I have been raised catholic my whole life but it is videos like this and comments like yours that make me turn against the catholic faith, catholics talk a lot about love and happiness and love thy neighbour but they never practise it, God loves everyone regardless of race, gender, sexuality etc, if love is a sin then send me to hell
@@RainbowTrash06 You are totally mistaken, I'm afraid. God does indeed love all of us, more than we can comprehend! He hates sin though. If we are told that two men laying together is an abomination, that's not language that is open to interpretation.
I am 78 years old. I have been sober for 34 years. Everything this woman said moved me. I was "loved" by alcohol. The craving to be loved in how we are made.
Yes, isn’t it interesting the similarities? We all are sinners and should rejoice when repentance occurs without ever looking down on anyone for a particular sin. We are to pray with one another and recognize our own weaknesses.
@@octuple505 lt was all l could think about. It killed the pain. "It was my best friend. It ...was my everything". I did not not know how l could ever live without it.
I’m not a Catholic and grew up in a Protestant Christian home. A few years ago I struggled with ssa and started down a very confusing and spiritually dark path. God saved me not just spiritually but physically and mentally. Kim’s testimony touched me in a way no other testimony has. I am so thankful for her and her ministry.
I was a Tom Boy also, and people were always asking me if I was gay. Finally, I wondered if they saw something obvious that I was not aware of, so I tried to be gay but it just didn't "work" for me. I was still attracted only to boys! This was decades before I was baptized and then became Catholic. I wish people would not push that "gay" label on others, just because they don't appear to be a typical frilly female. It turns out that I was more attracted to GOD than anything else in the world. I was meant to be a nun. I've been a religious hermit for 20 years and am perfectly happy.
I resonate with what you wrote. Nice to read from someone I understand and I believe would understand me. We humans are ge really baffled in our lives, or that’s how I experience it; we are complex beings. This life can be so confusing.
I cried from this discussion. I am a 29-year old Catholic man struggling from SSA since I was a boy. Probably a contributing factor was that my father was distant and my older brother bullied me for being effeminate when I was young. As I turned 29 this month, I was suddenly enveloped with a deep sense of sadness and anxiety as I approach my thirties still struggling with SSA. Though I have never had a boyfriend or had sexual contact with a man, I am still struggling with pornography and masturbation. I still have strong physical attraction to men. I may probably never get married and have children to take care of me when I'm old. And people in their heads are probably confirming their suspicions already that I'm a "sissy" since I've never had a girlfriend before. So I could relate to a lot of what Kim said. However, I would really like to follow God. I don't know what the next step is and where things could go from here. Please pray for me that I eventually know and follow God's plan for me 🙏🙏 thank you Kim for your honesty, you are an inspiration to struggling Christians and for sure not only those with SSA. God bless!
I am in my early 30's, Male with a Catholic and Asian upbringing. Having SSA (closeted) and porn addiction. Emotionally distant from my father. Started reading the bible half a year ago with the protestant community. Doing a confession last month, telling the priest everything I've never told to anyone. Similar to Kim, although I have never had a sexual relationship, I was always fond of seeing older males. When an older male is talking to me, giving me suggestions, and teaching me kinds of stuff, I am experiencing this "loving father" and I love him being around. Perhaps I was only looking for something that I have never received from my father but for some reason, this sexual desire emerged. My heart cried when I realised my little brother, who is 10 years younger than me is having this SSA (accidentally saw it from his phone but we've never actually talked about this since I have never told anyone). I just can't comprehend why this happened to two people in my family. I am starting to blame myself. I hope you can pray for me to be able to carry up the cross and be closer to God.
the first step is to kick the porn addiction and of course up your prayer life. As u mentioned a lot of the SSA has to do with the fact that you are hungry for male attention and approval but then this gets mixed with sexual desire etc. You have to try and seperate these things and not make everything sexual. Its difficult but God will help you. God bless.
Sexual sin has saturated our entire society and culture. It is NOT your fault that this “happened” to two people in your family. It is simply an effect of our sin filled society. For myself it was being molested as a small child and again as a very young teen of 12/13, for others it was pornography, or some other perverse sin…
Thank you, thank you, thank you!! I cannot say it enough. I am a mother, 2 of my children have told me they are homosexual. One "no longer believes in God" the other doesn't go to church at all. This is exactly what I needed to hear. I cried almost the entire time. So often we either told to accept them exactly as they are, no questions or drill it into them that it is a sin. Kim also helped me remember, they know what truth is, I do not need to drill them with it. All I need to do is love them, bear it with them, pray and trust God. Thank you for all of the resources, these are exactly what I have been looking for.
