6 months of heartbreak, documented. 

hey guys! I just want to say thanks for your overwhelming support. It seriously makes me feel much less alone through this, and I'm glad I could make some of you feel the same way :). can't believe I'm at 200 subs, so cool! I'll try and get to all your comments soon!

Rare footage of the bravest man to exist. Nice to be vulnerable like this, loved to see you grow through the whole thing!

As terrible as it sounds, it is calming to know that my feelings were never exclusive

I love just how raw everything is and showed how your road to acceptance isn't linear. Some days you were alright, but some days after you go back to crying and wishing to text your ex. I just love what a realistic and genuine portrayal of your grieving process of a break up is like, and it'll definitely make others feel less alone.

it’s really a non linear experience! there are days you feel like the world is ahead of you and you’ve got nothing to fear, and then there are days you’re stuck wondering if you’ll ever be the same again. devastating but also a strangely beautiful and universal part of love.

Glad this was recommended to me, a beautiful snapshot of the human experience!

I felt like such a loser for dropping from my classes cause my breakup had me so unbelievably depressed. I'm glad I'm not the only one...

this perfectly shows that recovering from a breakup isn't linear. it comes in waves. sometime maybe good sometime maybe. but overtime there is more good.

the only girl i've been with, i probably cried for about a month everyday after she cheated on me. That was about a year and a half ago and I still haven't really recovered in terms of getting ready to trust and date again.

This made me strangely miss the worst nights of my life in a nostalgic way. Wouldn't take them back but walking through the silent night missing her was something magical. Also appreciating everything I went through. So bittersweet.

going on month three of my breakup with the guy i was with for a year and a half, and while he is dating his girl best friend who he told me not to worry about, I'm still trying to cope with the feeling of being alone :0) this was a cool video and made me feel less alone

I literally went thru this in 2020. It took me about a year to get over her. 4 years later and i dont feel anything but still think about her every now and then. Ig we manage to get over people, but we never manage to forget them.

Dang, so I’m not the only one who’s been crying for the last 6 months straight? I was celibate for 4 years since my last partner and I broke up, but I tried again this year and completely lost myself again, but it all did launch me into my next era of growth. I learned more about how I love, my flaws, my willingness to accept the bare minimum. Going celibate again for a while to get myself together, it wasn’t all sad. There were good times and moments in all of that, but I’m not ready to let myself go through that again.

How raw, real, & beautiful. It was almost 20 years ago when I went through the hardest break up of my life, and instead of documenting it like this, I did by writing songs. Life went on and I ended up meeting the love of my life.. and those songs became some of the material that we play in a band we formed together. All of this is to say: you may be surprised where your heartbreak leads you, as it oftentimes is better than you could ever imagine ❤

Its a feeling that never get easier, you spend so much time with someone and then all of a sudden they are gone, you grieve because they were apart of who you were. You grieve the loss of someone and yourself at the same time.

Beautiful representation of growing through what you go through!!! Bravo, sir. I hope Mexico is treating you well!

we're in it together, friends. it's been almost a year since the breakup. I still miss her terribly. she was my best friend and my everything. i really pray that you're doing better without me. i will grow into a better and kinder person, even if it means you won't be here to see me.

I’m so glad I found this, I’ve undergone a pretty major heartbreak and it’s still only been like two weeks. Some days I feel fine, some days I feel like I’m gonna die. Heartbreak is complete agony, and the feelings of isolation that come with it. It’s without a doubt the worst pain I’ve felt in my whole life and I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. Thank you for sharing this it is beautiful and so brave of you :))

Thank you for sharing. I’m 7 months in and she’s found someone else. I thought I was good until I saw that and what I found was that I hadn’t spent a single second processing what happened. When that day came- which it inevitably was going to, things got hard. I’m learning to love whoever I have around me as well as myself. It’s tough, I’m sure you know. As you said though, it gets better.

