Timestamps! 0:00 Prom Queen - Beach Bunny 2:14 Miss Wanna Die - Juliet Simmons 5:33 Young - Vacation 8:40 Home - Cavetown 12:26 Since i saw Vienna - Wilbur Soot 14:53 Alien Blues - Vundabar 17:29 Not Allowed - TV Girl 20:17 Dark Red - Steve Lacy 23:08 Sharpener - Cavetown 27:04 Nobody - Mitski 30:19 Useless Child - 34:33 All The Things She Said - t.A.T.u
At this point I don’t just stay up because I’m a night owl. I’m stay up because it’s the only time when the world seems peaceful with no arguments or bad situations. I just get to lay down take a breather for a sec before I end up falling asleep and waking back up into the nightmare…
I have started having the exact same situation, i haven’t slept now in over a week, just crying my eyes out and overthinking every second if my life. I know exactly how you feel, I hope you feel better now, virtual hugs
There's nothing wrong with your eyes. There's nothing wrong with your nose There's nothing wrong with your height There's nothing wrong with your skin There's nothing wrong with your mouth There's nothing wrong with your hair There's nothing wrong with your face There's nothing wrong with your body There's nothing wrong with your hands There's nothing wrong with your fingers There's nothing wrong with your teeth There's nothing wrong with YOU you are perfect. I am so proud of you:) You made it this far. You are amazing:) Don't give up. NEVER GIVE UP you're pretty You're precious Don't need to be insecure abt your face. You are so beautiful
y'all why do i relate to all of this so much. i literally have a great life. i have great family, great friends. why do i feel this way? why am i the way i am?
I know EXACTLY what you mean. Being a straight A student, all honors or AP classes, experienced performer, and yet feeling like theres something wrong with ME. NOT the fact that our experiences make us who we are, and life is a very unpredictable thing. NOT that we are here when we don't have to be, and our emotions are driven my chemical processes in our brains. INSTEAD, what did I do to make/deserve for this to happen. Pls, feel free to come back to this post and let go of your stress and emotions. Not a single person here will judge, as a lot of people on here are going through the same thing- that's why we have created this safe community. Thank you for reading! 💙
I have the same problem. I feel like I'm not allowed to feel bad about myself because I have such a great life too. So whenever I ask myself if I'm okay, I immediately tell myself "well of course I'm okay, I don't have anything bad going on". Even when I remind myself of all the different things that have happened in my life, I still think about how I could be so much worse in so many different ways and that fact that I feel too privileged makes me think I can't feel sad cause I have everything I would ever need. I'm not rich or anything, but my mom has a pretty high paying job so we have an extremely low chance of anything bad happening. The only thing that seems to break through this idea is my common worries about my future and that fact that I'm in high school and how I have zero clue where I'm going from here. Sorry to dump all this on you, I only planned to write a few sentences. I hope you get better
to the person reading this, It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make a change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tried to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it when you don’t feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind want to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence, and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story, not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they are :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s the night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s the day for you, don’t start it with such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water every day in the morning, and so on. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s the evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course, you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self-care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you to a song as your friend. “Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn’t smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug-like it's your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and a great year. Not mine but u can spread it :)
@@Anonymouspersonxxx you're soo young to be experiencing this, im so sorry :( . But just know that it may not get better but if you keep believing, you can get out this mess. keep your head up champ, try everyday and if you feel weak, just know that there are multiple people like you and you arent the only one. You're loved :)
this comment fr fr made me sob like i never did or months thznk you i cant't express my gratitude for the existence of this comment. i will be turning 14 on april, it's incredible how we aare so young yet so hurt. Comrade, hang on that thread. We will make it. I swear on my magic that we will make it out alive and well.
I clicked 'show more' expecting it to only be a few more sentences. Now, im crying in the middle of class, this made me so happy even though you don't even know me. Man, junior year is going real shitty right now. So, thank you!
Almost 2AM, mental state low, unable to sleep, wish I was able to. Luckily, there's fun playlists to keep me company when everyone else is hitting their personal snooze buttons. Thank you, kind stranger, may you find your worth in the waking world.
I used to be happy but school ruined it but turns out i've been depressed for a while, and this+rain noises really helps me sleep bc i usually cant sleep so this helps so so much. Its crazy how some random person understands us. 😢😭
I feel your pain, but I have complete faith that you can get through this. You can get through this obstacle for life, I hope your days get better. I wish the best of you, truly. -from a stranger who cares about you :D
My cat might have just died. I won’t know because no one answered the phone but the vet said they would call if she needed life support. The other option was putting her down, considering we didn’t answer she was probably out down. I’m gonna miss my baby so much if she’s gone, this playlist is helping me through a really hard time right now, thank you so much.
yep! its like I want to die but don't because I don't want the chance of anyone being upset, but I don't want to exist. I want to wipe my self from all space and time so not even memories remain......make it like I was never here.......y'know?
