Done some thinking. I think the flower held in hand behind the singer’s back is a tail. Like, it exist’s in the mind of the singer, phantom limb, and the listener is called on to see it too
@@badger6882 WAIT WHATTTT THAT MAKES SO MUCH MORE SENSE NOW. how am I only now seeing this comment lol. thanks for this insight! love music and she does such a good job nestling fun packets of meaning in the lyrics :3 take care :)
I don't think so! Cute connection, but I think the "beauty of a flower held behind my back" is a direct comparison to furry'/queer/trans identity; something that is not tangible, cannot be shown. The identities of the people we love can only be experienced indirectly, through their description of them, through how they hold themselves, not seen explicitly. When you love another person, it's hard to explain everything about why; it's like articulating the beauty of a flower held behind their back.
@@lunariumpicturesoh! i wasn't sure because i thought it was orator like "public speaker" which could mean that the person who is speaking is a public speaker (and id imagine that's right- but idk now)
I usually complain about how we don't really have furry songs. we have parodies. we have like dj's. but we don't really have songs about being a furry. this is one step closer
As someone who definitively isn’t a furry, this song is still an absolute banger and just makes me respect the furry community more. Y’all are weird as hell and I love it.
This feels like one of those sketchy hypno videos you'd randomly get in your recommended. Am I being hypnotized into becoming a furry? Wtf is this. I like it.
@@U.R.coolkid Well I've also always (even before I knew it) wanted a tail it's just this intensifies it more. Like it switches from passive want to longing sometimes and this song did that for me
as someone whose therian identity involves bioluminescence the metaphor of "can you see me with the lights off" is doing a lot of fun things to my brain
i think the choruses to this are some of the most personally exciting, sexy, weirdly validating shit ive heard in long time. that idea of an intimate shared fiction, feeling more "real" than anything in its honesty... it GETS to me aa
i think this is actually my favorite song of yours ever. i dont say stuff like that lightly but like holy shit the sound and the aggression and the furry stuff and, like, yeah,
This is something I wanted for a long time. Not just a song about furries, but a song that presents itself like it was actually made by one, in an actual furry world. We need more of this type of furry art.
This song makes me feel... nervous. Like I'm stepping towards something I think will be good but I won't know until I'm in it. Maybe one day I'll sing along, when my eyes have adjusted to the lights being off.
The line "I don't think you've spoke/to any of your characters" really connects me. This will be a long comment to explain why but I'm doing it based off your DHMIS video. My favorite story is one from a source material that is barely related. It is a multiverse where all the universes of all the stories people of made exist, and specific characters can live in that multiverse and view the universes. They discuss the Creators (us, anyone who writes for it) as literal characters, as in the gods that make these universes. One of the characters doesn't have a way to feel natural feelings and drinks the "paint" that makes up universes (or, us creator's feelings) to feel ourselves, which is a very literal depiction of Creators projecting their feelings onto the character and our stories. In that sense I feel like the characters in those stories ARE real. That the characters I made up and project onto in that story are literally real, because the *point* is that they are you. That they are the "paint" you put into them. And one of these characters I'm incredibly connected to. They have an incredibly feel story I put all my feelings into. And I've talked with them. I talk to them when I am sad. I explain I don't mean to hurt them, it is that I am hurt. Yesterday in the middle of the night while trying to sleep I was hallucinating crying. Crying is triggering for me because of one of my family members, who is incredibly nice, thoughtful, smart, caring, and loving, but they have extreme health problems and sometimes turns into "X", a person in my household that threatens and screams and guilts me that only appears after someone else cries. They cry a lot before they turn into X. It usually marks a transition, so cries are really triggering or scary to me. So it was the middle of the nice and I was panicking and imagining it and it really hurt. When I'm really hurt and scared, I put my feelings into my characters. I talk to them. But that's not an experience everyone can have. "I don't think you've spoke/to any of your characters"
@@hedgey1013 The story is the Undertale AUs (like the Sanses you may have seen lol). they're an entirely fanmade fandom, as I said, so the content there is for it is different people's comics and animations. The easiest one to look into is Underverse since it's an animated series on RU-vid, but there are many others. And since the fandom is ABOUT different interpretations and making up your own stories, all of them can be very different. For example the character I said "doesn't have a way to feel natural feelings and drinks the "paint" that makes up universes (or, us creator's feelings) to feel" is Ink, who doesn't have a soul similar to Flowey from the original game.
