IT FINALLY HAPPENED! | Toxic Tears 

"It's mine and no one can ruin it." This both broke my heart and made me happy all at once. Good on you. And congrats to you and Sebastian!

Well done love!!! Really happy for you!!

So glad the news is out! You deserve that safe space, its all onwards and upwards from here 😍😍

Forest witch vibes YES!!! 😍 Ah Kaya, stupidly happy for you and dyinggg to visit! 💚

As a person who has survived toxic relationships, and been homeless- literally sleeping in doorways on cardboard after a breakup I can appreciate how miraculous it feels to finally get a safe place that's ALL YOURS that nobody can take from you. I am so happy for you, and excited to see what wonderful things the future brings to you. Sending much love and positive vibes your way 💜

Congratulations Kaya!! You’re going to thrive here! 🖤🖤

Saw the title on my notifications and I wanted to scream my excitement for you. I can’t wait to watch you decorate. Congratulations!!

After watching you struggle in a freezing attic for years, to finally get a home, being placed in a studio (What even) I have been rooting for you so hard! This is incredible and well deserved news

The expression on your face when you exclaimed "MY GARDEN!" Uch!!! Kaya, I know I am not alone in feeling so proud of you and so happy for you, you are so bloody strong and have so much class. The new place is amazing, cant wait to see you make it your own! Onwards and upwards, babes.

Kaya! You got out of a toxic relationship, supported yourself, and now have managed to get your own place! Congratulations. It can only get better for you.

*🎃Whenever you said there's a little bird in my garden it made me tear up! I'M SO VERY HAPPY FOR YOU🎃* 🎃🎃WOOHOOO 🎃🎃🎃CONGRATULATIONS BEAUTIFUL 🎃🎃🎃 BIG TEXAS HUGS🎃

Seeing your face light up at 4:50 when you mention YOUR garden 🥰 that smile is priceless. I'm so very happy for you!!

I unfollowed the “other” in question, and completely do not support the other person whatsoever, they did you so dirty and you deserve so much better. You are the absolute sweetest person alive I’m pretty sure about that. I love you and your videos! ♥️♥️♥️

'There's a bird in my garden... In MY garden'. OMG! I'm screaming! I'm SO, SO HAPPY for you! Sending so much love and light to you and Sebastian! ✌️❤️👑

Girl, we don’t have to know the whole story to know you’ve been put through ALOT… Im so glad that you finally have a place of your own! it honestly baffles me that before you were struggling to even stay warm, the fact that you weren’t even given the opportunity to get back on your feet is very telling. As cliche as it sounds there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel. Happy for you ❤️

The way I gasped and yelled "YAY!!" as soon as i saw that title 😭 Congratulations, I'm so happy for you!! I'm glad that you're in a much better and safer place 🖤🖤🖤

so so so happy for you!

WHEN I SAW THIS ON THE APP I LITERALLY CRIED AND SHOWED MY BF TwT "She finally has a home! oh god im so happy for her ahhhhh"

I have to admit I stopped following you a couple years ago because I just got this bad vibe. And now I can see that it was the situation you were in. Good for you for coming into your own and finding your own space to thrive in! Living alone is seriously the best time for yourself. Wishing you only the best!! 💜 P.S. I resubscribed too ☺️

I have never been more happy for someone in my life! I have literally lost sleep over worry for you! you were the first youtuber i ever watched must have been about 10 years ago! and I am just so happy that you have pulled through a really rough time and come out on top. I love the house it looks adorable and it must feel so good to finally have your own place! no we don't know the full story but I think we can all pretty much guess some of it. Even the comment you made about the punching holes in the walls just makes me so sad you had to put up with that behaviour. Intimidation is a form of emotional abuse so we can add that to his list of wrong doings. Keep smiling Life will only get better for you!

I just can’t fathom someone being with someone for years & then just kicking them to the curb & saying “well I’m paying for the studio I guess you could stay there” with no basic necessities. I’m so glad you found your own place! I can’t even begin to imagine what has happened but I’m sure it’s 10x worse then what we are thinking. Keep going! 🖤🦇

Also: we've known this for ages and all but it bears repeating - YOU ARE SO ADORABLE WHEN YOU ARE HAPPY AND EXCITED!!

