It's amazing to me that you're very aware of your mental state. Typically, media portrays people who have schizophrenia as severely impaired and unaware individual. I hope you find a standing where you can live comfortably while coping the with constant daily journey you have to face. I wish you the best.
I mean looking at statistics there a lot of schizophreniacs DON'T actually know that they're ill, or at least not aware to some of their symptoms, thats the reason media generally portrays them as such.
Brittany Santiago Exactly,I feel like crap when I see people speaking on it like we crazy in Instagram specially when they start commenting on someone's mental issues,it hurts me so bad how people think is easy to deal with this..To be aware of it and still not be able to know when something is real or not plus anxiety/panic attacks,deep depression, OCD and what not (speaking from my side)😕😕😕 I wish some people could put same effort on trying to understand us the same way they put all that effort in to judging us.
I knew somebody that had schizophrenia. He was completely aware he had it and was a very nice man, but I later on saw him at his worst, started thinking everyone was watching what he was doing and judging him, became extremely hardcore clean oriented. He once even got mad at me over something that never happened. I never held anything against him as I know it wasn't his fault, but at his worst he made me nervous because I never knew what was going through his head.
Brittany Santiago I would have thought the exact same thing because my brother is schizo effective and he is not this lucid, BUT, 3 of his/my friends are also schizo effective and 2 of them are very lucid and can describe attacks quite well... another good example is Princeton's famous economic professor, Dr Nash, whose life with schizo effective disorder was explored in the movie "A Beautiful Mind", in it he becomes extremely lucid and becomes capable of identifying who was real in his life and who was a hallucination. He ends up never getting rid of the hallucinations but being lucid he is able to identify the hallucinations and live with them, and his quantity of life is quite good, he still teaches in Princeton, and apparently the same few hallucinations he has are always following him around... scary but also kind of cool...
i dont think its all people seem to care about, but even tho he is sick, he is still a person and man and he prolly longs more than anythin to have a normal life, so normalizing things and talking to him like you would to any other person it might help ...
I felt really awful when you kept apologising. You're clearly suffering, why is that your fault? I know this is old vid and I am glad you're doing much better. But you were right about demons and the devil. I say it from experience. I know smoking pot worsens it. Anyway, I nearly teared up when you said you forgot what you were saying. Literally me. Take care. I am glad you posted this. Thank you for your bravery. Most of us aren't violent during our worst day but just broken. Glad you tried to reach out despite everything.
Nida, thanks for the comment (jazakallah for goodwill). And to the guy in the video you're awesome man. I appreciate your courage. Keep ya head up. There's a lot of help do not ever think you're alone.
@@staceyrangel3051 That much is obvious to me by now. Anyway, you're replying to a really old comment and just gave me an ugly reminder of the stupid shit i used to say when i was 15
You have a lot of faith in meds... Have you seen some of the side effects? There's one quote from a doc that says, everything that can be found in a pill can be found in nature... if you're able to find it in nature or with natural methods there would only be side benefits
Ima Mea The side effects can't be too bad surely otherwise doctors wouldn't prescribe them. It must be better than whatever you can experience with schizophrenia, so I think it's worth it
My best friend has schizophrenia and it breaks my heart to see what he goes through. He was super popular in high school and now he's in pain everyday.
+roy walton ive got the Same exact story.... My best friend went to his cousins house for a week and came back a totally different person. I knew it was Schizophrenia but it took him painting his face black with a sharpie and pointing a carved wooden stick at his sisters friend till he was diagnosed. I wish a bad day for him looked like this...Hes a paranoid schizophrenic and its honestly scary to hang out with him even though i still do occasionally but i talk to him on phone as much as i can. Sometime its just "word soup" and you cant understand a single thought. He used to be any out going ladies man with a heart of gold and now i look at him and just wonder where the friend i knew is. Its weird having your friend physically there but everything you knew as him is gone. Hes in jail at the moment, im hoping only till he goes to court. But he had a tiny bit of Pot on him and i guess his paranoia kicked in because he walked up to the cops and said " just arrest me already cause i know you guys know i have weed on me" handed the cops the weed and they threw him in county jail.... What a criminal justice system right...
