Grieving while Celebrating and Why I Flew Home to Canada Alone | December Vlog

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Grieving while Celebrating and Why I Flew Home to Canada Alone | December Vlog
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December was an intense month. On one hand I was mourning the unexpected loss of my Nana and on the other I was celebrating my son's first Christmas. Some of the month I spent in Canada (I didn't film), but most was spent in Hong Kong where I tried to keep things light and joyous. Thank you for letting me share with you, through this vlog and all of my vlogs this past year. May 2023 be good to us all!
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@qw72897 Год назад

Can we just take a moment for Tom being such a supportive partner! I'm so glad you were able to have time with your grandmother before she passed. ❤

@twincherry4958 Год назад

I remember her grandma...oh, will miss her!

@Sarah-the-Carin Год назад

My aunt said something to me a while ago which has stuck with me - “Life is relentless. That doesn’t mean it is always bad, but it is relentless.” Basically just the idea that things never stop happening in life; there is no ‘perfect’ or ‘easy’ time. Which inevitably means we have periods where we grieve and celebrate together. It is hard but it is part of life. Wishing lots of happiness, holiday cheer, and healing to you Taylor!

@andieluke1366 Год назад

Thank you. I needed to hear this today.

@bealuhan Год назад

That's a very good way of describing it. My family is going through a "relentless" period right now, and this gave me peace.

@yanneswiththebearr Год назад

your anut is a smart woman. ty for advice, as a perfectionist it means a lot to me.

@Lonesome__Dove Год назад

"To live is to suffer"

@rosie6 Год назад

“Butter the toast, eat the toast, shit the toast, god life is relentless”-peep show

@calzonexiv Год назад

I love that the woman who worked with you after you had Levi has become a part of the family, it really is heartwarming to see. I hope all of you have a wonderful 2023 ♥

@nrg1123 Год назад

Wow Taylor I'm in tears right now. The fact your grandma sent you a message thinking she wasn't going to see you and then she did is just amazing. I'm so sorry this happened, may she rest in peace.

@AndiPandiBee Год назад

Our friend passed in October 2020. We had our other friend over that year for Xmas. We didn't decorate. We just watched movies and spent time together trying to keep ourselves afloat. Last year I lost 3 people. Aunt, gran and great uncle(his wife passed on Friday). Christmas was hard. I can't deny I had a wobble, I cried my eyes out for an hour missing those who didn't make it

@Taylor_R Год назад

That is really heartbreaking. I’m so sorry

@dianebaker5243 Год назад

♥️♥️

@utuberhoda Год назад

I’m so very sorry for the losses of your family members. This goes out to everybody too.

@khalishu Год назад

Sending so much love❤❤❤

@kimberlybrown-dias9370 Год назад

My 29 year old son passed away in 2017 and I didn’t feel like doing anything . My youngest daughter was turning 10 in ten days and we still celebrated her birthday and all of the other holidays that year. They are bittersweet times. I know my son would have wanted us to continue on.

@twincherry4958 Год назад

Jazz, more strength to you!

@kryzzzie Год назад

I love watching your little family. Levi is so so handsome 😍

@junsjulywonpilsyonpilchany5241 Год назад

I love you both! Wonderful content creator mommas.

@francistherese5057 Год назад

#Skyfam here!!

@mrthirtiewillstealyoursoul Год назад

@@junsjulywonpilsyonpilchany5241 i don't like some of them they didn't give birth to a baby girl bc they trolled us with a baby boy not a baby girl

@HAppytobeHer Год назад

Levi’s toothy smile and little kicks on Christmas morning 😍❤️

@judithbutler9695 Год назад

Such a beautiful nana. To think your nana took the time to post a video to you. I’m so happy you made it home for those final, important, loving talks. You and your family are loved and appreciated ❤❤❤❤

@CanisLupus1987 Год назад

My last living grandmother passed away last year (well August 2021 and it is one of the worst days of my life. Back then I took confort in seeing how much you tried to soak up your precious days with your family. It is just precious and beautiful when people are close with their families Sadly the death of my grandparents literally fragmented my family and turned every member against each other. It was the most painful thing ever. I hope your family can heal and remain united

@noeinroad7294 Год назад

You are the most honest influencer ever! I love that you don't hide the chaos behind the scenes. You two are such awesome parents. He is a very happy baby.

@glitchynikki Год назад

My grandma, who raised me since I was a baby, passed away last Christmas day, at 9:01 in the morning. It was so hard to celebrate Christmas this year. It's even hard to watch this video, but I love what you say about 'you can celebrate and grieve at the same time.' I will remember that for next year!

