Heroin Addict interview-Benny 

Very proud of you & so happy for you & your new life. 🖤 wishing a beautiful future for you

Sick and tired of being sick and tired. So relatable. Glad you're on the other side! I'm a few months from 3 years myself. The best help I ever had was from those who didn't try to understand or look for reasons why, but would be there when I needed them. Respect always.

I’ve been clean for seven years now and I know how hard it was!! But I really feel bad for kids and people that do dope!! Especially with this Fentanyl that’s even harder to kick than heroin ! Fentanyl was just starting to come out when I got clean, I’m glad that I didn’t have to experience it!!!🤟❤️

Sick and tired of being sick and tired. So original, never heard that one before

@@rayburn8282 Never..??

Maybe its on silent

@@JamesC00 ...not funny

You could say that for all of us

Oh gosh; this tore me to pieces too. I can't imagine life without a single person to have hope will care about me.

@@matteojosue8041 It could be.

Agree!!! 👏👏👏

They help me.

Better words about Mark's videos have not been said.

Definitely.

As a recovering addict I find these interviews very helpful in keeping sober and moving forward. Mark come to San Antonio!!!

that doesn't exist

Wow that's actually great. I swear I'm going to use that. You should too if your reading this. It could help somebody.

Do as your parents work the farm get people that need to stop like you and all get clean to help.. .. if it were that easy... stay strong..

Way way easier said than done. It sounds good but that's all really tbh

@@jakedaum2294 You’re overwhelmingly right but I think it’s still a potentially valuable thing to share.

So true..

I'm a "line drawer" 👍

Everyone draws lines they won't cross, but at the end of the day lines are scratch marks in the dirt. I'll drink but I won't do grass. I'll do grass but I won't take pills. I'll try a pill, but I'll never do a line. I'll smoke heroin but I'd never inject. On and on it goes until you are sitting on a stool being interviewed by Mark. Life is so fragile and its so easy to end up like this guy. Why even fucking chance it?

@@alw_9911 "Its different for everyone..." Ah, Addicts Lie #1. Every addict (present and pending), tells themselves what tripped up others won't trip up them. They are in control. They have discipline. They have self control. They have standards. I know Sesame Street told you that you are special and different, and you aren't. Your are just like everyone else and just as prone to error and failure as your brother is/was. Dance on the cliff's edge if you want to, but don't tell yourself that the law of gravity doesn't apply to you.

@@Waltham1892 lol i never said it didn’t apply to me, but every person is different. some are able to just smoke, just drink, whatever. some people do turn into addicts, it DEPENDS, nobody wants to be an addict. it happens unintentionally, but choosing to take harder drugs is intentional, and that is not a line i am willing to cross, especially seeing what it can do.

It seems as if they had great parents. What do you think happened to this family? This is one of the saddest stories I have heard.

@@eswatzell44 Bennys dad was recently interviewed by mark here on the channel

@@Goregirl08 Yes, I watched that one. I just can't imagine loosing your entire family to drugs. I live in Appalachian. Not as remote as WV. We have a drug problem as does most of America right now. But this story is one of the worst I have heard of.

Which interview is his dad?

@@glory2hisname1 ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-2rlLpopPSuE.html

Amen to that. I think some folk, like myself for instance who don't plan on ever having children and I'm not in the lives of sister's so their kids will never know me. I will too, be forgotten as once I pass away I'll have family that maybe talked to me ten times in our entire time as family members. In my family especially on my biological father's side the Males are loners. We went off to war. Although we were with people and after the wars the ones who were functional had families and most just drifted. Made a life for ourselves - something always fucked up either I did something or just bad circumstances a relationship would.end and I'd just leave either somewjere new or.back home. I even have an EVP from a 20-125 spirit box session where a female spirit actually speaks in real time as the radio is cycling so fast "We're the Forgotten." Check the vid.out.on.my.channel. Set your playback speed to 0.5 secs so the speed.slower.and there should be a timestamp iin the Description of the vid or.in the comments.

He is doing amazing work with these.

Patricia, you're very beautiful.

Maybe he's thinking of her....by staying away. Especially when your honest with yourself and you know you don't want to teach your only child your way of life.... because what else is she gonna see.😔

@@rainystormcloud7499 this is true. cant really argue there. id like to think, ideally,having a kid is enough to make ones life and sobriety worth it. still hard to accept that it just isnt. if he knows deep inside hes not gonna turn it around, perhaps it is better to stay away. very sad.

