I have watched several of your videos now and I'm just in awe. You're the first therapist or person I've seen who "gets it". What I feel like. In one video you talked about how we might not know who we are or how to be happy or how to handle things. How we might have been feeling like that for what seems like our whole life. I cried because I've been saying that, I've said that to so many people. The saying of when you're depressed you miss doing things "you used to enjoy" or whatever it is. I don't know what I "used to enjoy". I'm just saying you're the first person who gets it, gets me and I just ...I don't understand why other people/therapists don't understand or maybe I didn't understand. I don't know. Thanks.
I so agree Emily! I am crying too listening to this because my whole life I’ve felt like such a freak and no one has been able understand or help and I’m now 64. Doesn’t help that I’ve never been able to even verbalise how I feel or why. For me these videos are exposing everything I’ve been trying to hide all my life. I’m hoping that healing can finally begin…
@@lorrainejames857 I told myself I was going to limit my computer interests as it was worsening my abilities to handle my triggers. But I picked it up as a last resort after much angst filled prayer that somebody could explain in very uncomplicated terms why my life is the way it is and what I made of it verses what my life's turned out to be towards the end of the race. As a Christian, I'm deeply disappointed in myself and I know that's just Satan or whatever anybody considers "evil" to be telling your soul "you're no good." The only other place I felt any inner peace is being gathered with other New Testament Bible believing worshippers knowing they wouldn't be intentionally hurtful because of each persons accountability towards each other to act in love and respect and to be devoted to each other as Jesus did.
I have had this my whole life. I have done some EDMR therapy . I use meditation , watercolor painting , walking , read my Bible , yoga or go hiking in nature. These are my tools I use . I grew up on in a toxic environment as the target for my violent father 's rage , then married a narcissistic psychopath I found out when I went to a psychiatrist . I left that life and now trying to find healing each day . I want to Thank you so very much for your channel . It's a Blessing and I will be watching all your videos to help me in my healing process .
OMG!! I had what seems like they very same experience. My five children believe my narcissist’s view that I’m the unstable one because he was always triggering me and I ended up seriously mentally impaired with trauma and needing mood stabilizers. I left him and the kids and are safe and then there is the charge that I broke up the family. The father, the repetition compulsion with my husband of 31 years. So many years of codependency! I have done such a lot of work on myself and letting go of the fear of abandonment. Better lonely than dead, definitely!! I survive and power through every day, broken-hearted but responsive and alive. This is the victory we can share. This is the pride we can share. Good on you for the work you do for life and sharing your inspiring story🙏🏻
@@robinboroda7909 Love your impact and your kids will forever see your courage, even if not now. Being 17 y/o with a strong mother who left this same type of situation with a narcissist showed me that you should stand up for what you believe in and advocate for yourself. She has been such a rock in my life and I don't know where I wouldve ended up without her strength. You are doing great. Keep going every day this comment radiates high energy/vibration. Much love and keep healing!!
Hello i am Isabel from Spain i am 48years anda you just describe mi own live exactly i got divorce 15years now and its now when i really Undertand all things are been happened around....thanks to share
Hi All! This is a remake from a TT video and my plan is try to post every day for a bit! I rarely use as much mayo as I have in these last two videos - lol - and I already have about 5 more this week, none of which include mayo and being in the kitchen.. All of which do include, however, my missing nail:). Hope you find these helpful, supportive and validating. xo❤️❤️
You have just described who I am. I have extreme hyper vigilance and it is absolutely exhausting. Thank you for this video and I look forward to watching more.
This is so dead on. I wish I could see you as my therapist. I just had my first baby 3 months ago and I’m having to navigate family members’ insecurities and it feels like I’m expected to choose sides all over again just like it was when I was a kid. I don’t understand why it has to be this way. My boundaries are being ignored and it’s becoming too much. Being a mom has been amazing and I’m a natural, but dealing with everyone else’s psyches about my own son is driving me insane. I won’t let him witness all the drama and hate I did as a kid.
