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Gay Family Values: My Suicide Story

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This was a very hard video for me to make. I have wanted to tell others
the story of my attempt at suicide for a very long time. When I was
seventeen I was a very unhappy teenager in a family that cared more
about how we looked to the world then how we lived as a family. I was
struggling with my homosexuality. At seventeen I threw myself off a
bridge here in sonoma county. I lived that day and have never looked
back. If you are a young person and you are considering suicide there
is help. Please reach out to your friends and family or call one of the
following help lines: 1-800-SUICIDE or 1-800-273-TALK or 1-866-4-U-TREVOR or Send us an
email we are always here to talk. Love the Leffews
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@PuhpPup 10 лет назад

I just want to give you a big hug after watching this video! I've been there, done that and it is an incredibly horrible feeling...I am so glad that you were able to recover and live to find the happiness you have today!

@lpforever6273 9 лет назад

Jay, too much bravery here, I can't believe you were able to go through with this on the very spot--total admiration for you strength and commitment to help others.

@adamk1619 10 лет назад

man ... I swear you made me cry... Jay, you are a fantastic brave man. Thanks god you didn't die. take care and keep well. All the best for your family. I wish guys you were in Chicago, I would have come and met you.. need to talk to someone like you. Adam.

@wg3771 6 лет назад

adam K you are not alone in this I understand what are you going through. Because I haven't come out to my family yet. And it is very difficult. ..

@janetpirate2110 7 лет назад

You are amazing. I am glad that you did not die. Hugs to you and your family!

@MrMikomyx 13 лет назад

I have been closeted for most of my teenage years. I've often contemplated of suicide and reenacted them in my head: Cutting my wrists, overdosing on pills dying slowly. It was an emotionally trying period in my life. When I got to college and came out, people started accepting me and it indeed got better. I'm glad you are still alive and kicking. You have so many blessings in your life now, namely: Bryan and the kids. I wish you all the best.

@K2142F 8 лет назад

Jay, idk if you'll see this, but this video, and a lot of your other videos, kept me alive back in high school (about when you first posted it). Thank you. Bryan too.

@mariamelmi2244 9 лет назад

Thank you so much for sharing your story and for your channel. I came out (bisexual) this past semester at college to myself after struggling with it since middle school. I spent some time in the hospital a year earlier after suicide attempt due to mental illness, school & being in the closet. I'm much happier with myself now that I accepted who I am even if my family doesn't know about it and they ever will. I'm so glad I wasn't successful with it because I would never be where I am otherwise. I'm so happy that you overcome it and lived to realize the family of your dreams. I love your family and channel.

@sfvniceguy 15 лет назад

Jay, this was the most inspiring, poignant, and arguably the most important video you've done. Thank you so much for what was so obviously an extremely difficult visit to a critical time and place in your life. Your videos need to be seen by every young person who's feeling lost and without hope for anything better in life.

@roothie 15 лет назад

i was very touched that you made this video, that you wanted to do something to help reach out and raise awareness for those who might be hurting out there, and for us to really understand each other better. i was also really touched when i heard bryan encouraging you along the way. it was definitely not an easy video to make, but i'm glad you did. happy birthday by the way! :D

@Brisbaneman 11 лет назад

I am so sorry Jay had to go through that bad stuff. It is wonderful he survived and partnered successfully and formed a wonderful nurturing family.

@wittlebub 13 лет назад

This brought tears to my eyes, people ask me why I think my teenage years are so hard, but they dont realize who I am, I am seventeen years old. I would just like to take the time and thank both of you, Bryan And jay for making these videos. They are really helpful and inspiring. Hopefully soon I can start making videos to try and help other people. - Bub

@codycouture1 14 лет назад

Thanks so much for making a video like this one. I, too, seriously contemplated suicide many many times when i was younger. I am so thankful for people like you that gave me the courage to see that I was a valuable person. Thanks . . .not just for this video but for everything you two have done

@baroozles 15 лет назад

This is the most incredible video... I'm very moved by your honesty and your courage to tell the world your story. It was a miracle and a sign that you woke up after almost drowning. You're a wonderful, compassionate, caring, amazing person, husband and father. I believe you will change a lot of minds, lighten many hearts and save many lives with these videos, especially this one. Much love to you and your beautiful family!