My 39 year old daughter is going through the same thing. She's an awesome and spiritual person. It bothers me very much but I also love her very much. She thanks me every day for my unconditional love. I either love her or lose her. She lived for 9 months near my heart. No matter what she is or does, I could never not love her. All I can do is pray for her like St. Monica did. ❤
As a heterosexual woman, my relationships with men have been just as broken and fraught with sadness, disappointment, and codependency as the relationships that Kim describes having with women. Seems to me that the biggest issue here is when we love our romantic partner more than we love God and this partner becomes a substitute for God’s love.
I’m a Latter Day Saint. Honestly I’m still in the middle of this episode, I live it so much! So much pure gospel here! This woman has an amazing a beautiful story, and a beautiful testimony to share.
I've watched this twice, and am holding back tears. I knew I had SSA some 30 years ago as a teenager. It's been a painful road. On top of SSA, I struggled with depression and anxiety as well as other things, still do. Unlike Kim, I did leave Christianity, and by God's grace, came back after 10 years. I've felt great consolation from God, the saints, and my church community, but the pain and loneliness have gotten to the point where I'm barely functional, though I do hold a job. There are so many times when I want to end it when I reflect on the years of heartache and struggle, as well as on the knowledge I will have to fight this battle for life--and also, that I'm never going to know the intimacy married couples do. There's a definite mourning process in accepting that it's my lot to be single. I do not pretend that others don't have struggles of their own, but Kim expressed it so well when she said, we want to be heard and seen, as well as loved. We are human, after all. I've seen the wonders God's capable of, and I pray God will strengthen me to carry on, as exhausting and difficult as it can be. I know God is with me, even in my darkest hours. He's with all of us. Thank you, Matt and Kim.
I recommend finding a SSA girl who is Catholic and pursuing chastity like you and live together as roomates and platonic duo so that you won't have to be alone or pray for one. Or find a roomate pursuing holiness in general.
@@carolinpurayidom4570 I would not do this, but yes, pursue good friendships with faithful Catholics. Find a good, more traditional Catholic church that tells the truth in love. Institute of Christ the King? FSSP? St. John Cantius? Get involved in parish life. Coffee dates, movies, picnics...
Praise Jesus Christ! This woman is fantastic! God, glorify yourself in this beautiful sister. Use her to minister to millions. Protect and provide for her.
Oh boy this really spoke to my heart. I found myself shocked when Kim started explaining her life and I’m faced with my own life story (with our differences of course, I don’t believe I have ssa but I’ve never been attracted to any person in that way regardless of gender or at least never let myself be). That longing for a safe friend is one that I’ve known most of my life and which still haunts me. I’m not sure what this means for me now as I am continuing to find new wounds and I’m not sure how to handle them. I feel dumb for sharing this on RU-vid and I’ll probably regret it when I get over myself in a few hours and go to bed but Matt has been talking about vulnerability so much and that coincidentally (which let’s face it there is no coincidence) was my prayer last time I went to adoration so who knows maybe this isn’t as dumb as I think. I don’t ask for prayers much but if y’all wouldn’t mind praying for me, I’ve come to the realization that I can’t take care of myself and I am praying that my Heavenly Father will Father me in this way, I would really appreciate it. Anywho thank y’all so much for everything you do❤️
Bless you for sharing your feelings, it's so wonderful that you've had the courage to open yourself up to strangers. I'll pray that God guides your experience of self-discovery and keeps you close to Him during it, and that God may send you a true friend who will be a comfort to you. May Jesus bless you!
I am a man who has SSA, I lived a homosexual life style that lead me to a life of sin in addiction and promiscuity and in my pride I egotistically told God I don’t need you I have made a life for myself without your help so if you can do something that I can’t bring it on. And the Lord listened and delivered in a very powerful way. A family member attempted to take his life in front of me and my knees gave out, and screamed “Lord, I can do many things but I cannot bring someone back from the dead!!” This family member recovered and I was able to reconcile myself with my history and the church and saw the power of prayer and God’s unconditional love for me. Fast forward, God sent me a Catholic woman that I respected in our courtship, and am now married and have a baby boy! The Lord is faithful and I love this conversation because we need more people who have SSA who have had an encounter with Christ to give their testimony. Blessed be God!!!
