You Long For A Great And Real Love Because You Are Meant to Have It 

Yep. 61 years old and have crap fitted all my life. Since hearing your videos since 6 mo. ago. I have completely changed who I decide to be around. I'm staying single until the right one comes along. If they don't, I am just fine on my own. What a difference it makes when you respect yourself and take care of yourself like you'd been doing for others with no appreciation. I appreciate myself more and that's golden. So many not good men have slinked around, now I can guilt free walk away from losers. I'm free to choose. Thank you for all you do.

This is so timely. I sat down today and just cried. I didn't even know what I was crying about but it just had to come out. For once, I didn't have to be the person who supports everyone. I am acknowledging the person who never receives support from anyone else.

The title alone is so comforting to me. My mom has always tried to convince me that I’m unrealistic and idealistic about finding true love. She’s talked me into staying in unhealthy relationships multiple times… I don’t understand why. She settled for my dad (they’re divorced 10 years) and she deeply regrets it, so why does she want me to do the same?? I am not going to settle. I don’t care what people say. I’m meant to find someone I feel crazy about, in a healthy way. Im not the problem, I just haven’t met the right person yet.

I want to tell anyone watching this that what we long for is possible. I definitely have had all the struggles so many who follow this channel have. Abandonment, lack of boundaries, self neglect, codependency issues, etc. AND YET! While I've been healing from all the hardships, suffering, and unconscious relationships I've been a part of, this incredible love arrived in my life. It has been the most nourishing, delightful and joyous experience I've been blessed to be a part of. At the same time, I've wrestled deeply with fear and my own darkness. Finding the person to hold that container of healing, who is a willing mirror and is also moving forward in their own evolution makes all the difference. I'm living a dream I did not know was possible.

I fluctuate between believing I don't need a man and thinking I should be on my own, to pining for a faceless man who I pray will come into my life and love me and take care of me. It's difficult to separate what the world tells us from what our heart tells us.

This brought me to tears. I'm 58, and the people around me think I'm silly for wanting the love of my life to come along, and I have definitely had days when I've been beyond discouraged, but the desire remains. I'm so grateful for this video that lets me know to keep healing. I'm made for this kind of love. ❤ Thank you, beautiful fairy.

Dealing with limerence has been a wild ride, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy

I feel so blessed to have a crappy childhood fairy. i can't even begin to express how much of a help you have been to my life. This was so timely -- and I am as always, so encouraged to continue forward in my journey. Onward to authenticity! Onward to love. I deserve it, and I will receive it in due time.

After major narcissist abuse. I covet aloneness, not loneliness, I don't get lonely. I have a homestead with animals, lots of friends, kids, grandchildren and a job I love....I enjoy my own company and have no problem going to movies or out to eat alone.....I actually enjoy quiet

For 8 magnificent years with my 2nd husband, until he sickened and died with Alzheimer's, I had a taste of being completely accepted for who I am, and being cherished anyway. I thought this couldn't happen for me. The we that we were, showed me that as long as I keep working on my own character, I'm worthy of a man of character, whether healing from his own wounding or having lived free of it. I'm almost 69 now; I can't believe that in all my life, that 8 years was it. The loneliness of caregiving my late spouse, along with having moved 750 miles to do that, leaving everyone and everything familiar behind, plus the pandemic, has left me very susceptible to limerence. I'm on my second "object" in just a year, right after I got over the first. This one is an actual man of value, serving the community, and married, and I guarantee you I'm staying the hell away from him. I don't want him; I'm aching for someone just like him. And I know this ache is a sign of something I will deserve when I find it.