@seanchapin1 15 лет назад

Your story touched me tremendously. I have tears after watching it. I'm so sorry that you went through such anguish, and I'm very glad that you survived and are now living such an inspiring life. I hope your story touches so many people who watch it. That tells me alone that there is a loving God in this world.

@u3q2v 14 лет назад

This was an amazing video. Perhaps 1 of the most powerful RU-vid videos I've watched. I initially got started watching the depfox videos because of Bryan's coming out story, but after learning about you and getting to know you, I have so much respect and admiration for you both. It's so sad and tragic to think you were driven to that much despair. And I know there are many others out there who are. I'm glad you lived and found happiness. The world is so blessed to have you in it!

@PriebeIdeal 15 лет назад

This must have been an extreamely hard video for you to do Jay and I really admire you for sharing it with us viewers. I do think that it will help many other depressed teenagers when they can relate to youre story and see what a wounderful family you have now. It's something to look up to. And Happy Birhtday! I hope all the best for you and youre family :)

@braziliaan 14 лет назад

I just cried seeing this video. It was sincere and honest. It needs courage to talk about that and you have it. During the hard times it is difficult to realize that it can get better, but it indeed gets better. But you survived and now have a happy fulfilling life... Suicide is never the answer... You guys are amazing... thanks for sharing this.

@nowvoyagerlover 14 лет назад

Just knowing that although life seems so hard now, doesn't mean it always will be your living proof of that, watching you and your family I feel hopeful. Sometimes when you hide who you are for so long you become so closed to the idea of love you feel so unworthy of receiving any. Its so easy to feel pointless but hearing you talk of the pain makes me want to no longer hide, What You and Bryan and Selena and Daniel have given me is the hope I really had thought died within me. Thank You so much.

@rabrown2126 11 лет назад

Hugs to you, Jay. I hope you find healing in sharing this episode of your life. Your channel makes a difference to people you reach out to and I for one wish you all the best. You deserve it.

@dontmindme.imjustafraidofe9327 6 лет назад

Aw, Jay, you are worth more than you know. I’m glad you didn’t die. You’ve taught me that it’s okay to have any difference.

@radubradu 14 лет назад

watching through your videos where you are with the kids and with your husband i never would have suspected you were once so miserable and in so much pain; you seem so happy now, no scars are showing; im very happy for you and wish you all the best; you are both an inspiration for me; your videos give me hope for a better life someday

@SameerYalamanchi 15 лет назад

Thank you for making this video, but it was hard to watch. It reminded of my own feelings of alienation, depression, and self-loathing about 10 years ago. I remember thinking how much of a coward I was because I couldn't get myself to jump. But for whatever reason I didn't, and I started rebuilding my life. It's hard to think about sometimes, but it's inspiring to see what you've done with your life after having a similar experience.

@cool3929 15 лет назад

Jay, we are glad you are here, it takes alot to talk about this, thank you for making this, we all love you.

@debbieomi 15 лет назад

I just want to give the 17 year old Jay a big hug. Sometimes we are old and gray before we decide why we are here. Your and Bryan's purposes are many. Through this media alone, you are reaching humans from all walks of life. You give us food for thought. I know more than one life will be changed because of you guys being so open with your lives. And this video alone will be one that is life saving. Thank you for being so very, very brave. AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! :-)

@daveusericuk 15 лет назад

Happy Birthday Jay, When I saw you and your incredible family marching down 8th street at the end of the Pride Parade the one thought I had was , the rest of the world needs to see this family ,hear their stories and know that with courage, faith and love- Life wins. Now months later I watch your incredible videos. Thank you for this incredible Birthday Gift, that you have given the rest of us. God Bless Dave & Eric

@ChannelRichard 15 лет назад

Thank you for sharing this -- words cannot express my personal gratitude for you, your husband, your family, your TRUTH, this channel.

@a_d_a_m 11 лет назад

I have been watching your family's videos for a year now and never knew this about you Jay. Thank you for sharing it, got me crying that's for sure :)

@sarah4hp 15 лет назад

Happy birthday Jay! I hope you had an amazing day with Bryan, Daniel and Selena, because another year gone by with your loving husband and beautiful children is definitely worth celebrating. And thanks for making this video! It took a lot of strength and courage, and I applaud you for doing it! I'm happy you survived to show those in need of a reminder that it is never hopeless - that you might just end up happier than you ever dreamed you could be if you dare to be true to who you are.

