But I ONLY want sweet foods // ED Recovery 

Thank you so much for all the time, devotion and honestly just kindness in the messages of support you're giving to all of us. I've always honestly been quite a lot into running and sports in general but it got to a point where it kind of snowballed into an eating disorder. Ever since the pandemic hit and my weight hit an all-time low I've been kind of postponing recovery, not so much for the fear of particular foods anymore, but more because of the ultimate seek for the unachievable "perfectionism" as you mentioned, in my case with calorie counting, that actually ended-up backfiring. In the last few weeks I finally decided to be kind of honest to myself about my endless postponing of weight restoration and stopped using my food scale for the first time in like 4 years and instead focused on wanting to hear my body. As (now) expected 😂, I began craving HUGE amounts of food, specially because I still love the fact I now actually have the energy to run, I ate way more than the typical extreme hunger-affected individual, 99.99% sweets except for water perhaps 😄. I began becoming incredible scared I was literally going to eat myself to death or something, specially because I saw others' professional advice of recovery super-exact and sometimes restrictive meal plans, but your videos have been incredibly motivating not only on not giving up on recovery, but also just in general getting rid of all the focus on the stereotypical "happy living" that comes from being "ultra-slim" and all the "fitness culture" rather than focusing on happiness and the love that comes from accepting our humanity. Thanks to the fact my weight wasn't in such a huge deficit as potentially from many other people's where I began, I genuinely feel like it mostly was more in the psychology of restriction and missing hunger cues that I quickly started feeling less hungry again everytime, specially for foods I had labeled as "bad" in my head all my life. Anyways, I'm sorry for my essay of a comment 😂, but seriously thank you so much for sharing your story and keep up with your incredible vids, just know you keep helping people out and truly changing lives :) 💙

Thank you soo much! I have been exactly like this! The guilt of not having a normal diet that I should b having has been awful. At least I know that I can do what needs to be done. ❤

Theres really notbing else in life than going througj recovery, truely a transformative procees in so many ways 😊😊😊

Thank you Emily ! Thanks to your experience and advices, I just got my period back after 7 months in recovery and 18 months of HA ! I could'n't be more happy ! I can feel like a woman again now . Losing my period was the first warning of my body in the beginning of my ED. I believe that having them back is the meaning that the renovation part is almost done :) I noticed that my recovery was separated in stages. I think now after recovering of HA, I made an other step toward the end of it ! But honestly even if I have victories, it's still hard to see my body in the mirror somedays. Hard to always have a belly like a balloon. But I hope it's almost finished. No more mentale hunger but still huge physical hunger cues. I am still very hungry but I don't know what to eat. Some foods begin to be disgusting if I eat them. Now, I am trying to focus of to get back on track in a healthy body. I will see later to start moving my body again. I am a huge fan of lifting and long walks in the mountains and the forest. Big thank-you to you !

Thank you so much! I needed this desperately!

thank you so so much for this! Such a good reassurance ❤

Emily, your support is appreciated far beyond any words can adequately express! Lovely Roka wanting cuddles gave me a *strong* sense of her unconditional love and support, as well. 🐕🥰 THANK YOU, BOTH !

Your videos have been helping me tremendously. I am on medical leave and have two months to gain as much of my weight back as possible. I am doing it on my own. I did it once before from a more extreme point before a relapse, but I'm doing it without psychiatric medication or marijuana this time and am completely sober. My issue is more related to emetophobia, ARFID, orthorexia, trauma. Been underweight my whole life and got to a really scary point recently. Less the intentional restriction regarding body image, but I've fully embraced the general teachings for ED recovery and can no longer pretend it's not a problem or just give up and accept this body any longer and the way prolonged starvation has handicapped my life. I've teared up a lot watching your videos while eating because you're so encouraging. It's been the biggest help.

Thank you for this video! I do worry sometimes that I will develop diabetes since I’m eating so much sugar now…

This was soooooo Sweet 😊❤

Thanks again Emily for giving so much hope and for showing everyone that peace with a new living comes with determination and doing the opposite of an ed. I was just reaching out to ask if anyone has been hesitant about eating with unrestricted freedom even if my body is not the typical anorexia body and weight is just bordering underweight, yet the restricted eating coping behavior has been present for years (in my case 9 years at least)? Is it ok to allow myself that freedom that seems to apply to others? I lose hope that recovery advice applies to me. Thanks so much again, I appreciate so much everything you do.

Thanks 4 the video. Did u just eat the cheesecakes etc that you craved or did u force normal meals (breakfast, lunch & dinner) in aswell?

I’ve been honering my extreme hunger for 3 weeks but I’m terrified I’m on the verge of developing diabetes can someone help is it my ed speaking or is it a genuine fear because I have some symptoms

I think I have denied myself sweet things / pizza, chips etc I have conditioned myself not to crave them anymore. I now ONLY eat "meat" and veg and my trusty jacket potato everyday! Since 14th Jan I have had 1 day of need eating veg and I cannot remember when I didnt have fruit and I have yogurt every single day. I feel so lost, dont't know whar to do to recover. I KNOW i need to but so lost

I actually crave both sweet and salty foods equally🫠😪and I can’t decide….