Trusting yourself is so important Trust yourself to feed yourself Trust yourself to clean yourself Trust yourself to make your money Trust yourself to create joy It's my mantra for this season of my life. To Trust myself. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on the interwebs!! Really appreciate it
I’ve noticed that when I’m not socializing , or like I’ve been home alone for a while working etc , I get sad and very tired. But once I’m out with friends I feel energized. I never noticed that socializing or just being around people is critical to me , so I am working on this. Trying to meet with friends without feeling guilty that I should be working instead . It’s weird being 30 and re learning my self (what works for me and what doesn’t ) after quitting my 9-5 . It’s definitely an adjustment
Happy 27th birthday Monica. As a 14 year old girl, I look up to you a lot. Your videos are truly eye-opening and you explain everything so perfectly. I aspire to be a strong woman like you when i grow up :) Thank you for all the content you put out for us!!
Hey guys, male viewer here. Cool video, I like watching her videos, pausing and having a deep introspection on how this could affect me and how I could use her experiences as a learning tool. Can't lie I found her videos from the Sneako beef, but I'm glad I found her channel and I grew out of the Sneako angry male phase. Summer burnout is real guys, I had to study for my summer exams, thankfully I passed but I got burnt out sooo much, it'll all be worth it in the end.
I've been consistent with the fitness journey for last 2 months and honestly it feels so so great. Once I am at the gym, just seeing people around me work so hard, makes me work hard. And the biggest challenge is showing up, not lifting heavy. And even if I feel like not showing up, going there just makes everything better
hi monica i found your channel recently and you resonate so fucking deeply with what me and a lot of people are feeling. i haven’t seen this video yet but i was thinking about your video about hopelessness, i would love to see if some kind of organization for radical change could be done in the influencer sphere. people with audiences i think have the power to maybe work with eachother to get the word out about actualizing some kind of revolution. probably wishful thinking but you as someone with a platform who cares and feels so deeply and is so intelligent and wise gives me real hope
Monica. You have no idea how much this resonates with me right now. I feel so out of touch with myself, so depressed and lost. There's so many things I want to do, so many books I want to read but I just can't get myself to do all of that. I feel exhausted. I used to work out and take my dogs for a walk every day religiously. I do think a part of me feeling like that is being burn out. I put so much pressure on myself to do as much as I can, and I also recognize the role of capitalism and its emphasis on productiveness that makes us feel like we're valuable only if we're making money or participating in some type of production even if we're sacrificing our health in the process. So yeah. Sorry for the ranting, I do want to thank you for this video, it makes me feel less alone and also motivated to restart my fitness and just overall 'recovery' journey while also being patient and kind with myself. ❤️
Hey monica, as a 25 year old southeast asian woman i relate to your journey so much and i love listening to your perspectives. Funny how i almost always find myself nodding along to your words. It feels crazy finding validation in you, a stranger, who i probably will never be able to meet/never would have met. I'm thankful you exist and appreciate you sharing your growth on the internet.
“I am me, and things just happen…” Thanks for that reminder Monica. Happy birthday. The way that you talk about your experience is really grounding and inspiring to me, thanks for sharing.
poor girlie.. i just got done watching your video on sneako and literally was crying a little, the most heartbreaking part was looking up his subcount after. 1m? really? same with fresh and fit? you destroyed him tho as usual ily girl please keep making videos i showed you to so many of my friends and they love you. we need more creators like you. you deserve 1m subs, not those assholes
Gorll, when you said “you only get one life” and don’t wanna overwork yourself during it. I feel you. I’m a Virgo myself and I feel like we do that a lot….. I just have to say thank you for sharing this and being you I’m sending you a huge hug
I’m only ten minutes in but this video resonates so much. My birthday is today. I’m 27 now and I was thinking about thanking you for making this video because this is how I feel, the “hallway feeling”. then you said your birthday is in two days and you’ll be 27. I’ll take this as a little godwink. Thank you for uploading this video. 🙂
Thank you for making the kind of content that literally makes me stop in my tracks every time, because you always manage to perfectly articulate thoughts I constantly have 🙏🏾.
this video really couldnt have better timing. i also started going to the gym for comparable reasons, and i indeed experienced clearing of the mind. i cant wait to finally have an 'adult' schedule instead of surviving every day. a bit unrelated, but i was wondering if you were ever interested on doing a video on addiction?