I'm a 25 year old man and I already feel like I'll never find real love. It's not because I don't believe, that it's waiting for me somewhere and sometime in the future, but because I know I'm not worthy of it at all. On top of a multitude of physical problems - balding so much that I look like my 50+ years old father, destroyed and unfixable teeth, being half blind and deaf on one ear, with heart problems and some others - there are also a ton of mental difficulties I have to face and work on. Recently I'd become limerent for an amazing person and the first thought that popped to my mind was "you wouldn't want someone you love to be with someone as broken as you, right?". It killed my feelings for her really quickly. I absolutely wouldn't want the person I care about, choose me over any of the more amazing, healthy and normal men or women out there. I want to love and be loved, but I don't want to burden them just by being in their lives and stopping them from meeting actual quality people. Thankfully I've never met anyone who'd be even slightly interested in giving me a chance, so I've never had to reject them. Deep in my heart I still want to meet someone, to whom I could give all of myself, but my reality killed any interest I've had in pursuing love and it also makes it difficult to find reasons to pursue other goals in life. I also haven't had any friends in the last 7 years and my parents ignored my existence for most of my life, which taught me how to deal with loneliness. That's the only skill that still keeps me sane while I'm alone. Sadly, love is the one and only problem that feels absolutely hopeless and has been giving me countless hours of weeping and arguing with myself. Either way, I wanted to thank you for being on youtube. I've found your channel only recently and your videos on CPTSD has been really helpful to me. Normally I wouldn't write this kind of message. I keep my problems to myself since I've learned that no one really cares about them. I still don't know why I'm writing this and I honestly cringe right now, but this video made me feel like I had to get it off my chest, so hopefully no one reads this. If someone does though, at least I hope you can't relate to it because everyone deserves to feel worthy of love, which in the end sounds hypocritical coming from me.

19 years alone as a single mom. Was dropped off at a state orphanage the day I was born and was adopted out to a couple who looked good on paper because of a paycheck and church attendance. This horrifically dysfunctional couple : wife a 400lb histrionic who hated " motherhood" and a sleezy husband who caught herpes from prostitutes and is now on wife #5. Despite the abuse and neglect , I still believe in love and I ask the universe every day to send me a good man who can love as strongly as I do . Thank you Anna !!!!!!❤❤❤❤

In some way’s I was more comfortable during the lock downs because everyone was feeling what I’ve always felt, though my own self-isolation. Only I no longer had to explain to myself why I stayed at home all the time with no one to hang out with. Now that things are resuming, I find myself experiencing that alone in a crowd feeling again. Which runs far deeper than just being my myself. The few times some kind soul makes an effort, I have such and an urge to overreact, grab them and hold on, that I shut myself down. Knowing if I am too eager, I will push them away. Instead I just stay silent unable to hold the most basic of conversations.

The lockdown is over. I’m divorced for almost a year and finally ready to find a partner and share a healthy relationship. I’m just terrified I’ll make the same mistakes as I did in the past. I am equally terrified of being alone forever when all I want is stability, honesty and love that will give as much as I do. Cheers to all the good in this community.

I don't want to be 'saved' ...carried off by Prince Charming...I'm too old and too practical now to buy into that narrative...I just find that having loved someone to my best ability and having that person put me second, third, ..etc...I just have finally come to the conclusion that I DESERVE to be loved as MUCH as I love...with the same honor, dedication and to be cherished.

“It’s not really a thing you get, it’s a state of consciousness you go into”

Wow..... this made me cry... i am meant for love you are right; i cant even fight it. We are born to love one another.

I’ve always felt I have so much love to give yet I’m now 48 and have never been married. Several years ago I thought I had possibly met “the one”. He checked ALL the boxes, which no one ever had before. I thought this could be the person I had prayed for over the past 25 years. But apparently I was wrong. There are many wonderful things about being single but my heart has always longed to know the perfect love you talked about. I needed this video to spark some hope that it is still possible for me. Thank you. ❤

This is the only message I needed to hear. Thank you a million times. I pray all my brothers and sisters make it 🙏

I'm honestly such an introvert, the lock down didn't alter my life much. I work a little less, visit friends and family and did all the while...I just don't feel comfortable in crowds or bigger groups. Just 2 or 3 people around for a couple HR a week is all I need...I LOVE the quiet of my homestead and animals....

