battle with my fear of gaining weight) made me less tired and generally happier. I NEVER said anything bad about my body out loud, even if the people I was with critiqued their own bodies and even if I was thinking it. I started actively looking for famous women or people I knew that I thought were pretty even though they weren't skinny in order to train myself to accept a bigger and healthier body type. I hope this helps with someone else's recovery. :) Your body deserves your love and you deserve to love your body

Someone please make this a 10 hour version this song is just to perfect🥺😔😭😭

This fr just came on as I’m practicing drawing chubbier people to try and make myself feel better in my body

This song is the most realistic song I have ever heard I am sobbing because it hits so hard

I will never find an artist I could relate more to.. this was lovely and was my voice to speak :(

“I’ll set a goal for myself, and I’ll try work hard. I’ll reach it but swear I look just like I did from the start.” so relatable 😭

This song made my cat come up to my phone and start purring

I saw the beginning on tiktok and couldn't wait for the complete song... this is amazing and your voice sounds beautiful💋❤ thank you for writing this song💞

TW: i felt this. i’ve been struggling with an ED for years (it started in 6th grade i’m a junior now) but every time i tell my mom how food and eating makes me feel she says it’s normal. a couple months ago i found out it’s not normal an is very unhealthy for me to be counting calories and having panic attacks if i go over “my calories” my family throws the word fat around a lot and constantly talk about loosing weight and it honestly makes everything worse. when i told my mom eating was hard for me the next day she made 3 huge meals. so ofc that made me freak out. i’m trying to get better but it’s so hard. i’ve had this for such a long time that everyone jus thinks i have a high metabolism when that’s not really the case. my aunt always talks about how she would “k*ll for my body” when she doesn’t understand i’m literally breaking to maintain it.

Just incase: TW. Food oh so yummy, Sugar and sweet honey, Filling up my tummy, Now I am full. I'm getting way too fat, And I don't like that! My stomach now contracts, I feel sick from food. Throwing back my diner, Just trying to get thinner, And be a little winner, Over this fat disease. But now my body's shaking, My smile I start faking, Meals I keep skipping, Still no one notices. -Monika Stay safe all yous, and please eat :)

wow. this is so beautiful i'm literally crying. i have no words, it's like you told the story of my life. thank you so much for making music that speaks to me on such a personal level. i love you

I haven't eaten in 3 days this song rlly helped I might try to eat tmrw😊😭

I listened to this song in a playlist on spotify, and I came looking for on yt thinking that she was a very famous singer, and why does she not have millions of subscribers?

This song is all my thoughts every second.

The fact that I was admitted to the hospital to the eating disorder unit and I'm still listening to this on the unit really says something

Great song; I realize how lucky I am to have never dealt with these sorts of issues. My best wishes and support to everyone who’s struggled/struggling with body image, disordered eating, and anything in a similar ballpark as it. 💙

GIVE ME YOUR ATTENTION great, so now that you're here love: You are beautiful. You are pretty. You are on of a kind. You are worth it. You are valid. You are perfect, just the way you are. I know sometimes it's hard to believe that, but i swear to my whole existence: it's true. You are YOU. 'YOU' IS PERFECT. Stop comparing yourself to others, it's so stupid...because, for what? Like why would you do that? Yourself is who you are and what's bad about that? Who said you're not allowed to accept yourself? YOU CAN QUEEN! i really hope that kinda helps you, because i really want YOU to feel good and get better. And one thing: It will get better, trust me. You just need to keep believing in yourself and fighting for yourself. I KNOE YOU CAN DO IT! stay healthy, happy and remember: love yourself beauty❤

as a mid-sized person i relate to this so much. the subtle fatshaming from my family opened up my insecurities and now thinking about eating just makes me sick. i deleted instagram to stop me from comparing myself with others but the fatshaming from my family members are just really really rough. i miss the times when i was younger and didn’t really take notice of my body shape :(

I Love this honestly. Since I heard the song the first time on TikTok, I started crying. I just relate to this too hard, and it kinda sucks.

Recently I’ve been feeling like I’ll never be fit like others and I’ve been eating less these past weeks… I try to convince myself that it’s ok but I can’t stop… this song almost made me cry.

Its been 3 years but yet I still come back

this song is really helping me feel not alone, and i really needed that, more than you could think

this is one of the first tik tok songs that doesn’t just have that one good replayed part ☺️ love this song all the way through

Ahhhhhhh!!!!! Whenever I hear this I cry....

okay, so I know this may sound crazy, but I had a really bad headache yesterday and so any time I would try to make myself do my workout routine I would feel 10X worse. So I wasn’t able to workout yesterday, and I felt terrible. And this song made me feel a little better and I felt like it was okay :)