I used to be very sensitive as a kid and cried often. Now I hardly cry because I was taught that my world can be falling down around me and my emotions still won't matter. When I was 7 I remember being in my mom's car and her and my dad were screaming over the phone about their impending divorce and I started crying and my mom whipped around and screamed at me "what are you crying about?!" And I sobbed that I didn't want them to get divorced and she snapped "well get over it, because it's happening!" And from that point on I mostly stopped showing emotions. When my maternal grandpa died when I was 13 I barely cried because if my emotions didn't matter then, why do they matter now? And I kept hearing how strong I was being and "Silas is our rock". When he died I was holding his hand and I had to go to the office where there was no one and hold in sobs for 30 seconds before pulling myself back together and sitting back beside him. I didn't cry at all during his funeral. When my maternal grandma died 7 years later, in 2020, I had to fake cry, so I didn't look like a monster or get berated for not loving her. This past November my paternal grandpa died. I cried when I asked my boss to get the week off so I could go to the funeral and my sister accused me of fake crying. I didn't I was actually able to cry because my mom wasn't around. Talking about it around my mom, my voice didn't so much as shake. At his funeral, I cried. I cried more for him than both my other grandparents combined. And I feel guilty about it. Because I barely knew him. I can count the amount of times I saw him on one hand.
Sometimes we cry more for those we know less because we regret having no further opportunities to be close. So an idealized, potential, relationship is what we grieve. It's all so complex. Don't waste energy on guilt for how you feel.
Oh my god the early example of “i can’t be sitting down and relaxing” when the parent comes in… 1. I used to go to my room and close my door growing up in order to relax bc i felt i couldn’t relax in front of my mother 2. As a young adult staying with my father, he hates to see me talk on the phone while doing an enjoyable activity. Seeing me too relaxed or “at home” unnerved him to no end.
From one healthcare professional to another, I wanted to just say thank you for sharing so much of yourself with everyone. It takes a special kind of person to be able to share their vulnerabilities and wisdom in the way that you do with the world - you are providing people with tools, language, and understanding to be able to work through their own traumas, and I’ve personally found your videos invaluable. The best kind of binge watching! I don’t often write comments, but I felt compelled to because your stories and energy has been very healing for me as I find myself finally processing a lot of my earlier childhood at a later stage in life - nearly 20 years after I began my medical training. As someone very highly functional through tremendous amounts of trauma, it’s been so easy for people to not think I’ve had any hardships in life… but truly, it’s because I’ve learned so well how to hide things, because that was what was asked and forced upon me, and it became a survival mechanism and tactic. Though, there’s only so long one can hold a lot of these unresolved wounds before they appear in more pronounced hyper vigilance cycles and CPTSD that can no longer be ignored, which is what led me to your channel. Thank you for doing what you do, and for taking all the time, energy, thoughtfulness, compassion, and grace to put these videos out for the world. Thank you for making a difference in my life. You are amazing ❤❤❤
Love this video, but don’t understand what the cooking thing is all about 🥺. Whats the point of it, please ? I can’t even see what you’re doing. I’m sorry….
Wake up at 57, father wass kind on vaction and in the weekend. Now he is old and feel drain,with his ups and downs,cant eat much,crying much. Going crazy 😢
high functioning CSA Survivor: My triggers: people queuing too close, people standing behind me, especially tall men, peoples' behaviour being careless or reckless near me, self-isolation, fake motives, picking up on fake motives/fake concern/feelings of others, narcissism, and narcissistic people, feeling cornered trapped, cruelty, sadism, mocking/humiliating, crowds, people watching me while I'm trying to do things
I never understood why I find social situations exhausting, thank you so much for your channel. I'm learning so much about how I got this way. This video is dead on my experience of my childhood and my adult presentation. Trying to connect in relationships yet being terrified to do so. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, it's emotionally devastating to work with every day, but the choices are a few for adult children like us. Healing is the path forward and so it's the path I take. Thank you for all your good work.
Basically what you are saying is; once you are traumatized, you become feral....and the best you can hope for are coping mechanisms. If the trauma or traumas are deep enough, you will never be comfortable in a social environment....just acceptable on the outside.
Go through this with my 14 year old Granddaughter. She has had So much Trauma. She will start talking but clams up. She finally told my husband and I about sexual assault and that there are other terrible things but can’t talk about that now
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ If only everyone , who needs it, had Dr. Kim Sage for their therapist!!!!! Her insight and grasp on C-PTSD is unmatched, as is her ability to articulate the emotionality of how it manifests. Her genuine compassion and dedication to help those of us who suffer with it - makes her truly a healer within a profession severely lacking credibility.
I just found you and watched two of your videos on CPTSD and I check all the boxes! Thank you for explaining it so well! 🙏 And thank you for sharing and giving back to the world! And thank you for not falling into the trap of giving a “quick fix”. That was a give away that you are the real deal! 💙 It seems like just coming to awareness is the first step in healing and is healing in itself. Thank you!