@secretfreak13 15 лет назад

brought me to tears. i think i speak for everyone that loves you here, when i say that we are all so happy that you didnt suceed. thank you so much for having the couage and stength to make this hard but important video! Happy Birthday!

@Mitochowndria 14 лет назад

Jay, you are so lucky to have Bryan. Bryan, you are so lucky to have Jay. One of the parts that touched me the most about this video was when Bryan encouraged Jay to continue with the story. The support you two give each other should be experienced by everyone. Thank you.

@randallross822 11 лет назад

Thanks, Jay, for making this video. I'm very glad too that you didn't end your life at 17 because of all the great work you're doing with your RU-vid channel which helps so many and the great and happy life you are living now!

@george9705 15 лет назад

Thank you Jay for your courageous move to share something very personal. You've might have just saved someone's life through this video. I tear up everytime I watch it because I was at that same place in my life when I was 17. God Bless you and your family. You all are doing a great service to the American community. Happy B'day. P.S. What an amazing husband/partner/best friend you have in Bryan. Wonder why he's your rock!

@Renta1Cop 15 лет назад

As I watched this video it made me cry, because it brought back all the memories I had of my heartache and what I went through and did. Happy Birthday Jay and I appreciated this video.

@tenor714 11 лет назад

I just saw this for the first time. Jay, you are a fearless heroic individual. To expose yourself like you did in this video was a brave and generous thing to do. I greatly admire your courage.

@AislinCade 14 лет назад

The part where you got all emotional, I actually started crying. Thank you for sharing your experience.

@fenrir81 15 лет назад

Great video Jay! I'm really pride of you even if I don't know you and I'm on the other side of the planet. I'm sure it has been really hard for you making it, but I'm also sure that your experience and your story will help other young people. Keep going forward Jay and Brian! There should be more persons like you!!!

@blainebill39 14 лет назад

@depfox Jay, Thank you for making this video. I am so pleased to see you are among us. It both shocks and revolts me that this still occures today. When I was a teenager in the early 80's, I met, dated and had a relationship with Bobby Griffith(Prayers for Bobby). But look at you, blessed with such a beautiful family. I'll cruise into your videos, just to be emboldened by the new faces of the American experience! May G-D bless you and your family! Blaine

@nowvoyagerlover 14 лет назад

This was very hard to watch, because it was so heart felt. I can't tell you how important it was for me to see this Jay, I sometimes feel like I have ruined my life now 24, everything has gone wrong and being Gay is always the cause. I am proud of who I am but I am so hurt by people who I wish could love me and either won't or didn't, then there are the heartbreaks that don't seem to end and all of it effects everything else to the point I don't have the courage or energy to live. But I will

@steeldrago73 12 лет назад

my words tend to go askew or get lost in translation so i used jays words and shared his video. it helped me though i am no longer suicidal. hopefully it will help someone else too, especially if they are 'there' now. thank you jay.

@soundseeker63 14 лет назад

Thank goodness you lived that day!! I find your videos inspirational! I am sure you have helped many people who felt the way you did see a light at the end of the tunnel. It cuts my heart to hear about those young people who took their lives because of the fear and pain other people inflicted upon them for being gay. They were beautiful young people with so much to give and receive in life. It is very uplifting to see what you have made of your life in spite of other peoples negativity and hate

@americancarguy 15 лет назад

Happy Birthday Jay, and thanks for making this video, it is one of the most important issues (not only for gay youth but for all people) It put me on the verge of tears because it reminded me of my very dark days,only a few short years ago. Like you said suicide is not the answer, any one thinking about it please talk to some one!!

@Centerfold 15 лет назад

Happy birthday Jay and thank you for making this video. I know it was hard to make but you're helping a lot of people by talking about it. x Love, Miguel

@aragornthebrave 9 лет назад

This is such a good video, not only becoz it was so honest and helpful to so many people, but also the support that came from behind the camera was so heartfelt and genuine. I sometimes despair at the shallow videos on here with gay couples, but this one is proof that gay r/ships can be happy, supportive and genuine. Can I ask how long you've been together? Just wondered. Love from Stockport, England.

@Sttubbs 14 лет назад

I almost cried. Jay you are a beautiful grown man. I am so glad you didn't die. I may not know that much about you, but I can say that I love who you are. Thank you for this video, I know that it has already helped someone.

