I know that it takes time but fuck man I get better I get worse I get better again and I get worse again I need a middle ground before I lose what’s left of my mind
I find this to be one of the songs I put on while I mess around on my computer or just sitting here thinking about life. Sometimes even while playing games alone. Sometime with friends. I like it. I have heard it before many times but I still come back to it almost like it drags me in. It doesn't make me emotional but makes me feel a way I don't normally feel.
this brings back the old times. the times when i was sad and knew i couldn't depend on anyone else. I was lost and I finally began to find myself. For a long time I couldn't listen to music like this. It gave me anxiety. It wasn't the music's fault. It was my fault and I knew that but for up until now I wouldn't admit it. This version of this song really does give a lonely atmosphere. Lonely doesn't have to mean something bad though. It is good to be alone and it is even better to accept the fact that at the end of every night, we have to be okay with being alone or we will continue working to validate ourselves to others or acquire possessions that gives us comfort. If you are reading this, you can and will find that peace but you do have to work for it. It will require you to let go of a lot of things, especially thought and belief patterns. You know what they say, it hurts the most right before you let go. I encourage you to find that something that allows you to understand yourself a little bit deeper and make it a hobby. For me, it is writing. I mean honestly, right before I started writing this, I was about to click off because of the anxiety I was feeling. After following the feeling with curiosity, I began to write and shine light on that anxiety. Now, I can say that I understand the anxious feeling a little bit better. like noah bearson said, "to who ever it gets better". please do me a favor and take care of yourself. you are strong.
One Love, keep you head up, every soul is living in the same space of matter, become your all best friend from within your heart and let your heart collide with your mind which collides in your soul, for this development, ALONE TIME, IS THE CRUCIAL KEY to complete HAPPINES. JOY and SIMPLICITY in this concept, new dimensions will open, and you shall see life, for what is truly for. There are no problems only obstacles you must cross, with the right MELODY viberating in your frequentie, means the right knowledge of ONE SELF in truth you see life as THE ADVENTURE.... WHO IS YOU
sitting here and listing to this masterpiece makes me feel so light, and has a feeling so free but imprisoned… thinking about all the times I should’ve, and why I never did it. Wishing I had her. Wanting to stargaze with ‘her’. Getting lost in ‘her’ eyes. Damn… shit got me fucked up…
getting lost in her eyes is the thing I can relate to the most. I've had a pretty fucked up childhood, I didn't grow up with the freedom that my other peers had. I was bullied, and never socially accepted. My parents were abusive and neglectful, and I didn't get along with my siblings. I was punished on a weekly basis, and the punishment was harsh. When I was 13 I tried to take my own life. I don't know how close I got, or how I tried it. I became addicted to cutting, and later to prescriptions. Then I feel like I met my soulmate. She was the most beautiful girl, blonde with eyes almost purple. She was depressed too, so it made us comfortable knowing we weren't alone. We felt like we knew what we were thinking, what we were feeling, and what we wanted to do. It was almost as if we were connected. She cried rivers of tears in my shoulder, and I would cry on her's too. She was the only person that I felt comfortable around because we had a very similar past. I remember me waking up one day at around 2 in the morning because I didn't feel her touch. I found her dead on the floor, laying next to a bottle of pills. I always blame myself for not being able to stop her, for not waking up earlier to tell her how much I loved her. She was my world, my only hope. That was the most pain I ever experienced, to have the only thing that you truly care about, the only thing that gave you hope, and that put a smile on your face, just ripped apart from you is the absolute fucking worst. I tried to take my own life again after that because I couldn't deal with the pain. For anyone else out there feeling alone, depressed, hopeless, just know you'll get through it. Have a good day.
This song… this songs changes me. In ways I just…. I just can’t explain. This is art! This is… a masterpiece. Why can nothing else in life give me this feeling? Damn. Guess we all just…. walking cyborgs. Waiting for the mechanic to fix us. All following the same program. We’re all sheep! I miss you X :((
Woke up late for work but got a message from someone that makes me feel wanted. Put this on and now I’m just enjoying the ride to work. Things feel like they’re gonna be fine
It will be fine even sometime its get bad and hard but in the end of all bad thing there's people who love you and want the good for you so don't give up and make them proud of you 😀🤍
Makes me cry because of the music and of the show. Not even just because of the ending of ditf, its because it was my first anime and it was when times were different...
Life is wonderful. But we humans complicate it. Take things as they come. Endure the pain. It matures. Only, don't forget yourself. Come on. No one will do things for you. Hold on to your dreams, achieve them. Life is better when you realize it.
@Lightskin_boy_tv ain’t gonna lie you gotta understand the saying don’t care what others say but take it like this whatever they criticise on you right see if you can change it if you can’t change that’s perfect if you have close friends n people who care for u thats great too coz if u consider urself unattractive but they see beauty in you then that’s all u need that means they care for u the others only wanna take u down before u reach ur potential stay living n grind
We all deserve to die. We are all walking trash trying to find excuse to continue living. We try to bury our mistakes. In the end it get’s us and it will consume us. The guilt never stops. No one is saint and everyone is a liar. We all deserve to die and so we will.
