I think this may be my favorite line in any song, ever. 5 simple words that are as meaningful and important to becoming the best version of yourself as any philosophy or self-help book ever written.
Being in a relationship without love, that is only sustained through the fear of leaving... You know if you stay it is a constant struggle to not fall into the madness, to keep your feet flat on the ground, if you fall into the madness you will disappear. You love the monster, but know it is a monster. Cannot leave to save yourself because you love their good side, will only end with you clawing away their throat because you need to kill their bad side. Borderline Personality Disorder...
Mine too but I liked it a little better when I thought he said “There’s no love in vain” but “there’s no live in fear” is a little more universally correct.
@@Henrydingus01123 Its actually taken from John 4:18 in the Bible. It says in the New King James version, “There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.” I don’t believe in a God per se and I’m pretty sure the same goes for Maynard, but there is some good advice sprinkled in with all the mumbo jumbo bullshit. When a child has been molested and hurt over and over and has had to live in fear, like in the song, its hard for them to form the bonds of love. Another example is fearing people that don’t live or look like you and being unable to have empathy and love for those people because of ignorance and fear.
I saw them on the same tour in Chicago and they played this. If I remember correctly, Aloke Dutta only went to a number of shows on the tour and those were the only ones where they played this version of pushit.
This song reminds me of the movie field of dreams. Every time I watch that I am brought to tears. Same with this song and 3rd eye off of this recording. I'm 64 and I can not explain it but it just does.
Thank you, Jamel. For being receptive, open and even a little vulnerable. Tool reaches in deep, if you allow it. The power is inside us, they just help us harness it, channel it, focus it. Some songs elicit anger, fear, dystopia. Others crack open hope, love, energy. Keep exploring, my friend. You’re clearly very intelligent, and broadening your view to include stuff like this will help you grow to be the best Jamel you can be.
On the other hand, ya gotta watch out for the fanboys explaining THEIR interpretation of the lyrics who’ll try to fool ya with how enlightened and knowledgeable they think they are after listening to their music. THINK FOR YOURSELF.
Infinite Sentient What “attack” is that? No one is allowed to give an opinion if it falls outside the general consensus of the sheep? Or, maybe I struck a nerve 🤔
Doc Robert also “choke this infant here before me.” It’s just really dark and actually kinda scary. I always wonder what the heck he was really referring to.
kotavu Yeah, that’s a haunting lyric. I always kinda read that line like... acknowledging that the person he is in an abusive relationship with is damaged too. That we’re all still children inside, and how abusers are usually acting out the abuse they themselves received. Because the next lines are, “What is this but my reflection? / Who am I to judge or strike you down?” It’s like his inability to fight back, because he sees the innocence inside his abuser. But this changes by the end of the song (at least the album version), when he gets to, “Remember I’ll always love you / As I claw your fucking throat away.” Like in the beginning he’s sort of complacent to the abuse he’s receiving, but by the end he’s determined to survive no matter what. But... you know, it’s Tool, thus wildly open to interpretation, and that’s just mine. Love
I've looked at that individual line like this: you're a ticking time bomb. You're going to dangle your instability right in front of my nose and then dare me to move a muscle. As soon as I flinch, you explode.
Seth Dombach I’m sayin man, sometimes you can just tell a good egg, LOL or the bad eggs...lot of bad eggs out there these days but I still have faith in humanity!!
Very true... I say it like Pink Floyd on steroids. All seriousness, they are amazingly creative and brave to do their own thing, knowing most of their songs will never get radio play, true artists!
metal pink floyd - deep lyrical concepts, beautiful instrumental landscapes with long story intro - middle - end... deep and beautiful bands. The best ones...
"If I say I might fade like a sigh if I stay...you minimize my movement anyway...I must persuade you another way"...gets me every time. I have lived that lyric. This song is a snapshot of the last moments of my last relationship. We loved each other but were volatile.
I absolutely prefer that Third Eye to this Pushit. I do enjoy this arrangement, but I've always felt this version was inferior to the original arrangement. Just my unpopular opinion I guess.
@@mattbrown9631 this version misses the awesome bridge before the drop-out for sure, but the pure emotion in his voice on the "there's no love in fear" line on this cut is untouchable. def prefer live 3E to the album one, though.
Tool always has been and always will be my favorite band of all time. I always love seeing people's reactions the first time they hear them. Glad to see you like them.
