Why I Left - Elder's Wife & Pioneer 

My husband woke up just after being diagnosed with cancer when his doctor asked about blood factors he was shocked. He Googled for the first time wanting to research he stumbled across the ARC he was wide awake at the very time he needed his faith. Of cause I was a good witness and refused to listen. He told me he may not be alive to see me wake up but he was sure he would be the one to wake me. I found a letter from him, he wrote if I loved him I would watch the ARC. I don't know why maybe wanting to be close to him I allowed myself to watch it. I couldn't believe I choose the Governing Body over him I hope he forgave me. He was so right he was the one to open my eye's. So now I find myself alone after giving 65yrs to the organization. I'm so glad you have each other as you now have the opportunity to live the life you have been given

The strong ones' leave. Then we help the others become strong & they leave. Rinse & repeat. Then, we can warm our hands with the embers from the fire of this cult burning to the ground.

I too had experienced the same gossiping, my wife being labeled as a spiritually weak person, as well as, being accused of causing divisions within the congregation. The whole trip of being a Jehovah’s Witness was exhausting both physically and mentally because you can never do enough for them. Enjoy your freedom.

I was a young adult “study” for nearly 10 years off and on. I tried to do the right thing (I thought) by bringing my toddler son to Sunday meetings. One Sunday an elder asked me to take my son to the back to a study room due to noise. So I did. And then the elder came back again to tell me “they can still hear him”. I said “Okay”. I packed up, left the hall and NEVER returned. The systematic hypocrisy and bullying by the elders had become very clear.

If I would have been escorted out the door because of my child crying, I would have said, take a good look at my face because you are never going to see me in this place ever again.

I was a pioneer for years. The gossiping was terrible and it was one of the things that began turning me off until I quit.

“Your mouth is taped shut” in the organization, especially women and children. So true … and their loss.

Your story was incredible! Thank you for sharing it. My husband, 2 sons and I have been out 7 years now. My cracks started when our youngest son was born-he’s now a teen. Our other 2 children were in fact young adults-my oldest son being an elder. As a baby our youngest was always soooo loud during meetings-trying to do his baby talk over the people on stage lol. I asked our pediatrician when he was a toddler, how long they should be expected to sit. Her response set the stage for me! Either my son and I would just stay home from the meetings and would listen in on the line or if we went, we’d walk around outside the Kingdom Hall or sit in our car and listen. Of course, it meant I wasn’t in the ‘spiritual crowd,’ esp with the mothers whose kids were being beaten and made to sit through the entire meetings! Then years later when our youngest son started school, our oldest son who was an elder got disfellowshipped! The bottom fell out for me. He lived in another city so I didn’t even get to at least look at him. The ‘friends’ immediately began to treat us as tho we had been df’d too. Talk about kicking you when you’re down! We needed their support, esp as we were grieving the loss of our son! The other moms stopped allowing their kids to come over to play w our youngest. Still we believed it was the truth. 18 months into shunning our oldest, I couldn’t do it anymore. I actually reached out and called our son, shocking him! We spoke for 4 hrs that first time! So emotional! Long story short-he told us he was never going bk to the jws and how he had been researching! He could have said he was from the planet Mars, I was so open and ready, I would have believed him lol! No way was I losing him again! We listened-SHOCKED. We researched as he said and knew we were done. We told our jw daughter about contacting her brother and what we had learned. Her response was to turn us into the elders, who were relentless in stalking us! We disassociated. That was 7 yrs ago-daughter and her husband have been shunning us ever since-ZERO contact yet they live literally 4 minutes away from us! We learned through others that they have a child now-our 1st grandchild. Of course we’ve never met the child and will never be allowed to do so unless of course we ‘return to jehovah.’ Hostage holding. So we gained our son back, only to lose our daughter.