Dang the good little films are always slightly vulnerable I love to see it

this was so intimate and vulnerable, thank you for being so open! i related to this more than you know given that my relationship of 3 years ended back in february, so thank you for making me feel less alone in this experience :’)

this video is way more valuable than you think

Thank you for posting this. My boyfriend and I broke up a little over two years ago. It was only about a year ago that I finally “moved on” (i.e. was not still feeling angry, hurt, and like I should have done everything differently). I still think of him sometimes. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t click on this video because you look a little like him. I really don’t know what he went through after we broke up; we didn’t communicate (I am not counting the time I desperately met up with him in the hopes he would take me back🤦‍♀️). I don’t have Instagram, so he couldn’t see what I was up to. My friends would show me his Instagram, and it looked like he was having such a great time without me. That hurt. I’m sure it wasn’t all real, but still. So when I saw your thumbnail, I thought, “wouldn’t it be nice to know how he felt after we broke up?” Obviously you're not my ex, but I really didn’t have any male perspectives on how my ex may have been feeling after our breakup. I just want to say, it’s nice to know that there are guys out there who put their heart and soul into their relationships. It wouldn’t hurt so much if the relationship wasn’t meaningful. So… yeah. Thank you. Sending good vibes to you and your family :)

5 year relationship and I'm *post breakup 1 year* -- still processing. It was nice to see I'm not the only one struggling out there, YOU GOT THIS!!

Thank you for this, my last serious relationship caused the worst break up blues of my life. He was my first love, my first everything. There’s just something about that. I remember feeling numb and genuinely like shit for a little over a year, thinking this feeling would never go away. I’m glad to say that eventually it does get better, you’ll even find yourself looking back at your relationship with a smile on your face and lessons gained. Much love :)

I actually went through heartbreak the same exact time as you. You would not believe the indescribable amount of comfort this video brings me. You are so strong for taking your heartbreak and turning it into something that helps others instead of using it for bad like others would. You should be so proud of yourself. I am proud of you. 💖

that's crazy and super brave!!! i don't even dare to fall in love with someone to begin with. whenever i feel something like attraction towards someone, i back off. i mean, i avoid them, ignore them, distract myself etc. until i lose interest in them. i just can't pay the price of love: grief. also, that new haircut looks so good on you! glad seeing you gettinh better occasionally.. so so brave lol

This video came at the right time for me. Relatable in every way, constant crying, crawling in the right direction, self-control, relapse into grief, and the most painful part, taking a step forward, only to move 3 steps backward. I hated every second of screaming into my pillow and feeling every single emotion sharply, but the hurt turned into comfort, and then acceptance. I'm currently 11 months out of the breakup, and it still feels like I'm journaling the process of trusting myself. To anyone reading who's going through the loss of someone you love, progress isn't linear, and it definitely doesn't have a timeframe, grow as you can as you loved as much as you could. You will be okay.

Whats worse is when u sacrifice so much [health, sanity, time, family. Friends, hobbies] for someone and have kids with them too. Makes your whole world turn upside down.

Hi hexia / steven, This was an amazing video and a great message for so many people. It may sound silly but I got super excited when the clips you showed started to include climbing!! I've been bouldering for over a year myself and it feels special to know that it was one of your outlets during this incredibly difficult time of your life. Keep climbing, keep processing, keep being alright. Wishing the best of luck for your sends, in climbing and in life ✌

Thank you for documenting this so that other people suffering through the same thing can see that there’s hope in time

Seeing you glow by the end of this is incredible. Thank you for sharing. You went through so much pain but grew so much- you should be so proud of you!

Dude, I also went through a breakup about six months ago, and this is honestly the most relatable video I have ever watched. None of my friends have experienced a similar breakup as me, and this video makes me feel less alone. The relapses at random times, the self-doubt, the growth. All of it is so weirdly beautiful from an outside perspective. Thank you for making this.

I genuinely love this bro. When me and my girlfriend broke up it felt like hell man this whole video serves as an example of how much pain someone can go through and I really connected with many parts of the video itself especially the socializing part on day 2. After we broke up it felt like something was missing, we would hangout almost every single day and she was my first everything. She was the first person who I got very intimate with in many ways not just sexually but we understood each other on another level and even till this day I think about that connection we had. I am so proud of your progress because even after 10-12 months I still had thoughts about her just like you did during month 1 so seeing that you have been able to overcome that is amazing and I really do hope you continue to prosper. Seeing your progress is amazing as overtime you learn to accept what is and what I've learned is you just have to be grateful even through all the bad, just be happy about the good and take it as a learning experience onto the next chapter in your life. And if anyone of you is reading this just know it does get better, stay positive and let time heal you mentally, physically and spiritually as well as do what is best for you when it comes to taking care of yourself because you are not alone and YOU MATTER!! Thank you so much for making this video, it really helped me sit down and think about things and realize I am not alone in the way I feel. Much love man-❤

I was ready to get this horrible feeling from this video because break ups are never easy. Tursn out this video felt more like the thightest and warmest hug you can get. This showed sadness of loss in so pretty way, how you and it shapes each other and how feelings are there to be felt. Thank you

i absolutely love how you showcased ur emotions and the realness in this video, it’s totally to feel a certain way especially overcoming an unfortunate situation. great video!