@MindyReedJones 15 лет назад

Happy Birthday Jay! So glad you are still around to help others. You rock! Blessings

@ryanmcmahon92 15 лет назад

Thanks so much this video really will make a difference i am 17 and living in a very small town in Ireland from a catholic family and at an all boys grammar school and afew stories have started to circualte about me I'm doing my best to ignore them and this video really has helped me, thanks.

@asiancolossus 15 лет назад

Congratulations for finding yourself and thank you for sharing your story. I'm glad things worked out for you, hopefully your message will resonate with at least one teenager out there.

@deansilverz 14 лет назад

never stop fighting people out there who are struggling! don't give in to pain and live on bravely!

@Bananek333 15 лет назад

Wow... You impressed me Jay. I bet that was very, very hard for you to do, but you did a great job with this video. Actually, you both did. Your story isn't nice in normal meaning of this word, but it gives hope. Thanks once again, guys. Happy Birthday, Jay. And Bryan - the part when you help him is really touching. Thanks again.

@kirashanellfans 15 лет назад

Thank all that is good that you lived. You are making a difference in so many lives. (I'm sure Bryan, Daniel and Selena are espcially happy you're still here; )I am so proud of you. This video gave me huge chills! I love you guys.

@borg7092005 15 лет назад

I don't have the words to describe how I feel after watching your video....sighhhhhh...HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! and Good Bless us all ...

@tnichlsn 15 лет назад

Happy Birthday Jay. Thanks for sharing and I'm very glad you survived your turbulent childhood. You Guys are doing so much good for our community now. You Guys are the best.

@rolexxx11 14 лет назад

Wow... just... wow, I am so sorry that happened to you, but I am so glad you are ok and happy now! I had a similar experience with a different cause. Mine was over a girlfriend (straight), but I too came very close to ending my life. I was unable to pull the trigger, and when I got back I found out just how much my life really meant to my friends and family (I had left a note). Keep your spirits up and keep making inspirational vids!

@breannaray4805 11 лет назад

Thank you for being such a strong person and telling this story from your heart. I'm sure this video means the world not only myself, but your followers well. So thank you Jay and Bryan for always being honest with us and your beautiful kids. You guys are such an inspiration to a lot of gay men and women. I wish you guys and your family all the best in everything you do(::

@bilcal 15 лет назад

Happy Birthday, Jay! Thank you for a gift of honesty to stir our hearts to choose life. L' chaim! -- To Life! God IS blessing you and yours!

@HurricaneKyle2 15 лет назад

Congrats on your bravery and ability to continue. I understand how difficult this was for you and appreciate you sharing your story with us. Kudos to Bryan for his encouragement!!!

@serl0us 15 лет назад

I am 20 years old Ive considered suicide on many ocassions, and I know its not a real solution and its the worst choice one could make. I really identified myself with this video, and congratulate you for being able to take full advantage of the second chance u had to live. I really hope that someday (soon enough) I could have the strenght to face my fears and not succumb to them... two days ago i walked to the balcony of my dorm and thought twice...

@CelticLady44 15 лет назад

Happy birthday, Dear Jay. God love you, this was a very brave thing you did, making this video. It means a great deal to people to know others care about you. You obviously do. Love to you and your beautiful family.

@Halloweengirl1981 15 лет назад

!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAY!!! I am happy that you are still here. I think that you are a very good husband and dad.

@evanrawk 15 лет назад

Jay, happy birthday, that all your good dreams keep coming, you and your family deserve all the happiness!!!

@Kelso016 15 лет назад

Thank you Jay for this video. Very brave to share your emotions on the internet. I'm glad that you got a second chance. Have a Happy birthday!

@OutsideTheFox 15 лет назад

Jay, let me just say how strong and brave you are. This is something some people never have the strength to say or even admit to themselves and you do it for the sake of others out there who may be going through the same thing. That to me makes you a true man, and a true hero to the gay community. Something as small as a youtube video can make such a difference in young gay people's lives and change their entire future. Thank you for sharing, and I hope you had a great birthday. Much love, ~Kev

@dickyguapo 14 лет назад

Your honesty and compassion just shine through. Truly inspiring.