Getting called "good boy" accompanied with a pat on the head drastically changed the course of my life. Oh if only that person knew what they awoken in me.
i cannot stop listening to this song. i absolutely adore the juxtaposition of the verses having a more toned down instrumental and background with clean vocals but dense lyrics, and the chorus turning the music, vocals, and video up to 11 while keeping the lyrics short sweet and punchy. AND it scratches that queer autistic itch in my brain on top of all that
Yeah, I usually have a really bad reaction to that sort of high pitched beeping, and I still sort of did here, but the smoothness of the song did such an amazing job of offsetting it
My favourite Patricia Taxxon songs are the ones about autistic joy (and since everything Taxxon makes is autobiographical, there's a lot of those), but this one is my favourite of all - it's an inspiration, a plea, an invitation.
Lyrics: You would know me if you saw me on the road I'm imposing I'm explosive I'm precocious I'm the most I'm a roving roiling presence I'm a lesson of the coast I've sung this song before, By now you're certain how it goes, but! Can you sing along? I don't hold you to the best, but can't you See the lines and dots? Don't you feel as if you're missing something? Do you understand? You think you know the mistress Well, You see me as I am, But, I'm a skeptic of the senses, I don't think you've broke The terror found in Relishing pretention, I don't think you've spoke To any of your characters, Purveyors of your barriers, The scariest it gets is far Behind the world you know So! Can you sing along? She was looking like a summer Can't you See the lines and dots? And in turn beget the sun within her Do you understand? You think you know the mistress Well, You see me as I am, But, Can you see me with the lights off? The quale I brought to class? Articulate the beauty of a flower held behind my back? Face down, ass up Represented in the black Auditorium We're telling stories of a blasphemous auritor Is the fur still succulent and downy in the mind? Face down, tail up Feel it jostle in your hand It's the beauty of a flower held behind my back I'm that doggie in the Window of your chuch Every Sunday you could See me if your Muzzle formed the words Think absurdly in the evening Think concretely by the dawn Think along the lines You recognize, But never dared to walk Can you sing along? I don't hold you to the best, but can't you See the lines and dots? Don't you feel as if you're missing something? Do you understand? You think you know the mistress Well, You see me as I am, But, Can you sense the gold Within a friendship saved? Can you lens the lurid lines Belied inside On A Clear Day? Can you grab the squalid square Laid bare amongst a Desert Rain? Can you nab the stained stripes Entwined a meek Untitled 8? I say! Can you sing along? She was looking like a summer Can't you See the lines and dots? And in turn beget the sun within her Do you understand? You think you know the mistress Well, You see me as I am, But, Can you see me with the Can you see me with the lights off? The quale I brought to class? Articulate the beauty of a flower held behind my back? Face down, ass up Represented in the black Auditorium We're telling stories of a blasphemous auritor Is the fur still succulent and downy in the mind? Face down, tail up Feel it jostle in your hand It's the beauty of a flower held behind my back
this feel like confronting and exposing my identity unapologetically it may also relate to me sharing the similar experiences of being furry, trans, xenogender and autistic i like it but also scared by the actual thoughts of being myself as i am and also it makes me want to wag my tail while i have none... i may be a dog/pup gender myself, at least i started to think about it more also "the beauty of a flower held behind my back" really resonates with me for some reason and i'm not entirely sure why, maybe it's the implication of hiding your self from the world
i think theres a lyrical comparison here between the vast amount of texture in martin's paintings (being able to find beauty that transcends observed reality) and the feeling of being a dog (also being able to find beauty that transcends observed reality). what you see is not always what is the most true or fulfilling world, like the metaphor you used before of acknowledging the existence of both sound waves (simple meaningless physics) and music (beauty and soul put into an artwork that gives those soundwaves meaning). if this is the intended parallel i find it really cool
