Nervous, excited, thrilled but most importantly happy to share this second part of my weight gain series with you guys. I hope you enjoy this one as much as the first one. Hopefully this is able to help some of you who also struggle, pushing you in the right direction xx
❤ so much love, its fucking hard but you are incredible. Do you have a support system apart from drs, like family/friends to help w the anxiety and just fears?
And you can regain your health, due to both severe anxiety and my ed mine (period) has been gone for way too long, I dont even want to say 😢 but you can do this xox ps sorry for so many comments 😂
I've recently gained some weight due to eating disorder recovery and the fact that I have someone online going through the same process makes it so much easier. It is weight restoration, not just weight gain. Love this series.
I applaud you for sharing such a journey on the internet, and you don’t know how much it is positively making an impact on other young girls who are going through similar journeys. I am also in ed recovery and in the process of gaining weight (for the 2nd time) and it’s scary but I find comfort in living this experience with you. I relate to everything you say and it inspires me to keep going, weight gain can be a beautiful thing! and you are so gorgeous!! Lots of love ❤️ xxx
This genuinely put such a huge smile on my face. Thank you Gabrielle, I'm so happy that you find my videos motivating and a way to push you in the right direction. We've got this xx
Oh, I felt the same sh...t during my real recovery. Up and down, good and bad days, fears. I cried a lot, but I'm healthy now. I know, now is so hard, but it will be better day after day. Be strong (mentally also), and fight :) You are stronger, than your ED.
Ed Recovery world honestly needed a channel like yours! I watched all your videos and it helps so much! Very sad i just watched the last one for a while but I applaud you for making the best decision for your health.
this made me so happy to read. Thank you so so so much. But don't fear! It won't be the last one:) I'm just taking a step back to document every, single week
im really proud of you for pushing through , and thank you for sharing this with us ive been thinking of recovery and weight gain so much now and im really nervous but you helped me a lot and motivated me so. much
This helps me so much because I'm very scared to regain weight and get my period back... but you help so much with your pureness and you are amazing! Keep fighting ❤
It's such a uncomfortable feeling. I get ya. But it's well worth it in the long run! Also, everytime it happens, just embrace that your body is functioning the way it is, not focusing on the way it looks! Being able to move your bones, skin, etc!
Loved this video! I have so much faith in you that you will get back to being healthy!! You can do it! 🩷 also are the earrings with the little beads dangling from them from the website you mentioned also? Or are those from somewhere different? I love them so much!!
You're so kind!! I can refer you to this page here to try and look up some similar ones as I can't find the exact ones you mentioned xx agape-studio.com?dt_id=387149
I never comment on videos, however I’ve been watching your videos for a while and honestly you’re such an inspiration. Tonight I’ve finally decided I want to properly recover and get rid of this ED. Thank you for showing the reality of recovering and showing that it is possible! I now know that it is better to gain weight than live a life full of regret.
This genuinely brings tears to my eyes. I am so so SO beyond happy, proud and just lost for words. This is exactly why I do what I do. We have got this!!!
I lost my period too due to overexercising and undereating, it was terrible! i lost it for almost a year, then i got it back naturally just in January!! i was 55-56kg and exercising 4-5 times a week, mind you, i am 173cm, i wasn't technically underweight, but i was definitely about to be, the way i got it back is by quitting any form of exercise for two weeks, literally, cold turkey. The Max exercise i did was walk. second thing I did was i started my weight gaining journey since November last year, i gained about 4-5kg, and when i quit sports in January for just two weeks that's when i got it! please take care of yourselves and eat loooots of healthy fats! I'm a competitive CrossFit athlete so i burn a lot, i now eat a jar of peanut butter each week, lol (not joking, i actually finish up half a kilo of peanut butter by myself in one week), for reference i am 61 kilos now! Don't be scared from the weight! I promise you, the energy, the strength and the quality of sleep you will get will be irreplaceable, it will be SO rewarding. i am back to exercising 4-5 times a week, more intensely than before and i have 10 times the energy and my period is always on track.
Thank you for sharing your story - it gives me hope. A lot of it xx I'm not scared by the number at all. To me it's all about being healthy - wether that would be at 55, 60 or 65+ kgs. It's all in my mind that I need to look at myself in a healthy way and live a sustainable life xx
Not PCOS - Secondary Amenorrhea. It's based on a long history (years and years) of check-ups at my private doctor, my inconsistent periods and lots of other factors.