Since June of 2021 I was planning on getting reinstated after being df'd for seven years. I lost my dad in April of '21, so that made me want to come back. So I tried, letter after letter, turning my life upside to do what the elders wanted. 19 months of waiting in, I randomly searched for some kingdom songs on RU-vid and found the ARC trial. Initially that was the first nudge to wake up and it was a big one. After that I dug DEEP into the research, discovering the ugly truth about the "truth". Two weeks ago I sent an email to my elders, telling them I'm no longer interested in being reinstated and that I'm not controlled by them anymore. It was so freeing and now I'm fully awake and out. I feel like I can breathe again and live my life.

I was verbally abused by a ministerial servant for years...I got out fast when i found out about the 1925 false prophecy...

Isn't that the truth makes you free? Congratulations on leaving as a family in one single piece.

Congratulations on beating the cult brainwashing! You are not alone! There are thousands who are leaving/have left. Not me I just like seeing people get out. The watchtower is nasty and, in my opinion, evil. Cults are bad. Telltale showed me how creepy this cult is and everyone who gets out is a victory.

I have been associated with the organisation for almost 15 years. My husband and I got baptised is 2013 so a decade ago and thankfully we are the only ones in our families who are JWs. We’ve recently left and my daughters young enough at 5 for us to re-educate her so she doesn’t ostracise herself from the world. I was young and easily brainwashed due to suffering trauma I was experiencing so I was a great target. I don’t regret my journey because it led me to have some very good morals and standards for myself but now I’m learning to remove the toxic judgements we make of others.

Free at last! Free at last! Your strength is transposable across many aspects. Don’t be shy to share your story to many people who can relate to you on a totally different level, but still on the same exact feeling! RESPECT!!!!

I've heard someone who works in a pharmacy express concern at how so many JWs are on antidepressants. I can see why, and your observations confirm. I know a couple of exJWs who now follow Christ (outside of institutional religion), and their stories are similar to yours. It's so good you didn't let them destroy your marriage. Thanks for sharing.

I will never forget my child only a few years old looking at my book of bible stories and seeing the horrifying picture of Jesus on the stake with nails in his hand. It greatly effected her in such a negative way. I too found it very hard to explain away the pictures the graphic pictures expose children to. All the while thinking this feels wrong. The lack of love in this cult is what finally broke me and woke me up. The judgement, the gossip ect. Is just a ‘normal’ part of a JW. I’m so glad to be free from it all

What woke me up? I started fading in the early 1970s when I was around 18 years old. I couldn't stand being so tightly controlled by my overzealous mom and by toxic elders who told me I was going to be destroyed in 1975. After all... I wasn't making the truth my own and I wasn't even baptized yet. So I made a point of finding a job that paid good enough so I could move out of my parents' house and "live it up in these last days"! LOL! After being away for a while I came to the realization that nothing (armageddon) was going to happen in 1975 and I told one of my JW friends about how I felt. Then wah-lah! None of my JW "friends" would talk to me anymore. After 1975 came and went I was sure that the Watchtower Org was full of sh*t. The whole JW experience had me angry and bitter for decades. I vacillated between agnosticism and atheism with short periods of feeling that God must exist. Imagine my JW relatives surprise when I became a born again Christian 10 years ago. Did you hear the heads exploding?! ROFL!

My husband and I both left after being "in" all our lives and I'll never forget hearing mothers spanking tiny babies/children to keep them from making noise. Once I was standing in the back with one of my babies and an elder's wife came up to me and berated me for not keeping him quiet. I never spanked my kids, it turned my stomach how casually physical abuse was carried out in public.

A very human story. Sadly JW's are dedicated to a routine. Policies and procedures take priority over the qualities of Christianity. The Bible speaks of supporting the weak, showing mercy to those who have doubts and consoling the depressed. True love is kindness and patience in action.