I think the song is using the Agnes Martin rose quote as an allegory for phantom tail syndrome Fascinating abstract art is funny to me because you can't just get someone to meditate these days you have to go through the riggamaroll of painting some kind of shape or color block on a canvas that represents nothing submit it to an art gallery have people visit the art gallery and then sit and stare at it trying to comprehend what the hell it means until their brainwaves eventually bounce off the canvas back like a mirror which finally they begin reflecting on y'know meaning, existence, beauty, ego, god IDK personally though I think abstract art is kinda like trying to have a conversation in interpretive dance, which in contrast like uh a good blockbuster movie full of tropes and genre conventions is like having a conversation where you really utilise your vocabulary talk with your hands use slang use proverbs use humor use sarcasm use metaphors speak with varying tone and volume to convey the maximum amount of information and signals and symbols to get a clear point across and I think I respect the latter a bit more even as an autist just for the sake of not having to run laps inside my head
"I'm a skeptic of the senses" Really gets to me as this idea of not assuming the surface level of what you can visibly see and understand is all that's real. In this case, being skeptical of the concept of being human. And calling out someone who won't even consider the perspectives of other people. "I don't think you've broke the terror found in relishing pretention, I don't think you've spoke to any of your characters, purveyors of your barriers" This other person hasn't truly pushed their perception, they're afraid. They're afraid to question their perception, to really question seriously if someone could be an animal. And as a result, they're still restricted by invisible boundaries they just assume are a natural part of existence. And it's pretentious that they think they know everything when they haven't tasted the vivid uncomfortable terror of taking "cringe" seriously, of enjoying socially ostracized joys. They haven't broke through their own terror, questioned their character, challenged the barriers that the purveyors (society) built. "The scariest it gets is far behind the world you know" Challenging these things is scary, and it gets a lot scarier. Because the world is so much bigger than they're willing to admit. Being challenged by this song is hard for them, but it's just the beginning. The tip of the iceberg. "See the lines and dots? Don't you feel as if you're missing something? Do you understand?" I really relate to the frustrated excitement of trying to explain this to someone, this vivid sense of just wanting to shake them and say: "Can't you see? This whole world is right in front of you, and entire world of expression and identity, it's so beautiful! And the only thing stopping you from seeing is your willingness to take it seriously. Be more skeptical! Challenge those ideas you've just naturally accepted as the laws of the universe."
Huh okay yeah this song was my furry awakening lmao. Been listening to it all day B)) Time to make an amv 👁👁 (hope that’s alright,, wanted to express some emotion and show off my new fursona because now I’m a furry apparently)
If you make an amv with any dancing, I'd love to see it! I was thinking of choreographing a polka to this, but the breakdown definitely wants some other dance style.
@@DaffoDuck Not at all. A polka is a high energy originally polish dance. The basic travelling step is roughly a mix of skipping and pivotting. I was choreographing a social dance with a lead and a follow, but polka can be danced solo. Have you seen it before, or would you like some video references?
@@DaffoDuck Here's Richard Powers Choreography the Tolkyo Polka in a bunch of settings: ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-uRVMop33VK0.html It's a polka line dance.
the moment i finished listening to this song for the first time my brain went "you sure you aren't a furry?" This song tickles every single one of my senses. I feel like everything about it is perfect. Thank you so much for making music :)
I play this on loop in a futile effort to consume it entirely and permanently, only to come back the next day anyway. This song is like scented fly paper for fluffy queers. This is like the auditory version of being petted. When I give my rex guinea pig scritches she makes this noise.
Really love how the repetition of the images along with the melody entice you to actually sing the words you heard previously, just so it feels complete, it's a visual demand. And that's fun
your music has helped me realize how much of a furry i am, ive related so much to your music and ive just wanted to say thank you for making media so queer and furry. i can only hope my art inspires someone like you did to me, thank you patty
thank you for the flashing lights warning. You seem to have found yourself yet again. May you dive deep and find all of you. Even the bits you lost intentionally. You've made amazing progress.