This song brings me to fkn tears every fkn time....and i love it!!. Saw it live and it was the most emotional experience i have ever had in an environment like that. 18000 wild fans , tears streaming and rocking out at the same time....cannot explain it.....My favorite TOOL song of all time.....the guitar chords are so fkn haunting and emotional it just tosses me into the spiral. Thank you so much for doing this reaction.
shit...what an amazing experience that must’ve been! I’m jealous...this is one of the best performances ever. I prefer this to the studio version. So much emotion. I’ve seen Tool a handful of times and what I would give to hear this song live!
lost my uncle to cancer about a year and a half ago, and I listened to this roughly 7 months after. Was numb to it all for a long time and tried to keep it all bottled in and live with it. I listened to this, letting it take me to that vulnerable place and for the first time since his death really let it all sink in and take hold of me... I don’t think any other piece of music has shaken me that close to my core but I bawled my eyes out. I’m glad I did though, I felt much closer to him after and if I didn’t get it all out I don’t know if I would’ve came out the other side
This is one of the absolute greatest rollercoaster rides of music, ever. My favorite Tool song of all time, specifically this version. I mean, if you listen to this and feel nothing, you must not be human.
Goosebumps every time I hear this, the power yet intricacy and the dark beauty, and played live no less!! Pure genius. They have to be one of, if not the, greatest band in history. Having said that I do feel their most recent stuff has slipped from this incredibly high standard, but nothing lasts forever.
Nooo wayy, your shout out made my month man!!! I saw your uploads today and was like....wait did he read my comment...? You're the best, love how genuine you are and I hope you've enjoyed yourself some Tool. I grew up listening to a ton of R&B and my stepbrother introduced me to these guys when I was in high school. Changed my taste in music which in turn changed my life. Not to mention it gave me a huge appreciation in lyric writing, since Maynard is a lyrical genius. Cheers man, hope you had a good new year.
This song gets me everytime. I lived through this growing up and it really hits home for me. Thank you for your reaction, I really enjoy watching your channel.
If you do some more Tool, I highly recommend Parabol/Parabola. It's pretty important to listen to both consecutively and it should be easy to find a video of them together.
This song is written in such a way that it can be taken by many perspectives in many different ways. If you actually look up this song's lyrics meaning, everyone has something different to say. Maynard is a genius!
@@nickpieroni8390 Same. I always saw it as emotional abuse between lovers where there is a push and pull. Come closer, go away type of relationship. It's so f'ing painful to be in this type of relationship and violence can be the result.
@@jamiechmiel8003 I felt the same until today. Now I’m seeing it as a battle between two versions of ones self, addiction of some kind possibly, good and bad side? Who knows. It’s good shit for sure.
kotavu haha, your welcome. It is a disturbing line. I thought these lyrics are about a relationship. Not child abuse, which is what I think this reactor is assuming this song is about. But it's art, and everybody has their own interpretation. Dave Grohl has a great line were he says, "you can sing a song to 200,000 people and 200,000 people will give you their own interpretation of a song". I'm not really sure what Maynard's true meaning is behind that line. But it seems to fit with the rest of the lyrics.
This is, to me, one of the most beautiful, amazing pieces of music ever recorded. Sonically perfect, lyrically ... still makes me cry. Much respect for your openness and honesty. Every voice helps.
You gotta see the light show they put on for their shows. Makes the music even more intense and spiritual... Shrooms helps with the spiritualness if you don't become naturally spiritual
This is my all time favorite song so I'm really glad to see the review on it. Powerful and intense, though I have always associated it closer with bad relationships than with childhood abuse, its all very much the same cycle. Probably not worth its own review, but you may want to check out the album version as well. It flows very differently than this, he was serious when he said it was viewing it from a new angle, and hits in a different way. One of the things I love in this song is the way subtle pronunciation changes so much. The lyrics may be 'pushit on me' but a subtle inflection change as he's repeating it makes it 'push it on me' or 'push shit on me'. Same with the idea of 'still love me' gets changed to feel closer to 'steal off me' at points. Also from some of your discussions I think you might really dig 'Prison Sex' by them. It uses a very crude metaphor, but its all about that idea of how the golden rule is rather different for those who have been abused. Do onto others has a different connotation if its just perpetuating the cycle of abuse.