I could've listened to you talking about the house and your plans endlessly, SOOOO glad and happy you finally have a safe space to be and live and that is just your own! All the best Kaya, please stay healthy and I can't wait to see what your future projects will be

YES IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU LOVELY 🖤🖤 you deserve this!!! Edit: “which I’m well familiar with…” we love a shady kaya 🤭✨💅🏻 period

I'm so happy for you and sebastian. Im sure kitty missed being around you. Hope you enjoy the new place 🖤🌸

never clicked so quick and from the first 4 seconds in guessing you've got a place! so happy for you lovely xxxx

Your whole demeanor has changed, you seem soooo happier. We all wish you a big congratulations and just wanna say I'm so jealous of your new lamp. The new place is lovely and I can't wait to see how you make it suit you decoration wise. This is such a happy vibe. I know you have been through absolute s##t for a long time. May karma work her magic now.

Holy shit Kaya, CONGRATULATIONS. I've been rooting for you from a distance this entire time. I just moved into my new place 3 days ago, & before that I was staying in a place with no heat, no shower, & no stove. I was shocked you were experiencing something so miserable at the same time as me. I was totally stuck like that for 8 months, & I'm just so so glad you're not stuck anymore. I've been enjoying looking into your lovely little life for 8 years now, & watching you start another new chapter is so so exciting. BEST OF LUCK FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY BLACK HEART 🦇🖤🦇

YAYYYYYYYY!!!!! IM SO HAPPY AND EXCITED FOR YOU!! "✨My garden!✨" Absolutely melted my heart lol, I know that must feel so wonderful and amazing to finally have your own place and means a lot I can feel your happiness through the screen XD You really deserve everything good coming your way💙 I can't wait to see you thrive! :D

I AM SOO SOOO HAPPY FOR YOU GIRL!!!

This could've been a 4 hour video and it still wouldn't have taken up enough of my time!! I'm so happy for you and its such a cute house 💖💖 Can't wait to see it all come together and see the little gentleman finally come home 🥺

Even if you did a 24 hour vid, it wouldn’t be “enough of my time”. You’re an amazing person and positively radiant with energy. Its never nice to go through hardship but it’s comforting to know you aren’t the only one and if they can turn it around, there is still hope. And that’s what you give. Hope. Much love and positive vibes your way! 💜💜💜

"Its mine and no one can ruin it" Those words sing to me. I just had a break up and i'm staying with family but I had run my own household for the past 2 years. It's all feels soo weird right now. And getting my own place is going to be a hell of a battle but I know it will be worth it. But I can't wait for the day I can say those words.

Happy for you Kaya

I'm so happy for you, things are looking up Kaya congratulations

I’m grinning like crazy watching this, I’m so excited for you! The genuine happiness in your tone and your expression is such a relief to see. I can’t wait for things to get even better from here. Congrats!

This is so exciting! Even after being in my little one bedroom apartment for a year now I'll still look around and get emotional about it being my own space and that I'm safe. It took 4 years for me to finally snag something. Getting a little house feels like a daydream but you give me some hope that eventually that could happen for me in the future. Enjoy decorating!

When you've been beaten down and held back and cast aside, the absolute best feeling in the world is thriving in your freedom and embracing happiness - you've shed such a massive source of negativity and come out all the stronger! The one who thought they had the power and control? They just wither and shrivel behind you, consumed by their own anger. You don't even need to look back, not once :) I'm so happy for you and Sebastian, and it's so lovely to see you surrounded by friends who love you. Really looking forward to seeing moving in and decorating vlogs - even ones on your phone are fine! You don't have to have the perfect set up or the perfect camera. Home made and spontaneous can be even more watchable. Congratulations!! 💕

I am really happy for you, Toxic Tears.❤️ It would be really cool if Aurelio Voltaire did a Gothic Homemaking episode with you as you guys could decorate your home into a lovely gothic lair. I hope you continue to do well and good luck on your journey with the goth/alternative community!!