I hope you don't mind me asking, but if you felt you were gay how did you have a sexual relationship with a woman? The gay people I know say that they are repulsed by sex with the opposite sex in the way I am at the thought of having sex with a woman. No worries if that is too personal a question.
Wowwwwwwwwww Juan you are fighter and survivor. As my grandpa said "One of the most important virtues is to have definition in our lives in everything that pleases our Lord that made us" I didn't understand it until older and meet a few couples that I could tell were gayish both or one of them but loved each other and had families. And you could tell they made a decision for the traditional family instead of the SSA life. Even know several SSA men that chose a celebat life and to help their families instead of the gay life. There is no inner peace in the gay life one told me.
@lynncrf I acknowledge that it is different for everyone. I have racked my brain over this throughout out my life because I was abused as a child from 5-8. I actually grew up hating men and really only had friendships with women because the person that abused me was a man. I sought out spiritual direction after the encounter I had with the Lord through this family member and I realized that what I sought was masculinity, strength, something that I didn’t think I could ever posses. I wanted security and I wanted to be protected instead of being the protector. You could say that my longing was misplaced in homosexuality. It is horrible to say but deep down inside, I wanted to posses the men I was with in an almost obsessive way. So when I said yes to the Lord I became open to whatever path he wanted for me. I prayed for my vocation, and I spoke very freely with the Lord. I said “If you want my vocation to be marriage send me the woman you created for me.” I of course was afraid, but at the same time willing to do the Lord’s will. And he sent me my wife, the only woman that I’ve experienced to be completely honest with me. She opened up about her history as a radical feminist and how she was anti life and helped me to be open about my past struggle even the lack of physical attraction. So all this to say that the Lord made me new, I fell in love with my wife’s soul first and then everything else came afterwards.
@@juanruelas9008 Oh wow. That would make an amazing book/story. I follow a non religious gay man (Disaffected podcast) who says he will likely remain single for life because of what you talk about. He says that most gay men are traumatised and broken and that that is why the rates of promiscuity are so high in that community. God bless you, your wife, and child. I am so sorry that you were abused. ♥️♥️
@lynncrf I felt loved unconditionally by the Lord through my wife, and not to say this was a one way street, my wife also attests to being loved by the Lord through me. I stopped putting my sexuality first and started putting my identity as a Beloved child of God first. I know this might sound abstract, but I leave you with these words that I received. “You want to have an encounter with God? Do you want to see your life radically changed in the Light of Christ’s unconditional love? Do you want to see a miracle? Then ask the Lord, right now, drop to your knees or even just mentally ask Him. I can not bring someone back from the dead. Lord I am dead in the world, in sin. You died on the cross and were buried. You descended into Hell, I am there, let me rise with you on the third day. Let me see that my history is perfect and that you have always been present. Lord Jesus Christ son of the Living God, have mercy on me a sinner. Amen.” I pray that you may encounter the Lord and know that when He sees you, He is not repulsed, He loves you and wants to do wonderful things in you life! Courage!!
"If we knew how to love one another we wouldn't need therapists...." How true! In the past year I started seeing a therapist, now I'm doing great but in the middle of all my issues I had this overwhelming feeling that there were only two people in the world who listened to me, one was my wife and since divorce isn't an option she kinda had to listen. The other was my therapist, and she got paid quite well to listen..... that's a terrible place to be in and it reflects badly on the church and the elders/leaders whatever you want to call them. One of the goals of my life is to be a good listener, no one should experience the extreme loneliness I have gone through, utterly alone in the crowd is an emptiness almost to great to bear.
Thank you for this conversation. As someone who's recently converted and still struggles with same sex attraction, your testimony has helped me fill some blanks in my journey. When all I knew was sin, I lived in constant chaos, but ever since I accepted Jesus into my life He showed me a type of peace and joy that I had never experienced. God bless you.
I love this woman. Not many/enough are so infused with grace and interpersonal intellect as she is. So much she said has me realizing I need to rewatch this more than once to unpack all the spiritual gems she just threw out there. Thank you both for this!! I have much to learn from this.
Holy cow! I'm halfway through this video and I now understand much better than ever before the phrase 'tongues of fire'. This chick's words are on fire and they're creating a burning desire in me to have a deeper love for God and to know his heart more intimately. Thank you, Kim. And thank you PWA.
