I'm 60 years old. A lot of ups and downs in life, as I suppose there are for most people. I put in my earbuds and walk in the night to the grocery store with this playing. It gives me a sense of gratefulness for being alive. There's a full moon tonight, shining through light clouds.
I listened to Aphex Twin as a teenager to calm my anxiety. It's now years later, and I'm here playing their ambient works as lullabies for my sleeping baby. She is such a happy looking baby rn and I could live in this moment forever
Cursed be the profane tabernacle of Orion, for it is the place where Cepheus will never be, lest Armageddon occur! *Anathema!* The profane tabernacle the mortals call subway is a place of uncleanliness and damnation! For real though, it's not actually healthy, and like all fast food joints, the hygiene there is vastly insufficient.
@@xiclops Sorry if you may be going through something hard but, You need to give your life meaning and purpose, I know I may be sounding naive but you have to give your life meaning and purpose in order to keep going. Have a good day.
@@catturnstotea3722 I once had that special someone as well... Though we listened to this together in a bad moment, in fact we broke up shortly after I discovered this song, and the few times we listened to this together, it made her cry and as a consequence of this, I felt terrible and now I feel like this song has sucked up all the sadness of that moment of my life. Enjoy the precious moments with your girl, especially when listening to masterpieces like this and the atmoshpere is not polluted with sadness and the acknowledgment of an imminent break-up..
_Stone In Focus_ IS...THE...MOST immersive piece of ambient atmosphere I've ever encountered. It's transcendent, but yet so simple. It sounds to me like a theme of Earth itself.
Those little ticks that are not even hi hats or any type of drums are just.. so much better than drums. Thinking about it now.. Aphex is such a legend. He makes the absolute most relaxing ambient music while at the same he creates the most insane crazy sounding music like Vordhosbn. And he does them all well. It wouldn't be farfetched at all to say that he may very well be responsible if not for creating than for Inspiring many many new music genres
@@Speedster189 Plus he doesn't even have any musical training, it's insane. and you're right - a lot of huge musical artists have said he influenced their work.
I've always been a daydreamer. When times got tough, i always retrieved back into my imagination. I lived off of my dreams basically, to the point where it got in the way of my daily life. I've finally made peace with the fact that there is a time to live and a time to dream, and i can't give into my desire to escape reality all the time. Whenever i do give myself that privilege though, it is always to Richard's music. It brings back all my fantasy worlds, all the wishes I've suppressed. His music reminds me of all the people I've been, of all the pain and all the joy, the random memories that make me feel warm inside. And it keeps me going. I am finally pursuing my dreams in a concrete and proactive way instead of keeping them inside, from fear to hope that they'll actually come true. I am so grateful to be alive and to have so much to live for. I hope this comment will help people who need comforting, as well as a little motivation to push through fear and shame, and to dare to live. I know i will be coming back to it from time to time, when remembering gets hard. Love to you all. May we always remember that life is worth living, and that we are loved and appreciated, and that our efforts matter. Godspeed to us all ✨✨
Ahhm another Dissociative Daydreamer in the wild! I still do this but I'm trying to balance it out with studying how to paint so I can put the ideas on paper now, too.
Rhubarb is one I’ve been listening to for almost 15 years. It takes me back to being a teenager and having no worries. I was just looking forward with hope. What a time.
@@larvancioramos9748 Even when I was young I have always been very aware of the value that youth and being a kid/teenager holds. Looking back on it now I am grateful that I enjoyed that time of my life as much as I possibly could. I wish more kids could realise what I realised very early on in my life.
@@NvmThemHereIAm well done, really dificult to see on these current times. Nowadays generations seems lost, I dont blame them, we, the older ones did nothing to prevent or stop this mess. God luck to you
This song doesnt make me think about the past at all. It makes me think of the distant future a bit maybe, one beyond my lifetime. But more than anything it just brings me peace, and makes me happy that i am alive.
He's also a well known liar in interviews. He even says this much. He just used to take the pish. Most of this stuff was either an Oberheim rack, DX7 or sampler.
@Baltazar Razatlab See as much as a like your fervour it's just no as true as you would like to believe. Yep he maybe has made some adjustments to some gear. Apparently he started an engineering course but never finished it. My mate could solder his broken guitar leads at 14 years old, doesn't mean he made guitar leads. A lot of the titles of his songs mention gear that was made by companies and he happily admited he just used to tell lies in interviews for a laugh.
