MenTaL heALth upDaTe: eating disorder and scars at work 

For anyone who struggles with eating: There is a book called "Life without ED" and it really helped me. It is something to relate to and the author also gives some Tips that actually help. I can recommend this book a lot.

Honestly everyone stop with the she’s manic comments. Marie seems really happy and energetic. She is normally just a really bubbly person so it must be really hurtful for her too see that everyone thinks she’s manic. WE LOVE YOU MARIE 🦋🌞

"babe they'll look fine when they're healed" ahaha oh no

a mental health update without marie being unable to say bupropion isnt a mental health update

I’m going through an eating disorder right now, this made me go get some thing to eat for the first time in a few days, I love you, thank you for what you do.

Just a video suggestion, as I would find it helpful: starting meds, and how to expect it and how it’s changing you? Maybe an info video on medication?

This practically made me cry when you mentioned you are more than your mental health problems, the whole work place thing defiantly hits home, thankyou for saying that,its comforting. You inspire me to keep trying, thankyou marie x

You don’t even understand how much all of us watching this right now are so unbelievably proud of you and how far you’ve came on your journey. Your honestly thriving and we love it Marie 💛x

Being open about my mental health with my work has it’s pros and cons but it is the best thing just because now they know that my moods can be very unstable and it’s not because of anything but my brain being a bitch. Such good advice in this video Marie ❤️

Hi Marie! I've been diagnosed with anorexia and while I've been maintaining my healthy weight with a nutritionist, my therapist says I'm says I've made progress but am now really stuck and not moving forward and she isn't enough to help me. So she had me do an assessment, and I've been recommended for residential treatment. But my ed before starting recovery wasn't super long (7/8 months), and now that I (mostly) do my best to follow a plan and I've gained the weight I needed, I don't feel sick enough for residential for these reasons, and many more. Tw but I still have horrible ed thoughts and body image and still have very obsessive and rigid behaviors around food and self harming behaviors (which I also feel aren't that bad). But I just don't feel sick enough at all. I've watched you for a while and find you immensely inspiring and thought you might understand the "not sick enough" feeling, as I know many people with mental disorders feel this way. So I thought you might understand and be able to give some advice! And if anyone in the comments has gone to residential, has a similar ed experience, has ed thoughts/behaviors at a healthy weight, has any advice, etc., I would really appreciate hearing what you have to say!!

girl u ain’t boring. take care of yourself, love you x

About that driving thing, my granny died when she was 78 and tried so hard to pass her driving test all of her life but in all those years never passed. That’s one of so many great funny “her” stories we have when we remember her ❤️

You uploading when i cant sleep is a blessinggg. Thanks queenn💕

Best thing to happen when your sleep isn’t great!! Your so beautiful and inspiring. Love you xxx

marie, you have came so far and I’m so proud of you! your my lifesaver, you inspire me every day to be myself and I’m so grateful to have you as a perfect idol!💗

Thank you for being so open and honest. The part about work really touched my heart. I’ve not been able to work much and I’ve been afraid to tell people upfront. I live in USA. I hope you’re staying well and safe. Love your eye shadow colors lovely sweet young lady.

I just finished treatment for atypical anorexia nervosa, and to be honest I have felt so so alone with it, because it’s such a hidden illness as it’s not the classic anorexia nervosa, so it’s nice to know I am not alone xxx thankyou for being so inapirational xxx

Hi! I was wondering if you could talk a bit about what medication you’re on and what has helped your symptoms?

I am soooooo glad you’re doing well on lockdown, as bad as it sounds, it’s kind of been a blessing in disguise for some people. Got to use it to our advantage 💖 also your positivity when you’re talking about work and scars makes me so hopeful, not all people are arseholes you’re right thank you!

loving this video so far🤍 i wouldn’t listen to people commenting saying your acting ‘different’? i don’t get it lol, you just look so much happier! & at the end of the day you only know how you are feeling! love u so much xxx

Love how you posted just before 7am lol

You are not boring, but a beautiful “normal” (what is normal tbh, I would love to know) being and I enjoy your wonderful personality every time I see your videos.. I don’t have instagram so I can’t follow you there. Stay safe and keep up the good work with your wonderful self 💗