@lchiver 15 лет назад

Again you are a great man for your courage, honesty and humanity... You have my complete solidarity! I can understand your feelings i feel realy close to you and all people who had/has the same problems! Great hug

@invaderzam 15 лет назад

*clap clap cap* I can't even imagine what you must have went through. To find no help from anywhere yet still be able to go day by day. Thats really something man. Seeing you, your husband and your family makes me hopeful for the day that I can come home to all that as well.

@lc237 15 лет назад

Thank you for telling your story Jay. Im so glad you made it. The world will never know how many wonderful people have been lost to suicide because the world made them feel ugly and unwanted. They lived lives of intolerable loneliness and torment. I am straight but I know that loneliness and I have found that by reaching out for help, for me it was a professional therapist, you can learn to accept and love who you are. I liked that definition of homophobia: Insecurity about being heterosexual.

@TheVeganGayChefs 7 лет назад

our stories are very similar. wow when i saw that i didnt die, i wondered why. now i know why. i have a wonderful husband and life. looks like you do too. just recently discovered this channel. glad you guys are making these videos. with the election, etc the world sure needs to see this kind of channel thanks for sharing this.

@depfox 7 лет назад

Pdxjames I am glad u made it

@TheVeganGayChefs 7 лет назад

Gay Family Values thanks. You are brave. Not sure I could share my story like that.

@depfox 7 лет назад

Pdxjames it wasn't easy and I can't watch this video but my family has tried to be open and honest with this channel

@TheVeganGayChefs 7 лет назад

Gay Family Values understood.

@thatoneshyguy20 14 лет назад

This story is very touching the first time I saw this I was tearing up. Thank you for sharing this with us.

@Thebestofitalloffcial 15 лет назад

Im glad you are here Jay. I couldnt imagine a world without Depfox. You and your family are such an inspiration for us all, straight and gay. Ive been wanting to make my coming out video too. I know you asked me to, just havent gotten around to it yet. I'll make it soon. Happy Birthday

@osky1416 11 лет назад

Excellent video. I applaud you for your bravery of sharing such a painful experience with those who think suicide is the only answer. Thank you.

@OmGzXX 14 лет назад

I thank you so much for making this video. It obviously took soooo much courage to make this video, and I admire you so much for it. I really took every word you said to heart.

@CupidBoi79 15 лет назад

November 18, 1998.. the day i attempted suicide. I had a hard time accepting myself as a gay man. I wish i had heard of Trevor Project, or any suicide hotline for gay teens at the time. Since this happened, Ive accepted me for who i am and it has changed my life. Im glad u shared your story... *BIG HUGS*

@RaulLara1974 15 лет назад

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, great song. Your videos are beyond inspirational. Keep 'em coming.

@emeralds222 15 лет назад

Very Nice Video Jay! "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" I am very glad you are around to help others as you are doing right now. Do all of your siblings support you?

@groovygavin254 15 лет назад

this was a beautiful video. i am so proud of you. this must have been a diffucult story to tell. i would've been BAWLING. daniel & selena are so blessed to have you 2. happyhappyhappy birthday :] xoxo, gavin ♥

@hbfarker 15 лет назад

Happy birthday... and thanks for sharing such a personal story. I hope this helps a lot of teens out there.

@beautiful18bryana 15 лет назад

happy birthday jay!! this video made me cry its wonderful.

@lailaagrado 15 лет назад

gosh Daddy Jay i realy understand what you had gone trough,i made this twice,well not from bridge,because we dont have deep reviers,but in other two ways...and i must say this video just show how brave,honest ,good,and most of all REAL person you are,never stop believe in yourself no matter what,and believe me,no one can tell you who you must and must not love ! im glad that you are here between us today,just remember there are people who always cares for you. continued...

@angelfaith203 15 лет назад

I'm so glad you made this video. It means a lot to anyone who is struggling with their sexuality, and it means a lot to anyone who isn't as well. I can say that I'm happy you lived because you're an amazing role model for any person out there -gay or straight. My brother is struggling with his sexuality, and being a straight girl, I don't know how to help him. your videos make me think of my brother and what i can do to help him. thanks a lot, guys. :)

@hulagurl93 13 лет назад

thank you so much for making this video. oh my gosh it made me cryy. im gled i continued on, that i faltered that night. i hesitated then couldnt continue ending it all. now i'm on my way to college, i have a beautiful girlfriend. im coming out to my catholic father next wednesday. if he doesnt take it well, i have her and her family to support, comfort, and love me through it. thank you so much. love. lauren

@Dkdude9892 14 лет назад

You guys are incredible :) I cried there for a bit. I'm extremely thankful for this video... it's really special

@MarcusHBP7 14 лет назад

this was a tear jerker!thank you for sharing your story and making this important video.