Close your eyes, lay down in a dark room an let your imagination take control. I just had one of the most peaceful moment in my life listening to this.
I'm moving to Tokyo in October. Every time I listen to Aphex I get this feeling I'm living inside my memories. I'll miss the States but I think mostly I'll miss my family. Excited for the future but also terrified
A very cool thing about Aphex is the breadth of his musical feeling. Sure these are beautiful, transcendent, relaxing songs, but he also produces fun, gripping, exciting music too. He's a very cool guy, and my life is definitely better because of this man. I'm an atheist, so the best I can say is, may the universe bless this man with many years of life and bless him with more inspiration to craft wonderful music.
Aphex Twin’s music saved me form depression in high school. It was literally like rehabilitation for me. His music has such a soul to it, that I cannot describe with words. It’s almost like God would’ve made it for pepole. I can’t say how thankfull I am for this guy
the sounds do have a resonance with melancholia and a yearning for changing things in the past. I have to be careful how much I listen to this but it does have a place in the medicine chest of music playlists..
@@nairamdiam same. I think it’s very melancholy and hiræth. Music is a gift from a higher power. It’s transcendental; it’s like a tool to be used when spoken language becomes obsolete. Something that has never left me is the feeling I got reading The Silmarillion, when the gods created the universe with music.
It's 04:04 am on a sunday, i'm home after a full saturday. I'm halfway through the playlist while studying and writing an article for an upcoming academic event, and Aphex's music makes me feel like everything's under control somehow. It's the first time in a very long time that i genuinely feel relaxed, and not wishing i was somewhere else than where i am.
After nearly losing my life, I never really processed it. But hearing this really set it in. I made it, I survived, I have a second chance at life, so don’t waste it. Don’t ever waste your life man. Don’t worry about superficial things. Do what you love. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Just take it easy.
the game is Killing Floor the map is Foundry the music is pure gold. thanks for this mix. edit: its been more than a year since I started to listen to Aphex Twin. I still love ambient songs, still love songs that make me reflect, meditate, and at the same time, make me sad, or even cry. I would recommend these albums if you're into that kind of song as well: Rock Action by Mogwai and Seraphim by How to Disappear Completely. mogwai is post rock and HTDC is what I would call dreaming without sleep, death without being dead. keep listening, friends, I hope I see you guys again sooner than later
I dont think Richard will ever make something has monolithic, atmospheric and absolutely grand as Selected Ambient Works Volume ii. It's one of those albums that just comes in a lifetime and never to be replicated ever again.
You really understand the value of some tracks on there a lot later.For example #7 sounded so unlikable at the first listen but after a few more i understood it wasnt trying to be like rhubarb or stone in focus this was its own thing and it made me appreciate it more.
I played Killing Floor (location shown on this video) through all of my undergrad years. It's a very odd but welcome feeling seeing this paired with Aphex Twin's ambient stuff. It feels like I'm revisiting a happy place where times were simpler
i was looking for this comment, KF was godlike. maining the santa skin all year round, spamming voice lines while flipping scrakes with the hunting shotgun, one-shotting patrick on wave 11 with pipe bomb hat before they nerfed it... good times. patriarch: "What have you done to my children?!?!?" 20 stacked pipebombs: *"BEEP BEEP BEEP"* I must say also that the nutcracker fleshpounds were super intense too, personally found them even more intimidating than the default model. I remember plenty of times where that face being 90% of my screen was the last thing i saw before instantly dying 😂
it really isnt. this is more of a childhood memory that you forgot but you somehow remember it out of nowhere. im kinda tired of the feeling that doesnt exist comments since you know, that feeling does exist
@@bbb-dk7pz I think it’s just relaxing and peaceful music, and that triggers memories from when you were relaxed or however you felt at that time. Maybe in your childhood you were more relaxed because you were less stressed, and maybe they can’t describe a memory like that as there was never a time of complete peace in their lives. You are right that a lot of people say that exact same thing though, but maybe they genuinely do feel that way. Who knows.
