When You Don't Know Who You Are Anymore...[WATCH THIS!] 

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"The loss of identity is temporary. It means your soul, mind, and body are preparing you for a more expanded version of yourself."

Losing your old and traumatised self is the only way to align to your true and authentic self.

Omg this is what's happening to me. Yesterday I looked up at the sky and just repeated over and over "just kill me or help me, I don't care which one" I feel alone, I feel crazy, I feel like I don't deserve to be happy, and I definitely feel like hurting myself. I'm so glad I know why. Thank you 🙏🙏🙏

I’m in year 2 of my hermit phase and I can say from that this is a pivotal time in my life. It’s difficult not knowing what is next, but it’s freeing to open myself to the possibilities.

The solar plexus empties??? 😮 I 100% confirm these 6 symptoms. Lately, I was feeling sad about not feeling confident and cool in my old style of clothes anymore. Looking forward to finding a new one after 4 years of being a hermit 😅 grateful for this content 🙏🏽

7:44 1️⃣Insecurity 2️⃣Fear 3️⃣Feeling insane 4️⃣Confronting death 5️⃣Easily influenced 6️⃣Nostalgia 13:13 2 powerful trips 1️⃣No resistance 2️⃣To hermit then act 14:26

I’ve been in hermit mode for a couple of years and it’s done tough, painful work. Still in it. Still rebuilding. It’s a journey!

Whoa! "Observe" Whoa! "Hermit" .... This has been a 3 year process... Ive observed it happening exactly as you have described. Fortunately, my patience and faith in future existence endured... as i also turned 60 (surprise!) January 25th, (how'd i ever get this age!!!???) Even tho i experienced sooooo sooooo many losses, material (home, posessions, income) relationship w my 3 young adult children testing autonomy..(a mothers pain, even tho it means you did well raising them!) inauthentic friendships, (funny how they disappear when you are in need instead of being a resource for theirs) emotional and even my memory suffered. For 6 months i honestly felt like my life-force was waning! Hermitting in one form or another for over a year now, i see the faint hues of rose and amber diluting the periwinkle sky of the dawn of my mystery future days! Oh where will i go? COSTA RICA? Puravida! Namaste! Much Gratitude Christina! Bliss and Blessings, 'til we meet, or meld, someday! Susie

It is so comforting/validating that others who have gone through a spiritual awakening had similar symptoms. Not being surrounded by other spiritually inclined people makes me feel very lonely and honestly crazy at times. There have been many times within the past year that I did not recognize myself in the mirror. My therapist diagnosed me with existential OCD, Derealization & Depersonalization (dissociative disorder).

Hey everyone, I just wanna share how I’m feeling and just feel heard . My hole life I was so insecure, I felt ugly and I’ve never felt good enough. I was always afraid to shine and show myself to the world. I felt like this because in my house there was a violent energy at my house. My parents used to beat my big brother, and I was always really quiet. I was scared of them kindof. Last year I moved from my house to the other part of the world (I’m from Argentina) and there were no boundaries, I felt like I was able to be whoever I wanted to be. I think I’ve never felt so happy and free in my life. 6 months ago I came back to my house in Argentina due to a difficult situation, and for some reason I feel like a mixture of those two personalities. And for some reason I can’t let go off the past. It’s been a really hard time here, leaving with my mum again and I just don’t know what to do. I just wanna feel happy again. :( . Thanks for listening

Sometimes I feel you can see me... like we have an invisible connection. Every time I have a major question, you post something that gives me the clarity I neex! You are a blessing on this earth, Christina❤

Been in this phase for 4 going on 5 years 😅 it’s not pleasant. Thoughts about “just go back to your old ways- it was easier” periodically run through my mind. But, I quickly get disgusted and shut it down. Not sure where I’m supposed to go from here. I’m just being. And trying to stay patient with the process. ❤

Has anyone else been super hungry with the change in their energy?

I feel like a new person after i hit my mid 50's. I saw the change at the same time my mother passed. I was devastated . Now i feel refreshed

Yes during my first dark night of the soul I was sooo anxious but now I actually enjoy when it happens because I’m so excited to see what’s gonna happen next

You are describing the last 3 years of my life. But recently, maybe a couple of months ago, I started feeling at peace with the ideia of not knowing who I am. I am being more acceptant of parts of myself I always felt should not come to surface (speacialy the ones that said no, established limits). I was raised to be quiet and accept all injustices around me. Now I am being more vocal, more honest with myself and everyone.