@enyalasala4626 Год назад

We missed you! I'm manifesting for a great 2023 for you, Taylor!

@Taylor_R Год назад

Back at you! May it be a great year for us all!

@Ninadokidoki Год назад

Taylor! Sorry for your loss! Lots of well wishes from Norway ♥

@Taylor_R Год назад

Thank you ❤️

@TheCatsMe00w Год назад

My grandma passed away last year a week after Christmas. The grieving process never really ends. Things will suddenly remind you of her, especially the next holiday season, but grieving her is still keeping her alive in a way

@alistillwell1592 Год назад

Baby fever is definitely hitting after watching this! Levi is so adorable 🥰

@paublu6816 Год назад

I've watched your channel for like 7 or 8 years now and when I watch your vlogs and I see your family I feel like I'm watching the most beautiful wholesome movie, I get teary eyes every time I see cute Levi smiling and laughing

@summerlimwt Год назад

You're a great mom! And it was so heartwarming to know Tom was/is so considerate and without hesitation told u to go reunite with ur nana❤

@Taylor_R Год назад

I’m so grateful for him ❤️

@bebeinjapan7434 Год назад

How has Levi already gotten so big and grown up, you can really see his features changing and he seems so confident. I am so proud of you, you are doing amazing and got this. Also I am so jealous of the oven, still in Japan with no oven :( Also Bisto we use in the UK and I get it shipped to Japan as so good, if you mix it using the water you use for the vege's and put in some meat juice makes it amazing

@megaearthlover Год назад

My grandfather passed on December 23, 2022. My family and I were baking our traditional Christmas cookies and receiving the news was a very traumatic experience due to it being an unexpected death. It’s already so hard loosing someone you love, but loosing someone during the holidays makes it harder. I’m so sorry about the passing of your nana. But I am happy you were able to find some sort of balance of grieving and celebrating. I’m sure it wasn’t easy. You are a strong and wonderful mother and I’m sure your nana is so proud of you! Sending lots of love ❤

@susanbennett9062 Год назад

I love how when you had your baby, you didn't forget about your first baby, Rosie.

@nattylavon02 11 месяцев назад

His little laughes were absolutely everything, and they made my heart happy and gave me a little smile. 😊 I'm so sorry for your loss. Even though I am 42, and my Grandma is 87, this is honestly my worst nightmare. Even though I moved about 5 years ago to a place that, let's just say I never wanted to live, to be here for my Grandma, and my Momma. We live in the same house right now, and I still worry. Even while I am so close to them. It is still my worst nightmare, and I am here with them every day! I can't imagine the sadness that you have felt while still trying to be there for your partner and your son. Much love to you! ❤ I have never lived in a different country from my family, but I did live in California for about 6 years, while most of my family was back in Ohio, Alabama, and Texas. Even that was super hard! So I can only imagine. Once again, I'm sorry for you and your family's loss. Huge big hugs to you all!!! 🤗 keep being awesome, girlie!❤

@CelleSleuths Год назад

Levi is the absolute cutest and happiest baby I think I’ve ever seen! How blessed and lucky he is to be surrounded by so much love! ❤

@ashley-cz1sl Год назад

Levi's face meeting Santa 😆😆😆😆😆😆 At least he didn't cry. I love that you have maintained a relationship with Carol.

@charleneb5361 Год назад

It was definitely better not to take Levi to Canada for Christmas. We were dealing with all sorts of viruses over the holidays. Everyone got sick. Plus that snowstorm canceled flights like crazy. Your celebrations ended up being so cute and wholesome 😊

@catbarnard2833 Год назад

Tip for next Christmas roast - you can use the drippings from the turkey pan to make your gravy - it’s absolutely delicious! You just add wine and flour to the pan and then either water or stock (which can be where the bisto comes in). Your meal looked amazing though, so happy the turkey was a success finally!

@sophiaisabelle0227 Год назад

We’re glad to see you back, Taylor. We all hope you and your family receive more blessings along the way. We will always support you no matter what,

@Taylor_R Год назад

Thank you ❤️

@dannievig 10 месяцев назад

Ohhh, the part where you mentioned how your son has made you feel reignited with christmas and everything, got me SO emotional. I applaud Tom for being so thoughtful with the birthday cake too!!! You have such a beautiful family.