I have schizophrenia, and whenever I describe it to the people around me, they think I'm insane, and we really aren't as insane as they think we are. Sure, their are some people who aren't good, but we aren't those people. We're just different. P.s, you're kinda adorable, and I love how open you are
Madyson Reed yeah I agree this is why I enjoy his videos anyways because they are slow and chilled out and at the same time helps educate me about schizophrenia and helps me understand it more since I have symptoms of it I want to be sure about things
You must be a very intelligent person because against your illness you are fully aware of the fact that those voices are not real. This is very important because it will help you to fight against this illness. All you need to do is just ignore those voices or things that you see or hear but you know it's not real. I know it's easier to say than done but I want you to try this with all your will power. Listening to you and how much you are aware of yourself, I'm sure you can do it. Just don't give up, keep fighting, ignore the freaking voices!! I wish you all the best.
a lot of people with schizophrenia know they are hallucinating. It's not like know will turn it off though. You guys should educate yourselves before making accusations like this is fake. I wouldn't wish schizophrenia on anyone.
as people here said, it's about how several is the Illness and also how the individual perceives it. Another thing is that's not that simple as "ignore those voices" it's imbalance of chemicals in the brain.
The problem is this: you know it's not real but the fact that it is happening makes it a reality. Knowing that it's not real doesn't make it go away. In a way, knowing that it's not real probably makes it *more* real because you actually have to attach that value to it, actively.
I have a 7 year relationship with a schitzo guy. He reminds me of you alot. a million things always going on in his head. Sometimes at night he will wake me with his screams and grab a knife and pace around saying "someone's in here". It used to scare me, but I'm so used to it. He wont make eye contact with me when he's having hallucinations, and sometimes he will wake me up every 10 min asking if I'm crying.. I just rub his hair and blast some music. It really helps him drown out the voices. It's gotta be so loud you can feel it though. We will fall asleep to that sometimes. He does really well most of the time. It only gets bad if he forgets his Seroquil and then takes it and is waiting for it to kick in. That's a sure way to tell if we're gonna have a bad night.
gcv980 Great, just so some doctors can feed him drugs and treat him like an animal. How about no. From what she described, he's actually doing well. Schizophrenics are always going to hear voices or have a paranoia episode on occasion, so imprisoning someone in a mental asylum will only make it worse. In terms of stress and being forcibly separated from their friends, family and significant other, it will only make the delusions worse. So please, for all that's good, shut up. And OP, you're such an amazing person, I admire you!
ForeverRepublic You have no idea what you're saying. Sure keeping him away from drugs is only going to make the delusions worse but that's what you want isn't it?. Not everyone can deal with that kind of thing. Making delusions worse may lead the patient to make rash decisions (rash because their minds are incoherent from reality) and some end up hurting or even killing other people or themselves. I'm not saying drugs are going to cure them, I think there's a possibility of treating schizophrenics with vitamins, there is a doctor who believes that vitamin b3 etc can sometimes cure them. However, only a good doctor can offer the right treatment plan for that patient. So unless you're a psychiatrist yourself how about you do the world a favour and shut up. Because not all doctors treat patients like animals only the incompetent ones do. Btw I wasn't referring to the person who made the video I was referring to people who can't handle the voices inside their heads
I think you're incredibly brave with your honesty about how you're feeling, hearing and seeing. You're helping others who have schizophrenia and also their friends who want to be there for for them so thank you for sharing what it's like. You really are helping more people than you know and you're braver and stronger than you know too. Thank you.
Thank you for courageously sharing these intimate and difficult experiences. The content you create is very educational and watching your videos is helping me begin to fathom what my cousin deals with everyday. Thank you, really.
the courage it took to film this, share it, and the difficulty of going through it, composed and intelligence is beyond impressive, what people took away from this video: he's attractive. lol
I've been in a lot of therapy and I can tell he is being very skillful. It takes a lot of awareness to be able to say "I'm feeling very paranoid" instead of "I'm being followed." That is very skillful. Well done!