Hello Katie, What woke me up ? Going to a 78 yr old pioneer sister,s funeral and the elders telling Nicole my wife and I not to talk to the 50 year old daughter of the Pioneer sister. I ignored their advice and got roused on buy a elder. I dissociated in Sept 6th 2018 aged 57 , Nicole my wife is still pimi but hates getting invited to jw get togethers without her apostate husband. We have a loving relationship . I don't want Nicole to leave the watch tower because she'll lose her family and friends . I do want to show Nicole . Born again atheists auxiliary apostate can have good morals and for Nicole to tell all the single sisters find yourself a apostate they make the best husbands. Love you videos. Justin porter ex jw

Big reason I left was seemed like half the kh were on meds, a higher up worked for a big pharm factory, and when I was feeling over stressed and tired, etc, they suggested I see a doctor. That was it for me.

These kind of experiences happen in all congregations of JWs,its such an unspoken toxicity that the deep ins think is normal,im so glad ive been properly awake for maybe 5 years,but i stopped going in 2012, so it took me far too many years to break out of the mind mold,your videos are much appreciated,love & regards

After a lot of research I was awakened to this cult and it's false doctrine. Brought up a JW. I became a born again Christian and I'm so glad that the scales were removed from my eyes. Let's encourage others to leave.

Thank you for sharing your story. Your new life begins here and now. You will find that over the years that you slowly deprogram yourself even more. I wish you all the best

You asked what started the breakdown process my leaving. I left over 40 years ago. For me it was doctrinal though I could relate to some of your experiences as well. The rumor mill was active about why I left but my wife helped clear that up. So it was doctrine. If anyone reads the Bible in a good Bible translation and stops using the publications as the “Bible Explained”, you will quickly see that their teachings are not what the Bible teaches, especially as it relates to salvation and Jesus Christ. The details are too much to explain here. It took me years after leaving JW, before I could associate with Christians in a Church because of the fear of going back to any other form of that control, but eventually I overcame that and I am a Christian and follower of Jesus Christ attending Church. So, now I describe the path out for a JW as actually TWO JOURNEYS. First is the journey out and dealing with the loss of family and friends and new-found freedom from the bondage of the organization. The second journey is the one to look for the real TRUTH, since the JW organization is not “the truth”. In my case it came somewhat quickly because what triggered my leaving were doctrinal issues especially about Jesus Christ. So that is a short version of my story. I’m so glad to hear you and your husband are both out. Count that a huge blessing since it is not always the case. And it is so great that your children are not being raised in that environment. I wish you both well.

Thank you for sharing your story. I, too, am a recovering ex-JW and am simply floored at how similar your experience is with my own story. I had doubts from a very young age yet spent years blaming myself for not being able to be a good witness. The gossiping and backstabbing, especially when trapped in the service car on Saturdays, was especially detrimental to self-esteem!!! Cannot remember how many pioneers would "house shop" while going door-to-door, selecting the types of homes they wanted in the new system. Soooo messed up! My husband got out about 2yrs before me; I feared loosing my mom, sister and the few real friends. As my fade became more obvious, the elders dragged me into the back room after Sunday meeting for a shepherding call. One elder was older and had been like an uncle to me. This elder remained engaged and was very genuine; I think he could see I was done. The other elder was no more than 25 and had just moved to the hall. The younger elder did all the talking and kept calling me by my (fleshly) sister's name. At the end, the younger elder gave a prayer, during which he called me by a completely different name!! Thank you again for

I can totally relate to your situation. It's devastating what the Watchtower Borg does to people.

thank you so much for posting this, i was raised in the Org with my entire family im 21 and i was wrongfully DFed in oct2021 because i went to them for help with self harm and explained how that rippled out into other sins i had made in the past and i just wanted help. instead they said i just didnt belive in god anymore and that my love of him was gone so i should go too...... i live alone and work alone cleaning offices cuz hey thats us pioneers jobs... during a pandemic... for the first time im really able to see how cruel the DF arrangement is... its not a loving theocracy.. its a Darwinian survival of the "spiritualist' or aka the ones who hide their sins and move on getting others to bury there humanity or be forced to be alone.... it breaks my heart that this is reality. But im so glad i dont have to worry about god killing good ppl just cuz they arnt branded with a JW logo on their ass..... thank u for speaking up....