@Didenne Год назад

Just know, you get to always cherish those memories. I never got those memories, I never had any family. When I’ve lost a pet it feels like the end of the world, but the memories make up for it. So sorry for your loss ❤ I can’t imagine

@katelyns9131 Год назад

im obsessed with his lil laugh

@MillyIncorporation Год назад

The close up on Levi on his little car suddenly smiling at the camera, oh my god how cute was that !!! Celebrating while grieving is hard indeed, I hope the celebrating part alleviated a little bit your mood ♡ sending love and peacefulness your way, always

@geekyvampchick Год назад

Levi is the cutest with such a sweet cheesy grin! Thank you for sharing your holiday with us, even though it wasn't what you were originally hoping for. And so sorry about your nana.

@cierraslowsdown Год назад

I’m so sorry about the passing of your nana! My mom died December 9th last month so you can imagine the month was just… wow. It was a whirlwind. I love how close you are to your family and know you have amazing memories with nana/as many people in your family as possible and that’s a beautiful thing! There’s this game I was watching playthroughs of that touched multiple times on grief, and one of the quotes was “to grieve deeply is to have loved fully.” Couldn’t agree more. Sending blessings to you and your ENTIRE family in the new year ♥️

@kattheshrink Год назад

I lost my grandma three weeks after my IVF baby was born in 2022 as well. The mix of joy and grief is such a weird feeling. I am so sorry you went through it!

@maerya_ca Год назад

I nearly lost my baby girl this December due to the viruses. Influenza, pneumonia and strep A. And a lot, a lot of kids were sick in general in Canada. Levi is so tiny. Staying home safe was the good decision! ♥

@natevaG85 Год назад

I'm so sorry for your loss Taylor. Sending you lots of love and strength from Oz 💌

@KiraDoyle Год назад

We missed you Taylor! I am very sorry for your Nana. I lost my last grandmother just before Christmas in 2019 and it was tough, but things get easier with time. You got yourself surrounded with beautiful and caring family and friends, I wish you all the best for 2023!

@maur6866 Год назад

With all these presents there, and Levi still looks at you and smiles, it melts my heart!

@larissa8326 Год назад

Levi's giggles oh my heart is warm, God bless him ♡♡♡

@miss_m_yt Год назад

Sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your experience with us

@spongebobsmellypants Год назад

So sorry for your loss Taylor 💕 Levi looks at you with so much love and admiration 🥹

@lisaakinlabi Год назад

The hardest part about life is that we all must grieve at some point and that is always difficult. I was so very sorry when I heard about your grandmother as I know you were close. I am so pleased you got to have some time with her because that does make a difference in the healing process. I follow you here and on IG and have done so probably since day one and I am always happy with how life is going for you. You are an awesome MOM and Tom is a lovely husband, you are blessed.

@BrittLouWho Год назад

So sorry for your loss. Sending so much love! Also, Tom’s birthday cake idea was so thoughtful!! Hope you all had a beautiful holiday!

@megami.x Год назад

Terribly sorry to hear about your nana Taylor. ❤ It’s going on 4 years since my grandfather passed, and in the beginning it was the most rocky ride ever. I’m so glad you got to spend that time with her though, that is absolutely invaluable. Grief is so complex and everyone goes through it in a completely different way. After a little while, people naturally stop checking in, but your grief will still be there. Don’t hesitate at all to reach out to your loved ones for support even if it’s one year or two years from now and you’re still feeling it. Aside from that, I know we only see what you want us to see but don’t forget that you’re strong and you can handle whatever comes your way. ❤ I hope you and your family have a great year for 2023 and make new memories!

@anna-nl5jr Год назад

Feels so good to see you happy

@HanaaNay Год назад

So nice to be able to watch an update. Nana will be missed & I am happy you had the chance to say goodbye in person and hug her once again. That cake Tom got for you is just ❤🎉🥺

@ae8701 Год назад

Taylor, I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️ What a blessing to spend that week with your Nana. Watching your family experience Levi’s first Christmas is so magical and special, we missed you!

@rainesonne1320 Год назад

I’m sorry to here about your Nana! Prayers and love going out to you and yours! Levi is the most adorable baby! He is just too darn cute!

@PrissyPricilla Год назад

I love the harmony between baby and doggy. They just seem to get along so well and take turns cuddling you ☺️

@rbenjamin1429 Год назад

You are a great mom! I love how you look after Rosie as well as Levi, btw. Levi is SOOOOOO CUTE!!!! Such a darling, gorgeous boy!! 😮🤗🤗 I am very sorry about your beloved nana. 😢

@samantha0391 Год назад

Omg! So excited for a new video from you!

@zoejones4801 Год назад

Omg Levi has the most cutest smiles and laugh, my heart is melting!! ❤

@Lina11 Год назад

Taylor your son is so precious and adorable! His smile makes me smile ❤

@qtaznbabygrl Год назад

I see the sadness in your eyes Taylor. Stay strong! Seeing you and your baby brought me to tears. Sending you lots of love!

