My Recent Weight Loss and Fears About Regaining Weight (Explaining My Mistakes) 

Steph!! You should film and share what YOU want to. Don't be such a people pleaser, because there will ALWAYS be people who won't be happy with what you put out. I am personally interested in everything you mentioned (what you're up to now, career path, vlogs, training)! ❤️ Since ALL IN, I feel you've felt you have to tip toe around things. Just be you and do what you want!

Majority of us are here because of your beautiful personality! I wouldn't go down the rabbit hole of trying to please everyone. You being authentic is what keeps us coming back!

Proud of you always ❤️

I’m part of the orthorexia recovery audience, and I personally don’t have any issues with you sharing your physique. It actually helped me a lot to visualize how the process was/has been for you. As far as content, I’m pretty much going to watch anything you do lol. You should do what brings you joy, and I think a lot of us will love whatever that ends up being.

Show your body, show your brains, show yourself--show what YOU want to show because you bring a lot of value to so many of us. (Frankly, if people are triggered by your body image...that's their problem.) Happy to see you back!

as a person who has and still struggles with an ED, your account has really helped me. I actually enjoy seeing your physique updates as they remind me that even after gaining weight you can still be beautiful. I would love to see more what I eat in a day videos, they help me realize eating more is okay. obviously, stick to what you are comfortable with and do what you want to do though.

I’m perfectly fine with you posting your physique as long as it doesn’t make a negative impact on your mental health. Do what feels right for you! Sending love your way girl! 🖤

Your authenticity is what makes you so easy to relate to. Thank you for opening up, and showing its okay to take time for yourself and it's okay to not be okay.

As a therapist i have to say that doing therapy is not easy and the beginning does feel realy hard. But it is also about finding the right therapist that you feel comfortable to talk to. I hope you give therapy another try in the future! Meds are great, but the combination of meds and therapy has been proven to be the best way to treat depression and anxiety disorders. And it also helps you to create new habits and patterns so that you dont become dependable on the meds, so one day, when you are ready, you can stop taking these meds and still feel great. Anyway, I love hearing your story and that you are taking care of your mental health and body! You look great no matter your body count

Jeff’s positive support gives me hope that beautiful constructive relationships that mutually inspire those in it do exist in the most beautiful and powerful ways. Thank you for your vulnerability 💖

As someone who had struggled with an eating disorder for 8 years, I see the same things in you. I recovered by taking anxiety meds as well! But I can imagine it being hard for you because of social media. Keep going ❤

Your veideos about All in are the reason I overcame my anorexia. You made me feel like it was okay to just let go all fears of food and allow myself to nourish my body. Thankyou so much❤️

finally, a youtuber that is realistic and actually tries to portray the hard parts and continuous effects of eating disorders/disordered eating/anxiety/etc. I have so much respect for her

I think this goes to show healing from eds is more than healing that extreme hunger. It’s a lot deep and much more mental than physical!

Your all in journey encouraged me to start my recovery journey. Two years later, I'm healthier than I've EVER been in my 24 years on this planet--including as a child. You're just as much a part of this community as I am or anyone else who is suffering, recovered, or has recovered.

No one, especially through RU-vid comments has the right to tell you how your body should look. Just take care of yourself (mind, body, and soul) and rise above all these toxic comments masked as positivity and concern. Best wishes Steph xoxo!!!

Finding a therapist is similar to dating. It's a lot of trust and finding compatibility. It's not always a first try success. I say give it another go if your up to it!. It takes some time which can always put people off but it's worth it.

Thanks for sharing your story. For a person who has ED, it's important to eat "mechanically" and not skip meals. Hunger and satiety comes back to normal after about half a year of mechanical eating. This is what dieting does- it messes up our natural hunger and satiety ques. Wishing you all the best in your recovery journey and please remember- your weight does not define your self worth. 💛

I’m an eating disorder therapist and I’ve also been a client several times over in my life. I also agree with some of the commenters on here that finding the right therapist can take time and giving it a few sessions. It takes time to get to know the client and best how to help as each person is so unique in their journey towards mental health. For most, meds can help but usually only work for so long or do much. Lasting transformation comes from hard work, accountability and sitting with the difficult questions/ emotions in life. Eating disorders are VERY complex and multifaceted. Most clinicians don’t have proper training so it is always best to choose someone who specializes in this if you struggle with it. Okay that’s my PSA for anyone seeking out therapy for ED 😂✌️💜

This really resonated with me - I had a similar instance recently of feeling I was slipping into old bad habits and the fact that you can acknowledge it and take action this time around is so powerful!