Not waffling on. Very well explained in clear English and it so sums up our experiences with the JWs. I was in for over 45 years, an elder at 26 and I have 3 daughters and an ex-wife in Ireland, all strong JWs. I am experiencing some shunning but I was never DF'd so they can technically talk to me. I'm in the UK (and Italy) and have found such good people and friends, so all that JW garbage about worldly people should be ignored. I hope your good friend wakes up and brings you joy.

🌿🌻 JESUS lS AWESOME... FOCUS ON HIM WHO IS THE AUTHOR AND PERFECTER OF OUR FAITH. 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽

Thank you for sharing. I could really feel the sincerity of missing your best friend.

Really gives you perspective to think that your circumstances have forced yourself, and your family to reinvent reality. Being trapped in a psychological matrix from birth to relearn how to adjust to functioning, healthy relationships and emotional integration. Once you've awoken, a global pandemic forces a shift in society; Instability, crisis, depression. Life is grim as it is, your video is very validating for my own experiences of abuse. Thank you, all the best

Thank you for sharing your experience in getting your freedom. It’s so evident now, the lack of love and fellow feeling that exists among Jehovahs Witnesses. I am out now for 22 years and woke up 12 years ago. It’s terrible how they treat people with true hearts to the point of waking up such as yourself.

I thank God that this young woman is free from wickedness. Our God is awesome 🙏♥️🙏♥️🇺🇸

Hello. Personally, I had been a Jehovah's Witness for just over 20 years. The little things have always seemed odd to me in teaching. I gave up 5 years ago. Finally, I understood that our "Creator" did not ask us to be "religious". No "God" and no "prayers". We just have to live our life, and he, our "Creator", will do his job when his day comes. I enjoyed your video. My friendships to you and your little family. Greetings from France.

When I was a Jehovah’s Witness I found it hard to believe that stuff like this would happen. Like the elders taking her daughter until she was asleep I thought that people would exaggerate details. It wasn’t until I had experienced an incident with an elder where I realized that it happens all the time but is swept under the rug. I felt terrible for not believing others. I disassociated after that

You guys TOOK THE ELDERS TOO SERIOUSLY. I would just smile,nod my head and DO WHAT I WANT.

Love your experience it’s so relatable. They put such pressure on us. You seem like a wonderful person. Empathetic to what you’re saying. Wishing you health healing and happiness free of guilt and shame. They are extraordinarily unreasonable and incredible. It’s such a hamster wheel. 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️. Thank you for sharing and having the courage to speak out.

Thank you for sharing your story. I'm starting Ex-JW support groups across the US. I think we have a good class action against the Watchtower society.

Thanks for sharing your story you are very clear an honest in relating your truth , an the world is just waiting for another strong an intelligent an compassionate women to make a difference . Thankyou "💝

How can this organization say it is Gods Organization when if you dont agree with them or you just leave you lose all of your family and friends. The God I know would never support that. So happy you got out but sorry you lost so many people

Thanks for taking the time to say your story. I've heard many now as an exjw but I still benefit from hearing new perspectives. You're a great speaker and so well done on managing to make this so compelling. Thanks

Thank you. Such kind and gentle etiquette in your manner. I enjoyed listening to your story and could relate at many levels. I'm glad you came out 'together' (husband) and that you are still together for support.

Excellent presentation. Thks for sharing. We care regards from England

Thanks for sharing your story. Being you're from halfway around the globe, and having the same type of issues, makes leaving (this week) so much easier. Thank you again for being honest!!!