Anna, thank you for this and for giving me hope when I have pretty much lost it. Divorced over 16 years and since there has been nothing absolutely nothing but unpleasant encounters with men, who have shown no interest in me whatsoever. I feel so low despite keeping fit physically, traveling solo, taking classes and keeping active and attractive. It is unbelievable and really is tough to keep plodding along. Turning 65 soon, so sure hope for this kind of love to happen soon, well before my 80's if possible! I am certain I am missing having and giving it. fingers crossed for all who hope and pray, every day for something special and beautiful and no less than that!

Last nite I told myself I am ready to open up for love… this is my sign I’m ready. Thank you 🙏💛

Love just happens, even if you’re not looking for it… and when it comes, it’s real joy and peace in your heart.

I was literally talking to God about this earlier on my drive. I fully trust and believe I deserve healthy good love and it will come to pass I can feel it. Thank you for this timely topic ❤

Dear Anna, I'm attempting to be friends with someone who is the first person who I know has been disinterestedly kind to me. I think. But it is wearing me out. The contrast between my life and theirs is devastating. It feels as if they have love in their life and I haven't. I feel very much the orphan outside his house, and can't imagine being inside, ever. But I trust your words .

I experienced that oneness by accident, when I let someone close. We were cuddling for 14 hours, and entered some kind of meditative state, it's like nothing I had ever felt before, like white light, wholeness, like we were on drugs.

Ok the timing of this was hilarious. I was trying to fall asleep just now but started thinking about how I miss having someone to fall asleep next to and started feeling a bit emotional. Thinking of parts of all my prior relationships that were really nice. Realized I wasn't going to fall asleep yet so I opened RU-vid and this notification came up!

I want to thank you so much for how much you changed me as a person. One year ago I was constantly crying and sobbing about how I finally moved out of my toxic family household I use to live in. When I first moved out I struggled to know who I was as a person. I had my ‘dark knight’ take over me and I couldn’t function as a ‘normal’ human being. I finally woke up to my reality and finally detach myself to my past and who I once was you and one other person showed me how to grow and take steps into finding my true power and my true path. Thank you so much for informing and spreading awareness to something that could effect people in adulthood. I hope one day I can do the same as well

This is something I have sought my whole life, but sadly gave it up too early and I fear it's now too late for me. I am convinced that we come into life with a purpose and sadly I suspect mine never included knowing a true love. I love my kids and it will have to do. My lot in life was apparently to marry a narcissist and learn some kind of soul lesson from it. I only hope that there is reincarnation and perhaps I will get another chance in another life.

After many toxic and abusive relationships throughout my life…those ended in 2006… in retrospect I have never had real love from partners family or even my own mother. I used to ruminate on an old love on Facebook until I realized that wasn’t love either… I pray that before I die I hoped that I meet my person….that accepts me for me…God he my cry please

There must be an old folk wisdom, "When the student is ready the lesson will begin!" When you originally made this video it would have meant very little to me. I had too much healing to do and too much to learn. Back then I would have put it into the "does not apply to me " basket. Today it was an answer to a dilemma I have been struggling with for months.

I love love. I really do. Did you know that there are at least 7 types of love? I will be fully content when it comes to love. I know that in my heart. But romantic love is not on the table.

My wife passed away 10 years ago. She was the love of my life. I’m 70 and I still hope to find love again. There’s been many disappointments and lonely nights but I never seem to give up hope there’s another gal out there for me. Thanks Anna.

"Love yourself first", "your too picky" are the things people who serial date, are married, been married and have kids etc are always saying to me. I have been single most my adult life, lived through some real intense pain, disease, abuse etc all alone. I now wish for a beautiful strong relationship with a man I am deeply attracted to and feel connected with. I believe after everything I've been through I deserve it. The 'be good by yourself' and 'go on tinder' BS I'm constantly being told drives me crazy.

It’s a hole in your heart. And it can’t be fixed by “love”. Please tell folks that a “great” love may not look like you think it should. Here is what happened when I figured out my mom was, without doubt, at least a narcissist, at most, a dark triad, or worse: it almost killed me. I wanted to die. Found out I have kidney disease. After that, it healed that hole. I certainly don’t know how this all worked. I suspect it was the realization that she is not capable of love. Realizing the lengths she went to to ruin every relationship in my life has been eye opening.