That's how I always looked at it too, a toxic relationship. But that's the good thing about Maynard lyrics, he always said he wants the listener to interpret the lyrics the way the relate to them, thats why a lot of their songs are not very specific. Maynard will always have a specific thing he is writing about or a certain emotion but it up to us to put our own experiences to those lyrics. You can interpret the song being about a toxic relationship or child abuse and it makes sense either way. It up to the listener.
I agree with your assessment, but I've often felt that it covers the back and forth inside your own self after said relationship. The aftereffects you deal with trying to process the toxicity experienced. The realization that things can get dark inside your head but not letting it push you back into the gap. Feeling those hands, and fighting to survive. That's how it helped me anyway. I was happy to see so many feel the depth of the song that I do as well.
You should do something off their first album like "Jerk Off" or "Part of Me" to see how much Maynard's mellowed (and grown) by this point in their discography
I was lucky enough to be in attendance to one of the shows where they performed this live. Tool's acoustics and ambiance are just impecable. They sound better live
Thanks Jamel for sharing your own experiences, that really brought a new perspective to this song for me, one that’s inspiring and one that makes total sense. Great reaction and great work.
Absolutely agree. I’m a huge Tool fan since ‘96(tho I listened to them since ‘93)when I first bought Aenima album. Floyd is definitely my top 3 all time bands and I liken Tool to them as well. The complexity and deep meanings in both their music. Tool(to me anyway) is my generations Pink Floyd
I'm a big fan of these react videos, I'm always trying to get my friends into the bands I like. Usually to no success. Something about watching someone discover a band you've known about a while brings back the feeling of discovering them yourself. I can tell the genuine interest and fascination you have in Tool and Primus (My 2 favorite bands). So watching you're reactions feels a bit like watching all these songs I've loved for years for the first time again. So thanks for making these videos, hope you keep making them!
LOVE THESE REVIEWS. seeing someone that can appreciate this art and make it make sense into their own life is like rediscovering it again for the first time. Thank you for making that possible for us.
@@Itsunclegabby anonymity is a pretty important principle in the program. Their are 2 schools of thought when it comes to relaying stories about addiction (and the trauma that is often responsible for it) 1) relay all stories as though they are your own or 2) relay all stories as if they happened to someone else....did maynard use or not? Well that's his business....definitely noneya
8:39 The way you interpreted that was really cool. It's not exactly how I interpret it but that's the beauty of most of Tool's songs... They allow you to think and choose how you feel letting the interpretation come to you
This version of this song is undoubtedly one of the five most emotionally wrenching songs I've ever heard. The lyrics, his vocals, the arrangement, it's unbelievable. The line at the end, "remember I'll always love you as I claw your fucking throat away", screamed from the gut of a clearly haunted and broken man. Yeesh.
@@musicfeedsthesoultg5318 Disposition is actually one of my absolute favorites, says so much while saying so very little. I think it's like 11 words in total, but it speaks volumes to me. The things we don't say. Wishing another person would mention 'this', something, anything at all - we sit and watch the 'weather change' due to what is or isn't said.
I’ve listened to this song since 96. In 2019, it finally made sense. It perfectly describes my divorce. Bad beat. But at least I finally understood what they were saying to me. That’s what Tool is for. What you need them to be to get and be better. Thanks for the reaction.
Hey dude. Sorry about your 49ers. I love that you are willing to take the time to get this. I'm 63 have been a tool fan since they 1st started and this is absolutely one of my most favorite songs other than Tempest and eulogy and every other song they've made. If you get my drift
This is one of my favorite songs of all time, especially when you compare it with the studio version. They go together so well, the contrast in delivery of the lines and the music really change the meaning.
My favorite tool song ever... best thing about this song is you can apply it to so much. It’s almost open ended because everyone has been at a point of feeling trapped or cornered.
One of the best tool songs 💚. Bro once you're hooked on 1 tool song you're a tool fan for life. One day you will find yourself listening to a full tool album, by yourself, and it is going to take you to a whole different level and understanding and appreciation of this band. For me this song is about the toxic element in relationships of the push pull dynamic that plays out especially during fights or break ups. I guess the dynamic can be applied to a variety of situations.
Yea he should definitely do their cover of no quarter. He needs to do no quarter from the song remains the same also, but it’s gotta be the original version from the album. In the movie version that they use on all the remastered versions they cut out John Paul Jones solo. It’s criminal dude. It’s stops like half way and goes straight to the guitar solo. It ruins it for me
So good. I've always thought if I could just get someone alone and played this song for them, they wouldn't be able to fight it. I do it every chance I get and I'm never wrong.
