Craziest Story of My Life - ICU Delirium / Psychosis ~ Kevin May 

Dude speaks the truth. I went through that with alcohol withdrawal. It was my first DT. Had no idea about this until researching after it all ended, so I went through it alone in my apartment, Absolutely terrifying. The demonic voices and visuals I can never forget. Along with the feeling of being in HELL. And you're right bro. This needs to be talked about alot more. Stay safe.

I was in a coma for 2 months and experienced icu psychosis right before waking up and probably a week after I woke up..I had similar experiences and developed ptsd just from the pyschosis..It felt like I was in purgatory and I was convinced that I was dead..I could write about 10 books on the things I experienced

I had an experience like this in the hospital when I was going through alcohol dt’s. I saw a demon nurse, it was grotesque. Horrific. You’re not alone my friend

How are people not speaking out about this Dang bro That’s intense, especially when you feel it all to be real. Thanks for sharing

I would never wish this experience on anyone, but it’s reassuring for me to see I’m not the only one who’s gone through it. I had a very similar experience of a psychotic episode just last year. I too had delusions of being in hell, feeling like the nurses were out to get me, and that I was going to be stuck in the hospital for eternity playing some sick “games” to prolong my life. I’d like to hear more about your story man.

Thanks for sharing your story bro. Never heard about ICU delirium until recently because my 35 year old brother just went into cardiac arrest a week ago and was resuscitated and was put on these sedatives, fentanyl and the ventilator for a week long. Now he's off and awake and appears to be in a state of psychosis. So I'm pretty sure he's going thru exactly what you went thru. It's tough to see as his brother and feeling helpless but I'm just hoping it passes soon. He says stuff that makes sense and then says stuff that makes absolutely no sense whatsoever. Crazy shit. Hoping it gets better. 🙏

Thank you for the courage, strength and wisdom to record this video. He has given you the strength and you have not let him down with the healing. My precious soulmate is suffering from ICU delirium and I finally won the fight to get access to her in the ICU and begin my therapy with her, to deliver her from the hell she is living in. She's been in the ICU for over 90 days and is fighting for her life. If I'd been able to have access to her sooner she would not be in a serious declined mental state, I'm certain of that.

yooo. totally get it. shoutout from norway. good luck with everythig bro.

My brother just had a liver transplant on August 14th 2022. He has been in the hospital since Father's day, June 19th 2022. In the ICU at Tampa General Hospital. Trauma/transplant ward. I love you and thank you for sharing your story. It has given me some insight as to what my brother is going through. He has been incubated 3 times now. (Not currently) Thank God because they would switch him from Propanol to Fentanyl for sedation. Sometimes they would let it wear off when they were switching to the other sed. I was there for almost 2 hrs they had him awake and he was just looking at me trying to talk to me with his eyes...I can't even explain and this brings tears to my eyes as I type this, the desperation in his eyes was fucking heart breaking. I felt my heart actually hurting. Because I always told him I would come scoop if he ever doesn't like whats going on I got his back no matter what. He is my big brother and we are close because we're only 22 months apart. He has called me at 2 am to tell me the nurses are beating him at night time when noone from the family is there. He thinks he is at home, or has just been to the gas station, hears people that are not there.

I had an almost identical experience after an MDMA overdose. Thanks for sharing man 😊

I totally feel the urge to serve the greater collective after some personal trauma. Feels the best way to heal from something like this

I had hallucinations too and I was only 10 years old- not on any substance withdrawal for everyone saying this just has to do with substances. Coming out of my coma I fought for my life, pulled out my tubes, hit the nurse, got restrained, got drugged up again-genuinely thought they were executing me. I was just a kid, so I didn’t know about torture or ‘Sophie’s choice’, I had never seen SAW- and that’s exactly what it was like. I had these crazy horror movie challenges, solving riddles to save my family from being killed, or even selecting people to torture to save myself. Giant nails being hammered into my body. Wild shit! Wtf?? Everyone in my life was soo happy when I ‘got out’ meanwhile I was having a full blown existential crisis at 10 years old lol Thanks for sharing your experience fr fr

Been in icu twice and now in the past 6 years and the hallucinations were horrific

Ah, I felt what you were going through when I had covid with pneumonia. And had to be admitted to the ICU with intubation. (less than 30% of oxygen). I went into an induced coma and had the most horrific horror scenes in my life. And was convinced that all the doctors and nurses were trying to kill me and most of them actually were or looked like my friends/classmates from school growing up. Each day in my dreams just felt too real and felt like I was in there for eternity.