I couldn't listen to it when RU-vid auto played it a few months ago - 3 seconds in, and I knew I had to immediately turn it off. It was bringing me back to the dark abyss I felt after my breakup just over a year ago. When the world turned a pale shade of grey, when the light inside of me flickered into darkness. When my hope dried up and my heart and soul shattered into a million broken pieces. When my world suddenly came crashing down and everything I thought was a constant became lost from view. But RU-vid just auto played this again, after I was listening to an old remix I'd made. I instantly recognised it, and filled up with emotion. I went to close the video, but this time, I did not stop it. I listened. I felt. Shivers racing up and down my entire body, tears swelling behind my eyes. "Is this a good idea?" I asked myself. Then it dawned on me. I have finally reached that final stage - moving on, acceptance, peace. All of my hard work has paid off. I can sit and listen, experiencing the existential pain I once couldn't escape... and realise I'm okay, realise she was truly so bad for me, but move forward with no grudges, no hatred, just forgiveness, acceptance, and peace. It's incredible that music can evoke such visceral emotions, such profound memories, and such deeply felt feelings.
When he's gone, over the centuries to come, if we still can hear these works, many people will look back and think he was the Greatest composer of our time and one of the greatest composers ever, one who actually created the sounds as well as creating the atmospheres and pieces.. I hope his music is heard for many aeons to come.. Makes me wonder why i even try to write songs or music when i hear the mastery of this.. Peace everyone, spread love..i hope your day gets better if it is a tough one.. Best wishes from Rolland..x
Lichen sounds to me like i somehow awoke in what i dream up to be heaven. Vast green plains, flowers blooming all around, insects buzzing and flying, feeding off the plants, a blue sky bathing everything in the light of the warm spring sun, with a soft breeze tingling the skin. And clouds, low and fluffy, with a perceptible yet slow movement. Everything sort of glittering and shining, alive and harmonious.
I'm halfway through my life, physically fading, mentally sharper but understand less now then ever before... Caught between the euphoric recall of my past memories and the projected fears of the future... But this is beautiful.
Удивительная музыка которая прекрасно подходит для того чтобы разгрузить голову и просто молча посидеть подумать куда я иду по этой дорого под названием жизнь
"The rain tapping against the glass only amplifies my sense of isolation. It's as if the droplets are trying to break through the barrier and reach me, but they never quite make it. I find myself wondering if anyone else feels this way, if anyone else is standing in a dimly lit hallway, gazing out at the city below and feeling as alone as I do. As the rain continues to fall, I can't help but think about the people who call this city home. Do they feel the same sense of loneliness that I do? Or are they able to find meaning and connection in a world that often feels so cold and unforgiving? Despite my feelings of isolation, there's something about the city at night that draws me in. Maybe it's the bright lights, or the distant sounds of laughter and music. Or maybe it's the hope that somewhere out there, there's someone else who feels the same way I do."
And then... And then your moment will end. The joy and anxiety of being part of a vital algorithm. An unmistakable hidden siren will announce the end of your shift here. Only then will it be time to fill the suitcase with memories, joys, and sorrows... The more abundant it is, the more serene the departure will be... For now love, walk, and live...
I'm 3 years old, I have yet to learn how talk, so music such as this proved excellent for my eclectic palette. I would tell you more about the joys of this music however I have just shat myself, and must attend to it.
If I may give you some recommendations, try Andre 3000's new album "New Blue Sun" and maybe some japanese new age like Hiroshi Yoshimura's "Soundscape 1" or his "Green" Album
That first track pulls you in. It feels how a cold winter day is when there isnt any wind but the sun is just beginning to warm things, like right around ten or eleven and that coldness that comes with the melting of the water in the air has gone away and you can feel the basking comfort of the sun, its like a little solar blanket around you. But you still feel the cold, but its not enough to trouble you. And if anything you feel like you prefer it than to just be inside and warm, Im really glad i found this guy.
That is an extremely specific mood and setting thats hard to capture or feel and the fact that this song captures that and you're able to articulate it for me to understand the feeling perfectly makes me feel like I stumbled across the Alice in wonderland key and door at the same time and everything I knew wasn't real
Wow, man. Your description really took me somewhere else. To those days in past when i had different worries, and different dreams. When i seen world in more kind way. I was more naive, but actually closer to important things. I was thinking less but i was thinking about things which were actually important to me. I lived in the moment, in the present. Clear soul, simple mind. Just waiting for the tea to be prepared, enjoying time with people which i dont know where are they now. Watching old buildings, and thinking how it was when they they were "alive", how it was in the past. How future is going to be. For me ? For this world ? Actually no. Just for this place. If i am going to still feel this feelings which i have now. Just looking outside of the window, looking at the strangers, i see myself in them, its almost as a mirror.