Honestly idk if these playlists make me feel better or worse. But I dont think it really matters because in the end i think i wouldve always been this way. I am so tired of feeling like im going insane. Questioning my own existence and feeling overwhelmed by the future. Im tired of the repetitiveness. Im tired of school. Im tired of my mom treating my whole family like garbage. I dont want to feel how i feel anymore. Paranoid of losing everyone i love. Im ruining my relationship with my best friend because i get paranoid and think she hates me. So i distance myself. One second im okay and everything is fine and even the slightest difference in the way she said or texted anything to me would ruin my mood. Because thats how it is with my mom. I dont know why im so dependent on people. Why my feelings are only dependent on them. But I genuinely think shes trying to leave me. I think the fact that i moved gave her the oppourtunity to become more distant. Because she takes forever to answer my texts. To be honest, I wouldnt blame her. Sometimes i want to just ghost all of my friends. Because i know im a terrible person. I know i became so draining to be friends with, just being around me im sure was too much. It doesnt matter that i have severe depression that has been left untreated for years. Im positive i have made others uncomfortable by just existing. because i couldnt just be happy. Because i couldnt just enjoy the moment. So i wouldnt be mad if anyone didnt want to be in my life. So maybe i need to just let go altogether. Of everyone. Even the friends ive made here. Before i get too dependent on them. I need to erase myself from everyone's lives. I cant bear my own existence anymore. I dont care about good grades. I dont want to go to college. I dont want to be a dropout but i dont want to be successful. I just want to be gone. I hurt myself when im happy. When im sad. When im angry. There is something so wrong with me. I think im going crazy. I tried so hard the first week of school to be organized and put together and have good grades. But it fell apart in less than a month. Maybe i shouldnt say this here but i havent talked to anyone about my problems in a while, and im not telling anyone i know about what im going to do, so i think i really just need to get this out. Tonight im gonna kill myself. It probably isnt going to work. But im just so tired. I cant go another day. Nobody can help me. Even when i last attempted, and i told my parents, they didnt do anything to help. So theres no point in getting help, because it wont help. I dont want to see how miserable my family is. I dont want to go to school. I dont want to feel hurt anymore. I dont want to talk to my friends. Nothing is going to help. I cant do this anymore. I cant handle living. I dont want to just escape my problems. I want to escape life. I dont want to be happy. Because even after happy moments theres the bad moments. And it just keeps going. It never ends. Im tired of that. Im so so fucking tired of it.
please don't, if you want someone to talk to about literally anything like your favorite song or how your feeling or your favorite show I'll give you my Snapchat or Instagram name and I just want you to know that I'm proud of you I am so proud of you I know it's difficult and overwhelming but please live and if you ever need anyone to talk to or even just a friend to talk about random stuff I'll be here :) 💕
Please tell me that you're still alive and hanging on. I can't even imagine what you're going through, but hear me out on this: Don't feel shitty for your emotions, insecurities, and/or anxieties. None of us can control what obstacles we will face in life. But (most of the time) we can choose how to overcome them. Please, please, *please* believe me, suicide is never the answer. Feel free to let go of your guilt and "I don't wanna be a burden to my friends" thought process. Talk to them, explain how you feel, whether through messages, phone call or on a meeting when you're face to face, however you prefer. If they are real friends, and I believe they are, they will do anything to help you out. They will stick by your side, show you support, or help you search for more help, perhaps for a professional. There's no need, and I repeat, *no need* to feel guilty or worried about that, to ask for help. They never did and never will do things for you because they have to, but because they WANT to. Because they CARE and they WANT to care. Trust me, I've been in a similiar situation, when I believed I was a burden to my friends and I wanted to distance myself from them. But I didn't. I talked to them, and I was met with help, sympathy and understanding. You are not alone. If you need somebody to talk to, I can send you my instagram or my discord name. I'm here for you, because I want to. You sound like a kind, sensitive person who was slowly turned into life's punching bag, even though you did nothing wrong. However, if you rather not talk to me, it's fine, I respect your opinion. I will still wish you luck on your journey. I can instead send you songs I listen to when I'm in an awful place, if that will help. Life fucks with whoever it likes, and I want you to know that it's not your fault. Stay strong, I'm thinking about you. And I bet other people do too
I feel you man, I haven't talked to anyone in weeks now cuz everytime I do I get hurt and "do something wrong", I completely ignore school at this point cuz everytime I go to school I get hurt + everybody there dislikes me anyways so why bother?...
@@tikko0330 Don't think like that. The further you go, the less you'll fall down. The less you fall down, the less you want to stop. It takes time to get better. Keep going. You got this.
