It’s hell. I dunno if I’ll ever be happy. I had everything too. Gone. So quickly. I still think about it more that sex. It’s like carrying a back 200kg of bricks everyday, all day. I never get a rest. I was up 400my oxy or 15 blues a day. $500 a day habit. I was at the bank teller every week because the ATM couldn’t give me enough money. Squeaky kill till 35. Never did drugs. Not even pot. But hurt my shoulder and that was the beginning of the end. I kept it hidden for 10 years and no one knew. The day I asked for help was a miracle. The next day my wife said she was pregnant. I haven’t been sober every day. Since. I’ve had slips. But I bailed out immediately. This drug will hijack everything. I ended up spending 300 thousand dollars in year.
Thank u I've been addicted for 5 years on painkiller it's now making sit in my bedroom not moving eating shit no motivation. At first I took it only because it gave me energy why dose it go & now I'm soo lazy it's a big problem
I got to the point of 30 codeine pills a day and managed to swap it for Kratom 4 months ago, I've healed a lot but coming off of the kratom is absolute hell! Just like opiate withdrawal. Thank you so much for these videos. Really helping me through..
Great story Tim. You always sound like a hero as you tell your stories with a good amount of imagery how you defeated the enemy..that is addiction. I think it is very helpful to those in addiction. To me it sounds like the root of your addiction was this emptiness inside of you that you wanted to fill out. Maybe you could tell us what created this hole in the first place? I have this hole as well and probably a lot of other people have it as well.
3 months of Oxycintin after 13 years of recreational use weekends etc, Then became every day for the last 3 years, Getting through the paws symptoms but keep getting upset bowel, Hope this goes away soon, Feels like ibs..Horrible
Hi Tim 👋 thanks for a another amazing video! In early sobriety with alcohol those demons in my head keep telling me " go on one drink won't hurt, your doing well!" What did you tell yourself when you were fighting those demons?..much love ❤️
Hello from the USA I just had my 61st Birthday and it’s been 20 months since I stopped taking OxyContin cold turkey I haven’t gotten any medical help I can’t believe that I’m still going through this Horrible PAWS My question is and I ever going to get over this Horrible PAWS
Hi David the answer is yes you will . I too suffered with it . I’ve several videos on here on paws that may help you . Everybody heals at a different rate I’m afraid . Congratulations on 20 months you should be very proud. Keep moving forward!
@@TimJohnsonrecovery Thank you for your reply I am going crazy with this it’s been 20 months almost 21 I’m eating healthy I’m walking a lot I’m trying my best to exercise don’t know what to do anymore I haven’t spoken to my Dr about it because I’m a shame I have Gerd , Diabetes, ulcer, you name it I have it I had to ask for Ambien so I can sleep but it only lets me sleep a short time maybe 5 hours I’m afraid because I’m getting the urge to just get some of them dam pills to feel normal again take care my friend and thank you for all your helpful advice
Tramadol withdrawals here. Ive had a lot of grief in the last 6 years and my brother of 61 years died suddenly. I have a very stressful life and last week contracred viral gastritis. I've been trying to ween off the tramadol for a couple weeks now. Am having terrible anxiety attacks, racing heart beat. Is that normal?
Youve been taking an antidepressant love. Tramadol is also an SSRI. Depending on person's metabolism at the time, your body will process as opioid or SSRI.
I lost everything too due to alcohol, now even if I get sober my life is basically wasted. Had one year sobriety and my life was shit too albeit it helped my body and health. No wife no children no decent job, no money, not even adequate housing. So often I just consider to commit suicide and that's it.
I really feel for you my friend 🙏🏼 I know how hopeless life can feel at times , I’ve been there! But it is so precious and I promise there is light at the end of the tunnel. It’s important you talk to someone re those thoughts your having and find some proper support and help . I too had nothing and had lost everything but I didn’t give up , it takes time and a lot of hard work and pain but it’s worth every second of it . Don’t give up my friend, talk to someone and keep fighting! Good luck 👍