It is so validating seeing someone going through the same thing as I am right now

time heals all :) thanks for sharing such vulnerable parts of what it is to be human, glad you’re better!!

it takes a lot of strength to be vulnerable like this. good on you, man, you're an inspiration to us all. as someone who's going through a lot of the same feelings, i can't fully express how important this video is for me.

Watching this on month 4, day 12 and it feels like a warm hug. Thanks for making us heartbroken folks feel less alone

I’m only 2 mins in and this is beautiful. I appreciate your rawness, vulnerability, and openness :) ty

thank you for your vulnerability. you are comforting many souls with this video.

man this video brings me so much positive energy. you've gone through pain, you suffered, but in result you helped other people to suffer less. I just wanna say that I respect you so much for your courage, patience and being opened to others. much love ❤

it’s comforting to know that it is humanly possible to make it after that process...thank you for giving hope and sharing your journey :) I pray things go well for you!!

thank you for posting this. it means so much to a lot of people and i'm so proud of you for pushing through this. you're doing amazing and you're so strong.

Yk I understand this video so fucking much. It was 6 years that I’ve known her and not to mention she lives right next door… but on real shit All the levels of pain, Sorrows, Happiness and the reality of how a break up affects the human body/ brain. It’s so crazy how much you learn from the experience of the whole process but keep your head up start focusing on YOU and put yourself out there. You got it king 👑

I really appreciate the fact that this video documents 6 months of heartbreak. Most videos I have come across across document 1-3 months, but I feel like the effects of heartbreak extend way beyond that timeline. I am currently going through my first heartbreak and have been struggling to to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you for being so raw and open with your emotions, you are helping so many people including me. I'm sending all my love and support.

it’s nice to see someone who feels what i feel. you’re going through what i am. i’m in a state of limbo. the urges to break no contact. i’ve failed multiple times man.. i understand every emotion you feel bro. i’m going through it now. i’m a month in. may was the worst month of my life. june was so hard. my mood swings.. we’re in a state of limbo. i miss her so much. i let it out through my music.

that was an incredible video. really appreciate u being so vulnerable on the internet - much love

same bro, its been 6 months now also and I haven't had the passion to pack their stuff away until now. I am just filming my 6 months process right now as I am watching this. it gets better bro. you got this!

It’s literally me , the song choices the relationship duration , the values learnt from this video , everything just makes me see me in you. Everything u have said in the video appplies to me ( it’s been a year and 9 days ) . Beautiful. Just so beautiful. What I have learnt is that it is an experience, something that happens in life just like everything. It hurts like shit but it is just an event after all… the point being , that it is a mindset , an ideology that once one adapts helps a lot .

beautiful video so honest and open and raw. the part at the end where speak about growth and how you are feeling about life and the future but also how the relationship shaped what that might be is so mature and insightful.

i went through the same kind of agony with my breakup. i didn't know before that human beings could experience so much emotional pain. thank you for sharing! i hope you're doing well and i wish you nothing but the best :(

This new era of youtube is incredible. Thank you for putting so much time and effort to document your process and journey. We live in a such incredible time where this artform is so accessible, and its amazing to see people do such extraordinary things with it. I know it's as simple as turning on your phone camera and saying some stuff, but this wasn't always this accessible. Thank you friend for sharing this part of your life with the world. It's truly unique to see someone go through this ❤ day-by-day and i'm grateful for you, your honesty, vulnerability and the want to document this difficult experience. Thank you for being you Steven