YAAAAAYYYY OMG FINALLY!! "MY GARDEN!" Hahaha yess I felt that excitement to even be able to say that, so happy for you 🖤

AAAAAAH!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!! YAY!! so happy for you moonlight Tapestries and wall hangings (large curtains maybe) could help if they want you to hold off on painting qmand such.

I'm so happy for you! Having your own house (all to yourself and no one else) is the best. You can invite friends over whenever you want without worrying about annoying anyone, you can eat cake in the bathtub, you can enjoy your alone time, you leave things in a spot and they'll stay there until you move them (unless your cat knocks it over), you can dance the silliest dances without anyone judging you... it's awesome. Enjoy!

I've never watched your videos before, but this video is very nostalgic and adorable. I remember when I was homeless after a breakup in Chicago and a came back down to Florida. It was such a good feeling getting my own place. Having privacy, peace, quiet, freedom. I'm really happy for you! I remember just laying on my empty apartment floor and feeling relief. I wish you the best in life and I'm very happy for you. :)

That is incredible! So wonderfully happy for you! ... And Sebastian will absolutely love it when he gets there!!

The relief I know you feel... I get it and been there. Though this last year has been less than stellar, I feel this was coming your way and meant to be. Good things will happen from this and I cannot explain how happy I am to hear this news 🤗💜💜💜

CONGRATULATIONS! I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND SEBASTIAN!! I HOPE ALL THE MOVING AND DECORATING GOES SMOOTHLY!

I'm so happy your SAFE and have a place of your OWN!! you deserve every bit of the glow on your face!! can't wait to see your content as you start making it your own 😊💜

Many other people are mentioning that they unfollowed *ehem* y'know... I'm glad to see it honestly. I don't care how petty it sounds, or bitter or whatever. Wrong is wrong. He did you wrong. His actions after the break up have been so revealing. I unsubbed from him and have only peeked in once. I love the classic 'it's none of our business, so who cares what happened argument I see from folks. Uhm, firstly, I don't disagree... at the end of the day, no its none of our business as internet strangers. However, how much are you willing to turn a blind eye to? Where's the line? I care about who I watch and who I support. To SOME degree, it is our business as viewers, regarding the creator's character as a person. Would you willingly support a YT'er who beats puppies in their spare time as an example? Anyway. Needless to say, there's nothing to miss as far as you-know-who goes. He's turned into a one trick pony as far as content goes, and his narcissism is revolting. I'm glad you're rid of him. You will thrive so much more without him holding you back. I am so happy you got your own place and you get to make it yours. Proud of you girl.

Oh my goodness Kaya, I'm so happy for you!!!

I’m so happy for you Kaya! Sending you happy spooky vibes! 🖤

So happy for you things are finally going your way. You deserve it.

Yay!!! I know we don’t personally know each other but I’m so happy to see your lovely face smiling and secure! I’m celebrating for you! congrats! 🥳

YES, HONEY!!! I knew this would happen sooner than you thought it would. You've been working very hard & it's all finally come to a head. I can tell this is gonna be the start of a whole new chapter for you & your creative expression. Can't wait to see little Sebastian scooting around! lol

OH MY GOD, ITS GORGEOUS! I love it, it looks so cosy! The bathroom looks great, I cant wait for your makeover and decorations!!! So happy for you Kaya!

Yesssssss! Congrats on your place! You're going to have so much fun making it all cozy and all your own

Let us all rejoice. For Kaya has a home and no one can ruin it. Her baby Sebastian will be warm, happy, and with her. 😽

Kaya- you are such a strong and resilient person and I am beyond excited to see you in your new, beautiful space! You have faced many, many challenges and, as you always do, you have weathered the storm and come out the other side still smiling and full of life! Inspiring! Love your content and am so happy to see everything looking up for you 💖💖💖💖

How proud of yourself are you right now? I'm sooooo happy for you, glad you have a house to call home again. You look so happy and exited for whats to come. The best of luck and success in this new house. We will need a house tour soon!!

IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!

I AM SO BEYOND STOKED FOR YOU!!! YAY!!! Edit: For the bathroom door window here's an 💡 idea paint the window with black washable paint. It's already frosted so it will look really cool, provide privacy and be completely removable if needed!

YES YES YES YES YES YES YESSSSSSSSS

I’ve been in abusive situations before where I’ve lost my home as a result. I ended up in women’s shelters and had to build my life from scratch. I am so afraid to move in with guys now, if I ever do I’m putting the place in my name only. I’m glad you’re in a better place, I know that feeling of freedom and I’m so happy you are not attached to the other person anymore. I never liked the way he spoke to you. It could be played off like this is our banter type thing but there was major alarms for me. You deserve to be spoken to and treated so much better than that and I know you’re going to have an amazing time building your life on your own 🖤🖤

YAY haven't watched all of it but after everything you've been through I AM SO PROUD AND HAPPY FOR YOU! Sending endless love and well wishes xo

OMG MY HEART IS SO FULL FOR YOU CONGRATULATIONS KAYA!!! Im so happy for you!!!

I haven’t even finished watching yet but I have to say I’m so incredibly happy for you! I’ve been a subscriber for quite some time (usually a silent weirdo) but I just could not pass up the chance to say congrats and that you absolutely deserve the best! Can’t wait to see what you do with the place! Wishing you love and good prospects all the way from Maine in the US!

I'm so happy for you! As a follower who's been here for yeeaarrs and seeing what you've shared recently, you deserve this.

For the bathroom door windows, use window cling film! Kinda what you used on that one window in your studio that casted rainbows into your room. Amazon has some that are not as transparent so it can provide privacy into the bathroom :) Then you don't have to battle with blinds/curtains

I’m so friggin happy for you!!! I’m just 1 minute in and I’m just happy you get to live in a place that has a shower and kitchen and you can finally sleep on an actual bed!!! 💜💜💜💜💜

So delighted that you've finally gotten a safe, warm and comfy space to call your home after all you've been through. Can't imagine how hopeless it must have all felt at times and you should be so proud of yourself for pushing forward and coming out the other end. So strong of you and anything else that comes along, you can absolutely tackle it, knowing you've battled way worse. Can't wait to see what's next for you and to follow you on your new journey 🖤🖤

I can't put into words how happy I am to learn that you've finally got a house, only wishing you the best xx

A place free from anger, and fear. You and Seb are gunna so happy

"Looks like someone punched a hole in the wall, which I'm well familiar with " did we collectively just, missed that

YYYYYAAAAYYYYYYY!!!! CONGRATULATIONS KAYA!!! I'M SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! 😃😃😃😃🎊🎉✨🎇🎆🎈🎈🎈🎈 You don't need to say sorry for being happy and excited, silly! You deserve this joy!!😁❤❤❤❤

I'm so happy for you! When I saw the thumbnail I cheered! Just in time for summer too with your own garden! 🖤🖤

I started watching you in 2019 as well as some other gods creators or RU-vidrs that I love and you have been the most positive and prolific one that I have watched lately and you're always honest and open after all that you have been through I am so totally glad that you got to have your freedom and then you get to be who you truly are as you always are much love 🤘💕

Idea for the bathroom door! What if you got some faux stain glass window clings? I bet you could find some you can’t see through and it’d fit your witchy-vampy vibe! Also, the vanilla lavender cake sounds perfect! My wedding cake is lavender earl gray with lemon-honey frosting so I totally get the vibe lol

OMG, so FUCKING happy for you oxoxo 🥳🥳🤗 watching from New Zealand Christchurch

Soooo happy for you lass! You've been through so much the last few months... I think now you are sorted and have your own place you should speak your truth xxx

I'm SO HAPPY FOR YOU!! CONGRATULATIONS!!! To start off the home decorating vlogs, you should do a cool DIY stained glass window effect on the weird bathroom door windows! They make paints you can use to create them! And they're removable with a razor blade when you need to. That way you can have privacy that looks cooler than just a blind!