Oh my god, your opening line to this video made me cry. The whole thing made me cry! I've watched this one before, but it weirdly just came up in my feed again at a point where I was going to make a not super positive comment to someone in another of your videos. She was 17 and said she "felt it in her bones" that she was going to find her love outside of her family of origin someday. I was going to say something along the lines of "good luck with that, I felt the same way in my awful family at 17 and even remembered feeling so sure I could find that love once I left". Then I saw this. I hope you are right. Here I am at 55 STILL waiting and hoping and trying to heal myself! I'm about out of my own hope and I want it bad enough that it literally hurts sometimes. I was crying earlier. I would add, that, yea, it might not be too late to find that love, but look at all the parts that ARE too late, the chance to build a life together, the chance to have firsts together, TIME to spend together (before both of us get sick and die) the energy to have adventures together. Being supportive of each other. ALL those great things and adventures that I have done with my life as a single person, that I could have shared with the right partner all this time. I am heading out to Austin tomorrow night for an adventure I have been looking forward to. Guess what, I'm doing THAT alone too, just like every other thing I ever did. All of it alone. I'm soo sick of it! I bought 2 tickets for everything for the whole weekend, tons of money spent, can't even get someone to go with me for free!!! On one hand, the concert part of it, I'll just be glad to listen to the music by myself. I am sure I will have fun all weekend. I'll even meet people probably. I'm still sick of being alone my whole life! Planning every event alone. Going places that would be safer and more fun with a partner. I'm even more sick of taking a risk and opening my heart only to get hurt. But, no excuse for me to rain on the parade of a kid who may get a better shot at healing herself than me, because she found your stuff early. Glad I just erased the comment.

Thank you! After years of doing the work, I'm slowly stepping out and with the intention to connect with people, and I am enjoying it. Sometimes the prospect (not necessarily the opportunity) to date appears, and instead of jumping at it, I respect boundaries, set my own, and just savor the moments of connection. I appreciate the experiences for what they are, no matter the outcomes. And take it from someone in film, this looks pretty good for your first video. 😎

My whole life I have known what I want and waited for it. I've accepted a few scraps along the way just because it hurts to be alone constantly, but I never mistook them for the real thing. But honestly I feel like I have cumulative ptsd (CPTSD but not from childhood) from how many times men I thought were good betrayed me or just ghosted me. It doesn't make me think I'm unworthy, just that maybe I'm cursed or that real love isn't out there anymore. I don't give up looking, but I end up plagued with resentment and bitterness that I've been deprived. I'm 42, never married, missed my chance to have kids, and even without the fear that my chances only decrease the older I get, I am just bitter at all the time I've already spent feeling a deep unmet longing.

Yay you mentioned God and christianity. Many christians are afraid to talk about their faith because the world can be so judgemental. I'm a christian and get so excited when RU-vidr mention praying etc. Thanks for your helpful videos!

After surviving the end of a horrible limmerance experience last yr., I still believe in finding that one REAL love. I've done so much healing work during & after that last situation. I know I'm so different than I was & ready to experience real, mature love. Several of my friends look at me like I'm nuts when I try to talk to them about us all finding a mature, healed companion to share our lives with. I think they've given up. They just don't like the sound of hearing themselves admit it. When I listen to the friends that are in relationships, all I hear is confirmation of the toxic love styles they refuse to see & heal. Listening to all of them has helped me to better measure my progress. Previously, I wouldn't have recognized how deeply they were all stuck in their wounded behaviors. Now I hear something different. I'm ok with being different from them all now. I expect to be moving toward many new improved relationships, both with friends and new love possibilities. My energy has changed, for the better, so I know I will find new better life experiences. Thanks Anna! Discoving the Crappy Childhood Fairy videos last yr. has added so much to my healing journey!❣️

Yes. This is exactly what I've heard in my church: that truevlove is real, and is the only way you can see trough God's eyes. 🥰