Going through a break up rn, 19 days in and I'm feeling less than optimal. She was the love of my life, the one I wanted to spend the rest of eternity with, the one I wanted to have my kids with, she felt the same and everything was going great, we were only together for 2 months but it felt longer than that. We got virtually married, she said I helped her get rid of her depression that she's had for 5 years, we fantacized about our future, we loved each other in our highs and lows, through sickness and in health, cared for each other so much, and she even visits my house everytime there's something special like our monthsary and I would give her gifts like a hand-made flower sprayed with my cologne, a paper with the outline of my hand so she has something to hold when she gets lonely, I remember her oncall just sniffing the heck out of those flowers and liking the smell even though she normally hates strong perfumes haha. But 19 days ago, her parents found out about us, and didn't approve of me at all and forced her to break up with me. We still love each other and want to be tgt but her parents really don't want anything to do with me, they have forced her to cut all conact with me or made her delete her social media accounts, and I'm just feeling really lost right now, we were able to get in contact again for a short period of time just yesterday until this night that I am writing this cause she deleted it again, but she said she really tried her best to fight for our love, she even held onto the flower and kept on fixing it while she was getting beaten up, and even tried to hide the rest of my gifts but she was just shocked to see them all thrown away. She's in another country right now for vacation and she says she's gotten closer to her mother now and I'm happy for her but she also says that her parents spoil her and the only thing they ask of her is to not be with me, and I guess she would rather listen to her mom than me now and that kind of stings, but yeah. I still wanna be with her and I just hope that we can get through this and be with each other again. I miss her so much. P.S. Sorry for dumping my shit in a RU-vid comment section but something about knowing I'm not the only one going through this kind of pain is strangely comforting, that we all can get through it and recover one day.

"don't be afraid to love someone. when you fall in love, I want you to fall in love all the way. even if it ends in heartache" these is one of the quote I wanna live with, hope you have better life bro.

Glad that this was recommended to me. This is definitely the process of growing. Thank you for sharing it. Wishing you all the best ❤

This video saved my mentality, thankyou for inspiring me to do better for myself, i've always been one to advocate for self care, i've always spread that message through advice and care towards others, yet i've never followed it myself. Dude you just made me start following my own advice for the first time in as long as i can remember, thankyou, im going through the same thing you are, and im going to do my best to push through and become a better version of myself.

as someone who's just starting to develop into the more mature aspects of life, like relationships, seeing something like this made with such vulnerability really helps to feel less anxious and in the dark. thank you.

this was too raw with much emotion surely everyone could relate to. thank you for sharing! you're a real one for documenting a sensitive part of your life - healing!

You were way more honest with yourself then I was with me after the breakup. It took alot of thinking, reflecting and also getting out there and meeting new people but I'm at the same point as you. I'm a way better person and more emotionally in tune with myself and who I am and I'm so glad you also made that journey and came out on top. My biggest respect for sharing and being so honest, not only with yourself but also us.

you seem to have taken it really well. congrats on the transformation into a new cycle of going through life

Hey! This was seriously comforting. You managed to turn this bad situation into something positive. Your vulnerability has helped many of us. I'm inspired to make something like this myself as I'm going through that one month in as of now. Thank you for documenting this.

im so proud of you!

This is beautiful bro. Well done recording yourself, that is not easy! You’re amazing, I’m 29 and looking up to you! You’re an inspiration. Cheers from a guy who lives in Spain

thank you for this, i will watch this as many times as i need to get through this, thank you from the bottom of my heart bro

this touched my heart in a way I didn't expect it. you are one beautiful human being and keep living the best way you can.

What a beautiful video. Thank you for sharing your emotions you don’t even know how many people you’ve helped my making this amazing film. Keep ur head up king❤️

Dude I know how terrible you felt. 5 months ago my exgirlfriend broke up with me and I don't think I've ever been in such emotional agony, and for so long. I loved her very deeply and I couldn't imagine being with anyone else. I was too dependent on her though and my life basically revolved around my life with her. Breaking up with her made me have to let go of so much, get used to a new life, and I've tried my best to better myself and to grow from the experience. It has also taught me that Im ok on my own, and I can rely on myself. Im very grateful for the growth, despite mourning the loss Im still feeling. I would get back with her in a heartbeat if she wanted to, but it won't happen and I guess it's best this way. It's kinda amazing how we can adapt in situations like this and slowly find happiness in what we have

this is such an amazing video man, honestly there are so many paths you can take after a breakup and this was really motivating to watch!! honestly this video made me feel very comforted even though it is about heartbreak, and made me feel a little less alone. keep it up man!!