You just described my life! I'm 62 and during my life I had ALLWAYS thought it was all normal. Good Lord..it's not. I need a therapist. I keep having ex husband nightmares also . No good therapists near me. They all just want to sit and talk. I need a plan to ideas or something. I've to told my story so many times...talking just doesn't help. YOU sound GREAT!
I’m right there with you - 62 and I awakened to the idea that I’ve been living with cptsd my whole life and I feel helpless and hopeless as I’ve never found the right therapist to help me. How do we navigate this last 1/3 of our lives toward healing and feeling ok? I feel so lost sometimes and exhausted faking that it’s all ok.
Thank you once again for such a great video. It has set me on the right course for today. Lots of stuff to get through before I’m healed. It’s day by day. Please know you help me, and I’m sure a lot of people on their healing journey. It is definitely one day at a time. Thank you Dr. Sage. 😎
Me too I thought she was holding up the lemon while she said the word "you" to indicate that this lemon is gonna play the part of me in this next bit - kinda like a lemon Barbie. I thought that she was using adding tarragon as like an example of ways to pretend you're busy when your parents get home then I remembered about the literal cooking. And also the bit where she said "so the closer the thing gets, you're like 'ok now I'm adding onion powder.' Then you're like , 'oooh I don't really wanna do that'. I thought she was gonna be like "but trust me the onion powder is definitely good in this!" and then I realized we were talking about not wanting to go to the social event. Definitely got lost on both the recipe and the conversation!
Because we are so focused on everything she shared with us and literally absorb manipulations with tarragon and lemon and give them meanings and interpretations. I had to fast forward cooking parts.
Ok…… I couldn’t finish watching your video. You keep describing me. I’ve been this person for decades. I’ve never been anyone else. I’ll try and watch the rest later. This is just a lot right now.
Ok, So My Dad treated me Horribly growing up and my Mom, when I was 7, Lied to the League about my sex, so that I could play T-Ball and once they found out I was a Girl, they kicked me off the team. I had NO Say in this, No Choice, NO VOICE and I was Humiliated and Experinced a LOT of Trauma and Shame, as a Result of my Mom's Ridiculous decision to do this to me! It made me question my Gender and Who I was..it has stayed with me my Whole Life and it is ONLY by the GRACE of THE LORD that I have been able to heal but I DEF have CPTSD and feel the effects of that even now that I am much Older!!! I suffer from ALL the Things that you talk about in this video, It has been HELL for me and Parents have NO Idea How much the HORRIBLE things they Do to their Children HURT Them and that Hurt lives on for their WHOLE Lives!
I discovered Pete Walker during lockdown 2020 and his book literally saved my life and now I have found you. Thank you for your channel, you have great empathy, intelligence and understanding. Self care is the most difficult habit to form when a childhood was all trauma, chaos and neglect & just about surviving not thriving. Good habits still feel alien to me.
I’ve only just discovered your channel but it’s resonating so much already. Trauma seems to be something many psychologists don’t understand…but you do. I was impressed when you mentioned maladaptive daydreaming…something I did my whole childhood, and for many years after, to escape the NPD and depressed mother…I am an only child which made it even harder. Thankyou for making sense of the suffering, the aloneness and the shame that so many of us have to deal with on a daily basis. ❤
So this video describes me so well, yet the struggle that I have is how to stop being hypervigilant in all of my relationships. My hypervigilance makes me so controlling with my husband, my children, and my friends. I absolutely hate how controlling I can be because it causes me more internal stress and the only reasons why I get controlling is because A) I have PMDD and two weeks out of the month everything feels out of control emotionally, and B) I also try to control things through my hypervigilance, so I feel safe. What do I do to heal from this?
Thank you for sharing this, it is such a help after a very triggering Mothers Day weekend here in the UK. I feel like your videos are the only ones that just totally make sense and truly help my understanding and healing. Thank you for the healthy lunch inspiration too, delicious! Have a great day Dr Sage ❤️
"you are somehow in trouble... Oh let me grab a knife!" A truly brilliant unintended moment ;) Thank you for your videos. I am now starting to understand how twisted my childhood was indeed, despite the absence of classical issues like alcoholism, physical/sexual violence etc., still my mom wounded me a lot.