The one thing I learned from my healing journey was that it was super important to sit with my loneliness, I had to do it in order to learn exactly who I was and what I wanted in life. And my inner voice spoke to me and helped me heal. And my longing for love increased almost to the point of insanity.... little did I know that meant that I was on the path to meeting my husband. It was a spiritual path to healing and love. I didn't understand it at the time but I look back and it all makes perfect sense

This is a good video. Thank you. Yup, I’m 62. I still believe even though sometimes the doubts can creep in, especially after turning 60, having gone through a painful but mostly expected divorce at 56 and then a very painful unexpected breakup/broken engagement at 61. I’m continuing to heal. I get caught up in my history in that I had a good childhood. Consistent, loving, stable parents, reliable, always there. I think I shouldn’t struggle. But a medical doctor molested me at age 14 or 15, I honestly can’t remember, and the derailment began. I’ve accomplished a lot of good things including amazing adult children and 3 good careers, but heartache and heartbreak have been woven throughout. I’m quite content to be single and living alone now. I’m eligible to retire next year and have big plans to have fun, even solo. But I want a loving, kind, consistent big love partner. I want to believe.

What a beautiful message. I believe that love is the most natural thing for people to do. It's all of the trauma, pain, damage from others and life that distort it into something unhealthy. When someone is healing/healed, and finds someone else who is also healing/healed, that shared love is who we were made to be. Gentle, comforting, healing, liberating, uplifting, expanding, natural. It is meant to be shared in all relationships in our lives, not just romantic partners. I've always had a deep longing for it and as I get older I understand it better.

Narcissistic abuse in my 20s destroyed my dream of love, my libido, my happiness and my peace, and brought shame, depression and anxiety into my life. I never thought i'd be able to stand face to face with a woman again, or allow myself to trust and be tender and vulnerable and simply believe in that dream of love again. I grew up with that dream and experienced one relationship before the abusive one that came somewhat close to that dream. In my 30s i tried dating again but really chose the wrong women and they didn't work, but also because i was so wounded and mistrustful. Physical illness and disability also developed to make matters even worse. I then just gave up on relationships and my dream, and now i'm 53 ... where did the time go? What happened to my dream? So after eventually getting a good load of counselling recently after going through a severe depression, i now find myself in a position where i can cope and advance in my development a little and make some positive changes and i'm feeling a little hope and positivity for that dream, but for now i'm just trying to better myself and my situation and regain my lost self worth and dashed hopes. Heck it's not just a dream of a loving relationship but also the dream i had for myself and my whole life.

2020 shook my rug and all the crap landed on top. 2 and a half years later now Oct 2022, so glad I have worked through things and didn't run from my loneliness. Still working on myself...its a longing for Love (God) that keeps me going.

"Meant to be" has always seemed like magical thinking/entitlement. In line with "deserve"...

She's been longing for me as I have been longing for her. I don't know who she is yet, but she's out there.

Anna, just want you to know, I appreciate you so much. You are such a shining light on the internet.

Thank you Crappy Childhood Fairy. The fact that you share yourself, your wisdom, and your knowledge is a blessing for so many of us. Thank you a thousand times. May God bless you always, in all ways.

I know real love is out there. I BELIEVE WE WERE CREATED FOR COMMUNION AND LOVE. THAT LOCK DOWN STILL EXISTS IN MY CURRENT. THAT LOCK DOWN TURNED PEOPLE I THOUGHT I KNEW INTO WALKING DEAD. This one came back as a timely reminder. Thanks ❤

I haven’t even watched the video and I’m already crying. Thank you for your encouragement and for the work you do!

WOW, this blew me away!!! I've seen so many of your videos and this is completely different. Couldn't have come at a more perfect time - going through this now and feeling scared. Doing my healing work diligently and hoping I can sustain this precious new relationship.