Thank you for sharing your story! I have a similar story also. I wasn’t a JW but I was an Apostolic Pentecostal. That’s a very strict sect of Pentecostalism. Your comment about the gossiping and stalking resonated very deeply with me. That is something I witnessed often. It also happened to me throughout my belonging to the organization. When I told my best friend, who also was in the organization, that I was leaving she told me that she had an idea I was leaving. I wasn’t sure how she knew and I hadn’t spoken to her about it. She told me that my vehicle was being watched and several people had seen my vehicle at church not belonging to the Apostolic organization. It broke my heart that my best friend would take part in something like that. Looking back, I’m over joyed in my decision in leaving.

You are a very kind and sincere person. Thank you for relating your account of how and why you left the corporation. Very encouraging.

When the usual argument of "well they are just imperfect men and J will sort it out in the end" is an example of the Lie they fall back on to keep calling it the "Truth." This is a prime example of what pisses me off and makes me angry and I say shit. Which I did and it cost me at the time and well spent because now I'm free! Happy New Year all! What a great channel!

I was never a JW but have always been intrigued by their doctrine and history. I often wonder how supposedly intelligent people cannot think and discern things for themselves. Sad to say, the organization is a cult that uses manipulation and fear to secure compliance and obedience of members within the organization. I am happy for you and your family that you were able to break freee from bondage and it is my hope that you do not let that experience rob you of a true and real relationship with Jesus Christ. God bless you and your family and I thank you for sharing your testimony and hope it will inspire others to muster the courage to leave. God is able and He is real!

Thank you for sharing. Totally relatable story. You're a gem.

Congrats on your freedom! I woke up in a elders meeting feb 23 2016. My pioneer wife had stop going November 2015. She pioneered for 18 years. I was an elder and a ms for 17. Sending out love from Pennsylvania!!! I hope your kids and you and your husband do what makes you happy!

Well done! Myself after (45years in)and my wife and daughter woke up and left 8 years ago now, today we are closer than ever to our heavenly Father and Christ.

When you said "We call it Freedom day." i was so happy for you. My wife and i was also in this cult and it's not that often to see another couple who gone that way together. So many breakups and pain for so many. And you made it! I'm so proud of you, your family and yes, i'm also proud about my family. We all lost people but we've also got so much more. Thank you for your video!

I walked away back in the late 1980's due to personal growth. It didn't involve any doctrinal teachings or misgivings about God's organization, I just had to walk away. I found the phrase "the truth shall set you free" was a misnomer. While as a Witness, I felt guilt, trapped, & unable to express myself. The Truth was actually keeping me in chains. I broke free & have never been happier in my life as I am now. Side note: I recently found out about the change in the teaching of the generation of 1914 to the "new light" teaching of the "overlapping generations." That one floored me as to how any JW can agree with this new doctrine & not question it.

Awesome and sincere story! I’m so glad your immediate family is out and you’re not going to indoctrinate your children into that destructive CULT!

Congratulations on your awakening. Hope you’re all ok. You sound very strong and are brave for speaking out like this.

Thank you for sharing your experience. The elders behaviour in your congregation was truly shocking. What about the "love that never fails"? I was a born in as was my husband. He left 2 years before me and some people 'soft shunned' me, whilst I carried on going to the meetings. Whilst others would talk to me like my husband was not alive too. The whole experience only accelerated the waking up process in 2018. Keep up the good work with your videos as they do help others. xx

Thank you for sharing your experience. Patrick is a blessed man. You both are people of integrity.

My mother started to study when I was 3. There were things I found disturbing even when I was a child. I remember a talk that alcohol abuse was bad and could be overcome with prayer. I didn't think anyone but a therapist could help. Also later when I had children I would take them downstairs so they wouldn't disturb the talk. When I was downstairs another brother would say you're here for the talk, not to socialize. I was blown away when I found out some churches had different rooms for each age of child. I know a brother would never talk to another brother like that. Women are on a lower level, especially if their husbands don't belong

This is the first time I've seen your site. Thank you so much for such a beautiful presentation of your experience. Look forward to seeing your older posts. xoxo

Thank you for sharing YOUR lovely story; boy don't you radiate happiness, my lovely wife hasn't even started to wake up yet, comfortably numb with her Eldoret best friend. BUT i live in hope.