Im on that stage Now ,i don't know myself at all ,i have changed so much in a short time.. ,,being a scapegoat of the family. ,,it thrown me to spiritual Awkenning But i didn't know it's not honey & sugar,, ,I've been a truth teller & worrier A scapegoat & a surviver. ,,& dealing with so much toxicity ,,& still on my Intigrity & Authenticity ,but abit lost with so much i have changed,, ,I've been isolating,,it's not me at all .im a Saggitarius out doors expanding exploring,, ,,but in a different way now . ,,I'm shocked with myself, ,from Australia Love & light ❤❤❤

This began happening when I was 6. I’m 38 now and never knew why this happens/would happen to me. It held me back my entire life. I’ve lived in fear afraid to look at myself because I didn’t know what was happening. When I was younger it terrified me. Literally thought I would float away. Everyone brushed me off so I struggled, internally trying to dodge this for nearly 30 years. I’ve recently began adjusting, but this information would have change the world around me in a positive way 😢

I have evolved from my hermit life that lasted over two years. I have started to fully enjoy my new life and it is so wonderful. You have been of great use to me in my understanding of my life and spiritual awakening. GOD is my guide and you are my comfort. Thank You! Larry

hermit phase was making me go crazy with everything seeming so meaningless and neutral for a year now - this video was a good reminder and to go with the process.

I lost my sense of self after a car accident, I never looked at life the same way again, then I exoerienced an ego death in 2012, and after that I still am very much confused and detached from thus world, but I keep meditating and surrendering to Source and it's getting better. Thank you 💜🦋☀️✨

I am in this phase. I feel like I don't know anything anymore. I feel very lost. I'm a teacher and wanted to be a teacher since I was a kid. Lately, I feel very unmotivated and I feel like I'm meant to do something else but I don't know what. I reunited with my high school sweet heart. He swept me off my feel, we married, blended our family...and then I got to meet his abusive side. I didn't even realize I was in an emotionally abusive relationship until I was out. I just felt so depleted. All of me. My soul, mind, body, spirit...was all so extremely depleted and exhausted. Instead of getting angry, I cried out all the stress and anxiety and sadness. I cried almost daily for about a year. It was a release and it helped me feel more regulated. I leaned on God more than ever before too. It has all changed me. In my opinion, for the better. I'm a better mom to my daughter. More loving and more patient. But I find more peace spending time with my daughter and my parents...and that's about it. I find myself wanting to hibernate a lot and just be in my own peaceful space. This hibernating or hermitting phase has been my most favorite part. It's not always easy so I treasure it. I feel like I don't recognize myself in the mirror these days too...

This sounds like “dark night of the soul” stuff. Your descriptions and suggestions are truly appreciated♥️

Wow totally sounds like what i went through due to severe suffering from coming off of a benzo ,which damaged my brain and nervous system. I lost all ego and sense of self. I also had to close myself into my room in order to survive the severe suffering because the slightest sounds/sights made the symptoms million times worse for me. I'm almost out of it 8 years later but still not fully back to normal yet. I had a very protracted long horrific withdrawal from them and couldn't even read/talk/watch tv or anything for many years. I am def a totally different person now

It's me again Saggitarius Sydney Australia. & going true my spiritual Awkenning. Was shocking to me how much i have change. ,,i went from a very confident person. To a not confident person At all , ,,with a change in short time,, , my face features Changed,, I saw it & looks like it's to stay. ,,people noticed it,,& instead of saying you have changed .they ask me if i lost weight,, ,,i haven't lost any weight,, ,,out the sudden i age,, ,,it made me fell Sad,, ,,one of you videos that i have listened,, Made me understand this changed, But it not pleasant But working on it & accepting wathever it's coming along ,,it's death of the Ego.. Very emotional ,,i was isolating Abit embarrassed of this change,, , love & light ❤❤❤

I think and observed that spirituality is like a luxary without time, space , money first. normally we are changing us constantly, life is panta rhei . Aging and dying will give us the most challenging times with mirror or mediation or without. .then we will understand fully what we are or wanting or going forward.

You know what's the scary thing?! Every time one of Christina's videos appears on my RU-vid, it seems to be exactly what I'm going through. It scares the sh@t out of me!

I'm in hermit mode, but I'm still working on myself, and I'm enjoying it. I Love this Journey. Thank you Christina! 🙏 ❤✨️🫂🫂

I feel like this at 26 years old. I’ve been having to take a lot of comfort for myself, feeling like idk where I’m going next because I desire different than what my parents, family and friends have or want for me. I tried the regular way after college and it didn’t work. I am just so optimistic to keep posting my content on here n sharing my story. This gave me hope I will flourish out of my situation and be freed physically, emotionally and spiritually

Thank you this is exactly what I needed I am going through everything you mentioned and it’s been really challenging all I can do to keep me going is to keep my faith and trusting in God. Thank you Christina sending you so much love 💕 😘

