Footage is from September 30, 2021. It took me five months to touch the footage. It took me two months to finish this 16-minute edit. I don't know how long part 2 will take. We'll get there. Endings and beginnings are the hardest.
I don’t think I’ve cried so hard for someone else’s loss. I’m so sorry for the loss of your mother and I’m sorry you are struggling. I hope that missing her will get easier.
My father died last October and for some reason I keep returning to the night he died, to the evening I spend drinking wine with a person I barely knew, the last hours of not knowing he was gone. This video brings all those feelings back. There is a person before, and a person after, and it's odd to look at that person.
What a beautiful video. I had watched the "before" June for many months prior to your moms passing.....watching the "after" June has been gut wrenching and raw.....your beautiful face showing such pain......made me wonder what I was like decades ago after such loss. I asked a few people...no one cared how I felt then and they think I'm crazy to ask now....I'm thankful that over time the sad, guilty memories have faded into only hazy good memories.
It's odd isn't it ? I used to work in an ER & I was allways stunned by those who waited hours before taking a loved one to the hospital because they just kept rationalizing away their pain, even after being left on a floor for hours in a full blown grief wail I am shocked that no one was there for you and sincerly impressed by how far you've come.
I felt your pain threw this june ..I also cried with you, thinking of the lose of my own mom who I also lost recently...it will always hurt ..I really felt u when u said is u wrong for missing her a little less ..It made me think am I also wrong for the same thing ...it doesn't stop hurting I miss my mom so much I understand. Im glad to finally see your bday vlog ..blessings to you june!
I could feel every single word in your introduction. In my opinion, this is the most beautifully edited video I have ever seen of yours. This is the first time I have ever felt compelled to write a comment on RU-vid solely because your emotion radiated through and your transition midway was so well done. Thank you for sharing this with everyone and being so real.
My tears and a heavy heart feel your sadness June, but now your life will continues on, as it should . It will get easier as time moves on, to me this was a romantic and beautiful video, the music was perfectly chosen,and the food display and lightning was beautiful , well done to the team
I feel your pain in my heart. I lost my mum 22 of februari this year. And NO it is not wrong for you to go back to somekind of normal. You have a whole life ahed of you. Your love fore your mom is not any less because of that. Now June! Take care of yourself./ Lotta
This is beautifully edited. Just getting to the half way mark 😭 😭😭 Too raw. I feel your pain and yet you are amazingly strong in putting this all together. I am sorry you won’t be able to spend Mother’s Day with your mum today, talk to her, see her smiling face of feel her warm hugs again. I am sure she is however watching over you. Sending hugs 🫂
I do not come on to RU-vid to comment on videos and such, But this video… was so raw and full of emotion. I felt your words, I felt the emptiness. Everyone keeps saying it will get easier, but how can it? Moms, we only have one. Once their gone, how can we act like we are ok or go through life like ok they are dead now… I can’t imagine the feeling of loosing my mother. I never want to. I am not ready or ever will be ready.
We never stop missing or loving someone who passes. We don't even "move on" in that sense. We just cope. We cope because we have no choice but to, that loved one isn't coming back 🥺😢. We know this, but takes a very long and heartbreaking time to accept this. Over 5 years on? I still miss my mum, but she knows I love her and miss her. Wherever she is? She knows it. Sending you and anyone who is struggling with grief love , hugs and blessings. Stay strong ❤
Sweetie I can feel your grief and it touches mine own over my father who passed away 4 years ago. It doesn't get better, at least for me. Just less raw. I just try to hold to the idea that it means that person had a true lasting effect on the world, they mattered and the world was a better place for them. Not everyone will be able to say that.
You are beautiful! You are fearfully and wonderfully made. All of the “firsts” are the hardest. My Mom died September 15, 2016 I wish Mother’s Day just went on by cause my heart is broken, once again! Please don’t let anyone take your grief from you, it’s yours and it’ll come and go when you least expect it ❣️ Stay strong and remember you are so loved June! Blessings to you.
Sending you healing hugs dear June... Your words and love are beautiful, even in all their pain. May you find comfort as you walk forward in this new world. I feel like your mom watches over you and wishes nothing but the best for you going forward and that she will travel with you as you venture out into the world in the coming years. Love travels with us, long after our bodies wear out. Thank you for sharing your real self here, Anne
I've lost one parent, I was 17... I'm 49 now and it still hurts but time does heal. Slowly... one day at a time HONEST to God one moment at a time... that's all you can do. I don't know what I'll do when I lose my mom. LOVE TO YOU... SO MUCH.