I haven’t even started watching yet but I *salute Kim’s extraordinary courage in speaking about this publicly*. I can think of two people who have been heavily persecuted by the Human Rights Campaign and other parties simply for speaking about their own private experiences and their deepening conversion to Christ. Her speaking here is an act of great love. I’m praying for her.
KID YOU NOT at the start of this I thought "Man we really need a Saint for our time who struggled with SSA, maybe it's Kim" NO PRESSURE KIM 😂 so much love for this. It's so relevant because so many of us, arguably all of us, have experienced sexual perversion to some degree. Thank you for your honesty and fire for GOD!
Damn I feel so sorry for her ex husband. To be cheated on and then to be faced with the reality that your wife, who you love and desire, has never loved you the way a wife loves a husband, never desired you. God bless him. That’s a nightmare
@@kg356 and she literally lied afterward and implied to him that she 1) loved him 2) was at least bisexual and therefore that she was 3) attracted to him. That’s three monstrous lies that swindled a good man into marrying a selfish ghoul
@@kg356 That don't change the fact that HE deserved to marry a woman that truly loved him. He got cheated out of that and prolly has some trauma due to it. He indeed chose poorly with Kim. People are no good.
These are the types of stories that I’ve been looking for lately. Wonderful people like Kim are huge weapons in the fight to free as many people from the LGBT ideology as we can. Bless her! ❤
This story sounds like my life except I'm not Catholic. I made a profession of faith at 9, started seeing girls in H.S. I got married to a gorgeous man 4 my family. Was 2 hrs late to my wedding, I left him because it was wrong. I begged God to take the sexual attraction I had to women from me. I prayed that when I was married. I finally came out. Lived as a lesbian for years and was SO MISERABLE. Thank God he started drawing me back towards the Lord Jesus Christ & once I got to know my Messiah, I broke FREE. I'm free from homosexuality, free from fear, free from fear & it's AMAZING. My 1st cousin has no family except my mom & me & visa versa. She now has 3 baby boys. The oldest 4. I was never kept away from him. I probably considered myself gay then, but wasn't in a sexual relationship when he was born. However, as the world continued to teach lies, I truly believe my nephews were used initially to draw me back to Jesus ❓️ Yes, I feel like I was changed overnight by the Lord Jesus Christ 🙏. The change in me is so drastic. I do keep some folks away because of fear. My biggest fear is NOT feeling the Lord the way I feel him now. I never want to be without him again.
Matt I’ve been watching you for years, I’ve seen a ton of guests come through, I’ve supported you on Locals, but THIS was the greatest interview I think I’ve ever seen. Kim is such a wonder, and she’s real, and she’s vulnerable and beautiful, and her testimony really touched me profoundly. 10/10.
This is so beautiful. Brought me to tears. I have a loved one whom i dearly love. She has SSA. She is not "out" but i know that she has SSA cuz i found out somehow, by accident. It broke my heart to a million pieces when i found out and i never confronted her. Lately, i have sent hints via messages that i know about her SSA and that I am just here if she wants to talk. Pls pray for her conversion. I wish i could send her this video but it myt seem confrontational. So i am just going to do what Kim said, to bear the burden with her should she come out to me and i will love her for the sake of Christ. And find ways, words, occasions, by the help of the Holy Spirit, to remind her that she is a beloved daughter of God. ❤❤❤
I love her testimony, I don’t struggle with homosexuality but I have struggled in the same way in my life with the opposite sex, finding myself and self worth. Her story has pointed out things that happened in my life that I knew I struggled with but didn’t recognize I was seeking out connections and love in the wrong way. I feel hopeful in my relationship with the lord now, and to know someone who’s struggled in a similar way that I’m not the only one.
1:02:00 professional musician here! I think Kim gave me a beautiful revelation. I identify too much with "being a musician" as a primary part of my identity, and it puts undo pressure on me when I create. I need to reidentify myself more strongly as a child of God. You're not just helping the LGBs, Kim...thank you so much for this 🙏❤ Love you, and God bless.
Thank you Matt for this interview! As a woman with SSA I find that most of the ressources online are more centered around male homosexuality, so it is refreshing to hear another woman’s perspective and life story regarding SSA! God bless you both xx
Kim is so inspiring. I struggle with self gratification and the parallels of temptation are insightful. "Love is giving and receiving" and so many words of wisdom in this convo. May God bless her and grant us all the grace to live virtuously for His glory!