I was addicted to drinking coffee to forget this depression. He went a long time ago after I suffered from it for 3 years at the beginning of my adolescence, and now it returns to me... This abhorrent feeling that almost killed me one night... It's back It’s really back 😄💔
To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love you even if you have insecurities i love your accomplishments i love you even if you have failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you even on sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you act i love you even if you cry i love you when you're kind i love you even if you you're mean i love you even if you're alone i love you even if you can't feel i love you even if you feel too much i love you even if you can't take life anymore i love you even if you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you even if you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you even if you don't believe in yourself i love you even if you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you even if you have problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you even if you're in pain i love you even if you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love you even if you have wounds i love you even if you have scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you even if you lie i love you even if you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you even if you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you even if you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you even if you have headache i love you even if you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you're mature i love you even if you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you even if life isn't bright i love you when you're responsible i love you even if you're irresponsible i love you even if you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love even if your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪
TRADUÇÃO Para quem lê isso, eu te amo eu amo o seu sorriso Adoro o teu riso eu amo sua personalidade eu amo seu cabelo (ou a falta dele) eu te amo mesmo que você tenha inseguranças eu amo suas realizações eu te amo mesmo que você tenha falhas eu amo seus olhos eu amo sua beleza eu amo sua caligrafia (ou a maneira como você se comunica) eu amo o jeito que você dança eu te amo nos seus dias felizes eu te amo mesmo nos dias tristes eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente sozinho eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente impotente eu te amo nos dias em que você sente que ninguém se importa eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente esquecido eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente desmotivado eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente amado eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente mal eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente motivado eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente deprimido eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente estressado eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente louco eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente esperançoso eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente fofinho eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente pegajoso eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente incrível eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente linda eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente um fracasso eu te amo nos dias em que você sente raiva eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente agressivo eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente horrível eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente seguro eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente inseguro eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente vulnerável eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente estranho eu te amo nos dias em que você se sente bem eu te amo quando você está saudável eu amo como você canta (ou cantarola ou sente a música) eu amo seu gosto musical eu amo seu gosto por filmes eu amo seu gosto em programas de TV eu amo o jeito que você age eu te amo mesmo que você chore eu te amo quando você é gentil eu te amo mesmo que você seja mau eu te amo mesmo se você estiver sozinho eu te amo mesmo que você não consiga sentir eu te amo mesmo que você sinta demais eu te amo mesmo que você não aguente mais a vida eu te amo mesmo que você sinta que é demais eu te amo quando você está dormindo eu te amo mesmo que você tenha pesadelos eu te amo quando você tem sonhos eu amo como você acredita eu te amo quando você acredita em si mesmo eu te amo mesmo que você não acredite em si mesmo eu te amo mesmo que você se odeie eu te amo quando você se ama eu amo o jeito que você pensa eu te amo mesmo que você tenha problemas eu amo suas soluções eu amo como você apoia eu te amo mesmo que você esteja com dor eu te amo mesmo que você esteja machucado eu amo suas promessas eu amo seus segredos eu amo sua atitude eu te amo atrevida eu amo sua criatividade eu amo sua voz (ou a falta dela) eu te amo gestos com as mãos eu amo suas histórias eu te amo mesmo que você tenha feridas eu te amo mesmo que você tenha cicatrizes eu amo seu rosto eu amo seu passado eu amo o seu futuro eu amo seu presente eu amo seus looks eu amo seu estilo eu amo sua arte eu amo sua honestidade eu te amo mesmo que você minta eu te amo mesmo que você esteja cansado eu te amo quando você está cheio de energia eu amo como você está eu amo como você cozinha eu te amo quando você é aventureiro eu te amo mesmo que você esteja com medo eu amo suas imperfeições eu amo suas perfeições eu te amo mesmo que você se preocupe eu te amo quando você fala (ou se comunica) eu amo suas opiniões eu te amo mesmo que você tenha dor de cabeça eu te amo mesmo que você esteja com dor de estômago eu te amo quando você ajuda os outros eu te amo quando você está maduro eu te amo mesmo que você seja imaturo eu te amo nos momentos difíceis eu te amo nos momentos fáceis eu te amo mesmo que a vida não seja brilhante eu te amo quando você é responsável eu te amo mesmo que você seja irresponsável eu te amo mesmo se você brigar eu te amo nos seus momentos mais sombrios eu te amo nos seus momentos mais brilhantes eu amo seu coração eu te amo durante o dia eu te amo durante a noite eu te amo à meia-noite eu te amo às 3 da manhã eu te amo em todos os momentos eu te amo no seu melhor eu amo mesmo que seja o seu pior eu amo as pequenas coisas que você faz eu amo tudo em você eu te amo quando você é você Eu te amo
i have an entire discord chat that i just type my depressing entries thoughts and feeling. occasionally other stuff but that's it. sometimes i think about adding someone to show my torment but in the end im just sharing and burdening them to. so i just keep it to my self never to see the light of day. one day ill share something properly on one of the vent videos, for some poor stranger to read i'm sorry. enough of my depressing ass thanks for the playlist its got good....no......nice brooding vibes? anyhow i like it thanks for making it!
You can totally add someone to this discord, you will not bothering us, it's okay to not feel good, and it's frustrating when we cannot talk about what we live. It's also very comforting to see that other people live experiences like us, that we're not alone.
How about a discord where everyone can talk to each other about their feels. I mean we are all strangers so there is no pressure. We just make sure to have a moderator so nobody gets mean or nasty to each other.