I hope that making this videos isn't making things more difficult for you in this tough process that you're on right now. Just to let you know that your videos help many people, but you can keep some things private if you want to or if you don't feel fully comfortable!
my period has also been gone for around 6 months, so I am also on the recovery journey, it makes it less difficult to know that I am not the only one going through this. stay positive and keep pushing katharina, it's going to be okay
It’s so incredibly strong showing us -strangers- the worst weaknesses. Never saw anybody so honest, reflected and strong. Lots of love for you on your way! Imagine yourself looking back in a few months at this moments and being so damn proud
Thank you for your vulnerability, Katharina! In case it’s any comfort to you: My mom also struggled with anorexia in her 20s and had the same medical condition that you have now. She was also told by her doctor to gain weight, so that her hormones will break down the cysts. She did and has five kids now. Miracles are possible, I’m praying for you!🙌🏻❤️
I am so proud of you, you are very strong. Personally I can't imagine how scary this journey is and you are doing so well. I know there are lots of struggles you are facing right now and things on your mind but we are all rooting for you and you got this! This is a side note but you remind me of Rapunzel from Tangled a lot you are so pretty, your hair and facial features remind me of her a lot, plus your sense of adventure with traveling.
Have you thought about stop exercising in your recovery? 🙈 because the fact that accepting the changes is so hard for you to deal with kinda shows that it’s also part of the Ed that wants to go to the gym and exercise 😢 but correct me if I am wrong ❤ nut I am very proud that you sticked to ur plan given by the doctor!
As long as she is not over exercising working out is a good idea. Keeping up muscle mass is healthy. It's also really good for your lungs heart and brain.
I thought about it but no - it has taken me a while to realize but personally, it depends on my reasons as to why I exercise. I don't do it to punish myself (anymore) but because I've found a new source of energy that I want to put into use. I don't work out as much as I did in the past (by far) which is a huge step xx For me, it works. Thank you for your concerns
@@katharinaschneiderr I am so glad! We can do anything addictively. Eat, not eat, read, exercise, drink, etc. It's so important to self analyze and do these things in moderation.
Absolutely!!! Believe me, it has taken me such a long time to do that. And it has been hard to admit that I used to do it for the wrong reasons. But thankfully, everyone is able to change their mindset for the better. It just takes a lot of strength and willpower :’)
@@katharinaschneiderr totally. I am a food addict. I lost 50 pounds. I wanted to lose more but my husband begged me to stop. Which made me realize that maybe I was trying to take it too far. I have body dysmorphia like so many women out there. I am addicted to flour and sugar. I started gaining some of the weight back. Now I have to be really firm with myself and not allow myself to have it at all because I can't control myself around it. But I have learned the power of mind control. As soon as those creeping thoughts come in I immediately shut them down and tell myself out loud what I want my brain to think. If that makes any sense 😁.
Do you struggle with less appetite and feeling full? I cant eat more than I do now because i dont know when and where because I feel no appetite...I ofte feel very ill concerning my stomach :(
I do struggle a lot with an irregular appetite, special during times when I work a lot or just have a weird daily schedule. I so however find my hunger coming pretty naturally back to me when I remember to eat regularly:) It can be challenging to eat when you’re feeling full but I do experience that it awakens my appetite!
Hey :) Just wanna share some personal experience concerning secondary amenorrhea.. I lost my period for seven years, during hunger and overexercising periods and i got it back last year. I tried a lot, visited many doctors, but in the end all that helped was gaining weight. I'm really grateful that my body recovered and I just wanna spread some hope, that healing is worth it and possible! Sneding you strength from Berlin, Germany!
Girll u discovered Your channel about 2 weeks ago and.. i’m in love i love watching You and You’re really big motivation for me. I also have ed and You make me feel so much better!! THANK YOU ❤😘💗😍😭🥹
hii katharina, my name is theodora and I wanted to tell you that even though I don't know you, I somehow feel so close to you and your journey, recovery, travels, etc. you quickly became one of my favourite youtubers and you're a huge inspiration for me. I want to thank you for sharing your true, authentic self. I don't feel alone anymore, I've been struggling with secondary amenorrhea for years and only lately, in the past couple of months I committed to recovery. I can't explain how helpful it is to be reminded of what my main goal should be: health. We're in this together and we're so strong, we are getting out of this bullshit and I am so proud of you and everyone on this journey with us. There's not much genuine talk about this topic and one may not even think about what consequences may follow if this issue is avoided on a day to day basis. thanks to you, I can hold myself more accountable in an environment that is many times triggering/harmful for recovery. I am sending you so much love, theodora
I resonate a 100% with everything you said. I'm so proud of you to keep going, pushing and move forward. It's tought but rewarding - let's do this together! Hugs xx
Ah Katharina I’m so sorry for what you are going through but please don’t blame yourself. It’s absolutely not your fault! And eating disorders are monsters to fight! But you are taking responsibility and if you keep going at your own pace, it will gradually get easier and the ED voice will be quieter. The jewellery is beautiful by the way - as are you, inside and out. Thank you for sharing. I’m sorry you’re leaving for a while but glad you are focusing on your recovery. Keep going - you’re doing amazing! 💪🏼🌟💕 🌈 And I loved the end to this video! Yay!! 😁
I totally think it is the right decision to step back from this content for a long while, as you can focus in private and still update us eventually -no negative responses or any thing that is really difficult can interfere. You can also focus on more fun stuff which is probably the kind of content that is better for long term channel growth as you are so much more than than an ED channel, so much more! even though that is helpful too, Have a nice week!