Oh my. Is there a hidden tap in my house? Lol I was just telling my husband how I wanted to start a group of emotionally available beings and have everyone bring a healthy new recipe to sample, play kind games that make us laugh. That is truly surrounding ourselves with nourishing community. This is the path to healing for us perhaps?
Please do one about the confusion in the child when a parent's otherwise healthy values are plugged in to this dynamic. Firstly I have to tell you, this video is wonderful, I can't tell you enough how understood I feel. Also, doing it in the kitchen while you're making something is such a genius touch because it evokes intimate friendship and avoids all possible triggers related to formal environments. At 11:06, you talked about how "we will literally sacrifice our mind, body, and soul to be a different parent, to the point where we lose ourselves completely." That's exactly what my mum was like. Completely untreated, doing her best, but inevitably passing her pain on to me. All parents have beliefs and values about what it means to be a good person. They naturally hope that their children will embrace those values, too. The problem comes when those beliefs plug in to hypervigilance, toxic shame, and all the rest of it. In a way, it would be easier if it was a toxic belief system because then I could just turn my back on it all and start again. But I actually agree with most of the values I was taught, and at every turn in my healing, I have to make sure I'm not throwing out the baby with the bathwater. For example, being proud is bad. This is a healthy value, but we also need to have healthy self-esteem, and the devil's in the detail. I know enough not to trust the impressions I was left with and to reassess these concepts on my own terms. But I'm afraid of swinging too much the other way, and I'm not always sure where that fear's coming from. Because, truthfully, I'm still trying to work out who I am as well.
Hyper vigilance was something I was rewarded for my entire life by my family, never did I realize that avoiding my needs was a bad thing until listening to your channel.
The social avoidance/hypervigilance was worst when my children were little. I did not know how to parent no matter how much I loved them. I have grief and shame about their childhood.
Jumping at the sound of truck tires on the gravel driveway, having to have all chores done right after school and looking busy when dad came in the door otherwise he could fly into a rage depending on his mood that day... this was childhood.
I just lost a RU-vid community where I was a major leader (and I'm still very much loved) in part because my hypervigilance/outside-in mentality was exhausting the content creator at the head of the community. It's such an existentially devastating blow when outside-in hypervigilance pushes people away. It feels like caring about people is just going to hurt them eventually, and that's an awful place to be in. Put another way, you accurately named and described a big issue in my life. Oof. But it's an oof of gratitude.
This video is incredible. I can't believe how much I relate to EVERYTHING you've said...except the cooking. 😂 I'd rather someone else make that for me because what you're fixing sounds delicious! But the description of feelings and why and hypervigilance and triggers...it's just like you've known me all my life. I'm in therapy. But I see now that I need additional therapies. It's better, but it's apparently not going to be quick. However, it's been a lifelong thing so I can't expect to "cure" myself in a few sessions! Thank you for the insight! I just subscribed and really glad I "stumbled" upon your video.
Yes, with my father I definitely walked on eggshells - and that resulted in disorganized attachment - because I never knew, if my father would explode into rage from one moment to the other. (As he suffered from soviet trauma and most definitely had some form of untreated Post traumatic Stress Injury)
I have Alexithymia and find it difficult to name emotions. I tend to feel in pictures eg. A picture of me as an ice sculpture and if someone says something I might shatter… would you do a video on feeling in pictures? I’m also autistic. People say I must name the emotion to work through it but I often can’t. I still feel it though.
I'm a bit similar. Have you heard of IFS therapy? That relies a lot on mental pictures and imagining the various parts of you in different ways. It sounds like you might like it.
Had a bad week very triggered. What you said is very helpful. Subscribing. Didn't mind at all the cooking in there. Its basic self care. A reminder to eat simple healthy meals.
Awesome! 🤟💯very intelligent. These are helpful. All things considered, from the video. We both have all those symptoms. We both (partner and I) both have hyper vigilance. The one thing that sorta scares me about it is when we find our own behavior being way too hard. Because of being on edge, awkward, shameful, and avoidance. Anxiety. It feels like we can’t trust anyone. You simply wanna avoid/stay away from, staid clear and leave anywhere that feels like it might get heated. We watch, we look, we lurk, we hear everything. It’s like having a super power yet detracts from relaxation and enjoyment. 😢to me PTSD CTPTSD are doable if we get the education. Without knowledge of it, we could be reacting like I said WAY TOO HARD. ☺️👈🏻💯
Literally everything you listed resonated so deeply, it’s incredible. I clicked on this out of curiosity, not realizing just how relevant it would be. Thank you ❤
Cptsd has been a huge part of my life since childhood and I was unaware of it. I just discovered this condition 5 years ago. I had a horrible abusive childhood and I'm trying hard to heal through therapy and researching this topic. Thx 🙏
This is me to a T. At 60 years old I don’t believe I’ll ever heal from my upbringing, I just want to understand it. I love my alone time and my solitary creative and research hobbies so I’m not missing out on anything and I have no children so I didn’t pass this trauma down to any kids. My siblings are doing that work to stop the pattern from our Borderline mother. I’ve learned so much from you, thank you for your work and the chicken salad!