I think you reached the ED recovery community because you in fact struggle with an eating disorder. Orthorexia is a form of disordered eating. Anorexia is not the only ED that exists. Lots of luck to you, stay strong!

I'm sorry to hear you had a bad experience with therapy, sometimes it can be hard to find the right fit! I'd encourage you to continue to "shop around" as therapy can be beneficial for ANYONE if you find the right therapist. Regardless, proud of you

Honestly, anything you post I’d happily watch - you captivate people with your authenticity, intelligence and radiant personality! I can’t wait to see what you post, regardless of what the content is!

So nice seeing you. You're human and real. You show your struggles and help others see they're not alone. Thank you for all you do and it would be nice to see how you're doing in all walks of life. God bless you Stephanie and stay strong

I just went through this three months ago - after a year of being "sober" from anorexia and bulimia. I had to buck up and eat. So glad to hear that you are back on track. Also the weighing and mirror checking, man that is hard to stop doing!! Tracking things in general is so hard to stop. Keep up the good work

Aww so I’m glad Stephanie is honest w us. Being “all in” especially in front of a large audience is hard. And honestly I think this is so relatable. It’s hard to move past “skinny is beautiful” when that’s all you see on social media.

Hi stephanie! Regarding showing your physique- as a recovered ED person, it doesn't affect me at all, but i do think that a big part of recovering is moving on from focusing on what your body looks like. We love your fitness content regardless of what you look like -- and i think this is a very important role to take on this platform (decentering the physique in the fitness community). Just do what feels good and true to yourself, your values and your goals. :)

Once you have an eating disorder you always have to take Care of your mind, it’s really hard! You’re beautiful and very strong, Steph, don’t ever forget it

This is the first time I hear "getting back on track" referring to actually being (working) on a healthy relationship with our body and food. It's a phrase that always used to trigger me and remind me of my worst self-loathing sessions. I love the change of perspective hearing you use it in this context gave me!

Thank you so much for opening up and sharing this, Steph! There were fleeting moments when I noticed your weight loss and started to think that I should be losing weight too while eating intuitively (not your fault at all). But it helps to know the full story behind what we see on social media! I’d love fitness related content, or really anything you feel called to share that feels relevant to you ♥️

I’m curious as to how you differentiate between eating disorders and restrictive fitness mindset? Food guilt, extreme hunger, and restricting food to make yourself smaller seems like Ed and I would say orthorexia is a type of Ed. I personally think it’s helpful to pull away from how you look and focus on how you feel so I would prefer no physique updates. I also think that it would be unfair to force your identity to be just talking about all in and nutrition so if there is other content you want to put out that would be interesting in addition to the current topics.

This is something I see very often with my clients as a ED recovery coach. Rushing to Intuitive Eating (a. k. a. eating less) is common trap. And I agree, its great way to learn and strenghten your recovery. We learn on our mistakes. Take care!

Appreciate your honesty and willingness to be vulnerable. That's not easy. Wishing you all the best Steph.

Girl. I am so happy to hear you talk about this journey. Please continue to just do you and kick anxiety in the butt as much as you can. I am so impressed with your honesty. So grateful for this video. 🙏

As someone who went “all in” with you and still haven’t gotten to a happy weight, I appreciate you SO SO much. I would absolutely love to hear more about eating disorder recovery, but with a focus on facts and science or educational type stuff. What made me fall in love your videos wasn’t the what I eat in a days or cheat days, but the intellectual and educational but still entertaining videos you’ve made. ❤️ Thank you for your work!

We missed your radiant smile and contagious positivity❣️ I’m glad you got a much needed break, and thank you for always bringing real-life relatable struggles to this platform. You got this!