I typed the following in a new comment, but I'll add it as a reply in here because I think it belongs with you guys too. Something I've begun to recognize as an older person-29 is just barely beginning to get older-is that some media is fun & gripping but necessarily narrow like a roller coaster or a racetrack, while other media is beautiful, transcendent & open like a relaxing day at the beach or falling asleep in an open field. These songs are clearly the latter. Maybe I semi-consciously recognized this difference a long time ago, but this is the first time I've tried to articulate this as an adult.
I met a nice lady on the train, we exchanged numbers. It was all so fast and pure coincidence, it felt good. I thought that this was a sign. Now it‘s not really working out and I am questioning myself if destiny even exists …
My parents live on a property of 19 acres of land. 9 acres are woods. Listening to this during an evening walk in the woods on a warm summer night is just.. enchanting. The moon lighting the sky abdvthe wind rustling the trees...
I've been making electronic music for like 15 years and spent those years trying to mix every element as clear as possible without losing body. Now im trying to do this ambient, muffled, high-end lacking type stuff and its hard as fuck let me tell you. Love it
This mix made me cry a little, just from the peace and harmony alone. When you tune out the world with just these songs, and a pair of noise-cancelling headphones to boot it has the oddest and most intoxicating effect.
Slipping into the liminal space. It’s making me cry as well. Just to be free. To be somewhere untouched. To feel surrounded by love in an elevated form. To feel held.
@@mclare71 That's damn serene and a very true to heart of this artist. I am not sure why the feeling of liminal places makes me feel comfortable and safe, maybe because we come from something like that once.. all of us. I'm not really sure but your words are so true.
Off 📴🗣️ and whatever is best 😉 with a few things 😉☺️☺️☺️ if you can get in a bit to get back and forth to be a little bit less 😉 with a few people I know you got it but I think 💬 is it 🤣😜 and I have no idea how I feel asleep and I think 💬 is fame.
Rhubarb feels as if you are witnessing, rather digesting, that a life you've once loved - a long one - has come to a close and nothing can be done to avert or change the outcome. It feels as if you are being comforted, but not in a reassuring way as to make you feel hopeful for what is to come. Truly a wonderful piece. Just discovered this artist. Everyone in this comment section seems to have their own interesting and equally unique takes on the music.
@@lunalaeclipse7155 oh, right on. That's pretty cool that someone else gets where I'm coming from. I hope you enjoy your night fam as well as your listen.
Aphex Twin is one of the few artists that soothes the pain of my existence. I don't think others are quite as capable. My mind and spirit exist in the flux that is chaos. I know of no peace naturally. To have such an artist touch you so deeply without ever having met you is of the most true of prosperities, and I can't express myself enough over this.
@@Audikontroller1 Deep trauma that is burned into my every fiber. I have mostly been a passive person in life. People with greater control over me and my surroundings disregard what matters to my life because I'm not important enough for them to care. I am tormented by memories and cannot forgive many people because of those same memories. My brain makes me remember when I was made to feel bad or cheated. I can't escape. Hypnosis doesn't work because my mind refuses anyone to have control over it. I've tried DMT twice in the past, and the second time, my body and mind had recognized what DMT wanted from me: Absolute control. I remember, during the first time, the DMT wanted me to turn off my consciousness. It felt truly demonic, insidious. Because I had recognized this, during the second time, my body and mind recognized the request DMT had put forward, and greatly resisted it. I realize that some of this feels like it's coming from a random place, but I know people will suggest various remedies, including but not limited to "bitches". I am getting better. There are, however, irreparable existences to speak on. I retain that because it's not up to me if I feel good at the end of the day.
I listened to Aphex on my 11 day Caribbean cruise. Now when i listen to these songs i think fondly of the excitement of arriving in a different colorful country every day, no cares in the world. Music + travel creates memories that will last a lifetime
When i listen to aphex twin i have some strange feeling that is hard to define, like i belonged in some long forgotten time or place. Like remembering some undefined moment from early childhood. Stillness, sadness, hope, all in one feeling. Like remembering of long forgotten home.
lots of recent comments here, i love aphex twin edit: also, i’m really glad this doesn’t have ads edit 2: nevermind it does have ads. now i can’t sleep to this
Rhubarb is something that is just deeply affecting. It's like Ascent (the ending) by Brian Eno, or the incredible music used in one of the final scenes in the movie Sunshine (when Cillian Murphy is about to be vapourised by the sun rays).
