Derealization - My Experience 

This genuine style of video is a breath of fresh air. I'm confident that you'll grow well past 25k with your incredible filmmaking skills along with the ability to turn these generally avoided topics into entertainment. I'd like to see more snippets of your journal entries in your videos because those were truly beautiful. Good luck and great job.

I used to experience this for a couple of days after panic attacks. The best way I could describe is that the world felt "fragile". It felt like if I moved to fast touched, gripped something to hard, or breathed to forcefully, everything would break.

This is something that isn't talked about as much as it should be. Derealization is no joke, and I'm glad to hear that you're feeling better now. I've struggled with similar issues before, and it's cool to see your experience with it. Personally, I find that having goals and passions that I deeply care about helps me the most, even if in the grand scheme of things, they don't matter. I also liked the part you mentioned the cars honking. I feel like that could be applied to so many dumb things people get caught up on and put there energy into when It doesn't matter at all lol

Man you need not have to say subscribe and like. This is much beyond that. What you are doing at your 19s is way bigger than what i am doing now. This is a channel i never hoped would exist in youtube or any other platforms! Thanks for your efforts, pls pls do more videos. These are gems i can collect!

Just found your channel from the Sirianni method video and I have to say I was weirdly surprised to see you've made a video about this. I've personally been struggling with depersonalisation/derealisation as a bit of a 'disorder' for over a year now and it's certainly one of the most bizarre and existentially horrifying things I think the human mind can go through. Nevertheless, its a weirdly beautiful experience and I've come to slowly accept and recover from it over the past few months (I only experience it now as a byproduct of severe stress and anxiety, so I guess this is just how my body copes with bad things now which is fine). I hope you continue to recover and that it doesn't mess with you too much into the future, but in the case it does just remember that it's just the brains protection mechanism from stress and what it perceives as 'life-threatening danger'. You mentioned your heart racing when you experienced derealisation and that you have a history of anxiety (unfortunately people with anxiety often suffer from derealisation), which even if it doesn't necessarily FEEL like you're in an anxious state, this weird dissociative effect really only comes on in response to that. Regardless, keep up the amazing work with your channel, I really can't wait to see what else you're going to make in the future!

New subscriber here.. Im a mother in postpartum phase.. Really stressed out, anxious searching around youtube something to try something to heal myself. Came across ur channel, binged watched all your videos. I used to meditate during my school and college days, but somehow i dint continue doing it. I realized i should start now. Thank you so much. I genuinely wish u good life..keep up the good work.. U ll reach heights.. ❤

Dude, thank you so much for sharing all of this. It answers so many of my own questions and it is really comforting to know someone else has had the experience of going from bliss to a completely unexpected reorienting of reality. Its nice to know that its actually just part of the experience and there’s nothing “wrong”.

Your videos have this very pure and natural looking lightning which makes it very relaxing to watch, i just discovered this channel few days ago and it brings my back to my childhood just how life felt back then. This is definetly something i will be watching alot and trying to learn some things myself too. Thanks

Only couple minutes in and the fact this exactly describes what I live and tried to explain to people who weren't believing me makes me scared. I did not do any meditation and the origin of mine is still unknown but it is powerful.. It happened randomly when I was 11 in the matter of a second and it never went away, I went to sleep thinking it would go back to normal when waking up because it felt horrible, but it never went away. I want to realize again so badly.. I think I'm daydreaming too much, I've always been daydreaming too much so it might be the reason but no matter how I think hard it never goes, it feels like being sleepy without being tired. It's so awful and weird.. I discovered your channel recently and thank you so much for your work, you're amazing keep up everything! I will always be of support ❤

Thanks so much for these videos! Lately my life has been at a standstill and watching these have genuinely given me so much encouragement to keep pushing forward and to take action, it's been so helpful and rejuvenating. & I'm glad you ended up being alright, but man I relate with the derealization, definitely one of the weirdest things that has happened to me mentally, mine started from stress last year and it was so relatable when you mentioned you felt separated from your body! for me it felt like my body was free falling through earth's orbit but my mind was somewhere else, psychology is crazy but its so awesome that you took so much out of those experiences! Thank you again and can't wait for the next episodes!

Your videos are of insane quality man. The attention to detail and the lighting (examples 6:33 and 3:28) are so good. Well done. I hope your channel can reach a further audience because the content is amazing. I recently learnt of meditation and downloaded an app called Medito. Thank you for the videos.

You have an incredible skill of storytelling. You are saving lives, my friend. Keep doing what you do!

Great video, I felt very similar after doing psychedelics but never put it into words or tried to actualize what had happened. Your videos would make great podcasts

Another amazing piece. Thanks for being honest and genuine. Love!

Your videos are something else. Can't wait for the next one!

I'm on a similar journey my guy. Meditation is seeming more and more like my way of figuring things out, but procrastination is a b. I'm rooting for you and hope you achieve what you are journeying to.

I had similar experiences with meditation. Although it seems freeing to be detached to such a great degree, it can become dark. We have to eventually come into contact with where we stand and the darkness and light which are within us. The darkness can engulf, and nothingness leads to no resolution. Nothingness should never be the goal, but rather attachment to God,the source of our life. When we can unite with Him, we see life in the divine plan and how things fit together. Rather than life becoming a meaningless nothingness, it becomes a meaningful journey toward union with the creator. Highly recommend looking into Catholic Christian Theology. Although meditation seemed to give me freedom, it left me in an uncertain and somewhat terrifying state. I didn’t find the answers I was searching for until I looked for them in God. God bless man, hope your journey leads you to truth!