Relating to therapy: Steph, finding the right therapist is hard work but work worth doing. I’m on my third therapist, and I finally feel like I found the right one. Getting here wasn’t easy though, I went to therapy for 3 consistent years before I found the right one, and I gave them more than a few sessions to decide if I should move on to someone else. However, those sessions with the ones that weren’t the right fit were still useful and I learned a lot from it. But no one looks forward to therapy. It gave me unpleasant feelings too but you have to be willing to do tbe work. Don’t go to therapy just to hear what you want to hear, or what is the actual point. You need to accept that dealing through our issues is going to be painful. Growth is painful!! At the end of the day, it’s your choice, but I think you went in with the wrong expectations. Hopefully you take my advice and give it more than a couple months because you, And anyone, but especially someone dealing with the issues you’ve talked about here, would benefit so much from therapy ❤️

I think we've all knew this video was coming. We could see the weight loss and knew something was happening. I appreciate you finally addressing it and being honest about your journey, thank you. This is part of the reason I've come away from social media, I started my all in journey from watching your video and gained a stone but still had hope I'd lose weight because you did and mentioned that can happen in this process but when I saw your weight loss and your last video. I was like what am I doing listening to someone unqualified? Not just you but others on Instagram too. So I've taken matters into my own hands. I forgot I was following you until RU-vid just sent me this notification, so I've unfollowed for my own sake. Also to people reading this, therapy is wonderful and it may take a few goes to find what's right for you. The silent method of therapy and CBT (more homework based) isn't for me either. I've found person centric therapy the best option for me over the years and coaching. So find what's good for you but it can really be a great experience. I'm glad Stephanie found what worked for her too. Good luck everyone. Remember to take people on the internet with a pinch of salt, follow your journey and what's right for you. I've definitely learnt that and coming away from social media has helped greatly with comparison, questioning what I'm doing and copying someone else's journey. We live and we learn. Good luck for the future Stephanie!

People don’t follow you because you’re thin or not. They follow the journey because you’re a beautiful soul and people want to see you- the good and the bad. It’s easy to sit behind a keyboard and judge somebody, but the reality of life is so much more complicated. Share what makes you feel whole ❤️

As a dietitian specializing in eating disorders I can say this is so well covered and you have indeed experienced something in precisely the way my patients do. You are not alone and have done some wonderful work!

I feel so comforted knowing that I’m not the only one who is orthorexic because I used to think it wasn’t as common as an ED, so it wasn’t as severe or needed attention to, when it definitely does!! I appreciate your vulnerability so much 💕💕💕

To some of the comments- rather than trying to see this video as a "gotcha" moment, maybe take this as a way to understand that recovering from eds/disordered eating is far more complex than just gaining weight?

This is WILD that you posted this today!! I have just returned to therapy and dietitian meetings because of a very similar thing happening. I thought I had "recovered" from my ED, and settled at my set point, but then I lost a bunch of weight after a long stint of antibiotics. I prepared myself for regaining the weight after I stopped the antibiotics, but for some reason... I didn't. So I started to convince myself that the lower weight was my actual set point, and I slipped so fast back into restriction and body checking. I've stayed at the lower weight for about a year, but recently I've stared gaining some weight again and it has been causing EXTREME anxiety, shame, and fear. It's wild how a small thing, like having to take antibiotics and losing weight by accident, can show you how much further you have to go in your journey. But at the same time - I'm so proud of myself for recognizing the issue now, and reaching out for help. I know things will get better soon, but it's really hard. I needed this video now, so thank you

I loved hearing your story today after following your experience for years. I have anorexia and I would love to see a video with you and Abbey Sharp talking about intuitive eating, daily requirements, and recovery.