This playlist hits so hard. I have falling into this depression that is always getting worse by the day it's like nothing can go my way. The need to give more and to be better then i am growing all the time i throw myself into things that i don't even like just to hear the words 'im proud of you' yet i never hear them. i get straight A's just so that maybe someone will tell me good job but instead i get told that thats what im expected to do. No matter what theres a reason someone is upset at me. I can never please myself let alone someone else and im sick of this feeling i want it to end but it never does no matter what i do no one sees how i feel even if im screaming it at them it's always 'i dont get how you feel this' and im tired not just physically but also mentally but even feeling like this i try to make them proud just to hear them say that im doing good or that their proud but no matter what they don't care and one thing goes wrong it's all my fault. parents find out im trans my dad gets mad about it and him and my mom get into yet another fight. Why can't i have anything i want a normal family? nope! normal health? Not at all! i sick of living yet even the times i've tried to end it i can't and i don't understand why this all happens why is my life terrible why can't i end it why does it have to happen to me? sorry about the long vent i just needed to get this out...
goodjob! you're so strong being able to still be here today even with all that going on, you don't deserve any of it, and considering how you can't end it no matter how badly you want to just means that your body or a part of you doesn't want to let go or atleast just not yet. so just listen to that part of you and keep fighting for yourself! i couldn't handle something similar to your family situation so i just left, i had grandparents willing to take me away from the toxic environment i was stuck in and now i am so much happier and actually feel loved (though obviously still impacted by my past situations). so if you have any other family who are there for you then see if they can take you in, if not then keep strong until you are old enough to legally live on your own, get a job and focus on the goal of saving up to get an apartment (even the shabbiest little thing) and living alone away from the torturous environment you are stuck in and don't deserve to be in (no matter how badly you might think you do!).
@@miawilson8372 thank you so much reading this actually made me cry. Im glad you got to a better place im just trying to figure my stuff out in the moment
If you’re still in school go to your school’s councilor they might help you by supplying a psychologist (if your school has one) I knew someone that had bad anxiety and went to the psychologist a lot and it really helped them. So just take a little advice from a total stranger online it’s not like I’m in a any better state right now.
And Don’t let go. Keep on moving forward. Find new people. I play online games a sh1t ton and I’ve made 1 or 2 friends on there and it gave me a tiny boost of happiness every time! I almost let go at times but I just held on a little longer. No matter who or what makes you cry just flip them off and run as fast as you can to the nearest park and sit there just thinking about yourself and what you’re going to do next. I know I’m just a random person to you but, Love yourself and the people that still care for you cause if you care for them, they will care for you. -A random person on the internet
I now how u feel I feel kinda the same but u shouldn't end it ! U have so many ppl who love and car for u ! Tho they just don't know how to show there love if u need some advice I got some If yoir an music person plsy music and put your trauma and thoughts in your drawing ! Or write about your trauma. Talk to ppl more well try, if u feel comfortable tell some of your kind teachers u are loved by many ppl don't worry
я скучаю по временам, когда я была единственным ребёнком в семье. тяжело быть старшим или младшим. от меня как от старшей требуют подавать "хороший пример" (в понимании родителей хороший, конечно. а адекватное отношение к людям другой национальности или других взглядов - это плохой пример, очевидно), я ОБЯЗАНА хорошо учиться, потому что "ты же не тупая, ты можешь быть отличницей, раньше была. а теперь ты просто обленилась" нет блять я не обленилась, я правда ничего не понимаю, трачу на разбор материала в разы больше времени и всё равно этого недостаточно, потому что я "могу лучше". стоит мне что-то сделать так сразу начинается эта тирада о том, что я плевала на всех вокруг и вообще зажралась и думаю только о себе, А Я ПРОСТО ВЫШЛА ИЗ КОМНАТЫ ПОПИТЬ ВОДЫ надеюсь дожить до момента, когда смогу съехать хотя-бы в другую квартиру, в идеале вообще в другую страну.
@@melss_knyaz сочувствую, это очень грустно( когда у меня возникали проблемы с пониманием материала я смотрела видео уроки в ютубе, мне достаточно хорошо помогает, удачи вам с этим
I can understand you, music is like a psychologist, therapy, anxiety killer etc. Life is like glass and stone.. Glass: if you don't feel alr and just wanna burst out in tears Stone: Hard like life Life is only about: Wake up Eat Change School Hope everybody else is okay...❤🩹
My dear friend, I'm sorry if I sound rude, but you should break up with them. You need to be happy and not get treated badly in a toxic relationship. You'll find someone better and someone who'll love you forever!
If you really think about it depression isn't a monster for some people sometimes it's a sad person who needs a hug or it's just like someone who thinks they need help but are to afraid to ask for it depression is different for everyone those were just a few examples Have a nice day/night/evening/morning
online is the only place i can be myself with out getting hurt,yelled at, blamed, a cause of a problem, being told im “overreacting” to something even though its the same person that tells me that they care about me and tells me that im just a kid and shouldn’t feel suicidal and that im being selfish for thinking that kind of stuff, hated on for liking music but when someone else likes that band/music it’s alright, hated on me for being me.