I felt this same way for a goooooodd asssss min too. Then I just made the decision to get a job that is more physical laborious (just cus I was tired of these jobs talking my mental labor and driving me crazy) buuuhhhhh sweating at work and just moving around helped motivated me to create more art and go IN with my art career. I’m not working at the job atm and feeling like shit mentally again so prob should work out again
I too find that working a more labor focused job helps me mentally. Probably because I am always in my head thinking of so many things at once. That when I'm doing physical labor I get to just focus on the task. Thanks for this reminder.
What type of job was it? I feel my office job is ruining my mind and body (back pain, knee pain, neck pain, etc). Exercising helps(started recently with a few minutes a day) but so many hours sedentary has been killing me
currently 20, I've known you since I was 16 (more-or-less) and no pressure to you but you've helped me accept myself in more ways than you know and hearing this now in uni, wondering who I am? you're literally heaven sent to me. sending love to you Monica xxx
Thank you for being so considerate though there is no need for the apology at the beginning, for the delay in content. You are hella appreciated for everything that you express, breaks included. You always bring excellent food for thought and it somehow is always right on time with what is needed imo. Personally, I feel a resurgence in authentic > superficial interactions online by creators. I’ve been seeing more talks about death and our mortality in the media (Joey bada$$, Angie Martinez, Mike Tyson) I take in. If you ever have the emotional/mental capacity to do so, I think hearing your existential thoughts in this format would be fire. Excited for the next video. 10000/10!
My willpower is on the ground, don't know what am I going to do... My traumas and anxiety are being too tough on me. I guess this is life...isn't?.. ANYWAY. Always lovely hearing you Monica, I feel hopeful everytime I hear your videos. Thank you.
Love how relatable your videos are. We get so stuck in watching ppl live “perfect” lives online. It feels good to see someone close in age speaking on topics that just makes sense.
Girl, same. This is reinforcing my own reflections from this past week. From being done with past narratives, to feeling depressed again, to trusting my systems and getting myself up after resting a lillll bit.
It's amazing how so many things that you're describing in this video I am currently going through, like being in between doors and feeling a little lost. I have a problem with discipline in my creative pursuits and fitness. I'm only 18, but I definitely feel the effects of being done with high school, but not ready to be an adult at college. I don't eat nearly as often as I should, and I don't go see my friends as often as I should. Like you said too, I function pretty well in my own head, and can exist on my own, but I still need socialization. Also, happy (late) 27th birthday! I appreciate your vulnerability on RU-vid and I can see your effort to grow!
Seeing this during a health anxiety attack, was literally just crying in my nana’s bed. The fact that THIS IS HAPPENING to not just me!!! I’ve always had anxiety/depression yadada but on July 30 I had the WORST attack of my life, convinced myself I had the pox. Couldn’t sleep, I felt sick, couldn’t stop shaking and crying. Was anxious for days. And I simply never recovered. Everyday I live in fear that I’m sick and I’m dying. Itching? Aching? Congestion? Sharp pain for a second? I fear for my life INSTANTLY. It’s so miserable bc I know I look insane and I know ppl are like “girl what happened?”. I just don’t know what to do. I was babysitting my niece and just starting freaking out that we had to breathe the same air. I wouldn’t stand in the same room as her unless I HAD to and wore a mask, I wouldn’t touch her without gloves. I felt so terrible about it, which made me feel worse. I want my life back.