It’s been truly incredible to watch your entire journey. I love how raw and honest you have been; from crying when you gained weight and didn’t feel comfortable in a swimsuit to reveling in eating “fear foods.” I can completely relate. I have been pretty much following a low carb diet my entire adult life which has definitely taken a toll on my energy levels, self-image, mental health and has led to binge eating due to all the restriction. This past year I hiked the Pacific Crest Trail for a myriad of reasons, one being to “heal” my relationship for food. For the first time since I was a high school athlete, I could eat WHATEVER I wanted since I was hiking 20+ miles a day. It was absolutely glorious. Not to mention I was in the best shape of my life and actually liked what I saw when I looked in the mirror. I felt so strong and confident. I ended up getting plantar fasciitis at the tail end of my hike and it took about 2 months before I could walk my dog without being in excruciating pain. I’m still in the healing process but have been able to follow a low impact fitness program. I’ve been trying to re-teach myself how to eat; to read a nutrition label without simply focusing on net carbs, to eat more balanced meals, to give myself permission to indulge in treats. I’ve already gained all of the weight I had lost back and am beating myself up again when I look in the mirror. I’m still fit but the first place I gain weight is in my face and around my waist. I know I’m on the right path but there is still a voice that says you can get faster results if you just cut out carbs. I feel like if I don’t have food rules, it just opens the floodgates. I recently started counting my macros so I have a better idea of what I’m eating but worry that it might lead to obsession again. Anyway, I appreciate you being open because it makes me feel less alone in this exhausting cycle. I just keep reminding myself that rewiring my brain doesn’t happen overnight after a lifetime of disordered thinking and eating. To answer your questions, I enjoy watching what I eat videos for inspo sprinkled in with some training. Broaching some of these topics with experts would be interesting as well instead of being told over and over again just listen to your body and eat intuitively. I don’t think there is anything wrong with showing your physique and that it is impossible to protect everyone from being triggered. Thank you for sharing your struggles and triumphs. We got this.

Honestly we want you to share the content you feel the most comfortable with, love that you are back❤️

It still feels a bit like you're in denial about having an eating disorder. The guilt over eating and gaining weight definitely sounds like disordered eating. Of course you know yourself best and it seems like you're taking the right steps to recover no matter what you label it. Welcome back.

you always give us details and exact information which are super crucial for self recovery like me i could not fine any word to say how appreciate i am to you for showing everything we have to witness. i have been recovering for nearly 2 years i still check my body everyday. i did lose some weight but i want to build a heathy relationship back with exercise yet i felt lazy to kick a start and i am stuck rn . it is indeed the ed voice will never go away but am trying to not living like i used to .

There will always be people that will find the act of loosing or gaining weight political. (Body positive if you are showing yourself at a higher weight or promoting eating disorders at a lower weight). At the end of the day it's your body and your experience. As someone who has struggled with eating disorders before i find it refreshing and validating how open you are. You will be like this is what i look like and this is what i feel like and this is whats healthy/desirable as three different sides of one story. I think we need to all give ourselves more permission to be open about how we feel and then interrogate it, instead of telling ourselves "i need to be body positive" or "i need to be lean" dogmatically. I am learning a lot of how you approach fitness and body composition- thanks for that!

I just had a similar conversation like this with my husband about how I had a stomach ulcer in my late teens that caused me to drop a significant amount of weight. I got comments like, "You look amazing!" and "I wish I looked like that!" and I weirdly allowed it to get in the way of my healing, because I thought it meant that people would stop complimenting me, even if the compliments were back-handed.

I'd like to see you continue your channel without fear of negative comments. Trust in yourself. Your content has always been honest and well intentioned. Your passion is evident and makes you very enjoyable to watch. You're human and humans have struggles, we change, our thoughts change, our bodies change, we learn, we grow. Please continue to make content that feels authentic to you.

Honestly Stephanie I’ve gone through an ED and still enjoy all of your content and do not get triggered by you showing your physique. I resonate with you because of you are genuine and authentic. Would love to see what I eat in days, work out routines, vlogs, day in the life, ED community videos, science stuff. Love it all. Keep being yourself and doing what feels natural to you 🙂.

Re watching your video, after struggling again with restricting. Thanks for the encouragement. Wish I had a support system that encouraged me to eat.

For years now I’ve been subscribing and u subscribing to your channel, and I’ve noticed my pattern has generally been this: I support you when you gain weight, and stop when you lose it. Between your videos triggering people and whether or not I enjoy your content, it’s up to the audience to choose what to consume so you just do you and you’ll attract whoever you’re supposed to.