This song reminds me of the good old days where me and my brother would sneak out of bed and watch pokemon xy-xyz until 11 pm,( wich was late for us when we where like 7-9 y/o) we would hang out for hours and laugh together while we watched, there wasn't a care in the world and we always had each others back we where best friends, and than we grew up, life got complicated, i would give anything to go back to that time. I feel as we have gotten farther apart, neither of us are happy anymore. goodbye.
You don’t deserve to be this way bro. Mistakes are how we learn. Failure is a good teacher. A harsh teacher, but a good one. Maybe you just need to pay attention a bit more. Rooting for you :)
It’s alright bro everyone messes up. Some of us mess up a million times doing the same thing. You gotta take it upon yourself to do something different and make a change bro. You got it man I’m rooting for you ❤️
When I hear this music, I don't want to think about anything, I don't want to remember the people I miss, I don't want to be sad, I want to forget everything.
I remember this episode when Ichigo was telling hiro how she's feels an everything coming to a realization that not everything is made to be ..... #stargazing
This song is likely Xs best song he's ever made because it is him singing but it comes off as someone venting to you about their emotions. I will kill to be in the studio when X made this song I just want to know the vibes he was in.
I’ve always felt alone and I am I have nobody to share my thoughts and I’ve always made mistakes that hit me real hard afterwords at the point where I am right now it seems like I have no hop or a future seems I’ve messed that up I spent my days just locked up in a room with no idea what to do since I got nothing sometimes I feel like I even lost myself and my sanity but yeah at least I have songs like these to just let go for a moment and have all that pain faded
“Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. The really great men must, I think, have great sadness on earth.”- Fyodor Dostoevsky
I'm lost without you... I need you.. you made me smile you made me laugh you made me happy to be alive.. you completed me and I didn't realize it till I was broken
Stop focusing on others, material possessions, social status, quotas, what they think or might think if this or that. Just focus on you, self love self improvement is the key to open the door to happiness. Do what you wanna do and fuck what they all think, if it makes you happy it's worth it.
The dream. I can’t quite take a hold of it. It’s like there is something in the way. A force, an entity, a cursed fate is pulling me backwards away from it. All my life I’ve felt this force. At school, at work, at bars, social gatherings. It never left me alone. It was like a mirror that was always in front of me wherever I went. But the reflection wasn’t me. It was this force entity staring back at me, mocking me, laughing at me, crying for me. But as the years went by, my judgment became more precise and I realized that the reflection was; in fact, me this entire time.
missing him. but i have to act like i dont need him like he does towards me. i walk around him like his the last thing i needed when his really the most thing i need. but if hes acting like this then i have to get myself outta the torture and sad mood puttin on a fake face that i wasnt. i wish he'd just talk to me but sadly. he wont.
I just wish I had her. All of her not just the parts that everyone sees. Her inner thoughts, the innermost parts of her that nobody else gets to see. I want her, spending time with her even in the quiet moments just to sit there and enjoy her company. I feel so lost and so alone without her but I feel like I'll never get to truly have what I want. I feel such despair when I'm without her and all the bad seems to go away whenever I talk with her. Even while I'm talking with her I get the sense that nothing will last forever. Our friendship and our closeness will eventually fade and she may forget about me. I hate the thought of losing her and I've lost all sense of which way to go at this point. I don't want to lose her but I'm so scared that it's inevitable. I love her with all of my heart and I'd give whatever I could to make sure that she was happy. Seeing her happy seeing those moments of joy. The moments of sadness. I want to be there with her through every single moment, good and bad. I love you
If only I could hug you all and let you cry as much as you think is enough, stay like that as long as you desire and let you feel the peace as deep as you could... It's 01:18 here in Baku and you know what am I thinking? "There are people who listen to this song with the thoughts of depression, sadness, loneliness, at even thoughts about the end..." No, I've not lost my mind, I just KNOW HOW DOES IT FEEL and WHAT IT ACTUALLY IS and... Just... If only we could create happier world together... "( Don't forget that I love you, all of you. Your nationality, race, belief, your unpredictability, sorrows, sadness, attractions doesn't matter. Believe me. None of it does. Please.. if something happens, let me know and let's talk about it. I will be there for you until my last breath. I promise. You are not alone. I love you...
