Transgender HRT and Where it went wrong 

It sure has been a wild time so far. But things are leveling off and back on track. I appreciate you taking the time to watch.

Definitely planning more in the future that go a bit more in depth on different topics. Also, (hopefully) a bit higher production value. 😆 I didn't even think to do one on photography as I still consider myself a complete photography noob, but now you've got me intrigued.

Thank you! I have since well passed 100. the algorithm seems to have been happy with my last video and started promoting me more. I hope you didn't run into any of the same issues I did with your medication. Best of luck to you!

I'm glad you enjoyed it. 🙂

So sorry you got cheated out of the transaction timing, that should be a actionable action against that phar. Company!!! Although I didn’t have what happened to you I did have some ups and downs with getting my levels were they should be. It was a roller coaster ride for a while. I took me maybe 2 or more years before they started to stay stable…. Finally! So hang in there, this whole transitioning thing is a roller coaster ride. I’ve been full time now for almost 10 yrs and still there are some ups and downs but the ups are totally worth it girl. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been so keep working toward your goals and you WILL get there❣️

I'm just want to make sure that others are aware that issues like this can happen and people need to be aware of exactly what it is they are putting in their bodies. Things are definitely back on track, now. Thank you for the concern.

Congratulations on going full time in your personal life!

So, part time?

Omg I'm so sorry to hear you are having these complications. My heart goes out to you. From my limited understanding, the introduction of Estradiol in the system can help reduce the size of the prostate, MAYBE reducing some of the potential problems for you. But then again, I'm no doctor. I really hope the orchiectomy goes well and helps reduce the cancerous cell production. From an outside perspective it seems like the process of transition could be a major help in reducing the underlying risk of the cancerous prostate. Like you were almost meant to be a girl all along! ;)

@@mackenzie4976 Hi firstly Happy New Year ! Thank you for your kind words i do appreciate it , sorry i have not replied earlier but a lot has happened since we last spoke. As i said i was getting fed up of all the waiting and my patience was running out . So i phoned up my specialist as to up date him on my health and told him that i have been on the blockers for nearly three months now and i broached the subject of Estrogen again to my surprise he agreed and posted out a prescription Christmas week but due to the New Year back log was not available until yesterday to pick up. He has started me off on Estrodiol 1.0g. gel sachets [4 months] and a blood test end of Feb and an appointment to see him mid March [this will be our first meeting ] . This is now day two ....my long awaited journey begins ....and yet as strange as it sounds i feel happy and nervous with a certain amount of anxiety as to how society will see the future me .

I will say that I didn't really take notice of the emotional changes until they hit their peak between 10 to 12 months. But that can vary wildly depending on the person. 1)I might be slightly older than you think ;) 2) I consider myself genderflux/genderqueer and I totally appreciate androgynous style (check out my instagram). 3) I have been considering finasteride, but my Endocrinologist is having trouble ordering the proper dosage through the VA pharmacy. 4) Hopefully this has helped prevent any issues in your journey like I had, 5) I really hope you can to appreciate the benefits that come from your hormone journey, and your other issues aren't too bad.

Thanks for the response and insight about the emotional changes 10-12 months. I wonder whether the injections may be more impactful than the pills., which were changed up on the latest refill to the larger white round tablet, compared the previous purple smaller oval. One thing I didn’t mention was that I have a frequent urination need, especially in the middle of the night, which is why I didn’t want spiro. So Finesteride appeared to be the proverbial kill 2 birds with one stone regarding the prostate issue. However I’m planning to revisit that med with the urologist. I’m 64 btw.

I'm glad the effects of the Spiro lined up with your goals. I hope your journey has been smooth. We'll have to compare our timelines and changes.

@@mackenzie4976 Over all it is going smoothly. I have had a close call with my HRT prescriptions do to the lab at my GP clinic not getting the order in the first place and then when they did they sent the wrong test results. I have access to the labs on the clinics patent portal so I was able to get the e-mail address to send it to and got that taken care of. I was already living in the roll when I started HRT and had been for about 2 years. I have had long hair sense I was in my early 20's and have no photos to speak of during the time I started living in the roll until now so no timeline to compare other than what I used for a video. You can not really go on the child hood photos as I was not in the know at that time and at 31 was only dressing part time. However if you feel like it you are free if you have not already to check out the one video I have on my channel.

Stay tuned for the inevitable “detransition” video 😂 lol these ppl

Yes, definitely check any new prescriptions you receive to make sure it is correct before using it. You never know when it might change. And it can save you a lot of heartache in the future. Also, make sure to stay in close contact with your doctor and voice ANY concerns you might have. Like if something just feels 'off'.