@Vick77777 Год назад

SO SORRY for your loss, Taylor. She will always be with you and looking out for you from above. All the very best.

@shashabmc1 Год назад

Oh Taylor, I am so happy that you were able to see your grandma before she passed. Sending you my love!

@lolalollo Год назад

That’s so heavy to hear Taylor I can tell how much she means to you ❤ Praying for your healing ❤️‍🩹

@francescalittle4414 Год назад

So sorry about your Nana. Your family is sweet. Thank you for sharing these moments ❤

@Tania-zy7ls Год назад

I'm so sorry for your loss. It doesn't make it hurt less, but it is comforting to remind myself that it hurts this much because there was so much love there, and how lucky we were to have it.

@lua604 Год назад

Thank you for always being so real and kind

@eevee7853 Год назад

I'm so sorry for your loss Taylor, your Nana seemed like she was a wonderful person 😞 I hope you are better soon ...

@TimberBlitzen Год назад

My condolences on the loss of your Nana❤

@AuntyM66 Год назад

My condolences to you Taylor. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

@tarabooartarmy3654 Год назад

Oh, Taylor… I am so very sorry for your loss. I no longer have any living grandparents, and it’s especially hard during the holidays. I have a lot of guilt around their passings since I’d distanced myself from all of them because of what I felt was abandonment/betrayal, so it hits me especially hard. It does get a little easier with time, but there are still moments where it hits so hard even years later. I wish I could have been there to say goodbye. I wish I hadn’t let all my pain and emotions cost us so many years together. I wish I had them back. I wish I could be a kid again and experience all the good times again. I’m very glad you had a good relationship with your Nana and got to spend time with her, because not having that really makes it harder.

@Emzzz78 Год назад

I went through a similar situation decades ago. Don’t feel guilty. Everything happens for a reason. I know it’s hard to wish you could go back, but whatever happened has made you who you are today. The only thing you can do is go forward as the best person you can be every day. Never perfect, but always learning. No more guilt! Just valuable lessons learned. Happy new year cheers to a great 2023

@tarabooartarmy3654 Год назад

@@Emzzz78 Thank you so much. I will try my best to let go of the guilt moving forward. I know they wouldn’t want me to feel that. At least it has taught me to appreciate the relationships I have going forward. It hasn’t helped my relationship with my father (his choice at this point), but it has definitely helped my relationship with my mother. So some good has come from it. :)

@erly108 Год назад

I'm so sorry for your loss. It makess me so relieved you got to see her before she went on to the next adventure; from what you have shared with all of us it is such a beautiful relationship. It makes me miss my grandma that I think knew I was autistic long before I did, and didn't treat me like other family members did. I got to see her before she left us too, but I get the feeling she's watching every so often. Happy New Year

@Jirokun1337 Год назад

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll always be here to support you, Taylor! I love all the videos you made, always give me positive energy, your smile/laughter always brighten my day.

@stephaniechik6843 Год назад

Im so happy you made it to see her ❤ We’ve gotten to know Nana over the years in these videos. What a wonderfully warm and lovely woman.

@jackierandazzo Год назад

What a handsome little man and so lucky to have you both as his parents. Sending warmth and love.

@_melstay Год назад

Levi and Rosie fighting for your lap T.T Hope this year turns for the better for you and your family, sending hugs!

@vidhivashishtha6805 Год назад

Missed you so much Taylor.. ❤️❤️your videos provide so much comfort

@Taylor_R Год назад

🥰❤️

@sallyoldie Год назад

This brought tears to my eyes. I am so sorry for your loss, I recently lost my grandfather and the pain is still fresh after nearly 4 months so I truly feel your pain. My heart goes out to you and your family.

@xindigochildx Год назад

So very sorry for your loss 🌸 all my prayers to you and your family

@rubigalo8457 Год назад

I’m sorry for your lost Taylor. I felt the same way. This year was a little different. Levi is so cute!! He made my day with that smile. ❤

@darkwolf453 Год назад

I'm glad you had these last moments with your grandma and wish you and your family all the best. I am sure she was an amazing person❤️

@Dinoraifu Год назад

I love how you treat Rosie like another baby, she truly is a member of your family ❤

@Kristayeee19 Год назад

Oh Taylor I'm so sorry for your loss! I've been watching you for Years and have always loved seeing you make Vlogmas videos with your nana! She was such a light! And so funny, especially when she'd tell you to get your camera out of her face 😅 I'm so glad you have all those memories to look back on. And that you shared them with us as well ❤️ But I'm extra glad that you got to spend the week with her! May she rest in peace.