Was listening and at 1:07:42 Kim says a Priest asked her "What is Truth?" And I immediately thought about how those are the words of Pilate when he turns his back on Jesus who is truth incarnate!!! God was trying to show this priest he was in error and it flew out of his mouth and over his head! Lord have mercy on us!
Kim is incredible!! I could not take my eyes and ears away!! Agree COMPLETELY that Jason & Kim together would take over the world (in such an amazing way!!)
Awesome!!! I really believe that no matter what our particular struggle is, Kim's insights are spot on!!! May God give each and every one of us the grace to see and address our own particular "notGod" choices so that, like Kim, we can begin the journey of truly finding Him.
I heard a man explain marriage/sex like fire. Imagine youre on a camping trip. Its evening time and you have to cook your food. Before you make a fire, youre going to need to make something to contain it. If you dont, what happens? Well, you end up with an un contained fire open to becoming a wild fire that can easily get out of control. So its not that the fire is bad, but it can be bad if we dont acknowledge it for what it is. think of marriage between man and woman as the container and that sexual desire as the fire. If we go astray from what God created, sin gets out of control. ❤
I used to be bisexual and non binary but since accepting Jesus that all just kinda fell away, though that could have also been the fear of God's judgement. It might have been both, love and fear. I'm a woman and my first "love" was with a woman who was a mentally ill spirit channeling median, though looking back it was a close loving friendship that was twisted by lust, and I truly think the spirit of lust came into me through that relationship. We were only romantic for 3 months before she broke it off but it permanently altered me and the spirits we summoned together attached to me and controlled me for years. She hurt me badly and unknowingly left me to the spirits to be tormented. Anger, addiction, depression, anxiety, paranoia, witchcraft, and lust all ruled over me for years. It was only after being saved...which is it's own long story involving the actual devil coming into my life...and learning about influencing spirits that I realized that I was never really bisexual or non-binary or a sexually perverse person but someone who was traumatized and taken over by dark spirits.
What she is saying at 50 min. Yes! There are so many Christians that make a huge deal out of the LGBTQ stuff but see little issue with all the other sexual sins and it blows my mind.
Kim said something that snuck in around 2:02:20. “It’s not on your shoulders (on sitting with someone/comforting them) God wants them more than you do”. Beautiful to stop and really ponder on.
This testimony spoke to me about so many different things in my life....none of them about sexuality....but nonetheless....GOD SPOKE THROUGH THIS! Thank you Kim for allowing Jesus to take over....and boy is it BEAUTIFUL! ❤
I don’t have SSA or have a loved one that does but I do have elementary aged daughters and appreciate this interview. I also appreciated how you went about it. Never attacking SSA but always loving the person at heart. So many “Christians” have this “beat the devil out of them” mentality that will only create defensiveness and animosity towards God and his church. Thank you 🙏🏻
are u fricking serious? So many Christians "beat the devil out of them" mentality?? Bullshit. That's a calumnious lie that the devil will beat out of you some day if you don't repent. Seriously: every idle word, you will render an account on the day of judgment. Jesus says so. Watch what you say.
This was such a beautiful talk to watch and listen to. Thank you both so incredibly much sharing, opening and allowing everyone to listen. Thank you dearly for all of this! God bless!
I listened to the entire podcast while cleaning my house. I am going to watch the entire podcast again so I can write down some of the quotes, scripture verses, books, comments that were referenced...it was THAT informative . I could relate in a similar way. I am separated for the last 19 years and I am continuing to live out my marriage vow. I loved the many references to strength from God. Honesty breeds honesty. You both have helped more people than you can imagine. If the people that call us haters would here this, they would understand and a lot of the tension would end.
On the point about finding God's love in a protestant church, I feel that. I'm a new Catholic convert from protestantism. I may be saying this out of sympathy for my protestant upbringing, but I think many protestants have the heart of the gospel completely right, more than many Catholics in some cases. But the Catholic Church holds the fullness of the gospel (even if it has been a poor communicator of it at times), and the authority of Christ through the power of the Holy Spirit who leads it into all truth. I am Catholic because I became convinced about Christ's authority in the Catholic Church. But man, I truly think the people of the Church could learn much from our protestant brothers and sisters.
I am a one!!!! Now I listened to the rest of this and yes - I am one of those ones!!! You made me realize that in this journey I am stuck in fear and it’s been paralyzing me and pushing me away from Him, not to Him. I don’t know how yet, but I need to find His love so I can help my kids find it. Thank you for sharing all this.