Just subscribed! So much of your experience resonated with me.

Thanks for sharing your story. So glad you and your husband are AWAKE now and your children are FREE from ever having to go through what a lot of us went through as children. KUDOS to you both!! You are good parents. You saved them from the cult. ❤

Wow, what a touching story. the best thing about it is the relationship with your husband and that this has brought you closer. What a day of freedom that you can celebrate every year. I hope that you can welcome your friends you love back into your life. It must be a privilege to be able to count you among his friends. May god continue to bless and protect you and your family.

Free at last, free at last. Thank God Almighty, you are free at last!

Watching your child go through their childhood most definitely brings up your own traumas from your own childhood

Thank you for sharing your story with us, I'm so pleased to hear that you are now out of this evil organization. Your story is helping somebody. My best To you and your future endeavors.

I watched your video and was really touched by your sensitive spirit and meekness. I am an evangelist and speak to many JWs. I love them and pray for them because I know they are under a heavy burden to do good works and there seems to be a pecking order in all the halls and some are considered more spiritual than others. Many times when they leave the JW kingdom hall they never seek another church because they been taught against all other churches. Bible believing churches never do that they just teach from the Bible and if a family decides to move or go to another church there is no pressure to stay in the same type of church but rather they are encouraged to pray and ask God to lead them to another Bible believing church. There is no banishment involved if the family decides to change churches and no one is told to not talk to the family because they are leaving. All cults try to intimidate their members by the threat of banishment: Mormons, JWs, Islam, and others. Please continue, you and your husband, to read the Bible on your own and pray the Lord will show you a good church to attend. I know it's hard when you've been treated so horribly to trust people again but if you sincerely seek the Lord to show you a good church He will. The Bible is the word of God and it's so important for your children to learn the great stories of the saints and prophets. May God bless you and may you and your family experience His loving healing. Amen

Thank you so very much for sharing! I believe you (hopefully) helped, at a minimum, the young elder who visited your house!! You've certainly helped everyone who has watched this message!

Loved hearing your story and so pleased you left as a family. X

Thanks so much for sharing! I wish you and your lovely family the best!!

Thanks for sharing your experiences. It's been 2 yrs for me since I disassociated, so I can really empathize what you've been going through. My experiences are different in that, I had not any really bad experiences, but have known of many who had. Like you though, right from early age had seen things didn't always add up. Like their quoting scriptures out of context, and changing doctrines (new light) and the year I got baptized for the wrong reason (1975) etc. One thing I haven't given up on is my faith in God. To leave the WT and God too is really throwing the baby out with the bath water. I hope you dig into the Bible with a whole new set of eyes and learn what the Bible REALLY teaches. And that Jesus really is the way the truth and the life. Not any organization. WT has relegated Jesus to just an angel who hasn't the importance He deserves. I wish you the best in your getting to know who He really is. And unlearn the lies. It's a new day!

Touchingly told and deeply heartfelt. Please, if you don't already, please consider writing. You have a gift for narrating. I could not stop listening...and I have never been a JW.

My husband once said (after my reaction to an elder who thought he could micromanage my time), that “one day you will be thankful for his “ awkwardness” “. My husband was convinced it was an opportunity for me to work on “ fruitage of the spirit”. In my opinion, this elder had an agenda, he was controlling & a bully!! I told him that to his face, weeks afterward. Again, he turned my feelings into a reproach, saying I was the only sister, in 30 some odd years of his being an elder, that “reacted so strongly!”. YES, I can now be thankful for “his awkwardness “, which started the ball rolling to my WAKING UP! It was all downhill from there! It took me 6 years nonetheless to realize I didn’t have to put up with this treatment, to realize this wasn’t the truth…unloving as they are!! I deserved better for myself. What a journey this has been, but I needed to step off the hamster wheel & experience what life & truth (about myself) is all about!! 💜🥂