I worked at tesco for 5 years. Towards the end of that period my self harm increased and my managers told me I couldn't come in if I'd done it, every day I came in they would check me over - arms and stomach - one time a male manager checked me on my own and made me pull my trousers down. They rang my GP and interfered. I missed a shift as I was in hospital after an overdose and they told me if I was off again they would sack me. I ended up a mess and quit. They treated their staff so bad, gossiping about me on fb etc, they said openly that they would always be able to get more staff as there's always people that need work so they're not going to bother with people 'like me'. I am so thankful that your store and managers are supportive of you. Xx

Hey! I love your videos so much! It makes me feel so much better when I see someone who has/is going through something similar to me. I actually started feeling suicidal when I was 12. For 4 years I struggled with it by myself, and no one had any clue. I started self-harming when I was 13 and no one even noticed. I guess that made me feel worse so I started getting more depressed. I started seeing the school chaplain when I was 15 and it took me a few months before I opened up to her. Since then I got a lot worse because I started acknowledging all of the hurt from the years before. I self-harmed worse and attempted suicide once, but it didn't work so no one ever found out. I'm still bad, but one thing that has kept me going is the fact that you've made it through. Yeah, the road is still hard, but regardless you're still here. Thank you ❤️ Love you so much!

i was awake since two days ago saw the video and decided to wait until i was a tiny bit more awake as i didn't want to miss out on taking it all in. your so strong. your my inspiration to carry on with therapy. i'm really struggling at the moment so when you uploaded it made me smile. thank you. luv you marie 💖

Honestly I love how albie makes an appearance in every vid xx

sending so much love to you Marie❤️ and everyone reading this!! 🥰💕

Love your videos as always ❤️ I just wanted to put in my 2 cents when it comes to declaring mental health issues in the work place - I completely understand why you would be promoting that people be upfront and honest but I would really advise that things like this aren't declared until after you've secured the job... I know that employers can't legally discriminate on the grounds of mental health but it still does happen, way more often than we probably think. Having been coached for interviews by my godmother who is a customer services manager in a well-known insurance company in the UK she strongly advised that I didn't relate any of my interview answers to my mental health, although she was very compassionate and understanding and mentioned that they have mental health first aiders in her workplace, discrimination still happens all the time. I know the best way to fight the stigma is to confront it but in a time where mental health disorders are still stigmatised I'd recommend that the best way to be open and honest is to have the conversation after you've already accepted the job offer! Take care 💕

i really needed to hear you talking about work and people being nicer than you think, my manager knows im having a hard time but i just don't know how to go about disclosing stuff, thank you marie

Thank you for another wonderful video! I always feel like I’m catching up with a friend when I listen to you talk and you always make me feel so appreciated and happy! Love seeing you practicing self care by doing your make up (you’re such a stunner) and hope that you’re coping as best you can during these strange times! Super proud of you for going to work with your arms showing, it’s something so simple that a lot of people wouldn’t understand (and I can’t say that I do myself) but I know what a big step that must’ve been for you and I hope you feel liberated and are able to do it again if you feel you want to!! Can’t wait for your next video and always here if u want a chat, keep doing you lovely 🦋🦋

A video about “top 5 things that have helped you recover” would be great. ❤️

Hope your doing alright marie. You have helped me so much and I love you💗

I absolutely love the light shining from your aura. You can tell how happy you are and well you are doing. Congratulations

Honestly this is giving me so much confidence to go sleeveless! We always live in fear of judgment and embarrassment, which is totally understandable, but we'll never know unless we try either huh? Thank you Marie xxx

Your videos could be a great tool for monitoring wellness and stability, both for you personally and those that advocate for you. You are able to see a visual of yourself, your speech patterns, and your thought expressions. This could help tremendously in identifying any regression and dealing with it before it becomes a huge life altering issue. Wishing you peace in all aspects of your life but especially peace in your own mind. Peace in/of mind is the greatest gift. Prayers for you and yours 🙏🏻

your videos mean so much to me. you have no idea how much your videos impact my life and i bet so many else's life. you are such an inspiration Marie. thank you for everything you do.

i haven’t watched any youtube in a while and since i watched your videos a few months ago, you honestly seem so much happier now and it makes me so happy to see xx

You have serious mad makeup skills...💪👍. I would be worrying about getting that in my eyes but not the pro lol 😜