Wow, an amazing interview/ talk. Thanks Matt for inviting Kim on your show. God Bless you both. Kim you are a beautiful daughter of Christ who loves you. 🙏❤
I really enjoyed this interview. I watched from beginning to end. May I humbly say the thing I noticed that was missing from the discussion was confession. The power and need for confession.
I have a close family member that has same sex attraction and I’m grateful that we continue to be close, but we have struggled a lot in communicating. We have hurt each other with our words and judgments. I would love to share this video with her but I fear she would push me away again. I have had to learn to not bring it up unless she asks my opinion. I pray she sees your testimony someday. Beautiful! ❤
You could Have someone else send it to her❤ or hec, I could randomly send it to her❤ it's such a good message. I've never had this struggle but I have so much love for people that do and I think this could be so helpful. I know if I was struggling with something and someone sent me something like this it would probably make me sit back and think hard❤
Send it to her with a message of love and compassion. Something simple but full of love and void of condemnation..And let the Holy Spirit take it up from there. Love is a bridge that heals wounds and changes life. Stay close to her in your prayers...love the Christ in her even if she may not be a perfect reflection of him...and honestly how many of us are perfect reflections of Christ ? God bless you and your family member❤️
I think ur right ... there will be a time they want to ask ur opinion and be open about it. If u keep pushing the narrative. u will push them away. It's the same when I talk to friends about God. There is always a time and place. And those times will come. You just have to know when to play Ur cards right.
There will be a moment where it will be appropriate. Pray to the Holy Spirit to give you the words to express yourself rightly on this topic. Ask Him to give you a sense of when to talk about this topic to her and then ask for courage to actually do it. Don’t rely on yourself, rely on the Holy Spirit who lives in you and let Him animate your words and actions
It is important to pray for them and that when we do, we pray that the Lord May soften their hearts so that they may be more receptive of the message. And always persevere in prayer.
I was watching this video, and when she gave her testimony of when she gave her life to God, I chose to save this video. I clicked the link and it said “saved.” Thank you.
Right on. God bless you. I know it can be difficult to overcome temptation and desire, but all things are possible with Our Beloved Lord. I hope the very best for you in all your struggles and triumphs.
Can’t find words to this testimony! Maybe brutally honest and filled with the power of the Holy Spirit. I pray many listen to Kim with an open heart 🙏🏼
I am so grateful to Kim for mentioning that God celebrated when she decided to be herself. And herself, her identity, never has been in her sexual attraction. She was being re-born, and it was a necessary step to her heart coming to Christ. God is so GOOD!
1:05:45 I'm really resonating with the identity stuff she's talking about. I used to identify as a veteran, a conservative, a Baptist etc. Now I'm becoming Catholic because I realized that everything was shifting sand EXCEPT the Church, making/ remembering my identity as a child of God
I am called to celibacy for a different reason. My husband of 50 years ran away from home. I am bound to him as long as he lives. I love Jesus and it is my idea to obey Him.
I don't struggle with same sex attraction, but I have found myself single for a very long season of my life, and I feel solidarity with anyone pursuing celibacy and/or chastity.
I don’t have ssa, but my son does. She spoke about God wanting us to not “walk alone”. I would love for my son to have someone to share life with. I didn’t hear her mention how that can happen when you are ssa.
Yes! So often the church fails to teach the teachings and to ACT out the Faith. Also, yes on being made to be loved. I didn’t feel loved or worthy of love until God lead me to my husband who through God showed me what true, sacrificial, unconditional love looked like. It changed my life!
Thank you! This was such a great discussion. Kim, your advice will help us more lovingly navigate discussions on SSA with our adult children in the future. Please keep speaking out in love, kindness and truth! God Bless!
Same thing happened to me in counseling. Person told me in multiple appointments over and over that being in an SSA relationship would solve my issues. I knew that it was wrong. Years of good counseling and I'm mostly healed. I was blessed to love my friend enough that I left. I was greatly blessed that the friend forgave me. We must LOVE the person more than we desire them. That idea works in all forms of love. Friendship, romance, child-parent. Want the Good and Beautiful for the other, more than we want to keep the person for ourselves.