Thanks to my own tenacious work, and the wisdom shared by videos like yours, my healing journey away from early CPTSD is accelerating. Can we ever know for sure that we are 'finished' in this quest? No matter, for we are learning and practicing real-time tools to keep us on track. The suppression of our natural needs for connection came about because of a seeming inability to get in synch with social norms. It's no wonder. Dysregulation and clinging tendencies do not make for lasting relationships. My own constant fear and worry kept me focused on the past, reluctant to live in a world of the present that I did not 'belong' in, and overly concerned about possible issues looming in the future. Having learned to 'let go' of clearly understood yet ever-present ruminations has allowed me to experience the present as I only did pre-CPTSD. Typing this was very triggering; yet the flare of emotions was easy and quick to calm and move past. There is a sense of excitement with regaining the ability to live in the present; and feel safe.

I recognize a little skeptisism can be good, but sometimes have to work to not be cynical... about love. To not write off the possibility of something I've never experienced in 60 years. As a therapist I find one of the things that is the most helpful for struggling clients, is the instillation of hope. You are so good at instilling hope, not based on flowery fairtales or dreams, or by catering to people's deepest desires; but from a practical stand point. This video reminded me that yes, I will know that love someday. Not a matter of if, but of when. I needed to get that back so thank you. Best wishes.

I’m in my 40’s and I’m glad I found content like this. I see people in their 60’s comment on this channel and although I don’t mean to be ageist but I will say that I’m happy there are commenters older than me who talk about their journey because it doesn’t matter what age you are, we can still experience love, no matter how much time we have left on this planet. God bless you all and thank you for being in my life no matter how much we are strangers. I’m glad I’m not alone. Thank you.

Oh Anna, thank you so much for this video. What a gift! It really moved me, even to tears. I’ve been seeing a man who is very nice and we do have fun doing things, but I know in my heart of hearts that it’s not a great love. And I deeply yearn for that great love and union, just as you say. I keep feeling that I SHOULD love this man. But I don’t feel the kind of heart and soul connection that I long for. You’ve helped me see that forcing this is crap fitting. Bless you. You are a treasure!

Wow, I needed to hear this after a relationship didn’t work out. I crave deep love and have a lot to give. And I deserve it in return.

I'm 47. Even *if* someone finds me attractive now (at 47?? That ship has sailed!), maybe only a few healthy years together before he dies and then I'm in the same place all over again. You've preached it plenty, Childhood Fairy, all relationships are codependent. There is NO SUCH THING as Love, it's an emotion, NOT a commodity you give or get from people or things. I'm learning acceptance in doing what I enjoy by myself, in my own space, on my own schedule.

This is such a beautiful message. I wonder if Anna reads Marianne Williamson and her writings on love? She also says that when we fall in love with another person, it’s a spiritual experience, and a chance to see another human being as God does. I haven’t felt it in a long, long time…not in a reciprocal way, at least. But I do believe it! 🥰

I had it once. I was once engaged to a wonderful, kind, courageous and gentle man. He made me feel special and wonderful. I felt like I was worth something for the first time in almost a decade (since my grandma, the only person who ever said "I love you" and I knew she meant it, died). I even loved that I made him laugh. But he was killed in a car accident 13 years ago and I've been struggling ever since. I know I'm never going to love another person like him ever again. I want to love again. I want to be loved again.

I would often beat myself up about how hard it is to find love, that I was doing something wrong or not doing the the right things. But then I listened and paid more attention to the stories of the people who found love, and the common theme unbeknownst to them or not - was they all stumbled into love despite themselves. It didn't seem to matter what their techniques were, if they were ugly or attractive, whether they looks-matched or not, had money, a future or even if they had prior experience in relationships. It just would happen despite themselves. A woman who had a certain type of wealthy man she'd go for met some guy in a trailer park and just got it in her mind that "i really like this guy, I dunno, i just do". And then she eventually married him. (Real story by the way). This is when I realised we're literally competing with fate and chance when we try to take matters into our own hands and find love. It doesn't matter if your the richest, best looking, greatest person in the world or the exact opposite, love is either going to happen or it's not. It's either on your path or it isn't. Go look at someone who's not meant to be in a relationship, watch them do all the right things and repeatedly fail. Go watch someone who is meant to be in a relationship, watch them do all the wrong things despite themselves, and yet relationships keep coming left and right. It's not red pill, it's not black pill, it's white pill. Love is either gonna happen, or it's not. Nothing about whatever you can do or can't do, means you're gonna get it or not get it. It's just fate and chance.