I’ve never commented on a video before because its so scary but i just wanted you to know i love you so much. You probably here this all the time but you are so helpful and i dont think you could ever know how helpful you are. I’ve been struggling with depression and anxiety and food and a lotttt more but i cant talk to much people in my life yet its like you understand everything without us ever even having a conversation. I appreciate it and you a lot. Much love and hope you continue to do well its so beautiful to see x

Don’t worry about your driving Marie, someone I know had a student who’d done 80+ hours of driving before starting with them as a new instructor and the first thing they did was drive on the wrong side of the road! Got to be better than that😜

i laughed so hard at 8:12 "like fuck off" 😂😂😂😭😭

The thing about medication ... would you not take it if you had diabetes? And remember .... arsenic is “natural.” I don’t know about the UK, but “all natural” “alternative” supplements are not tested for efficacy ... you have zero idea how much is filler and how much is actual product. There are studies linking high use of supplements to liver transplants. I volunteered with mentally ill teens and my (now gone) good dogger Gus and I saw such a difference when the girls (13-18) when they got on appropriate medication. Doctors and researchers go to school for YEARS to learn how to help people....if you are dealing with bad mental health and aren’t taking medication, please consider it. Much love to you Marie ...you are an inspiration to so many.

Love you so much Marie, you’re amazing!! 🥰

absolutely loving the set up and decor, so relaxing💞💞💞hope you’re safe and well xxx

Omg I just remembered this. I always find it funny when you try to say Bupropion because that's how I was with Escitalopram literally until I heard YOU say it one time and I was like "hold the fuck up that's my med? That's how you say it? Omg life just got a thousand times easier" so I always smile when you stutter over that med because youre the one who taught me how to pronounce my own med name😹💛

Thank you so much for being So honest and sharing so much with us you don't realise how much you have been helping me through a bad time I'm glad your doing well your such an insparation .. Please don't feel pressured to talk about things you don't want to you already share enough should never make yourself feel uncomfortble 💕

can i just say how STUNNING you are marie!!!!! 💞💞💞

I was thinking about something the other day. Like, can you work as a model with self harm scars, or is that considered "ugly" "not model material" or something like that, you get what i mean?! Does anybody here know something about this? Stay safe

Aw, we're medicine twins. I am so happy you are reaping the benefits and staying well. Much love XOXO

thank you marie, you’re really helping me🥺💓

Love your videos Marie! Keep doing what your doing. Much love from Australia 🇦🇺

I LOVE YOU MARIE

Love you so much and love the vid. You're such an inspiration ❤️❤️❤️

Hey lovely 💕 I am a mental health nurse and someone who has been on two antidepressants, they often put people on two different types as different antidepressants are thought to increase different neurotransmitters linked to depression and low mood etc so sometimes just an SSRI type antidepressant is not enough for someone for example!

Talking about mental health problems has defenetly pros and cons. For the first time ever I had to tell someone about my problems was when I just couldn't go to work but just crying in my car and having a mental breakdown. I had to call my boss and tell her I am struggling and just basically can't come to work. I was few days off and going back to work was so strange. I felt ashamed and guilty. Luckily my boss is really nice and understanding, but talking to her has been a little strange ever since. I am doing better now and working really helps me to stay in good health. I also think talking out loud is really important, coz mh problems aren't luckily tabu's anymore. Maybe not with everyone and everywhere it is wise to do so.

It’s 4 am right now 💛 mental health Monday’s are the best

Just woke up to see an upload from the best person ever😘 can’t wait to watch this, I love you marie and I’m proud of you, your the biggest inspiration❤️

You're such a light in my life💕 I love you and hey proud of you for wearing your arms out😘 Also my fitbit just broke too and I feel your loss😭

Thank you so much for this video Marie, we all love you so much

You are sooooo pretty!!! It’s unreal ❤️🔥❤️🔥

this really was the video i needed to see todsy, thank you

I got so badly bullied in my last job for having mental health that I had a major relapse, and resigned, and I wish I never said anything. I can't help but think how differently things could be for me now if I'd just been supported. It's so nice to hear people have better experiences than that, but I don't know if that's the norm.