You remind me of a friend I made in the hospital, and watching this makes me miss him. I hope both you and my dear Alex are doing well ❤️Taking everything day by day is hard but we got this
I just found this. What amazing strength you have. I am sorry for the way you feel in this. Don't ever be sorry for who you are or what you go through. You are amazingly strong. Thank you so much for allowing all of us to see the raw side of this disorder. I hope you keep your strength and are doing better.
i hated the guided hallucination. 4 years ive had schizophrenia and live with it. with out medication. with out letting "them" keep me locked away alone in my room. it strikes when im trying to sleep. and idgf im still going to end up asleep,im still going to take a shower, im still going to work and im still going to live like the lil badass i am. fear is what you make it and i f-ing loved that you did this and im going to subscribe cause your crazy and im crazy and its ok.
+Cory Modzeleski. it's ok if you choose to live your life that way. Im saying "your" life cause you're the only one who has to deal with your own inner subconscious. (dont let it change the parts of you that are wonderful)I'm stubborn and keep my problems with my schizophrenia to myself.my family and few friends know of my colorful traits.I've lost people in my life from fear and I've come to learn mental sickness is really common. always finding out someone always has a brother or uncle ect.that's been diagnose. Maybe cause im a girl I get allowed to be excepted easier. idk, but life has a funny way of taking what you want and giving you what you need. i heard a quote recently that said "strength comes from the madness we survive" it really got to me. so honestly its six am heading home realizing its going in to year 5 with this sickness almost 27 and i see a lot going for me cause i won't give up. life will be good if you make it that way. soooooo, keep being okay! medication or no medication you're going to find your middle ground. Just dont give up guys
You have no idea. The voices take your darkest fear, and just tell it to you non stop. It doesn't stop. You ask them to, you plead you take pills, but they just keep talking. You think it begins to fade and you get used to it, but it knows you because it is you. It knows who you care about, what they care about, and finally why you care about them. It tells you they'll die, you'll die, etc.
Watching this video gives me goosebumps cuz I remember feeling kinda the way you do before getting the right medication (I'm not schizophrenic btw) and being EXTREMELY paranoid and not being able to control my thoughts. Even thinking about it makes me want to cry. It's such a horrible feeling. Stay strong
These vulnerabilities are what help the mental health community. I am applauding your choice to share this, in your narrative while experiencing the difficult symptoms you have to manage and you're staying so controlled in this moment, you can tell you're practiced and skilled knowing your illness. It's scary to doubt our own mind. The struggle is real, but we find perseverance and are given a resilience many have no idea how to obtain in the way we do. Many thanks, you're inspiring.
same with my uncle. I remember one time he was saying he can here people in the vents & he had a tinfoil hat & he was siting in the corner & he acted the same way as this guy
you are very very intelligent ..and how you can control this and keep yourself calm is really fascinating... however i don't think that smoking for long time can help ..it MIGHT help you your mind but are damaging your body ... there has to be solution.
Cigarette addiction is common in a very strong majority of those with schizophrenia. I think like 80% or so. Somehow the way the nicotine and/or other chemicals in cigarettes interact with the condition makes it very likely for someone with schizophrenia to become hooked.
pattym9182 I read about that too, and I used to live with a really bad schizophrenic (real scary delusions, shouting very loud at imaginary things) and he would chain smoke all day every day from waking up to going to sleep. He had a friend who too who was slightly 'saner' than him in some ways but also had schizophrenia who would smoke all day too, so I fully believe that there is some truth in the statistic.
+Clara Pondswald Yes he is. I know how he feels. I hear voices in my head, they tell me that I'm worthless, that I should hurt myself or hurt other people. But I don't hallucinate
Alexander Biller True. But it's scary, because the voices tell me to hurt myself, to stay in bed all day, to hurt people but i don't want to hurt people, i dont want to hurt myself
Schizophrenia is a soul-sucking disease. None of us can imagine the mental prison it creates for its sufferers. I am blessed to be a caregiver in an adult group home. We have a severe schizophrenic who has seizures and is now quite far gone due to both conditions. My heart breaks for every one of schizophrenia's victims.
