The Anorexic Voice

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One of those bad days... I'm mentally struggling with my referral to eating disorder services. I always knew I would but I didn't quite expect this.
The wait time for my referral to go through has given so much power to anorexias voice, when if anything it hadn't had much say for over 4-5 years... Since I entered adult life, it has always been about my bulimia.
The sense of having to justify your place in eating disorder services by reaching a dangerously low weight is flawed but the reality us struggling face.
Ah heck.
Linking my social media accounts where I talk about these things a little more.
My personal instagram - / (scroll down for old mental health content @nicfstr)
My 'recovery' instagram - / givemehotch... (I am selective about who I accept @givemehotchocolate)
Twitter where I regularly talk about my recovery - / _nicfstr (@_nicfstr)
Tiktok - vm.tiktok.com/ZMem8P3HJ/
Sending love your way, have a good day ❤

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12 апр 2021

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@kate123blue 3 года назад

As an adult it’s so difficult to get support, I was diagnosed at 50 with anorexia, having been dismissed by gps I had to get private help, and still do it cost me all my spare income but I can’t risk giving up , it’s a slow process as I can only do weekly sessions still going 5 years later .I hope you do well you deserve it.

@izzyhouseman82 3 года назад

This is really brave to document. I think so many people have been let down by ed services, myself included, and for so many it feels like the most lonely place ever but you sharing this lets people know they are not alone. You are so strong. Keep fighting :)))

@nicfstr 3 года назад

Thank you so much. I’m sorry you have had to go through this as well but like you said, knowing we are not alone is so important. One day we will look back on this period of our lives and be able to say “I did it.”❤️

@charlotte8659 3 года назад

It is very insightful what you said about adult life and anorexia. What did you study at uni? From my experience, big parts of recovery are: 1. Truth. Be true to yourself. Follow your intuition. You know what is really right. Whenever you start saying something and think 'that isn't true' or 'that isn't really me, I'm trying to impress' etc, stop talking. Speak your truth or corrupt your soul (lol dramatic I know) 2. Purpose. Cultivate a sense of purpose in your life. Make your life so purposeful that a relapse would be throwing so much away. 3. Write it out. Write out what would/could happen if you kept relapsing/just deteriorated. Then write out how your life could be if you fully recovered. Write out the life you want to attain and detail how that life isn't achievable while engaging with the anorexic voice. Good luck. You're stronger than you know

@wesleywinchester1890 4 месяца назад

You go girl

@millieharris2123 3 года назад

thankyou for sharing this xxx

@nicfstr 3 года назад

And thank you for your kind comment ❤️ have a good day xx

@JessiV111 6 месяцев назад

I hope you’re doing ok and still making videos I struggle with bad binge eating disorder bulimia and anorexia

@katherinegoddard6672 3 года назад

I am going through the actual the same thing. My local MP is getting involved as well as my GP. I was turned down by Steps. The eating disorder part of the local mental health team have turned me down because of my BMI. We are fighting it. I am not a teenager. I am 50 years old.

@YouTuber-lm9xl 2 года назад

You are so perfect

@darionunez595 8 месяцев назад

Sabes... debes recuperarte,pero no debes aumentar de peso. Te ves hermosa así. Solo que tu mente debe estar centrada en no cometer excesos Y sentirte hermosa y aprobada por ti misma así como estas.

@henrywindsorrurikovich5203 3 года назад

Hi , I would like to suggest protein milk shake by Kellogg s, daily

@hannahboebanna 4 месяца назад

This is thinspo. I wish you wore a slightly higher cut too :(

@ash-fz5qq 4 месяца назад

What an awful thing to say to somebody

@StarryNightxx 2 месяца назад

U chose to watch this to intentionally trigger yourself. That was your own choice. She shouldn't be held accountable for your own irresponsible impulses. If you know content like this isn't okay for you to see then you either choose not to watch it or go on and trigger yourself like u wanted and move on and don't go blaming this poor girl for your problem.

@Christian-wu3mp 11 месяцев назад

This seems like a body checking video tho..

@darionunez595 8 месяцев назад

Dios,pero eres tan linda... yo serca de ti no te dejara escapar para tenerte

@wesleywinchester1890 4 месяца назад

You are not perfect. Eat whatever you want. Don't play the institution policy games. You will help so many more people when you overcome this spiritual warfare demons. Don't feel sorry for yourself. Do you want children in the future. Yes you are an adult. It does not matter what stage of life your in. Do not feel guilty. Be SELFISH for your recovery. Your man does not want you to feel guilty about him. He is there for you as he should be. Stop talking about it and be about it. Pray pray pray God is in charge