Why I Quit Competitive Brawlhalla 

no i was not actually banned for hurling chairs or calling an orbital strike on the bcx setups, crazy i know

Really nice video man. Enjoyed listening to you talk. Good luck in the future and I'll always be a fan, whether you go pro again or not. You have incredible gaming skills, youtube skills, and already have a huge following that continues to grow. Lots of people would love to have any of that. So no matter what happens, you've already accomplished a lot! And its only the beginning :)

I love how he talks about these stuff with so much passion, and then he's just demolishing people in 1v2's in the background

You're epic egg, not just for the skill and effort and the game, but for the compassion and the ability to show vulnerability to thousands of people. I honestly, *genuinely* think that you are one of the purest people I (parasocially) know. I get that I don't see the full version of yourself, but that full version has even a fraction of this side of you, that is enough. Keep up the good work bud, I hope the audience can bring you even half as much joy as you do us

Your speech about competition gave me the chills, the way you use all those beautiful English words to describe it let me drop some tears. Truly wonderful poetry / motivational quotes could be taken from it, I can't express how strong it hit me

I find this video truly inspirational. The way you are able to motivate your fans whilst struggling with your own issues is what drives me to try and be my best. Thank you egg, i hope one day to be as wise as you.

Personally, I enjoy competing just for the fun of it. I'm a very difficult person to please, but the things that competition bring is satisfying. Things like self discipline and improvement are what drive me cause i am passionate about the game. Being able to fight players that are better than me is one of those things about fighting games that i love. What kills it for me is when i lose interest in the game, like my current situation with bh Another note to add: I enjoy watching your vids, egg. It allows me to explore your thought process on things, while also helping others in the process

The truth about the risk of losing is so real, i feel like when i fight a gold (i'm around 1950 elo) and win i don't feel good..its whatever, because i know i will most likely win but when i fight a diamond and people around my elo/my level of skill or higher, than i don't know if i can win or not, than it feels good and pleasant winning

This is just a good video, it explains mainly everything everyone has been wanting to know about it with very understandable and reasonable answers (excluding the chair throwing incident). Also the clips in the background of the audio really just keeps you entertained, has everything you’d want in an eggsoup video

egg throwing chairs or orbital strikes seems more of a plausible idea then lag tbh

I love hearing you about stuff, in general. It’s always great to hear your thoughts. I’m sure it’s going to be completely worth it when you start competing in tournaments again. Take your time and keep working on yourself :)

Hey Egg, I just want to thank you for being "yourself" and for being inspiring to me and others who want to become professionals and better people too.

Yeahhhhh!! I saw that this was soon to be released and was hopeful that you would speak so candidly! It's a beautiful thing to share and be vulnerable in this way. A true gift you given lots of people in my opinion. Thanks so much brotha!

Loved this style of video with you just talking. Looking forward to future videos like this!

Man this sounds so much like my experience with anxiety, knowing you aren’t alone is really comforting

Thx for doing this, also keep trying you`ll make it where you need to be. Love the video, keep it up man.

i remember watching ur crew battles like 5 years ago homie glad to see ur doing what’s best for u

This video truly spoke to me, I too always have thoughts of self doubt and anxiety over the smallest little things, to the point that it keeps me up at night just thinking of all the times I’ve messed up, so I want you to know that you’re not alone in this. I’m pretty sure I can speak for the community when I say that we will always appreciate what you do for us, giving us these videos helps us in so many ways it would be impossible to list them all. The fact that you’re balancing school, anxiety and uploading videos genuinely amazes me, the amount of drive and dedication you have to both your fans and yourself is truly commendable. I really admire that you always talk about such personal parts of your life, being so vulnerable in front of thousands of people is incredibly difficult But for me especially, it’s shown me that I’m not alone in my issues and I can get through it with enough will power. Thank you, your videos have genuinely made my life better

23:06 the beautiful commentary paired with the polarizing destruction of two players in a 2v1

i love the way u think egg, keep doing you. i look up to you so much. thanks for everything

We love you egg, try your best to keep a good mental state 👍

I’ve been waiting for this!

This video is amazing, you are the most human youtuber I know and I love hearing you being honest about yourself, thank you for still uploading even tho you are having a hard period in life

I like how you’re very self aware and able to notice what’s going in with you many people try to avoid it and not try to improve

@eggsoup Thank you egg for this video man I’ve been wanting to compete in brawl and to go pro, I’ve just been really nervous and I always kept doubting my potential but by you talking about how we all deal with our minds, anxiety, and nervousness also how you were talking about competing again getting that pump feeling, I get that all the time when I imagine being pro and playing with the pros so thank you for giving me the courage and feeling again because this year imma go all in!!