@Hephaestion123 15 лет назад

Thanks for making this video; very brave of you. You are a wonderful person, and your beautiful family is testament to that fact. And by the way, Happy Belated Birthday, friend.

@kc55mo 15 лет назад

Jay -- What ultimately got you through the depression? Because you survived you thought there was a reason to go on? Did you find someone to confide in? Did you call someone? What got you over the hump? It seems so impossible that it will ever be better at the time although you are obviously living proof that life is worth living. Happy birthday!

@sleekcartim 15 лет назад

we make these kinds of vids to help others. i keep reminding myself of that, i hope it also helps you to get past the feeling of being emotionally naked to the world. props to supportive bryan on that bridge. ultimately it was the bridge to ur happiness with his help. looks like u have come full circle.1 LIFE

@belgicasken 15 лет назад

ThankYou! for posting this video.. It gave me a bit of courage.. I tought alot on suicide, cause since my dad knows that i'm gay he doesnt give me any freedom and that makes me really sad .. I just can't have a fun time with friends or having a boyfriend and that's what I really need and not having that feeling makes me sick! Btw Happy BirthDay Jay !!

@MrMillerJoey 11 лет назад

Wow, you are the reason I keep fighting. Life isn't easy for anyone. Jay if I could I would give you a big hug. No matter what religion you maybe just know that you are always loved!

@Omfcody1 15 лет назад

This made me cry. Happy Birthday Jay!

@phoenixfaerie1 15 лет назад

omg wow i had shivers as u said this also i wanna reach into the screnn and give u a huge hug i bet and could tell this was really hard for you to say you are one brave man kudos to you this is a video that all teenagers need 2 see\

@JephProductions 15 лет назад

I can't believe how similar my life was compared to your story. I was 17, I had a girlfriend (forcing myself to be straight) she also got pregnant and went and got an abortion without even telling me. It still hurts a lot to think about it. I couldn't tell anyone I was gay, especially my family. I too jumped off the highest bridge with huge rocks in the water, all I can remember is looking up at a light in the hospital.

@JephProductions 15 лет назад

Ever since then I totally turned my life around and I am finally proud to say I'm gay even in front of my whole family. Thank you so much for making this video, it really helped knowing I wasn't a lone. & Happy Birthday :)

@dallayogini 15 лет назад

Happy Birthday and Thank you. I am so glad you are alive. You have made my life better.

@johndavidw 15 лет назад

Thank you, you guys make such a difference in the lives of so many!

@twinsana1 11 лет назад

Thank you for your heartfelt story.I am glad you lived to tell it and to show the world that you and your husband and family are just as "normal" "deserving" "worthy" as any heterosexual family.I started watching your videos because I am a fan of adoption.I continued watching because I enjoy your family.

@knickknackgurl07 15 лет назад

Happy birthday. You're an amazing person and thank you for sharing your story with us.

@IvanTheCountertenor 15 лет назад

Happy Belated Birthday Daddy Jay! Life is wonderful and what you have now can never be taken away from you =). God Bless, P.S. I just started Soph year of College and have been Really bussy!!!! I will post my song for you guys soon =).

@pumpkinshellz 14 лет назад

Thank you for this video. What a wonderful human being you are. I am posting this to my facebook.

@steeldrago73 12 лет назад

i dont know if i said this already but i completely understand jay's anger at still being alive and the feeling of 'i couldnt even do that right!' i live in the desert and there arent that many means of quick "natural" death here which is good because i had to choose something else. that is part of the reason i myself am still here. i still have the stuff i bought to die in my car, my car needs cleaned pretty desperately-no worries now.

@kimzapanta91 13 лет назад

i understand how you feel. i nearly did suicide on myself because coming out wasn't easy. even if my coming out is still painful up to now. i'm just thankful i have lived long enough to find love. i'm really thankful that my boyfriend came into my life and he is my world and life now. the reason why i wanna stay alive.