I think the level of self satisfaction knowing I'm in the process of becoming the person I want to be helps with depression to a certain extent. The hormones can cause mood swings, but overall have not singularly made a noticeable influence on depression.

I have not had any type of surgery yet. Although, I have a few planned for the future as they become financially viable for me. I would say go ahead and start HRT even if your timeframe for surgery is a while out. The changes from HRT take a long time. The timeframe for when you are eligible for surgery really depends on where you live, your personal health needs, and your doctor. I've heard of some people getting surgery in less than 2 years, but I've also heard some people weren't able to get permission from doctors until after a minimum of 2 years on HRT. Check with your doctor and get their opinion. They'll be much more informed than I am.

@@mackenzie4976 thank you for reply back. You gave me good information on that . Thanks again . Love you

I never realized how much the underlying pattern resembles the Wonder Woman logo, but now I can't unsee it. haha I got it several years ago at Walmart of all places. Not sure if they'll still have it.

Hi Erica! I am lucky enough to have a support network in the Department of Veteran Affairs Healthcare System courtesy of my service. For most people who don't have that, I would say first research therapists in your area that specialize in LGBTQIA+ care. It would be a great starting point. They probably have good recommendations for further medical treatment in your area. Otherwise, I would contact Planned Parenthood. Hope this helps. Good luck and all the best!

I can't say for sure, but after that much time some of the changes can be permanent, yes.

So I've come to notice. I'm trying to stay positive. It's becoming more widely accepted everyday. I'm holding out hope there is someone(or possibly someones) for me out there.

I can understand the confusion. My identity falls under a couple of different titles. Transfem, Genderqueer, Genderfluid/Flux, feminine-leaning nonbinary. Or, to be make it easy for most people, I just tell them I'm Queer. I administer Estradiol injections weekly as part of my transition under care of a medical professional. I prefer a lot of feminine styles in terms of clothing, but I also love mixing some of my old masculine pieces to create a more androgynous look. I know I don't have the most feminine appearance, and that's ok with me. I have found a comfortable middle ground of androgyny. I hope this clears things up a bit. Thank you for watching and commenting.

I like to think I live a decently grounded life in reality. I do like to indulge in entertainment media in my free time just like a lot a people. I don't think it's necessarily an immaturity thing. I just appreciate the artistic efforts that go into shows like Arcane. Whether that be well crafted stories from creatively unique minds, gorgeous and stimulating visuals, or emotion invoking soundscapes that bring it all together. I don't watch an overabundance of these things. This just happened to be a good example of something I enjoyed. I hope you have something you enjoy equally as much if not more so. :)

Watching Anime doesn't make you immature. People like to watch them because it's like cartoons for adults and they're very entertaining. Video games are fun. Everyone is online. You can't equate these to immaturity. More likely it's the fact that we know people hate us and we don't want to be hurt or bothered. If you could elaborate on what you mean as immature. Personally I know I do not act as serious as a 27 year old would act usually, but why would I? Why would I want to be a part of the status quo? A trans person is like the definition of "being yourself no matter what anyone thinks" so asking them to act "normal" is kinda pointless. "Normal" is subjective. "Normal" is the guidelines society has put on you so that you blend in. We already don't blend in so we really don't care. I wouldn't equate it to immaturity. I have the ability to be extremely professional and mature, but why do I want to be "normal" it's boring, mundane, and repetitive

Why are you using this site to attack trans women? You would be emotionally messed up if you were going through life pretending to be a man when you're really a woman just so your transgenic appearance doesn't frighten people that know you.

Thank you for the kind words. One day I'd like to get some work done, but I'm learning to accept myself for the time being.

I was reborn back in 1980. Being on HRT for 40 years I think it has taken it told on me. For me after all of these years its extremely difficult to love myself these days. I don't know what happen to me. I have complete withdrawn from people, complete isolation. I don't have the drive to take care of myself. I hardly look at myself in the mirror anymore. I hope you don't fall into that state. Stay happy hon and life your life to the max. Don't ever take the depression route. My life is in quicksand and I know I will never change.@@mackenzie4976

Amen. No uploads in 10 months, has an onlyfans, views gone down 80%, yet ANOTHER trans youtuber fail.

What a strange comment. Do you not take medication if something's not right with your body?

@@Oxyleya They make medication for mental disorders too. You haven't been taking yours. Nobody has said anything about medication in the post you responded to by the way.

@@joeme Sick roast, your mom would be so proud

@@joeme Also, just in case you're actually too dense to get the context: The video is about someone talking about her medication and the comment I'm responding to is criticizing that as "against god". Try using your own neurons on occasion, it gets easier with time 👍