Remember we’re all in a broken world. People are going to always make bad choices, ourselves included. If you’re struggling with addiction, or loss of relationship or life. Know you aren’t alone. God loves you and we’re all here together :)
lost my dad at right few months after i turned 13 he was my best friend & hero now i’m 15 still very young he used to tell me things about life but now life had to teach me about life i also have to teach my self , how to put on a tie, how to shave my beard, and many other things it’s hard without my dad now i was with him till the last moment when i said on my language he can let go and be with god and jesus his pulse went from 40 to 0. after that my life changed completely. now sometimes i see my mother heartbroken taking sleeping pills to sleep cause otherwise she can’t i tell her she should stop dad doesn’t want you to do this don’t cry he want us to be happy. after dad i go in my room and cry myself out cause i don’t want to loose my mother too cause she is the last parent i have with me and i don’t want to lose her since i now gotta be my own dad in life. my dads goal in life was to be wealthy due to winning in a lottery. we are not rich but not poor we have clothes and something to eat. His Goal was to be rich so ima make sure with everything i got left to achieve it in life im rn going towards it. Still when i get there even if i had 100billion i wouldn’t have my dad here so without my dad i’m not complete. at nighttime it’s the worst cause it’s me against my mind. it fucks me tbh so what now. i gotta get where i want to be i’m already going towards it and ima keep going whatever. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for my dad and mom
I'm sure everyone's all heard it before and maybe I'm wrong for assuming so. But none of what's going on is any of you guy's fault. I've been there and still am here. I want you yall to know that there's someone out there still fighting on because they're clinging to the same hope that some of yall are clinging to. And that's that one day they'll find someone like you. Someone who will love them for them without judgment. But its deeper than that. We all go through our shit, and even though we probably won't understand exactly how the other person feels, they can have peace knowing that they have someone like you in there corner. I want yall to know that I'm fighting every day for yall. You guys will never understand and that's ok. But i will still always fight on with you guys in mind.
Coincidence that before I got my job,driving license and eventually my first car,I was at home staring at the stars too wondering what was gonna happen as well as my happiness too.i went off to a different side alone in my mindset discovering a new me,but my struggles and hardships are my shadows yet I wondered how my life could’ve been something else for the better or worse:for the poorest or richest or humblest yet I wished to be poor…made me wonder and think a lot of nature,space,magic,people,countries,culture,history,numbers etc.staring at the stars at night at 12am-2am made me wonder why did it have to be like this? Why couldn’t it have been different? Why? How could one live or love when one isn’t even happy? Regardless of my acknowledgment that people have it worse,one can only work on himself,and try to help himself to his own ability,realize that you can’t save everyone and not worry of others. Of course,the reason why I type this,is because I go through bullshit like you and sharing doesn’t kill. Coming from 2 different countries, being told stereotypes from said country made me question my birth certificate,it ultimately damaged me.wishing to be free from my birth certificate,I’ve recently come to the conclusion and ultimately my realization that one can only be himself based off of person he is,character/persona or personality. I been looking for an escape but how? For years I’ve wanted to escape..since I was 15 but lately I’ve thought that maybe it’s already late to even escape.so what’s left? A girlfriend? I’ll pass for now.ill keep working for now.from the very beginning i didn’t want to do anything because I saw things a different way and didn’t fit in but never got a second chance. Many,many,many things are playing at once but I’ve just scratched the surface and yet I’m still here wishing for gods help and for an escape from said country.
the problems isn’t doing the whole love thing is feeling it i’ve never actually felt love yeah i dated a lot of women but none i actually felt idk if it’s because i’m not waiting patiently for the right one and keep rushing things
IVE BEEN LISTENING TO THIS ON REPAET FOR THE LAST 3 DAYS. IVE LITERALLY WENT THROUGH SOME OF THE HARDEST SHIT IN THE LAST FEW MONTHS. THE MOTHER OF MY CHILD WHO IVE BEEN WITH FOR OVER 3 1/2 YEARS HAD BEEN CHEATING ON ME FOR TWO OF THOSE YEARS AND LYING TO ME FOR THE ENTIRE TIME OF OUR RELATIONSHIP. SHE GAVE ME A HALF ASS APOLOGY AFTER I CAUGHT HER AND HAS PUT LITTLE TO NO EFFORT TO TRY AND SAVE OUR FAMILY. WE HAVE A SON TOGETHER WHO IS EVERYTHING IVE EVER WANTED AND I HATE HE HAS TO GO THROUGH THIS. IT HURTS ME BECAUSE ALL I EVER WANTED WAS A FAMLIY WITH THE WOMAN I HAD MY CHILDREN BY AND SHE RATHER UP AND LEAVE ME FOR HER BESTFRIEND. NOT ONCE THINKING HOW THIS IMPACTS NOT ONLY ME BUT OUR SON AS WELL. THE SHIT EATS AT ME DAILY BECAUSE I DONT GET TO SEE MY SON EVERYDAY LIKE I USED TO BECAUSE I MOVED OUT DUE TO DISRESPECT FROM HER AND HER TELLING ME SHE DIDNT WANT ME ANYMORE. I AM A GREAT PERSON AND A GREAT FATHER. SO WHY DID I DESRVE SOMETHING LIKE THIS TO HAPPENE TO ME?
Bro dein Sohn braucht dich jetzt mehr als alles, diese Frau nein dieses Mädchen hat es nicht mal verdient Frau genannt zu werden, sei für dein Sohn da, nicht das er mit so ein Menschen wie dieses Mädchen aufwächst. Ich gib dir einen Rat, geh sport machen, das sorgt dafür das du dich besser fühlst und besser im leben bist und bring deinen Sohn alles bei was du weißt und kannst. Sei ein Guter Vater damit es dein Sohn auch einst sein Kann.