Thanks so much for your articulate and well thought out video! Your relaxed demeanor and calm composure reveal how you’ve mostly recovered from your experience, as you’ve pointed out yourself. I hope that you’re as calm inside as you’re projecting… My wife and I have been out for over 4 decades, I won’t bore anyone by citing more details, the important thing, to me, is that you find a way within yourself to progressively ease away the memories that keep intruding, however infrequently, into your waking thoughts. No one can prevent any thoughts from occurring, but there are methods, proven to be successful, of handling those that you’d prefer to not have at all. I’m an avid reader of research and articles related to the functioning of the human mind… it’s simple, easy to accomplish, and-BEST OF ALL-so emotionally rewarding 😆. Cheers from canada (my wife has Irish ancestry on her father’s side, she’s a Doran). I’m honorary Irish ☘️ only on St. Paddy’s day, and I’ve been to the southern tip of the Emerald Isle, a very friendly and hospitable nation 😆!

Enormous thank you for sharing your stories. Every story helps current and former JWs and always contributes toward its activism. So glad your family woke up. Lots of Love and good vibes sent your way 💙🖤 my mother was the one and only reason I had stayed in as long as I did. Entrapment indeed.

A beautiful and terrible story. Your perfect presentation ranks you in the top few of ex-JW vloggers. More please.

So excellent video. Sad but true words from the bottom of the heart. You are an amazing teller. I wish you and your family the very best for the new life you are starting on.

The Glory goes to the Lord Jesus, who's making people free from slavery.

I am glad for you and your family dear sister, I remember 2 years ago my wife face when I came home from job and i finally told her what was on my heart that i don’t believe anymore in the so called ( faithful slave) and almost 20 years my relationship with Christ was stolen ( i never was good with introductions in important matters) after one hour of discussion i told her that whatever happens I don’t force her beliefs but I will step out. After 2 weeks we singn together the dissociation letter. We feel so free and much more close to God than then! Our 4 year old son ( he couldn’t speak then) now he ask “ we don’t go anymore to Jehova’s house?” when we trespass along Kingdom Hall with car, we say no because some people are liars over there! Surprisingly our son started to pray at kindergarten at lunch by himself without pushing him or tell him to do that! It makes it naturally. We stepped out from a forced state and we come to “Master of our fate”! We feel the blessings! And we don’t step anymore in organized religion!

That was a beautiful experience. Thank you for sharing. My cracks began 25 years ago. It slowly chipped away my belief in the organization being lead by God. Eventually hearing the widespread coverups of child sexual abuse really broke me down.

Thank you for your video. 😘♥️ I was also a general pioneer for three years (it was still 90 hours a month). As a child, I also had a big problem with the mother and her baby during the flood. 😢If I moved too much during the meeting, my father punished it with beatings. 🙈All the best for you and greetings from Germany (you can see our family on my account on our holidays) ♥️

Thank you for opening up and telling your incredible story. I was blown away by it, yes serious and horrible things also happening here in your country of birth! I was DF'd in 1986 (Forest Hill Congregation, Johannesburg South) solely on 2x Elders' accusations, NO investigations or anything else! One single meeting, accused of misconduct on the "testimony" of an unknown accuser, and furthermore accused of lying to them during my side of the story! Talk about judges, jurors and executioners, all in one fell swoop! First few years were hard, but getting through that, I never looked back and getting to know the Organisation's cover-up of molestation and rife paedophilia (through the Internet,) came to know that I was right all along about them. Lots of brothers and sisters (DF'd or Cold) here in SA, are in need of support. If anybody knows where we can find such locally, please let us know. Love, blessings and best regards from Pretoria...

Thanks for sharing your story. What started me waking up was coming to know several really nice loving people that were "going to be killed by God at Armaggedon" because they weren't JW'S. So I started seeing the awful vindictive, jealous genocidal nature of the God of the bible. Also the conditional love of those in the congregation including my family which evaporated so fast. I resonated so much with your description of really missing a good friend and what it was like to say goodbye to that person. Best of luck to you and your family moving forward

Amazing story thank you for sharing.