This was edited in such a beautiful way June. In no way did you need to make a video like this but you have done it in such a way ever black screen makes me hold my breath and feel emotions with you.
Dearest June, This was probably my favorite video you have done. Incredibly relatable, heart- breaking, freeing, and still grounded. You have no idea the impact you have. Blessed Be from Virginia.
Oh June 😭😭😭 I had real tears in my eyes the first half of this video. Your voiceover was gut wrenching. I knew of your loss but never said this: I am so, so, so very sorry. Losing a parent rips your world apart. I had to go through grief therapy for 3 years 😢.
I'm so sorry June. This vlog is so poignant and heartbreaking. It's ok for the ache to dull. But you'll carry her with you always and she can still see the delicious food you make 💕
June, my god youve grown. I lost you in the feed but watched all your videos up until about a year ago. Im so so sorry for your loss. As im catching up with your videos, im losing my own mother, to cancer. I feel like im walking through a fever dream most days. Your mom would have loved this. As she loved you. Sending you love from the trenches. 🖤
My heart goes out to you. My condolences. My Mother passed when I was 23; I am 45 now and it still can hurt. Grief takes time and eventually you will be stronger. I am happy that you are documenting and sharing I am sure it will help others.
My older sister died when I was 16 then my mom died when I was 22. Grief is an ongoing process. You have been an inspiration June 💜 Keep going! Love from Cass
I feel you I lost my mom last month on the 19th. and never gets easier to deal with the pain because you always miss her. but it's very important that you learn to move on. because you need to live
The deepest hurt I’ve felt in my life is the loss of my grandparents who were more my parents than my own parents were or are. Papaw has been gone almost 10 years in September and mamaw 9 years this past March and even tho it’s been that long of a time my body still hurts as if it were yesterday. I still have these breakdowns when reality kicks in and I notice I don’t have them to turn to anymore. I no longer have my people who guided me through 18 years of my life who were there on my best and worst days and now those days are memories that stay on repeat with the hope I can catch a glimpse of how life used to be with them in it cause it sure as hell has not been the same without them. I’ve built a family around me to give back some of what I’ve lost but there’s still so much I’ll never have again and I’m reminded of that when something sets off a sensory memory of them. The part that’s hurts the worst is that My partner didn’t get to meet them. They never got to meet the man who’d end up loving me with a love so rare but one they understood, they never got to meet the person who held me through their loss and I wish I could have just another minute for my my favorite people in this world to have known each other and experience the love and joy having each other brings. All this just to say I understand this grief and as much as I’d love to tell you lies in hopes to make it hurt less I can’t because it’s not true. It doesn’t hurt less. It doesn’t go away. It stays. It stays like the skin on your body. It stays like an wound that never really heals because there’s always that scar from it and every time you notice it you relive that painful event over and over again. It stays because that unconditional love is impossible to recover from.
you are still the lucky ones to have found and experienced the love and warmth of a close one. some people never experience love their entire life. Lots of love and wishes to all from my side to whoever reading it.
Grief is cruel. The world continues when we want it to stop and witness our pain. The guilt of healing is cruel because it feels like a betrayal. The pain is cruel because you have to feel it all in order to heal. Be gentle to yourself.
Honest wrecks me. I took pictures & videos & texted to my Mom…We only lived an hour apart but Covid put us worlds away, as I needed to protect Her I couldn’t go & visit as often, at all.
I lost both of my parents before the age of 30. I can honestly say that the first year is the absolute worst. It is hell. It gets better. I am so sorry.
Nothing is your fault June, nothing. I lost my Dad in January 2016. They night before he passed….I told him that the next day we were going to sort his COPD meds out with the pharmacist because it did not seem to help. Before going to sleep I asked God to let him go like a little bird…and he passed in his sleep. I cried for 3 years solid…..went into depression….I can tell you that after 6 years, I feel at last out of that deep funk! But everyone is different.
I'm 4 minutes in and tears are running down my face. I lost my mother at the beginning of August 2022 and the last picture I sent her was of my roses that I was proud of and some new wine I wanted to try. This video will be hard for me to watch (probably) but she loved when I watched travel videos and then told her about them. 🤍