Woohooo another video! I love your insight, honestly you're like the older sister I never had (but wished I did!). . I hope you're doing well, your creativity and wisdom inspires us all
Hi Monica! I’ve been watching your videos for a while and just want to say thank you. Most of the things you say really resonate with me and inspire me to explore myself more. I love how you talk and sometimes it feels like talking to a friend, it actually makes my day better. And thanks to you I’ve built some routine habits that help me to get through everything that’s going on in my life right now. Thank you and I’m so happy that you’re alright and staying healthy! “I’ll be a million different people before the day I die and I will honor all those people” You’re amazing 💛
Every video you post you describe exactly how I'm feeling! I work from home and been really depressed. Just started therapy and my therapist point blank told me I need to get out more 😆 thank you for the reminder to move my body and actually live my life 💜
i love your videos because i relate so much to rationalizing alllllll of my feelings and trying to narrate what’s going on in my life 24/7 to the point where i’m always in my mind and hardly in my body. you make me feel seen! thanks for this
Happy belated birthday queenie!! Your words are so relevant and genuine. Thank you for making the rest of us feel less alone on our paths-I hope you find proper stasis within yours.
You are an insightful young lady...and a Virgo...it all-makes sense now😉. You're on the right path...just reaching full understanding and freedom as I enter my 6th decade. But you are so much further than I was in my understanding at your age. I always watched my own life...like a movie. You are very aware. Brava💖✨️!!! Thank you for sharing.
you vocalized SO much of what i've been going through and learning about these past few years. i'm grateful that our journeys with healing have crossed in this way, thank you for sharing your thoughts!
thank you for sharing, this resonates and was very comforting to hear. i'm an artist too and i also have struggled with mind / body connection. this video reminded me of how much better i feel when i'm physically active and releasing tension. sometimes i forget. it's nice to know i'm not alone in how i sometimes feel. much love.
happy (almost) birthday!! I am so grateful you exist and I appreciate you always letting us into your brain and sharing your experiences, thoughts, feelings and more! hope this upcoming year brings you exactly what you need and more! also! thank you for this video! you hit the nail on the head when it comes to absolutely everything you said. maybe it’s because we’re both virgo’s, but man, oh man have I been experiencing a lot of the same things these past couple of years. It’s nice to have someone put what you’re thinking into words and also give some extra insight!
I'm so glad to have another video from you!! I've also spent most this year not feeling like myself and also tried to recommit to exercise and have been finding it hard, so much of what you said was so interesting and just what I needed to hear and think on right now ❤ Thank you!
No because I was genuinely feeling so alone w\o ur vids I have a single friend at college and can’t even tell her the things I wish I could tell you I don’t say that overly idolize or to pressure you like you can literally upload a video of u eating saltines for 10 min or painting in silence and you’ll still be loved by so many especially me Ik you put so much love and passion into everything you make on and off line, obviously you’re going to burn out without breaks so please please just do what you want to do not just what you think you have to do. Literally post 10 sec of you tap dancing and well still love you bc we know you put compassion into anything and everything
I am so grateful for every video 🥲🖤✨ weather is a life update, a stream of consciousness or a lecture of whatever you consider important I’m always here listening and learning so much from you. Thank you for all of the time and energy you put into this videos monica 🖤 we love you and we are rooting for you! Keep your head up and I can’t wait to see your next video.
Happy Birthday, sis, I’m so proud of all your progress. My journey is similar to yours. From the sounds of it, you’ve had a spiritual awakening. 😁 that’s an incredible breakthrough. Keep going girl you got this!! Also I hear you tellin me to get fit girl I receive it 😂
Yes! I can relate so much to fitness being amazing, I´m more down since I stopped going to the gym for sure, I´m gonna go back. I was recently diagnosed with cptsd and also trying to make a living out of art, studying music rn, your channel really resonates with me. You are very good at observing life, wise beyond your years
Thanks so much for this video Monica. You have the words to capture exactly how I've been feeling. I was existing in a state away from my body for so long, paralysed by the state of the world, my past mistakes and used to this habitual hermit state ever since lockdown happened. It's so glaringly clear now that discipline is needed and taking responsibility for life is going to be key. I now understand that it's time to trust in myself more and give myself more empathy because it's also my first time at life. In this post-colonial neo-liberal society we are living through now, we are trying our best and doing so well lmao! We've got this y'all!