Exactly the same way I'm thinking honestly. I'm not against on the organization but my question is... How people become too much judgemental. How people focus on people behavior and negativity. Where supposed to be that everyone learnd how to love and be compassionate to others. Why the mentality should be. If u are a pioneer. U are a star of the congregation.

Thank God that you folks are speaking OUT LOUD for the others to hear. Tony Morris is my 1st cousin and gave me my first lesson. After 3 years of this foolishness I shook the dust off my shoes, turned around, walked away and NEVER looked back. Best decision of my life!

Hope you, your husband, and your cute kids are doing well!

Well done. Congrats. All major shifts in society came from brave people speaking out

The watchtower is the number 1 manufacturer of "apostates". I remember hearing that when I woke up.

Thank you for making this video! I rarely watch videos over a few minutes long, but I watched this all the way through.

How sad the part about expecting the children to be silent. In our church we frequently hear noises from little ones but it is joyful as we know there is no better place for them to be than in the presence of the Lord learning and growing.

Great experience sad to hear the same situations about abuse some pioneers gossip about you in car groups experienced that plus a Facebook post was turned into the elders that I posted taken out of context , the doctrines etc, quietly faded wish I had to strength to dissociate but I just faded so I can have very little contact with a few friends that I really love. Love your channel

So very glad that you and your family are out of the org. It will be apparent to you already that the toxic, all pervading teachings and behaviour of its members stretch from the GB right down to the ranks of publishers. NB:- There are exceptions to the case , as in all things. For me and my family it became a problem when certain doctrinal beliefs were adjusted with the arrival of 'new light' et al, eg. the remodelling of the 1914 generation and what 'generation' now meant etc. But it was the stretching of new policies to meet the needs of bible understanding beyond the point of credulity that really started us thinking about the claims being made by the JW Org. Another huge point in our deciding to leave was the cold, hypocritical lifestyles of the elders and members of the GB, along with revelations on the "Silent Lambs" website re the rampant child abuse in the Org. and the orchestrated cover-ups. Anyway, congratulations on leaving this despicable religion and enjoy the rest of your lives.

Thank you for share your experience. The elder that visited you and cry (how mad), he is a Psycopath, manipulator for sure, he pretended to use emotional manipulation for shake you, that is disgusting. Love and hugs from México to you. ❤️🇲🇽✨🙏🏼 I found you today ❤️

I’m so sorry that you went through all this with your first baby! On behalf of all the asshole elders out there, I apologize. When I was an elder still, about a year ago, at one point during the 10 years on the body, the elders volunteered me to do a local needs part about the young children behaving during the meetings. All I did was play a Caleb and Sophia video, and asked the little children a few questions from the video, the end. Not offensive, and the elders were not happy, and I said oh well! Too bad! The congregation really enjoyed it. Any not too long after that, we went into virus mode with covid, and long story short I resigned as an elder.

children can’t and shouldn’t sit around for 2 hours. i’m no doctor but i know that children need to be running around outside and having sensory experience, not listening to/ being apart of a cult. thank you for prevailing. we need more people like you.

Thank you for sharing your story and experience of inept elders doing emotional damage due to their inexperience and ignorance of human psychology. I left early in 1975 as an act of faith. This was the year of the world was to end according to their chronology! Fortunately I had the faith to educate myself out of their imprinting and programming! It’s great to be free free free… Hope you trust the process and follow your bliss!

Your Story, so Bravely & Respectfully told, will help many who are in a similar situation. Thank you for Sharing. Harrison Hot Springs B.C Canada 🇨🇦

Thanks for sharing your thoughts and story, i am not a JW but I am happy to listen to you till the end, you are so sweet to share your story, I have learned something from you, cheers from Toronto Canada