I can relate to this so much. I hate when people don't treat others with the respect that they actually deserve, it's unfair. Don't blame yourself for their shortcomings and flaws though. If they don't want to see you for who you are, it's their loss, trust me.
I listened to this (after knowing what Wilbur Soot did) not realising one of his songs were in it and I nearly cried bc he was my idol and I loved his (and LoveJoys) songs...
to whoever is reading this, don’t worry about what’s going on or what has been going on, just focus on yourself and what’s best for you and your future, you are you don’t let ANYONE change you for who YOU are, you are amazing the way you are, not everyone will like you and that’s okay, but there are people out there who do like you (or even love you) but for the people who don’t like you that’s just their opinion and yk what they can suck some grippers, all that matters is that you focus on yourself and make your life the way you want it. your life is how you make it, it’s YOUR life and YOUR path to go through, there will be challenges and obstacles along the way but ik you can overcome it and if you do fall down then try your best to get back up, take a breath and try again when you’re ready. take your time don’t worry about anything or anyone rushing you, go at your pace, if you do homework then do the assignments that are due today and tomorrow and focus on the others on that day or before that day (depends on how much you have) there’s no need to rush, just go at your own pace and breathe. i give hugz and snacks to whoever wants/needs them
You make me cry over here, this is so incredibly sweet and kind of you, thank you so much for sharing this with us! 😭 I really appreciate this and you, you are a wonderful person 😄❤️
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! Not mine ✨ But feel free to copy & paste to spread the word and you are beautiful if you don't think you are✨
I wish our parents would acknowledge our pain instead of invalidating it, pretending it didn’t exist or break their “perfect family”. I hope everyone stays safe during the holidays and can learn to love them someday without the pressure from and of family. I hope you are surrounded by people who love you, truly. I hope someday you don’t have to turn away from or turn off the pain, but validate it, use it and/or live past it. Whatever works best for you, FOR YOU. I may not know you, but I’ll love you all the same. Let me and someday, let you love you. ❤
Мне было грустно, но стало еще грустнее когда я начала читать комментарии... Ребята, знаете, пожалуйста берегите себя, цените жизнь, насколько бы хуевой она ни была. Самое драгоценное, что есть в этом мире-жизнь. Хочу пожелать вам выкарабкаться из всего говна, депрессии, апатии и меланхолии, пусть и на вас, за долгое время отсутствия, застветится яркое и теплое солнышко!!
Знаешь... не особо предпочитаю рассказывать рандомам о своих проблемах, но пожалуй я просто не могу быть не услышанной: меня постоянно травят одноклассники, я скрываю от всей своей родни свои увлечения, тоесть, я БУКВАЛЬНО ПРЯЧУ ВСЕ, ЧТО ОЛИЦЕТВОРЯЕТ МЕНЯ... я просто устала прятаться под маской радости, пока моя душа уже сдохла около миллиона раз и столько же переродилась в муках и страданиях... за всю свою жизнь я встретила только одного верного друга, остальные оказались фальшивкой... пока все из моей семьи спят, я запираюсь в своей комнате, включаю плейлисты как этот, читаю комменты как этот и... рыдаю... только молча... мои щеки в слезах, глаза покраснели до ужаса, но... весь негатив просто не хочет выходить, и это больно... я просто не в состоянии издать ни звука... меня просто... даже не знаю... сейчас я даже не понимаю зачем я это пишу, и что я на данный момент чувствую... сейчас 0:32, и все спят... кроме меня... но мне с какой то стороны нравится читать такие комменты... я просто начинаю хоть какой то частичкой души понимать, что я не одна такая... спасибо...