OMG OMG OMG!! YES GIRL!! CONGRATS! 💖 Edit: I am so damn excited for you Kaya! I can't wait to see your streams and how you decorate everything when you're able! :D Ahhhhhh I'm just so happy for you and so excited to see you so happy! 💖 Yeeessss cooking and baking videos! :D Ahhh haha yes you deserve to have the cutest happiest birthday, I'm so excited you'll be able to celebrate it in a house!!

I shared this video with my daughter. A few years ago she turned me on to the Spooky Box videos. I was really glad to send her see this one!

I keep coming back to this video because i love the excitement and positivity. Lots of hugs! OH! And about that bathroom door - the original probably needed to be replaced and that was probably the cheapest option or a free option at the time 🙄 But! You can put cute removable wallpaper in the window panes on both sides 💕

Im so happy for you! I cheer for you everyday. I have had several friends trying to purchase homes or flats in the UK since the pandemic started, and that process alone has been crazy enough. I can’t imagine compounding that with your other factors and circumstances. So glad things are going in the right direction for you 🖤

So over the moon for you, you really deserve this house!! finally you can have your home where you and Sebastian can be safe 🖤

"I finally have somewhere that's just mine and no one can take it away from me" is such a heartbreaking statement but so powerful at the same time. I'm so happy for you and Sebastian! It's such a beautiful home 😍😍 I wish my home was half as cute as yours lol. I'm so happy for you and I can't wait for what's to come. You finally are able to rest 🖤🤍🖤🤍 *edit* AND TAPING OFF WHERE FURNITURE COULD GO IS SO GENIUS! I am so dumb! I don't have to move stuff around to see if it'll fit or I'll like it when I get the random I need to change my house up at 3 am lol. Also some of my family have gun cabinets they use just for storage of gun, guns an other items, or some own no guns and use it as a fire safe.

The he who shall remain unnamed sure is suddenly learning most of his followers came from riding your coattails. Boy has Mick Jagger ego with McDonalds quality.

I'm crying happy tears for you. I'm so glad you finally have a safe space that's yours. I was in a similar situation a few years ago so your story really stuck with me. I wish nothing but the best for you and your future.

🖤 Congratulations. You worked hard and went through a lot, this is a new beginning! 🖤

Kaya, I wish I could post a pic here but I've a glass of angry orchard raised for you! I'm so happy for you! I had this feeling something good was coming your way and it did. I'm so glad you're out of that studio and somewhere safe for both you and kitty. I am wishing you more good fortune and luck for 2022. Cheers girl!

Soo happy for you, currently ill with covid and this has made my day so much better! X

So very happy for you!!! Now this is usually when the old bad energy says "wow she has it all together and I made a mistake. I want to get back together ". Not just No but HELL NO got it!

Hearing you say “my house” was so good to hear/see!!! Yes! Onwards and upwards now! 🖤🖤🖤

HOORAY!!!!!!!!! Looks like a lovely place. So happy for you. Hope things keep looking up for you. Blessings! 🖤💕

OMGGG WE'RE ALL SO EXCITED FOR YOU BABE!!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU DECORATE IT!!!!

Sat here beaming with joy for you omg!! This place is so nice exactly what you deserve

So happy for you!! This place looks fantastic and I'm already seeing your imprint on it! Can't wait to see what it looks like once it's all decorated with your creativity! Also, an idea for the bathroom door: on Amazon they have interesting stick-on privacy and/or tint decals that you can cut to size and put onto windows. Maybe you can find one that goes with your aesthetic and voila, no longer need the blinds! 😊

YES YES I am so happy for you. and looking forward to Goodie making with the Goth!

You're very loved by family, friends, and followers. I'm so happy that you were finally able to get a house. Now time to build yourself up and do what you wanna do.

I am so excited and happy that you found your home.

Yay! Omg i am absolutely so happy you found a home! You deserve every bit of good news and happiness that comes next❤️❤️😊