I love the idea of letting go of having to handle things and be ok. Grief is overwhelming. Pushing it away is exhausting. People worry about you but you are ok. It is ok to not be ok. I have days I need to zone out in bed. I felt awful about it. Not anymore. Loving yourself through life is so important. Loving all the parts, especially the messy, unhappy ones. ❤
Exactly what I needed to hear today. Absolutely beautiful,. Such a relief and so much peace in not even trying to heal anymore, as I have tried so hard at everything for my whole life, including at healing. ❤️
24:07 San Pedro cactus for me, the most connected and wonderous experience oscillating with the darkest of the dark, over and over for 13 hrs. Soon after, lockdown came which exposed my abandonment wounds from the isolation and a mini crash of a few weeks. When restrictions lifted I overshot the mark with ensuring connection and purpose. Then the ultimate crash and still here I am I looked externally to allopathic route which fried my already sensitive system, creating a trauma beyond “my own” Appreciate this exchange Daniel, I too have a very scared girl that is too painful to invite in I neglected her for so long
The present moment. That’s all there is. That’s all there ever was. I never needed to be anything or anyone. Why I was ever rushing around I don’t know. You’re doing great Sandra.
Sandra, for months I have been looking for someone to sit in the dark with me. I do not want coaching or anything else, I do not want anything but a soul who knows. How do I reach you?
"There's a peace and everything I ever wanted inside the crash if I just open up and experience what life has to show me there. It has a gift for me if I just open up and accept it. " Wow
Love this! Coal is under huge pressure, 100 miles deep in the dark, and diamonds form. Some take a week and others take millions of years. Great analogy. Thank you both. ❤
I really needed to hear this. I can resonate with a lot of what she is saying and it's real, that's what grabs me, that she's authentic. Thank you both so much.
Finished now, SO good. One of the best recovery (well unrecovery) videos I've seen! Those who have gone through the deepest pains seem to have the most wisdom to offer without exception. Really touched me this interview has. Thank you to both of you ❤
It’s Jungian shadow work. Digging in to the darkness inside that you don’t want to see. The funny thing for me is, I was already digging into those things before I got sick. On purpose, because I knew I needed to. Maybe that’s what caused it for me. It’s like opening Pandora’s box. There’s an old Latin phrase in alchemy “In sterquiliniis invenitur”, “In filth it will be found”. It means that the thing you need the most is in the place you least want to look. I guess I need to keep looking. 😂
Sounds like to me that Sandra read through & did parts of the release cfs program and quickly got the bigger picture & take home message (e.g. validation) to give herself what she needs (e.g. radical acceptance of her feelings, behaviour & symptoms/being unhealed as well as accepting the bs of the world we live in (“to me being human is really awful”) - I loved that line 😂❤