@sunshinecindy570 Год назад

My condolences. Thank you for sharing your Nana with us all. She truly is a very amazing Nana. We know how special she is to you all! 👍🏼🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼. Loved seeing Levi’s first Christmas.

@yd876 Год назад

♥ Sorry for your loss Taylor, it's sad to hear your grandmother passed away, may she rest in peace ♥ and may you and your family find comfort in the nice memories you have together ♥

@34582wt Год назад

You guys are amazing! All the best wishes in this new year x

@paulapolly64 Год назад

I'm so sorry for your loss, Taylor. I'm so glad that you all had a wonderful Christmas & Levi is such a cutie! His smile & laugh are so precious! ❤️❤️

@sandieM27 Год назад

Sorry to hear about your Nanna , you were so lucky to be able to go and spend that time with her , it will be something you will always remember x

@blancheli95 Год назад

Levi looks like such a happy baby.

@kimberlydavis6403 Год назад

Watch your first Christmas brought back so many memories of both my kids first ones. It’s such a special time. Love seeing you all play and giggle. Many hugs. So sorry for the passing of your nana. ❤

@minhmin5628 Год назад

You guys just make my heart cry. Glad you had a good Christmas despite everything. Here’s to 2023!

@AussieHeyJude Год назад

The memories of being one last time with your grandma will always hold a special place in your heart just as the new memories you are making everyday with Levi and Tom. A wonderful vlog which was a pleasure to watch. Thank you Taylor ❤

@orianamidence Год назад

You are so sweet and beautiful. You are such a good mom. Levi is adorable and seems like such a happy baby. Also it makes my heart happy to see that you make an effort to keep including your first baby, Rosie!

@chelseacarpenter2302 Год назад

I'm so sorry for your loss! I'm glad you got to spend her final moments with her and get those talks and hugs 💜 she's going to be the best guardian angel and love watching your family grow from above Much love from Arizona 💜💜

@nadiabarmasse5294 Год назад

Sending you lots of love and light ♥ I wish to you and your loved one a wonderful year 2023 ♥

@heathersayhey Год назад

I’m sorry for your loss, but glad you got to have that time with your grandma.. also.. Baby laughter is literally the purest sound in the world lol. Levi’s Laugh made me light up ❤

@silviag3039 Год назад

So sorry to hear about your nana. I'm glad you were able to see her one last time. Levi is the cutest baby ever. I absolutely love your little family.

@Emzzz78 Год назад

Levi is so adorable, Taylor!! That smile of his after the bath made my day! Your Christmas looked wonderful and happy which is just what your nan would want for you. It’s so hard to celebrate and grieve at the same time. Thank you for introducing Tom to the day after Turkey sandwich with French fries and gravy. Such a Canadian thing. I’m also a Canadian, but live in the USA. I love those little traditions that are so different outside of Canada. Thank you for sharing with us! Happy new year! It’s going to be a great one

@xMissQueenxo Год назад

im so sorry taylor, i remember losing my nana.. it was rough. Im glad you got those memories honey. Youre such a good mama, you really motivate me to do better as a mom. also Happy Birthday doll!

@ILikeBigCatsAndICannotLie Год назад

Sorry about your nana, I’m so glad you got to be with her 🤗 this years flu was really bad I’m glad you are feeling better

@lemonz1769 Год назад

Thanks for sharing your holiday with us! It’s inspiring to see how you navigated all of the unexpected things life can throw your way with such grace.

@anitawaris3850 Год назад

I've been so stressed out since the last couple of months. Watching this video made me so happy. Thank you for sharing these beautiful moments with us Taylor. God bless you ❤

@vikki4now Год назад

I have missed you so much. Such a delight to catch up and see your adorable family. You and your grandma were so lucky to have each other. Feel better soon. It takes time.

@MagneticUnicornVlogs Год назад

Sending you so much love, Taylor ❤️❤️❤️ I know that your Nana meant so much to you. I'm glad you were able to make beautiful memories together.

@AN-jw2oe Год назад

What a gift that you had that last week with her!!❤❤😢😢😢😢

@Lonesome__Dove Год назад

Awww babies first Christmas. This is so adorable. What a beautiful little family u have.

@jerometsowinghuen Год назад

It looks like Levi liked his first Christmas celebration in his life. Then, sorry to hear about the loss of your Nana, Miss Taylor. I hope you can get everything settled during and after spent your time with your family back in Canada.