Happy that's the way you responded to what I was trying to say! I'm so excited to post more about other stuff too as I've got 10000 ideas in my mind :') take care xx
Thank you Katharina for your bravery to share your journey and vulnerability - it’s truely inspirational. I have no doubt that you videos can help a lot of people, who has similar struggles to yours.
You are so strong and such an inspiration, Katharina. It is incredibly brave to talk openly about this and share your struggles and triumphs with us. Keep going, each step is a step forward and you have already made so much progress. ❤
This video is the perfect example that everybodu can recover from Ed. By myself, i have had ed since the age of 12 and I still haven't recovered yet. I lost my period, i lost weight and overall, i lost happines. the relationship I have with food is exausting, bingind and purging then starving. but when i try to gaing weight and see that I'm bloated, makes me go to starve again. but this video incpired me that if I want to gain weight, I'll do.
That blue looks absolutely gorgeous with your skin tone and hair! And your English is soo good I can’t believe it.. I’ve been living in Austria for 2.5 years and it’s still very difficult for me to speak about medical stuff or complicated topics. Did you live in an English speaking country?
@@katharinaschneiderr amazing! I can imagine all the hours of hard work that went into getting to that level. Definitely inspiring me to keep going with German
Good luck you will smash this! 🎉 a good tip I used for balancing my hormones was to have a lot of protein and fat at breakfast … not sure if that’s helpful but it worked with me helping me regulate my hormones 🌸 ❤sending love ❤
Apologies in advance as I have only seen a few of your videos so dont know the full story but would totally recommend seeing a psychologist. It took me 6 months of eating properly to regain my period but it's worth it!
I’ve already done that and I decided to quit it, back in 2021. Ever since I quit it, I started putting on weight. I’ll do en entire video dedicated solely to my history anorexia to make you understand better xx
Katherina i just wanna say that i am really proud of you! Know that (even when it seems impossible right now) when you keep fighting against your eating disorder, keep on gaining weight and try to see youre body as a magnifical machine that is working so hard for you that it deserves to be loved, your body dismorphia will disappear and you will be happy with your body and mind in the future♡ i just want you to be free and healthy. I will ask Jesus to make you strong to fight against and overcome your eating disorder! He loves you and helps you when you are weak!
thank u so so much for being so open cause I'm struggling the same thing just right now... My weight has gone up and I can't look at myself in the mirror, I just see the different person... Thanks, u show that every change is matter, it gives the power to continue cause the other time u just don't believe in urself and think u r ugly and don't deserve anything in this life... U r so strong, u give powers to all of us who struggle, who don't believe and who r still trying to love our new bodies
Your story really touched me, I think what many forget is that eds are illnesses. It can be hard not to blame a loved one for hurting themselves (or blame yourself for the damage done). But its not you, its the disorder whos in control. And you just have to keep pushing to get back infront of the wheel. Keep going even when you relapse, keep going even when all feels hopeless. I belive in you! One day at a time. Slowly. And remember: recovery is NEVER linear. Keep safe
I genuinely think we could be good friends ahaha I resonate with the way you move around life having seen your previous travel videos... I do feel the same regarding when you feel you belong to a certain country besides from your own or this kinda fire inside to want to expand elsewhere. Idk, I could go on more but just a thought ❤ Thx for your videos and vulnerability, I enjoy them and love your editing! Hugs from Costa Rica 🦋
Baby u r an inspiration! Remember when all of this began past u will understand that u r the strongest person u have ever know! My period had gone for so many months and for me reinstate the food was a continuos pain because my body didn't want to hold on and continued to vomiting all for 😅 Now im healty. I belive in you and i wanna see the happiness that grown with your healty in your video ❤️ With love baby ❤️
You’re genuinely so amazing! Such an inspirational girl:) I really hope you bought that blue top because you looked lovely in it! I’ve been keeping up with your journey and I wish you all the best! We believe in you ❤
Thank you for sharing these difficult moments... We all go through this period and we need someone to be with us and challenge the same difficulties... Caring for the body is important, especially as a female... I am 16 years old and I lost my period for almost more than two years ago... I hope that I will recover from that and that losing it will not affect my future...