Marie gotta say your the best motivational speaker 😊x

My parents have just found out about my self harm and ED habits yesterday. They took away my technology besides my laptop (so i can do classes). They say its for my own good but it is only making things worse. I am in no contact with friends even more now since quarantine. i feel absolutely alone and out of control of everything. I feel like i'm living a life that isn't my own now. I have no control over my own emotions but what is worse is that i can never verbally express my thoughts and feeling due to my anxiety disorder 'selective mutism' which means when i try to talk...nothing comes out. I am not choosing to refuse to talk..i simply just CANT. This whole situation is going to turn into bad and i just don't know what to do at this point. i feel helpless.

🦋 ily!!! I always watch you makeup vids while doing my own makeup haha

Also I was just put on fluoxetine. I know meds work so differently for everyone but I hope this works for me :))

I admire u so much🤍 such and inspiration

‘We’re young we can make mistakes’ 🙏

i think a lot of people are interested in ur ed bcs u always seem to avoid it (i mean i respect if u dont want to talk abt it❤️)

I love you and am so proud of you♥️♥️

I admire you so much for working woah. After struggling with going to work for half a year I just had to quit since I had breakdowns literally any time I had to leave the house : (

stay strongg xx

May I ask how often you see your psychiatrist or psychologist? Like, not during quaratine obviously, on a normal basis :)

I love you Marie 💕

hi marie i hope you’re well xxx

amazing as always

I work in a nursing home and have scars on my wrist that are very significant , it's awful!!! People stare all the time 💔 I never know what their thinking ... I always presume their judging . I was really young when I did it .. they are over ten years old , but they are still brutal , I hope I can get a tattoo when the quarintine is over because they are a big downer on my self esteem.

„That was the chair, not me, I swear to god!“ 😂😂😂

You‘re so strong and such an inspiration!!

Lovee your vids 🖤

you crack me up🤣🤣

Same here, my job has helped me so much with my mental health. At times it does give me extreme anxiety, but it provides me with routine and responsability, which is so important to get through life with such illness.

people saying marie's manic need to stop. she's allowed to be happy and energetic. it's NORMAL to be happy and energetic at times. stop policing her and let her enjoy her life. also none of you have the qualifications or experience as a professional to make these kind of statements. people need to realise that just because marie is happy doesn't mean she's ill.

Can you do a video about medication side effects and how you cope with them?

I LOVE your earrings, where'd you get them? Love you by the way x

hi Marie, was just wondering your stance on how long you plan to be on medication for - do you think it will be long term/possibly forever or will you plan to get off of it? this is a constant question I have for myself as medication has helped me so much to start recovery and to just get through the hard days!

I'm so obsessed with getting at least 1000 steps in a day. I pace around my room for 2 hours. 🙄 Then there's driving oh yep I almost forgot... I hope quarantine is over soon

Fluroxitine is my godsend honestly. Helped my mood stabilise and my eating disorder behaviours so much.

i work at a mental health treatment center & with summer coming up i’m so stressed about what to do about my scars because i work with kids who struggle with self harm but we work outside a lot and it’ll be so hot & i don’t know what to do 😭

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Hiii 💞 first of all, love you lots 🥰 you probably already know this but I’ve been struggling with anorexia for around 10 years now, I started going to therapy because of it and a couple of years ago I was diagnosed with BPD and my therapist thinks that the anorexia is cause by BPD... maybe you could talk a bit about that, idk about your eating disorder situation and whether it’s connected to your BPD, but idk something about coping with BPD and an eating disorder on top of that? Sorry if it’s a bit all over the place, I hope you got what I wanted to say 😅 hope you are coping well with lockdown 💘

I work for Tesco too and have been on sick since mid-January. I work part-time, but I might have to go back to work this weekend because my SSP is running out this week and I need the money... I'm not really well enough still - has this happened to you? How did you deal with it?

Sorry if that is inappropriate, but why are you so shaky? ♡ Hope you are alright

I think that in my country mental health issues are still a stigma and employers may not hire you if you are honest with them, I know at least one employer that would not hire you if you tell the truth. That's kind of sad :/

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Do you find that self tanner helps cover up scars?

I'm 15 and I have a weekend job in a restaurant and in the summer my work gets really hot and my uniform is all black and none of my colleagues know that I struggle with mental health and I feel like I can't wear my arms out just in case I make a customer feel comfortable or my colleagues

''I want dEPtH'' Marie.. do you have any Scorpio in your chart? I'm getting such scorpio vibes.. cancer, too

I literally was forced to quite a job because I had a psychotic event while at work.

I was supposed to sit my driving theory test in april 😭