In the sky (1:05:40) it's like... i can't describe it. I knew already the other music from that compilation so that's why i'm talking about this one, but damn. It really touch something really deep inside me. It's simultaneously really sad and happy. Love it.
For me, I think "In the Sky" captures the feeling of a very brief happy moment from childhood ... the memory is very elusive, but deeply felt on some level; thinking I'll probably never feel that happy ever again, but grateful it occurred at some point.
58:50 This is the ending of Medievil Rave MK2 [pre plague mix] for those asking. There's other tracks on this mix, that are segmented, as well. Time-stamping would be a challenge.
LONG before time had a name, me and my buddies Fiktor n Shaki were on Vodno mountain smoking the za whilst this music was playing. I thrive in the memories and yearn for that moment once again.
to age is to grow wise. as Aphex aged, he released beautiful pieces. as you age, you gain new experiences. I hope your perspective changes because age is a gift.
I know it's not easy (from personal experience), but try to get in terms with the passage of time... you can't change it, but you can make the most of it. Wishing you the best
It's been a bit over 2 months since my best friend died. His name was Connor, and he was the funniest man I had ever met. He was 23. He did not listen too Aphex Twin, but I often did and he was aware of this. I guess that, by proxy, I somehow associate this music to remembering him in some fashion. I don't know why, all of that sort of psychological complex shit is way above me. It could just be that the ambient nature of Richards music acts as a backdrop for my mind to wander through, bringing me to think about the obvious hole in my life now. I like to believe however that this music's beauty reflects Connor in an abstract sort of way. Or maybe my brain is still just trying to cope. Science says that you simply stop existing once you die. I hope not. I miss you Connor. I don't want you to not exist.
#3 fills me with a feeling so deep and melancholic I couldn't describe it. It feels like a collapse or a hug after an insurmountable time going alone, weathering troubles and suffering in silence. Doom looms inevitable, but a momentary embrace makes everything feel ok, for just a moment. It's like knowing everything's crumbling around you, but still being told "you've done so well. You did it. It's finished." I feel like I can rest knowing that everything comes to an end, and what you do before it does is all that matters. It means more to me than I can say
I'm 38 and used to listen to Aphex Twin's music (ambient and otherwise) when I was 14. Crazy. Haven't thought about it in a long time, the algorithm took me here.
I am so grateful that my son and I were able to experience this music together . Such reflection on what should be important , the answers seems so obvious at times , then the music turns off and we fk it all up again .
i wanted to take a moment to appreciate this wonder if work. i love aphex twin music, i was shaky coming into it but once i was in i never wanted to leave
This music also reminds me of the 5th element movie soundtrack. Very peaceful- sort of alien. It is crazy to think that people can create music like this
I’m going through the comments everyone saying they feel at peace but some of this music is so deeply haunting to me it makes me think about my past, friends long gone, places I’ve visited now so far away. Like I’m slipping closer and closer to my end collecting all of these memories that will fade away. I seriously can’t even listen to this music it makes me so sad and I’m not even a sad person.
I grew up listening to this stuff, and was lucky enough to see Richard D. James in LA many years ago at All Tomorrows Parties. I used to play this music for my son as a baby and he would cry. Now years later I understand, as he's said it makes him too sad to listen to and sometimes sounds scary when he's falling asleep. Music that elicits that strong an emotional response means it's good music. I just wish he appreciated it as much as myself. Sometimes it's difficult for me to listen to as well as it causes many memories to come flooding back.
SAW series amongst my favourite albums of all time… SAWll is very personal, reminds me of times back in the day. I remember seeing piles of SAWll CD albums in a bargain bin in Virgin or Our Price back in ‘94-95 and I couldn’t understand why. I read at the time a comment by Dr Alex Paterson (of The Orb), he said something along the lines of ‘no one will understand this album now but in years to come it will be revered’. So true 👍 I was lucky enough to see Aphex twin 6 times or so in the ‘90’s. Good times. 😎