i never feel like i GET music, (like in the sense that it seems harder for me to relate to it than for most people) but the way you put the lyrics on the screen always makes me feel a little bit closer to it
i watched this while super high and this is like the best shit i've ever seen,, to me this song is an intensely verbose yet sexy eldritch abomination taking the form of an anthropomorphic dog and seducing the fuck out of me and i love it so much; on an unrelated note thank you so much for all the art you make, you've put me on to so many great things, like because of you i started listening to ween, got back into celeste, and started playing sokoban like you're great thank you so much for making me think differently about art in a way that makes me experience art in a way i like better you are so cool (sorry for the rambling my brain is not fully functioning at the moment)
OHH THE THINGS I WOULD DO FOR A SPOTIFY RELEASE this is so good your music is so freeing and liberating it makes me feel like I'm glowing from the inside
part of the fun of patricia taxxons music is looking up what the words mean edit: to clarify i mean this as like definitions of word not the actual meaning of the lyrics edit again:i dont look up the meaning because i like making my own conclusions
Something about the progression of this music video reminds me of one of my meltdowns, and even if it wasn't the intention behind it, it still makes me happy The choices in developing the music scratch my brain and the lyrics sit with me, too
It took a few listens to get the feel for it but THIS SLAPS SO HARD HOLY SHIT!!??! I love verbose and well-articulated lyrics and funny thing I just noticed is that I'm more naturally inclined to memorize them as opposed to songs with generic, colloquial English. For sure an epic autism W, too bad I'm shy to actually sing them in front of anyone unless someone else does it with me. Also love how you unabashedly normalize and ingrain furries into your work, I've known about your channel before but never looked into it until recently. Boy have I never found someone so akin to me but way better and pushing boundaries at that. I honestly wish everyone could watch your videos at least once because I've never seen anything like them. Please never stop doing what you're doing
The lyrics in the first part hit so hard the first time, especially "I've sung this song before / By now you're certain how it goes, but" and from "Can you sing along? / I don't hold you to the best, but can't you /See the lines and dots? / Don't you feel as if you're missing something / Do you understand?"
This song feels like you being the most...you. If that makes sense. Frantic but scattered, yet still focused to a point. Innocent, but out there and proudly more yourself. :)
Wow, just wow. I'm personaly not a furry and still do not understand it all but damn that song is fire. I love the aesthetic with the glitchs and colors!! Please do more
the self confidence the chorus inspires in me is,,,,truly. unprecedented. i feel so pretty but in a trans way if that makes any sense, which is not something i can feel very easily!! so, i just love it
i keep coming back to this song and im not even a furry but its such an excellently worded representation of self expression and i just cant stop listening to it its so good!!!
I absolutely adore this. The sound design is fantastic, I have to give special mention to the sound of the light switch flicking. It just hits so well.
Thank you for introducing me to Agnes Martin, I could not have expected that something like this would ever make complete sense, but here we are. There meaning in there I gotta think about more when I create. Thank you
To me this song feels like the singer is confronting us the listener asking us how well we really know what we are listening to and the person who made it. "By now your certain how it goes, but can you sing along. I don't hold you to the best but can't you see the lines and dots, don't you feel as though your missing something, do you understand." Their wondering if we how found their "true" meaning in the song (the writers intent) the meaning is the flower held behind their back. But it the chorus it tells you the absurdity of you even looking for their meaning, how do you know they are even hiding a meaning "blaspemous orator" and does it really matter if you how found the true meaning, isn't the song beatiful on its own (that is what I get from "is the fur still succulent?") perhaps you hold the truth of the song in what it means to you, the flower is behind your back not theirs. There are more bits and peices like those that stick out to me but this comment is far to long already. also I want to make it clear that I do not think this is THE meaning of the song it is not and I at no point thought it is. This is just some that thing my brain has latched onto while I have been listening to this album for the past few weeks. Anyway I love this song so much, thank you Patricia Taxxon. : D
So i found this song a day or two ago and i just cant stop listening to it. Your music just fills that void i have when it gets too big to ignore (which is on the daily). It feels so familiar and comfortable and the right. Thankyou 💖
This is just so cool. I don't listen to much hyperpop but if it's all as good as this, maybe I should give it a shot. This is just so fun and bouncy. I love the added furry stuff, it screams you, even if I don't necrssarily know you. This is just awesome.
I feel like this is a much of a tribute to Agnes Martin as how Ulysses by James Joyce is an allusion to Homer's Odyssey. A lot of your tributes share the same coyness, tendency of disguise, sarcasm and almost tongue-in-cheek qualities that Joyce uses in Ulysses. The title and thumbnail are personal alterations to the 1997 painting series by Agnes Martin called With My Back to the World, part of a period in the mid to late 90s when she made and named her paintings during several emotional states. Perhaps this is a reflection or some ironic wink and nudge to your own?
Think you would release an instrumental of this? It's amazing don't worry just would be absolutely awesome to play without lyrics too. Sounds like a bomb ticking down and the hyperpop backing is soooo good