THANKS 💖 Now I have a clue to what my solar plexus is showing me! For some time now I have worked on my energy senters and I have to admit that I have been sad and confused when my sola plexus has been empty and silent.... I haven't found any clues...... Until I heard your video last night. Now I can meet my "empty" solar plexus with excitement and look forward to what my soul wishes to fill it up with 💖💖💖

Nelson Mandela transformation is beautiful. Loss of self, ego, and solar plexus. I wish I could go back to younger self sometimes. I thought the symbolic ego death was my spirit warning I would die soon. Hermit-ting a lot. Educator. Out for summer. I have been avoiding people, reduced church gatherings, sick off and on, and staying home and to myself. Eating less. I would like to know when I will start to act and come out of hermit mode. I am not sure I know who I am yet. I still have similar aspects of past, but want new self to come forth. It is weird. I feel like I am watching another person go through this life or process. I am observing or acknowledging without judgement. I just observe and let go. I am not feeling much. I see and move forward. I just thought I was going through menopause symptoms alone. I am tired or extreme fatigue and brain fog a lot. Weird though I have no hot flashes or night sweats. I just hope I am coming out of this process soon. Almost 2 years of sickness and keeping to myself.

I’m not normally spiritual but recently I’ve fallen into a deep depression where I’m questioning everything. The point of existence, what I value now e.g drinking with my friends, I don’t have the energy for that at the moment. It’s almost like what I used to value, doesn’t fulfil me anymore. My friend said they were growing pains but they’re hard to differentiate from general mental health issues as I have been battling depression. Had a lot of dark thoughts about not wanting to be here anymore so very scary. Basically a very confusing time. 😢

Don't know if I am losing my identity but I definitely felt die-offs of my ego many times - those terrible moments with ego causing you immense suffering and after which you feel relieved and fresh but sth has died inside. And I used to control a lot and now I am releasing the grip and surrendering. So I can't say what stage it is.

When I was in law school, I couldn’t afford to color my hair, and it went gray for three years. I remember looking at myself in the mirror and not recognizing myself. I decided that I am not a gray haired person (was only 39-41 at the time). Now I am blonde so that it blends better with the gray and doesn’t give me that jarring sense. But now that I’m 50 and having peri/menopause symptoms, I notice changes in my skin, etc. I am in the process of accepting that my identity is changing.

It’s like I’m feeling the synchronicities the past few days. Hope they keep coming and I don’t forget about them. I feel like before I would realize then totally forget, which happened a few times to me now. So hopefully I can continue to understand and be open

I literally NEVER comment on videos, but for THIS video I HAD TO because this video is perfect for me and popped up on my RU-vid feed at literally the perfect time

Awesome breakdown of the spiritual journey through identity loss! Your insights really shed light on navigating those deep transitions. 😁

Observe without judgement

I have been experiencing all of these symptoms since the total eclipse on 8th of April. Thank you so much for making this video. Much information clearly resonated with me. 🙏❤️

I'm reading a book about controlling the ego, and finding/following your truth right now, and at the exact moment this comes up? Confused as always with the timing, but greatful for the synchronicities that come to confirm the right path is around the corner. 😊 Thanks Christina

Yes hermit mode is needed to relearn a new self!!

I just found your channel after my meditation. I am so grateful and happy to have found your channel! It’s amazing and informative. My spiritual awakening began in January 2023 and wow, what a journey it’s been!I’m happy to have buried my ego, but even happier to be seeing this video. Thank you so much for sharing and educating us. Continued success to you.🙏🏾💐✨

Thanks for this video, specially point number 5. Finally I got the clarity because I have been saying NO and obviously the rage was obvious from such people. 👏🙏🏼

I love your videos, super helpful!

This video was incredibly helpful!

I think I say this every time but whenever I am having trouble with something you post a video about it ❤

Thank you!😃 This video has helped me so much!!

Thank you for all you do! I watched your channel grow and yourself grow as well. It's pretty inspiring❣🙌 I am looking forward for a new book from you.

Thank you so much! I love your channel!!❤❤❤❤❤

Thank you. This arrived at the right time.

Thank for this information ❤

Love this video..... I needed this 8 years ago 😅 If I may just share.......IMO people watching this who can relate, especially those who are in the thick of it, may be feeling very fragile, alone and vulnerable. Could we not use such morbid terms like ego death, the old self dying etc etc..... I'm just concerned if it may exacerbate the pain they may already be dealing with.... From personal experience, I think a healthier way of describing the journey would be to call it an evolution, a transformation, a recalibration, a reinvention of the self, softening of the ego, dissolution of the identity....... And also lets emphasize the crucial aspects such as grace, gratitude, acceptance, compassion, not just for the self, but also for others who do not understand and simply cannot provide the support one needs on this journey..... And lastly, the only way out is through, and the only way through is surrender and acceptance to allow this process to completely take over and run its course to the ideal outcome, through divine grace, in a natural, organic way. Don't rush it, because you can't. When you get there, you get there.