@@beshenaya_gorshi все будет хорошо! Можно я у вас спрошу(отвечайте только если хотите того), а почему такая ситуация сложилась? Почему вас буллят в школе(хотя иногда бывает и безпричинно)? Почему вы начали прятать свои увлечения ото всех? Я не психолог, поэтому я не очень понимаю как оказывать хорошую моральную помощь, но, пожелаю вам нормализовать все в своей жизни, я уверена что у вас все впереди, возьмитесь за развитие своей личности, УДАЧИ💗
If your mad your stressed If your happy it won't last very long If your sad then don't be happy If you scared you become overwhelmed If your depressed then deal with it. Happy ever afters don't happen all the time. Unless you want to make it. -hope
They don’t notice your tears They don’t notice your sadness They don’t notice your achievements They only see your mistakes.. The world we live in is really messed up
you can't think of humans as one, cause we're all different. There are people out there who want to see you happy, healthy and proud, and there are others who get jealous and think more of themselves than others. The most important thing is that you know who you are and that you dare to stand for it. Then good people will find you and build you up instead of breaking you down. You have to find the right people for you in your life. That said, all people are valuable, but we choose how we want to use our qualities. I advise you to be brave, smart and kind so you don't let the darkness stop you from seeing clearly, because you already have the light inside you, let it shine through you so that you and those around you can see that nothing is able bring you down. When everything is okay, it becomes so bright that the light ends up blinding you and you're suddenly not able to see everything that truly matters in life anymore. And when everything seems hopeless, everything gets so dark, it's hard to see any light at all. But we are human beings! We are able to adapt to an incredible amount of challenges. We are absolutely amazing! Never forget that. We all have to learn to find a balance. Too much of the bad is not good and too much of the good is not good, but if you accept both joy and sadness, you will manage to find a golden middle ground. I wish you the best of luck on your journey towards the life that you truly deserve, seeing people for who they are and not for who you want them to be. A hating person is a wounded person, a loving person is a beloved person. And in some cases it does not matter. Either way, love and understanding goes a long way in life. I love you! ❤️
I can confirm this with my family blaming me with everything that goes wrong and they don't appreciate the things I did for them so I gave up everything I have a shity life the only nice people are my friends and sometimes my girlfriend
@@bluepinkandpurple you know when I read this it did lift me up but everything when downhill from the time I commented to this moment. But reading this again kinda makes me feel better so thanks. Sorry I didn’t say it earlier
This hit hard because I'm turning 13 on December and I'm in 7th grade and I almost killed myself when I was 11, everything has been hell for and whilst I'm writing this it's my mom's birthday, but I don't even see her as my mom anymore for what she have done to me, and I'm crying because of everything, I can't even look at my spouse without feeling guilty of how useless I am because they think their not enough, i don't know anymore I feel so alone I'm starting to take unprescribed medicine everyday And it's turning into an addiction I'm crying myself to sleep every now and then and each time i wake up I feel crying I've tried to live happy but I can't, I'm tired, I just want someone to be with me but I can't trust anyone anymore, ive been asking for help so many times and no one helped, I'm with myself, and whenever I look at mom or my spouse I just feel crying because I feel so weak and useless when their around
скучаю по временам когда чувствовала себя нужной и любимой, а теперь буду чувствовать комфортно себя в компании себя и себя, а ещё с 4-мя стенами с прекрасным плейлистом 🥰
To anyone who needs this, I hope you feel better soon! If you are going through a bad time please talk to someone, a lot of people care about you and will listen! Bad times always pass eventually, even when it seems they will never go away, it will get better. Life has ups and downs, maybe right now feels like a forever down but it i will go back up again, just keep on living and you'll go back up eventually, it'll be okay :) You are so strong and I know you can get through this! I believe in you, I believe in you even when you don't believe in yourself, _you_ are so strong and resilient, you have withstood so much, I'm so proud of you! Keep going! You are so special and unique and beautiful, don't forget that
this hits hard when you go to school trying to be happy turning into the therapist friend when you forgive them when they slip up but when you slip up you loose them forever...or when when you try not to break with the pressure of people being rude thinking its a joke when its not and you just crumble and break and you never forgive yourself even tho its not your fault its theirs but it races through your head uncontrollably when you cant stop it and you feel like your dying inside but no one helps.
I hope everyone is able to recover from their own lows of depression, anxiety, mental illness, etc. I know people can recover they just need help from others or to vent, simply by another person's presence maybe you may recover. I wish you all a nice week strangers
yeah even now... it's sad because of everthing that happened... but it's still touching and upsetting at the same time, it's all just confusing because he seemed so geniune and kind, it's just hard man, but I'm glad you cried, it means there's still hope because you can still feel emotion, Idk where you are in life now, but I hope you're doing well :)
Its 3 am and listening to this really helps me vent out my emotions and sort them out... Thank you so much, you don't know how helpful it is cus this helps me keep away from cutting myself.
i came out to my gf as trans (ftm) yesterday night (she was the first person i've told so far) and today at school she tried to out me to a group of our friends that we both know r 100% supportive. i never said she could do that. i already had super high anxiety js abt telling her, aka the person im closest to ever. so it should've been obvious that i was definitely not ready to tell anyone else. even if it was so no one would misgender me, she should've asked me first. ive asked her today for the second time not to try and do it again in hopes of her not doing it tmr. we dont rlly have the healthiest relationship but i still love her so very much. i'm js rlly conflicted rn
im slowly losing motivation on life and live of people lying to me and being fake...pushing myself to the point were it starts to hurt but no one sees, nor care ,scared to be alone or losing the person i love the most dying slowly infront of my eyes covering myself in guilt and frustrasion, and unable to forgive myself and im scared for my friend who is killing there self, and taking the blamed for everything, hating me for everything.. im trying my hardest, but i fell like its not worth it.. putting myself throw pain and forsing a smile.. for people who don't care if i change.. or for my family's and gfs sake... and im to scared to express myself bc i think no one cares or think its stupid..