I've been listening to news talk radio since I was a kid. I didn't know exactly what they were talking about I'm sure. But thinking back, it was a voice. And that voice wasn't yelling at me or berating me or blaming me. It was just a voice. I listen to news talk podcasts and RU-vid to this day.
Wow this seems like my life..I stayed 29 yrs in a abusive marraige but as a child narc dad mom pleasing..Are you excepting patients I'm in Newport Beach love to meet with you. I just stumbled on this video right when I'm finding out me and my kids in the spectrum .Appreciate you ..Looks yummy...❤
I normally am not impressed by most health professionals but your content I do resonate with and it’s good content. Very rare lol I’m self educating myself tonight bc even though I've done a LOT with Natural Health I still am optimizing some deeeeeep trauma. I’ve made a ton of progress over the years on my trauma but still have some work to do in this area.
Your videos are so insightful, clearly, you know the pain. But I am shocked to see as empathetic as you are, you don’t feel the pain of the animals that are being brutally tortured and murdered to make you are favorite chicken salad? That tells me you are still disconnected from the pain of your own childhood and don’t fully feel it. If you did, you could not participate in what will one day be looked at as one of the greatest travesties of humanity. Again, I think you’re beautiful and thank you for making these videos for people who’ve been through similar childhood as you- but when you no pain, how can you be OK with participating in the perpetuation of it? It is only possible, if you do not fully feel your own pain. If you did your heart would break open at the thought of what the animals had to go through to make your meal. A meal you don’t even need that could easily be substituted with the same or better nutrition. It is simply conditioning, and dissociation from pain. Deep pain . If you can eat an animal, you have only scratched the surface in my opinion. respectfully and completely from the heart-I know you are good- very good. but please consider this, I wish you all the healing in the world 💔❤️🩹❤️
Hello i am Isabel from Spain i am 48years anda you just describe mi own live exactly i got divorce 15years now and its now when i really Undertand all things are been happened around....thanks to share
This is good. A condensed description of what trauma robs us of. And it's a primal, embodied, felt sense of being good enough without any effort. This basic, primal sense of safety, of decency, of belonging to the human race and to life is taken away. We need a visceral, embodied sense of self worth that gives rise to our cognitive sense of value. Without that we feel shame about who we are and that shame holds the self hostige. All this results in an inability to create safety and value on our own. It makes it hard to feel safe with other people because we are constantly in a state of defense. My own trauma caused permanent dysregulation that makes normal living impossible. My subcortical brain is incapable of giving me a stable, grounded sense of self and safety which compromises me socially and relationally. Poli-vagal theory talks about that. We need safety to engage socially and to be relational ,and being relational makes us safe. Connection is safety. As children we need to bond to the external other or we don't survive. I constantly experience "unnecessary" hyperactivation in the body - being constantly triggered into a flight response is exhausting to the body. Everything becomes about less pain, not aliveness, not connection. I know it is not my fault. I did not sign up for it. I also know that the only way to gradually heal trauma is to recognise it as a necessary adaptation to the lack of a safe attachment to my deregulated parents. The depth of pain requires a corresponding or a greater depth of connection, safety and tenderness. These need to be hard wired into our nervous systems through a whole hearted, whole bodied experience in the presence of a compassionate, loving witness.
Thank you so much for this!! I have never heard it explained so perfectly. It’s difficult to put into words when you want someone to understand why you are the way you are. Now I can just show them this video!
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While I appreciate you trying to share a recipe and talk, but its distracting to me (I'm a hsp, and its hard to focus on what you're saying along with the background noise and then you stopping what your saying for the recipe)... I think talk while cooking (without interrupting the topic of the video and then display the recipe at the end. But, I think it's taking away from your expertise and focusing on what your saying to be actively doing the recipe. You have a gift of what you share... I see more of like a powerpoint type of thing for your style ... so you could verbally see all the vital examples your sharing on the screen while your saying it.