Kevin, I had a double lung transplant. I definitely know what your talking about. I definitely would like to share with you. I can tell that it scared you to death.

I was having wild delusions, reliving some of the most exciting times of my life, in the most vivid fashion. In my mind, I was on jump run, ready to skydive out of a DC3 three miles above the earth . . . going to be the last man out, my favorite position. It was the maximal flying of my body. Bursting into brilliant sunshine outside the airplane door, I immediately assumed a head dive with my arms tucked behind me (in my mind), feeling the familiar buffeting as I fell beneath the prop blast, watching from upside down as the belly of the enormous silvery plane started to shoot skyward, its huge propellers whirling in slow motion, earth and clouds below mirrored on its underbelly. I was musing over the odd sight of flaps and wheels down (as if landing) while still miles above the ground (all to slow down and minimize wind shock to the exiting jumpers). I tucked my arms in extra tight in a head-down dive to accelerate briskly to over 220 miles per hour, nothing more than my speckled blue helmet and shoulders against thin upper air to resist the tug of the huge planet below, moving more than the length of a football field every second, the wind roaring by furiously at thrice hurricane speed, louder than anything-ever. Passing between the tops of two enormous puffy white clouds, I rocketed into the clear chasm between them, green earth and sparkling deep blue sea far below, in my wild, thrilling rush down to join my friends, just barely visible, in the colorful snowflake formation, growing larger every second as other jumpers joined in, far, far below . . . I was flipping back and forth between being present there in the ICU and being out of my mind in the adrenaline-soaked delusions of a gorgeous skydive. I was between nutty-and getting it. For two days I blabbered about skydiving, airplanes, and the Internet to all who would listen. As my physical brain gradually recovered its bearings, I entered a strange and exhausting paranoid universe. In short, I was a little crazy.

Dude they are scary. I honestly thought a bunch of people were there that weren't and it felt so real and it's the craziest thing I've ever experienced in my life. I saw the most craziest shit and thought it was so real. The most random shit too.

Music is like this: She can kill with a smile, she can wound with her eyes She can ruin your faith with her casual lies And she only reveals what she wants you to see She hides like a child but she's always a woman to me (You might give this old song a listen in the context of the song phrase that came to you.) (Love your little melody.)

Sounds like the spirit of Salvia at play in icu psychosis

DMT made me feel this way, will never ever do it again

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Do you think that potentially we all go through this before dying if we cling to life instead of letting go? Your experience reminded me of the film “Jacob’s Ladder”. Have you seen it?

I experienced the same shit when I was in the hospital after geting shot and put into a induced coma for 2 weeks it was fuckin crazy thinking the doctors were trying to set me up or thinking I was able to leave the hospital but I had to be back at a certain time or they wouldn’t let me back into the hospital I was going on fuckin journeys man and I didn’t sleep for 4 days straight the doctors said I guess I was just terrified out of my mind

It just happened to me. Its terrifying

It's interesting I was just listening to a book by Dr. Rebecca Brown, that explained this phenomena, He came to set the captives free

can you explain it in simpler english, i don't know english i use google translate. How do you try to recover from delirium? My grandfather had a major operation 3 days ago and sometimes my grandfather is still delirious? Please reply my message

During your stay we’re you following commands or did it take a while?

Vid starts @ 8:00

dude this doesnt happen to people who arent on withdrawal

Hmmm, I don’t know man, it just might be believable if every other word out of your mouth wasn’t “like” or “f***in”.....just kinda takes away from the credibility if you ask me.....hope you feel better though....