Really appreciate your transparency!

so humble so honest this is why i love you egg and why you are my favorite brawlhalla youtuber

this. this is the type of video i want to make someday. something that inspires people. which i guess is kinda weird since you are inspiring me to be inspired. you are a cool dude egg. and for the sake of no pedestals, i'll keep it at that. you are a cool dude.

9:45 up until like 12:00 resonated so hard with me, especially the last part about no matter how much support and "praise" you get from over people, if they ever saw "the real you" they wouldn't think so highly of you.

I love when u get philosophical, good luck with everything :D

late comment, but your brawlhalla videos from 2015 (the 1v5 cb one in particular) motivated me to actual try in this game. so thank you!

Egg this video has inspired me a lot to pursue some of my goals even harder in my life. Thanks

Egg is one of the most satisfying players to watch, his gameplay is crispy as hell 💪🏽! Can’t wait to see u back on the competitive scene one day my boy

First video I’ve ever watch of egg soup and the whole time I could not believe the power of stream

i loved this video and format.

1 word: CHAIR

This video has changed my life. Thank you Eggsoup.

I was a competitive Rocket League player and completely understand it man. It's really rough mentally and no one ever talks about it. Anyone able to handle the stress and anxiety of tournaments and come out on top are unimaginably talented.

Thanks for sharing about mental health. always hard. always good

I went to your channel to look at the syth combos and ended up as a member of your family listening to your problems. How time flies, this is a good thing, not a bad thing, I feel like if I don’t say this your will interpret wrong.

i wasn't interested in the topic before but man i needed to hear this also 2:41 i love this mindset best mindset

dude eggsoup man youre a god at speech like im 99% sure if you branch off into other games you would do just as well because im sure 99% of the people here are here for you, not the games you play and personally id love to see you play some other games becauase you as a person and content creater creates just the right feeling that makes me subbed in the first play and seeing what you could do in other settings would be truely amazing to see.

Honestly, it happens egg, everyone has their own struggles but you're doing a lot to get over yours and even this video itself will probably help someone somewhere feel a bit better too knowing that they aren't the only one ^^ Believe me, you got this mate, it'll take some time but i KNOW you can get over it. i don't really watch a lot of your content but goddamn, whether you go back to tourneys or not, just know we (all the viewers) will always be here for ya :p If you ever wanna talk about something we'll always be here to listen ^^

This is genuinely the best most inspiring video I've ever seen

That was the most inspiring Ted talk I've ever seen

Hearing this is making me more excited to make myself better and enter tourneys. Gonna enjoy every bit of it =>

I never thought I would relate to this so much…..I swear I felt this whole vidyo, anyway keep grinding and doing you 😭

thanks for this!

Hey hope you make it through man

I think can understand you at least 80 % bec I am going through kinda the Same thing and it's hard to explain but you kinda did it so I see that very admirable

Yeah 95% of this I relate to man, and I'm like... 5? 6 years younger? Idk how old I am. Anyway I get how you feel and you'll definitely get there. You said you have a competitive drive? That doubles the amount of hope I have for you. You have a really good grasp from what I see in the video of what your dealing with, you slowly boiling down to get where you wanna be. I wish you incredible luck and strength through what ever it is your going through. I salute you egg child, your a brave guy to actually face your problems.

That's fine Egg, I'll wait bec I would love to see u in one. Someday I'll keep enjoying ur videos! :) Have a good day

Thanks for the motivation.

I can tell this was out of your comfort zone. Good on you

The things I would give to be as good as he is at this game😭I feel ya brotha make sure you lookin out for yourself🙌🏾

i have so much respect for the background music in this video, but fr like many people have said, you don't gotta compete at a "pro level" or anything, you do you my guy

I have massive respect for what you said and you as a person.

egg I really appreciate you and im glad you are trying to do better. I hope you realize one day how much of a good impact you've had on people, and tho you may not believe it I think you are great.

You're good at explaining. gl soup boy

I would love to have a deeeeeep chat with you man, think we could widen each others perspectives. Keep doing you man

I hope you can get better but also thank you I seemed to learn a lot about myself I hope I can make some corrections to my self esteem and attitude

I think you are a very good person who’s got it goin for himself

6:22 That is me, that is exactly what I think on a daily when I play brawllhalla. From when he first said about self destructing from there is exactly my thoughts and feelings when I play, no let alone do anything.

I don't even play brawlhalla anymore but I just watch these vids for the amazing commentary.