Wow, that’s incredible description on what’s going on on the inside. For many years I was convinced this is just my social anxiety but clearly its much more. What do we do to help ourselves? Is there any steps we can take to ease that stress, be more in control when doing the work without professional help?
I am incredibly grateful to you and you sharing these videos on CPTSD. They are helping me so much in addition to my therapy with my therapist. So much of me understanding myself and facing the pain of my childhood was done on my own. It's affirming to hear the things you share and realize I was on target.
Love the video, like all your other videos ❤ a feedback please: the cooking thing is incredibly distracting from your message. Your other standard video setting is away more effective and connecting
Everything you said describes me exactly, i cope with video games. I mostly cut my mother out of my life, but really want to totally after how she affected me as an adult. I even have bone loss in my jaw from gritting teeth, thankfully that isnt too bad. I met a great woman in another country, i want to meet her so much. The anxiety and hypervigilance, i dont know i can deal with it more so a larger city. Im so worn dow in life, i cured myself of people pleasing.
Hi can someone help me please I wasn't allowed to be a child and I can't remember half my childhood I wasn't allowed to mix with others right up to age 27 I can't oh I don't know I just need to be my authentic self can't stop worrying about things disturbed sleep etc
It’s like you have shadowed me and it’s almost ire. One of the challenges is that my interoception is out of whack so I struggle with feeling/reading myself so it’s hard to find ways to regulate. Don’t know if that is a chicken or the egg situation.
Hey I love your channel it's not just the amazing information you provid it's also the kindness that one can feel by just watching you talk. Can you please make a video explaining why we with C-PTSD hate your body's and feel really uncomfortable in it? Thank you. Have a blessed day. Your are definitely a blessing to all of us.
Lol not in a paranoid way smh not what I’ve always been told and seen. All these symptoms are things that can get a person in trouble with a system.. so can’t deal with these things when the symptoms will get you . Especially if she’s a shrink herself.
I have found your videos so helpful in helping me understand what might be going on with me and what caused it. I sent an email to your gmail account a few months ago and it might not have made it as I did not hear back from anyone. Do you currently have any openings for clients in California and if so what is the best way to schedule?
What a blessing you’re being to so many of us who share your experiences from having childhood ptsd. Thank you for sharing your training, therapeutic experience and personal story. Most of all I love how you exemplified self-soothing as you make your favorite chicken salad recipe ❤️.
i paused it straight away, they said i had hypervigilance because i got hit by a car and the police said it was intentional, how is my brain reacting in a hypervigilant way toxic? it is a safety mechanism that i need to work out how to manage, saying its toxic put me off the rest of the video tbh
Ok so I’m fully convinced that I’m autistic and so highly masked that camo was (and is) my favorite colors. -not just from your awesome work but also from embrace autism website. When I took the initial test on there it said no autism. Then it had another test on masking and I scored higher than the dr that made it (who is autistic) How much money is it going to cost to get a proper diagnosis? I’m on welfare! Needing diagnosis so that I can get disability before I go off the deep end. It’s getting old.
9:35 bad stuff usually happens to me. I get a very strong sustainable feeling for days on end, most recently a year and a half of consistent dread. I hate this😢 because mostly its on point. Someone is upset at you, someone is hurt, your close friend whom you just said you're happy to be friends with died, AND ALL THA STUFF. NOW THAT TRIGGERED ME😡
Omg, you described my childhood/young adulthood with my uBPD mom. And the social anxiety and hyper vigilance. Omnipresent. You hit the nail on the head. Your format is fantastic and you truly get it. Bless you for making these videos. ❤
I have found your videos so affirming, so validating, so enlightening. I finally have answers and feel like it's not all been Me my whole life. Thank you. I'm crying as I type this. Wow. 😳 3+++ paradigm shifts...adhd last Summer now This. & the reason I mentioned that is The people that really enjoy your multi-tasking videos canNOT be adhd because my mind on this cooking-talking video is like one of those spinning, sparky, whistling fireworks 😵💫🎆🎇🌀
Wow. Checklist for me. Oldest of 3. And very successful, workaholic, gay Hollywood publicist. Now dealing w loss of vision in left eye after an accident last Nov. / upcoming cornea replacement. Really needed to hear your series of vids. I am going to find a trauma therapist in ATL.