I was just rewatching all of your old videos. So much love and appreciation for the care you put into your content. Your OGs have nothing but love and support for you ❤️🥰 🤗

I am in ED recovery and constantly terrified of relapse. You have no idea how much videos like this help. I know it’s scary and took a lot of bravery to make this, so just know that you are continuously helping so many people by sharing your experiences. I think you should continue to show your physique. It’s absurd that your weight gain is praised and weight loss condemned - it should not make a difference. Bodies change through various seasons of life. Anyways, thank you, Stephanie, for your bravery and openness. You’ve been an inspiration for me since day 1 ❤️

I legit don’t care about fitness or weight but for some reason love the way you go about it all so I’m drawn to your videos and love watching them.

I lost weight after fixing my diet and actually eating nutritious whole foods and going vegan (went vegan for ethical reasons). this was good weight loss which brought me to a weight I easily maintained for years through different phases of life: being a regular student lifting once in a while, being a varsity athlete, and not being able to work out for months (other than walks or hikes) due to travel. But recently I have been catching myself trying to lose more weight, and I did. the worst part is a guy who I liked who was not interested in me started showing interest after I lost weight. This encouraged my bad habits of restrictive eating again. Just after watching your video, I respected my hunger again and had a banana and a glass of (plant-based) milk, even tho I was about to sleep and was in the habit of sleeping hungry. It was a good day for me because of you :)

Hey Stephanie I have an eating disorder and you have helped me so much! I think the recovery video's you talk about would be really helpfull for a lot of people .

Thank you for making this video. I stopped weighing myself last July, after I started developing disordered eating. I wanted to nip it in the bud before I caused myself to have a full blown eating disorder. Best decision I ever made. I still suffer from food guilt sometimes, but it is way, way less than what it used to be. People need to know that when they are going through these tough mental times and trying to figure themselves out, that they're not alone. They are never alone ♥️

This video was just what I needed to hear today. You have no idea how valuable someone sharing their struggles is and how they go about them. Thank you so much. About the content question: I like content YOU enjoy making ! It’s always the best !

Please keep talking about all in !!!! It's so important to have people like you out there to make us feel not alone :)

You are an amazing human being Stephanie. There is very few people in this platform and generally in life that can be as authentic and true to themselves as you have shown yourself. Of course we can't always be successful in everything we set out to do and that's the beauty of life that help us to grow and learn from our downturns. You keep being you girl 💁‍♀️ we love you just as you are! I absolutely love watching your growth as a person and I can relate to the changes that our minds and bodies go through over time. *Big hug* -Alma

I really appreciate your honesty. It took you a while to get there, but I’m glad you did and good luck to you. Definitely voting for you to move on and do more vlog style videos or ED experts too

i can’t tell you how much i needed this, i’ve been struggling with the exact same thing!! also i just wanted to say that i missed you, i’m so glad you feel like coming back is manageable and also that your sensitivity is so so sweet and you are truly such a wonderful human being. watching your struggle made me cry lol, you are so genuine and have helped so many people (including me) and you deserve all the happiness in the world

Not that my opinion on you matters, but I’m so proud of you for tackling your struggles and acknowledging them. It’s not easy. But so glad you were honest about it

You’re incredible Stephanie, you are bad ass and your true inner beauty radiates on the outside. Being fully transparent is so tough but you’re wise to focus on the long term benefits. Keep doing you- you’re killing it!

Oh my goodness Steph!!! Do you know how AMAZING it is to follow you!! I relate to you so much! It’s so great to hear you talk about eating/weight loss/ gym, falling back into habits, getting out of those habits etc! I relate to you so much and it is so great to hear what I go through from someone else! Also LOVE that you try to be as evidence based and informative as you can be! When you talked about how you felt when discussing this with your friend - is exactly how I feel watching your video! I’m crying !

