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This video is part of a Marriage Series called Revive Your Marriage. This is Part 5 of that series. Sex and intimacy can be a burden for some couples. I struggled with intimacy in marriage for years and I share about it in this video, along with a challenge for all of us to initiate sexual intimacy in marriage.
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We got married five and a half years ago and from the very beginning we experience a huge challenge in our sex life. We were both virgins when we got married, we were very eager to experience that part of our relationship together and the honeymoon was painful, physically painful for me and my husband was patient with me, he had positive attitude and said, don't worry, we'll figure this out. It's just going to take time to feel comfortable with each other. A few more days went by, a few more weeks went by, a few months went by and things didn't change.
It was excruciating for me physically to endure sex and I felt very insecure about the whole situation. I wasn't familiar with sex and I didn't know if I was doing something wrong or if my body was broken and it was awful. I felt inadequate as a wife, I felt like I couldn't fulfill my husband wholly and it was so destructive to my mind and my heart. I was so sensitive during that time and to be honest I didn't know where to turn to, I didn't feel comfortable talking about sex. I don't know if I was embarrassed or just felt like I was the only one, I wasn't sure and it was just very, very hard for me to be able to reach out and find help for what we were going through.
At the same time, we were so busy jumping into missions, we were traveling around the world, we were so busy filling out life with serving God that, it almost became a distraction for our sex life. Eventually years would go by, almost three and a half years went by that we struggled with this issue and just the anticipation of knowing that we would have to try, you know, that oh, that time is coming scared me and that would just make things worse and any time that it failed or that our sex was unsuccessful, it would just torment me and I cried to many times into my pillow.
My husband would try to comfort me and I just started to isolate myself from my husband and from God. It was so destructive to our marriage. I didn't know how to respond to what was happening to us and I didn't understand why, why God would we serve you and save ourselves for marriage and do all the right things, yet have such a huge struggle in our marriage. I couldn't comprehend why God would do that. By our fourth year of marriage, he walked us through a healing process and that was really hard for me, because I had been isolating myself for so long, I was actually in a very deep depression and just going to church was difficult for me.
My husband would encourage me to go Sunday morning with him or Wednesday night to the young adults group and I just couldn't do it, I had every excuse in the book not to do it and it was because I was angry at God. I was bitter, I was resentful and it hurt me, it hurt me to be in the presence of God, because I felt in some way deserved or owed a fulfilled marriage just because, I don't know why, because I was serving him and I felt like I did all the right things.
So anyways, our sex life has been a challenge for me and my husband for almost the entirety of our marriage and I can probably count on one hand the successful amount of times we've had sex in the first four years of our marriage. That's how difficult it was for it us. I don't know if any of you can relate to that. I don't know if there are wives out there who have felt inadequate, because of their sex life or because they weren't interested in sex or I don't know all of the different reason for why people endure hardships with their sex life in marriage, but I know that I struggled and I know that it was so hard for me to pick myself out of that with all the lies and all the deceit that the enemy poured into me. It was really hard to break that.
I wanted to encourage you guys today that, if you are struggling in your sex life, please reach out for help. Either ask a friend, talk to a friend about it, maybe a mentor at the church or talk to your spouse about it. Let them know how you're feeling and what you're going through. I know that there are other things that can keep a husband and wife sex life distant for instance, pornography. That's a huge burden for marriages today and it's so easily accessible. I feel like there's ... and it's not just for men it's women too. I feel like that is a huge burden on sex life in marriage.
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