I think from what I know about it that it's a really bad illness. I really feel for people who have to suffer it on a daily basis. My heart goes out to you all ❤❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing. Had schizoeffective and in and out of mental hospitals. Also very compassionate and highly sensitive person so my heart goes out to you.
Well, you may think this is a bad video, but I think this is awesome. I am a medical student and one of my lecturers showed this vid in class and pointed us to your channel. Your videos are helping us recognise what schizophrenia really is; I mean, we can read about it, but at the end of the day, it's just words on a textbook. Thank you so much for doing this. It must be hard to post something like this on RU-vid and I really think you are incredibly brave for doing so. Take care, and know that you are part of the education engine behind medical students around the world.
You are so courageous, thank you for helping us try to even begin to understand what it's like to go through this. It must be so scary, I'm sorry for all that you must have to go through. I truly hope you are doing well and that you have a good support system and good loving friends and family surrounding you. Bless you and take good care.💜
Shock does it make you feel better about yourself making others feel awful??? Fuck off loser and get a life so you don't have to make others feel bad about theirs...
Sorry you are going through this, I sincerely hope that a cure is found and you get the help you need and deserve. Thank you for sharing this so that we can understand and try to help.
I study psychology and videos like these really help me a lot in school and to help others just like you. Thank you so much for sharing this. And you are super cute! hope you are doing a ton better now.
Im Schizophrenic and the worst problem for me is trying to get some sleep. Im so paranoid I cant sleep at night or when every one else is sleep. I cant tell you how much mellatonein I've taken
Bad Wolf-111 melatonin on a consistent basis can actually encourage your brain to stop producing that chemical naturally because it expects that supplement. Best of luck to you 💓
Yeah, like that's people poured out to everyone. Good luck getting your hands on some. Most drug dealers are too fucking stupid to know what that means half the time and his Doctor sure as hell won't prescribe it.
Bad Wolf-111 does the melatonin give you headaches? If I take it here and there, it's fine. If I take it every day in a row for 4 days or more, I wake up with INTENSE migraines for 4 hours. I want it to stop because I adore melatonin and the way you don't feel tired or groggy in the morning :/
Been following and supporting your RU-vid channel for some time now. I have experienced something similar to yourself. Been on antipsychotic meds since 1992 and Only now I feel happy and safe regardless of anything because of my faith which gets me through.
Unfortunately there’s no “getting well” from Schizophrenia. Not in the sense of curing it, anyway. Best one can hope for us to handle the hallucinations and things like that. Some meds can lessen the effects, but there’s no cure.
How can you be so calmed at it. I mean, if I heard a voice in my head I'd probably sit on a lonely chair and cry incessantly. You're really motivating to people with your "mental disorder", because although you say it's not a good day for you, you've have gone so far.
Thank you for making this, and your other videos. Takes a LOT of balls to do something like this. Doing research for a book, and I think this is definitely going to help me portray the illness more accurately, so thank you for that too.
Just wanted to say that you are extremely brave for trying to keep yourself even keeled and sharing your struggles with the rest of us at it allows us to relate better to others suffering from this disease. Hang in there kiddo, you are doing well!!!
I know you published this forever ago... but you keep saying "sorry" through your video. You don't have to be sorry. This is a very raw and honest recording of your experiences. Even when you're not saying anything, you're showing us by your movements how you are feeling on a bad day. That's even more of a reason to thank you because who wants to be seen on a bad day? You seem like a sweet guy. Keep moving forward and working towards your goals.
I’m really really sorry that you suffer with schizophrenia. It hits very near and dear to my heart as my 17 year old son was diagnosed one year ago. Watching you in your video is like watching my son. I found your channel last year when I was desperate to learn all I could about this illness. I Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your bravery and for sharing your videos with us 💚💚💚💚 I watched this video last year and it happened to pop up on my suggestions to watch, so I rewatched it. I hope you read this message and know that there are so many people that care about you💚💚💚💚
To someone trying to understand, your senses are your only way of interpreting the world. To have them corrupted like this is devastating, how can someone tell the difference between reality and the disorder? I'm so sorry, I hate hallucinating and can't imagine having it happen regularly.