i searched up this playlist because of some personal pain i am going through right now. almost 2 weeks ago- i cant even believe its been that long, it feels like it just happened a moment ago- i blocked him. i cant believe that something so beautiful, and something that could make me so happy, and make me smile could turn into something so horrible, something even the thought of makes me sick. his words stirred up emotion in me, they complimented, and changed me in so many ways. i never thought it would come to this. the day we met, we talked non stop. everyday. when we weren't together, we texted each other every minute. i learned so much about him. heck, i cant even eat steak, or potatoes, or avocados without thinking about him. only about a month and a half later, he told me he liked me at the same time i told him i liked him. (we had made a deal to say counting down from 3) i remember how many butterflies i had in my stomach after i told him i liked him. they didn't go away. for weeks they didnt go away. it really seemed like he loved me. maybe he did...i dont know. we had a great conversation that night. i told him that he gave me butterflies. just the thought of him gave me butterfles. he told me that when he thinks about me his chest gets warm. we shared a special experience. the next day, he told me he couldnt sleep because he was thinking about me all night, and in reality, i was thinking about him too. he sent me a song, on which lyrics said "i love you and i would by lying if i said that i could live this life without you." weeks felt like days with him. i really fell for him. one day everything changed. he let his friends treat me like shit multiple times. he said nothing. nothing at all. how could he "love me" but not even defend me? how could he be friends with those assholes? i told him that day that i didnt feel the same way he felt about me. believe it or not, i felt guilty. although he did that, I FELT GUILTY. i felt like i crushed his whole world. he said 8 words i will never forget. "looks like those butterflies have finally flown away." ngl it crushed me. i cried. i cried a lot. the next day, he sent me a song, the lyrics saying "i messed up, and i cant imagine my life without you." through days of building back my trust, i forgave him, but on terms that we are only friends. more weeks, more experiences. more smiles. then something happened (that i would rather not share). i was shocked such a thing could happen. he got his friends to text me- because i wouldnt respond to him. again, i was naive and he built back my trust. and the first thing that happened when i texted him back, he asked if i liked his new profile picture. it was him with a girl. the audacity. the audacity to ask me that. it felt too much for me. all of it- it was too much. i said, "I knew you would ask that" i was hurt. if he really "loved me" like he said he did, how would he be this hurtful? still, everyday he would text me, and i would ignore the red flags. a few days later, he gave me another apology for everything that had happened. he said he still loved me (even after he told me he had found another girl and had a picture with her). it was bound to happen. i told him i liked someone else. he said some words i would not like to repeat- and that was it. i blocked him. sometimes i wish i hadnt, but its the only thing ive felt in some way sure of in that relationship. anyone who needs to vent, feel free. tell me about it. i understand.
i've been going through things for 14 years already, terrible things that have caused me to have depression for a long time. It's hard, especially when you're struggling alone and you just have nobody to turn to or tell your thoughts too. Although i'm in a tough state rn with everything including relationships, just know your time will come. It always does, sometimes you just have to be patient. We can go through this together.
If you ever need someone to talk to or vent to I'm willing to listen because I want to try to understand what you're going through so I can help. You are human like the rest of us and deserve to be heard without judgement or backlash, because you matter 🤍 I'm here for you my friend!
a lot of you have gone through so much. do not be afraid! we all have our struggles, and I am not an exception to this. I used to get great anxiety about the passage of time. it felt like everything went too fast. nothing ever stayed the same. I was correct, nothing lasts forever, but the pain is also a part of this. your pain is not forever, but you are. despite everything the world does to you, you are you, and that is all you need to be. look at me sounding all smart! stay strong my loves (btw this is not mine but pass it around)
I don’t know if I want to feel this way or not because when I start crying and bawling telling myself that I’m never enough, I don’t not want to feel this way. That’s confusing I know, but I guess it just feels right to cry like this, like I deserve it. I suppose it makes me feel better, or maybe worse because I’m training myself to be like this, I don’t care particularly right now because this feels right.
"Yeah, im mentally stable!" *ignores the fact i was locked in a dark room for 48 hours by my father at the age of 6* "Haha! My parents would never be forgetful!" *ignores the fact they forget my birthday every year* "My parents would never let me get sa'd continuously and if i did they would never let them in my home or be in aby contect with them!" *ignores the fact my brother, father, mother and cousin have either r@p3e or sa'd me* 01-01-2023 12AM
someone says: I am so ugly. I always tell them that beautiful the way they are, at least something on their face still look gorgeous. I tell them to love themselves and try to improve little by little. But idk why i cannot luv myself like the others, i'm short, chubby, weird eyes, teeth are not beautiful, full of acnes on my face. You know, teenagers like me might hate themselves the most during adolescent, we receive lots of blasphemed from the bully, teacher or even family. SO your mission is loving them as hard as you can.
when alien blues played i started saying "Wilbur, you forget yourself !” Quackity, you forget where you stand next to me. You are in my shadow. Act like it. Maybe it’s not a coincidence that every single idea you’ve ever had has failed under your guidance. You are a walking second place medal.
It is currently 11 PM, mental state low, not going to sleep for the next hour. Sadly it's late and i don't trust anyone enough to vent... well... not anymore...
