Staring into the abyss 

When u staring into abyss it also looks at u

This helped when I needed it, good job

What a great experience, it seems like the music has no end, I loved it^^

Many times, I've stood in the exact same place and stared into the darkness surrounded by silence Darkness has always comforted me

truly amazing (again) !!!

i'm commenting again because i wanna say that a shoking event (at least for me) has happened and i just want to talk about it. i want to talk about it but i also don't want to go to much into detail. when i said "i've been sending wisdom to people and sending them music from your channel", i bent the truth a lil. i always liked taking the sort of "monk/priest" sort of role sometimes. not all the time. i was in a discord server owned by someone of whom i wasn't very fond of. i started to get along with some of the members but not the owner of course. (and i'm glad i didn't) after some time and thought "it'll be cool if i became a "monk" for lil while". so i started giving "wisdom" and at that time i had found this yt channel in my recommended. the server owner wasn't good mentally. not at all. he gave the server to (i believe) one of his friends. and said to the server that he will take his own life. didn't really like the guy but... still worried. he didn't take his own life. he was and still is at the point of "i can't take it anymore" and kept telling himself that he's gonna take his life. i've been thru that. wasn't cool. after finding out that he wasn't dead, a day later i think, we were all relieved. we were angry at him for causing us panic, some of us thought about comforting him but i don't think they went thru with that. we figured that he had done this alot of times and he's just not going to learn to take matters into his own hands and fix things. (and fixing things doesn't mean destroying things.) 2 days after he said that he was going to leave/suicide (because he did leave the server but did not kill himself) his friend, now owner said that he will leak the messages he had with someone a couple days after they joined. the images showed that he had a hunger for... lust and was overal a weirdo. when you're in this kind of despairful mindset, lust seems like a temporary ticket out. i must say that seeing someone say naughty and sad things while acting "cute" is really disgusting (for me at least). and it turns out he had these kinds of messages with more than one person. i had this suspicion that some people in that server were degenerate i guess you could say but... seeing it, actually be associated with the drama at hand is scary. the way the reacted to it shocked me a bit too. i didn't like them for who they were and my thought on them changed from "i know how these people react, they're always annoying" (in fact, i was like them at one point, but they're in state that they cannot change, they gone too far in their rabbit hole.) to "these people are... i cannot even put into words what i feel". i'm glad that the messages me and the owner had were just "checkups". i'd ask something along the lines of "how are you doing" or "you doin good?" to which he'd respond something like "yeah, good etc." which i'd follow up with words like sick or cool and then we'd go on our different yet close paths. those messages had character. they showed the type of guy that he is. not a good one. i really don't know what to follow up with. i've been typing this for around 50 minutes now. this took some time to say: i immediately thought to listen to this to recontain my composure and focus on my thoughts. thank q

i see what you mean by "This is a bit different from what I usually make". it's a bit more "dramatic"