My uncle has schizophrenia and it has been very hard for all of us to understand his mind, what he was saying, and the sort of things he hears. I found this video insightful. Thanks for sharing, dude! I wish you the best
Thank you for having the courage to put this video up. I think you're helping your self because there are people out there that do care for even strangers with mental health issues. This helps us understand you.
I hope you are doing great man, and if you see this please never be sorry to the viewers. You are doing your very best to put this out there and to help make people more aware and it is SO appreciated. You are awesome man-never think otherwise.
I watched this video in 2014 and since then I've been extremely interested in all mental illnesses especially schizophrenia. I'm so fascinated by how the brain functions and what causes these conditions. I'm in my first year of psychology and I really want to be a mental health specialist. Thank you for helping me discover my hidden interest Jacob! Hope you're doing well xxx
No need to be sorry, brother. This was a great video upload and gives everyone a glimpse into your life. I think you're a very strong person for sharing your experiences. Thank you.
I have illusions because of my anxiety. I only have them at night down a dark road. It's really scary. And because of my illusions I have horrible panic attacks. Reasons why I don't drive at night. It sucks.
Dogling no. My psychologist said people who have hallucinations has had a head injury. Tbh I don't go to him any more because I feel like he didn't know what he was talking about. So he's probably wrong. I probably have some sort of schizophrenia. But I won't know till I get a different doctor.
Lanky Daze I'm just wording them how my psychologist said. Like I said tho. I stopped going to him because I felt like he didn't want to really help and didn't care. So I stopped going to him. Trust me I know illusions is a magic trick lol. Like I said for all I know i might be schizophrenic. But I won't know till I go to a proper Doctor who really cares.
I really can't imagine what you are going through, but I can definetly try, and holly shit I don't think id be able to maintain composure. Very impressed on how you handle this. Hope you dont get many days as this.
God bless your heart young man ... I have a dear friend that I've known since I was 8 years old, I'm 58 yrs old now, who has suffered with schizophrenia since we were in our late teens. She has her good days and her REALLY "dark days" as she puts it. (It runs her family.) Plz don't apologize for the symptoms of your disorder, how else would the world ever get a glimpse of the REAL life you have to live. Thank you for your courageous efforts to enlighten the rest of us. Love your honesty, I'll be praying for you. (Stay strong! 💪)
I hear voices occasionally but nothing like this although my depression and anxiety has gotten so much worse i just wanted to say i applaud you for having to suffer from this and still go on with life your awesome
Hey, just found your channel. Im 14 and suffer from schizophrenia, I have been having a rough time lately with my hallucinations, I keep seeing my little sister run onto a road when cars are coming, I nearly got run over once or twice in the last month from this. I haven't been to school for a week. It really does suck... Wish you the best, and you are brave af for making videos about your schizophrenia. I was scared to even put this comment...
no it's not a bad video, you are showing us what it's like to have a mental illness, I work with people who have it but it's hard for them to vocalize when their having an episode other than yelling, your actually helping people understand what others are going through during an episode. I praise you for being so open about it, it can be tough to live with an you are such a strong person. thank you for sharing
Hang in there! Be strong! I'm watching on 27 April 2019. I really hope you are doing better now with medicine. Please there is no need to say sorry. You shared this with us is already strong and amazing enough.
My heart goes out to you man. Fuck whoever is denying this or thinking you're "faking" it or whatever. Your reactions are very real and very valid and I'm sure it's so so so hard on bad days like this but for you to be able to at least try and keep your calm throughout this video and explain to the viewers what's going on is brave. Much respect. I hope you're doing well, you seem like an absolutely awesome guy.
Thank you for posting this. I suspect a friend of mine is schizophrenic, but he won't tell me about it. Sometimes he says he hears my voice and his thoughts jump around really badly. Videos like this have helped me understand what he might be experiencing. Im trying to overcome the stereotypes about schizophrenia. Please don't be sorry. This 'bad day' is so much easier to empathise with than just news reports or text in WebMD
Kiran Fatima Biersack.. I've read that name now several times and I really have to say it's one of the most unattractive names in the whole existence! /especially when your german.