Yes

100 %

You're assuming he can write

YES!!!

He can! I personally know Benny 🖤 him ! Y'all should start go fund me for his family

⬆️⬆️⬆️ What she said. Therapy works, give it a shot! You're too cool to waste away.

Honesty is the difference.

I know him personally. He won't turn his life around

@@EPICxGAMEPLAY Yah, right. He's your 4th cousin twice removed on your mom's side

@@EPICxGAMEPLAY you don't know that.

@@EPICxGAMEPLAY who are you???

@@marylougeorge9890 ...hahaha,thanks! I needed that laugh😅🤣

Same here but u don't see me bangin heroin

@@gurumayne8684 how many times are you gonna say that

@@dirtylanedane5925 until mfrs stop shooting poison

Forgiveness starts with him first. He needs to let himself off the hook. Give himself grace. We all make mistakes.

Unfortunately karma is a bitch. It’s not my place to judge, however behind all his actions that he has regret for, there clearly were victims. People that bear the scars of his actions.

@@BVonBuescher There's no such thing as karma. Things simply happen to people, good or bad, "karma" has nothing to do with it.

I feel you. I feel the same way. I'm 39 and things are totally different for me to with all the family that's either moved away or passed away

@@stevenf7752 IKR I guess its our time to keep the tradition going..but back then they had 10 plus children and now days its mainly 2 kids per household

I'm 42 myself and can totally relate. Life's not what it used to be.

@@arthurradley4423 Yes I miss it

I'm 31 and I feel your exact pain. I remember holiday gatherings as these massive, exciting parties with SO MANY friends and family there. Now most of us are dead. The only new young child in the family is my 8 year old daughter. Less than ten of us show up on a good year. People just don't or can't have as many kids as they used to, and as a result we dwindle. Plus I'm Roma so countless bloodlines got rounded up and killed during WWII. We're all a dying breed. But enjoy the time you have with those you love 💕 that's all we can do.

Nothing interesting about being in the joint.

Yeah, I felt the same about that

Well spoken and intelligent ?

@@cansee0 it is simply my opinion , he did well telling his story compared to others and like he said he could’ve been anything.

@@cansee0 he is definitely thoughtful. He understands the patterns of life now that he's older.

It wasn't that tough. He made choices .

@@elleg3651 You make choices when you are a young person without realizing it changes the very chemistry and neural pathways of your brain forever. The choices you make thereafter are dictate by it. You might think you have free will but it is not as clear cut it's been proven that the brain makes decisions before we are even consciously aware of it, it is a bit more complicated than just not wanting to make the right choices.

I'm the mother to his Daughter and he was a great dad right up till she was 4-5. You're right he made a choice, he did tried to be a father but the drugs wouldn't allow it. I was forced by his decisions that he made to keep our daughter safe at all cost. I watch my daughter hurt everyday, she sees an ambulance she panics thinking its him overdosing. I watched her sit at the hospital holding his hand while he was on life support after losing his leg. As a mother I drew the line and he kept crossing it so I did what any good parent would do,I stopped her from being around him.I just pray he gets the help he needs and get clean for himself and his daughter. Addiction affects the whole family and it definitely doesn't discriminate. Compassion and empathy ppl, not one addict wakes up and days today is the day I choose to lose everything to addiction.

@Art Chave thank you 🙏🏻❣🙏🏻

Sadly, he made the choice of drugs before his child and then he reframed the story as if he didn’t want to show her the life of drugs so he didn’t see her. Such a virtuous addict, but the daughter is the one who pays for his decisions.

Good on YOU Lorena Rae! Keep telling it out there. And keep working your program. Damn proud of you.

that is awesome Lorena 🥰

Congrats on your sobriety! I hope all is well with you. Hopefully Benny here can form the same path

Wish we could. Not the cigarette though.😉

I think you may be romanticizing his pain...

Check out "The Enneagram of Personality Types". Your reflection is very "Type 4". I'm a type 4. There's a lot of insight into oneself and others in the material

@@amaliadonastorg4173 no 'he is right n it makes u so much more caring n understanding not to mention open minded n not as opinionated as some 'not mentioning any names.

Absolutely..

@@davechristian7543 to put it bluntly. I don’t think there is any beauty in being a heroin addict. With that being said people can see beauty in serial killer documentaries. Being open minded is one thing. Doesn’t make drug addiction beautiful.