This is relevant. I’m not understanding my life right now. I’ve opened myself up several times to love this year alone. Gone out of my way and put myself out there. Shown up as best myself. Yet I’ve been ghosted and cast aside by each person. I saw qualities that I loved in those people yet…they don’t accept me. I am very hurt. It’s hard not to think that love’s not in the cards for me now.

Thank you! "It is pointing you home." What a relief! I thought it is crazy to look for the real love, because it might never come.

Funny enough I think you, your hair and your background look great in the old video. Interesting how you had to preface it or almost apologize for the look. I do that - I grew up with love and sev addicts - what I said wasn’t important but how it looked was everything. Your content is wonderful so keep going

What's behind it? It's simple. We never had it... I also don't feel it's 'always' about our own defenses. Nomatter what I have been through, Im always re-attempting to be vulnerable again and be kind. Treat others the way I would like to be treated. The main issue I feel is we are dealing with others with their baggage and trauma. The nicer you treat these people (eg. Simply invite someone to an event they were grateful for and wanted to go), especially if they are out of self awareness, the more they see you as a threat to their 'normal' or they elevate you to their caretaker without the give and take of re-lating back. I find that the crappier you treat people, the more those people get rewarded. I'm not going to be that way so I have no choice but to self isolate until I find my tribe, if hopefully one day I can. That's where I'm at. I have many days where I'm in a good place and a good frame of mind (I've always been on the hopeful side) but I just can't grasp some of the truths above which I have seen time and time again for almost 50 years. It is also getting worse with integrity and character not being rewarded by society in general.

Anna, I just wanna thank you for mentioning God. Just wanna mention SF Lighthouse Church on Sutter Street ⛪♡ VERY SPECIAL services there Tonight and tomorrow about God.. I'm far away in the Midwest, but if I were there, I would go. The speaker just flew in from Texas a few hours ago. He wrote an AMAZING book called: How To Be Made Whole. I usually can't read books; but this one, I stuck with and couldn't put down. It's a true story. His name is Robin Steele. The church had been shut down, and struggled greatly to remain. It is just now getting restarted. It's a VERY special place. I invite you to go. You won't be disappointed. ♡♡♡♡♡ God Bless You

I was abused as a child by my mother and have left me with a lot of emotional problems however, I always felt lucky and especially so today because I found your channel and a lot of what you say resonate with how I feel- I feel validated and seen. Thank you! :)

I’ve always wanted to be a wife yet I’ve struggled with having that very desire. Thank you for this reminder 💛

Oh boy! What a kicker right in the end there. I love the subtle nuggets that fall between words. She's right though, I'd rather experience that kind of love before I die than dying without experiencing it. Recovery, here I come! 🥰

Could you please tell me what are the ways to show your child that you are loved? Raised in emotionally dysfunctional (no hugs, no encouragements, no special time), how do I make time with my child relevant, meaningful and opportunities I can show they are loved? Are there any good articles that shows trauma adults how to show love to your children? What steps to take?

Dear Anna, I just discovered your channel. I really appreciate your loving coaching for those who have experienced trauma as children (in today’s world it seems that most have). I really loved this video, and I am very thankful for your boldness to mention God, even at the risk of possibly offending some of your listeners. I want to ask if you have considered Jesus. He is quoted as saying, “If you have seen me, you have seen the Father.” Jesus claimed to have a oneness with God that no other can have outside of Him (Jesus). When I answered Jesus’ call to put my trust in Him, I found a love that I had never imagined. My relationship with Him is constantly growing and alive. I have Him to thank for all good things in my life, including strength, healing, and unconditional love. His word, the Bible, is how I have come to know Him in a deeper way, and it has changed my life. If you are not sure about who Jesus is, or if what is said about Him in the Bible is true, I highly recommend a thoughtful book by Lee Strobel, called Case for Christ. It is a very sad fact that there is sin in this world, but in His great love for us, our Maker, the Father, sent His Son - that He who knew no sin would be sin for us, that in Him, we might become the righteousness of God. I look forward to watching more of your videos. God bless you in your fight for true love, and your willingness to help others to be fulfilled. Sincerely, Calley

Thank you so much for this very valuable message.so many of us really need to hear this ❤️❤️

This is astounding in so many different ways. Thank you so much for sharing your perspectives and knowledge.