The abundance of honesty and the genuine raw emotions really hit home. I'm still struggling in my day to day life and this video has given me some motivation, and honestly, some is always better than none. Thank you for sharing and I hope you're doing well.

thank you for this steven, you've made today a little better.

mah guy was devastated, I feel you bro, great video btw big hug for you thanks for sharing your post breakup experience

i really, really appreciate you making this. i got broken up with 4 months ago and i'm still struggling and missing him like crazy, content like this makes me feel better about taking my time to heal. i struggle to talk about my feelings with friends so this kind of stuff makes me feel less lonely. sending well wishes!

This video made me feel less alone with my break up. Thank you for documenting your struggle. You're super strong and I am proud of you!

i really needed this video. ive been really mentally ill my entire life and its deeply affecting the one i love most. ive been on a journey to become a better person and focus on myself and its still so difficult when even during that process im still hurting them. theyve stuck with me for a while - im so happy theyre giving me this chance to heal, and this gave me a better outlook on things. you're really strong man, i hope you know. breakups especially like yours where the relationship lasted years, they aren't easy and sometimes that's hard to acknowledge. it's good that you've processed things but despite that, you're still being vulnerable and opening up that you miss her which is great instead of pushing back on them and creating more mental strain. god, i'm only a teenager and this has opened my eyes to when life throws hard things at you like this, it's not always the end of the world. you are a great example of the healing process. thanks steven for this video!! this is the first video ive watched of urs but def new sub !! ur rly close to 300!!

soso happy for u :')) been through the same situation and im glad ur glowing more than ever. its a beautiful experience (after you get to fully accepting but god its painful) self love is so important

this touches the deepest parts of me. been there and slowly gaining myself much better than before. love u brother!

YT has been doing an amazing job at recommending me really wholesome content lately 😌 I’m 28 yo and I’ve been single my entire life. Although I can’t relate from heartbreak experienced from a romantic relationship, I found it very insightful to see what that experience must be like through the another person’s POV. Thanks for being so transparent and for sharing. I’m happy to see you doing so much better now! I pray life continues to be loving and kind to you 💞🙏🏾✨ Best wishes!

First thought I had when I come across this video was “A guy going through a break up?” I was so interested because it’s rare to see this.

Beautiful vid. To be vulnerable is to be strong. Thank you for this masterpiece!

I literally cried with you through the video. This is such a raw emotion to deal with and to see that on social media these days is something really special and i want to thank you for it. I hope you feel better i really do 🤍🤍🤍🤍

Just completed my 6 month heartbreak and definitely could resonate with you on a lot of things. I’m learning to get better each day and as time is passing by , I’m loving myself even more than I did and truly that’s the most genuine happiness from within that I ever feel.

i just fall in love with this dud for 11 mins

this is beautiful thank you for sharing

You're so strong to document your journey. The first month is always the worst. Then slowly, it gets better, but those initial days and weeks... so, so rough. Sending you a hug! x

going through something similar. this was very comforting to watch. wishing you a lot of healing :)

The beauty of being a human; if you’re in a moment of loss right now please know that love is always around the corner

You look healthier.

this got to be one of the most memorable videos I've seen.. Thank you for giving us the opportunity to witness your grothw throughout this 6 months

im about 3 or so weeks into a breakup and this video helps a lot just to not feel so alone. its been the longest few weeks of my life and I've definitely been going through ups and downs. Good video man genuinely

why did u guys break up?

bro moved on so quick lol

Thank you for being so honest and open. It means so much to see someone else sharing the same emotions as you

Brother, I came across this while on my own journey of a breakup. Boy does it feel good to see another guy cry and acknowledge his emotions in a raw matter. I applaud you for the progress and I wish you continue to grow. It looks good on you my dude. Much love from Orange County!

Sir you need a man in your life

I didn’t know males legit hurt after heartbreaks…

im so proud of you dude, watching this gives me hope that i'll feel better too, my bf of 8 months cheated on me and i had found out 2 weeks after the breakup, i don't want to talk to him or get back with him but i can't help having him in my mind still and sometimes get a wave of sadness. thank u for sharing this documentary with us !

beautiful video & message man. great to see the amount of bravery to be this vulnerable to the world. ive gone through the worst breakup after almost two years. it took me a good 8 months to fully process it. i still miss her till this day. its nice to be reminded that none of us are alone. we all go through these obstacles, we all have these things that goes on in our lives. that just helps us become stronger and wiser. thats what life is for. things get better. you will get better. thank you for this video :)

this was a little bit cringe but good watch lol