I totally get what you mean about the invisible line. I fully understand what you mean. That you have put such distance between your active addiction and where you are now is just wonderful, so well done Cindy. I wish you every happiness.

As a female with an addiction with we has additional invisible lines we cross sleeping with men for drugs pretending to be a gf for drugs or selling so we can buy our drugs thank God im sober 10+ yrs I quit at home it was hard but I did it

I hope he reads your comment..you are likable sir.

Exactly. He isn't full of excuses like many addicts. I hope he gets off drugs.

He has a daughter, he chose heroin over his own kid, he chooses to be alone

So many mothers that has happened to. 💜🙏its so sad

No one wakes up and decides to be an addict have some respect

@@xedoghoman millions of people wake up and decide never to do drugs. You have some respect for what his mother went through. 😒

Whoa you really showed him

@@rayburn8282 ...by any chance, sir...do you shoot Coca-Cola? 😅

He's overdosed 5 times, he won't be around that much longer

Much respect to him. We may not know everything that has happened, but the way he lays himself bare is astonishing. He has had to grapple with some real hard sh:t. My family lost our farm to addiction. Nothing more heartbreaking after you see generations put their lives' work and emotions into something that was the center of our identities.

@Art Chave you clearly don’t understand why people use drugs. You honestly sound stupid. Delete your comment and save yourself the embarrassment.

@Art Chave I was loving the nature sounds.

@Art Chave Dumbest comment about drugs I ever read. You have no clue

💯💯💯💯💯💯

I finally figured it out after 12 years. It is a walk through hell, but don’t stop walking… you’ll eventually find your way out. Just don’t beat yourself up over how much time you think you wasted and know that there’s another life waiting for you on the other side. It’s difficult and takes a lot of work and realization, but it’s possible. I’ve easily spent hundreds of thousands of h over the years, considered suicide because I couldn’t see any other way out, made my way to prison, hella jail time, broke up my family because my brother and his wife would no longer talk to me til I was clean, survived an overdose, and so much more. Now I’m in college double majoring in psychology and criminal justice so I can go back into prisons and jails and offer my experiences and knowledge to help other people. Before the pandemic I accepted an internship to work for a state senator who works on prison reform, so I could possibly open up doors for myself that way. I’m just telling you all this to please please PLEASE don’t think this is the end for you or that this is what your life has to look like. F the naysayers, Methadone saved my life. Help is out there. Please give yourself a chance.

@@kpeezyforsheezy I’m so proud of you! I wish you and OP the best in this life. 💕

@@kpeezyforsheezy You're story is very similar to mine. Multiple overdoses, jail, breaking up the family, etc. I managed to get an entire year of sobriety under my belt cold turkey but relapsed pretty bad 7 months ago and have already overdosed on pressed pills twice in that time. You're absolutely right about staying the course though. Everyone I know who eventually got clean were the ones who kept it moving no matter what. My biggest problem is something you also touched on as far as dwelling on the time I let go by. I find myself dwelling on it a bit too much and it's definitely something I need to just let go. What you've managed to do is amazing as I know how hard this really is. I wish you nothing but the best on your journey my friend. You seem to be on the right track and that inspires me. Thanks for the reply. I really needed someone to talk to and I already feel a bit better. Take care.

@@ranchdubois6255 Thank you, Ranch!

You do dance with the devil and you never forget that first dance and your forever chasing it

Exactly well said ❤️

So his purpose in life is to show others not to be like him, and he should be grateful about that... How condescending.

Only if he can see that, isn't 100 acres worth something in Virginia? You still have years left, do it for yourself and daughter!

Is he your Dad Caidyn? he seems like a good, intelligent person.

@@stovepipe1015 yes he is .

@@caidynnicole522 girlie don't stress any negative comments. You know his heart I love you to heaven and back 💜💜

@@JustApril55 i know

*up

@@Bornjamerican24 ...thats terrible 😕

@@wesleyalan9179 how can those people he described be in heaven if hell exists?

@@Bornjamerican24 I think hell is here on earth.

Get the fuck out of here

I was thinking the same thing. They watched 9 children struggle and die. Heartbreaking

Lots of wisdom here from this man!

Travelled through Victoria a few years ago met a local girl at Beechworth it was a fun 3 days

@@ahh1180 Did you go to the famous Beechworth Bakery??

@@joannemates6367 I may have can’t remember but it was great

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Yes we are