We love you egg

These are the best videos

M8. You talk about yourself like you aren't allowed to have anxiety whatsoever. Like you said you are a person too, not just a status. Just because you may be a bit lucky/privileged doesn't mean you have less right to feel bad. You should allow yourself to feel these feelings too homie. It's all good. We are here to support you whatever you do. Sure there may be some bad apples in the community, but at the end of the day you have a great community who cares about you. You are allowed to make as many mistakes as anyone else. Take care of yourself homie. That being said, you shouldn't cover up your mistakes. I know you threw that chair man. No point in hiding it peace

Oh yeah we love the content

Hang in there bro, I don’t usually leave comments but I thought I should at least leave something here, hope you recover, just be you

Honestly you are one of the most genuine seeming youtubers I know and hearing that your self esteem is so low is just absolutely tragic. If possible you should definitely look for a therapist, bc not only do I want you to be happy with who you are and how you portrait yourself, I also really want to see you in tournaments xD And I would absolutely compliment the hell out of you if you wouldn't brush it off as not possible bc I don't rly know you. As I said I know few yters that can speak about mental problems Like this while being braindead, philosophical and funny in other videos, not to mention this top tier gameplay. So yeah, I just wish you the best

Music is top tier in this video

You really remember me one of my old friends and knowing how he end i know you can solve your problem concerning yourself but it depends on hew much work you put on it and it seems you already know that 😎👍🏾

Egg Ik your not gonna see this but I’ve looked up to you for awhile and this made realize that you are my idol I don’t care if you compete or even make videos I just want you to make sure you get to a point you’re okay with I hope you get to the point sometime in the future but take your time we will all wait for you man👍 and this video has gave me motivation to go for it go to hit the top so Today is 8/9 I go under The name Zaini and I’m currently at 1500 Elo and within 1 year I will hit top 1000 in Nae thank you for everything soup👍 You do you

This video hits hard because I love competition and playing brawlhalla but I'm entering my last year of high school and the amount of time I'm able to put into the game will get shorter and shorter as I enter college and it's sad 😩

Slight paraphrasing, I know, but your quote here is something I feel many of us need to hear more. "I have this problem, this mental bias, where I'm not ok with imperfection despite knowing that perfection is ultimately impossible. And that basically means that I'm never ok with anything I do, ever. There's this intrusive thought that means I'm not good enough as I know I was in the past and I know I can be in the future. This mental trap that stops me from back into the swing of things in the first place because at it's core it's just not accepting where I am in the present. It's a kind of thought that always persists in pretty everything I do."

That FF theme in the background 🙏🏻

if it helps, I don't even really play brawlhalla anymore but I still watch you and shwerpy every so often. I had no idea you even quit tournaments.

why is this such a good video?

Eggsoup you madlad

this video was a masterpiece

hope you’ll overcome your challenges in your lifetime to be able to one day live knowing you did it, you overcame ur challenges nothing bothers you well maybe some things but you actually did it and live a peaceful life in your shack with ur pigs. anyways i hope you the best and keep doing what your doing i really don’t care if you do competitive tournaments or not your really fun to watch, listen to, and your really funny also very very wise. hope your days are going good and baii

I want egg and dr k to have a convo… that would be so cool!

Wow that perfection point you made is exactly how i think about boxing and your dealing with it is very mature you give yourself a lot of space to improve

The chair

Damn you are a very articulate person!!

The boss music at around 12 min XDDD

6:40 you are really spitting out facts

being honest about how you feel is the best way to change it for the better, I bet this must have taken lots of guts to post this and I commend that, wish the best for you egg

12:36 around felt like a music sync and I loved it

Love you

Egg I just want to say that I love you and not in that way I just love the person that you are. I know that I don't know you on a personal level and that you didn't even know I existed but off of what I see of you in your videos and streams you are an amazing person even if you don't think so I do. And I know that people on the internet lie all the time about who they really are, but if your your not lying (which I highly doubt you are) and you are the person that you show in your content then know that I love you. You remind me so much of myself it not even funny and life was pretty sh!tty and it still kinda is but your content made it so much less sh!tty you always made me smile even in my WORSE state and I really appreciate you for that. I sometimes think of myself the way you do and some people have told me that I should love myself and that I should think more highly of myself than I do, and want tell you the same thing. I can go on and one but I'll stop. I might have just wrote all this and your probably not going to see it, but If someone does see this then I hope that you could've related to me at one point. Again egg I love you, you are amazing and if someone else is reading this I love you too❤️

life-changing lesson with brawhalla gp bg

Hey Eggsoup do you know how Zexis competes at a high level even though he’s a west player? Can he help you with you lagging issues

Your jaeyun is so clean

OK. HOW THE #### DID YOU GET THE FRICKING ROCKKK!!

I feel like everyone kind of has a social status for certain people but in the end I think everyone is special because they are good at what they do, for you egg you just found what you were good at faster than others and you should take that and not have any shame by it because everyone finds there path.

Understandable Samuria Egg cuz at the end of the day what matters is that everyone knows that their ok and can enjoy life etc *salutes*

One could say that you are a good egg. ;>}

"-so why don't you play competitive brawlhalla? -well you see, in among us..."

Wow, I can relate to some of this