If you think you are useless, your not. Think of the white colored pencil. Everyone called it useless but its perfect for drawing on black paper or for blending other colors. You are a bit different like the white colored pencil. Sure you may not be as good at things as most others but you are far from useless. Keep going. If not for yourself do it for the fact that you mean a lot to someone out there. You may not know them but out there you may be someones world. So dont stop. It doesn't matter how slow you move as long as you keep going. ❤
I’ll be honest, I clicked on this video expecting to switch to a different one immediately. Because every time I see “vent playlist” or “3am tired playlist” it’s always either far too obscure songs, or mainstream songs that I’ve heard more than a trillion times. And then I heard “Shut up, count your calories.” And I just let it play. Because I’ve listened to prom queen enough to make a grown man cry from how much I relate to it. Love the video. Love you all.
tierd of living tierd of being tierd of "them" tired of pretending tierd of "them" not beliving your trauma tierd of trying tierd of trying to kms tierd of not having the gut to kms tierd of thinking "they" hate you tierd of the cuts on your body JUST TIERD OF EVERYTHING HAPPENING!! :(
I know this isn't as bad as most problems, but today I was talking to my grandma about cosplaying which is something I really like and I enjoy talking about, then she got really mad and she told me how she didn't care about it and that she doesn't think that it will do anything supportive in my life, she told me to go outside more and stop being lazy, when all I was trying to do was to talk about something I'm interested in.... :(
Everytime I vent to people in person they either ignore me, make it about themselves, or just cut me off and tell me to get over it, and I always ask if I can vent and they say it's fine.. on top of that I found out that lots of people talk bad about me including the manager that I trusted most, I only found out cause her kid is a busy body and can't keep there mouth shut. Life sucks
I was looking in the comments looking for time stamps but the comments are so relatable it hurts…when I listen to this playlist I fell like I’m alone in my room…aka my comfort space. I feel like I can cry.
I’ve got a problem with communicating how I feel with my dad because I don’t have the greatest relationship since my parents got divorced, and I feel like I cant communicate that to him because he’s lashed out before about things. I feel like I cant express my feelings to him especially anger because idk how he will respond, sometimes I’m scared of him lashing out and it makes living with him half the time difficult sometimes. I wish I didn’t feel this way. I know that he doesn’t hate me and I don’t hate him but sometimes it hurts to think about how he thinks I am and why, like: “she’s just a moody teenager who doesn’t care about me” but it’s more like I’m not the most mentally stable person and I overthink non stop about every little thing, and I don’t love interacting with people a whole lot.
"i hope we're still friends, yeah i hope you dont mind." reminds me of my manipulative and toxic friend who never started the conversation, convinced me to get everything for her, then just straight up ignored me, and i was so stupid i didnt realize this until years later
Насколько я вижу тут у большинства слушателей действительно есть серьёзные проблемы в жизни… Даже как-то неловко от того, что я прослушиваю плейлист потому, что мне нравятся эти песни… I hope you will feel better, guys! (I’m not really good at supporting people)
I want you to know that life is hard. You can't take away or replace the pain. I know it hurts, but do know in every sad life there's a spark of love and happiness, but it's you'r choice if you light it up..
I keep losing friends and trying to find new ones, I've began to question if I'm the problem. Again and again, I realise they dont care about me, they only use me for when they're bored. Many say Insanity is just doing something over and over again, hoping for change each time. And If that's the case, I must be insane.
This playlist comforts me but it also makes me think about how I ended a one year relationship all the way back in March. She was the best girl you could ask for. She was perfect, her smile, her eyes, her hair, her voice, it was all perfect. And her care for me and care for other was out of this world. But with family problems and her anxiety, she couldn't take it anymore. She said she wanted to be done so she could think of herself. Me, the caring man I tired to be, said ok and we haven't talked since. It really felt like half of my heart was lost in space since that day and now that I think about it more, I just wish I could find someone like here somewhere in the world.
tbh i like listening to these songs over and over because it helps me remind me of the pain i used to be in and ik i should forget such things but tbh idk how i can get over it
This stuff is amazing .music is a much better vent then my old vent (throwing firecrackers into the beds of my enemies trucks)but all that aside whatever problems you are going through you can get through it stay strong 💪 Don't Give up
I dont know who needs to hear this but if your first time was by r@pe and somebody tells you "but you are not a v¡rg¡n" yes you are. periodt. And you are valid and heard and don't let those horrible people get inside your head
Timestamps: 0:00 Prom Queen - Beach Bunny 2:14 Miss Wanna Die - Jubyphonic 5:33 Young - Vacation 8:40 This is home - Cavetown 12:26 Since i saw Vienna - Wilbur Soot 14:53 Alien Blues - Vundabar 17:29 Not Allowed - TV Girl 20:17 Dark Red - Steve Lacy 23:08 Sharpener - Cavetown 27:04 Nobody - Mitski 30:19 Useless Child - Kikuo 34:33 All The Things She Said - t.A.T.u
Please let this get pinned because as someone who needs to know the songs on a playlist having to dig through the comments to find this was pretty hard
My anxiety and deppression has got so bad that all day evryday i disasociate and wonder if im real best part is im moving out in 4 months and all i want is to stop feeling like my mind and body are withering away