Not struggling with SSA thank God but I relate so much to wanting a best friend who’d never leave me as a kid then growing up looking for that in a husband. Well I’m in my mid 20s, not really seeing how I’ll fall in love and marry someone and worrying who’s gonna be there for me in my old age. And my own thought is also hopefully someone comes or the Lord takes me before then! 😅
Pray about it. Tell God what you would like to happen, but you will accept what He says. I prayed the same prayer every day persistently for months, then met my husband. Almost 27 years married.
This is huge for me, seeing others talk about this so openly. I’m a Christian in my early 30s, I’ve been struggling with SSA since I was 14. I was not born gay. I was undiagnosed autistic and ADHD until my late 20s. I was so isolated as a kid and I truly believe that my parents refusing to let me socialise was what contributed to my SSA. I still resent it and hate myself every single day that this rotten thing steals experiences from me. Like Kim, all I ever wanted was a best friend, a brother to love and protect me and to grow up alongside. I never had that. I’ve never really had any lasting friendships. My childhood and my teens years we so utterly lonely. Everyone leaves me in the end. I’m grateful to know God but I feel so saddened when I think about the lost prospect of falling in love and getting married. I’ve wanted to be with a woman since I was little, but for every time I experience genuine sexual attraction to women, I experience it many more times toward men, even though I have no actual desire for sex. All I really want is connection. It’s amazing how this desire for connection gets caught up in this sexualisation and honestly it’s ruined my life. I don’t see a way to fix this except to wait upon Him and hope that one day in the future I will become the man I want to be. I feel like I will always be lonely. No-one seems to understand. Misguided Christians will tell you “God will send you a wife.” No, He won’t. Queers and non-Christians will tell you “Accept what you are and just act on it.” But that’s not even what I want either. No-one gets it, and it’s even more isolating. I just want to love and be loved. I’m tired of being lonely and rejected and not being able to find what I’m looking for. Feels like asking for the impossible.
Kim, God bless you. I'm only 30 minutes in so far, but just want to say thank you for bringing your real-ness, and clearly prayerful virtues, to share your witness with us. The love you show in your words (especially the way you continually emphasize the charitable possibility that what was going on around you may have been different from your perceptions)... that is _so_ hard. And you are setting such a good example of it. Of how it's okay for us to say "This is what I experienced -- and that doesn't mean that's what everyone else experienced in that same scenario, that's just how I received it." Like beyond the sphere of sexuality, that just resonates across contexts with me, my difficulty in doing that, in permitting others the possibility of not meaning harm when I received something harmfully. I have an immature part of me that struggles to tell the difference between being hurt and others hurting me, as if my feelings can't be valid or acknowledged (and therefore healing accessed) unless someone else was an actual malicious villain. Which isn't to say that no one ever acts villainously or causes hurts for which they're accountable. But speaking just for myself as someone who recognizes my desire to cling to hurts until someone else takes on the responsibility for making things okay again, as someone with this strong felt-need to control the narrative in self-defence and not leave myself open and vulnerable to the messiness of not having been the 'perfect victim' or others having not been the 'starkest evil'... the complexities of life... well, I digress. I have a lot of growing up still to do, and I'd appreciate the prayers of anyone reading this. Thank you 🙏 And thanks again Kim for your witness of maturity. It's so needed.
Oh man, and you draw SUCH a good line, Kim! (I'm at 44:06 and you just identified that the Catholic priest is accountable and the counsellor is accountable even while distinguishing the sense in which you aren't blaming them.) This is why you're doing this. You're _so_ good at this. I mean, I'm wary of puffing you up and creating a dangerous stumbling block for you there (as we all need to be careful around the risk of developing pride about the good things we do cooperating with the grace God gives us)... but I am just so *thankful* that you are cooperating with God's gifts as you are, Kim. I am seeing God through what you are doing and how you are speaking and I am so thankful for that. Thank you, and thank God.
I cried like a baby starting @ 1:20:00 mark, and I'm at work trying to keep my composure. When I decided to give my life to Jesus, I knew that I would have to reject a lot of beliefs about homosexuality and LGBTQ ideology. And I knew I would hurt a lot of my gay friends and family. So this video cuts right to the heart. Thank you, Lord. Thank you, Kim, for being so brave, and thank you, Matt, for having her on. Her story and explanations brought me peace. Keep up the good work, Matt. Kim, I will pray for you.
@lynncrf I was a very, very lax Catholic with very "woke" beliefs. Now, as a very devout Catholic with conservative beliefs, I am no longer "woke." I no longer support beliefs like so-called gay marriage and trans ideologies. So now, to my gay friends and family, I'm against them.