Thank you so so much for posting this!! I am still hopeful and I believe! ❤ Thank you for speaking your faith and beliefs and giving encouragement and hope to others!!!

I have been watching you over a year & so many videos resonate with me but this one really brought it all in perspective and I appreciate your insight. Thank you for sharing this video 💗 and doing this work to assist all of us in our healing

Thank you for this affirming message. It is so good., there is still time

Because of my healing, I met my person and we are currently in separation, and I am so grateful for all of it… This video is amazing and thank you! 🙏🏽❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

Wow, I needed to hear this. So much that I could say, but I won't. I will continue to hope for real love, even when my mind tells me to let it go. Thank you for this.

From the deepest part of my soul, thank you 🙏

Thank you so much for your videos! After learning about limerence, I started stopping myself from feeling empty or longing for love the instant anything related crossed my mind. I need to acknowledge my feelings.💚

I seem to be one of the few people who found the first lockdown almost relaxing. It certainly helped being able to swap to and continue working online at the time (I really feel for those who were financially strapped over that time). However, the isolation during lockdown didn't really alter my normal social and personal situation. Listening to other people, though, it was a huge psychological shift that has permanently impacted them.

Such a beautiful encouraging message...I've always believed in love that echoes through eternity...even though ppl tell me it my fairy-tale love don't exist....I will always believe in it

I’ve done so much healing, a joke that I share with my friends after some positive feedback is “I won therapy!” Haha. Your video confirmed everything I came to a conclusion about in my journey. Your video has confirmed that I’m still on the right path and good things are guaranteed. Thanks for all you do. Hopefully one day, I’ll find the magic within me to do what you do. Stay blessed!

Love you and your videos so much. Thank you for all your support ❤

I love you! ❤ I’m so grateful for your presence in my life 🌹

Thank you for sharing this beautiful and hopeful message. By the way, you mentioned not having access to hairstyling at the time - but I think your hair looks great! 😊

Oh my gosh. Thank you Anna. This came at just the moment I needed to hear it.

Awe. It was worth the wait. Did not disappoint. 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Thank you so much, I needed this❤️🙏🏼

The timing is perfect. I said to myself literally couple hours ago that i'm open and ready for love. Than this video popped up! Thanks for all you do!

Allowing my heart to listen and hear for the song in my soul. Thank you 💚

oh my! 😊 thank you so much for being so good at what you do .

So encouraging, thank you 🤍🥰🌟

You are right, healing becomes a great asset.

How beautifully said!

God bless ❤ Thank you for yet another extremely relevant and timely video. Real love IS NOT a fantasy .

You are already bringing this love into my life through your work and presence here ❤️❤️❤️

My partner and I talk about this exact thing, the "gift" of the lockdown. We spent more time together and talked about subjects relating to our respective abusive childhoods. It never occurred to me that he also has PTSD and perhaps CPTSD, undiagnosed. We both have spent years in therapy trying to come to terms with the wounds. Our conversations included talking, listening, and validating to each other at a deeper level, and sharing aspects of our wounds AND our healings. We are growing closer than ever. I am just recently starting to "feel" into my/our experiences. The world "slowed down" enough to enable it. Your video is right on about feeling into and exploring the sense of isolation, certainly for us. We both experienced isolation in our childhood, in spite of us both having two parents! Thankyou so much, @Crappy_Childhood_Fairy! We relate!💗💗

Yes!! 👏I discovered you during lock down, I can't remember how. Best thing that happened to me.