I relate to everything you said. I definitely feel heightened anxiety when I start restricting. Eating regular meals has done wonders for my mood. I’ll think about anti anxiety meds. In my case, my hormones are also messed up- I’m sure you’ve checked yours but they can really get out of whack with disordered eating

This video made me so sad to watch for you Stephanie. 😔 If being in the public eye so much sets you back that much maybe you should pick a career that is not based on your appearance or where you don't have to constantly share photos of yourself. You started your social media on a fitness journey but you have grown and evolved. Don't risk your health and happiness for social media. I hope you work through all of this and find the happiness you so much deserve. Lots of love 💜💜💜

we need more youtubers to show and remind us that EVERYONE is only human, and it's ok to slip up, it's part of the process.

It's rough. I have a hard time accepting that I have always had a bigger frame and that keeping a certain number on the scale will look different on me than on most petite women around me. And when I happen to succeed in losing weight, I get overly happy, and it's a huge temptation to reach those numbers that other women have, but when I get there, I look in the mirror and I look unrecognizable, ill, tired, and I feel hungry all the time. So I regain the weight but never find the balance that will get me to stop looking at other people's numbers on the scale. Thank you for being honest, it's much more inspirational to see the reality of someone on the journey of health and self-acceptance than someone pretending it's just about this one decision and you're good for the rest of your life. It's better to realize that that is not ever going to happen. You are doing a great job always trying to make it better. Just a suggestion: keep trying therapists. Medication can indeed help faster, but not in the long term.

What I have kept from your channel after many years watching your videos is the endless love & caregiving you have provided for your mother. Being a real human first is what matters. Everything else comes and goes.

Honestly, after your All-In Journey when you were „loosing your appetite“ more and more, I felt it somehow that your were going down that road again of needing to look a certain way. That‘s what I needed to unsubscribed to you, because I need to be putting my mental Health First. Now I am sooo happy and relieve to see you beeing honest to yourself and that gives you the most freedom and happiness there is =) In my journey I Deleted Instagram and unsubscribed to every youtuber, who was „dangerous“ for my mental Health in that category. Stopped working out entirely. I needed to be happy again und free from must be looking a certain way. And After a Long time, I Can finally eat everything again and free my mind of „eating only healthy“. Because that‘s not the right pas, when your mentally getting ill!

You need an eating disorder therapist they are a totally different ball game and will hold you accountable

So proud of you, you inspired me to get recovery.

thank you. Thank you so much. This is what i needed to not fall back right now, i was on the ledge. Searching RU-vid, instagram, podcasts, anything, to tell me i shouldn't and why. This is itmyou are it. Human. Real. Compassionate. Thank you.

It’s great that you’ve found success with your psychiatrist. It’s important to normalize the benefits of using medicine when appropriate. Wishing you success in health, wellness and healing!

Steph! I’ve missed you so much thank you for always being real and transparent. I love all of your content, but I would like to see try on hauls, vlogs and how your weight training. 😃

I’d love to hear more about what sacred rituals or daily practices you employ to keep you in tune w yourself. While I understand All In was a pivotal part of your story, I’d love to learn other parts of you! As for physique updates, it’s not your responsibility to filter yourself so as to not trigger others. In this day and age, people are looking to be upset! So glad you’ve sought out and found the support you need. Continue shining Stephanie!

More plz - I love your honesty. You find the right words for what others might not be able to express

So I might be an anomaly here, but I never followed you because of fitness or ED content. I'm also a milennial/zlennial mixed minority woman in STEM with a disabled parent, and what has been keeping me engaged with your content is that even though we're two very different people...I see a lot of similar struggles and attitudes between you and I. My only advice is for you to follow your authentic interests and feelings, even if it leads you to take another long break or leave social media altogether. I'm here because I like listening to you present on things that are important to you, wherever your interests lead.

I appreciate your vulnerability so much. It takes incredible strength, especially when it comes to social media platforms. Your personality translates so well through camera and I can’t explain how genuine you come across. I just want to give you a big hug and tell you it’s going to be okay. Thank you again, for being so honest. We all have your back here❤️

What I eat in a day, travel/food, fitness, informative videos, experts, check in videos are my fav! I love all of your content and will watch anything ☺️

Honestly, film whatever you want. You are truly a breath of fresh air. I appreciate all of your videos. ❤️ im sorry to hear that you have had a tough 4 months but also happy to see you push through your struggles.

i have an ED and i started ALL-in because of you! and now i am 6months in recovery and your videos still help me so much, because you talk about it so openly and show all sides of it! thank you so much! and i am so proud of you!