Thank you for your content! It’s so helpful ❤

Very much thank you for this christin 💚

Definitely gone through this… maybe over years but most in the past year. So much of the old earth templates feel wrong. I’m excited as my soul purpose and expansion have started to come through! ❤

These always come at the right time! Thankyou christina+

I am sooooo happy to be newly renewed and filling my solar plexus back up. I cant lie i definitely had my face to face interactions with death. This is such beautiful confirmations. I was a hermit for almost a year. It was wild. Thank you for posting this.

Really useful video, thank you

Lovely Christina, words can't express my gratitude & appreciation to you for this video 💖💖💖 All resonates with me specially the last stages for the past 2 months, I was like stucking in a cocoon, dark, void, death. Not easy, this spiritual awakening journey ✨✨✨ thank you sooooooooo much again 💎💎💎✨✨✨💜💜💜

This is so timely for me. Thank you. 🙏🏻

thank you thank you thank you🙏 Of course exactly what I needed to hear

This is exactly what I am going through!!! It does make me feel like I’m losing my mind!! I don’t know what I want I don’t know who I am anymore facing dark shadow is heavy & more!! Thank you so much for sharing❤❤❤❤

Fun! Multiple times lines!! Thank you Christina! You're so very clear with your messages!! I love spending my time with you!!

Wow! This message is coming to me at the most appropriate time. Thank you, Christina! ❤

That makes soooo much sense about the solar plexus chakra!! Mine was feeling extremely weird and it's never done that before. Thank you for helping me to solve the riddle ❤ I knew these things were coming but I didn't know this is what went with it. Very interesting but cool

Omg always on time . Gorever thankful to Christina, guiding me through my spiritual awakening ❤

Very true Christina ❤

Going through this now, am grateful, you always meet me where I am. Thank you for this teaching. I feel relieved the moment I watch.

thank you so much for this video it's exactly what I needed , i was so confused and couldn't understand what was happening to me

Thank you, Christina!

Thank you Christine. I appreciate you

Thank you Christina. Sending you so much love and gratitude ❤❤❤🥰🥰🥰

Thank you, Christina, as always. Going through it, too. People I know say that I'm totally different from what I was even 8 months ago ... calmer, more grounded, more powerful! And during my reiki sessions I feel a LOT of activity in my solar plexus area.

Your videos got me through a Kundalini awakening, and this video is just as timely. Thank you.

im so thankful for you for posting this . totally relatable conntent

Wow Christina!! Thank you for bringing clarity and comfort and thank you for being a trail blazer for us!

Love you Christina!! Thanks for this, I needed it. It will be helpful to send it to my partner... Also love the format changes to your videos.

Omg you explain so well❤

This makes so much sense. Thank you for the insight!❤

Thank you so much for this Christina. 💯💯💯 ❤❤❤

Love the amount of awareness. Thank you ❤️🙏🏼🤲🏽

I really appreciate and value how clear and genuine your guidance is. Blessings beautiful soul ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

I am so grateful for these videos, I couldn’t understand what was going on with me, but I am excited for these changes that are happening in me ❤

This gave me lots of clarity thank you

I had to pause this at 16:29. Thank you! This video found me right then I was losing hope. ❤

Perfectly timed video for me. Thank you Christina

Thank you for this video 💖 super helpful information, as I’ve been feeling these symptoms intensely lately. Helps calms those “fear” thoughts 😮‍💨

Wow thank you for the clarification! I am experiencing all the symptoms ❤

Thank you for your help I love watching you

this so explains my body's process in my spiritual awakening, thank you so much xx

Oh my god it exactly what is happening to me😮 I felt crazy because I had feeling I dont have energy in my solar plexus Thank you very much for this!

Ooohhh this hit home. I felt like this for a good year. Just now coming out of it. I am feeling more renewed. The emotions and greif of self is sooo real.

Wow. I really thank you 💜

Very informative and helpful. Thanks Christina. I love how you explain things and give examples!

Feeling this so much. In and out of 3rd 4th and 5th. I just want to stay in the higher state. Every single time I think I’ve got it… boom… pattern shows up again. Process process process. I have no clue what I’m doing. Absolutely NO clue. Going to live with one of my older daughters and her wife. I was guided to quit my job in order to become my authentic self. I am purging constantly. Crying all the time, depressed, I’ve even thought of suicide. I wouldn’t do it, just hurt so bad I thought it would be better to end the suffering. I’ve literally thought I WAS dying. This is insanity!!!! I was activated by my twin flame. That is even more insane. I am a hermit and don’t want to really be around anyone. It’s very isolating.

Christine love you...all the best❤

I was happy to see this. Going through it now, nice to know it’s not just me. Less lonely

Thank you 💖