Thanks for the great work man. I first saw TOOL 1998 Red Rocks Colorado, properly medicated. An unforgettable experience but above it all rose Pushit. I remember every moment, being sucked into a trance of musical greatness and coming out the other side transformed. I really appreciate your channel.
This is a good version for sure and great reaction as always. There is another version of this song (studio version) which is different in several ways. Both great songs! Love to see you react to the studio version as well!
Welcome to, what I've said for more than 20 years, the greatest tool song so far. Goosebumps everytime. I've never been to a tool show that wasn't emotional, vulnerable yet comfortable and is some of the best food for the soul I've ever had. Less than two weeks till I get to see em again. Someone posted about songs involving Maynards mother....wings for Marie part 2 (tool) and Judith (a perfect circle) are fantastic. Thanks so much to Jamel for cranking these out, super pumped to see you found my boy Mike P! Faith no more, Mr Bungle, fantomas, tomahawk, peeping tom, mondo cane, lovage, general patton....can't name em all or it will take all night. Peace and jams to all
This song changed my life back when it came out that winter of senior year... That reaction was awesome but that bit at the end you shared with us was truth and I understand that truth all too well. Thank you for that and thank you for doing this song version of this song.
There is no damn way that I could have handled hearing this version as my first exposure to PUSHIT. Especially while still in the early(ish) stages of the journey. Respect sir, respect. 🌀♾️🌀
Going to see tool live on January 22nd! This will be my 11th time seeing Tool live and I’m still super pumped and psyched to go just as much as the first time seeing them live back in 2001!
Damn. I grew up being abused before I had a chance to defend myself. The insight you made about how one sees abuse as a way to acknowledged, was amazing. That's really how it feels.
In order to appreciate it though maybe he should react to both versions. The one from Justin's original group Peach and then react to the version Tool did after Justin Joined the band.
Loved your interpretation man. To me Tool is metaphorical enough that people can place their own meaning into the lyrics, but grounded enough that that meaning can relate to specific real life experiences, so thank you for sharing how the song connected with you.
Thank you for what you do. Your openness and intelligence are really rare. You talking about your experiences is very courageous and important. You are a true positive force and a delight to watch. Thank you.
Does help if you've heard the original "heavy" version of this to understand how they worked with it over the years, it's an introspective look, think Johnny Cash doing Hurt by NIN versus the original, except it's the original artist.
I want to get Jamel turned on to some of the other "newer" but not new metal bands but I'm so biased, I'm having a tough time picking tracks, I think he needs to listen to Isis, Mastodon and my current fave Baroness. From Isis I'd go to Panopticon "in Fiction" I refer to this as Ambient Metal. It's so relaxing and awesome, and if I'm feeling anxious or have insomnia I play the whole Panopticon record at low volumes and it just makes me feel good, it's almost like medicinal music. Mastodon, kinda the opposite but I'd go for maybe Hearts Alive off Leviathan as an intro for a new listener, but maybe Oblivion off Crack the Skye? Baroness, I'm hopeless, I've had the Yellow and Green cd's in my stereo for the last four years, I think that's all perfect music maybe Collapse?
Please please PLEASE react to A Perfect Circle-Orestes. One of Maynard’s most powerful songs about his mother. I have listened to it a million times and cried a million tears. I lost my mother nearly 3 years ago and I can barely get through this song, but I assure you it will NOT disappoint.
@@jarrodderr I was just about to recommend Wings for Marie 1-2 also. The only song to ever cause me to cry. Jimmy is another amazing song that's about his mother's death and what it did to him
Sorry you had to go through that man. You're a good guy. This song always makes me cry. But for me (just personally how I feel the song) it ties more to emotional/psychological abuse rather than physical. My mom is an angel, but my dad is bipolar (so bad that he's been disabled and at times in and out of mental hospitals since the 80s; he's had 4 or 5 suicide attempts.) Imagine a jacked 200ib 6' 2" bipolar man who may or may not be reacting well to his meds waiting at home every day. I've seen him become so angry his entire face and neck turned red and he reached for the knife drawer in the kitchen while spitting out with clenched teeth not to say another word. He can be very selfish, and because of that kindness from him can't be trusted as it's usually to get something out of you. Growing up was a roller coaster ride that I wouldn't wish on anyone. Anyway that's all I feel like saying about that. Thanks for the reaction and glad you enjoyed the song.