It was perfect 🥰 I am fortunate enough to have been consistent with my martial art practice even through all the young adulthood crisis and the moving out, and I keep circle back to it and every time my eyes get so renewly bright about it! Having this positive « look how well you’ve done by keeping practicing » + all the very rewarding opportunities that comes with progress and recognition in a passionated community, feeling strong and stuff, it really is awesome. And the sports dopamine !!!!! Makes my energy levels go to the roof every single time; keeps me alive in personal crisis and tough exam sessions ahahah I am now trying to detach myself from all the mentors and rely on myself more trusting my ability to grow and get stuff done. As a young woman who sometimes embodies some weird persona of weakness (the help is really awesome and is what gets me going a lot and I love the connections with ppl but also I am independant to my core); letting go of that « I need help » narrative that I grew tired of as you said and watching myself flex all on my own, and the trust!! is also a great stage of my own adulting 🥰 See the Spider-Man movie ahahahah
yo if you only knew what this did for me!!! i’m so grateful that i get to have little glimpses into your mind and see how much of my worries are not only my own💞
Thanks for this upload sis 💓 I’m very much in this dissolved/ in between state and you expressed some of what I’m feeling so perfectly. I’ve been depressed before, but this time I am allowing it to be and trying not to attach storylines. I’m also facing that job vs entrepreneurship question and it’s an interesting place to be in. Everything feels like personal growth lol, something as simple as trying to make money on my own feels like a whole spiritual journey and I’m faced with questions about my identity and who Id like to be as an adult. Chileee, let me start moving my body too Much love to you & to anyone else reading this 💞
Thanks Monica! I took off the past 3 weeks. I could've fallen off for months. I even told myself this morning I was gonna go but chickened out. I'm gonna go to the gym this afternoon ❤️.
All I can say to you is thank you; thank you for sharing your experiences and knowledge. I know I will still make mistakes but it's nice to have someone older talking about these things so that I can reflect on them earlier than later
*19:30* EXACTLY how I feel most of the time, feels like some kind of dream-state, but it's uncomfortable. 'Something? over the eyes...I do exercise tho, it helps some but not much. But I do sleep wayyy too long, stay up too late. I think this might be the issue. Some1 knows?
Hey Monica! I really enjoy your videos so much! Could you maybe do a video where you talk more about the concept of mourning our younger selves? You mention it briefly in this video and it really sounds so interesting! I would love to hear more of what you have to say on the topic. I am also in my 20s and in the process of accepting my change and all the different stages in life I've been through, so when you spoke about that it really resonated with me. Thanks for the great content
oh my god monica you literally speak to me in every video. i relate deeply to feeling so much pressure and tension in my body and feeling like everything i was doing recently isn't even working to calm myself down. i've had several people telling me recently that i should move more because it's like college and overthinking is killing me. i'll be looking at different gyms on monday to start new habits and improve my mental health as well. your videos make me feel seen and heard. thank you!!!!! glad to see you well and happy birthday
Loved and appreciated this so much! - would love to hear more about the process of learning who you are in your early adulthood that you mentioned briefly - also, if there a way to give you a small donation to pay for your content, thanks Your content just hits so hard and I also found Dr K who has been helpful for depression too. Thank you so much for sharing your epic thoughts.
started crying right around 19:00 because i've never heard anyone describe my experience like this, the barrier between me and the world feels so permanent and unchanging, and its been impossible to find the right words. time to hit the gym it seems!
lol, man, i should have watched this a month ago when i put it on my “watch later” list… i have been struggling with depression during a “hallway” moment in my life. i’ve barely been able to do anything. and then last week i started exercising again. i hadn’t been working out since the pandemic started. literally just doing a warm up and some stretching made me feel like a new woman. i didn’t expect it at all. my body was singing. thanks for the honest and encouraging video. your perspective is always so well-thought and thought-provoking ❤️ i’m really curious now to hear your thoughts about rosalia! i dunno why, but i always felt this weird way about how she presents herself. it’s like she’s pretending to be latina? i dunno maybe that inaccurate