I really like watching your videos but in my opinion it’s so stressful to read your captions and listen to you or watching at the same time. I always have to pause the video to read the captions. And because there are so many of it, I have to pause the video so so often. Could you maybe think about a little change on this? Just asking, it’s not hate or something 😅
aah I'm so sorry! I only intend for the captions to be like bonus info. or whenever I feel that I need to elaborate a bit more than I do when I record. Sorry, I'll consider it in the next one! xx
Sending care! I also want to let everyone know that even if you don't get your period due to ED, there is still a chance (though smaller) of pregnancy- just don't want anyone getting a surprise pregnancy :)
Im glad you post this im currently recovering and its feel uncomfortable just gaining weight and seeing your body changes but this helps me to keep on going ❤🎆
You are just so beautifull as a person and that's what shines through no matter what you look like on the outside. And don't worry about what topic you make your videos on, I just love watching them! You go girl!💪💕
thank you so much for sharing your condition with the cysts. I know it’s personal so it must have felt scary but it’s important for women to know all the possible impacts of being underweight. you could save a woman’s fertility or even life with this video.❤
I am sure this video was very difficult to log. I commend you for telling your story im sure without a doubt your story will help someone else in the same situation. That is great the your doctor is so involved in your care and giving you the besr care possible just keep following th orders you are are making progress everyday, here to support you as much as I can. I do want to ask what music do you like to listen to when you are in th gym or on the train commuting?
It takes a lot of strength to do what you are doing. I feel like i’m living the opposite where i ve mistreated my body by eating too much for years and now i’ m trying my best to eat healthier and exercise for my health.
I really appreciate you sharing and I am wishing you all the best and sending all the strength your way. You have such a beautiful soul and you deserve to be free from this horrible disease xx I know how hard it is and I am still in recovery myself. You will be such a stronger person every day you fight it xx here fro you always
I can relate… I haven’t had my period for a year now and I gained weight, im pretty sure im not underweight now, I drink my vitamins, consult doctors but I still don’t have period(( i also was diagnosed with secondary amennorhea and I really want my period to get back I don’t know what to do
I’m sorry to hear that. The thing is, that even though you’ve regained a healthy weight and that your body is now categorised as ‘normal’ weight, you still need to be patient. It can take years from now on. Your body needs to trust you again and let things happen at its own pace. I know that because that’s what happened to me a couple of years ago before I regained it my second time xx
@@katharinaschneiderr thanks! I’m also going through extreme hunger rn so I hope when it ends my body will finally realise that it can get out from survival mode and start working on resuming my menstruation So yeah, I guess I only need to wait
Not in this case. My mind has changed and I no longer go to the gym to punish myself, literally. I elaborated a lot more on this subject in my previous video + answered some more comments about it :)
i know it’s so scary, but you are gaining so much more than weight! you’re gaining your life back honestly, i never understood what people meant when they said that to me during recovery but now i’m almost fully recovered mentally i can see how much i gained once i gained weight. we are so much more interesting than what our bodies look like, just try to remember that ❤
You're right! I feel more alive the more I gain. And that's what motivates me!! I just have to learn not to listen to the voice, yelling at me. It has become easier, thankfully.
I think you're doing fantastic! Thoughts can be really selfdestructive somethimes, im so proud for you fighting through it! Excited to follow along on upcoming videos 😃
åh ska också ge mig själv ett smycke, va fin idé! x så ledsen att du ser dig själv som stor... galet vad tankarna kan få en att tro. Allt sitter verkligen bara i ditt huvud, du är otroligt smal tjejen!
It's all in my mind - which is crazy, I can tell when I rewatch this. Unbelievable. If you get something, let me know! I'm sure you can find something beautiful xx
jeg er så stolt af dig! du er så sej! jeg kæmpede selv med at acceptere at min krop ændrede sig, men jeg er så meget mere tilpas i min krop nu hvor jeg er helt recovered! så det er mega worth it❤️❤️
Thank you so much for sharing this! It is really easy to stop doing what your doing if you aren't accountable via youtube so I hope you continue your journey and update us when you are healthy.