I think we all knew something was going on with the weight loss. Thank you for being honest. I hope you can find some peace with your body and let go of the need to look a certain way. xo ❤

This is literally what's happening to me right now this was like a wake up call thank you ❤

Welcome back!! I have been in recovery from Anorexia for over four years and your videos on all in have helped me a lot. Thank you so much for sharing! Amazing work being vulnerable and open about your struggles. And also getting yourself back on track despite set backs. Woohoo! This might be one of your most valuable videos so far because this type of back tracking into old habits/thoughts/beliefs is something most of us will experience at least once, if not many times! For me, I think showing your body is totally up to you. But it's amazing that you are open to feedback and don't want to trigger people. It is their choice to watch or not depending on whether or not the content is likely to contain things that they might find triggering or unhelpful. However as you said, you have reached the amazing audience of people with EDs, some of whom are very vulnerable. And whilst untimately you showing your body however it is at any time is well within your rights, if you would like to continue to stay connected in a really positive and helpful way with this particular group of people, it might be better to choose not to show that stuff so that they don't have to decide not to watch just in case. It's also possible I imagine that in the same way that stopping the weighing of yourself felt liberating, that stopping the body monitoring over videos might also be helpful for you? One, beacuse you're not having to be so vigilant about it all the time and two, because you might not get as many people responding negatively. But anyway, I don't feel bothered by it personally and think it's ultimately totally up to you. Inl love and highly appreciate your videos and wish you all the best! I'd love to see you speak with more eating disorder recovery and body image experts/health care professionals on your channel. I'd also love to see you speak with others who have gone all in about what their experience was like.

the anxiety you're talking about is a huge part of my life too, as i'm sure is the case for so many others. i'd love to see more videos from you about it if you were willing to make them

Missed you Steph, so glad you’re back and in good health. Thanks for just being you. Putting yourself out there is not easy. Sending you nothing but respect and positive vibes.

Thank you for your vulnerability and for sharing your story. Recovery isn't linear as some would have us believe so when people are honest and share their journey, like you have, I think it helps those of us who have also had setbacks and feel like we failed, feel less alone. If you feel good and comfortable showing your body, I think you should keep doing it. It's something that you've always done so I feel like if people come to watch your videos, they know that you will be sharing images/pictures of yourself in the different stages. I guess for the comments about it being triggering, maybe just put a disclaimer at the beginning of your video that you will be sharing images of your body which may be triggering for people suffering form eating disorders.idk. Keep doing what feels right and authentic to you!

I really hope no one comes across and picks apart your video. I appreciate you and all that you do and share with your journey. Love your guides, they helped me become stronger and healthier.

Oh Gosh Stephanie, please don't stop hsaring about all in! I'm going through a very similar experience myself and your the one person on youtube I can relate to! I love your all in videos...so unique and authentic. I'd love to hear more about all in, your philosophy , psychology etc. I find physique photos helpful (once posed naturally).Thanks again for everything, you don't know how much you help some people xxx

Social media is most of the time a highlight reel, we don’t really see the struggles people are going through. Thank you for sharing with us

She rationalizes her problem in every way instead of just calling it what it is.

Anorexia nerviosa is such a complex illness I would love to watch you cover!!!

So appreciate of your genuine honesty and openness about your journey. As a years long subscriber, I remember first noticing your physique transforming in such a way to a point of concern right before you began your All In path. And as you say you began to restrict again after, I wondered if it was your body balancing itself during that time. Knowing your truth now, again, the honesty is truly appreciated bc vulnerability takes immense strength. So thank you for that. 💜 Also, it’s beyond sweet that you’re reaching out to inquire about what your subscribers may or may not wish to view. I’d say do any and everything you wish until your find what ignites your inner light.

Do what makes you happy. The people who resonate with your messages will follow and the ones who don’t will move on. Happy Steph always! ❤️

I literally love everything that you post & would love to see more daily vlogs, and thank you for sharing your journeys. It’s eye opening and it connects so many people, including myself.