All your videos have incredible editing skills, so glad im here in your early growing stage because I know this channel is going to grow a lot, love the information you pass on, a genuine content creator who doesn’t gate-keep, I do think you should post on social media to grow your channel, people NEED to know about this channel.

The quality is amazing and the topics are acsually interesting. So please keep doing your best.

I just joined your channel and loving it 😁and that ''Sirianni'' method for memory was amazing I am using it and it helped me a lot in remembering the stuff for my medical exams.

Honestly I’ve felt the same for quite a while now. Not really the extreme but it’s definitely there. I feel it every single time I go to get ready for bed. It’s really depressing and I’m working through it. Hopefully I can figure out a solution. I’ll just have to push through and research some fixes.

Thank you and bless you.

I'm first viewer l always waiting you unexpected concept of new thing I respected your effort and work

3:37. "emotions arise naturally, through the organic processes in our body" We need to eradicate pre-notions and stereotypes dominated by our emotional side. Neutrality from what others deem uncomfortable/comfortable, pleasurable/unpleasurable

Looking forward to it!

Ah it is true that the biggest mysteries to be resolved are inside of us. I am new to beginning. I try to meditate for 10 min in morning and before sleep. However, my mind keeps wavering and it sometimes happen that I go into a spiral of negative emotions. But, most meditations are good. Thanks for the video.

It's always a good day when your video's release

I also tried Zazenkai, but I can't hold more than 5 hour, in starting of this process our mind thinking a lot about previous stuff, but when we starting focusing slowly slowly our mind start emptying and, from there the real things start happening to you, specially the watching white colour board/ blanket is worst part, Watching your channel give me whole another experience I mean the learning parts, and the way u explaining and presentation is so good 👍

really amazing! love ur filmmaking!

I miss the old intro, it was so nice :) Great video!

Thank you for sharing idol.. so nice to share....

Amazing video man! I love taking a deep dive into my mind and psychology and you've made it into a brilliant video form, well done! Also what lens did u use, it has such a unique look to it?

I go in this state , when the weather changes . Sometimes when in a crowd of people . I just feel small and I feel everything is in slow motion and it really takes a while to go . I didn't know how to describe it I'm still struggling it comes and goes.

hello I jus binge watch your all videos and they are so informative and entertaining. I just want to ask can you make a video on journal I am right now confuse about that

Hi, thank you for the video! Really had me on a cliffhanger with that last one, glad everything resolved okay. What is your meditation routine nowadays? I'm especially curious about time of day & how that affects the overall flow/dynamic of your day

you are the best RU-vidr keep itup bro one day you will become famous, can you remember my name when you become famous?

Thank you! You have changed my perspective of thinking! I acknowledge that from your videos, I have learned how to try and try again untill you win:) May I ask, what is your MBTI?!

@State-Of-Mind I dont know much about meditation and all since I'm just 17yr old.But there are things I learned about the world and reality and all about which I wish I never should've learned that in first place....And I think meditation will take me deep down into the questions for which I'm still seeking answers.....I just wanted to know were there things you learned from meditation which you wish you never learned??

This video scared me lol, but medatating for 10 HRs sounds tough and maybe not a good thing, I dont really know because I havent tried it. But thanks for this video I feel like it helped me understand the dangers of being too complete, feeling like you have done enough, that nothing matters anymore just because thats what you feel like. I nice quote I like is " I want to be strong, Not to be strong " its from miyamoto musashi, basically to never stop trying to get stronger, whatever that means for you though, that way you can also seek strength and never be done. In moderation of course whatever that means for the person.

I like your videos. can you post about how to process. It's kind of hard to not control breathing while focusing on it. ..

Meditation is like the serenity prayer without God to anchor it to eternal meaning. That's partly why you're experiencing melancholy and pangs of nihilism. Perception is everything, the answer is either in the absurdist, Hitchhiker's Guide: "42" or that there's a God who loves us and has a purpose for us. With all the chaos and order in the universe, it's a miracle any of us exists.

I think i have this, because i feel alienated, like i'm not me. And i have been like this for 3 months. I know around is reality, but something inside tells me you are wrong! How long will it be before i get back to my life? I am 14 years old, that's how i think if a person approaches me on the side, he is not. No emotion either. I am very afraid, i think i'm going crazy or just like that. I also lost the joy of life.😓😭😭😭

If you need a friend or a prayer, Im here for you.

Have you ever red the bible especially the book of revelation and the book of enoch its unreal its hard to believe start there it gives you a different point of life take my word for it. God bless you

U should see look for Advaita and vedanata

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Is derealzation a bad thing? You describe it in not a positive light, but if the meditation you were doing was supposed to put you in a state of "non-judgement", then why was derealization a bad or unpleasant thing? Shouldn't it just have been neither good or bad? I believe your negative experience of derealization points to the fact that we actually do have a purpose, things do have meaning, and that trying to convince ourselves otherwise is wrong. Think of the word "derealization" "de-real" its anti-real, and whats not real is associated with negative feelings because we long for whats real, true, beautiful, purposeful. I would love to talk more with you about this because when I see others go through this it makes me really sad, nobody should have to go through this.

At least you have great hair

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It is called depersonalization not derealization.

Nothing is really "real". Everything stems from nothing. However, tell me: What is fake if what is, exists? Also, what exists that doesn't exist?